I’m tearing up hearing Trixie talk about how she used to perceive her ambition as a positive thing, but now sees it as the response to a very traumatic upbringing. And I feel that. Being so poor so young, for so long. And coming out in a positive light. It’s inspirational. Truly Trixie. You mean so much to me and everyone. The vulnerability is so special. And I feel grateful to hear more in depth about the person you are.
Gentle reminder: "You are under no obligation to be the same person you were yesterday."💕 Thank you for being real and raw with us Trixie 💝 I'm sure we all appreciate your honestly and vulnerability 💖🙏
Y’all - Trixie is coming here to have us help her learn the power of saying NO to some things so she can say YES to other things… and I think we ALL support this. EDIT: also David as a guest experience is always welcome. Love you both. Enjoy your success (and the AC).
I have always loved how vulnerable you are and how up front you are about your struggles and feelings. Despite your narrative that you're a private person, something that has always drawn me to you and your drag has been how truly real you are. Beyond the looks, beyond the singing ability, beyond the autoharp and guitar, beyond the comedy, you're still a human being and you've never lost that part of yourself. Thank you so much for your vulnerability and thank you for being you. We love you and are behind you with whatever direction your career takes you.
I think most of us here appreciate all the joy you bring us and the hard work it takes to create it. You don’t owe us anything, but thanks for checking in. I am happy to stand by while you do what you gotta do. Just know we are rooting for you and wishing you well. ❤
yes ,most 13 year olds don't have the ability to really see what type of person she is and continue to throw money her way when in reality she's just awful
As a first-generation doctor coming from a poor family in a poor country, I felt this so much. Thank you for being vulnerable with us 🥺 Hoping for you to get that work-life balance, Trixie!! 🫶
Thank you for being vulnerable on the chan-elle. Trixie, you have been working so hard for so long. Even during the pandemic, you used that time to pursue additional work. And while I know all of us fans appreciate all the work you do, you deserve time to rest. In your own words- "You've got time to grow." This is you growing into the next phase of your life where you can reap the benefits of all the work you've done in the past. Everyone who loves you just wants you to be happy and healthy. Rest, relax, connect with family. You are more than enough just by being you. Cheers to you getting more rest and relaxation in your life ❤
Long time depressed person here, and I resonate with this a ton. Early life trauma follows us so much, and boundaries are SO important. Thank you for prioritizing YOU!
"Breathe through the hardest times because it's all temporary." Thanks Trixie, I cried when I heard that and desperately needed to hear it. You are so smart to start prioritizing your family over work. I have just learned the hard way that time with family is limited and when it's gone you can't ever get it back. It is much more valuable than money.
Trixie Babe.. we are so happy you are entering this new era of self-discovery and healing. You've worked so hard and we are happy to see you taking a moment to enjoy the fruits of your labor. Feel free to disconnect, go off grid, go wild boo! we'll always be here cheering you on and ready to consume any and all content you throw our way. Enjoy the life you've built! We ❤ you.
I’m not only absolutely blown away by your self awareness and vulnerability but also so touched by how much you mean to so many people. You have created a joyful personality in Trixie that is always going to be our friend. You’ve worked so hard for so long; I hope you can now let yourself enjoy what you’ve built. Love you Trixie
You aren't a hugger, but I hope you feel us all sending you SO much love. Brandon, Nick and especially David, please make sure she realizes just how much she means to you and us. ❤️❤️❤️
Trust your intuition Trixie. If your gut is telling you that you need to spend more time with loved ones, reconnect with your roots and address things in your past you haven't dealt with, trust yourself that it's correct. We adore you and of course, live for the fact that you bring us your content and company regularly, but if you need to take time out and be in Wisconsin for a bit, we will be here for you later on too, because we adore you and consider you our fam. Do what's best for YOU gal XOXO
You aren’t alone Trixie, when I’m stressed I don’t eat either. Please take care of yourself, thank you for sharing your struggles, it’s not something we take lightly we know you are a private person thank you for sharing. You are a beautiful person inside and out and experiencing ups and downs is life itself playing out. You did all of this by yourself, you are an absolute powerhouse. However, it’s okay to not be okay and don’t let yourself feel disappointed or weakened by it. We love you and the team. ❤
Thank you for your vulnerability with this video! As someone who lost their Mom back in January of this year, yes, please go see your Mom as much as possible! I took my Mom to the Indy show during tour Moving Parts Tour, and she absolutely loved it! You and Katya were her favorite drag queens! Thanks for bringing us even closer together 💜
Like, she literally says "These past couple months have been really difficult. I haven't been eating as much ... " And people are like "Yes, skinny queen, slay!!"
It is absolutely OK to want to take a step back and re-prioritize your life. You and Katya have been a source of laughter, comfort, and joy to me for the last three years. We want you to feel all the happiness and joy that you’ve brought us for so many years.
Half of the time I was crying with Nick’s comebacks and the other half I was crying bc of how vulnerable you’re being with us. I recently discovered you and I have to say, no other drag queen has made the impact you’ve done. Thanks for being so vulnerable but remember we would never blame you for taking mental health time. We are all human. You’re so loved, Trixie
This was exactly what I needed today. I’m about to turn 20 and have lived a year with my chronic illness and the whole priority shift is absolutely something I’m feeling. The change is constant but thankfully I’m at the point where I feel like maybe it’s enlightening and I’m coming out the other side.
