I honestly don't know if I could be alive without music, it is a major aspect of what helps me hold on and not let my foundation come crashing down during the darkest of thoughts. A poison spreading, taught to bury our thoughts, numb these feelings, hide it well and smile big. But we repress and suppress because we have no idea how to address what's inside our heads.
Paperless Pages music is what comforts me, what says that everything will be okay. It filled the space in my heart that nothing can even reach, and I’m grateful.
I know this is an old comment but I hope you are in a better mental state. I really try to help anyone who suffers mentally and sometimes I feel myself loosing my own will to live but I really hope you are happy and have people caring about you like I do even though I don't know you.
Lyrics: Finding refuge in my own lies "How are you" "I'm doing alright" Small talk is a great disguise Just let me be, Just let me be Empty thoughts start to crowd my mind Am I only living, living to survive? Shake it off but I've lost the drive Just let me be, Just let me be Let me be, okay No one knows what goes on up inside my head There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread No one knows what goes on up inside my head They don't think I need help But I'm scaring myself I just want to be ok I just want to be ok All the voices in my head are coming to life They're getting louder and I'm terrified How do you run from your own mind? Is this what I've become? Take it back what have I done No one knows what goes on up inside my head There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread No one knows what goes on up inside my head They don't think I need help But I'm scaring myself I just want to be ok I just want to be ok No one knows what goes on up inside my head There is a new kind of poison and starting to spread But I didn’t think the antidote was in my hands I can change my plans I can change my plans I tried to find my reflection on the glass But all I ever saw were the things I lacked All the smudges on the mirror made me go insane All I ever thought I was Was a mistake No one knows what goes on up inside my head There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread No one knows what goes on up inside my head Up inside my head Up inside my head
I like that. I really like that this doesn't remind you of anything painful, just a photograph of the words "I'm fine" that can be turned upside down and read as "save me" or "help me"(depending on which picture you look at). I like that because you may not be going through anything (or you might be, because every comment hides the person behind it here), but you still understand. We need more of that.
That is called an ambigram, which is a way of writing that is u read it upside down it says something else, or maybe even the same word. I do them sometimes, and they're hella hard😂
Here are the lyrics Finding refuge in my own lies "How are you" "I'm doing alright" Small talk is a great disguise Just let me be just let me be Empty thoughts start to crowd my mind Am I only living, living to survive? Shake it off but I've lost the drive Just let me be just let me be Let me be, okay [Chorus] No one knows what goes on up inside my head There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread No one knows what goes on up inside my head They don't think I need help But I'm scaring myself I just want to be ok I just want to be ok [Verse 2] All the voices in my head are coming to life They're getting louder and I'm terrified How do you run from your own mind? Is this what I've become? Take it back what have I done [Chorus] No one knows what goes on up inside my head There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread No one knows what goes on up inside my head They don't think I need help But I'm scaring myself I just want to be ok I just want to be ok [Bridge] No one knows what goes on up inside my head There is a new kind of poison and starting to spread But I didn’t think the antidote was in my hands I can change my plans I can change my plans I tried to find my reflection on the glass But all I ever saw were the things I lacked All the smudges on the mirror made me go insane All I ever thought I was Was a mistake [Outro] No one knows what goes on up inside my head There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread No one knows what goes on up inside my head Up inside my head Up inside my head
Why of all people is Toga here. I could kind of see Dabi coming here, but not you. Shouldn’t you be plotting how to overthrow All Might with Kai and Shigaraki?
It's sad when you realize when she says the antidote was in her hands and that she can change her plans she's talking about suicide and what was in her hands was a razor
Oh. I always thought the “antidote” was getting help, and the whole “in her hands” thing was a metaphor for the solution being within her grasp. I took the ”change my plans” bit as her changing her life around?
It's not that, because changing plans would be getting help not self harming. If anything, when she says "I'm scaring myself" would be referring to her self harm and suicidal thoughts. Don't say that self harm is a better plan than suicide, please. It might keep you from going through with it fully for now, but it is not an antidote. The real antidote is getting help, she didn't think it was in her hands because it seemed impossible to be helped. But that's not true.
