Lyrics: [Pre-Chorus] I wanna kill myself, I wanna kill myself It’s all I hear right now, it’s all I hear right now I wanna kill myself, I wanna kill myself It’s all I hear right now, it’s all I hear right now [Chorus] I wanna break my vows, wanna neglect my health How can I trust people if I can’t trust myself? I wanna scream and shout, I wanna cry and pout But I can’t make myself, why can’t I make myself? [Verse] I always seem to make the same mistakes The kinds you can’t go back to fix, that start to weigh 'Til I’m dragging ‘round a body made of clay I’m just dead weight, I’m just dead weight I wanna feel it all again To have somebody, hold me in place Tell it to my bruised face, that I tried But it was juvenile to think that I ever had a good thing Going with a good being [Bridge] So, I’ll go fuck myself ‘til I’m too lonely to feel Dance like a court jester, just for a film with no reel And I’ll lose all of my friends when I’m no longer ideal And then get scolded again, just to come home to no meal I wanna kill myself, I wanna kill myself It’s all I hear right now, it’s all I hear right now I wanna kill myself, I wanna kill myself It’s all I hear right now, it’s all I hear right now [Pre-Chorus] I wanna kill myself, I wanna kill myself It’s all I hear right now, it’s all I hear right now I wanna kill myself, I wanna kill myself It’s all I hear right now, it’s all I hear right now [Chorus] I wanna break my vows, wanna neglect my health How can I trust people if I can’t trust myself? I wanna scream and shout, I wanna cry and pout But I can’t make myself, why can’t I make myself?
I'm not suicidal or severely depressed but I really vibe with this song. It's just got that weighty beat that I love. Just wanted to add a slightly more positive comment.
Over coming suicidal tendencies is really something. In fact I would say it was the best thing that I have done for myself. Life is different now that I am not obsessing over death. The last time I attempted a lot of my family found out. They thought I just started, but in reality. It was much longer that I had those thoughts. I had them since I was a kid. Listening to suicidal songs made me feel like someone else out there is going through what I was going through. Now listening to these kinds of songs. Is very bittersweet. I feel so happy that I am winning this battle now, but it sucks that others are still going through this. Hope everyone could get through this like I have been doing.
@@MisterFloufry Sometimes it doesn’t really feel like I have made it, but rather making it. You know? It’s really a constant thing to keep on going. It’s like working every day there is no breaks, because if you do take a break you loose a paycheck. Except this paycheck is moments without suicidal thoughts you never realize how easier it is to accomplish things without those thoughts clogging your brain.
This song is raw. It's real life. It's how most of us are feeling but are afraid to say as such to anyone other than UA-cam comments. Pain. Anxiety. Low self worth. Depression. Trauma. Addiction. Abuse. Isolation. It's all so real and so painful. These comments make me wanna cry because I can see all of this pain and suffering. You aren't alone I promise. Your pain isn't any less painful just because you assume other people have it worse. Everyone processes pain and trauma in their own way. We're all unique. Don't try to compare yourself to others. I have felt so alone.. I still do.. but regardless of that I want to help others in my same boat.. if you are struggling or alone reach out to me. I will be there.
@Elisabeth Yocky no no no no. so many ppl care Elisabeth. and if they don't then fuck them. u deserve to be heard and you deserve to be loved and I'm so sorry I'm not there to tell you this bcoz I want you to know I geniuanly mean it and the fact u had to endure this for FOUR GOD DAMN YEARS! has me thinking wtf humanity. humans can be so very disappointing its sad. I'm feel sad and angry that u had to go through that. i wish I could tell u everything will be fine but as u can see things are NOT looking great. i really hope you find the love and support and real friends you deserve. and I'm so sorry that you couldn't tell anyone knowing that they would stab u. but pls don't hurt yourself I know it seems so shitty right now but... pls just don't give up
His music is so fucking amazing. I can't stop listening to it. I am 31 years old but I've never related to somebody's music more. This is the only song I ever want to listen to right now.
Going on 40 and just found about them. It definitely helps to listen to this when you're in your low point and have something to relate too because the people you hang with can't help but say "just try to be happy". Like it's a switch i can flip at moments notice.
I remember hearing this in public and I was so embarrassed! I felt like someone was outing me to everyone... One mental breakdown later I’m looking it up to have something that makes sense to follow and not some broken record in my head.
