starting a 90lb weightloss journey // my struggle with weight throughout the years // vlog
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- Опубліковано 4 чер 2024
- hello everyone welcome to my first video of the transition on this channel back to including all my interests (and not just twitch tutorials) 😳
trigger warning at the 3 minute mark for very light reference to eating disorders!
this video covers my struggles with weight throughout my life, touching on how my weight has yo-yo'd since i was a teenager, when i lost almost 100 lbs around 2010, how i gained it all back; and what my plans are to lose it again and get back into a healthy lifestyle. this includes trying to get where i can drink a gallon of water a day, incorporating intermittent fasting into my lifestyle, reducing carbs, cutting sugars/soda/fast food, and walking a mile a day (to start with).
0:00 - what this channel will be about
2:07 - my weight history
5:21 - vlogging while walking, feeling fed up
6:40 - talking health/heart/breathing
10:04 - my goals / plans
13:40 - vlog / chatchat while walking
14:51 - checking in after hitting weekly goals
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I'm nervous about transitioning my content over here 😭 especially starting with such a vulnerable topic... I hope yall enjoy 🥺💜
I dropped from 185 to 155 and was so proud in 2017... And both through laziness ), an addictive personality which latched onto less healthy hobbies, stress from life, covid Stress, and (luckily) finding a patter who loves and supports me for my personality and soul rather than my looks (which is beautiful but a bit of a double edged sword), I gained it all back. It's painful mentally, and it's harder now but pushing through is the right line of play. I know this is an old upload, but your not the only one in fear of this struggle. You can really see the fear of not wanting a situation like your dad's in this and I don't blame you dude. You can do this. It's hard and your juggling a lot but you're going to do good if you just put in the work. It's hard. Sometimes more than it feels worth it ... But you can push through. I know this is an old upload but I hope you have found a balance since then and are happier.
Thank you so much 😭 I relate entirely... laziness and addictive tendencies make this so hard for me. And I also have a partner who is super supportive no matter what, but that did let me get a lil too comfortable.. so now I'm trying to motivate myself out of this.
Thank you for the kind words 💜💜
I'll support you, I like your personality so at this point it really doesn't matter what you post. Congratulations on your journey, I'm on a weight loss journey as well and I'm down 80lbs! Keep up the great content
Not even halfway through and I'm getting the feels. I've gained so much weight it the last year that the nurse at my doctor's office commented 😭 but then I just stress eat if I feel shame or self-hatred
Yess the stress eating is coming in strong for me too to deal with the shame 🥺 sending you lots of love Julia! 💜
I just found your channel about a week ago through your how to start on twitch video, BUT I absolutely love your personality and have silently tuned into your twitch streams, live Q&A on UA-cam, and now your weight loss journey as well! I am currently struggling with transitioning my content.. but the truth is that my favorite creators are the ones that share their whole selves. Yes I love following those who share JUST informational videos but if I never connect with the person, it’s just like reading a non-fiction book. I like seeing all these sides of you as it helps me to connect with you and trust your advice with your informative content even more!! As you always say, people may not enjoy everything and that’s okay! Some of us (like me🙃) will love every bit of it! Thank you for sharing this vulnerable journey with us💜 okay my rant is over LOL
I agree with you! My favorite creators are a full spectrum and not just a niche!
Thank you so much for the kind words 😭💜
I appreciate that you are comfortable with talking about this kind of stuff, you are inspiring and this helps me a lot.
I love your twitch videos, love this and will adore any content you make in the future
Thank you Rose! 🥺💜 I'm so glad I can help inspire you... this makes me feel a lot safer sharing this kinda content bc I know as nervous or scared as it makes me feel, it might be able to help someone, so thank you 💜
I really resonated with the sentiment of being tired of being overweight. I've struggled with being overweight for several years and had a baby a year ago. Watching this has helped me to feel motivated again and just make reasonable small changes to my habits.
That's exactly where I've been starting, just altering the small habits where i can and working up to bigger lifestyle changes! Sending you lots of love 💜
I have the same issue. In my case I kept myself fat to hide my female body. Now I am a transwoman, and losing weight is terribly difficult. Wish you strength.
Sending you lots of love on your journey! 💜
Thanks for sharing. If you are on hormones, I can imagine it would be difficult to manage your weight loss. Have you spoken to a doctor about possible solutions?
@@buddahflyvangogh4160 yeah, everything starts with getting out of the house, and exercising. However, I am risk group One of COVID-19, and Brazil is terrible right now for this, so she forbade me from living the house till the situation improves. it's a pickle, really. But I started getting lots of weight since March 2020, my first lockdown day.
I'm so glad and excited that you've decided to amalgamate some content - I seriously missed a boat/some crucial information and didn't realise there was more of your content (and personality and vulnerability)! Thank you for sharing your journey, this is extremely relatable lol
We're rooting for you shady! 💚💜
thank you memella!! ;-; it feels better to feel comfortable uploading everything in one spot! i think a lot of it was kind of based around fear and trying to keep the more vulnerable stuff tucked away into safe corners... but im READY to be open lmaoo new y ear new me 😤😤
Hey there! I've been watching a lot of your videos lately (but haven't caught you on twitch yet) and I've been LOVING your content. The transition to such vulnerable content is really admirable and I just wanted to say that I really appreciated this video and will be following your journey. I'm on a similar journey too! Starting small....I've been committed to walking every day for almost 10 days now, eating differently and generally just sitting with the 'feelings' and conditioning that comes from years of eating food that really wasn't nourishing for my soul. Thank you for the inspiration! I am sending so much love and blessings your way, You got this!
I love Toasty just living her best life in your arms!