Phoenix Inferno words aren’t enough to make them understand how bad your state is. When my depression started I tried to tell my friends and all they said is “You’re just doing it for attention.” Their answer scared me to death tbh. And from then on, the only way I saw to escape mental pain was so have *physical* pain. Several cuts and they started to notice. That’s when they realized I wasn’t just “doing it for attention.” That’s when they realized I was drowning in an ocean of my own insecurities. They realized... After I lost who I am inside... I’m not blaming them for anything actually but it’s just I learned that words aren’t enough. Only acts will prove everything.
It's not true.Tell that to someone who have Anxiety or Mentall Illness or who get bullied at school...Or Can I say who lose someone.You will find your lover ,Dont need to say she\he never love me ...It's not the truth.❤
Really? Try loving or thinking someone would always be there, relying on them..then they leave, and not just don't want to be your friend or lover, like they committed suicide..Yeah happens to me more than others. Also, Ik it hurts more cause I've done both, I never asked the other person out cause they hate me now.
The loneliest people are the kindest The saddest people smile the brightest The most damaged people are the wisest All because they don't want to see others suffer the way they do not my words but spread it
HOLY ORANGE JUICE!!! THIS IS SO FREAKING GOOD!!! I love this song you really did another job well done!!! Preach it girl!!! The picture looks and fits perfect and lmao according to my brother I look like the girl in the picture
Listening to this song a lot of times made me realize she is okay at the end, the "Smudges on the mirror" were her insecurities telling her she's ugly, fat whatsoever, but they're gone. They're gone. She fighted against depression successfully.
I will say this with whole heart, I would be dead if it weren’t for music, unlike people music gives you a sense of hope that people just can’t give, music has saved my life on multiple occasions.
I have chronic migraines, like to the point where i need irlen glasses to function. This song touched my heart in many ways. The difference between a migraine and chronic migraine is that chronic migraines mess with your function and vision and you see things that arent there. Thankyou for remixing this
They didn't notice you were crying They didn't notice you were sad They didn't notice you were tired They didn't notice you were alone. They didn't notice how attractive you were. They didn't notice how sweet you actually are. They didn't notice how you actually try to make other people smile. They did notice your failing grades They did notice your unattractive They did notice the mean side of you They did notice all of your mistakes They did notice all of your flaws They did notice that you weren't good enough for them
this is the kind of song that everyone needs to listen to. i have a story to go along with this song and i cant say but i love this song because this was me for the longest time. so thank you for doing the remix or i would have never found this song.
Don’t forget,you are loved.you are wanted.Your life is a movie,don’t end it.Your skin is a book,don’t tear it.maybe people don’t know what’s going on in your head,but put this inside your head: you are loved,wanted,cared for! We all love you-accept and embrace yourself,you are beautiful,amazing,talented,I may be a stranger,but death will never be the answer,we love you. Love yourself.
no one is talking about the lines, “I tried to find my reflection on the glass, but all I ever saw were the things I lack.” And “No one knows what goes on up in side my head.” Wow- haha, all of these lyrics hit to hard.
