Mia is the only ED recovery youtuber that has actually gotten through to me and the anorexic lies I've had in my head for years. Mia, you saved my life and for that I will be forever grateful. Thank you💜
Be kind to yourself. This time of year is really hard for a lot of people, and it’s scary time anyway, adding recovery on top of that is hard. Just keep trying and eventually it will get easier.
Yes, yes, yes! That is always how i've explained it. My world was pure chaos so I utilized my eating disorder to compensate for it by creating this web of rules and rituales. The sense of security and predictability was a great relief but eventually I had to realize that it was all a great lie and I was only spiralling more and more out of control. Thank you for your thought-provoking videos and your openness to have a discussion about these difficult subjects!
I’ve just started my recovery process, and it feels a lot harder than it should be because of 2020. I would love nothing more than to go out to dinner with my friends but instead I’m extremely isolated and therefore depressed and it’s heavily affecting my ability to eat. Feels like I just keep bouncing between recovery and relapse.
I am so glad to find you and a fellow Aussie I'm 62 Eating disorder since teens from childhood abuse issues Since told fat at 60 by parent in 90s Went no contact to help my mental health Should have sooner Thanks for your information
For any bigger people like me who are struggling and might need to hear this, I want to say that because you're not thin doesn't mean your anorexia isn't real or valid. If you are a bigger person it's not easy to turn skinny in a small period of time so it's not a factor to judge whether you have an ED or not. If you're restricting or do have other ED behaviors and people just can't see it doesn't mean they're not there.
I'm so thankful you are speaking on this. That predictability of my eating disorder is definitely what made me relapse and what has kept me a bit stuck since. I was in a car crash that caused a traumatic brain injury and ptsd, and it caused me to relapse with my eating disorder because I told myself "I don't know this pain of a TBI and trauma. I've never felt this type of pain before and it's too scary, oh but I know the pain of an eating disorder. If I'm going to be in pain either way then I'll just choose the one I know." So I can completely see how this could be such a strong selling point the eating disorder uses to reel someone back in. It's totally underhanded. But it really helps to see someone speak on and acknowledge this aspect of relapse in a way that's not judgmental at all and coming from a place of compassion. Always thankful for your videos Mia xx
yes yes and yes again . oh watching ms mias videos is like drinking a soothing cup of tea. this video reminds me of a group for people who hear voices i went to that changed my entire perspective on my psychosis , and in turn my entire relationship with my mental illness/s . i learned a pivotal message there that my voices might be scary or distressing , but they werent evil. for me they are a stress response , a way for my brain to let me know i was in distress , that something in my environment or within me was a stressor and something needs to change . and for me, treating them like they were evil only made them worse . now i welcome them like friends , thank them for showing up in times of great turmoil and stress and the less combative i am ; the faster i can acknowledge the episode , move towards coping healthily and in turn experience a shorter episode and fewer hospitalisations. im only very early in my eating disorder recovery, but its very good to hear that my bulimia is not 'bad' or 'evil' even if it feels like it. that relapse and the onset of a lot of mental illness is a fantastic indicator that hey , maybe something isnt right in your personal life or the whole world has been on proverbial fire for a year. for me as well, i think the whole onset of my bulimia stemmed from feeling like i was a bad person and unworthy of love and in turn , and ofc had already internalised those feelings about myself. not super sure where im going with this longass comment other than mental illness isnt an enemy to defeat , and ive definitely found being combative against unhelpful in the short term and reinforcing of my own disordered beliefs in the longrun. get well soon ms mia, and take care anyone reading this also going through relapse right now. youre not weak for relapsing , or a bad person or unworthy or anything else you may be feeling. you are seen here and you are, from my perspective, loved communally by people who wish for your happiness , health and fulfilment 💚
I lost a few kilos the healthy way, yknow working out and trying to eat healthy. But the I couldnt work out anymore, and bc they're re building my house I can't cook so I'm eating "normally". Fr I can "feel" myself gaining weight and I don't want it to mess with me but I can feel myself falling. Right after I eat something I "shouldn't have" or bc I didn't work out. What's worse is that now I self savotage by not even trying to work out... it's so annoying to have to deal with this every single time I wanna have a healthier life.
I watch this every time I'm scared to start recovery again. My ED saved me from the horrible overwhelming situations and feeling I had at the time. I'm scared that starting recovery will bring it all back and that the ED was right and the only thing keeping me safe. This reminds me that there are other ways to cope with those horrible situations/feelings. The ED is not the only way to keep myself safe, it's just all I know and so it feels that way. Thank you for being that reminder 💓
Hope your feeling better hun.this makes so much sense and helpful i am using three steps at the moments notice-validate-redirect and this is kind of what your saying about not just shutting those ed thoughts out but more trying to understand then accept then let go and distract x
I’m laughing so hard because I completely forgot about your instagram post that said the same thing about your virus and this time I am eating while watching this video.
I’m early on in my recovery (3 months) I just noticed weight gain yesterday while getting dressed and it’s spun me out. The restricting is starting and I know where it’s going to lead to but I can’t stop it the ED voice is so loud.
