I'm eating my bowl of peas right now. This is so funny that I choked on one of them. Or maybe 2-3 of them. It's hard to tell once they're in your throat
I've never seen anyone interact with themselves exactly how I interact with myself, and this was incredibly soothing because of it. The way your train of thought works and how you have little side conversations with yourself is SO NICE TO WATCH for my own adhd brain. I live alone and work mostly alone, and have such a hard time relating to the people I do interact with. It's nice to watch someone I can relate to. My brain also turns against me when I get a poor night of sleep. My coworkers in their 60's get away with a few hours of sleep, and I'm in my 20's and if I get any less than 8 I'm an absolute wild card.
honestly, its fr a talent to be able to sit down and essentially talk to yourself in front of a camera and be charismatic for even 20 minutes, let alone an hour. you’re always appreciated, and you have touched lots of lives
Huge agree, when I was a teenager I tried to do some videos and my goodness it is so hard to keep going and not just go ummm uhh and plus be entertaining too especially for this long? It's pretty amazing
No wonder my mom used to hound me abt making videos lollll i talk to myself everyday like there r others there, and that’s why i love drew’s videos so much because i just relate to his overlapping thoughts and ideas
the OCD invasive thoughts thing is so real. my therapist said it's just our brain kind of testing our morality and playing around, like to see how we'll react??
hard relate. it's so difficult and can be so uncomfortable. if anyone else is struggling just know that your intrusive thoughts do not define you, they're not real, they're not you. They're your brain coming up with the worst possible thing you could be, often it's the exact opposite of who you are. i hope everyone is hanging in there. missing drew so much :(
@@drewmonson2 I relate to an extent, other than being female and not doing videos anymore, but wishing I had not have given up yrs ago. You are cared about as a valuable, special, thoughtful, humorous & kind young man Drew.💜🥰
it feels so validating to hear you talk about imaging doing the worst things. i do the same thing & it feels so awful & makes me doubt my own morals/values all the time. i’ll cry for hours sometimes imaging being the absolute most horrible version of nyself
Those thoughts are called intrusive thoughts, very common in people with OCD or anxiety. Don't worry, you're not alone. Those thoughts do not define you or represent you as a person!
A positive spin on this: I think it’s a sign that you’re an introspective person and the fact that you get upset imagining doing bad things shows that you are not a bad person and that those are not your morals or values at all. These are intrusive thoughts. Try to just observe them and let them go, they are just thoughts and they don’t hold any value 😊
As a therapist I can tell you that peoples' comments towards you (negative or positive) are really just reflections of their own internal world/dialogue. I hope you'll keep showing us this vulnerability and the journey of finding yourself😊 you are inspiring!!
This video was very comforting as a depressed person, to hear someone else express their true thoughts. Some days I feel like hell and I ask myself “why does no one else ever talk about this, the self-doubt, the exhaustion, the bad days.” I love each and every one of your videos, thanks for being here, Drew
The song was really beautiful. It made me very emotional and the vocals were gorgeous. I wouldn't be mad if you decided to record it in a more formal capacity.
I’ve been throughly enjoying this second channel, it’s like hanging with a friend. I too am very sensitive but as I get older I recognize vulnerability as a strength. Also really liked the outro song on this one.
Drew, omg… I’m sobbing. I’m literally a 30 year old teacher who is sitting on my bathroom floor with my face soaked. Thank you for seeing us. I adore you. I hope YOU are also easy on yourself 🖤
I can't tell you how many of my teachers made an impact on my life and I think about them to this day. I feel weird saying this, but I probably think of at least 1 of my teachers daily. I'm 40 now. I think when I was in my teens or 20's I went back and visited my first grade teacher bc she made me feel so important and it was definitely something I needed at that time. I have so many teachers I wish I could get in contact with and let them know they impacted me in one way or another, even if it had nothing to do with actual formal education. 1st grade, 4th grade, many from Junior High and High School.... It makes me sad to think that some have possibly passed by now. The "smallest things" at one point or another have made the biggest impact for me and I'll never forget those teachers.
I just tried watching this video and it was okay but not amazing. I think it needed more drama and tea. I should be explaining the history of someone's beef (and I'm not talking Wendy's) I think the song at the end is good. I want to keep trying to make these! Recording moving selfies (vlogs) is an incredible thing. I want to do these videos even if I'm feeling sad and not as on or fast talking or witty as usual. I've spent 90 percent of my time on UA-cam hiding myself away when I didn't feel worthy or interesting enough to be on camera and I want to try and just believe that some people out there will be okay with wherever I'm at and do it anyway. I need to do something because when I don't do things, I just think too many things and then I live inside of my head and it gets all messy. And think some weeks I'll be mostly serious and some weeks I'll be mostly silly and we'll just have to see. also lmk if you have any ideas for what a Patreon could be EDIT: I love editing! I hate when it tells you I edited the comment, it is so aesthetically unpleasing to me to see the (edited) thing right there. It's like you ruined my art.
Just post it all my guy don't worry about how you sound or if it doesn't seem funny enough to you. I have the same issue with my art IG - I tend to post and delete all the time because I tell myself that no one fucking cares about what I'm saying or putting out there. But at the end of the day, people are still watching and so it's proof that I'm wrong when I tell myself that no one cares. You will always have an audience dude!
I have so many thoughts every minute I don't know how to articulate, and when I listen to you (as someone with OCD & depression) it's almost like a weight off my chest because I know someone out there understands without me even having to say anything: I feel seen and heard. Thank you for making me feel less alone.
The British boy had a lot of character development in this episode, looking forward to the full length movie about how you aren't his dad but you for an unlikely friendship and stay life long pals. Ps. Love you and appreciate you talking about yourself and your life without censoring all the sad or awkward parts. It helps to connect with you 💙
Your song at the end ... wow. I felt that. Vulnerability is strength, because it's how we truly connect with others and that can be scary as hell. I think you're quite brave, doing what you do, when we all know how brutal the internet can quite often be. I hope you go through with the Patreon idea. I would subscribe faster than you could say, "Bill's not my real child."
I think I might make one! But someone said they’d prefer UA-cam memberships, which does seem simpler BUT I don’t think they let you post audio/RSS feeds and stuff. But I see why it would be more convenient than Patreon. Idk! I’m glad you liked the song and felt it
@@drewmonson2 I feel like you’d have more freedom and options with Patreon. But I’m also not an expert on either and would probably subscribe to either one you chose tbh. Just go with your gut!
Shout out to college me who emailed “no content” emails to my professors on purpose to buy myself time to actually finish whatever I was supposed to send, knowing it would take them a day or so to realize I sent nothing, email me back to say as much, and *then* I could send a real attachment 😬 Also, I just wanted to say the facial hair and beanie situation you’ve got going right now is absolutely working for you. You’re gorgeous and a gorgeous person inside as well. I don’t love commenting on people’s appearances, but I guess I feel compelled to right at this moment! Depression, ADHD, and OCD suck a big one, especially when they all live together in one brain. I enjoy listening to you (also I’m super new here, I caught you on a couple Shane videos back in the day but didn’t realize you had your own content happening, but I’m here now!) Looking forward to “catching up”, if you will. ❤️
33:00 wow ive never heard anyone else talk about this. Some of my most emotional moments as a kid were from thoughts like this, I'm not sure why they happened, but you explained it perfectly. I used to bring myself to tears thinking about the reactions of the people in the scenarios I created in my head.
I’ve done this too. It could be a way to practice feeling empathy for another person. Or to be grateful for the person. Or something upset/triggered you to have the thought to make yourself feel better.
that resonated with me sooo much too!! i feel like there are huge chunks of my childhood where i would just worry myself over scenarios i would create in my head and upset myself over just by imagining that they could happen and that i was capable of imagining them. lol it's a very bizarre feeling and definitely confusing to deal with as a child. these kinds of moments in drew's videos are especially valuable to me because it's those seemingly inconsequential niche "quirks" i always just kind of thought of as individual personal errors that no one else would understand -- to hear them so candidly from someone else and then to find other likeminded people agreeing with it is weirdly validating
Same here. I wonder if it's similar for people just with OCD or intense anxiety conditions (or if it's similar for most experiencing depression etc too) because my intrusive thoughts and stories that I make up in my head are so intense and real and completely wreck me. Perhaps we're also innate storytellers of impactful tales. My Grandpa died of a stroke at the age of 45 so of course I never met him. I can remember one night when I was 19 sobbing uncontrollably and shaking after telling myself the story of his death and how we never got to share our voice together (he was a bass baritone, I'm also a classical singer hahaa). I know that it seems like a common thing but it's such a trip.
yesss i also can relate!! but instead of having invasive thoughts of doing something like what he described, i mostly think of scenarios where terrible things happen like car accidents, and i feel the feeling of what it'd be like and it's overall just really stupid of me to think of the worst case scenario and i have to ground myself and remind myself i'm ok and that's not actually happening.