Funny how a tune can lift you up when your down, and then you realize, this is how I feel. And it smashes you down again. This is me at the moment. But here comes the good vibes again.... man what a tune. Life is worth living, just because of music like this.
@@4blaire4 of course i am im no longer 16 and craving for death i know what killing oneself actually in tales and the burdens others go though its the most selfish thing a person can do Im way older know its just that now days for me a new song can go a long way to keep going
I’m no emo kid or edgy “this is deep” teen, and this most certainly isn’t my type of music, but the lyrics all together just relate to me in the way I have been feeling mentally, and that’s what I like about this, is that I can feel something out of it directly from my experience.
"How can I trust people, when I can't trust myself"
felt that too hard
So true
Nanjiba Jarin Go home weeb
same
Same
@@Quiet_cowboy06 piss off if your gonna have a bad attitude
I hope he's okay. Sending virtual hugs to everyone because I relate
Listen to the lyrics.
Saame
Same here
Same
@@Samlvs740 Yeah I'm scared
The music that lets you vibe with your depression.
literally me lmao
Yep-
hell yeah
Ah yes, romanticizing depression.
@@Somnne It's not about romanticizing depression, it's about feeling represented
"Why can't I make myself" This hits hard because it's true. Even under perfect conditions, I just can't.
Lyrics:
[Pre-Chorus]
I wanna kill myself, I wanna kill myself
It’s all I hear right now, it’s all I hear right now
I wanna kill myself, I wanna kill myself
It’s all I hear right now, it’s all I hear right now
[Chorus]
I wanna break my vows, wanna neglect my health
How can I trust people if I can’t trust myself?
I wanna scream and shout, I wanna cry and pout
But I can’t make myself, why can’t I make myself?
[Verse]
I always seem to make the same mistakes
The kinds you can’t go back to fix, that start to weigh
'Til I’m dragging ‘round a body made of clay
I’m just dead weight, I’m just dead weight
I wanna feel it all again
To have somebody, hold me in place
Tell it to my bruised face, that I tried
But it was juvenile to think that I ever had a good thing
Going with a good being
[Bridge]
So, I’ll go fuck myself ‘til I’m too lonely to feel
Dance like a court jester, just for a film with no reel
And I’ll lose all of my friends when I’m no longer ideal
And then get scolded again, just to come home to no meal
I wanna kill myself, I wanna kill myself
It’s all I hear right now, it’s all I hear right now
I wanna kill myself, I wanna kill myself
It’s all I hear right now, it’s all I hear right now
[Pre-Chorus]
I wanna kill myself, I wanna kill myself
It’s all I hear right now, it’s all I hear right now
I wanna kill myself, I wanna kill myself
It’s all I hear right now, it’s all I hear right now
[Chorus]
I wanna break my vows, wanna neglect my health
How can I trust people if I can’t trust myself?
I wanna scream and shout, I wanna cry and pout
But I can’t make myself, why can’t I make myself?
Vows is bone
Wow thanks!
I love you
Wow this is so dark I love it
👌🏻
I'm not suicidal or severely depressed but I really vibe with this song. It's just got that weighty beat that I love. Just wanted to add a slightly more positive comment.
S a m e
i thought i was the only one like this....
||-//
ll-// hey fellow clikkies
well, for some reason, your pfp is saying to me "i have problems"
How tf on earth does he not have a *SINGLE BAD* song ?
he's built differently
No he never have single mistake
Because he knows what the fuck life has done to people.
Well now he does, album was nothing like the EP
:(
@@Cilvathorne TS was pretty good, Hive is also awesome, what you on about?
Sub urban is one of the few people that every one of their songs I could listen on repeat
UA-cam: How depressing and creepy do you wanna be?
Sub Urban: *Yes*
Lmao
LOL XD
(~￣³￣)~
Yaas
Dont really watch horror movies cause they give me nightmares but I kinda like them
he’s a true genius
Agreed.
Over coming suicidal tendencies is really something. In fact I would say it was the best thing that I have done for myself. Life is different now that I am not obsessing over death. The last time I attempted a lot of my family found out. They thought I just started, but in reality. It was much longer that I had those thoughts. I had them since I was a kid.
