It's so frustrating to never feel like you're doing enough. Hopefully it gets better for you. You're doing incredible, hopefully your mind will reason with you.
I appreciate the words of encouragement. It is difficult for me to notice. I am typically doing better than maybe however it may sound in my videos or writings. Or lacking much outside perspective, I might be doing worse and am just minimizing it. Either way, I seem to persist and life happens. I remain resolutely steadfast that I am on the right path. I just don't know what path, where it goes, or what will happen along the way. But I am trying not to place expectations, conditions, or prerequisites on everything needing to be a certain way for me to have permission to be okay. I am relatively happy with what I have been doing since 2016. I don't consider any of it a waste. Nothing before that was a waste either) But everything a lesson. In something. It is anyone's guess what I end up learning from whatever situation. Usually, not the expected or intended. Thank you for your words.
@@Verge25 You're are correct, unfortunately we can never know the true extent of what the other is going through and the day to day struggles, but i think you are doing an incredible job at explaining your situation as best as you can. I know we are limited by words. To the second part of your comment that is an incredible summary of life and the lessons we are constantly learning. I feel like every so often we regress then come back just to relearn lessons we were already taught. Life is so tiring, I want to congratulate you on still going and trying your hardest to make meaning out of this life. You really are incredible, I will always be hoping for great things to happen for you even when we don't communicate. I truly hope life is on your side. Remember talking to you is incredible!!! Thank you for always being here!! I hope this message isn't giving gloomy undertones my writing tone for this message is more hopeful and happy.
I am a bit speechless. Or wordless. It is one of the most profoundly supportive things that someone has said to me in long time. That sort of cheer. Thank you. I don't know what to say. Thank you. I want to say more. But I don't know how. I don't know what I want to say. So I am going to go for a run. Maybe some words will find me. Take care and be safe.@@scribble3784
It's so frustrating to never feel like you're doing enough. Hopefully it gets better for you. You're doing incredible, hopefully your mind will reason with you.
I appreciate the words of encouragement. It is difficult for me to notice. I am typically doing better than maybe however it may sound in my videos or writings. Or lacking much outside perspective, I might be doing worse and am just minimizing it.
Either way, I seem to persist and life happens. I remain resolutely steadfast that I am on the right path. I just don't know what path, where it goes, or what will happen along the way. But I am trying not to place expectations, conditions, or prerequisites on everything needing to be a certain way for me to have permission to be okay.
I am relatively happy with what I have been doing since 2016. I don't consider any of it a waste. Nothing before that was a waste either) But everything a lesson. In something. It is anyone's guess what I end up learning from whatever situation. Usually, not the expected or intended.
Thank you for your words.
@@Verge25 You're are correct, unfortunately we can never know the true extent of what the other is going through and the day to day struggles, but i think you are doing an incredible job at explaining your situation as best as you can. I know we are limited by words. To the second part of your comment that is an incredible summary of life and the lessons we are constantly learning. I feel like every so often we regress then come back just to relearn lessons we were already taught. Life is so tiring, I want to congratulate you on still going and trying your hardest to make meaning out of this life. You really are incredible, I will always be hoping for great things to happen for you even when we don't communicate. I truly hope life is on your side. Remember talking to you is incredible!!! Thank you for always being here!! I hope this message isn't giving gloomy undertones my writing tone for this message is more hopeful and happy.
I am a bit speechless. Or wordless. It is one of the most profoundly supportive things that someone has said to me in long time. That sort of cheer. Thank you. I don't know what to say. Thank you.
I want to say more. But I don't know how. I don't know what I want to say. So I am going to go for a run. Maybe some words will find me. Take care and be safe.@@scribble3784
@@Verge25 Thanks you're so sweet!!