Absolutely appreciate how tough it is to replay the worst moments in your life to a stranger and in turn millions of others. And whilst I appreciate that, as a man who's raised two step children, going out and getting blind drunk doesn't result in you committing a sex crime against a minor.
No shit Sherlock, most people have never done something like that blackout drunk. I don't think he was trying to make a defense, but he told the truth which is more then most.
Drugs and alcohol are no excuse for touching or exposing yourself to a child. there’s something much worse there. Not every drug addict or alcoholic harm or abuse children. He seems to think he knows it all but he doesn’t realize how sick he is.
Also he was 21 years old and was living with a single mom and her four kids? Why not rent a room in a house with a bunch of other young adults? Sounds sketchy because men who abuse kids often prey on vulnerable single moms to get closer to their kids. So it seems premeditated.
It's so easy to couch analyze this man. I wish him well, but most importantly I hope the young lady he assaulted will get help. This is something that will be with her the whole of her life.
@@thematriarchy2075 lol, as a survivor of abuse, you say there is no telling if having a grown man force a 12y.o. to grab his Johnson would create trama. Perse Ahahahahaha If it quacks and looks like a duck...
@Andrew wow your delusional if you think him making a young girl just about to hit puberty hold his Johnson in her hands isn't going to be a traumatic experience for her, that is going to affect her for the rest of her life.
This man needs to help himself. He still has a long ways to go. He's so focused on his story helping at least just one person. That one person needs to be him. He can do the work and save himself with some meds and trauma therapy. He's deeply disturbed and I hope he follows through on his word.
His brain injury made him a victim but his sexual assault made him an abuser. A lot of people are never held accountable. I’m glad her mother protected her.
What kind of mother rents out space to someone when they have 4 young children still living at home? She knowingly took that RISK. I was a single mother after my divorce. That was a 'No-Go for me.
@@hattyburrow716 Gray area. I’ve been black out dunk to the point that if someone asked me to shoot myself I would do it. The brain is on cruise control at that point
What are you talking about protected her? She was gone while a grown man was I her home Molesting her daughter . Is that what YOU call protection? What a joke
Seems we need to be known, unconditionally loved, part of something...not further confined by overly generalistic labels applied by folks who are barely self aware. Something about stones & glass houses/judge not for they know not. The state usually presses charges in case like these, regardless of parents, as parents tend to be protective of themselves, NOT their progeny...another difficult truth to swallow
So he was drunk, went up to use the bathroom and „accidentally“ fell next to a child and „accidentally“ made her touch his Johnson and blames it on the alcohol. Nah man. I feel for many people on this platform but I have zero sympathy when it comes to harming children in any way. There’s absolutely no excuse for that. Some mistakes can’t be erased.
3:40 When he says "I wound up endangering the welfare of a minor" That feels a lot like saying 'I accidentally..." because he's distancing himself; not taking full responsibility of it.
Dude stop worrying about other people until you've healed yourself. Put on your own oxygen mask first. You can't save others when your in the same sinking boat.
I’ve watched countless your videos Mark. I’m not sure if I’ve commented before but there’s something about this one. It’s like my ears refuse to swallow what he’s saying. I can’t help but think of the 12 year old girl who was his victim. I hope she’s healing. That she’s getting help so she’s healthy in her future. That she doesn’t carry her pain throughout her life and that her lowest point is no doubt what he did to her and that she knows he’s the dirty one, that he’s the monster, and that his excuses are not her’s to validate or hold. I hope she’s loved and learning to love herself.
I felt the same. It was an odd feeling as if he was trying to guide the audience to something that didn’t match with what he was saying or feeling. For a second I almost thought he made all of this story up. But at the same time some people have trouble expressing themselves. I feel so terribly bad for that girl and hope she heals from what he did to her.
Hey Calvin! As a fellow person that takes lithium and ssri's for depression and a poly drug addict, using cannabis can cause psychosis in combination with ssri's and lithium. I definitely experienced this and quit smoking a year ago. Finally got relief from depression and suicidal ideation. There isn't a lot of studies but it's a real thing. Thanks for sharing!
I honestly feel the one time he was a predator to the 12 year old was probably not the only time this has happened. Maybe I’m wrong but getting blackout drunk isn’t an excuse for such a terrible act. I’m having a hard time with this interview this morning.