I've scared myself before... I thought negatively before...(even lied before too) Some days I just sit and stare at the walls that are painted pastel purple in my bedroom... I just sit there crying silently sometimes... It hurts going on without him... He was my best friend and once my only friend... I'll never have another best friend because I promised him that I will never replace him... I also promised him that I will keep going, keep living no matter what... He was a brown Pomeranian named Toby that passed away due to old age near the end of 2019... He was my hero... He was literally everything to me... He saved me many times before... I probably wouldn't be here without him... ...(It's been over 15 months without him)... He was literally just like an antidote that cured my sadness.. He was irreplaceable... He was one of a kind... He was my "antidote" Now I'm trying to go on without him... Now I'm fighting my own mind so I that I won't cry Infront of others... No one knows what is really going on in my head because I lie and pretend that I'm fine... I lie and say that I'm just tired... I lie and say that I'm ok... I'm fighting back tears... I try not to think negatively but when I do (which is rarely) I blame myself for his death... I just don't want to be sad anymore... I want some of the lies I said to actually become the truth... I want to actually be ok, fine, and happy again but I have to be scarring myself a little... "I just want to be ok" (Those almost 7 full years were the best years of my life and when he died I lost a part of myself along with him... He was probably 60 years old or older when he died)
it's now been about 21 months since he died... I try so hard to smile but I can't even fake it half of the time anymore... I tried so hard for so long to go on without him and it hurts too much... I tend to hide in my bedroom most of the time so I am less likely to break in-front of others... I am terrified because my mind tends to blame myself for his death more and more often. I continue to lie and my grades are suffering even more, a 27 in accounting is pretty low... I tend to silently cry even more when I am alone in my bedroom... I lie to everyone even more than before, saying that I am ok, telling everyone I am just tired, and just pretending to be happy at least a little if I can at all anymore... I just stay away from others and fall apart alone in my own bedroom more often... No one sees, No one understands, No one knows what is in my head, and there's no hope anymore... There's no antidote for this pain even though, "I just want to be ok" ... "I just want to be ok"
@@tessythayal5990 I still have some bad nights where I cry silently alone in my room. I still have times where I don't want to go outside but it's definitely better or at least as better as it can get without him. Even though it's still hurting the same I've learned how to make it better. I've learned to look at the bright side. Finally got a picture of him printed out and displayed in my room. It's the only picture I have of him as a physical copy, it's also the very last photo taken of him. He looked so happy. I also have a collection of plushies and things that are the same type of dog he was. I don't cry nearly as often as I used to but I will sometimes when I'm alone in my room.
antidote?
this channel gives my dose everyday.
WHY DOES EVERY NIGHTCORE SONG HAS PERFECT PICTURES THAT GO WITH IT
IK, AND THEN U THEY LOOKING FOR ONE AND U CANT FIND A GOOD ONE
NightCore Wolf because it's nightcore and nightcore is perfect
ik ?
NightCore Wolf to make it better
Because the person that makes it nightcore instead of normal understands the song and finds I picture for it
I honestly don't know if I could be alive without music, it is a major aspect of what helps me hold on and not let my foundation come crashing down during the darkest of thoughts. A poison spreading, taught to bury our thoughts, numb these feelings, hide it well and smile big. But we repress and suppress because we have no idea how to address what's inside our heads.
Paperless Pages music is what comforts me, what says that everything will be okay. It filled the space in my heart that nothing can even reach, and I’m grateful.
Music is how I break the depression relapses. Music is just layered with emotions. I love it I owe it everything.
you just described my life miss paperless pages
I would have died a few weeks ago I'm 11 by the way
I know this is an old comment but I hope you are in a better mental state. I really try to help anyone who suffers mentally and sometimes I feel myself loosing my own will to live but I really hope you are happy and have people caring about you like I do even though I don't know you.
Its a beautiful song about depression and self loathing. I cant stop listening to it. Keep up the amazing work
originally by faith marie though, so credit goes to her not this channel tbh
@@psychoticprincess789 I don't think you'd be able to create such an amazing nightcore with this song.
Denise Küster i mean it's pretty much just increased pitch and speed, not too much else...
@@psychoticprincess789 I challenged you, I didn't tell you to tell me this.
Such a soft melody with a deep maening behind it.... Ahhh how I like these kind of songs..... Filled with mysteries and emotions! ❤
My Anonymous Senpai yeah i love these types of songs
Such deep *maening* behind it, beautiful comment
Potato Cat don't act like you haven't misspelled something while typing
i thought i was the only one:)
Lyrics:
Finding refuge in my own lies
"How are you"
"I'm doing alright"
Small talk is a great disguise
Just let me be, Just let me be
Empty thoughts start to crowd my mind
Am I only living, living to survive?
Shake it off but I've lost the drive
Just let me be, Just let me be
Let me be, okay
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
They don't think I need help
But I'm scaring myself
I just want to be ok
I just want to be ok
All the voices in my head are coming to life
They're getting louder and I'm terrified
How do you run from your own mind?