This is really one of my biggest issues right now. My ED feels so safe and predictable, and part of me just wants to be left alone and keep going with my disordered life. Then there's recovery that would be amazing and that could make a lot of the things I'm dreaming about possible, but it's also so scary, because I don't know what it'll look like or even who I'll be if I recover. This year has been insane, and I've had several hospital stays because if my mental health, so just hanging onto the little bit of comfort my ED gives me is so tempting.
I relapsed 😭 my mom died on 5/31/2021. I haven't been good to myself. Sad thing I feel like it's comforting me. I can't see my therapist until the end of the month. I'm heartbroken and 😭
I am so so sorry for your tremendous loss and to hear that you are struggling. Sending so much love and supportive energy your way. Is there anyone else that you can reach out to until you meet with your therapist?
@@lindsaypxo ty❤️ I am on a fb ED support group and been talking to people on there. However I am going to try and get in earlier at my therapist office❤️
Decades after my anorexic debut, still dealing with orthorexia and exercise addiction. I keep hurting myself physically from too much exercise. I want to be done with all this but don’t really know who I am anymore if I ever succeed in getting rid of all this
I know I'm not my eating disorder, but can't stop relapsing, Can't put an end to my bad behaviours. My suicidal thoughts!!! Anorexia ruined my life , litteraly litteraly did
Mia is the only ED recovery youtuber that has actually gotten through to me and the anorexic lies I've had in my head for years. Mia, you saved my life and for that I will be forever grateful. Thank you💜
same here, she tells it like it is 💕
I relapsed this week so this was perfect timing
Me too! I’ve sent it to my medical team!
Me three!! Damn you guys we’re on the same wavelength. 😅
I think I need this video rn. Just stopped crying because I’m so overwhelmed with recovery rn 🥲
Proud of you. You got this!
Be kind to yourself. This time of year is really hard for a lot of people, and it’s scary time anyway, adding recovery on top of that is hard. Just keep trying and eventually it will get easier.
💖💖💖 I’m sorry babe you aren’t alone sending you all the good vibes 💖💖💖
Yes, yes, yes! That is always how i've explained it. My world was pure chaos so I utilized my eating disorder to compensate for it by creating this web of rules and rituales. The sense of security and predictability was a great relief but eventually I had to realize that it was all a great lie and I was only spiralling more and more out of control.
Thank you for your thought-provoking videos and your openness to have a discussion about these difficult subjects!
I’ve just started my recovery process, and it feels a lot harder than it should be because of 2020. I would love nothing more than to go out to dinner with my friends but instead I’m extremely isolated and therefore depressed and it’s heavily affecting my ability to eat. Feels like I just keep bouncing between recovery and relapse.
I hope everything is going well for you now! If not, it’s never too late to make that choice to change :)
Tolerating unpredictability. That really is the big difficulty of recovery. Appreciate this video so much. Very helpful!!
I am so glad to find you and a fellow Aussie I'm 62 Eating disorder since teens from childhood abuse issues Since told fat at 60 by parent in 90s Went no contact to help my mental health Should have sooner Thanks for your information
For any bigger people like me who are struggling and might need to hear this, I want to say that because you're not thin doesn't mean your anorexia isn't real or valid. If you are a bigger person it's not easy to turn skinny in a small period of time so it's not a factor to judge whether you have an ED or not. If you're restricting or do have other ED behaviors and people just can't see it doesn't mean they're not there.
Didnt relapse for 6 months and yesterday i did, i think i need this video
How did you know I literally downloaded a dieting app yesterday.. thanks for unknowingly calling me out. Much needed. 💜
I'm so thankful you are speaking on this. That predictability of my eating disorder is definitely what made me relapse and what has kept me a bit stuck since. I was in a car crash that caused a traumatic brain injury and ptsd, and it caused me to relapse with my eating disorder because I told myself "I don't know this pain of a TBI and trauma. I've never felt this type of pain before and it's too scary, oh but I know the pain of an eating disorder. If I'm going to be in pain either way then I'll just choose the one I know." So I can completely see how this could be such a strong selling point the eating disorder uses to reel someone back in. It's totally underhanded. But it really helps to see someone speak on and acknowledge this aspect of relapse in a way that's not judgmental at all and coming from a place of compassion. Always thankful for your videos Mia xx
@@EmThrives Thank you so much, you are so kind!!
yes yes and yes again . oh watching ms mias videos is like drinking a soothing cup of tea. this video reminds me of a group for people who hear voices i went to that changed my entire perspective on my psychosis , and in turn my entire relationship with my mental illness/s . i learned a pivotal message there that my voices might be scary or distressing , but they werent evil. for me they are a stress response , a way for my brain to let me know i was in distress , that something in my environment or within me was a stressor and something needs to change . and for me, treating them like they were evil only made them worse . now i welcome them like friends , thank them for showing up in times of great turmoil and stress and the less combative i am ; the faster i can acknowledge the episode , move towards coping healthily and in turn experience a shorter episode and fewer hospitalisations.
