why i left college
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- Опубліковано 30 лис 2024
- here is my story of why I left college. this is the most vulnerable I have ever been in a video before, but my goal is to hopefully help some of you guys. I love you so much and thank you for watching and supporting me.
Something my dad said when I was having a hard time in high school was that most suicidal people dont want to actually die, they want to finally start living. And I'll probably be 90 years old with his words still stuck in my head. Taking time for yourself is so important.
Konnie Wiggins I’m keeping this quote because I have been very suicidal lately.😣💗💗💗💞🔆ty
@@lvmariah7418 of course! I hope your days get brighter sweetheart!
Konnie Wiggins that is the best quote I have ever heard will always remember that! Thank you 🙏
it really is the best quote I've ever heard. It's so true. thank you for sharing this
this is the best quote ever. honestly
I love you so much josie ❤️ I’ll always be here for you the world needs josie jabs 😘
cutie! Thanks for being there for Josie. I'm happy to know she has friends who are looking out for her. Hugs
Hannah Meloche so sweet you inspired me to be a better person and work harder to be nicer to people ❤️❤️
Here is a quote that a pastor said at my uncles funeral for committing suicide was “Don’t make a permanent decision for a temporary situation” -Pastor Mike
my pastor says this!
Love this what your Pastor said💞
Wow that make me...😩
When life pushes you down and you think it’s impossible for you to get back up reach up to Jesus and he’ll get you right back on your feet and he’ll lead you through to the bright end of the tunnel. AND DONT FORGET- every day you are trying your best..is everyday you’re get better and stronger❤ it’s a day you are a day closer to your goal while becoming a more strong and beautiful human through it❤❤❤ you are remarkable if you have the courage to smile everyday no matter what you go through, don’t forget Jesus ❤s u.
This hurt me to watch you like this. I’m sorry... Don’t ever feel like a burden or a failure because you feel like this. Who cares what anyone else thinks. But I know I speak for a lot of us that we are here backing you up every step of the way. I am praying for you. Just focus on yourself and loving yourself hun, you will get through this, I know it’s not easy ❤️
also, i take prozac along with like 5 other anxiety medications. DO NOT LET ANYONE make you feel bad about taking medications. some people's brain chemistry is off and it's amazing we have these options now. it is not a cure and its a hard process to find what medication works for you (lexapro, zoloft, prozac, etc) but in the end it is worth it because your life is worth it. i suggest getting a whole care team, a doctor, psychologist and psychiatrist!
Yes this is so true!! I take Wellbutrin and Cymbalta for my depression and another medication for my anxiety. It’s totally fine to take meds and it’s so worth it to feel the good effects of taking them.
Emilia Klein i go to boarding school and i didn't want people to know i have anxiety but i have to keep my med bottles in my room and whenever anyone comes in they can see it so now i don't try to hide it and i don't rly care because it doesn't make me that much different
amanda lopez this is sooo true! ppl think it’s weird that i’ve been on over 20 meds over the years but it’s nothing to be ashamed of 💕
this makes me feel so much less alone. i’ve dealt with depression for so long & i’ve thought about being gone so much. it was so good to hear this, and makes me feel less alone. thank u for this. i love u so much.
Kayla Llewellyn ok your gorgeous 💓
always here for you bb keep pushin
I know exactly how that feels. Please don't ever feel like you're alone. We're all in the same boat. We gotta stick together and work through it together even if it's hard. Talking to someone is the best thing you can do. You're not going to like it at the time and it'll probably be uncomfortable for both of you but afterwards you'll feel better. And you might be able to get whatever help you need before it's too late. I don't know you but you are an amazing person. I know it might be hard but you should talk to someone you trust. I talked to my best friend and she helped me get the help I needed. I hop everything works out for you
i’m here for you
Wow. “I don’t remember what it feels like to be happy.”This shows how much school can tear us up. We love ya🤍
It’s really toxic for yourself to try and perceive this perfect life with “positive vibes only🤪” etc when that’s impossible especially for a teenager. You should never feel ashamed to be sad or depressed. I’m so happy you were able to be raw and honest of what you’re going through
Madeleine Gibson 💯💯
aw josie... i live in the same dorm as you, and i have been wondering why you weren’t here anymore, and i’m so so sorry to hear that this happened to you. i’m glad to hear you’re working on getting better, though, because the first step is always so hard, and i’m so proud of you for taking it. 💕
I am so unbelievably proud of you for sharing this and being vulnerable. A similar story like this occured with my younger sister this time last year so I really feel for you and your family. You got this Josie xxx, sending love
I'm so sorry you've felt like this for so long and I understand how you feel. Nobody deserves to feel how you're feeling, but please always remind yourself that you are worthy and you are loved! I always do this whenever I get bad thoughts and it really helps. You will always have so much love and support behind you!