Listening to suicidal songs made me feel like someone else out there is going through what I was going through. Now listening to these kinds of songs. Is very bittersweet. I feel so happy that I am winning this battle now, but it sucks that others are still going through this. Hope everyone could get through this like I have been doing.
Thanks for this comment
@@gingerbread_0973 Stay strong. Don’t give up.
I am really happy that you made it, you can be really really proud of yourself
@@MisterFloufry Sometimes it doesn’t really feel like I have made it, but rather making it. You know? It’s really a constant thing to keep on going. It’s like working every day there is no breaks, because if you do take a break you loose a paycheck. Except this paycheck is moments without suicidal thoughts you never realize how easier it is to accomplish things without those thoughts clogging your brain.
I replayed this at least 30 times just today, I just found this song and it’s so relatable 😔
Replay #27 over here and my bf won’t stop looking at me weird...I haven’t felt so addicted to music since HS
Same
Eu tmb 😔
The start kind of sounds like the Minecraft music
Bitch you smart.
Lmao he liked your comment
Minecraft CAVE sounds
that’s what i thought when i first heard this song
Oh no now I hear it
This song is raw. It's real life. It's how most of us are feeling but are afraid to say as such to anyone other than UA-cam comments.
Pain. Anxiety. Low self worth. Depression. Trauma. Addiction. Abuse. Isolation.
It's all so real and so painful. These comments make me wanna cry because I can see all of this pain and suffering. You aren't alone I promise. Your pain isn't any less painful just because you assume other people have it worse. Everyone processes pain and trauma in their own way. We're all unique. Don't try to compare yourself to others. I have felt so alone.. I still do.. but regardless of that I want to help others in my same boat.. if you are struggling or alone reach out to me. I will be there.
💜💜
Yes
how the fuck this only have 47 likes
How can I reach out to You? ):
@Elisabeth Yocky no no no no. so many ppl care Elisabeth. and if they don't then fuck them. u deserve to be heard and you deserve to be loved and I'm so sorry I'm not there to tell you this bcoz I want you to know I geniuanly mean it and the fact u had to endure this for FOUR GOD DAMN YEARS! has me thinking wtf humanity. humans can be so very disappointing its sad. I'm feel sad and angry that u had to go through that. i wish I could tell u everything will be fine but as u can see things are NOT looking great. i really hope you find the love and support and real friends you deserve. and I'm so sorry that you couldn't tell anyone knowing that they would stab u. but pls don't hurt yourself I know it seems so shitty right now but... pls just don't give up
These song can make me cry because I feel it. From the opening line to the closing verse I feel this whole song.
damn this song hits really hard to me, it really got me in tears
*Reads title*
*Me:* hmm I wonder what could KMS stand for....
*Song starts*
*Me:* oh never mind
Glad I wasn't the only one QwQ
Kiss myself
me too
keep me safe
@@kermitthefrogdad4003 hahahaha
Sub Urban: *these songs*
Also Sub Urban: "We live in a society."
I wanna scream and shout, I wanna cry and pout
But I can’t make myself, why can’t I make myself?
I don't know.
I truly hope your ok man.. wishing you positive vibes and true happiness. Take everything a day at a time and know that you are loved.
Billie Eilish: I am depression
Sub Urban: Hold my Tommygun
Billie never said that she is depressed
@@ohitsnattt Yes she did.
@@13thgouthammurali76 No her haters said she is depressed not Billie eilish
@@ohitsnattt nah she said in a interview she has been through depression her whole life.
@@13thgouthammurali76 she has a diseas 🤦♀️
Yes I love all the songs
@@cheris3668 ikr
imxcrystal 12 sameee
@@noctuabliss :D
@Dawg Craft ty I get that a lot lmao 😂
Because you are Sub Urban fan
" *I wanna pout and cry, but I can't make myself...why can't I make myself* "
I felt that, like fr I felt that line.
3 years and am still here
Same
Relatable and I love it but... Damn everyone, you guys good?
Ha
No
Not okay
IM NOOOTTT OOOKKKAAAYY
Yeah no
I did relate at one point so its like a throw back mood 🤣
@@Xavier-kq9hp yeah, I cried because it gave my a lot of sad flashbacks.
:(
sub urban: h-
me: *i'm in love*
@NURI BUCK im in too
Same
@NURI BUCK preach.
SAME
Same here.😃😃😃
Underrated.