This is probably my favourite video of yours. Not because you struggled, but because you are at the crux of a change, and felt like you could share it with the world. You are a beacon of love, humour, joy, and wackiness, and you are cherished and beloved in this Universe. Be gentle with yourself, and remember to enjoy the ride. This too shall pass!
Thanks for sharing. The effed up thing about childhood trauma is it loves resurfacing when you finally feel safe and are doing well…when your brain can “handle” it… allegedly.
came here to speak on this! the same thing happened to me. as soon as i was in a stable place in my life and in a healthy relationship my brain felt safe to deal with things i hadn't dealt with and i feel that's also what she is describing here.
Born and raised in an abusive cult ✌🏻 so this really resonated. Cutting out negative self talk and recognizing where my trauma is popping up presently. Words of wisdom: The only person you can control is you. The only time you can control is now. Don’t stress abt others, the past, or the future 💗
Trixiieeee I’m so sorry you have been struggling! A couple years ago I had to basically stop everything to handle all the unresolved trauma from my childhood and teen years and it was very emotionally draining. But it’s so worth it and you are an amazing soul and you bring so much joy to others by just existing and being you. Thank you for all you do and being vulnerable. We love you !!!❤️❤️❤️
Burnout, Trixie. So many people are going through it. We got a chance to smell the roses, rest, and reconnect in 2020 (even though we were freaking out). I come from similar roots. It’s an endless pursuit to get to the top of the hill for safety. But…eventually you get to the top and realize you just want to slow time and soak life in. Soak it in ❤️❤️❤️
My childhood was really hard. I understand 100% what it’s like to have your trauma and problems catch up with you randomly. I’ve been there all last year. I hope Trixie is doing better now and I hope she takes all the time she needs.
Miss Tracy Martel, we support you no matter what you do!!! We all love seeing you in drag BUT you deserve your precious personal space and life!! You are so beautiful and so strong and have been an inspiration for me and so many other people. You deserve to feel safe and secure in taking time for YOU. We love you queen🫶🏻
trixie, as a lifelong fan, please don't be afraid to live your life outside of drag. your happiness means so much to us as fans, and i'm sure we'd all be equally as happy to see you thriving in your personal life as we'd be seeing you perform
As someone who grew up not far from your neck of the woods in similar circumstances, it's been so amazing and exciting to watch your incredible rise and success. But it's just as powerful and meaningful to hear you talk about these important things too. Thank you, Trixie. Please take care of yourself xo
Since I started watching UNHhhh in 2020 during the pandemic, you have been a light source in some of my darkest times. But I never stopped to understand or think that maybe you weren't having your brightest times. Those around you are the most essential thing in life; whether that is friends, family, or partners, you cannot be fulfilled without them. Your priorities are valid and healthy, and part of why the character of Trixie has been something I have loved for 3 years is your vulnerability. Though Trixie might be a little less in the limelight, I will support your newfound goals and hope that Trixie Mattel becomes even brighter in the coming years.
Came across this video after watching the hiatus announcement video and I'm so glad you're taking the 3 months to nurture yourself as BRIAN. Proud of you.
Trixie, I had a traumatic childhood, and didn't really confront till I was 30 and had cut back on drinking and working for >1yr, so it's possible you're finally ready to work through it and allow yourself to heal. You've got this! Don't forget to lean on your community, you're not alone. It's ok to slow down. 💜
1000% support you taking time for yourself and your family to rest and reconnect, Trixie. It was honestly really helpful to hear someone say things that I needed to hear while you were giving yourself permission to rest, also giving us permission to rest too. So thanks for the mutual catharsis talk. You're doing great and we love you. ❤
Thank you for being so open and honest. You hit that nerve. The struggle is real coming from a poor family and always afraid of the things you have being taken from you or not knowing where your next meal is going to come from. Thank you for sharing.
I can’t explain how special and important this video is. I hope your “up swing” continues and you keep feeling positive and find the balance you’ve been searching for. ❤️ you deserve to enjoy the life you’ve built for yourself!
We support you Trixie ❤ You have given the fans so much over the years, and you deserve to take a step back and focus on your long term personal goals. We will always be along for the ride!
The conversation around slowing down and not dedicating all of your time to professional work was incredibly relatable. Its a reminder that I have to give myself sometimes; to just stop and enjoy something just for the sake of enjoying it.❤
Trixie I relate to you so much. I quit drinking and my trauma came after me. A bunch of years of unprocessed emotions hit at the same time. Hopefully, you have a great support system to lean on as everything happens. Keep prioritizing the things that actually will matter when you look back. We'll all still be here. Also, I love that flamingo mural. You're fabulous ❤
I'm very excited for all your new possibilities. Being an adult and trying to accept that you've been a bit emotionally detached is difficult. Takes courage to crack open that door you've kept closed. Also, we love a cuddly David to support you.