Drew that song you played at the end was one of my favorite songs of all time. I keep coming back to it. . The first time I listened to it I burst into tears at the "who puffs their chest for me" line. I know these feelings better than I wish I did. . So much love to you as a youtuber, as an artist, and as a person. Thanks for continuing with this channel even when I'm sure its hard to!
Your videos are so refreshing! I relate to them so deeply. This one in particular. Thank you for being you & sharing your mind with us. Although these videos are not “structured” they are honest & healing. It may seem like complaining to some, but it comforting to those who relate & we thank you!
drew i’m not sure if you’re gonna see this or not but you just seem so insecure and it does not sit right with me because i absolutely adore you. i found your channel after watching you in other youtubers videos for years directly around the same time i had to stop talking to a family member i loved because of the way they were treating me. i was having constant panic attacks and it felt like my body was shutting down from the amount of constant heart pounding anxiety i was feeling. the first video i watched was you “finally talking about it” in reference to your past with addiction and in that i not only saw a beautifully authentic and lovely person, but i also saw someone with the most perfect comedic timing and admirable humor and attitude. i still panic a lot lately but when i turn on your videos it genuinely soothes me because i see myself in so many of your experiences and i do the same shit you do when talking and it just all makes me feel more sane. you are weird in a genuine and pure way and it’s really helping me in my journey to becoming me. we’re not all as normal as we act like and your honesty and humor and genuine behavior really really helps me in that. you’re the kind of person i would adore having as a friend and having your videos as a “friendship resource” when im vulnerable still means so much. the people who love you Love You So Much and i just wanted to affirm that for you. stay you icon.
That song was genuinely so beautiful. A lot of people can relate to those feelings and I would love to hear a studio version! Thank you for your music Drew
You’re so crazy weird. I love you. This is the first video I’ve watched by you. I’m so happy I’m not the only one that talks to themselves in a British voice and talks to the British voice in my normal voice. Amazing ❤️ Edit: someone can give you 200 compliments and it only takes one negative one to completely negate all that positivity. Fact of human brains that suffer with depression/anxiety.
As a highly sensitive person who has emotional outbursts and meltdowns due to my neurological condition, this video was really comforting. I value myself for being highly sensitive, but you're right that some boundaries have to be set with how much of myself I choose to share. I have been reading Michelle Zauner's memoir (she fronts Japanese Breakfast) and one thing that sticks with me is her mother saying "you've got to save 10% of yourself for you, don't let anyone have that 10%." I also love the song at the end of this video and I wonder if Patreon could be more music! I would pay $5 a month to get more drew talking and more songs from Drew, I really take solace in the things you create, even if you don't think they're incredible, I do and I find them so comforting and validating. I know I'm not the only one!
I'm super late to this one. But I really relate to that intrusive thought thing. I've had so many thoughts pop into my head where I'd either say or do something awful to someone. Sometimes my filter won't work and I'll end up saying something mean to someone I love before I can even process the thought and stop myself. It eats away at me and I fixate on those moments alot. I like to treat it like training, where I identify those toxic thoughts and just acknowledge them, lock them down and keep them in my mind as a reminder/warning to not do anything awful, and try to think like a normal person
it's gonna be a good night catri! I've just officially declared today December 29th, National Catri Day. so have a good night, it would be kind of weird if you didn't, given that it's your day and all. it would actually be super rude. do you want to be rude? probably not. no one does, it just happens sometimes.
Every time I go to work I get an hour lunch break. On that hour I always put on your videos and eat with you. You make me feel so much less alone. Thank you Drew, love you.
I really value when Drew posts vlogs like this because .. it’s clear that it connects a lot of people who are in a silent crisis… and gives them each a moment to exhale and realize that they are understood
That song was so beautiful, like in a staring at the ceiling, song playing over and over again in your head but it's comforting, Elliott Smith way. This whole video is just so relatable and I know you second-guess yourself when you talk freely on UA-cam, but please know that when you imagine yourself talking to someone who connects with what you're saying, it really does happen. Anyway, it's 5 in the morning so happy new year Drew and anyone else who might be reading this.
You are NOT self absorbed - at least not in the way you fear people think you are. You’re INCREDIBLY thoughtful and you think about others and how it connects to your life & you make these truly amazing connections. You’re one of the coolest, funniest people I’ve ever watched on UA-cam. And even through your humor I can see your pain and my heart connects to you in that way, too. You’re SO much stronger than you even realize. Love you drew
When I say I relate to Drew, it's not the scenarios, yeah, when he says "you know how..." yeah, I usually do know exactly what he means, but there is a way he unravels his thoughts, the way he goes in and out of subjects makes sense to me and is so soothing, I just feel like, I didn't know someone who actually had a similar thought process, and it makes me feel a little less...wrong.
I also relate to the throwing mug story. I have OCD too and have intrusive thoughts. I'm to the point where I know I won't do them but I still struggle with the guilt of them sometimes
I personally love drew, and the work that he does but I’m afraid that he’s gonna drive himself crazy trying to pick apart why things the way they are and how he handles things, but I hope you do better buddy. Keep up the good work and remember to put yourself first when needed
I’m currently “down with the sickness” and you’re the only one who has made me laugh for almost 4 days. I wanted to write a more in depth comment but my head is a literal cloud of fog but I think that you’re an amazing artist and so does my little British child (yes I have one too)
People who say that you are "self-absorbed" because you talk about yourself on YOUR channel can go watch tea channels. I love you talking about your experiences for people to relate. You are the funniest and I respect the honesty and vulnerability of your channel.
I do think it’s really valuable to hear your perspective. We are in a time where we are seeing for the first time seeing how being famous on the Internet as a child affects people as adults. You’re the only person I’ve seen explain that experience first person. It has to have been damaging to your self esteem. There is no way it wouldn’t to any child growing up with an online audience. You’re just being honest about how it has made you feel. People weren’t built to receive that much attention and criticism, especially children. It’s good that you’ve recognized how it has hurt you and that you’re trying to reverse the effects on your self esteem. Very interesting and valuable perspective. Also I relate to the sleep thing. When I don’t get enough sleep I feel like nothing will ever be okay again. I’ve made horrible decisions while tired and emotional.
Lydia that's a great point. I'm gonna bring that up in my next video because I think it's what I've been feeling but wasn't sure how to say - it is the first time. it is not like normal "fame" with screaming fans and lights and camera because you barely experience any of it outside of this strange VR-like faceless internet experience. it is unnatural, it is amazing but the trolling and vague discomfort and lack of safety you can feel especially as a child being seen and sometimes harassed by strangers on a large scale is traumatizing for a small brain, even if there are many positives and you are given the chance to express yourself creativley. and I feel that almost every kid or teenager now seems to be experiencing at least small version of that now. I've been doing it since I was 12 in 2007, and I know if there's one thing know about, it's that. how it's changed and how it's the same. thanks
@@drewmonson2 Drew I can see how confusing all of these things must be as a child. I’m just an average girl and I can relate to almost everything you share with us on here, but I can’t imagine feeling the feelings of a child growing up in this world coupled with the impact of the internet spotlight at the same time…. Go easy on yourself. It’s not an easy feat and your ability to look within and reflect is more than most people are capable of. It’s admirable! I think that these raw and vulnerable talks you’re having with us are helping more than you quite understand right now. What you’re doing is very important because not everyone can put into words how they feel, and you do so, so eloquently and easily. And it makes people feel less isolated and alone in this world. Sometimes all that people are looking for is connection- and you provide that just by sharing your very real experiences. Even if it’s through a screen ❤️
You honestly make me feel so seen, like so many of my thought processes are similar to yours and hearing them described out loud is genuinely really comforting and makes me feel less weird (even when they’re crappy thought processes lmao)
god "losing the fundamental appreciation for the fact that im a human that needs to be taken care of" is such a real description for depression ... for me it feels like the vision radius for what u have the energy to care about shrinks and shrinks until its just u alone in the dark kind of flailing or floating around. i felt it starting to shrink last year and its still hanging around, sending love to everyone who is there with me rn
i spend every day depressed and lonely but ur vids give me some momentary relief there are so many things i find ugly about myself and some of them are things that u talk about i feel like ur openness is able to help me understand things about myself better and help me see my struggles from a more human perspective and not feel alone i appreciate that
I need you to understand that I legit never naturally laugh; it’s always forced. But every time I watch your videos, I find myself cackling out loud. The witch demon and the extra notebook got me today 😂
Hey Drew, I don’t comment much but I just want to say I really relate to you a lot. Sometimes my brain tells me no one else feels like this, but your videos are so comforting to me because you get it. I also struggle with intrusive thoughts as well as many other things and listening to you talk is as if my own scattered thoughts have left my brain and formed another person lol. Just thought I should let you know that I really enjoy these past few videos where you just speak your mind no matter how off track you get in between (because I’m the exact same way). Just wanted to put this into words given the small chance that you might read this. Also that song will be stuck in my head the rest of the day, it is so good. All the best to you!