Yeah! So much 😭
Everyone: you’re depressed. Me: I’m just scared to be happy.
same :l
Same dude
Never thought I'd vibe with a coment as much as I did this one. Dang..
I’m scared to have the happiness ripped away.
I felt that too hard bruh
"How can I trust people if I can't trust myself?"
Me sometime xd
Me to
:'c
You trust yourself then ;)
_There you go bois and girr, depression no more_
same
His music is so fucking amazing. I can't stop listening to it.
I am 31 years old but I've never related to somebody's music more.
This is the only song I ever want to listen to right now.
Going on 40 and just found about them. It definitely helps to listen to this when you're in your low point and have something to relate too because the people you hang with can't help but say "just try to be happy". Like it's a switch i can flip at moments notice.
@✨SubUrban✨ it's going to be OK. That's all I can say.
Same
Dude. Same. This is like making me feel the shit I hadn’t been able to. Thanks to life xD
Eu tanbem so fã desse cara
the beat to sub urban's songs just hit so differently
You ain't alone
Billie Eilish: I am the most depressing singer
Sin Urban: Hold my cradles
No compare
@Esha ADNANI no
@Esha ADNANI no
BILLIE EILISH X SUB URBAN COLLAB?
SOUNDS GOOD ON PAPER!
@@belladonna1032 yeayup
Song: *starts with "I wanna kill myself"*
Me: I'm definitely downloading this
Same Lol
You meant "buy".. right?
@@alexds6927 yes... Yes indeed, I- I meant "buy"! Yes, oh how silly I am haha stupid keyboard!..
@@mimikyu2801 just use spotify, you can listen for free and it pays for artists
fucking cringy comment w 200+ likes
I just randomly remembered this, but I was obsessed with it a few years ago.
man.
How I feel around holidays
ngl if this becomes a music video im excited to see what he comes out with lol.
Hello
I'm sorry he's not doing it
I think if he make this song into mv. There's alot of suicide attempt's image's or clip's
"Sick of you" and "Broken" video release when?
yessir
Annoying Toad he collaborated with DMNO. maybe DMNO owns it?
" i'm just dead wiegth" that hit hard
It’s been 11 months and I’m still coming to this song
When you're 10 seconds in and already like because you know it's gonna be a bop
I'm so proud,, he is at his 1M :(((
I remember hearing this in public and I was so embarrassed! I felt like someone was outing me to everyone... One mental breakdown later I’m looking it up to have something that makes sense to follow and not some broken record in my head.
Funny how a tune can lift you up when your down, and then you realize, this is how I feel. And it smashes you down again. This is me at the moment. But here comes the good vibes again.... man what a tune. Life is worth living, just because of music like this.
Sub urban,
Your already giving me hopes for this spring break!
Ducking love your music! Keep it up man!✊🏻
Alexander Barrows The Animator I just noticed xD
Quack quack
Yikes...
@@damboyanimationsrebooted7977 are you gonna make any fnaf animations soon?
He accidentally said ducking instead of fucking
Does anybody else hear ''That's a lot of damage'' in the beggining?
He says I was a god damn mistake and success help me define my fucking existence
Flex tape add*
MY MIND 24/7🔥🔥🔥
I don’t know why I love suburban kinda music so much
me: hears I wanna kill myself
My brain: you know you’re going to listen to this at 3:00 am
It's funny because not literally but every time I do something extremely embarrassing I'm just like OH MY GOD I WANNA KILL MYSELF!
i have made a plan
Me encantan tus canciones, son tétricas e impresionantes siempre me dejan una marca cada una de ellas
part hit me hard "i wanna cry and pout BUT I CANT MAKE MYSELF" damn to true guys will get it 🙏
No one:
Absolutely no one:
Me: *singing this at 4 : 26 am in the morning when no one is awake*
x2 xd
Nah, there’s someone with you, many more, maybe a lot
Hey in my country is 4:26 am now and im singing it like u
Woow...I will soon become addicted to your songs.
I already am addicted to all his songs xD
I listen to them all day
He is so freakin cute tho 😍😍
@Felino 1638 omg ikr I saw it too, he is adorable 😍😍😍
О русский
My mom: *hears me play this*
Me signing along: I wAnNa kIlL myself
My mom: are u ok?