Trixie PLEASE take more time for yourself! Your fans all love you so much, no one is going to be mad if there isn't a new video/interview/appearance or whatever every single day of the week. You absolutely deserve to have more of a personal life.
Okay Trix, how did you know we all needed this vid of you?? A glorified trauma response. That really sat deep with me. You talking out loud helps you help us helping you which helps us etc. etc. The better you treat your self, the better we feel too! Can't have our TRIX without her re-TREAT time for herself!!! xoxoxo
Hearing you be this vulnerable and open about the direction you want to take your life in and being as transparent as you have been about the factors that have made you the ambitious freak you are is truly inspiring. I see how difficult and awkward expressing this all has been for you as a private person and it brings me so much comfort to know you have realized how important it is to slow down and actually be present in your life. You absolutely deserve that. We’re the same age and from similar social backgrounds and it is sometimes like looking in a mirror for me. I’m coming to very similar realizations about my life. I think back on all the things I’ve sacrificed to have the life I have now and while I wouldn’t say I regret anything, I definitely don’t have to keep making the same level of sacrifices. I can reprioritize. I don’t have to constantly keep running just to keep my head above water. Hearing you say out loud things I’ve been thinking truly has been a wake up call. So, thank you for putting this part of yourself out there. It legitimately helped me.
Girl, we've all been waiting for you to take a break to process trauma and life. You're allowed to breathe, and take a break. We'll be here when you come back, if you do. And if not we'll be happily supporting you in your adventures
Sorry to hear you've been going through it. Thank you for being this open...but don't push past your boundaries. Whenever you want to talk, we are here for you.
You are one of the most self-aware people I listen to. Your personal insights are intelligent and thought-provoking. Thank you for sharing. You lead the way!!
watching this channel, watching UNHhhh, bald & the beautiful, queens who watch, your gigs, your tours/shows - everything you do is amazing. i think almost all of the fans can say that those forms of media has pulled us of some dark dark places. i hope you know what you do, the light, the laughter and the joy you can spread to people is amazing. we love you trixie.
It’s the self awareness and compassion for me… Perfectly healthy to take an assessment of where you are and habits cultivated to cope with prior experiences. So happy for you coming to a conclusion that scarcity mindset & survival mode are no longer required to navigate your success and overall well-being 🥰🥰🥰
I randomly discovered Unhhhh on UA-cam a few years ago, and you and Katya never fail to make me smile. You guys are the perfect palatte cleanser when I'm stuck in the library burried in dry uni work. You guys inspire me to construct a life that suits my needs, rather than try to shoehorn myself into some pre-determined archetype. Your drive and multifaceted skillset make me feel like anything is possible, and for that I'm grateful. I hope you take the time you need, and that you start to feel better soon. I appreciate you ❤
Bravo to Trixie for being "real." You're setting priorities for your personal life. That's self care. That's self love. Thanks for reminding us how essential that is! ❤
Trixie you are amazing! Understanding you and your boundaries is sooo important. You take care of you when you need to. Past is what built you, but it doesn’t need to hold you in place or push you places you don’t want to be. Just love you so much!!!
Loved this beyond expression. Whenever I’m having a bad day/unmotivated day, I ALWAYS think to myself “Think of everything that Trixie does in a day.” I’ve respected and idealized your hustle for SO long. But it’s refreshing to hear that maybe it isn’t the healthiest. Proud of you! ❤
this is now one of my favorite Trixie videos. seeing you be open and honest is so refreshing. we love you for everything you are and want nothing but the best for you (and david 💖)
I’m so glad you are prioritizing your family! I started doing the same a couple years ago and my dad unexpectedly passed at the end of last year… I’m so grateful that I had the time with him that I did!
I’m catching up on Trixie videos after isolating for so long and focusing on what I need to do to just get through the day. I cannot tell you how badly I needed to hear “everything is temporary, you’re not stuck” and now I’m crying in the break room at work. 🖤
Wanting more real-life time is absolutely okay! Taking care of the person behind the drag is so important. I'm sure having your life revolve around Trixie makes it hard to give love and attention to Brian. Brian is just as important as Trixie! Without Brian, there would be no Trixie! Sending you all the love! 💖
This makes me think of when Katya said “there’s nothing worse than a drag queen who doesn’t wanna do it” You are the hardest working queen and you need a break. Thank you for sharing all of this with us
trixie!! thank you for following your passions and persevering despite the fear. i know all too well the anxiety surrounding money insecurity, the trauma response of feeling as if you have to grind 24/7 so you don't fall behind, etc. it means a lot that you feel comfortable enough to share these feelings with your audience.
Thank you for saying all this, Trixie. I think the society overall puts this insane expectation that everyone should always prioritize their career or jobs, because in a way that is seen as "putting yourself first". But we are not defined exclusively by what we work on, our lives are so more than that. Taking time to meet with friends, family, prioritize life events, or just do nothing all day, that is also a way of putting ourselves first. Unfortunately we have always been taught that overworking is a virtue and something to aspire - I prefer to think that we should aspire as much as possible for a balanced relation with career and everything else in life. And it's never too late to change this society imposed mindset. ❤
Getting the happiest and most whole version of you would be the greatest gift as someone who appreciates you so much 💗 You've given me so much escape and laughter which is amazing and I'm so grateful. You are not being selfish by putting yourself first more often. Congrats on this new chapter ❤
This is my favorite video of yours ever. I know you have (normal and healthy!) boundaries around sharing personal info, but this particular piece of sharing could not have come at a better time for me, and I appreciate the support of thoughts and feelings I've been having. I've watched it several times, and I'm going to watch it again. Now take a hiatus, take a vacation, go to every single thing you've been missing, and step away from the wigs!! They, and us, will be here when you get back.