The song was absolutely incredible...... I cried and needed it rn. Kind of in a rut with my art and music right now and life sucks, but this really helps and now I’ll go write my feelings into a song, thank you
About the whole thing that you talked about being scared to be called "whiny" when you talk about depression and mental health issues-that hits so close to home. It's so weird because even when I'm all alone in my room thinking about doing the most irreparable thing to myself I am like "stop, you dont DESERVE to cry and feel so bad about yourself, people have it so much worse and here you are being broken over nothing". But this makes it all the more impossible to ever get better or start trying to reach out for help for me so Ive been trying not to be like that. Idkek where I was going with that but yeah
Damn this comment was like reading my own thoughts. Horrible to know that you're in the same place, but at the same time glad to know that other people can relate to that.
you are SO intelligent and emotionally mature. i LOVE your comedy, but i equally love how deep and thought-provoking your conversations can be. i have genuinely learned a lot from you.
hi drew. just wanted to say that you have been such a positive figure in my life for the last like 8(?) years. hearing you talk about mental illness/ocd was so powerful for me when i was younger. i struggled so much for so long, but knowing that you had been through the same things made me feel less alone and less crazy. i was recently diagnosed with ocd and gad, and over the past few weeks i have been thinking about you a lot and it has brought me a lot of comfort (if drew can do it, so can i). i think for people who suffer with mental illness it’s much easier to talk to or relate to strangers, like you said in this video. and you have been that person for me. i’ll forever be grateful for your honesty and for showing middle school me that it was okay to feel the way that i did. plus you’re very funny and my comedic inspiration. L.O.L (lots of love), abi
I watched Drew’s livestream and really felt for him, even after watching him over the years it made me realize how genuine he is. I look forward to every time he posts, he is the only authentic UA-camr left-not to mention how hilarious he is, I love how he is utilizing this second channel :)
I was frantic while watching that livestream and desperately wanted him to see and read all of the positive and encouraging comments. It made me so sad when he noticed 1 of the few negative or rude comments and suddenly the stream ended and then immediately after the video was gone (apparently set to Private). It crushed me to witness him spiral and not be able to do anything about it. I absolutely love his authenticity and transparency. His self-loathing, self-depricating, intrusive & obsessive thoughts, over-analyzing, self- doubting and questioning, talking about random scenarios that are strangely not random bc for some reason I've thought about the same thing and have wondered if it's "normal", etc are so relatable for me. I could only wish I felt comfortable being that transparent and I'm a pretty transparent person. Seeing him so deeply sensitive in that livestream was gut-wrenching.
I think you’re wonderful. Your music, your humor, your honesty is all beautiful. You might not feel it but you make people happy. That’s the greatest gift in the world. I hope in time you’ll be happy more often too.
As his teacher used to say, “beauty!”. I think he should be our next Mr. Rogers! Little humans need to hear the messages you have to share with them. Trust me, as you already know- I’m a teacher! Yes!!!! Make an email and call people. As you suggest sharing numbers on the internet is a no no, but there could be a screening process to find compatible strangers to become real friends with through meaningful conversations?… You have a wonderful and beautiful community with some empathetic souls. Sad souls unite! I’d pay to support you and connect with other lovely Patreons. Ok, long enough. X, thanks 😊 Bye 😊✌🏻
the way you put my thoughts into words makes me want to give you a hug but like I also would never give you a hug because I think we both know neither of us could handle that but i would definitely furrow my brows in understanding
I connect with you beyond words Drew. I have PTSD, anxiety and depression due to a sexual assault that happened 6 years ago. We all go through crazy shit but we don't have to go through the same traumatic event to understand one another. I absolutely love your content ❤️
"theres 200 people lying to me because im a joke" this is how MY brain works! Nobody relates to me like Drew. He speaks all my inner thoughts out loud. Loveeee Drew Drew!
I've never related to any UA-camr or influencer more than I've related to you, thank you for putting parts your life out there the way you do. Your content has consistently made me feel less alone in a time where I've been feeling very depressed and a bit crazy lol. I resonated so much with what you said ab when you don't get sleep you feel like you need to check urself into the ward lmfao. I've just picked apart my brain so much while trying to heal that nothing feels real and I don't know who I am anymore. But I'm figuring out who I am and Ive been loving it! Your videos feel like home and hearing you share like minded thoughts has been helping get me through it! You ate this video up and every video for that matter, I promise drew 🕴️ ilysm
Drew, oh lord, you have no idea how inspiring that song at the end was for me, I just can't explain it, I've been watching all of your videos for so many years, struggling through anxiety, depression, heartbreaks, periods of my life where I almost gave it all up, happy moments, joy, boredom, all of it and for more than 5 years your videos have always been there, for me, for yourself, for all of us and it's amazing, you truly are such a beautiful soul and I'm so glad I got to discover your channel among so many of them it makes me wanna cry Don't know if you'll read this, just, I'm glad you exist and are alive, you're doing amazing.
@@PiinkPerfectionM8 Thank you for this reminder. Though I do make an effort to check in with the students, I could be doing more. Thank you for this reminder
I'm just going to say this before even even watching the video. You have no idea how you help me mentally. My cat went missing yesterday and my other cat has a failing liver. I've been crying all yesterday and today. Only ate once yesterday and didn't anything today. My head hurts, I feel dizzy and nauseous. But.. seeing you and how unfiltered and real you are..It makes me feel less lonely..Even when I go days without talking to anyone.. watching you and listening you gives me the same feeling as sitting down and talking to someone that's just gets it. Thank you Drew.
Drew!! I wish this was a voice recording so you could hear the sincerity in my voice when I tell you that was such a beautiful and unique song. Your vocal performance was perfect, especially being so raw but kind of meek. It really fit the feeling of the lyrics. I absolutely loved it!
these vids of u talking are literally so entertaining like genuinely no one else could keep my attention by just talking to a screen in this format i love them i just relate so hard so some of ur shit ur saying
I'm trying to write songs myself and I even sang along with you (as weird as that sounds). I love your voice. I would definitely buy your album. No tips here, I think you being you and showing up no matter what you're feeling is authentic and good enough. We love you and those who don't, just don't get it!
Thank y Rebek (do u mind if i call you that? I don’t have for your answer sorry, I’m gonna leave it) have music on Spotify! I think. I forget. Idk search it.
@@mariaandlola139 If Trisha were a Canadian-Slav, then maybe. Are you guys seriously getting this from my comment? Makes me never want to comment on anything. 5%
this might sound corny but i’ve been coming back to this video over and over again because of how much the song at the end hits me. i’ve never seen someone with the same struggles as me explain it as well as you do. thank you for being you drew, we love you so much
“well let me start it off with I’m sensitive” lmao drew you are my favorite UA-camr to just listen to, it does feel like a genuine connection because I can truly understand and empathize with a lot of what you share with us
I’ve been in bed with the lights off looking at my phone for most of the day and when I got this notification I instantly smiled. Knowing that for the next hour I’ll have something funny/honest/entertaining to watch makes me so happy because otherwise I’d probably be crying into my pillow right now. You bring light to so many people even if you’re talking about sad stuff. ❤️❤️
I would aaalways get those “aren’t you tired of being nice? Don’t you wanna go apeshit” intrusive thoughts and feel terrible like I was a secret asshole, until I read this post on Reddit that was basically like “Yeah this is a common and normal phenomenon your brain does to gauge your moral standing” I guess it’s just the brain seeing how you feel about a scenario. Having those intrusive thoughts doesn’t mean you’re at all mean or bad! Quite the opposite!! It’s you acknowledging you wouldn’t want to do that And I mean living in this age where you see people acting like assholes in the news all the time of course those scenarios come up in the subconscious!