Is this what I've become?
Take it back what have I done
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
They don't think I need help
But I'm scaring myself
I just want to be ok
I just want to be ok
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There is a new kind of poison and starting to spread
But I didn’t think the antidote was in my hands
I can change my plans I can change my plans
I tried to find my reflection on the glass
But all I ever saw were the things I lacked
All the smudges on the mirror made me go insane
All I ever thought I was
Was a mistake
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
Up inside my head
Up inside my head
i dont need the lyrics thank you.
I memerised them ages ago
Thx for lyrics...
@Saturn thanks for your hard work~ ^^
Nice profile pic
liked it before I even watched it ♡
Melli- chan same
Melli- chan same
Ultimate12 Fandom34. I agree
I live your motion of video.
Am I the only one that feels happy when sees that Nightcore UA-camrs comment in the videos of other Nightcore UA-camr? JSJSJSJS I don't why JSJSJS
You are all beautiful in your own ways, never let anyone take it away from you. don't be what others want to see. be what you are, never lose it.
this reminds me of a photo that says I'm fine, and when you turn it around it says help me
The Fox of Gaming "save me"
I like that. I really like that this doesn't remind you of anything painful, just a photograph of the words "I'm fine" that can be turned upside down and read as "save me" or "help me"(depending on which picture you look at).
I like that because you may not be going through anything (or you might be, because every comment hides the person behind it here), but you still understand. We need more of that.
That is called an ambigram, which is a way of writing that is u read it upside down it says something else, or maybe even the same word. I do them sometimes, and they're hella hard😂
BTS right?
Yeah it's from bts. It's a kpop group
just found my theme song, thank you very much
Kaili ASSASINATION CLASSROOM PROFILE PICTURE!!!!!!
*Don't you open up that Window.*
You're The Antidote to my Dose!
I just want to be okay :')
Wow if one song would describe me perfectly, it would be this
Lunayo If you’re going through though times, this channel is the place to go.
Lunayo I hope you can be okay one day♡
Lunayo same but all of them
miuq that pic is perfect.
Here are the lyrics
Finding refuge in my own lies
"How are you"
"I'm doing alright"
Small talk is a great disguise
Just let me be just let me be
Empty thoughts start to crowd my mind
Am I only living, living to survive?
Shake it off but I've lost the drive
Just let me be just let me be
Let me be, okay
[Chorus]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
They don't think I need help
But I'm scaring myself
I just want to be ok
I just want to be ok
[Verse 2]
All the voices in my head are coming to life
They're getting louder and I'm terrified
How do you run from your own mind?
Is this what I've become?
Take it back what have I done
[Chorus]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
They don't think I need help
But I'm scaring myself
I just want to be ok
I just want to be ok
[Bridge]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There is a new kind of poison and starting to spread
But I didn’t think the antidote was in my hands
I can change my plans I can change my plans
I tried to find my reflection on the glass
But all I ever saw were the things I lacked
All the smudges on the mirror made me go insane
All I ever thought I was
Was a mistake
[Outro]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
Up inside my head
Up inside my head
it’s a lyric video you numpty
@@zasoria.4698 there may be people who are trying to sing along. so it will help those people
Almost too gay to function thanks love your name 😂😍
Why of all people is Toga here. I could kind of see Dabi coming here, but not you. Shouldn’t you be plotting how to overthrow All Might with Kai and Shigaraki?
Thanks!
I actually told me friend via telling her this song describes my life and getting her to listen to it. She’s really supportive, thankfully
"I just want to be okay~"
they is a song that says "I just want to be not okay"
Hannah -Sama I think i know that song... is it "You don't know"?
(i love that song tho)💖
But don't we all.......
Love this song. Yet again another one of your nightcore songs became my favourite songs. Love your work keep uploading nightcore 😊😊
This is my new favourite song
jose hernandez Haters gonna hate,
i say: "Fuck you and go away"
Angel 4 he's probably suffering
When you discard the previus vid you where watcing to watch this one instead :)
Pi''gey'' xD
why is this so perfecttt😄
Well that's my opinion (:
I love Faith Marie
Why does this song sound familiar? Oh wait this song seems to read my mind in reality...