the fact that josie has taken the time out to heart every single one of these comments....
that shows a caring, compassionate person.
to anyone who needs to hear it: life will always have its ups and downs. but remember that you have survived 100% of your bad days so far - you have *got* this
gezana rai thank you!💙
i love you josie. you’re so incredibly strong for being able to share the downsides of your life with the thousands of people who admire you. your determination to grow from the experience perfectly exemplifies how brave you truly are, and i admire you for continuing to fight even when it feels like there’s nothing left for you to do. i hope you’ll always choose to fight and to give life a chance because things do get better. stay strong ❤️
This made me cry🥺 this def helps me bc I feel like this most of the time but don’t know what to do about it💓stay strong u can get thru anything🥰💓
you can also get through this girl!
This breaks my heart to hear you were hurting so much. I pray you find the strength to feel better and heal 💗
we all love you so much Josie❤️ i know you have talked about being religious in the past, i thought if you want to find a community like within that to support you and help you get better, in fall when you return to school there’s this church retreat program called TEC in the minneapolis area. It’s for high schoolers but as a college student you could help lead the weekend and be apart of the team with the juniors and seniors. You were really brave telling us what happen and they do a similar thing there with talks and you hear others too. Just a suggestion for next year because faith has always been a big part of growth. I love you stay strong❤️
YOU’RE NOT A BURDEN! I was in a hospital for 2 months for my anxiety disorders. You sharing this will help SO many people. It helps me not feel so alone with what I go through sometimes. ❤️❤️❤️
I cannot thank you enough for this josie. knowing that someone i look up to has gone through some of the same things i have makes me feel so much better. i really appreciate your vulnerability and willingness to share your story. i’m in a much better place now and i hope you’re getting there too❤️❤️
this video was so eye opening to me and i’m sure so many others. i now how hard it must’ve been to make this, but thank you. for me at time i think that i’m living such a bad life and i stride to be like people like you who seem to be perfect and living perfect lives but knowing that everyone, even those whose live seem perfect, are going through something. this is so helpful for me because i feel like i’m not alone and i’m not the only one who struggles💗💗💗
This breaks my heart❤️. Last year around this time I was sick I missed school for about 1 week and when I had to go back I was super scared because I got anxious when ever I had school. I didn’t want to be alive . But now I’m totally happy and I’m in the best stage right now. I wish you the best for ur future. love you ❤️.
Edit thank you so much 😊 for all the likes❤️
I hope you know that we are so proud of you and would never be upset with you!! 💖 As a person who looks up to you I will always be here for you through thick and thin, you have helped me through my problems and dark times. I wish I could explain even half of how you have helped me and so many others. We love you and will always be here for you Josie🥺💗
first off thank you for leaving your comments on, and thank you for sharing something so personal. i always looked at influencers like you envy how perfect and effortless you seemed, but this was something raw and pure. this showed me that no matter who you are pain is pain and it will eventually catch up to us. i hope your mentally doing much better and physically/emotionally growing. i'm also keeping your family in my thoughts. thank you for being you josie 💙
omg Josie 🥺 I'm sorry for what you've been through. But we are all here for you and praying for you. I know this is the worst feeling anyone can feel and I'm rooting for you, I love you ❤️
sending all my love josie. and don’t feel like a failure, so many people suffer from depression and anxiety, even me. I have definitely been at that low point too and it’s the worst feeling ever. i’m so sorry that you had to feel that xx working out definitely helped me a lot, so i hope that works for you too xx
this is such an amazing video. everyone breaks sometime or another and the fact that you put this online is incredible. you are showing others that there is no shame in breaking. thank you
I didn't even know you took medicine for depression and anxiety, hope you're doing better and remember, the world needs you and loves you!!