Hey Drew, I'm in kind of an emotional vulnerable place at the moment but I saw the first minute at least and I want to say that I care about you too. Please don't delete this video because I want to hear your thoughts you're braver than I am I never post anything. I hope you know that you're a very special and unique person and that you shouldn't judge yourself. I'll definitely come back to watch the video when I am feeling less stressed out in my personal life. Honestly I'm in a mood where everything seems terrible so it's not just you. I know a lot of people probably feel this way but I relate to you so much and I hope that you are feeling well today. The internet is a scary place but hopefully you feel somewhat safe here.
same, I try to wait until at least 15 minutes in before I comment a timestamp but dang it, I Always end up commenting 2-5 more times because I'm impatient when it comes to giving people validation.. probably something I need to work on, or whatever so whatever
Drew I want you to remember one thing going into 2022: you don’t owe an explanation to anyone for what goes on in your brain/life. Obviously this doesn’t pertain to if you commit a crime… then like, yeah you need to explain lol. But the most freeing thing I’ve done is stop explaining anything I do to anyone, I jinn being a mom I will always be criticized no matter what I do. And to realize that I don’t have to explain my actions (or inactions) to anyone other than my loved ones and myself, is extremely freeing.
I’m going to be completely honest with you and say that I have paused this halfway through to say, yes. I have invasive thoughts all the time. They are worse when I’m trying to sleep (which makes sense because there’s nothing to distract me in that moment). I’ve always felt that I must be a terrible person or that my brain is broken or sick and there’s nothing I can do about it. But hearing you just say that one thing that you’d heard other people say, “your invasive thoughts are not you” has really made me feel better tonight. I thought they were me. I really did. And I know that you’re just one stranger on the other side of the country, but I’m just really glad I heard you say that, because it gave me a lot to think about.
in regards to the part where you talk about what purpose you’d like these videos to serve, talking about your experience has tons of value to me (not as an influencer, i’m a bum) but as someone who doesn’t have access to mental health services but relates to a lot of what you say on a really deep level. it’s super comforting to know that i’m not alone in a lot of this-it’s a reminder i don’t really get often. keep doing you, i really enjoy how these videos just feel like conversations between you and the viewer, even if you have to look at a camera and pretend it’s a person. that probably sucks. but they help me a lot! and i hope they’re cathartic for you in a way too
I just wanted to let you know how soothing watching all of your videos are. I relate to so much of what you say and you articulate it in a way in which I never could. These videos are helpful and are interesting to those of us who understand your perspective. And even though it sucks it’s nice to know there is someone out there who understand the way I feel so I thank you for talking about it so openly with us.
I've never related to someone more , your thought process, your humor, and how it effects your life I have never been able to put it into words but you do. I would be more than willing to pay $60 to hear you talk especially for music stuff as well.
Drew baby that’s the whole point of your channel, you DESERVE to talk about yourself just like everyone else does; this is your form of creative therapy.
That song was really amazing! I could see myself just adding that to my normal roster of music and shuffling it with everything else. I like the way you inflected your voice. It was a great little melody
I like how drew can bring humour to the day today life struggles but also be rly emotionally aware, be so open and completely himself !!! I’m so glad this personality exists on UA-cam and has been here since the early days :,0
Drew I find my intrusive ocd thoughts so so stressful. It makes me feel like crap some days. Particularly when I think about family deaths etc. I've not come across anybody who speaks about this subject and I'm embaressed to open up about it to family and friends. Thank you for sharing your story xxx
I also feel like crap when I believe my intrusive thoughts are things I actually want to do/happen. It can be really isolating at times, but it's good to know you're not alone. Thanks for sharing too!!
I often have those compulsive thoughts when I'm anxious and my OCD kicks into overdrive. I hate it because then I fear that I will actually do whatever it is I'm thinking of.
I related so hard to so much of this- especially the intrusive thoughts stuff. I’m sure this is an echo of 1000 other comments but I love your humor and energy and these videos have been great to listen to. Wishing you the best always :)
This was already a great video but then the ending really topped it off- you’re so talented. You manage to really put me in my feels sometimes, and I mean that in a good way lol
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Be depressed, be boring, we will meet you where you’re at Drew
This comment is incredibly underrated
It feels like sitting with an old friend and just shooting the sh*t **british boy voice** orh shite!
this response is cringe but I'm gonna keep it up in the Drew Monson spirit of authenticity
Amen
Well said
I'm eating my bowl of peas right now. This is so funny that I choked on one of them. Or maybe 2-3 of them. It's hard to tell once they're in your throat
came here from drew's newest video and wow! you do look joyful :D
Hell yeah Peter. Glad you didn't die.
Snow peas?
i also came from drew's newest video. i love peas too!! :D
Omg it’s the Peter from drew monsons latest hit wow
I've never seen anyone interact with themselves exactly how I interact with myself, and this was incredibly soothing because of it. The way your train of thought works and how you have little side conversations with yourself is SO NICE TO WATCH for my own adhd brain. I live alone and work mostly alone, and have such a hard time relating to the people I do interact with. It's nice to watch someone I can relate to.
My brain also turns against me when I get a poor night of sleep. My coworkers in their 60's get away with a few hours of sleep, and I'm in my 20's and if I get any less than 8 I'm an absolute wild card.
@indica YES the way he talks and his sense of humour and how he thinks etc are so so similar to myself and it’s nice 🙂
Nice to know we're not alone but it's just tough to eatch when you apready have adhd because I personally need someone stable and linear
honestly, its fr a talent to be able to sit down and essentially talk to yourself in front of a camera and be charismatic for even 20 minutes, let alone an hour. you’re always appreciated, and you have touched lots of lives
This
Huge agree, when I was a teenager I tried to do some videos and my goodness it is so hard to keep going and not just go ummm uhh and plus be entertaining too especially for this long? It's pretty amazing
TRUE
No wonder my mom used to hound me abt making videos lollll i talk to myself everyday like there r others there, and that’s why i love drew’s videos so much because i just relate to his overlapping thoughts and ideas
the OCD invasive thoughts thing is so real. my therapist said it's just our brain kind of testing our morality and playing around, like to see how we'll react??
hard relate. it's so difficult and can be so uncomfortable. if anyone else is struggling just know that your intrusive thoughts do not define you, they're not real, they're not you. They're your brain coming up with the worst possible thing you could be, often it's the exact opposite of who you are. i hope everyone is hanging in there. missing drew so much :(
I don't think I've ever found someone more relatable. I'm sorry we're like this, but happy we aren't alone.
Dont be sorry for the way you are. Nobody should be. We shouldnt have to reach anybody's standards! but yes glad to not feel alone lol
No it’s kinda fun!! Okay bad sometimes but I’m trying to think of a guy with no bad
@@drewmonson2 I relate to an extent, other than being female and not doing videos anymore, but wishing I had not have given up yrs ago. You are cared about as a valuable, special, thoughtful, humorous & kind young man Drew.💜🥰
@@drewmonson2 The who YOU are IS Good Drew💜
Your humor is one of a kind- I’ve watched you for years now and I’m liking your view on everything. These videos are good!
thank you David Kong Holgiun. what a name. Why isn't my name that? (not to put you on a pedestal )
@@drewmonson2 don’t fret, drew monson #2; we love, respect & appreciate your name here
it feels so validating to hear you talk about imaging doing the worst things. i do the same thing & it feels so awful & makes me doubt my own morals/values all the time. i’ll cry for hours sometimes imaging being the absolute most horrible version of nyself
Literally intrusive thoughts. Just know they don’t reflect your desires at all.
Those thoughts are called intrusive thoughts, very common in people with OCD or anxiety. Don't worry, you're not alone. Those thoughts do not define you or represent you as a person!
Legitimately makes me full on cry 1 out of every 3 or 4 times
A positive spin on this: I think it’s a sign that you’re an introspective person and the fact that you get upset imagining doing bad things shows that you are not a bad person and that those are not your morals or values at all. These are intrusive thoughts. Try to just observe them and let them go, they are just thoughts and they don’t hold any value 😊
Fr the intrusive thoughts I have are horrific
As a therapist I can tell you that peoples' comments towards you (negative or positive) are really just reflections of their own internal world/dialogue. I hope you'll keep showing us this vulnerability and the journey of finding yourself😊 you are inspiring!!