Same
It's sad when you realize when she says the antidote was in her hands and that she can change her plans she's talking about suicide and what was in her hands was a razor
omg I didn't realize that
Oh. I always thought the “antidote” was getting help, and the whole “in her hands” thing was a metaphor for the solution being within her grasp. I took the ”change my plans” bit as her changing her life around?
Or for a more poetic “antidote” it could’ve been medicine
It's not that, because changing plans would be getting help not self harming. If anything, when she says "I'm scaring myself" would be referring to her self harm and suicidal thoughts.
Don't say that self harm is a better plan than suicide, please. It might keep you from going through with it fully for now, but it is not an antidote.
The real antidote is getting help, she didn't think it was in her hands because it seemed impossible to be helped. But that's not true.
Phoenix Inferno words aren’t enough to make them understand how bad your state is. When my depression started I tried to tell my friends and all they said is “You’re just doing it for attention.”
Their answer scared me to death tbh. And from then on, the only way I saw to escape mental pain was so have *physical* pain.
Several cuts and they started to notice. That’s when they realized I wasn’t just “doing it for attention.”
That’s when they realized I was drowning in an ocean of my own insecurities.
They realized... After I lost who I am inside...
I’m not blaming them for anything actually but it’s just I learned that words aren’t enough. Only acts will prove everything.
This nightcore is more beautiful than I ever could have imagined.
the beginning notes sound like another song but i cant place which it is
(Edit: it sounds like "I would'nt mind" by: He is we)
GravityKitty OMG I JUST REALIZED
they dound sooo similar, if they were written by the same person id say they were lazy, but the're not
I think it sounds like "Read all about it" By Emilee sande
doesn’t ring a bell
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread = DEPRESSION :)
I thought you said it was a new poison?
(btw I know it say it in the song, I just wanted to say that)
The Fox of Gaming ow, okay 👏
WolfSpirit Gaming please get some help if you still want to live
*virtual hugs*same I'm 12 and been like this for 9 years
Violet Afton That's a lie. At 3 you definitely did NOT feel depression.
Oh god I'm early. Hey NightcoreGalaxy! Can you bring back Monsters by Katie Sky? I love that song!
OMG, Thank You!!! I really love that song.
@@doodlepenguin7788 are you still here?
damn this song is really good and i honestly think that people feel like this
I lot of people feel like this. Deppression is very common
We do
Who is cutting the onions again
Cyann Williams not me.........🤐
Cyann Williams sorry
My mom
Cyann Williams Me I'm Actually Cutting Onions Lol
Me.. lmfao no but srsly WHO IS CUTTING ONIONS
Wow most of Faith Marie songs sound really good with nightcore
Great work
I find so many songs that perfectly describe me and my life. This is one of them.
Nothing hurts more than love someone in silence
you don`t know...
So whats the proble.? Get your shit togheter and ask her/him out. Just go for it, the worst that can happen is that you will be told "no".
It's not true.Tell that to someone who have Anxiety or Mentall Illness or who get bullied at school...Or Can I say who lose someone.You will find your lover ,Dont need to say she\he never love me ...It's not the truth.❤
Lorraine Berezo You don't know and you really don't want to know
Really? Try loving or thinking someone would always be there, relying on them..then they leave, and not just don't want to be your friend or lover, like they committed suicide..Yeah happens to me more than others. Also, Ik it hurts more cause I've done both, I never asked the other person out cause they hate me now.
The loneliest people are the kindest
The saddest people smile the brightest
The most damaged people are the wisest
All because they don't want to see others suffer the way they do
not my words but spread it
If I see this comment one more time I'm going to puke.
@@blu9856
Your ruining the vibe bro
Is it bad I listen to this every night😍😍
I don't mind living with a daily dose of Nightcore
Chills, literal chills
i can't escape this song and i dont think i mind anymore
HOLY ORANGE JUICE!!! THIS IS SO FREAKING GOOD!!!