This broke my heart. i’m so so happy you’re here
I cried so hard watching this my first semester of college was fall ‘19 and it was so hard for me too. I always felt alone and no one was there for me. I spent so much time crying and hating it there so the online switch for this pandemic helped me because now I’m home with my family again. I love you and your channel and respect you so much more to know I went through the same struggles as you. 😭
Josie I love you so much just like so many others. I'm so glad you survived this and you'll keep on surviving this.
You are making a positive impact. I’ve never heard anyone talk about the things I went through too. I went to a hospital. I was so depressed. I was in a psych unit. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for telling your story. Thank you for living. Thank you
And there is hope. There is always hope
Hi Josie! I listened to this and saw so much of myself in you! I also struggle with low self esteem, depression, and anxiety.
Please take care of yourself and remember you are worth it!
I totally felt this... I felt this freshman year of college was just awful and I felt so sad but I finally figured out life is so worth it but I am so proud of you and I hope you get better fast love you ❤️🥺
I was having the worst anxiety of my life start of nov, and medication was never an option bc I was scared of the side effects. But for anyone who is skeptical, give it a try. It has changed me for the better, everyday I feel myself relieving from these anxious thoughts and physical feelings. ❤️ Hope everyone finds the help they need.
so true ❤
Sometimes the most positive impact you can have on a platform like this is being vulnerable like this. So often people get wrapped up in the idea of being “perfect” and like they have everything together all the time, which in some ways can be harmful to not only the creator but the viewers. By you opening up and sharing your story you have probably touched not only me, but so many other people but letting everybody know that this is real life, you go through real shit, with real emotions, and downfalls and that is okay. I can probably speak for everybody when I say I am so proud to be one of your subscribers now more than ever after this video. You have so much going for you Josie and it’s amazing that you’re willing to share your story. Thank you for that. Your honesty thoughts and feelings are valued and appreciate. Like my mom always tells me “this is a short segment in your life, it’s hard now but work towards better days not for anybody else but for yourself”❤️ lots of love Josie❤️
im proud of you for making a decision that will better you. i know exactly how you feel and actually had a scarily similar experience like yours. love you
Awww Josie!!🥺🥺 I’m so sorry you had to go through this! I just want you to know that so many people love you and we are here for you.💞 it will get better. Just keep pushing through it!🦋✨
Hey Josie, I can’t image what you are going through and what you went through . I hope you continue getting better you deserve the world. Don’t think you aren’t I hope you have an amazing break at home I love you so much if you need someone to talk to just let me know I’m 18 and a lot of shit happens but we have to continue being strong!! ♡
This video really changed my perspective on forcing myself to be “fine” in college versus going home to give myself the time and space to fully recover and be ok and well and happy in an environment I feel comfortable in & where I feel like I belong. Thank you for your honesty. Influencers like yourself being honest about mental health is so important to show the world that nobody’s life is perfect. Thank you thank you thank you. I wish you all the best ❤️
I’ve been struggling with the exact same thing recently. I’ve been very suicidal and felt no purpose in life and was in inpatient for 10 days. It’s such a hard experience and it really sucks but you are such an important, kind and loving person. You are so incredibly strong for sharing your story. I commend you and I’m so incredibly proud of you.