Thats honestly true. I've seen it in real life and I can also say it applies to me too.
Exactly!
Very wise advice! I find it comforting to remember that online comments are basically a diary entry from a person ive never met.
Thank you Dayz but with that logic that does that mean you actually find yourself inspiring?? I love it.
@@drewmonson2 does it also mean I love myself because I usually just comment on your videos "love you Drew"???😨
This video was very comforting as a depressed person, to hear someone else express their true thoughts. Some days I feel like hell and I ask myself “why does no one else ever talk about this, the self-doubt, the exhaustion, the bad days.” I love each and every one of your videos, thanks for being here, Drew
Yes.
Yes!!! And the constant feeling that you’re too much or your feelings are too big to fit in the room is so hard.
The song was really beautiful. It made me very emotional and the vocals were gorgeous. I wouldn't be mad if you decided to record it in a more formal capacity.
THIS. I WAS LOOKING FOR THIS COMMENT
It’s stuck in my head so beautiful
Did he ever record it?
@@courtniplummer9260 hoping it ends up on spotify one day
it sounds so good he needs to
I’ve been throughly enjoying this second channel, it’s like hanging with a friend. I too am very sensitive but as I get older I recognize vulnerability as a strength. Also really liked the outro song on this one.
thank you Jenna! it's strange but it kinda feels like hanging with a friend to me too.
same
Drew, omg… I’m sobbing. I’m literally a 30 year old teacher who is sitting on my bathroom floor with my face soaked. Thank you for seeing us. I adore you. I hope YOU are also easy on yourself 🖤
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I can't tell you how many of my teachers made an impact on my life and I think about them to this day. I feel weird saying this, but I probably think of at least 1 of my teachers daily. I'm 40 now. I think when I was in my teens or 20's I went back and visited my first grade teacher bc she made me feel so important and it was definitely something I needed at that time. I have so many teachers I wish I could get in contact with and let them know they impacted me in one way or another, even if it had nothing to do with actual formal education. 1st grade, 4th grade, many from Junior High and High School.... It makes me sad to think that some have possibly passed by now. The "smallest things" at one point or another have made the biggest impact for me and I'll never forget those teachers.
you should not be ateacher yikes
@@jigglyjello7334 we will never not need teachers. shut up. how about tell our government to give teachers livable wages if you wanna advocate.
@@jigglyjello7334 okay JigglyJello
I just tried watching this video and it was okay but not amazing. I think it needed more drama and tea. I should be explaining the history of someone's beef (and I'm not talking Wendy's) I think the song at the end is good. I want to keep trying to make these! Recording moving selfies (vlogs) is an incredible thing. I want to do these videos even if I'm feeling sad and not as on or fast talking or witty as usual. I've spent 90 percent of my time on UA-cam hiding myself away when I didn't feel worthy or interesting enough to be on camera and I want to try and just believe that some people out there will be okay with wherever I'm at and do it anyway. I need to do something because when I don't do things, I just think too many things and then I live inside of my head and it gets all messy. And think some weeks I'll be mostly serious and some weeks I'll be mostly silly and we'll just have to see.
also lmk if you have any ideas for what a Patreon could be
EDIT: I love editing! I hate when it tells you I edited the comment, it is so aesthetically unpleasing to me to see the (edited) thing right there. It's like you ruined my art.
I'd love a video where you talk about LA story times or weird situations you've been in or like fake influencers. give us some TEAA
@@DylanColeman Dylan I think you've got the wrong guy
i'll design you a patreon poster
@@drewmonson2 it’s okay though because dylan tried and he thought of you while he did it. lots of love to dylan for trying
Just post it all my guy don't worry about how you sound or if it doesn't seem funny enough to you. I have the same issue with my art IG - I tend to post and delete all the time because I tell myself that no one fucking cares about what I'm saying or putting out there. But at the end of the day, people are still watching and so it's proof that I'm wrong when I tell myself that no one cares.
You will always have an audience dude!
I have so many thoughts every minute I don't know how to articulate, and when I listen to you (as someone with OCD & depression) it's almost like a weight off my chest because I know someone out there understands without me even having to say anything: I feel seen and heard. Thank you for making me feel less alone.
The British boy had a lot of character development in this episode, looking forward to the full length movie about how you aren't his dad but you for an unlikely friendship and stay life long pals.
Ps. Love you and appreciate you talking about yourself and your life without censoring all the sad or awkward parts. It helps to connect with you 💙
Your song at the end ... wow. I felt that.
Vulnerability is strength, because it's how we truly connect with others and that can be scary as hell. I think you're quite brave, doing what you do, when we all know how brutal the internet can quite often be.
I hope you go through with the Patreon idea. I would subscribe faster than you could say, "Bill's not my real child."
I think I might make one! But someone said they’d prefer UA-cam memberships, which does seem simpler BUT I don’t think they let you post audio/RSS feeds and stuff. But I see why it would be more convenient than Patreon. Idk! I’m glad you liked the song and felt it
@@drewmonson2 UA-cam is more convenient go through UA-cam!!!
I'd like to vote for the Patreon :)
@@drewmonson2 I feel like you’d have more freedom and options with Patreon. But I’m also not an expert on either and would probably subscribe to either one you chose tbh. Just go with your gut!
The famous Kathi Ganz!
Shout out to college me who emailed “no content” emails to my professors on purpose to buy myself time to actually finish whatever I was supposed to send, knowing it would take them a day or so to realize I sent nothing, email me back to say as much, and *then* I could send a real attachment 😬
Also, I just wanted to say the facial hair and beanie situation you’ve got going right now is absolutely working for you. You’re gorgeous and a gorgeous person inside as well. I don’t love commenting on people’s appearances, but I guess I feel compelled to right at this moment!
Depression, ADHD, and OCD suck a big one, especially when they all live together in one brain. I enjoy listening to you (also I’m super new here, I caught you on a couple Shane videos back in the day but didn’t realize you had your own content happening, but I’m here now!) Looking forward to “catching up”, if you will. ❤️
You have such a talent for music composition. Your pitch and tone is so soothing. My ears thank you. Both of them.
both of my ears liked it too🎶
he sang with cavetown. wishing well
Thank you so much!! Also you only have 2 ears?
@@drewmonson2 how many ears do you have drew
@@drewmonson2 unfortunately, evolution didn’t bless me with more than 2. Might have to put in a request for an upgrade. I’m past due.
33:00 wow ive never heard anyone else talk about this. Some of my most emotional moments as a kid were from thoughts like this, I'm not sure why they happened, but you explained it perfectly. I used to bring myself to tears thinking about the reactions of the people in the scenarios I created in my head.
I’ve done this too. It could be a way to practice feeling empathy for another person. Or to be grateful for the person. Or something upset/triggered you to have the thought to make yourself feel better.
that resonated with me sooo much too!! i feel like there are huge chunks of my childhood where i would just worry myself over scenarios i would create in my head and upset myself over just by imagining that they could happen and that i was capable of imagining them. lol it's a very bizarre feeling and definitely confusing to deal with as a child. these kinds of moments in drew's videos are especially valuable to me because it's those seemingly inconsequential niche "quirks" i always just kind of thought of as individual personal errors that no one else would understand -- to hear them so candidly from someone else and then to find other likeminded people agreeing with it is weirdly validating
Same here. I wonder if it's similar for people just with OCD or intense anxiety conditions (or if it's similar for most experiencing depression etc too) because my intrusive thoughts and stories that I make up in my head are so intense and real and completely wreck me.
Perhaps we're also innate storytellers of impactful tales.
My Grandpa died of a stroke at the age of 45 so of course I never met him. I can remember one night when I was 19 sobbing uncontrollably and shaking after telling myself the story of his death and how we never got to share our voice together (he was a bass baritone, I'm also a classical singer hahaa).
I know that it seems like a common thing but it's such a trip.
yesss i also can relate!! but instead of having invasive thoughts of doing something like what he described, i mostly think of scenarios where terrible things happen like car accidents, and i feel the feeling of what it'd be like and it's overall just really stupid of me to think of the worst case scenario and i have to ground myself and remind myself i'm ok and that's not actually happening.