Me: Heck no
Shit :'c
same
MY MOTHER ASKED THE SAME THING IMAO
Same but my parents are the problem
My mom: haha phone go yeeeeet
Sending my love to everyone listening to this.
Sub Urban: " And i will lose all of my friends"
Me: " But you have us":)
Fans are not friends.
Joder son las 3AM y yo aquí escuchando esto
Damn it's 3 AM and I'm here listening to this
Ni pedo :v xDD
Jaja
INGLISH:
"THIS ALBUM IS GOING TO BE A SUCCESS"🔥💕🔥💕🔥💕
ESPAÑOL:"ESTE ALBUM VA A SER UN EXITO"🔥💕🔥💕🔥💕
Hablas inglés o español
Lo va ser obvio ☺👌
Spanish and English are languages😯😯😯
@@nancycaceres88 creo que habla inglish :v
Me inglish xD spanish not :'V
speaks from my soul
the truth is that I love all his songs, that's a true singer! ❤️❤️
it was and is art an incredible song just like freak goes on like this I know you'll get further soon thanks for the songs I love you
Everybody: wow nice song!!
me: How the fuc* is the horse moving?
literally me XD
green screen
It's a carousel, you dimwit.
Theo - you don’t have to be rude , the other horses wasn’t moving so they could have been confused.
• blackie • I'm not being rude, I'm only being a bit more honest. If you can't handle the truth, then yes, it might be a bit rude.
You've helped me identify with so many parts of myself; I know music is an expression of one's self... Be well....
Damn, feel so at home and at peace listening to this song
Yes
I REALLLLY needed this right now.
U still alive?
@@4blaire4 of course i am im no longer 16 and craving for death i know what killing oneself actually in tales and the burdens others go though its the most selfish thing a person can do Im way older know its just that now days for me a new song can go a long way to keep going
I’m no emo kid or edgy “this is deep” teen, and this most certainly isn’t my type of music, but the lyrics all together just relate to me in the way I have been feeling mentally, and that’s what I like about this, is that I can feel something out of it directly from my experience.
How are things going for you?
We need an hour version of this song
Me too :))))
therapist: how depressed are you and your music
him: ✨yes✨
this is art, rawest in its form
3 songs in one day. It must be my lucky day.
I have never related so deeply to a song in my life
Pro tip: don't kill yourself, somebody might still care.
might
@zeedstun5125 seriously though, come on man, at the very least I care.
Omg once my dad heard me listening to this
What happened after?
@@jarydperez2952 now he doesn t have a dad anymore
@@rdm9250 phew thanks for the good news
@@jarydperez2952 😀👍
I’m so glad I’m 29 and don’t have to hear my parents judge me for playing this on repeat...but my bf is giving me weird looks.
*this hit different*
I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH I CAN'T EVEN EXPLAIN HOW I FEEL
this is lowkey my comfort song, all his songs
his songs r exactly the same type i listen to😍😍
This is the theme song of my life.
Love this song. I relate to it more than I think I should.
I love the music in the beginning.
Like bro :(
The song is so beautifully sad and relatable. It's so sad that most of us can relate to this, stay safe y'all.
Aw, thanks
You too!
Thanks. I hope you are both staying well too.
No,I’m not listening to this bc it’s “relatable”,
I’m listening to it’s bc it’s g o o d
Same
I replay this song a lot and i relate to it too well for my own good
He just drops songs all of a sudden but I love this song one of my favorites he made
His a amazing artist clap it up for Sub Urban 👏
this slaps but damn it hits hard
I dont even know how many times I have listened to this. But it's too much it actually inspired one of my arts! This song is amazing I love it!
"How can I trust people, if I can't trust myself?" Oof man
same
Big oof
Your hands down my new favorite artist👏
He always was, his music is so unique and outstanding. 😍
I feel these lyrics beond my own explanation
Yeh same
You both doing ok?
this song is everything i want in a song i love how heavy it is
I don't know but it's my favorite song 😭✌️
Thank you so much for existing and being unique. I really needed a song/an album like this.💕🖤
This song hits too hard, I love it
This song really got me in the feels man....
Miss u bro 😿
Ok.. My new favorite song by far! I love it so much! Damnnnnn kinda depressing tho..
Why is almost this whole song my whole life?
Sub urban,
Your already giving me hopes for this spring break!
Ducking love your music! Keep it up man
Next to spring fever its my favourite song of the album!!