You are beautiful and you dont deserve to talk bad about yourself because what you said like you havent been happy you met Mya Benway so you have been happy. YOU ARE AMAZING❤️
aw Josie!!! College can be something else I totally feel you💛💛
This hit me so hard that I just cried along with you. But stay stong sweetie, you got this. I love you.💙
i really feel this because i go to an extremely competitive high school and i got a b in on of my classes and i have never felt so sad in life. i felt like such a disappointment especially with the pressure of sisters success. i did not hurt my self but i felt so sad and i had so many self harm thoughts. i feel like this video really helped me out to feel like someone else wasting through it with me. thank you josie for opening your self up and sharing this with us
It breaks my heart every time you invalidate yourself! You are so strong and amazing and the fact that you want to share your story to help people is spreading so much more positivity than trying to pretend you’re happy for a video. Know that you are so loved, stay strong. It’s ok to not be ok, but I hope you feel better soon.💗💗💗
Thank you for sharing your story. You really helped my daughter who is going through a rough time. Thank you for being real and being vulnerable. You are blessed to have such a loving family! Blessings for a full recovery!
Thank you so much for being so real! Your videos are something that gives your followers relatability. You are being open about your struggles and it allows your viewers to relate, and feel better. Your vlogs are always so wholesome. So many content creators vlog their “perfect” lives and that isn’t really their lives, and the viewers get insecure abt their own lives. So I commend you for being so brave and sharing this story with us. I really appreciate it, as do most of the people who saw it! I can’t wait to see what amazing things you achieve in the future, and I wish you the best of luck in finding what makes you happy and in achieving your goals😊🙏🏻❤️
thank you for sharing your story. i have never seen someone be so honest and open on the internet about their mental health struggles and you inspire me to know that i’m not alone. thank you so so much josie ❤️
i look up to and love you so much because you truly have saved my life without even knowing it, and i’m here one year later and i am SO proud of you and how much you have grown. and i’m so happy that you have spent time and gotten yourself to a place where you can be happy. ILYSM JOSIE!!
get well soon I’m glad u made the right decision for u💓stay strong u can get thru anything🥰💓
i’m so glad u pulled through. i’ve looked up to u for a while and i’m so glad ur still here. it gets better! stay strong! happy 19th birthday 💜🦋
im bawling my eyes right now, i just lost my bestfriend to a suicide 2 days ago🥺🤧
Oh my gosh I am so sorry for your loss. Sending prayers your way❤️
i know you posted this 5 months ago but, i lost my preschool best friend to brain cancer and i know the pain and i am here to tell you that it doesn’t get easier because it’s impossible not to miss them but but you will get stronger from it and they will stay alive in your heart
you are such a strong beautiful person. this video gives me so much strength. pure unhappiness is the worst feeling ever. you are so loved by so many💞
Vulnerability makes you even stronger. Hang in their girly, it’s going to get better just takes time ❤️
Thanks for sharing this Josie youre so brave. Your just such an inspiring person and everyone appreciates you being so raw and vulnerable. Continue being vulnerable cuz thats what makes you strong and human. So proud of you! Youre so much more stronger than whats ahead of you, never forget that! We love you! 💞
im a freshman in college && also have anxiety & depression ( been dealing with this for years ) moving away from home and starting a new life has been so incredibly difficult for me. i know how you feel and i’m so happy you’re doing better. i’m sending so much love to you, you’re so strong. this helped me so much.
I think it’s important for you to know that so many of us have gone through the same type of situations, and we’re all in this together! I went to the hospital for anxiety reasons and I stopped eating and it was really bad and the hospital can be really scary but youre not alone in having that experience! Thank you so much for shedding light on something that so many people experience as well and for doing what you need to do for your health, sometimes we gotta just focus on our mental health before anything else and it’s totally okay
this absolutely breaks my heart. i want nothing but the best for you Josie. we are all here supporting and rooting for you. you can get through this. you are stronger than your biggest weaknesses. so proud of you
josie, i am so proud of you! you never deserve to be alone and if you need to talk to someone then talk to whoever is closest. i am sure they will help you!!! you are never alone and will always have someone! i am happy you are taking the break! hope you start to feel well and help yourself! ❤️❤️ feel better soon! ilysm❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
This hurt my heart to watch and almost made me cry 💔. I’m so sorry that you had to go through this and I’m super super glad that you’re okay!! I’ve never experienced depression and severe anxiety but I have a couple of friends who do. Recently, one of my friends overdosed and moved out of my dorm (I go to a boarding high school). I haven’t been able to get in contact with her much which sucks because I have so many questions and I just want to talk with her. I miss her. I know that not everyone that gets diagnosed with mental health disorders experience feelings the exact same ways but this video definitely gave me a look on how she might have felt at the time. Thank you for sacrificing your vulnerability to a place that can be so detrimental as social media can be in hopes of helping others. You speaking up has taken me some steps farther from worrying and has lifted a weight off of my chest ❤️❤️❤️
taking time for yourself is so important. if you feel overwhelmed take a break. nobody should go through this i’m so sorry.