Drew that song you played at the end was one of my favorite songs of all time. I keep coming back to it. . The first time I listened to it I burst into tears at the "who puffs their chest for me" line. I know these feelings better than I wish I did. . So much love to you as a youtuber, as an artist, and as a person. Thanks for continuing with this channel even when I'm sure its hard to!
"You know when you want to be relatable but you are just too honest about being toxic and then you feel embarrassed" now THAT was relatable
Your videos are so refreshing! I relate to them so deeply. This one in particular. Thank you for being you & sharing your mind with us. Although these videos are not “structured” they are honest & healing. It may seem like complaining to some, but it comforting to those who relate & we thank you!
drew i’m not sure if you’re gonna see this or not but you just seem so insecure and it does not sit right with me because i absolutely adore you. i found your channel after watching you in other youtubers videos for years directly around the same time i had to stop talking to a family member i loved because of the way they were treating me. i was having constant panic attacks and it felt like my body was shutting down from the amount of constant heart pounding anxiety i was feeling. the first video i watched was you “finally talking about it” in reference to your past with addiction and in that i not only saw a beautifully authentic and lovely person, but i also saw someone with the most perfect comedic timing and admirable humor and attitude. i still panic a lot lately but when i turn on your videos it genuinely soothes me because i see myself in so many of your experiences and i do the same shit you do when talking and it just all makes me feel more sane. you are weird in a genuine and pure way and it’s really helping me in my journey to becoming me. we’re not all as normal as we act like and your honesty and humor and genuine behavior really really helps me in that. you’re the kind of person i would adore having as a friend and having your videos as a “friendship resource” when im vulnerable still means so much. the people who love you Love You So Much and i just wanted to affirm that for you. stay you icon.
That song was genuinely so beautiful. A lot of people can relate to those feelings and I would love to hear a studio version! Thank you for your music Drew
Agreed! I loved it
i don’t know how anyone can complain about these, they make me laugh hysterically every time whilst also agreeing w it all, i love these videos drew
You’re so crazy weird. I love you. This is the first video I’ve watched by you. I’m so happy I’m not the only one that talks to themselves in a British voice and talks to the British voice in my normal voice. Amazing ❤️
Edit: someone can give you 200 compliments and it only takes one negative one to completely negate all that positivity. Fact of human brains that suffer with depression/anxiety.
As a highly sensitive person who has emotional outbursts and meltdowns due to my neurological condition, this video was really comforting. I value myself for being highly sensitive, but you're right that some boundaries have to be set with how much of myself I choose to share. I have been reading Michelle Zauner's memoir (she fronts Japanese Breakfast) and one thing that sticks with me is her mother saying "you've got to save 10% of yourself for you, don't let anyone have that 10%." I also love the song at the end of this video and I wonder if Patreon could be more music! I would pay $5 a month to get more drew talking and more songs from Drew, I really take solace in the things you create, even if you don't think they're incredible, I do and I find them so comforting and validating. I know I'm not the only one!
I’m reading that in my book club rn lol
Yes! I just wrote in a comment to him about being a HSP. I am too. He overanalyzes which he doesnt need to do, but I also do haha
Your ending songs give me chills and bring me to tears after hearing you talk like this EVERY time. You are powerful. Impactful.
I'm super late to this one. But I really relate to that intrusive thought thing. I've had so many thoughts pop into my head where I'd either say or do something awful to someone. Sometimes my filter won't work and I'll end up saying something mean to someone I love before I can even process the thought and stop myself. It eats away at me and I fixate on those moments alot. I like to treat it like training, where I identify those toxic thoughts and just acknowledge them, lock them down and keep them in my mind as a reminder/warning to not do anything awful, and try to think like a normal person
Can't believe Carl Jung came back to life just to roast Drew...
i’ve had such a bad day and i was actually thinking ‘when is drew going to post a new video, its been a while’ and you did just now! i love you
it's gonna be a good night catri! I've just officially declared today December 29th, National Catri Day. so have a good night, it would be kind of weird if you didn't, given that it's your day and all. it would actually be super rude. do you want to be rude? probably not. no one does, it just happens sometimes.
congratulations happy catri day everyone
happy catri day besties
international catri day celebrations commence tonight globally
@@drewmonson2 im crying happy tears now december 29th 2021 is officially the best day of my life
Every time I go to work I get an hour lunch break. On that hour I always put on your videos and eat with you. You make me feel so much less alone. Thank you Drew, love you.
I was literally in the middle of a breakdown when this video popped up to make my day. Drew you mean so much to me, thanks for existing.
I really value when Drew posts vlogs like this because .. it’s clear that it connects a lot of people who are in a silent crisis… and gives them each a moment to exhale and realize that they are understood
That song was so beautiful, like in a staring at the ceiling, song playing over and over again in your head but it's comforting, Elliott Smith way. This whole video is just so relatable and I know you second-guess yourself when you talk freely on UA-cam, but please know that when you imagine yourself talking to someone who connects with what you're saying, it really does happen. Anyway, it's 5 in the morning so happy new year Drew and anyone else who might be reading this.
Drew is my comfort person.
You are NOT self absorbed - at least not in the way you fear people think you are. You’re INCREDIBLY thoughtful and you think about others and how it connects to your life & you make these truly amazing connections. You’re one of the coolest, funniest people I’ve ever watched on UA-cam. And even through your humor I can see your pain and my heart connects to you in that way, too. You’re SO much stronger than you even realize. Love you drew
When I say I relate to Drew, it's not the scenarios, yeah, when he says "you know how..." yeah, I usually do know exactly what he means, but there is a way he unravels his thoughts, the way he goes in and out of subjects makes sense to me and is so soothing, I just feel like, I didn't know someone who actually had a similar thought process, and it makes me feel a little less...wrong.
Same!! I’m all over the place and never related to someone more
I also relate to the throwing mug story. I have OCD too and have intrusive thoughts. I'm to the point where I know I won't do them but I still struggle with the guilt of them sometimes
I personally love drew, and the work that he does but I’m afraid that he’s gonna drive himself crazy trying to pick apart why things the way they are and how he handles things, but I hope you do better buddy. Keep up the good work and remember to put yourself first when needed
I’m currently “down with the sickness” and you’re the only one who has made me laugh for almost 4 days. I wanted to write a more in depth comment but my head is a literal cloud of fog but I think that you’re an amazing artist and so does my little British child (yes I have one too)
Hope you feel better soon!
hope your little British child is feeling more positive today!!
I only thought of the metal song "down with the sickness" lol! get better
People who say that you are "self-absorbed" because you talk about yourself on YOUR channel can go watch tea channels. I love you talking about your experiences for people to relate. You are the funniest and I respect the honesty and vulnerability of your channel.
Aww!! Totally agree ✨🤍
I do think it’s really valuable to hear your perspective. We are in a time where we are seeing for the first time seeing how being famous on the Internet as a child affects people as adults. You’re the only person I’ve seen explain that experience first person. It has to have been damaging to your self esteem. There is no way it wouldn’t to any child growing up with an online audience. You’re just being honest about how it has made you feel. People weren’t built to receive that much attention and criticism, especially children. It’s good that you’ve recognized how it has hurt you and that you’re trying to reverse the effects on your self esteem. Very interesting and valuable perspective. Also I relate to the sleep thing. When I don’t get enough sleep I feel like nothing will ever be okay again. I’ve made horrible decisions while tired and emotional.
I was just thinking the exact same thing!