Aww, Trixie 🥹 it’s so sweet to see your more vulnerable side. Happy for you to have more time for what matters most. And love you and David. Cutest couple.
Hi Trixie, I’m sorry you’ve been having a hard time lately. You don’t need to share it with us, but thank you for doing it (here and on the pod). I hope talking about it helped a little bit to lighten up the burden? Anyway, please don’t feel guilty about taking time for yourself and taking care of yourself and your relationships! You’ve been giving us SO MUCH joy for the past how many years and you deserve to feel that joy back a hundred times. We love you!! On a lighter note love how you’re sharing personal stuff and then pausing to say the product name lmao only you!!
girl it's not only OK to slow down, it's necessary. no need to feel guilty. we're all here for whatever you do. i never wore makeup in my life and i'm here every monday. it's not the makeup, it's not the content, it's you. whatever and however much you decide to do in the future, i'll be there, too. take care of yourself, love you ❤️
Trixie your vulnerability has always been admirable and it’s important to take breaks when you need them. Metal health matters! I hope you’re doing okay and taking care of yourself ❤️
So glad you're taking time for yourself and your family. You've given so much to us, you deserve to take breaks. We will be here whenever you want us. ❤
I was just rewatching s7 of drag race and it’s wild to see the transformation you’ve gone through and everything you’ve accomplished. You’ve put in an insane amount of work to get to where you are and thank you for that 💓 No one is more deserving of a break and you time than Trixie
It is not until you are older that past trauma comes up, and you realise how you work and cope in response to that. This includes how you work and your personal relationships. Thanks for sharing , you are not alone. You are gorgeous as usual inside and out.
Thank you for being vulnerable🙏🏽 And I’m pleased you’re reevaluating your work life balance. You health, relationship and well being are a priority. You’re an icon. Already! 🙌🏼😊💜🙏🏽😘
Trixie our queen. You are beautiful inside and out. How refreshing it is to see your vulnerable side. You do so much for us fans with your shows and podcasts and music and so much more. You need to spend time with your family and friends and David. You deserve a vacation and time to spend with them. Your fans love you and understand that you need to be with them too. And we will still be here waiting to see what amazing thing you do next.
I love what Miss Kitty said...."You are under no obligation to be the person you were yesterday." You will find the balance that matters to you and it changes from year to year. 💗
Thank you for being vulnerable with us. We appreciate it. But dont push yourself to share too much
Yes I agree, be safe and sane mama. ❤
Agreed. She’s given so much already. She owes us nothing. Very grateful for her honesty and transparency.
I think this is one of my favorite videos from her! ❤
It looks like she needed for it to come out. I think she’s in control of what she decides to put in the edited version
To be fair, there are hordes of fans trauma-dumping on Tracy every single day.
It was only a matter of time.
I’m tearing up hearing Trixie talk about how she used to perceive her ambition as a positive thing, but now sees it as the response to a very traumatic upbringing. And I feel that. Being so poor so young, for so long. And coming out in a positive light. It’s inspirational. Truly Trixie. You mean so much to me and everyone. The vulnerability is so special. And I feel grateful to hear more in depth about the person you are.
The casual way David massaged Trixie’s shoulders was so loving. It’s making me kind of emotional
i came here to say this! it was so beautiful and heartwarming.
same :””)
Mmm!
And when he walked away and came back then continued to do it 🥹
Gentle reminder: "You are under no obligation to be the same person you were yesterday."💕
Thank you for being real and raw with us Trixie 💝
I'm sure we all appreciate your honestly and vulnerability 💖🙏
Loved & needed that reminder, thank you 💜✨️
Y’all - Trixie is coming here to have us help her learn the power of saying NO to some things so she can say YES to other things… and I think we ALL support this. EDIT: also David as a guest experience is always welcome. Love you both. Enjoy your success (and the AC).
David coming in and kissing Trixie’s bald head and being all sweet is gonna make me cry. So cute 😭
I have always loved how vulnerable you are and how up front you are about your struggles and feelings. Despite your narrative that you're a private person, something that has always drawn me to you and your drag has been how truly real you are. Beyond the looks, beyond the singing ability, beyond the autoharp and guitar, beyond the comedy, you're still a human being and you've never lost that part of yourself. Thank you so much for your vulnerability and thank you for being you. We love you and are behind you with whatever direction your career takes you.
Hon, you gotta be 13 or older to have a YT account.
Oh no, someone made an emotional and supportive comment...let's get em!
🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩
You tryana make cry? 🥹
Lovely reflection and emotional intelligence
@@dragdiveoh no, someone doesn't know they're on a drag queens channel 🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩 drag queens make jokes, I thought you'd be familiar with one.