I love this song you really did another job well done!!!
Preach it girl!!!
The picture looks and fits perfect and lmao according to my brother I look like the girl in the picture
loved this song for a while now but its even better in nightcore. thx for making my day 10x better
"I've lost the drive."
This probably is the most relatable lyric for me.
I'm just so damn tired.
Is it bad that I relate to this song almost 100 percent
Kelp Jack no I can too
Kelp Jack i can relate
Glad I'm not alone
Kelp Jack no
Back Apple Trust me, I do too.
So.. much emotion in this song.. I like it... it's.. nice..
Holy fuck this is good xd
gj
I've put this song on loop for God knows how long, your videos are just that good for me...
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when will youtube be fixed?
K-pop is Lifeu never
UA-cam counts a view when you have watched until a certain point of the video and many people like the video before they even watch it LIKE ME!
K-pop is Lifeu youtube's drunk again
yeah i mean 8 dislikes must be a mistake
Ugh, its called lag...
this explains my life
It's scaring how much I relate to this song. Recently you've been playing songs according to my mood. ._. How you do dat
❤❤AMAZING❤❤
😍
NightcoreDark True
Aw, crap. i'm crying.
Amazing job, NightcoreGalaxy. ❤︎
This lyrics a little explaining what's happining in my head...
Listening to this song a lot of times made me realize she is okay at the end, the "Smudges on the mirror" were her insecurities telling her she's ugly, fat whatsoever, but they're gone.
They're gone.
She fighted against depression successfully.
I loved the original but i never even thought of searcing up the nightcore version, this is amazing
I will say this with whole heart, I would be dead if it weren’t for music, unlike people music gives you a sense of hope that people just can’t give, music has saved my life on multiple occasions.
I loved it as soon as it started! 😍💜
Everything is just perfect 😍 It describes depression and anxiety so detailed and beautiful.. I'm crying 😭
This song is what I go through every day. This song makes me remember why try not to wake up in the morning.
just discovered faith marie. her stuff is AWESOME
congratulations you got a new sub keep up the good work ❤❤
Wow this is really amazing. You can hear the sadness in her voice.
Goosebumps... 💗
i love thiss song sooo much!
The most relatable song I've ever heard... That's pretty painfull actually.
THANK YOU SO MUCH THIS IS MY FAVE SONG AND THIS MAKES IT 10X BETTER
this is basically my life right now. everyone thinks that I'm ok but I'm not. love this sing cause it's relatable. great job
I like the song thank you of your Nightcore it’s really good
I have chronic migraines, like to the point where i need irlen glasses to function. This song touched my heart in many ways. The difference between a migraine and chronic migraine is that chronic migraines mess with your function and vision and you see things that arent there. Thankyou for remixing this
This describes my whole life perfectly
"All I ever thought I was,
was a mistake."
That hit so hard.
Why do I relate to this song so well?...
Btw I love the picture, the night core music basically everything.😀
I love this so much thanks you putting on your youtube
This says everything..
jose hernandez dude just stop
:3 Very good nightcore, thx.
They didn't notice you were crying
They didn't notice you were sad
They didn't notice you were tired
They didn't notice you were alone.
They didn't notice how attractive you were.
They didn't notice how sweet you actually are.
They didn't notice how you actually try to make other people smile.
They did notice your failing grades
They did notice your unattractive
They did notice the mean side of you
They did notice all of your mistakes
They did notice all of your flaws
They did notice that you weren't good enough for them
Why is this so true
Love the soft innocent sounds
Was looking for the antidote for my life, thanks for giving me.
This song is how I've felt recently
Oh my god this is amazing..... THANK YOU!
This is depressing and comforting at the same time
Who doesn't actually suffer from depression but likes listening to this type of music?
tbh this channel is where i find songs i can sing because they are so catchy 😂
A sure antidote for a depressing day ;
Definitely brought me to tears ;
Keep up the good work !
Been on my watch later list for ages and i finally listened to it! I love it keep up the great work!