Lydia that's a great point. I'm gonna bring that up in my next video because I think it's what I've been feeling but wasn't sure how to say - it is the first time. it is not like normal "fame" with screaming fans and lights and camera because you barely experience any of it outside of this strange VR-like faceless internet experience. it is unnatural, it is amazing but the trolling and vague discomfort and lack of safety you can feel especially as a child being seen and sometimes harassed by strangers on a large scale is traumatizing for a small brain, even if there are many positives and you are given the chance to express yourself creativley. and I feel that almost every kid or teenager now seems to be experiencing at least small version of that now. I've been doing it since I was 12 in 2007, and I know if there's one thing know about, it's that. how it's changed and how it's the same. thanks
@@drewmonson2 Drew I can see how confusing all of these things must be as a child. I’m just an average girl and I can relate to almost everything you share with us on here, but I can’t imagine feeling the feelings of a child growing up in this world coupled with the impact of the internet spotlight at the same time…. Go easy on yourself. It’s not an easy feat and your ability to look within and reflect is more than most people are capable of. It’s admirable! I think that these raw and vulnerable talks you’re having with us are helping more than you quite understand right now. What you’re doing is very important because not everyone can put into words how they feel, and you do so, so eloquently and easily. And it makes people feel less isolated and alone in this world. Sometimes all that people are looking for is connection- and you provide that just by sharing your very real experiences. Even if it’s through a screen ❤️
You honestly make me feel so seen, like so many of my thought processes are similar to yours and hearing them described out loud is genuinely really comforting and makes me feel less weird (even when they’re crappy thought processes lmao)
i see a lot of myself in you and i feel more okay with being me
god "losing the fundamental appreciation for the fact that im a human that needs to be taken care of" is such a real description for depression ... for me it feels like the vision radius for what u have the energy to care about shrinks and shrinks until its just u alone in the dark kind of flailing or floating around. i felt it starting to shrink last year and its still hanging around, sending love to everyone who is there with me rn
i spend every day depressed and lonely but ur vids give me some momentary relief there are so many things i find ugly about myself and some of them are things that u talk about i feel like ur openness is able to help me understand things about myself better and help me see my struggles from a more human perspective and not feel alone i appreciate that
i completely relate and i hope that maybe u see this comment and hopefully I can find a way to make u smile 🤸🎄 (me backflipping over a fir tree)
I can not get enough of your music, tbh best part of the video. 10/10
I need you to understand that I legit never naturally laugh; it’s always forced. But every time I watch your videos, I find myself cackling out loud.
The witch demon and the extra notebook got me today 😂
Hey Drew, I don’t comment much but I just want to say I really relate to you a lot. Sometimes my brain tells me no one else feels like this, but your videos are so comforting to me because you get it. I also struggle with intrusive thoughts as well as many other things and listening to you talk is as if my own scattered thoughts have left my brain and formed another person lol. Just thought I should let you know that I really enjoy these past few videos where you just speak your mind no matter how off track you get in between (because I’m the exact same way). Just wanted to put this into words given the small chance that you might read this. Also that song will be stuck in my head the rest of the day, it is so good. All the best to you!
THIS. You explained it all so well. 💓
i often rewatch this video from start to finish just to hear the song again at the end i love it :)
I LAUGHED AT TREAT PARLOUR !!! 💖🌈🌷🌼💚
The song was absolutely incredible...... I cried and needed it rn. Kind of in a rut with my art and music right now and life sucks, but this really helps and now I’ll go write my feelings into a song, thank you
Keep pushing friend, things are going to get better, and you will break through this creative block💕
It's been over two years and I still go back to this video to the song at the end. I love this & I love your art. Wishing you all the best, Drew.
i feel like a starving medieval child and every time you post I get to eat another piece of bread thank you drew i love this
Eloquently spoken, I feel similarly.
About the whole thing that you talked about being scared to be called "whiny" when you talk about depression and mental health issues-that hits so close to home. It's so weird because even when I'm all alone in my room thinking about doing the most irreparable thing to myself I am like "stop, you dont DESERVE to cry and feel so bad about yourself, people have it so much worse and here you are being broken over nothing". But this makes it all the more impossible to ever get better or start trying to reach out for help for me so Ive been trying not to be like that. Idkek where I was going with that but yeah
Damn this comment was like reading my own thoughts. Horrible to know that you're in the same place, but at the same time glad to know that other people can relate to that.
I have intrusive thoughts and bad mental health too. You're not alone. 💖 thank u for being so open about your feelings
you are SO intelligent and emotionally mature. i LOVE your comedy, but i equally love how deep and thought-provoking your conversations can be. i have genuinely learned a lot from you.
I always feel guilty for my intrusive thoughts, it's really nice to have someone else express those sentiments
Me too i jus have to tell myself theres a reason theure called intrusive. bcuz theyre not me!
hi drew. just wanted to say that you have been such a positive figure in my life for the last like 8(?) years. hearing you talk about mental illness/ocd was so powerful for me when i was younger. i struggled so much for so long, but knowing that you had been through the same things made me feel less alone and less crazy. i was recently diagnosed with ocd and gad, and over the past few weeks i have been thinking about you a lot and it has brought me a lot of comfort (if drew can do it, so can i). i think for people who suffer with mental illness it’s much easier to talk to or relate to strangers, like you said in this video. and you have been that person for me. i’ll forever be grateful for your honesty and for showing middle school me that it was okay to feel the way that i did. plus you’re very funny and my comedic inspiration. L.O.L (lots of love), abi
I watched Drew’s livestream and really felt for him, even after watching him over the years it made me realize how genuine he is. I look forward to every time he posts, he is the only authentic UA-camr left-not to mention how hilarious he is, I love how he is utilizing this second channel :)
I was frantic while watching that livestream and desperately wanted him to see and read all of the positive and encouraging comments. It made me so sad when he noticed 1 of the few negative or rude comments and suddenly the stream ended and then immediately after the video was gone (apparently set to Private). It crushed me to witness him spiral and not be able to do anything about it. I absolutely love his authenticity and transparency. His self-loathing, self-depricating, intrusive & obsessive thoughts, over-analyzing, self- doubting and questioning, talking about random scenarios that are strangely not random bc for some reason I've thought about the same thing and have wondered if it's "normal", etc are so relatable for me. I could only wish I felt comfortable being that transparent and I'm a pretty transparent person. Seeing him so deeply sensitive in that livestream was gut-wrenching.
I think you’re wonderful. Your music, your humor, your honesty is all beautiful. You might not feel it but you make people happy. That’s the greatest gift in the world. I hope in time you’ll be happy more often too.
As his teacher used to say, “beauty!”.
I think he should be our next Mr. Rogers! Little humans need to hear the messages you have to share with them.
Trust me, as you already know- I’m a teacher!
Yes!!!! Make an email and call people. As you suggest sharing numbers on the internet is a no no, but there could be a screening process to find compatible strangers to become real friends with through meaningful conversations?…
You have a wonderful and beautiful community with some empathetic souls. Sad souls unite! I’d pay to support you and connect with other lovely Patreons.
Ok, long enough.
X, thanks 😊
Bye
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the way you put my thoughts into words makes me want to give you a hug but like I also would never give you a hug because I think we both know neither of us could handle that but i would definitely furrow my brows in understanding
I connect with you beyond words Drew. I have PTSD, anxiety and depression due to a sexual assault that happened 6 years ago. We all go through crazy shit but we don't have to go through the same traumatic event to understand one another. I absolutely love your content ❤️
I feel like this is a safe place. Drew is so relatable
This is exactly what I needed today. Got the Rona and watching you brings me comfort 🧡
Get well soon
Hope you recover soon
Feel better!
Okay im sorry. but WE are going to fix you! (me and the fans) everyone wish KYBA a very good Rona. Happy Rona KYBA! this will be an amazing Rona
happy rona xxx
"theres 200 people lying to me because im a joke" this is how MY brain works! Nobody relates to me like Drew. He speaks all my inner thoughts out loud. Loveeee Drew Drew!
The squeak brought me so much joy then the follow up was “I’m a person… with mental illness.” Ur my favorite bestie. Let’s be sensitive together
I've never related to any UA-camr or influencer more than I've related to you, thank you for putting parts your life out there the way you do. Your content has consistently made me feel less alone in a time where I've been feeling very depressed and a bit crazy lol. I resonated so much with what you said ab when you don't get sleep you feel like you need to check urself into the ward lmfao. I've just picked apart my brain so much while trying to heal that nothing feels real and I don't know who I am anymore. But I'm figuring out who I am and Ive been loving it! Your videos feel like home and hearing you share like minded thoughts has been helping get me through it! You ate this video up and every video for that matter, I promise drew 🕴️ ilysm
Drew, oh lord, you have no idea how inspiring that song at the end was for me, I just can't explain it, I've been watching all of your videos for so many years, struggling through anxiety, depression, heartbreaks, periods of my life where I almost gave it all up, happy moments, joy, boredom, all of it and for more than 5 years your videos have always been there, for me, for yourself, for all of us and it's amazing, you truly are such a beautiful soul and I'm so glad I got to discover your channel among so many of them it makes me wanna cry
Don't know if you'll read this, just, I'm glad you exist and are alive, you're doing amazing.
Drew: you’re a teacher
Me: *jaw drops* yes.
Love you Drew.
Me too! Good luck as we head into another year of craziness. ❤️
Much love to Teacher Rosy
Please ask your students if they’re okay and mean it. I needed that as a kid.
