@@grmpEqweer I'm glad I can't remember the stuff I can is bad enough the stuff that comes back fucks me up for awhile. There's always new triggers too so I feel you dude.
What event screwed many people up mentally? Working with the general public, like retail, food service, health care, first responders, etc... for example. Also, abuse. Child abuse, sexual abuse, mental and physical abuse, domestic abuse, etc...
I was a victim of SA when I was four. A stranger in a public shower hurt me so bad that I am still suffering the aftereffects at the age of 51. A wall went up in me that day and it cut off most of who I Was at the time. I went from being a cute, precocious, charismatic kid whom everybody loved to being a shy, shattered, reclusive, overly intellectual kid who was too old for his age and whose mental development raced way ahead of his age group while his emotional and social development pretty much just didn't happen. But hey.... it was the Seventies, and being a child rapist was just another kink.
People need to stop calling intentional acts, mistakes. Your father did not accidentally cheat on your mother with a married couple. He willingly chose to cheat on your mother, and he knew the harm he was causing by doing so. It was an intentional act. It’s sad that you feel guilty because he passed away, but cutting him off for betrayal was not wrong. And death doesn’t mean you now have to enable what he did, or protect his reputation, by claiming he was a good father who just made a mistake. He didn’t make a mistake, and a good father would have never put you in that position in the first place.
it took me years to put a face to my abuser. for yrs I thought my sister was my abuser because my mother said so. I got therapy and he did a regressive hypnosis. he brought me back to age 4. I remember who it was then. and a whole lot of memories I didn't really want to remember in the end. once I knew for sure, because my dad finally told me the truth from his side. After I paid for their divorce and visited him. my mother abused me badly. she would pin me down on my stomach, light matches, drop them on my back and watch them burn out, among other tortures. She was also the common denominator in my getting sexually abused by 2 different uncles, when I was 5 and 11. Even as an adult she made me feel less than. she's dead now, and I can finally let go of the anger. I'm getting wings full back tattooed to over the burn marks. I have the outline done already and one section shaded. Working on shading the rest. I'm replacing horror with beauty. I don't know how the neighbors didn't hear me screaming. But back in the 70s a lot of kids got beatings, not just spankings. thank u for reading my comment.
@bigaw8030 I'm not a fake profile! Just because I comment the same on stories doesn't mean I'm a fake account. So, are u stalking me now? Get a life. You're disgusting for belittling my experiences and my traumas.
I didn't go through much turmoil in my life. However, I've been with my baby father for about 6 years we recently had our third January 2024. But, turns out the last 2 or 3 months left before giving birth, he was having an intimate affair with his co-worker, whom also have been planning to running away together. He was looking for houses behind my back and looking to file for divorce for both him and his mistress. Oh fun part. He took me Christmas shopping for her when I was 36 weeks pregnant to buy his mistress a gift basket..also bought her a bracelet exactly like mine for Valentine's Day and had it sent to his work. He also left me alone to give birth to our third son while he was out with his mistress. I found all this out and left. Not a day later he was begging me back. I've been pretty messed up since. But, slowly working myself back up:')
My childhood definitely. I tried to self delete myself by going into the military to have what happened to me in my childhood repeat itself but this time have a child and start remembering everything I tried to forget. I then found drugs and tried again to self delete myself again but all it did was take away 10 yrs and my kids. 9 yrs of sobriety I am just trying to find myself bc all my life I have disassociate and never figured out who I am and not just the mask I wore.
In preschool, I found out about sexism to men, but also broke a cough medicine bottle by mistack and was attacked by my mom. Having your whole your life is worth less than cough medicine has not changed.
My early childhood, school years until high school, little sister’s two life ending attempts. But the worst was the triple trifecta starting at 17. Child molester for two months, mom died suddenly the next year, what a start to 2010. Then I got pregnant a few months later by an ex. I don’t regret it, just felt I couldn’t tell anyone. It was very lonely. Turns out I have bpd now and always had autism. My brain hates me lol.