Shes such a lush 😂😂 thank you mars 🥺💜
I am so proud of you for being brave enough to share this with your community. I just started my journey 3 days ago and this is so up building to have you share. Thank you.
I have only recently found your videos about streaming on Twitch and I have been feeling so motivated to get myself going on there but I can honestly so the realness of this video was truly wonderful. Thank you so much for being so completely real. I hope to see more of this journey for you and am getting ready to start my own journey.
I LOOOVE CONTENT LIKE THIS!💕 thank you for being so open💜
thank you so much Rogue ;-;
you are such an inspiration on so many levels, wish you luck on your journey!!! working out is such a struggle and has been a huge of mine for years, constantly working out on and off, so many ups and downs, cant wait to see your journey unfold!!!
thank you so much richard!!
This video is so relatable on so many levels, I hope you do more in the future! 💕 I just found your channel recently & your Twitch tutorials have been a God send lolol hope you're doing well! 💜
I've turned to stress-eating and comfort food so bad during the pandemic and I've tried to get back to a regular diet and workout routine but it's been tough. I wish you all the strength and power to reach your weight goals.
the pandemic made it so much harder to turn away from the comfort / stress eating; and even harder to get out in the world to try to be more physically active. thank you so much Raf!
I've been watching your channel for about 3 months now, mostly for tips about twitch, but as someone who struggles with body image and health yself I found this very genuine and encouraging to see your sincere vulnerability. I'll think of this next time I'm talking myself out of a workout.
Ahh thank you so much for the kind words 🥺💜
I'm glad you posted this here bc not many people feel comfortable sharing journeys like this (understandably so) and this video spoke to me sooo much 😭 I've not seen much of your content yet but you seem like such a sweet and genuine person. This was mad inspiring, thank you. ♥️
Thank you so much, Alex! It took a lot for me to jump over my fear of showing myself like this; but I feel a lot more like... in control or powerful now that I've just put it out there. Appreciate your kindness
This video is extremely encouraging. I've also had similar struggles. Big all my life, want to lose weight. Its nice to know that there is someone that relates. I will look forward to future updates!
So proud of you sharing your journey!! I kind of hesitated sharing this here, but can relate to your story in the sense that my father had health issues that causes anxiety in me. And that it adds another layer to the problem because it amplifies the anxiety which also aggravates the symptoms. I try to use coping mechanisms that at least give recognition or the acknowledgment to that aspect of the problem. My hope is that at least on some level it will help separate that from the actual physical issue. Which I know what I am feeling is very real and deserves to be validated despite what tests or doctors say. I hope that made sense, and again thanks for sharing your story!!
Thank you for posting this video! I can completely relate and you're amazing for showing this level of vulnerability to help not only yourself but other people
Thank you so much Bunni 😭💜
You are beautiful!!!! I am so proud of you and your journey. Believe in yourself, you got this.
I feel your struggle! I think that you posting your progress really does help motivate me to start and keep going on with my fitness journey. Best of luck to you and I can’t wait till your next video! 🖤
Thank you so much! Sending you lots of love 💜
You're doing great! I had the same issue worrying about my heart rate and having a ton of anxiety -- your 163 heart rate isn't all that bad and even the 100 (heart rate) as you were driving to the place to walk isn't bad. Anxiety/being scared does cause your heart rate to increase, and that will get better. The fact that you have gone to a cardiologist is great! You got this!
Thank you! Yeah my anxiety has NOT been my friend in this process 😂 but i finally got on a medication for it and it's made a HUGE difference in everything.
Love it! You go girl.
I love your channel so much. I found you while researching tips for streaming and they have been so insightful! I also love that you're a witchy woman as well. Also I am going through the same weight loss struggles after years of yoyoing and gaining back a significant amount that I lost. So, it might not be much consolation, but you're not alone and the smallest changes you make can be the best ones.
aw, thanks so much!! 🥺 still working on changes to this day; definitely rough out here hehehehe
Girl. Sending you so much love and hoping you get nothing but support online. I’m in eating disorder recovery and I know there’s one part that’s health and body, and another that is your perception of yourself. It’s tough and I really hope you go slow on this journey. I know it’s hard, but I feel like you’re already prepared to go slow and steady and I hope you go through this weight loss steadily and sustainably, so not to trigger any of your previous patterns that you have trouble with. Happy to talk if you want or need someone to be supportive of you or hold you accountable! I know it’s really hard to be motivated without being restrictive at the same time. All the best xo
Thank you so much 🥺💜
You're definitely right, the self perception is the worst part because even at that "thinnest" weight I still struggled with body image and dysmorphia. Wish I could just turn that annoying part of my brain off 🥴
Love your channel! I can relate to how you feel I need to lose about 90 to 100lbs and that’s hard. But you have inspired me to get active again. Hope to see a new update to your weight loss journey
I very much relate to your experiences and it's inspiring to see you talk openly about the difficulty of trying to get back into a healthy routine. Sending good vibes!
thank you so much, Rebekka ;-;
First of all, wishing you all the best on your journey, I relate so much to everything you've said - I was an overweight teen, got really into fitness around 19, kept it up for a couple of years but ultimately binge eating got the better of me. I still got the pictures from when I was trying to get under 10% bf - can't look at them, can't bring myself to delete them. Currently I'm trying the 'something is better than nothing' approach and exercise even if it's for 10 minutes. Anyway, I hope you continue making progress and hopefully enjoy the benefits sooner rather than later! Losing weight sucks, like, physically it feels terrible, but that feeling is not permanent.
"Can't look at them, can't bring myself to delete them" is literally me 😩 I'm really doing my best to make small changes daily 🥺💜
I love your vulnerability! I have been debating sharing my health/weight story on here and this is so inspiring.