@@PiinkPerfectionM8 i second this
@@PiinkPerfectionM8 Thank you for this reminder. Though I do make an effort to check in with the students, I could be doing more. Thank you for this reminder
drew really let’s his soul speak to us whenever he engages the british boy and i think that’s really beautiful
I'm just going to say this before even even watching the video. You have no idea how you help me mentally. My cat went missing yesterday and my other cat has a failing liver. I've been crying all yesterday and today. Only ate once yesterday and didn't anything today. My head hurts, I feel dizzy and nauseous. But.. seeing you and how unfiltered and real you are..It makes me feel less lonely..Even when I go days without talking to anyone.. watching you and listening you gives me the same feeling as sitting down and talking to someone that's just gets it. Thank you Drew.
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Feel better :( coming from a fellow kitty mama I know the pain, hang in there mama❤️
@@shaybayyy333 thank you💕. Its extra painful. I rather have anything else bad happen to me except my cats.
I'm so sorry this is happening I hope your cat recovers and the other one returns or is found! Sending you a hug 💓
i know. he has something about him that’s so comforting
Drew!! I wish this was a voice recording so you could hear the sincerity in my voice when I tell you that was such a beautiful and unique song. Your vocal performance was perfect, especially being so raw but kind of meek. It really fit the feeling of the lyrics. I absolutely loved it!
these vids of u talking are literally so entertaining like genuinely no one else could keep my attention by just talking to a screen in this format i love them i just relate so hard so some of ur shit ur saying
I'm trying to write songs myself and I even sang along with you (as weird as that sounds). I love your voice. I would definitely buy your album. No tips here, I think you being you and showing up no matter what you're feeling is authentic and good enough. We love you and those who don't, just don't get it!
Is this Trisha commenting this lol
Thank y Rebek (do u mind if i call you that? I don’t have for your answer sorry, I’m gonna leave it) have music on Spotify! I think. I forget. Idk search it.
@@mariaandlola139 If Trisha were a Canadian-Slav, then maybe. Are you guys seriously getting this from my comment? Makes me never want to comment on anything. 5%
@@rebeka5162 I’m really sorry I didn’t mean to offend! Tea’s comment just made me chuckle for some reason, I wasn’t laughing at you
@@mariaandlola139 I was wondering where you guys are getting this from. Not offended, more so trying to understand lol :)
You're one of the only people who genuinely makes me cry laugh often, so yes I would pay for a patreon of yours
this might sound corny but i’ve been coming back to this video over and over again because of how much the song at the end hits me. i’ve never seen someone with the same struggles as me explain it as well as you do. thank you for being you drew, we love you so much
thisss 💞💞
“well let me start it off with I’m sensitive” lmao drew you are my favorite UA-camr to just listen to, it does feel like a genuine connection because I can truly understand and empathize with a lot of what you share with us
I’ve been in bed with the lights off looking at my phone for most of the day and when I got this notification I instantly smiled. Knowing that for the next hour I’ll have something funny/honest/entertaining to watch makes me so happy because otherwise I’d probably be crying into my pillow right now. You bring light to so many people even if you’re talking about sad stuff. ❤️❤️
sending you all the love friend, im proud of you for getting through this and i hope these feelings pass for you soon! ❤️
@@bre9538 thank you so much :) I hope so too
Was working while listening. When Drew played his song, I just started crying all of a sudden and supprised myself with that. So touching.
the thing about being upset with or insecure about people trying to cheer u up is relatable
I would aaalways get those “aren’t you tired of being nice? Don’t you wanna go apeshit” intrusive thoughts and feel terrible like I was a secret asshole, until I read this post on Reddit that was basically like “Yeah this is a common and normal phenomenon your brain does to gauge your moral standing”
I guess it’s just the brain seeing how you feel about a scenario.
Having those intrusive thoughts doesn’t mean you’re at all mean or bad! Quite the opposite!! It’s you acknowledging you wouldn’t want to do that
And I mean living in this age where you see people acting like assholes in the news all the time of course those scenarios come up in the subconscious!
the song at the end gave me the most wonderful, melancholy chill :’) i love it
Hey Drew, I'm in kind of an emotional vulnerable place at the moment but I saw the first minute at least and I want to say that I care about you too. Please don't delete this video because I want to hear your thoughts you're braver than I am I never post anything. I hope you know that you're a very special and unique person and that you shouldn't judge yourself. I'll definitely come back to watch the video when I am feeling less stressed out in my personal life. Honestly I'm in a mood where everything seems terrible so it's not just you. I know a lot of people probably feel this way but I relate to you so much and I hope that you are feeling well today. The internet is a scary place but hopefully you feel somewhat safe here.
same, I try to wait until at least 15 minutes in before I comment a timestamp but dang it, I Always end up commenting 2-5 more times because I'm impatient when it comes to giving people validation.. probably something I need to work on, or whatever so whatever
Drew I want you to remember one thing going into 2022: you don’t owe an explanation to anyone for what goes on in your brain/life. Obviously this doesn’t pertain to if you commit a crime… then like, yeah you need to explain lol. But the most freeing thing I’ve done is stop explaining anything I do to anyone, I jinn being a mom I will always be criticized no matter what I do. And to realize that I don’t have to explain my actions (or inactions) to anyone other than my loved ones and myself, is extremely freeing.
That song was beautiful, I really appreciated it
I’m going to be completely honest with you and say that I have paused this halfway through to say, yes. I have invasive thoughts all the time. They are worse when I’m trying to sleep (which makes sense because there’s nothing to distract me in that moment). I’ve always felt that I must be a terrible person or that my brain is broken or sick and there’s nothing I can do about it. But hearing you just say that one thing that you’d heard other people say, “your invasive thoughts are not you” has really made me feel better tonight. I thought they were me. I really did. And I know that you’re just one stranger on the other side of the country, but I’m just really glad I heard you say that, because it gave me a lot to think about.
in regards to the part where you talk about what purpose you’d like these videos to serve, talking about your experience has tons of value to me (not as an influencer, i’m a bum) but as someone who doesn’t have access to mental health services but relates to a lot of what you say on a really deep level. it’s super comforting to know that i’m not alone in a lot of this-it’s a reminder i don’t really get often. keep doing you, i really enjoy how these videos just feel like conversations between you and the viewer, even if you have to look at a camera and pretend it’s a person. that probably sucks. but they help me a lot! and i hope they’re cathartic for you in a way too
I just wanted to let you know how soothing watching all of your videos are. I relate to so much of what you say and you articulate it in a way in which I never could. These videos are helpful and are interesting to those of us who understand your perspective. And even though it sucks it’s nice to know there is someone out there who understand the way I feel so I thank you for talking about it so openly with us.
drew, that melody and song is so beautiful, thank you for letting us hear it, truly.
I've never related to someone more , your thought process, your humor, and how it effects your life I have never been able to put it into words but you do. I would be more than willing to pay $60 to hear you talk especially for music stuff as well.
Drew baby that’s the whole point of your channel, you DESERVE to talk about yourself just like everyone else does; this is your form of creative therapy.
This was so healing Drew. Keep going. I think you’re helping more than you know ♥️
That song was really amazing! I could see myself just adding that to my normal roster of music and shuffling it with everything else. I like the way you inflected your voice. It was a great little melody
I like how drew can bring humour to the day today life struggles but also be rly emotionally aware, be so open and completely himself !!!
I’m so glad this personality exists on UA-cam and has been here since the early days :,0
I constantly have crazy intrusive thoughts of the worst thing I could do in a given situation. Yet, I've never done any of it!!
Drew I find my intrusive ocd thoughts so so stressful. It makes me feel like crap some days. Particularly when I think about family deaths etc. I've not come across anybody who speaks about this subject and I'm embaressed to open up about it to family and friends. Thank you for sharing your story xxx
I also feel like crap when I believe my intrusive thoughts are things I actually want to do/happen. It can be really isolating at times, but it's good to know you're not alone. Thanks for sharing too!!
I often have those compulsive thoughts when I'm anxious and my OCD kicks into overdrive. I hate it because then I fear that I will actually do whatever it is I'm thinking of.
I related so hard to so much of this- especially the intrusive thoughts stuff. I’m sure this is an echo of 1000 other comments but I love your humor and energy and these videos have been great to listen to. Wishing you the best always :)
This was already a great video but then the ending really topped it off- you’re so talented. You manage to really put me in my feels sometimes, and I mean that in a good way lol