Trixie fans: Can we love Trixie even more?
Trixie: "posts this"
Only love and support to you, Trixie, thanks for sharing 🙏🏼🙏🏼
💯 ♥️ ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
I think most of us here appreciate all the joy you bring us and the hard work it takes to create it. You don’t owe us anything, but thanks for checking in. I am happy to stand by while you do what you gotta do. Just know we are rooting for you and wishing you well. ❤
yes ,most 13 year olds don't have the ability to really see what type of person she is and continue to throw money her way when in reality she's just awful
As a first-generation doctor coming from a poor family in a poor country, I felt this so much. Thank you for being vulnerable with us 🥺 Hoping for you to get that work-life balance, Trixie!! 🫶
❤ Doc Shar
Thank you for being vulnerable on the chan-elle. Trixie, you have been working so hard for so long. Even during the pandemic, you used that time to pursue additional work. And while I know all of us fans appreciate all the work you do, you deserve time to rest.
In your own words- "You've got time to grow." This is you growing into the next phase of your life where you can reap the benefits of all the work you've done in the past.
Everyone who loves you just wants you to be happy and healthy. Rest, relax, connect with family. You are more than enough just by being you.
Cheers to you getting more rest and relaxation in your life ❤
Long time depressed person here, and I resonate with this a ton. Early life trauma follows us so much, and boundaries are SO important. Thank you for prioritizing YOU!
Same. Still working through it all and glad to be learning who I am.
Trixie you're not changing. You are evolving ❤️❤️❤️❤️
"Breathe through the hardest times because it's all temporary." Thanks Trixie, I cried when I heard that and desperately needed to hear it. You are so smart to start prioritizing your family over work. I have just learned the hard way that time with family is limited and when it's gone you can't ever get it back. It is much more valuable than money.
Trixie Babe.. we are so happy you are entering this new era of self-discovery and healing. You've worked so hard and we are happy to see you taking a moment to enjoy the fruits of your labor. Feel free to disconnect, go off grid, go wild boo! we'll always be here cheering you on and ready to consume any and all content you throw our way. Enjoy the life you've built! We ❤ you.
I’m not only absolutely blown away by your self awareness and vulnerability but also so touched by how much you mean to so many people. You have created a joyful personality in Trixie that is always going to be our friend. You’ve worked so hard for so long; I hope you can now let yourself enjoy what you’ve built. Love you Trixie
You aren't a hugger, but I hope you feel us all sending you SO much love. Brandon, Nick and especially David, please make sure she realizes just how much she means to you and us. ❤️❤️❤️
Trust your intuition Trixie. If your gut is telling you that you need to spend more time with loved ones, reconnect with your roots and address things in your past you haven't dealt with, trust yourself that it's correct. We adore you and of course, live for the fact that you bring us your content and company regularly, but if you need to take time out and be in Wisconsin for a bit, we will be here for you later on too, because we adore you and consider you our fam. Do what's best for YOU gal XOXO
You aren’t alone Trixie, when I’m stressed I don’t eat either. Please take care of yourself, thank you for sharing your struggles, it’s not something we take lightly we know you are a private person thank you for sharing. You are a beautiful person inside and out and experiencing ups and downs is life itself playing out. You did all of this by yourself, you are an absolute powerhouse. However, it’s okay to not be okay and don’t let yourself feel disappointed or weakened by it. We love you and the team. ❤
I love and appreciate this comment .
Thank you for your vulnerability with this video! As someone who lost their Mom back in January of this year, yes, please go see your Mom as much as possible! I took my Mom to the Indy show during tour Moving Parts Tour, and she absolutely loved it! You and Katya were her favorite drag queens! Thanks for bringing us even closer together 💜
Take time to enjoy your successes and never apologize for it. Hard work pays off and you're inspirational in many ways!
How about we don't talk about Trixie's weight in the comments? Her body, her business. But what do I know?
I'm with you 💯
Honestly, people are so brave. Can we collectively touch grass and remember what is and isn't appropriate?
Like, she literally says "These past couple months have been really difficult. I haven't been eating as much ... "
And people are like "Yes, skinny queen, slay!!"
yesss
Yes please
I can't believe she's finally realizing how much of a workaholic she is and I'm here for Trixie's recovering era ❤
This is a genuinely touching watch. I love to see Trixie taking care of herself. You deserve it girl. We're so proud of you 💖
It is absolutely OK to want to take a step back and re-prioritize your life. You and Katya have been a source of laughter, comfort, and joy to me for the last three years. We want you to feel all the happiness and joy that you’ve brought us for so many years.
Half of the time I was crying with Nick’s comebacks and the other half I was crying bc of how vulnerable you’re being with us. I recently discovered you and I have to say, no other drag queen has made the impact you’ve done. Thanks for being so vulnerable but remember we would never blame you for taking mental health time. We are all human.
You’re so loved, Trixie
I'm glad it wasn't just me!
Trixie - it’s absolutely SO OKAY to make time for yourself and your family. We all love you SO MUCH.