I'm glad it's inspiring! I've been so nervous about it, but I also feel freer now that it's posted. And more in line with myself as well. More in control, even? It's a good feeling 😊💜
I'm honestly really appreciative of your courage to share this content because im on the same journey and this just helped give me that boost for accountability
Thank you so much 🥺 I wanna make a follow up to this soon!
Hey Lady, I wanted to start off by saying I really appreciate your vulnerability that you showed in this video. I personally have always had a hard time opening up about my body issues, out of a fear of judgment from those skinner than me. I’ve struggled a lot with my body image, weight, and eating disorders as well. It took a lot out of me during those times, and I’m still struggling to rid myself of those habits. I think we all know what it’s like to be our own worst critic, but you should be kinder to yourself during this journey. It’s a hard journey/lifestyle change and it’s ok to fluctuate. You’re not pathetic at all for doing everything at your own pace, hell I still get winded walking up the stairs for my classes haha. I’m supporting you in your journey, and of course I am here for you doing whatever content/shit makes you happy. Sending love, light, and a blunt >:3.
Thank you so much Veggie
To help with soda cravings, I started dinking carbonated flavored water cans instead, you still get the sensation as if you are "drinking a soda" but it's way healthier and helps you drink more water sometimes without realizing it. I like LaCroix, Aha, Waterloo, Propel which has electrolytes, and I normally go for cheapest sometimes and try out new ones, it's kind of fun when I've always been terrible about drinking water. Once I did cut out sodas I lost some good weight that I'm glad is gone. I also yo-yo and stress eat which is what makes my weight come back. I am starting to exercise again today since I've gained back all my weight I've lost too which is terrible. I struggle with asthma and when I do lose weight breathing always gets better for me and I need my inhaler less, it certainly is not fun at the beginning though so I understand you exactly.
Really looking forward to more vlog content! Also sending you all the good energy toward your journey 💕✨
Appreciate you so much Shiny 🥺💜
I feel you. I am also losing weight, I was about 12 kilos overweight and I could'nt exercise because multiple injuries. Not being able to walk was a bummer, I resonate with you, I thought I could'nt walk for a long time (I still cant') but at least I am improving and I can do little workouts now because I searched for help (personal training for my injuries) and focusing on my diet more than the exercise. I have lost 7 kilos so far, I'm still kind halfway close to what I want to achieve but what matters is I AM DOING SOMETHING ABOUT IT! And you are too my dear!! I know you will achieve the goal you want, we just have to keep trying!
Good luck and I'll be here supporting you with any videos you wanna make bc you are an incredible person
Thank you so much 😭😭💜 yeah health issues preventing you from exercusing when you want to exercise is the worst 🥺
We are the same height and weight and I feel thisssss. But, walking even if it's not fast or long , is still walking and your body will adjust accordingly.:) I totally understand freaking out about how your body is reacting too. If I walk for too long or fast and it's been a while, I get SUPER itchy everywhere my skin is rubbing. As far as your hands being tight, it could be you're not hydrated enough or had really salty meals without enough water to balance it out. You got this!! Keep up on moving
You can do it! I’m trying to start my own journey now as well. I want to enjoy my twenties and love myself truly, I have to build better habits as well. I’ll definitely be watching your series on this!
Sending you all the support on your journey! Um wanting my 30s to my best years yet, and gaining control over my health is gonna be a huge part of that for me!
@@HeyShadyLady you can do it! I’ll be right here with you! Hopefully your videos can also keep me accountable 😂
I totally understand the struggles. I have been overweight my whole life. Couple that now with having a baby at the start of a world wide pandemic and the anxiety and depression that deals with .
I love how you said you're going to start out slow.. its something I need to do. I hope I can lose 20 by the end of the year. Good luck. All the best.
Sending you all the luck and love as well!! 🥺💜 the baby steps make all the difference and actually lead into bigger lifestyle changes before you even realize it! 🧡
you lost 1+ pounds a month! thats not pathetic! thats amazing and im proud of you (: keep it up!
i just followed but i enjoy this other side of you. excited for YOU and not just your content. 💕
🥺🥺🥺🥺 THANK YOU 😭💜
I always love the honesty behind your content. I've been a big fan of your stream advice videos for a while as you always seem to catch some important points I think that many other similar videos miss.
Listening to your story, I heard a lot of things that I've felt myself through my weight-loss and fitness journey. Don't get discouraged, you seem like you are on the right track. Making small, sustainable changes is the best way to build good habits. For myself, losing weight in a healthy manner would see me losing weight in spurts, not a straight line. As I adjusted to new, healthy habits, my body would catch up and make changes seemingly overnight. The other thing I've learned as I've gotten myself in a better position is to never underestimate the physical effects that mental and emotional stress can have. I can often feel physical symptoms of stress before I clue in to the fact that something is bothering me.
Sorry this turned into an essay, but keep up the good work. I really appreciate the content you put up 😊
yess I absolutely think stress is a huge factor in this as well for me, so part of my process is not only the discipline in transitioning to a healthier lifestyle in general, but learning to manage and release stress in a healthier way too.
Thank you so much for sharing! 🥺
You got this and honestly just keep being you and doing what you are doing. Keep positive we are here for you. Ox
Thank you Nora! 💜🥺
Hello, we most likely don't remember but we've spoken a couple of times before.
First off, I loved this style of video, and I'm definitely eager to find out more with your fitness journey whenever you do the next update. The video was really well edited as well.