This is so real and raw, we’ve All had moments like this.I hope everything gets better❤️
you will get through this, I’ve had similar experiences of depression and anxiety in the past. you’ve got this josie, i know it’s hard but everything will be okay. i’m sending love to you and your family, you are so loved xxx
there was a whole week where i’d come back from school and sit here and watch all of your videos and i couldn’t get enough of them, i loved them! you always seemed so happy and full of joy and to know that you felt a whole different way behind the camera absolutely breaks my heart. you inspire me, your outfits, your life style, everything! i love you josie and you will get through this.
tears ran down my face watching this bc i actually feel this. stay strong. ily
I relate to what you are saying so much. please please please know that you are not alone. I take medication too and have been at the point where you are. The pressure to be perfect and to be on top of everything can be overwhelming but please know that you are supported by so many of your friends and followers and that you are loved. stay strong and we are here for you 💕
I'm feeling way less lonely after this video... thank you for sharing❤️
I went through a similar thing about 6 months ago (1st semester of my senior year of high school) school is so draining and you can sometimes get into a genuinely dark place. U are so strong to be sharing this with us, hope you are doing well girly I love you. 💗💗💗
so proud of u gurl! you are amazing Josie💞
Sent this to some of my friends who i know have been thru this and they said it made them feel so much better! Your a true blessing josie jabs. I love you with my whole heart. Keep pushing
Josie, this summer I cane across your account. You inspired me so so much. I binged liked all your videos in a day. I was so sad and not feeling enough. I always thought how can she be sad she is beautiful and she looks so positive. You inspired me to become a better version of myself so thank you
You are so so loved you have no idea ❤️❤️ You will get through this I promise ! Good things are coming ❤️
College is so hard. So freaking hard. I go to college in nyc and the major I’m in is really difficult on top of being in that really cut throat and fast environment. I lived on campus my freshman year and I hated my life. I luckily was only an hour and a half away from home but I hated my life. I was lonely, I had no friends, I became depressed and had so many health problems. My anxiety became so much worse and I just hated everything. I commute to school now and while it was one of the best decisions I ever made, I still struggle with mental health issues and loneliness as well as lack of friends. I’m bad at this whole growing up thing and college has really worn me down. I can’t really transfer because I want to save money but hopefully it’ll get better. Thank you so much for sharing your story
Depression is a horrible feeling, I empathize so much with your story and are glad your on a path back to happiness. You are loved! 💚❤️
Your the most gorgeous girl ever I’m so sorry you have to go through this !💞 stay strong you got this
you are so strong Josie. I have been through a lot of mental health trauma and ended up spending 7 consecutive months in the hospital last year. It was awful but everyday I smile and tell myself how proud I am of how far I have come and how happy I am that I have survived. You are beautiful and capable and never stop fighting for self-love. I am here for you and you will get through this sweet girl.
I just wanted you to know that I have always related to you and love how honest and real you are thank you for continuing UA-cam I love you 🥺🥺❤️❤️
dont worry everyone is here for you and it’s normal to feel that way and don’t be worried at all everyone loves you and are here for you 💕💕
Hey I just want to let u know that sis we don’t care abt you posting frequently we care abt you that’s the whole reason why we watch u. We love u and If u need a break TAKE IT! Please I want u to be okay! Therapy is great! Please do it!!!!!!!