This was exactly what I needed today. I’m about to turn 20 and have lived a year with my chronic illness and the whole priority shift is absolutely something I’m feeling. The change is constant but thankfully I’m at the point where I feel like maybe it’s enlightening and I’m coming out the other side.
sending lots of love to you. 🩷 (and happy early birthday!)
I feel you. I’ve been chronically ill since high school and I’m 31 now. You’re never alone, my love.
This is probably my favourite video of yours. Not because you struggled, but because you are at the crux of a change, and felt like you could share it with the world. You are a beacon of love, humour, joy, and wackiness, and you are cherished and beloved in this Universe.
Be gentle with yourself, and remember to enjoy the ride.
This too shall pass!
Thanks for sharing. The effed up thing about childhood trauma is it loves resurfacing when you finally feel safe and are doing well…when your brain can “handle” it… allegedly.
Yess, it truly sucks
Sooooo true.
came here to speak on this! the same thing happened to me. as soon as i was in a stable place in my life and in a healthy relationship my brain felt safe to deal with things i hadn't dealt with and i feel that's also what she is describing here.
I don’t think we truly realize how blessed we are to have someone like Trixie share a slice of the real thing with us.
Trixie Mattel looks absolutely gorgeous. Seems like she's dressed for the Gods and Goddesses.
she's losing weight really quick.
@@AerationalI mean, she runs. A lot of runners are really, really skinny
Born and raised in an abusive cult ✌🏻 so this really resonated. Cutting out negative self talk and recognizing where my trauma is popping up presently.
Words of wisdom:
The only person you can control is you.
The only time you can control is now.
Don’t stress abt others, the past, or the future 💗
Trixiieeee I’m so sorry you have been struggling! A couple years ago I had to basically stop everything to handle all the unresolved trauma from my childhood and teen years and it was very emotionally draining. But it’s so worth it and you are an amazing soul and you bring so much joy to others by just existing and being you. Thank you for all you do and being vulnerable. We love you !!!❤️❤️❤️
Same. Proud of you for doing the work!
Burnout, Trixie. So many people are going through it. We got a chance to smell the roses, rest, and reconnect in 2020 (even though we were freaking out). I come from similar roots. It’s an endless pursuit to get to the top of the hill for safety. But…eventually you get to the top and realize you just want to slow time and soak life in. Soak it in ❤️❤️❤️
My childhood was really hard. I understand 100% what it’s like to have your trauma and problems catch up with you randomly. I’ve been there all last year. I hope Trixie is doing better now and I hope she takes all the time she needs.
Miss Tracy Martel, we support you no matter what you do!!! We all love seeing you in drag BUT you deserve your precious personal space and life!! You are so beautiful and so strong and have been an inspiration for me and so many other people. You deserve to feel safe and secure in taking time for YOU. We love you queen🫶🏻
This is so truthfull, vulnerable and heartwarming, trixie you're loved.
trixie, as a lifelong fan, please don't be afraid to live your life outside of drag. your happiness means so much to us as fans, and i'm sure we'd all be equally as happy to see you thriving in your personal life as we'd be seeing you perform
Ugh the motel in the background, the style, the colours, the vibe! You've come so far, truly a do-it-all queen ❤️
She's rich, evolved, humble and iconic.
Girl just got a sponsor ship
As someone who grew up not far from your neck of the woods in similar circumstances, it's been so amazing and exciting to watch your incredible rise and success. But it's just as powerful and meaningful to hear you talk about these important things too. Thank you, Trixie. Please take care of yourself xo
Since I started watching UNHhhh in 2020 during the pandemic, you have been a light source in some of my darkest times. But I never stopped to understand or think that maybe you weren't having your brightest times. Those around you are the most essential thing in life; whether that is friends, family, or partners, you cannot be fulfilled without them. Your priorities are valid and healthy, and part of why the character of Trixie has been something I have loved for 3 years is your vulnerability. Though Trixie might be a little less in the limelight, I will support your newfound goals and hope that Trixie Mattel becomes even brighter in the coming years.
Came across this video after watching the hiatus announcement video and I'm so glad you're taking the 3 months to nurture yourself as BRIAN. Proud of you.
Trixie, I had a traumatic childhood, and didn't really confront till I was 30 and had cut back on drinking and working for >1yr, so it's possible you're finally ready to work through it and allow yourself to heal. You've got this! Don't forget to lean on your community, you're not alone. It's ok to slow down. 💜
1000% support you taking time for yourself and your family to rest and reconnect, Trixie. It was honestly really helpful to hear someone say things that I needed to hear while you were giving yourself permission to rest, also giving us permission to rest too. So thanks for the mutual catharsis talk. You're doing great and we love you. ❤
Thank you for being so open and honest. You hit that nerve. The struggle is real coming from a poor family and always afraid of the things you have being taken from you or not knowing where your next meal is going to come from. Thank you for sharing.
Omfg David coming in, rubbing your shoulders while talking to you… it might be the weed but I’m kinda tearing up a little girl. So precious.
I love watching Trixie, expecially in the last couple of years as she's started to open up, be vulnerable, and let us in more.
I can’t explain how special and important this video is. I hope your “up swing” continues and you keep feeling positive and find the balance you’ve been searching for. ❤️ you deserve to enjoy the life you’ve built for yourself!