Next, you mentioned that it was pathetic because your only walking, but, I want to remind you that it's far from pathetic, and any form of workout, is working out. I know the feeling of watching other UA-cam channels, and sometimes it appears to use that it looks easy for them, but, a little like streaming and content creation, each others fitness journeys is different, very much like out fitness journeys, so, i'm also reminding you not to compare your journey with anyone else's. You're journey is completely different, with other things going on as well. Those other may not have had the same issues. Plus, we don't care about their journey, only yours :p
Its understandable that you'll be paranoid about your heart rate, regardless if you say "its only walking". Your father had a heart attack, and you mentioned when they put him on a treadmill he had a heart attack, so, I can definitely imagine seeing your heart rate go up, might be scary, but, don't let this stop you, take your time, and I know you're going to hit your fitness goal. You're a strong woman, and you don't give up easy.
I completely agree with the fit bit, It's a great tool for you to be able to track sleeping, periods, and heart rate, but I will say, specifically, try not to over obsess over your heart rate a little when you're walking, I completely understand why you would obsess and fixate on it though, given your trauma with your father.
Anyway, I find it strange to say I enjoyed the video, but I did, and I'm walking away from this video with somewhat of a feeling of motivation to get my ass into gear as well. Keep at it, I hope to hear from you and your fitness journey again soon.
Have a great day, and don't forget to be kind to yourself!
I really appreciate such a thoughtful comment, thank you 😭 you're absolutely right,the trauma around my dad has made it very hard for me to trust my own heart... im slowly getting better every day at relaxing the anxiety tho ... just gotta keep pushing forward 🥺💜
Thanks so much for the kindness and encouragement 💜
@@HeyShadyLady No problem.
Thank you for sharing such a personal topic with us.
I hope today you can find it in you to strive and have another day, with your goals met.
You're amazing. Keep going. We don't give up here 💪👍
Sending you ALL the support and cheering you on. I was 310lbs at my heaviest and 150 at my lowest. At 160lbs I got pregnant (after a long struggle) and got up to 200lbs which really messed with my head and self esteem...yay for body bullcrap. I'm now 180ish and I'm losing steadily. I finally got my PCOS looked at etc on meds.
I definitely understand about binge eating and the like because I have been there too.
I guess what I want to say is that you're not alone with this. Your happiness matters 💓
appreciate you so much, friend
I got misty eyed in a fair few places here. Im around your age and 5"4' at 280 pounds and finally got fed up about 2 weeks ago and Im trying to stop making the excuse that having PCOS makes it "impossible" to lose weight. It's not impossible it's just hard. It's hard and it's an emotional battle but we can do it. And Im not saying that in a peppy "yay we can do it" but in an adult, straightforward, gritty, we can do it ShadyLady. Thanks for sharing.
IT'S AN EMOTIONAL BATTLE! that 1000000% it's so much more than just exercising. It's a whole internal battle that's going on. You're right! We got this
I'm TOTALLY here for our weight loss journey content!! I'm also trying to get more active...my goal is not necessarily to lose a lot of weight, but to feel good. I need to lose about 20-30 lb to NOT be overweight anymore, but I'm hoping that that will happen on it's own as long as I stay consistent with eating better/exercising. If I haven't worked out in a while, I always start of SUPER slow and work my way up because if I don't, I quit. We can do this, Shady!!
I agree with you! I have to take it slow, or I'll rage quit after a week or two lmao
Thank you for the encouragement! Sending you all the love 🥺 we got this!
Oh Shady! I found you a few days ago and I LOVE your videos and your tutorials are amazing! You make me smile so much! Just in relation to the heart rate and out of breath thing… I’m sure someone must have said this to you but have you looked into POTS? I have it and this is it. You stand up and your heart rate jumps like mad and any exercise causes your heart rate to become extreme, breathlessness, dizziness and fainting is normal. It’s nothing to do with your heart but it is a pain in the ass. I really hope you are in a better place now as this was 11 months ago xx
I've put myself on a similiar journey. Between my depression and my editing videos on a daily basis that has me sitting for hours at a time and then when covid started my job swapped from a physical job to a sit down job so i noticed the weight gain . Ive always been pretty slim so when i woke up one day and didn't fit my favorite jeans , i was disgusted with myself and started a weight loss journey. Good luck on your weight loss goals and if u ever need a workout friend to help keep u motivated let me know :)
It's the worst that it just creeps up on you and you're like... omg how did I let this get so carried away 😭💜 thank you for the words of encouragement! Sending you the same 😊🧡
I've watched the videos from your other channels, but it's great that you're bringing them together to one place - you're an amazing individual, and you're brave.
thank you for showing us you're a human, and one with a beautiful heart!
just fyi in case the weight stuff comes up again, BIG BRAINS need fuel! you're a 200 IQ master and you're gorgeous at any size!
LMAO i appreciate you so much mary, thank you!! yeah it was mentally exhausting trying to maintain all the other channels, and then also feeling conflicted about what "belonged" where -- it'll be so much easier for me to just keep it all together ... thank you for the support and kindness
If you're really dedicated and have incredible willpower, you should try keto. Cut out all the sugar, anything made from flours, etc. I've lost 100lbs from keto a few years ago and kept it all off to this day! The key is making it a permanent lifestyle change, not just during the weight loss process.
The high fat diet, without all the carbs/sugar, is the key. It sounds TOTALLY backwards, but it works. The macros that worked for me were: 65-70% calories from fat, ~5% (or 30grams) from carbs and the rest from protein.
Before I started the journey, I had all my vitals/bloodwork done to dispel the fear of eating tons of bacon, eggs, heavy cream, cheese, etc (basically all the things people say are bad). My heart/BP is perfect now, my doctor was astonished, he said "whatever your doing, just keep doing it". I didn't tell him the amount of fat/saturated fat I was eating until after the process. But due to how in shape(I got a six pack again) I was and my bloodwork, I don't think he believed me. 😅
Much love 💗 and GL in your journey!