12:40 “he made one mistake” wrong on both counts. Not a mistake, it was a premeditated decision every time. Not one time either, he mentioned several so in all likelihood it happened dozens of times if not more. If that man was willing to expose your mother to STDs, willing to risk a divorce, then he didn’t love you or your mom
A shit ton of things. Being shot at, cut numerous times in fights, having no privacy and being treated as a tool when I was with my dad, being bullied because I got myself hooked on nicotine as an “escape” from my situation so I had no friends, being put down for everything by my grandmother and falling into addiction after being stabbed in the back too many times. I’m only 16 mind you
I'm so sorry the list is long for you at 16. I hope you've found an uplifting path to pursue. It takes time to pull yourself out of so many clusters. I hope you can focus on that & look forward to being free of whatever is toxic toward you.
@@lindacasey5016 hell no besides my mother coming back it’s been as fucked up as usual. I’m fine with smoking weed bc it helps with some mental issues but like I’m still hooked on adderall and that doesn’t look like it’s gonna change at this rate. Fuck I’ll be lucky if I know what to do with myself by grade 8
My brothers murderer Christmas day. My dad dying the day before fathers day. My cousin murdering our grandmother and setting our childhood home on fire. Watching my mom panting her last breath. My nephew being murdered. My other nephew dying in a shoot out with tempe police dept. The worse watching my granddaughter have a chemo and a bone marrow transplant when she was two and half months old.
9/11 - I was working on Wall Street when that happened. Threw me into survival mode and I never got out of it
Oh my entire childhood. Was very neglected and abused to the point I don't remember large chunks of my childhood.
I never got a childhood
@@nontrashfire2 I relate to both of you guys...
I blanked out parts of my childhood,
They showed up later.
I still blank out or blur things out, just not very often.
@@grmpEqweer gotta be honest, that's what I'm afraid of, the things I don't remember coming back, because I obviously forgot for a reason.
@@grmpEqweer I'm glad I can't remember the stuff I can is bad enough the stuff that comes back fucks me up for awhile. There's always new triggers too so I feel you dude.
What event screwed many people up mentally?
Working with the general public, like retail, food service, health care, first responders, etc... for example.
Also, abuse.
Child abuse, sexual abuse, mental and physical abuse, domestic abuse, etc...
Betrayal trauma is pretty awful.
I was a victim of SA when I was four. A stranger in a public shower hurt me so bad that I am still suffering the aftereffects at the age of 51. A wall went up in me that day and it cut off most of who I Was at the time. I went from being a cute, precocious, charismatic kid whom everybody loved to being a shy, shattered, reclusive, overly intellectual kid who was too old for his age and whose mental development raced way ahead of his age group while his emotional and social development pretty much just didn't happen.
But hey.... it was the Seventies, and being a child rapist was just another kink.
People need to stop calling intentional acts, mistakes.
Your father did not accidentally cheat on your mother with a married couple. He willingly chose to cheat on your mother, and he knew the harm he was causing by doing so. It was an intentional act.
It’s sad that you feel guilty because he passed away, but cutting him off for betrayal was not wrong. And death doesn’t mean you now have to enable what he did, or protect his reputation, by claiming he was a good father who just made a mistake.
He didn’t make a mistake, and a good father would have never put you in that position in the first place.
Thanks for the upload!
it took me years to put a face to my abuser. for yrs I thought my sister was my abuser because my mother said so. I got therapy and he did a regressive hypnosis. he brought me back to age 4. I remember who it was then. and a whole lot of memories I didn't really want to remember in the end. once I knew for sure, because my dad finally told me the truth from his side. After I paid for their divorce and visited him. my mother abused me badly. she would pin me down on my stomach, light matches, drop them on my back and watch them burn out, among other tortures. She was also the common denominator in my getting sexually abused by 2 different uncles, when I was 5 and 11. Even as an adult she made me feel less than. she's dead now, and I can finally let go of the anger. I'm getting wings full back tattooed to over the burn marks. I have the outline done already and one section shaded. Working on shading the rest. I'm replacing horror with beauty. I don't know how the neighbors didn't hear me screaming. But back in the 70s a lot of kids got beatings, not just spankings. thank u for reading my comment.