We support you Trixie ❤ You have given the fans so much over the years, and you deserve to take a step back and focus on your long term personal goals. We will always be along for the ride!
The conversation around slowing down and not dedicating all of your time to professional work was incredibly relatable. Its a reminder that I have to give myself sometimes; to just stop and enjoy something just for the sake of enjoying it.❤
Trixie I relate to you so much. I quit drinking and my trauma came after me. A bunch of years of unprocessed emotions hit at the same time. Hopefully, you have a great support system to lean on as everything happens. Keep prioritizing the things that actually will matter when you look back. We'll all still be here. Also, I love that flamingo mural. You're fabulous ❤
I'm very excited for all your new possibilities. Being an adult and trying to accept that you've been a bit emotionally detached is difficult. Takes courage to crack open that door you've kept closed. Also, we love a cuddly David to support you.
Trixie PLEASE take more time for yourself! Your fans all love you so much, no one is going to be mad if there isn't a new video/interview/appearance or whatever every single day of the week. You absolutely deserve to have more of a personal life.
Vulnerable, but more importantly the break out character returns; DAVID!!!
Okay Trix, how did you know we all needed this vid of you??
A glorified trauma response. That really sat deep with me.
You talking out loud helps you help us helping you which helps us etc. etc. The better you treat your self, the better we feel too! Can't have our TRIX without her re-TREAT time for herself!!! xoxoxo
Reading all the comments is really lovely. So much resonance, struggles for sure are universal.
Hearing you be this vulnerable and open about the direction you want to take your life in and being as transparent as you have been about the factors that have made you the ambitious freak you are is truly inspiring. I see how difficult and awkward expressing this all has been for you as a private person and it brings me so much comfort to know you have realized how important it is to slow down and actually be present in your life. You absolutely deserve that.
We’re the same age and from similar social backgrounds and it is sometimes like looking in a mirror for me. I’m coming to very similar realizations about my life. I think back on all the things I’ve sacrificed to have the life I have now and while I wouldn’t say I regret anything, I definitely don’t have to keep making the same level of sacrifices. I can reprioritize. I don’t have to constantly keep running just to keep my head above water. Hearing you say out loud things I’ve been thinking truly has been a wake up call. So, thank you for putting this part of yourself out there. It legitimately helped me.
Girl, we've all been waiting for you to take a break to process trauma and life.
You're allowed to breathe, and take a break. We'll be here when you come back, if you do. And if not we'll be happily supporting you in your adventures
Sorry to hear you've been going through it. Thank you for being this open...but don't push past your boundaries. Whenever you want to talk, we are here for you.
Props to Nick for finding the balance of reading Trixie but also respecting her emotional vulnerability
Never did I ever think I'd tear up😢 watching a GRWM with Trixie 💜🇨🇦
You are one of the most self-aware people I listen to. Your personal insights are intelligent and thought-provoking. Thank you for sharing. You lead the way!!
watching this channel, watching UNHhhh, bald & the beautiful, queens who watch, your gigs, your tours/shows - everything you do is amazing. i think almost all of the fans can say that those forms of media has pulled us of some dark dark places. i hope you know what you do, the light, the laughter and the joy you can spread to people is amazing. we love you trixie.
It’s the self awareness and compassion for me…
Perfectly healthy to take an assessment of where you are and habits cultivated to cope with prior experiences. So happy for you coming to a conclusion that scarcity mindset & survival mode are no longer required to navigate your success and overall well-being 🥰🥰🥰
I randomly discovered Unhhhh on UA-cam a few years ago, and you and Katya never fail to make me smile. You guys are the perfect palatte cleanser when I'm stuck in the library burried in dry uni work. You guys inspire me to construct a life that suits my needs, rather than try to shoehorn myself into some pre-determined archetype. Your drive and multifaceted skillset make me feel like anything is possible, and for that I'm grateful. I hope you take the time you need, and that you start to feel better soon. I appreciate you ❤
Bravo to Trixie for being "real." You're setting priorities for your personal life. That's self care. That's self love. Thanks for reminding us how essential that is! ❤
Trixie you are amazing! Understanding you and your boundaries is sooo important. You take care of you when you need to. Past is what built you, but it doesn’t need to hold you in place or push you places you don’t want to be. Just love you so much!!!
Loved this beyond expression. Whenever I’m having a bad day/unmotivated day, I ALWAYS think to myself “Think of everything that Trixie does in a day.” I’ve respected and idealized your hustle for SO long. But it’s refreshing to hear that maybe it isn’t the healthiest. Proud of you! ❤
this is now one of my favorite Trixie videos. seeing you be open and honest is so refreshing. we love you for everything you are and want nothing but the best for you (and david 💖)
I’m so glad you are prioritizing your family! I started doing the same a couple years ago and my dad unexpectedly passed at the end of last year… I’m so grateful that I had the time with him that I did!
I’m catching up on Trixie videos after isolating for so long and focusing on what I need to do to just get through the day. I cannot tell you how badly I needed to hear “everything is temporary, you’re not stuck” and now I’m crying in the break room at work. 🖤
i love how personal these are, i feel like im having a conversation with a friend. definitely what i needed today.