Hey Shady 🙂 discovered you about a week or 2 ago as needed more inspiration, hints and tips to become a better twitch streamer. Really happy I came across you and watching this video is definitely more inspiration as weight lose is such a difficult thing to maintain as mental health doesn't help at all with the many encounters in everyday life lol. It's great to be able to follow a female content creator also as all I ever follow is people like markiplier, CGP's, Jacksepticeye, Jake Munro etc so thank you and I look forward to more of your weight loss journey and such! 😁💜🖤
Aw thank you so much, it's awesome to have you here 😭🧡
Like you said cutting out fast food and soda are the most important right now and keep taking walks. I'm not a cardiologist, but your peak heart rate will hopefully go down as your heart gets stronger and can deliver oxygenated blood more efficiently.
The way you described your high heart rate reminds me of what my wife says when she goes out for a jog. Her heart rate is about the same as yours when she exercises.
Well done you for sharing! I think I can relate to a lot of this. I put on weight so easily it's depressing. After "letting myself go" in April I've managed to put on over 10kgs. I used to love the way I looked and now I can't stand it. This week has been my first week back into it. I struggle the most with accountability too! But joining like some groups helps. I don't restrict the types of foods but I track my calories each day to make sure I'm burning more than I am consuming. If I restrict, I'll end up binging and then hating myself. So instead I'll track a pizza and make sure I'm working around my calories so I'm still on track!
Yeah restricting is a recipe for disaster for me 😭 I think my best bet is transitioning myself into a generally more active lifestyle, while trying to reduce and replace the junk food. Gonna take baby steps and be patient with myself.
Thank you for sharing your experience 🥺💜
Love your chill place! I also want to do more workouts I'm just too lazy XD but together we're stronger!💪🏾
HeyShadyLady I just subscribed to your channel! ❤️ I can totally relate with your fears during your walks. I too have anxiety after a health diagnosis from this past June. I know that you believe your Fitbit is helpful and they are to an extent. In my experience it increased my anxiety so much that I had to stop wearing it. Maybe try a day or two without it to see if you remain calm during your walks.
talking and walking is the same as running, love
omg 😳 im in luck then bc I never know how to shut up 😂
This was a great video and I hope you achieve your goal but In my eyes your beautiful just the way you are. Please take care of yourself and don't over do it, slow and steady wins the race. I'm routing for you!
Hey Lady - getting into streaming myself, and watched a few of your vids that have been helpful. Thanks so much, darlin.
The "you" with the hula hoop is the epitome of a beautiful woman with curves/hourglass to me. The thing is, it doesn't matter what I or anyone else thinks, but your thoughts "matter" dramatically.
To preface what I'm about to write, it may sound like crazy/wu to you, and others. But, being that it seems you're into witchcraft after bouncing around the channel, my assumption is you have a very open mind, and a realization to the power of said mind, and the sigils we're surrounded with in life.
My intent here is to "pay my learnings forward", and help ya, and anyone else who sees this that are willing to read and consider. What I write is nothing new, by any means, yet is often not considered, quickly dismissed as "yeah, right - what a nutter", or forgotten when the "need" is greatest to remember. This may sound a bit like "The Secret", which it definitely has correlation with, or other self help "guru's" - they all have valuable nuggets to extract. This is mentalism, and the power of your beliefs, which are substantial beyond many beliefs. See placebo effects, nocebo (the "bad" stuff) effects, as well as studies on the power of prayer (belief work essentially). I'm not one to trust any alleged science, unless it's one that makes my/our world/lives a place I think we'd all like more, but a lil research into these topics I think will make more of a believer out of anyone - highly worth the look for those that are skeptical - a skeptical mind is a good thing, as long as it's not dismissive via ignorance or arrogance.
On with my typing of this novel haha.
If you think you're eating like a fatty (supposed "bad" foods), you're body will take that food on as you wish, quite literally. Think positively, and be thankful for that delicious and highly nutritious Big Mac and fries, things start looking to be the polar opposite. If you're eating to the point of feeling overfull, and don't have the mental "game" to transmute that into a positive, expect what you're expecting to "be".
In short, your mental/thoughts will lead your limitlessly intelligent and very obedient/compliant body to where you "wish". The "bad" news is, your wish received may not be aligned with what you truly seek. This can stem from a subconscious level as well, as that is where the true power of this resides. Good news, though, you can fake it til you make it, and use a few tools in the way of sigils, through thought/belief reinforcement.
It sounds like you've already discovered intermittent fasting, which I can't recommend highly enough. Why does this work? The truth is, nobody truly knows a damn thing in this subjective (we only have theories to our actual creation upon this, to me, illusory subjective dream plane) world, but many may claim to know things objectively, including this dude here to an extent with this topic. To me, aside from the potential caloric deficit, intermittent fasting is "telling" the body you'd like to/expect to lose/not gain weight. This comes via the mind recognizing it's not overfull, and potentially even hungry - most if not all of these sensations of hunger are programmed into us, by us, and our current routines/rituals/setting/etc. Begin to eat on a different schedule/amount regularly, your body will soon acclimate, and accept that as normal. Begin to not feel overstuffed, expect and therefore believe to maintain and or lose weight. A sigil, not quite like those carved of material, but one etched upon the psyche - something to believe in.
The same goes for exercise, all sigils. Although I highly recommend squats to all women and men looking to get in better shape. Why? Because you feel it, and for days. Anything will work, though, but the key is belief that it will. I've helped several women and men get their body into the shape they want - no, I'm not a professional trainer, or looking to profit as a prophet from this help. I enjoy seeing people put their own magic to use, rubbing the proverbial lamp, and instead of getting a turd they'd not consciously "wished" for, getting their hearts true desire.