im only very early in my eating disorder recovery, but its very good to hear that my bulimia is not 'bad' or 'evil' even if it feels like it. that relapse and the onset of a lot of mental illness is a fantastic indicator that hey , maybe something isnt right in your personal life or the whole world has been on proverbial fire for a year. for me as well, i think the whole onset of my bulimia stemmed from feeling like i was a bad person and unworthy of love and in turn , and ofc had already internalised those feelings about myself. not super sure where im going with this longass comment other than mental illness isnt an enemy to defeat , and ive definitely found being combative against unhelpful in the short term and reinforcing of my own disordered beliefs in the longrun.
get well soon ms mia, and take care anyone reading this also going through relapse right now. youre not weak for relapsing , or a bad person or unworthy or anything else you may be feeling. you are seen here and you are, from my perspective, loved communally by people who wish for your happiness , health and fulfilment 💚
We have just started recovery. Thank you for this.
I relapsed 2 weeks ago and couldn’t rack my head around it after 9 months recovered, now it all makes perfect sense, thank you x
I lost a few kilos the healthy way, yknow working out and trying to eat healthy. But the I couldnt work out anymore, and bc they're re building my house I can't cook so I'm eating "normally". Fr I can "feel" myself gaining weight and I don't want it to mess with me but I can feel myself falling. Right after I eat something I "shouldn't have" or bc I didn't work out. What's worse is that now I self savotage by not even trying to work out... it's so annoying to have to deal with this every single time I wanna have a healthier life.
This is such a great video Mia. I've stayed stable this year, but I know many people who have a history of EDs who have struggled/relapsed in 2020.
I watch this every time I'm scared to start recovery again. My ED saved me from the horrible overwhelming situations and feeling I had at the time. I'm scared that starting recovery will bring it all back and that the ED was right and the only thing keeping me safe.
This reminds me that there are other ways to cope with those horrible situations/feelings. The ED is not the only way to keep myself safe, it's just all I know and so it feels that way. Thank you for being that reminder 💓
Thank you so much for reminding me not to beat myself up for slipping up my recovery.
You can do it
Thanks for this video. It was very helpful. Hope your well soon. It’s so nice you can be with your Mom at this time. Moms are the best❤️
Have a great day mia ❤️ love you
Hope your feeling better hun.this makes so much sense and helpful i am using three steps at the moments notice-validate-redirect and this is kind of what your saying about not just shutting those ed thoughts out but more trying to understand then accept then let go and distract x
Good morning everyone have a great weekend and a blessed Friday..
I’m laughing so hard because I completely forgot about your instagram post that said the same thing about your virus and this time I am eating while watching this video.
You just explained that perfectly ♥️. 100% accurate. Thank you. :)
8:50 Mia is speaking the truth, your honor
Thank you so much, Mia ❤️
I’m early on in my recovery (3 months) I just noticed weight gain yesterday while getting dressed and it’s spun me out. The restricting is starting and I know where it’s going to lead to but I can’t stop it the ED voice is so loud.
This was so F*cling helpful. Thank you so much
This is really one of my biggest issues right now. My ED feels so safe and predictable, and part of me just wants to be left alone and keep going with my disordered life. Then there's recovery that would be amazing and that could make a lot of the things I'm dreaming about possible, but it's also so scary, because I don't know what it'll look like or even who I'll be if I recover. This year has been insane, and I've had several hospital stays because if my mental health, so just hanging onto the little bit of comfort my ED gives me is so tempting.
when ever life gets difficult i have gone back into anorexia for a few months I really don’t want to relapse but it’s really hard
seeing 33 seconds ago is crazy!
Unpredictability is massive in my stuckness. Restriction is utter rubbish but something preferable to relinquishing that iron control xxx
The ED being terrible at its job and up for performance review is such a good way to put that 😂
Thank you! I loved it so much I shared it with my t
I relapsed 😭 my mom died on 5/31/2021. I haven't been good to myself. Sad thing I feel like it's comforting me. I can't see my therapist until the end of the month. I'm heartbroken and 😭
I am so so sorry for your tremendous loss and to hear that you are struggling. Sending so much love and supportive energy your way. Is there anyone else that you can reach out to until you meet with your therapist?
@@lindsaypxo ty❤️ I am on a fb ED support group and been talking to people on there. However I am going to try and get in earlier at my therapist office❤️
Decades after my anorexic debut, still dealing with orthorexia and exercise addiction. I keep hurting myself physically from too much exercise. I want to be done with all this but don’t really know who I am anymore if I ever succeed in getting rid of all this
I know I'm not my eating disorder, but can't stop relapsing, Can't put an end to my bad behaviours. My suicidal thoughts!!! Anorexia ruined my life , litteraly litteraly did
Bruh what the heck is going on I literally just relapsed 🤔
Girl it does sound like the covid. There are false negatives... I had 2.
0:16 Is it still cold in Straya?
Knitwear queen! Where is she from? 💗
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