16:52 so what you’re saying is you’re ready to be a married housewife. 🥰 I feel that! It’s family time Trix! 💜
Wanting more real-life time is absolutely okay! Taking care of the person behind the drag is so important. I'm sure having your life revolve around Trixie makes it hard to give love and attention to Brian. Brian is just as important as Trixie! Without Brian, there would be no Trixie! Sending you all the love! 💖
the water pressure and lug nuts analogy really did it for me
Even though we've seen you do your makeup 80 times, its still so comforting to watch. It feels like your my wine aunt telling me your life lessons.
This makes me think of when Katya said “there’s nothing worse than a drag queen who doesn’t wanna do it”
You are the hardest working queen and you need a break. Thank you for sharing all of this with us
trixie!! thank you for following your passions and persevering despite the fear. i know all too well the anxiety surrounding money insecurity, the trauma response of feeling as if you have to grind 24/7 so you don't fall behind, etc. it means a lot that you feel comfortable enough to share these feelings with your audience.
Thank you for saying all this, Trixie. I think the society overall puts this insane expectation that everyone should always prioritize their career or jobs, because in a way that is seen as "putting yourself first". But we are not defined exclusively by what we work on, our lives are so more than that. Taking time to meet with friends, family, prioritize life events, or just do nothing all day, that is also a way of putting ourselves first. Unfortunately we have always been taught that overworking is a virtue and something to aspire - I prefer to think that we should aspire as much as possible for a balanced relation with career and everything else in life. And it's never too late to change this society imposed mindset. ❤
Getting the happiest and most whole version of you would be the greatest gift as someone who appreciates you so much 💗 You've given me so much escape and laughter which is amazing and I'm so grateful. You are not being selfish by putting yourself first more often. Congrats on this new chapter ❤
This is my favorite video of yours ever. I know you have (normal and healthy!) boundaries around sharing personal info, but this particular piece of sharing could not have come at a better time for me, and I appreciate the support of thoughts and feelings I've been having. I've watched it several times, and I'm going to watch it again. Now take a hiatus, take a vacation, go to every single thing you've been missing, and step away from the wigs!! They, and us, will be here when you get back.
I wasn't expecting Trixie to hit me with some vulnerable truths that I've been hiding from myself.
May you have much love and healing, Trixie. We are so proud of you for taking care of yourself. Peace.
We love a sustainable queen with healthy boundaries ❤️🔥
Aww, Trixie 🥹 it’s so sweet to see your more vulnerable side. Happy for you to have more time for what matters most. And love you and David. Cutest couple.
Hi Trixie, I’m sorry you’ve been having a hard time lately. You don’t need to share it with us, but thank you for doing it (here and on the pod). I hope talking about it helped a little bit to lighten up the burden? Anyway, please don’t feel guilty about taking time for yourself and taking care of yourself and your relationships! You’ve been giving us SO MUCH joy for the past how many years and you deserve to feel that joy back a hundred times. We love you!!
On a lighter note love how you’re sharing personal stuff and then pausing to say the product name lmao only you!!
Girl you said it best yourself, you’re ALLOWED to let yourself change. Don’t be stagnant, let yourself grow and bloom further
girl it's not only OK to slow down, it's necessary. no need to feel guilty. we're all here for whatever you do. i never wore makeup in my life and i'm here every monday. it's not the makeup, it's not the content, it's you. whatever and however much you decide to do in the future, i'll be there, too. take care of yourself, love you ❤️
Absolutely cried seeing David come in and be so sweet
Trixie your vulnerability has always been admirable and it’s important to take breaks when you need them. Metal health matters! I hope you’re doing okay and taking care of yourself ❤️
So glad you're taking time for yourself and your family. You've given so much to us, you deserve to take breaks. We will be here whenever you want us. ❤
I was just rewatching s7 of drag race and it’s wild to see the transformation you’ve gone through and everything you’ve accomplished. You’ve put in an insane amount of work to get to where you are and thank you for that 💓 No one is more deserving of a break and you time than Trixie
This video truth affected me. I really can’t even explain it. Your people adore you and wish you the best in your next season of life 💜
Nothing is more eye opening than realizing your parents are getting older.
It is not until you are older that past trauma comes up, and you realise how you work and cope in response to that. This includes how you work and your personal relationships. Thanks for sharing , you are not alone. You are gorgeous as usual inside and out.
Trixie! Take your time to take care of yourself, we'll be here for you no matter what!
Thank you for being vulnerable🙏🏽
And I’m pleased you’re reevaluating your work life balance. You health, relationship and well being are a priority. You’re an icon. Already!
🙌🏼😊💜🙏🏽😘
Trixie our queen. You are beautiful inside and out. How refreshing it is to see your vulnerable side. You do so much for us fans with your shows and podcasts and music and so much more. You need to spend time with your family and friends and David. You deserve a vacation and time to spend with them. Your fans love you and understand that you need to be with them too. And we will still be here waiting to see what amazing thing you do next.
I love what Miss Kitty said...."You are under no obligation to be the person you were yesterday." You will find the balance that matters to you and it changes from year to year. 💗