Thank you so much for sharing your story just remember to stay strong and everyone is here to support you xxx
I’m so proud of you for sharing your story which is an incredibly hard thing for youtubers to do. I believe that you are on the right road to recovery and will be there shortly. Your toughness is inspiring and encouraging to others. Keep doing you and the best is yet to come.
watching back on this video is so emotional now bc i’m going through the exact same thing right now. i was enrolled in college and couldn’t go bc of my mental health and now im doing online but hearing your experience helps me alot❤
this hurt my heart but thank u 3000 for throwing away fear and opening up. your story matters
Here’s a virtual hug 🤗 ❤️
i’m so so sorry for you!! You will get thru this! much love from Germany 🥺❤️❤️
You sharing makes people who have the same struggles feel like they are not alone and stronger. Honestly thank you :)
Josie i really really needed this right now. I've been so lost, just thank you🥺❤
been here since day one, i am so unbelievably proud! xx you will forever have my support, I'm so proud that you shared this.... thank you for everything
your one of my favorite youtubers! you make some of the best yt videos that I have watched. that’s why we love you and look up to you because your someone that is passionate about their job and keeping us entertained. thanks for sharing this hard story ❤️
girl you’re not a burden you are strong. we aren’t just your subs we’re your friends and we are so incredibly proud of you!! i love you girl and thank you for sharing your story. it doesn’t just help me but everyone around you. i love you, josie 💗💗💗
I am beyond grateful for you. Watching this may have made me cry, but it was mostly because I am so happy that you are for once putting yourself first by taking this time to heal and find who you are. There will still be bad days but you will soon see that there’s a million reasons to love yourself and your life. Always know you have me and all these amazing people cheering you on. I love you Josie. You got this.
I'm so glad that you're okay and taking some time to heal yourself! don't ever feel bad about mental health or like a burden because you definitely aren't. I suffer with anxiety and panic disorder so I can relate to you on some degree. It got so bad at one point over the summer where I literally wasn't leaving my house for weeks at a time. I was literally just laying in bed and getting up like twice a day, completely unmotivated, it was horrible. so I totally understand how difficult it can be, especially to talk about it! Also, I'm actually taking my college courses online this quarter as well, so we're in the same boat with that! I'm glad to hear you're gonna try looking into therapy again because that is one thing that has helped me so much, so I hope it can do the same for you! Mental health is always going to be ups and downs but happiness will come and there is so much beauty in the world left to enjoy. Just remember it's okay to take as much time as you need because your mental health is always the top priority. You seem like such a wonderful person and I'm sending positive vibes your way Josie! 💕
I'm so sorry you went through this Josie, your such a strong person and I look up to you so much. I was suicidal at one point and hearing your story made me feel better, to know that people like you go through the same types of things. You are helping us by sharing your story and journey. I truly wish you all the best in your recovery ❤️
i love u, u are honestly one of my fav youtubers! i luv how open and honest u are.
wow, this just shows how brave you are. i adore everything about you and i am so beyond sorry you have felt so low. you are so amazing and we all love you so very much.
i’m watching is video on 2/16/20 and on this day last year i found out that one of my sisters really close friends committed suicide, it just takes such a toll on everybody’s lives and is very hard. i’m so happy you survived, you are such a big inspiration to SO many girls and boys on this earth and you have such a powerful meaning to everyone. thank you sm for talking about this very hard subject! you are loved and appreciated ❤️❤️
i really hope you get better, because i love watching you everyday and i look up to you because i feel like you are such a big inspiration. I love you and we all love you so much! we need you in our lives❤️
It absolutely broke my heart hearing this. You deserve so much more than this and I am hoping that you can gain your happiness and confidence back soon🤍
You’re an amazing person and thank you for sharing this and for being here and thank you for being you . Giving you lots of hugs 🤗 you’re worth so much never forget that ! You deserve the world ❤️❤️❤️❤️
so much love for you, sending you strength & love
I’m here for you and with you! One thing my parents told me when I was like this was to think about how it would affect other people not just you! I love you and everyone else does! We won’t a picture because your so wonderful! They also tell me to place your hand on your heart, you feel that, they say? Then they say it’s doing that bc god put you hear for a reason