After being into fitness/lifting quite heavily myself, I tested this out to discover why what I did worked, while others had less success. People may be quick to pull a "heredity" card here, but I tell you that most of my family are on the shorter side of things, while I'm taller than average. Most are on the heavy side of things, while I'm fit. Why is this? Belief and a vision of who I am. Ok, ok, maybe my mom could have had "extracurricular" activities on the side as well - I jest kinda, as ya never know haha. Back to the story: I stopped lifting and maintaining nutrition to test this - stopped intermittent fasting, ate like a beast, including the "bad" foods, even became pretty sedentary for a few years. Now, at the start of this, it was more due to a dislocated shoulder with spinal nerve damage (80% strength loss on my right side and a nice bit of literal pains in the neck) - healing time estimated by those good ole doctors of dismay at 7 years, if ever, especially without their cutting and dissecting. I healed it myself within 4 months, because I knew I could and would, but noticed during this time my physique didn't change much at all. I extended this out to 5 years, while for the most part maintaining a belief that I'd maintain, although I did have lapses, as those old programs die hard if we allow. Was I in the same exact shape as before? No, but pretty close, and with just a fraction of what I'd done before, I'm back beyond what I once was even. 1-2 days per week lifting for fun, no monitoring of calories, and a kinda sorta intermittent fasting, mostly because it feels good to let my stomach have a breather. The next "test" will be doing this with no routine or diet - although test is not an optimal word here, as it opens the potential for outcomes other than our chosen. Now we can see why it's called spelling - craft your spells consciously.
See and imagine what and who you are - see this as now. Walk in those shoes you imagined as they are now. Believe it to be, and it is.
I've gone very long winded and novel length, and could write more. I do hope and think this resonates and is helpful.
If you'd like to talk more, I'm here to help in any way I can, and would love to hear your success - just lemme know, and we can talk here, or I can drop you my contact info.
I know you've got this and anything else you decide you want - have the same faith as I do in you, and you're golden. Cast aside any thoughts and beliefs that don't fit. Listen not to the naysayers, the prognosis that aren't beneficial, or anything else that tells you other than what you know you are.
Much love, thanks for the vids - I might drop a few questions in the next few days as I'm getting everything setup for streaming. I think it's gonna be a lot of fun.
It's definitely not pathetic to start small--I've been wanting to get more in shape since I've also become super sedentary and despite how I may appear, I am very out of shape! But here's the thing, I can barely do one set of curls with 5 lb dumbbells! Ya know what tho, at least we're starting! I'm not gonna be able to do 3 sets of curls with 200 lb dumbbells like my bf who's been maintaining a fitness regimen since college, but at least I can do more than what I did yesterday.
Don't be hard on yourself ~ This doesn't look the same for any two people.
Lully, thank you so much ;-; It was hard for me to listen to this while I was reviewing / re-editing to upload it. I was like omg stop calling yourself pathetic! It definitely shows a lot about my mindset tho, and I still have some self deprecating talk that I do that I need to work on removing... thank you so much for the kindness - and you're right! I gotta start where I can start.
@@HeyShadyLady Of course, shady ~ You're always giving out the kind, encouraging words and advice--you need that same kindness and encouragement in return sometimes, ya know?
I find the best thing to do is to track our OWN progress instead of tracking our progress against someone else. As long as you're doing better today than you were yesterday, even if it's only a little bit, it's still progress.
I have a good 50 pounds of fat to lose on my 5'2 frame. I hear you.. it's hard!! Can't wait to see what's next. 🙌
this is awesome :)
I love this video! Thank you for keeping and transitioning it, it would be a shame to have lost it.
I'm struggling with getting into a habit of exercising regularly. I would absolutely love to be your workout or accountability-buddy, having someone to exercise with (even if it's "just" walking) spikes my motivation so so much! I know you have a discord, do you have like a workout-motivation channel there? I would definitely join
Yes! There's a health and fitness section in my offbeats community! 😊
www.discord.gg/offbeats
Hello! :)
I really appreciate that you show us your vulnerable side and i wish you nothing but the best throughout this journey!
If you accept some suggestion from me i would like to give you some to able to maintain this lifestyle that you started.
I share my own experience and i hope it helps :)
So when i started to train again after 6 years of doing nothing ( i played volleybal competition level for 5-6 years) i had a breakdown right at the start because i thought that im in a good shape and everything gonna be easy...and hell no it was a torture it was fucking hard. I couldnt even walk without being out of my breath all the time and i had dizzyness after it....
So at the first place i had to accept that im on this level and i have to work with it.
I would like to say some things which helped me mentally a lot to get through these hard emotions and keep going - and you can apply it for anything exercise related -:
Don't over do it. The goal is to do something everyday even if it is yoga or a long walk just do something which feels just the right amount and appreciate your own effort. Feel good about it and cheer for yourself :)
Small steps only and the only thing which is matters is consistency.
Never ever beat up yourself if you didnt do "enough" couldnt do all the workout because you tired or dizzy or something. Take your time be patient and beleive it when im saying that it is gonna be easier every time. At some point you are gonna realize this and its going to feel amazing.
I wanted to run 5km and i had to start with walking :D ( like i couldnt walk 1km without dying meanwhile....)
And before i go into it more i have to mention how important is your breathing method!
