Does anyone else push their emotions so far down that they forget what they feel like? I used to hate the feeling of love, hate, happiness, sadness, etc. but now I miss knowing what it felt like at least. Now all I feel is tiered… it kinda hurts only feeling that one thing yk, the worst part is it’s only me that feels this way and is I try to tell people but then I’m “just being dramatic” or whatever people don’t get it. Everyone and everything sucks….
Me and my sister have a very close relationship, and lately we haven’t been talking, or bonding much, so I diedied to walk into her room and just talk and a say hi, and I mentioned something and she snapped at me. I just walked away and said “ok, so you’re mad at me.” And she said nothing. I know I’ve been more annoying, because I’ve been more clingy, I have very bad attachment issues, so when people show me any attention I get attached. When I got into my room I started balling. I’m crying rn. I know it’s so stupid, but I have severe anxiety and depression and recently it’s been getting bad, and it’s been showing out as like being rlly angry or being rlly annoying and clingy. And I feel so fucking annoying rn. I don’t wanna be here anymore. It’s not even just rn for my sister, I’m just now realizing that I feel like I’m such a disappointment for my whole family. Me and my sister have a 6 year age difference, so she’s decently older than me, and Ik a lot of siblings with that age gap don’t talk much and don’t bond, but damn, I don’t even know rn. I wanna apologize. I want to do something. But I also want to just not talk to her. Ignore her, treat her as if we’re just roommates and I have no interest in her, but I do. I really want to do something. I know this is stupid, but I’ve been getting yelled at more recently by my parents, then I don’t have the closest relationship with my younger brother, and now it’s the only person in my household who I can talk to freely, and just gets me. Now she’s mad at me. The one who can always tell when something’s wrong, the one who can tell when I’ve been crying, the one who I have movie nights with and we watch Christmas and little kid Disney movies together so we can have are childhood back that was short lived. I fucked that up. I know this will probably pass but damn. I don’t know. I think my whole household hates me, they so me so much love and support. But when I mess up I get yelled at. Which Ik everyone does. But I feel like I’m a burden, like I’m just fucking up there lives. They have to pay for my therapy which isn’t even helping, my many psychological appointments, and soon meds. I feel like it would’ve been better if they just skipped me, and I wasn’t born and my brother was. I know I’m escalating the situation but I can’t stop thinking. Ty for listening❤
My dear friend, I know you're struggling right now, and my heart aches for you. Even in your darkest moments, please remember that you are not alone. I'm here, ready to listen and support you in any way I can. When storms rage in our lives, it's so hard to find the light. But I promise you, the clouds will part and the sun will shine again. This pain is only temporary. Brighter days are coming. You have such strength and resilience. I admire your courage to face each new day, no matter how difficult. I'm proud of you for fighting this battle. Even small steps forward are progress. If you need to talk or vent, I'm here. No judgment, just open ears and an open heart. You can lean on me, cry on me, or just sit with me in silence. I'm by your side through it all. Please don't give up. I believe in you, even when you don't believe in yourself. With time and care, you'll make it through this. And I'll be cheering for you the whole way. You've got this, my friend. Sending all my love your way. 🤗
i cut myself but they don’t fucking bleed anymore so it doesn’t feel as good as it used to. i’ve been using sharper knives and cutting harder yet it doesn’t FUCKING bleed why is this happening
Vent tw If I hurt someone again mentally or physically I'll do more damage to myself I'm sorry to anyone I hurt I can't control my anger I know it's a accuse but it's the reason you got hurt. Content I got in a fight with my younger sibling and Im pretty sure I hurt them mentally (I have really bad anger issues to the point Im scared of myself at times I'm scared I'll hurt someone) I'm sad my favorite person feels more distant lately I remember talking so much to them I use to lose sleep thinking about them they were there for me I felt happy I felt like I had a purpose but when I'm not talking to them as much anymore I feel a bit empty I felt a overweight feeling about them but it's not love at least I don't think so I've been in love before but it didn't feel like this what did I feel about them?
she’s so much better than me, she has a good relationship with her bf, dresses better, doesn’t get too attached, I’m the exact opposite of that goddamn I’m a fucking failure lmao.
Does anyone else push their emotions so far down that they forget what they feel like? I used to hate the feeling of love, hate, happiness, sadness, etc. but now I miss knowing what it felt like at least. Now all I feel is tiered… it kinda hurts only feeling that one thing yk, the worst part is it’s only me that feels this way and is I try to tell people but then I’m “just being dramatic” or whatever people don’t get it. Everyone and everything sucks….