One of my faves really enjoyed this one
this is the kind of song that everyone needs to listen to. i have a story to go along with this song and i cant say but i love this song because this was me for the longest time. so thank you for doing the remix or i would have never found this song.
Amazing😍😍✌🏼
Thanks for nightcore version
I'm officially in love with this song 😭❤️
Don’t forget,you are loved.you are wanted.Your life is a movie,don’t end it.Your skin is a book,don’t tear it.maybe people don’t know what’s going on in your head,but put this inside your head: you are loved,wanted,cared for! We all love you-accept and embrace yourself,you are beautiful,amazing,talented,I may be a stranger,but death will never be the answer,we love you.
Love yourself.
love these kinds of songs
I was looking for a Nightcore version of this, it's great💕
no one is talking about the lines,
“I tried to find my reflection on the glass, but all I ever saw were the things I lack.”
And “No one knows what goes on up in side my head.”
Wow- haha, all of these lyrics hit to hard.
Wow didn't think that a song could describe this feeling in me with so much precision
I've scared myself before...
I thought negatively before...(even lied before too)
Some days I just sit and stare at the walls that are painted pastel purple in my bedroom...
I just sit there crying silently sometimes...
It hurts going on without him...
He was my best friend and once my only friend...
I'll never have another best friend because I promised him that I will never replace him... I also promised him that I will keep going, keep living no matter what...
He was a brown Pomeranian named Toby that passed away due to old age near the end of 2019...
He was my hero...
He was literally everything to me...
He saved me many times before...
I probably wouldn't be here without him...
...(It's been over 15 months without him)...
He was literally just like an antidote that cured my sadness.. He was irreplaceable... He was one of a kind... He was my "antidote"
Now I'm trying to go on without him...
Now I'm fighting my own mind so I that I won't cry Infront of others...
No one knows what is really going on in my head because I lie and pretend that I'm fine...
I lie and say that I'm just tired...
I lie and say that I'm ok...
I'm fighting back tears...
I try not to think negatively but when I do (which is rarely) I blame myself for his death...
I just don't want to be sad anymore...
I want some of the lies I said to actually become the truth...
I want to actually be ok, fine, and happy again but I have to be scarring myself a little...
"I just want to be ok"
(Those almost 7 full years were the best years of my life and when he died I lost a part of myself along with him... He was probably 60 years old or older when he died)
it's now been about 21 months since he died...
I try so hard to smile but I can't even fake it half of the time anymore...
I tried so hard for so long to go on without him and it hurts too much...
I tend to hide in my bedroom most of the time so I am less likely to break in-front of others...
I am terrified because my mind tends to blame myself for his death more and more often.
I continue to lie and my grades are suffering even more, a 27 in accounting is pretty low...
I tend to silently cry even more when I am alone in my bedroom...
I lie to everyone even more than before, saying that I am ok, telling everyone I am just tired, and just pretending to be happy at least a little if I can at all anymore...
I just stay away from others and fall apart alone in my own bedroom more often...
No one sees, No one understands, No one knows what is in my head, and there's no hope anymore...
There's no antidote for this pain even though, "I just want to be ok"
... "I just want to be ok"
i hope you get better. :D
@@tessythayal5990 I still have some bad nights where I cry silently alone in my room. I still have times where I don't want to go outside but it's definitely better or at least as better as it can get without him.
Even though it's still hurting the same I've learned how to make it better. I've learned to look at the bright side. Finally got a picture of him printed out and displayed in my room. It's the only picture I have of him as a physical copy, it's also the very last photo taken of him.
He looked so happy. I also have a collection of plushies and things that are the same type of dog he was.
I don't cry nearly as often as I used to but I will sometimes when I'm alone in my room.
@@izoraiza7169 you will get there soon dont worry
@@izoraiza7169 i cant even imagine losing my cat
Reminds me of Watashi no uso aka your lie in april...oh god the feels again
Amazing! ❤❤
Faith Marie is my new favourite artist :D
I am living for this
Those high notes tho
this song is amazing I cant stop listening to it