Breath in through your nose and out of your mouth. If you a mouth breeder you have to change this bad habit first because it is not healthy at all. It keeps your heart rate at a higher level constantly and you can catch a cold easier because if you breath in through your nose you 1., clean the air with the nose hair 2., making the air warmer when it arrives in your lungs 3., and the bacteria goes down to your stomach acid which is killing them all. (Read about James Nestor - Breath - New York Times bestseller and you are going to understand from where this knowledge comes :) )
I don't know what is your exercise goal in long term like running, or weight related stuff or any other but one thing you should know!
- Walking can burn more fat in long term then a short running so if you decide to stay with walking then it is excellent!
- You can burn the most fat in a short time with weight related exercise - but first you should bare your own weight before doing any of it and ask for a professionals help before doing anything like that!
- If you choose running start with 1km or less and make it more with the 10% rule (google it)
Learn about HIIT, Aerob and Weight lifting exercises because they are connected. If you run you exercise your aerob cardiovascular zone it means your heart your bloodpressure and it helps you bare more running, jumping, related thing. So you are gonna be tired way more later after a workout because you trained them so well.
After every workout do stretch and have a warm shower to help your muscles relax and in a long term you can avoid any kind of muscle injury. 90% of the muscle injuries caused by hard unrelaxed muscles and overexercising and not having a break.
If you do any kind of exercise (besides yoga) you should put at least 1 rest day after every 2-3 days of exercising.
Drink enough water! I made an alarm for myself not to forget it :) Calculate the amount that your body needs. You can find this calculator on the google too.
If you eat, eat slow and from a smaller plate and eat at least 3 times a day. ( I can't eat 5 times because my stomach can't bear it but somebody would die in hunger with this amount :D so it depends on you). You are teaching your body to do fast metabolism with it and it helps in digesting.
Always eat varied food. It looks more appealing to your brain if you see more colors andyour stomach gonna be full faster.
Eat your veggies and musli because all the fibers helps in digesting and keeping your bloodsugar level at a healthy level.
And one more reaaaaallly improtant thing. If you exercise you don't have to starve or withdraw any type of sweet or what you like. You are not going to a bodybuilder competition where you can't eat anything but rice and chicken :"D.
Always be kind to yourself and you are gonna make it!
I'm doing it for a year now and i did my 5km running and now im doing the Cloe Ting 2021 Full body workout challange :) (this is my second challange after the flat stomach).
I highly recommend Chloe and checking out her recipes too because they are freaking delicious and prove that you dont have to eat shitty food to look and feel good :)
Oh and one more thing.
Remind yourself everytime that you are doing this to FEEL GOOD in your body and mentally and not for reaching a body type goal. It must be a byproduct of exercising and not the maingoal!!!!!
Keep going you can do it!
you are amazing, thank you so much for taking the time to share all this amazing information and encouragement with me! im gonna reach through this a few times to make sure i digest all of it! i definitely wanna start small (walking at least a mile a day, and a 30-minute beginner yoga routine) to just ease my body back into being active... and then I wanna work my way back up. I've never been much of a runner, I'm more of a dancer... so my goals I think are just around being able to do dance routines with ease :D
appreciate you so much!
Hey Shady :) I admire your dedication on your weight loss journey because you motivate others to stay focus!!! New friend to support your channel! Love supporting another!
Thank you so much 🥺💜
With anxiety your heart rate is gonna be higher I relate though, I get out of breathe too and I tend to stop and sit at benches a lot
You'll do great, just keep doing baby steps. I cut soda by getting those water flavor things as a sub, and now soda tastes way toooo sweet.
That's what I'm wanting is to be unable to stand the sugar in soda anymore 😂
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have you had your thyroid levels checked? i have the same issue with my heart racing for basically no reason and my doctor thinks it's connected to my hashimoto's hypothyroidism. could also be why you feel like you can't lose weight!!
Yeah, my thyroid always comes back normal which is frustrating 😭 that was basically my guess too, like is there something out of balance with my hormones. I still think I want to go a little further into testing on that end, because I think PCOS (which runs in my family) could be playing a role here
(Also thank you for sharing!) 💜
What if you´re not as fragile as you think ? Your hearth will hurt, not only hurt it will BURN , your lungs will burn, the first mile that you jog WITHOUT stopping (Please do it extra slow ) you may not complete it, because your kidneys will hurt too , but if you go the next day , it won´t hurt as much n and you´ll jogg the first mile and you will get a dopamine rush because of your success and naturally you will push yourself ... that day you will know a new pain lol , a whole new pain , and so on , I don´t know if exercise stops hurting at some point, I´ve been running for 5 months now and my hearth and lungs keep burning at some point (Breathing excercises are VERY helpful )
gonna print out "what if you're not as fragile as you think" and put it on my walls ;-; thank u for the motivation!
Oof our stories are really similar... I put some old pictures of how I use to look on my phone and it makes me want to crawl in a hole.... on top of that I've always wanted to do youtube but I have no desire when I can't wear the super cute clothes I own .... I want to throw out all my fat clothes so I have no option but to lose weight because I'll have no clothes to wear lol 🙃 love how I choose not to stress out what in eatting a day and than end up pushing myself back a whole week. .
do you have a fitbit or watch that tracks your heart rate? I'm right there with you. Trying to get back into a healthier lifestyle both MENTALLY and Physically. Your heart rate can also increase due to stress and actually thinking about it.
I've done the treadmill test, echo exam and wore a heart monitor for 7 days for heart palpitations. You could go see a cardiologists if you're super concerned about it. I'm cheering you on. You said it best: baby steps, etc.
Yeah my fitbit is my best friend now 😂 I've also been put on a beta blocker to address my high heart rate and anxiety... I have a pretty big update to this that I'm planning to upload in early December!