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Me and my sister have a very close relationship, and lately we haven’t been talking, or bonding much, so I diedied to walk into her room and just talk and a say hi, and I mentioned something and she snapped at me. I just walked away and said “ok, so you’re mad at me.” And she said nothing. I know I’ve been more annoying, because I’ve been more clingy, I have very bad attachment issues, so when people show me any attention I get attached. When I got into my room I started balling. I’m crying rn. I know it’s so stupid, but I have severe anxiety and depression and recently it’s been getting bad, and it’s been showing out as like being rlly angry or being rlly annoying and clingy. And I feel so fucking annoying rn. I don’t wanna be here anymore. It’s not even just rn for my sister, I’m just now realizing that I feel like I’m such a disappointment for my whole family. Me and my sister have a 6 year age difference, so she’s decently older than me, and Ik a lot of siblings with that age gap don’t talk much and don’t bond, but damn, I don’t even know rn. I wanna apologize. I want to do something. But I also want to just not talk to her. Ignore her, treat her as if we’re just roommates and I have no interest in her, but I do. I really want to do something. I know this is stupid, but I’ve been getting yelled at more recently by my parents, then I don’t have the closest relationship with my younger brother, and now it’s the only person in my household who I can talk to freely, and just gets me. Now she’s mad at me. The one who can always tell when something’s wrong, the one who can tell when I’ve been crying, the one who I have movie nights with and we watch Christmas and little kid Disney movies together so we can have are childhood back that was short lived. I fucked that up. I know this will probably pass but damn. I don’t know. I think my whole household hates me, they so me so much love and support. But when I mess up I get yelled at. Which Ik everyone does. But I feel like I’m a burden, like I’m just fucking up there lives. They have to pay for my therapy which isn’t even helping, my many psychological appointments, and soon meds. I feel like it would’ve been better if they just skipped me, and I wasn’t born and my brother was. I know I’m escalating the situation but I can’t stop thinking.
Ty for listening❤
im sorry, i hope your better now ml♥
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are you okay everyone? come on, let it out.. don't be scared
I won't be alive my infection is worse there's nothing I can do.
i’m going to hit the bone on my arm
I'm done I js can't anymore
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My dear friend, I know you're struggling right now, and my heart aches for you. Even in your darkest moments, please remember that you are not alone. I'm here, ready to listen and support you in any way I can.
When storms rage in our lives, it's so hard to find the light. But I promise you, the clouds will part and the sun will shine again. This pain is only temporary. Brighter days are coming.
You have such strength and resilience. I admire your courage to face each new day, no matter how difficult. I'm proud of you for fighting this battle. Even small steps forward are progress.
If you need to talk or vent, I'm here. No judgment, just open ears and an open heart. You can lean on me, cry on me, or just sit with me in silence. I'm by your side through it all.
Please don't give up. I believe in you, even when you don't believe in yourself. With time and care, you'll make it through this. And I'll be cheering for you the whole way. You've got this, my friend. Sending all my love your way. 🤗
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i cut myself but they don’t fucking bleed anymore so it doesn’t feel as good as it used to. i’ve been using sharper knives and cutting harder yet it doesn’t FUCKING bleed why is this happening
I told my boy best friend I had a crush on him and he said "well okay"
Vent tw
If I hurt someone again mentally or physically I'll do more damage to myself I'm sorry to anyone I hurt I can't control my anger I know it's a accuse but it's the reason you got hurt. Content I got in a fight with my younger sibling and Im pretty sure I hurt them mentally (I have really bad anger issues to the point Im scared of myself at times I'm scared I'll hurt someone) I'm sad my favorite person feels more distant lately I remember talking so much to them I use to lose sleep thinking about them they were there for me I felt happy I felt like I had a purpose but when I'm not talking to them as much anymore I feel a bit empty I felt a overweight feeling about them but it's not love at least I don't think so I've been in love before but it didn't feel like this what did I feel about them?
0:24 can someone explain I don't get it
It’s talking about using the pins to self harm I believe
she’s so much better than me, she has a good relationship with her bf, dresses better, doesn’t get too attached, I’m the exact opposite of that goddamn I’m a fucking failure lmao.
Real.
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