@@jeanm5389 you're a fake profile. You added a similar "comment" on a completely different video that had absolutely nothing to do with your comment
@bigaw8030 I'm not a fake profile! Just because I comment the same on stories doesn't mean I'm a fake account. So, are u stalking me now? Get a life. You're disgusting for belittling my experiences and my traumas.
I didn't go through much turmoil in my life.
However, I've been with my baby father for about 6 years we recently had our third January 2024.
But, turns out the last 2 or 3 months left before giving birth, he was having an intimate affair with his co-worker, whom also have been planning to running away together. He was looking for houses behind my back and looking to file for divorce for both him and his mistress.
Oh fun part. He took me Christmas shopping for her when I was 36 weeks pregnant to buy his mistress a gift basket..also bought her a bracelet exactly like mine for Valentine's Day and had it sent to his work.
He also left me alone to give birth to our third son while he was out with his mistress.
I found all this out and left. Not a day later he was begging me back.
I've been pretty messed up since. But, slowly working myself back up:')
That sucks
The story about the little 2 year old being trafficked by her older brother was _heartbreaking._ 😖
😰😢😢
CPR only works about 10-15% of the time. Certainly, do it, get trained to do it, anyway. 15% is better than zero.
My childhood definitely. I tried to self delete myself by going into the military to have what happened to me in my childhood repeat itself but this time have a child and start remembering everything I tried to forget. I then found drugs and tried again to self delete myself again but all it did was take away 10 yrs and my kids. 9 yrs of sobriety I am just trying to find myself bc all my life I have disassociate and never figured out who I am and not just the mask I wore.
“He would have done it with or without me” suddenly I hold less hate for the girl who gave my father fent,
I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending love and light your way!
please choose another sound effect for the bleeping,
In preschool, I found out about sexism to men, but also broke a cough medicine bottle by mistack and was attacked by my mom. Having your whole your life is worth less than cough medicine has not changed.
That doesn’t exist, so ig that you can take some solace in that
My early childhood, school years until high school, little sister’s two life ending attempts. But the worst was the triple trifecta starting at 17. Child molester for two months, mom died suddenly the next year, what a start to 2010. Then I got pregnant a few months later by an ex. I don’t regret it, just felt I couldn’t tell anyone. It was very lonely. Turns out I have bpd now and always had autism. My brain hates me lol.
12:40 “he made one mistake” wrong on both counts. Not a mistake, it was a premeditated decision every time. Not one time either, he mentioned several so in all likelihood it happened dozens of times if not more. If that man was willing to expose your mother to STDs, willing to risk a divorce, then he didn’t love you or your mom
240 FLUHURBS is pretty heavy I would say
A shit ton of things. Being shot at, cut numerous times in fights, having no privacy and being treated as a tool when I was with my dad, being bullied because I got myself hooked on nicotine as an “escape” from my situation so I had no friends, being put down for everything by my grandmother and falling into addiction after being stabbed in the back too many times. I’m only 16 mind you
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I'm so sorry the list is long for you at 16. I hope you've found an uplifting path to pursue. It takes time to pull yourself out of so many clusters. I hope you can focus on that & look forward to being free of whatever is toxic toward you.
@@lindacasey5016 hell no besides my mother coming back it’s been as fucked up as usual. I’m fine with smoking weed bc it helps with some mental issues but like I’m still hooked on adderall and that doesn’t look like it’s gonna change at this rate. Fuck I’ll be lucky if I know what to do with myself by grade 8
The nicki minaj one is so real. Her and Beyonce have the worst fans. Taylor swift too.
7:16 Doing all those TickTock dances must have been exhausting
Right now...
Reading the title of this video.
My life🤷🏿♀️
My brothers murderer Christmas day. My dad dying the day before fathers day. My cousin murdering our grandmother and setting our childhood home on fire. Watching my mom panting her last breath. My nephew being murdered. My other nephew dying in a shoot out with tempe police dept. The worse watching my granddaughter have a chemo and a bone marrow transplant when she was two and half months old.
Good lord. That is 20 life times of pain & death. So sorry for you & admire your strength. I've been through it but damn, you win.😢
18:56-19:00…wut did you say..?
LMAOOOOOOO
Money
Reading grammatically incorrect thumbnails.
I loathe people who off themselves. So damn selfish and damaging to those left behind