I've been seeing a cardiologist since June! Did a 30 day heart monitor, and have been diagnosed with PVCs (premature beats) unknown cause. Did a stress test, sleep apnea test, blood panels looking for heart failure and clots, and just did my first echocardiogram. Going back in 2 weeks for another echo that is checking for a hole in my heart 🥴 but that should be the final screening test. I've been on a beta blocker for 2 months that has helped a lot with my high heart rate. It's definitely baby steps from here on out.. but I'm gonna so a big update talking about all of this in early December!
@@HeyShadyLady @HeyShadyLady i'm still waiting on my echo results. looking forward to hearin gall the results. ust like you, I'm always staring at my fitbit. TEAM Fitbit. interesting how certain medications raises or lowers your heart rate. the medication i'm on for my high blood pressure is suppose to lower my heart rate. I'm also pretty active with cardio, so i think it's a combo of both. at least that's what I tell myself. Cheering you on! i like what you said, let's hold each other accountable. do you have a channel in your discord that can be health & fitness ?
i've also been commenting as i watch. ha ha. so i apologize for all the questions I asked in comments that you've answered in the video. haha
Keep it up 👍🏾
1st off, You are *_not pathetic._*
2nd, Centralized content is rad 👍
3rd, You would annihilate the make up video market with those skills. 🔥
thank you so much!!
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God i love you
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If I could describe nearly....everything I'm going through weight wise in a single video....I might as well just link to this one. If you want an workout buddy I could 100 percent use one too!
let's hold hands and walk together 😭😭 we got this!
Hello I'm on keto diet an lost 12 pounds in a few weeks
nothing that you described is pathetic. You look great regardless, even if you don't believe it and it's super important that you're looking after yourself. I'm trying to eat better right now too and chocolate is definitely my biggest problem. I'm kind of trying to work on one habit at a time, so food first, then exercise... But maybe that's just me procrastinating. Sometimes I have epic fails though, where I eat absurd amounts of chocolate at once and just don't care :(
I think its smart to take it a step at a time! That's definitely what I'm trying to do too. And not restrict myself too much or else I will just rebel and go buy everything I "shouldnt" have 😭
I'm Done!
You should feel so proud of yourself with your progress! Hitting 5 days is amazing! I completely relate to the feeling of looking back. I had about 5 years where it was just one thing life threw at me after another. That anxiety when you first start is so relatable. I wonder if your chest pain is actually you having a bit of a panic attack while going for your walk? Maybe on rainy days you could do a few resistance exercises; which really helped me in so many ways. My back pain went, which it improved my insomnia (not gone, just improved). Plus it just made everything feel so much easier. Recently I have started changing my approach because I have yoyo'd from 95kg (210lb) to 75kg (165lb) a few times. I am doing it again in my 30s (😰). Maybe this video might help you? ua-cam.com/video/DLYb3IgQ1Qk/v-deo.html Message me if you want to chat. x
Here for it! I really enjoy your content . It doesn't even matter what it is lol
edit... just saw you at 230lbs..... 1000000000000000 billlion quadrillion percent. better imo.. 230lbs > 130 lbs on your frame .
your body is actually very attractive! maybe just tone 15 lbs.. but i like it :D
about your heart.... take it easy. see docs. eat TONS of heart healthy food plus take COQ10
IMMEDIATELY STOP FAST FOOD. YOU WILL NOTICE A DIFFERENCE IN YOUR BREATH after a WEEK I PROMISE
(DO NOT stress over your breath, I too had a spell of SEVERE Shortness of breath and anxiety makes it worse lol... you WONT die.... your blood pressure is high because of your diet... (which is why you have shortness of breath,,, your heart is most likely FINE (meaning it is beating with more than 80% capacity)
just relax hun. I promise, you will be fine
Oh also,,,,
if you smoke.. (like i did,, i smoked a LOT) then stopping helps a ton
I quit in August 2019! That's helped a ton for sure, I'll never touch them again 😩
Is this a safe space if you're fat and not looking to intentionally lose weight?
Of course it is. As long as me sharing my daily life doesnt bother you. I'm not sharing this to make anyone feel bad about their bodies, and weight doesn't equate to health for everyone. For me, weight *is* playing a significant role in my pulmonary health, amongst other things... hence my journey to lose it. It's causing me a lot of health issues that I don't want to become life threatening.
I dont want anyone to feel like I'm telling them what to think, do or feel about their bodies. I'm sharing my journey about my body and health. I understand if that content is not for everyone, and I would encourage you to protect your mental health and well-being.
@@HeyShadyLady thank you for the response 💜
I DMd you on Facebook, but figured I'd comment here as backup: I think you live in my city (if you still live in AVL).
I'm a (non-binary afab) wellness-trained certified personal trainer living with chronic health issues (including anxiety and insomnia, like yourself) and currently dealing with weight gain of my own due to those health issues on top of the whole Panini Apocalypse of 2020.
If you ever want a walking buddy (with bonus CPR training) to help you feel less worried about something bad happening while you're out, want an accountability buddy, or just someone to talk to who gets it, feel free to hit me up. No expectations, and this is not a job pitch or anything. Just one fellow strugglebus rider to another. And I can introduce you to folks who've actually met me/worked with me in person and can vouch for my non-serial-killer creds. 😃
(Also, if you want to learn more about me first, I maintained a half-ass vlog channel during 2020 to record my experiences that I still occasionally upload to that you can check out here: ua-cam.com/channels/fNLZVVz6V05KtLZ3rvIvdw.html) (Edit: That's not intended to be a plug, either...there's nothing really there of general public interest at this point.)
2010's shady was sooooooooooo emo
I was an anime scene queen LMAO
Huh. Just eat a vegan’s diet
Cutting out dairy, eggs, and meat is the easiest way to feel good slimming while also being kind to animals.