Agree and disagree if you’re truly blacked out that isn’t you. The key would be to take accountability and never hurt anyone again. Stop drinking, pay a consequence whatever. Having a hard time with any forgiveness as well
Mark knows what’s really going on here. This guy seems like he wants to help other people but he really needs to help himself. That’s the person he needs to help. Honestly I hope he receives the help soon. Then he can feel better about himself and then maybe later down the road help someone. Peace & Love ✌🏽
The impact of so many suicides around a person will tend to "normalize" it enough to make it the option over seeking professional help. Sometimes the help you find doesn't click. It's ok to admit it's not working and you move until you find the therapy that works for you. Honestly will set you free and sharing your story is important to help yourself and others. I'm not a doctor but I've been through it and still working through mental and physical injuries. I've found, for myself, as a once super athletic person that lost my dream of going pro, going to the gym will turn your focus on being your best for you so you can give back. The gym, yoga, biking....get back into life and into you. If you don't take care of yourself, nobody else will.
Form what I understand it is not as easy as goign to see a therapist, espeically in the USA and if you are working minimum wage job...those are very expensive services and many therapists might say no to sex offender with brian injury and suicidal tendencies. I was told no by a few and I only have suicidal thoughts. I was also inna very toxic and damaging therapeutic relationship.....trusting somebody else where all you know if betray and broken attachment is VERY hard.
@@nhlibra Thank you. Before I get roasted by anyone, I do want to say that I am a survivor of violent sexual assaults, yes plural, as well as mental struggles with depression. All I wanted to hear was the truth from them so I could move on. I never got that.
@@skully0078 i am very sorry to hear that. Sadly we rearly get closure, even somebody confirming they did what they did is rare. This is why I think it is brave of him to say it openly knowing how many people might see it. At least that....so many abusers blame the victim
Mark… I received my shirts yesterday, love them, especially the long sleeve one. Will be awesome for the PA winters here!! Can’t wait to represent this amazing channel!!
Thousands and thousands of single mothers and fathers are struggling to pay the bills and keep the family going as best as they can, parents that go without food to make sure their kids have everything they need for school, but we never know who these people are because they're to proud to ask for help, these are the people I want to help.
I think it takes so much courage to speak about your past, especially if it went like this. I believe he’s keeps saying about helping anyone that sees this I think it’s cuz he doesn’t want anyone going through wat he did. I think he is trying to help himself but at the same time he doesn’t want ppl going through any of this.
Dude, I’m from a small town on Long Island, and want to know how many people I grew up with died from heroin related deaths? Or deaths in general? Drugs really messed my generation up.
I don’t trust anything about this guy. Seems very vacant with a serious personality disorder that he has avoided diagnosis for a long time. His talk about helping others sounds like a good story, but not necessarily true.
I see it time and time again with substance abusers, they are stuck in the mindset that nothing is there fault and they are always the victim so they do nothing to change. He’s stuck in victim mentality, take some responsibility!
Y’all talk about taking accountability. Him sharing the worst part of his actions PUBLICLY is taking accountability. Or is that not enough for you? Maybe him taking his own life is accountability for y’all? SMH 🤦🏻♂️
He seems to be suffering from some sort of mental illness or trauma and speaking about it may be helping him. Idt he's attention seeking but I feel he has warped the truth a little bit.
I have so much empathy and compassion for you. I am a paediatric Traumatic Brain Injury survivor myself. I became so dependent on alcohol later in life. I know how it feels to be looking for answers, holding yourself accountable, suicidal ideation, lack of emotional regulation and everything else that comes with TBI. It's like being in a constant battle with yourself. I'm here to say that it can get better and has for me, i can hear your commitment to healing. but it's a continual fight. Thank you for sharing your struggles here and opening yourself up in this way. Never excusing our own bad behaviour, which tends to be more common in those with Brain injuries, but we don't have to be defined by our worst moments. Just to say I can relate to so much of what you're saying.
What mother of 4 kids let’s a blackout drunk live in their home!? She obviously needed help, a loose woman with issues. Give the man credit for coming on here & telling his truth. Sending ❤️💪🙏
Child abusers will often find families like this and get the parents to trust them. It’s called “grooming” and often happens with families in difficult circumstances.
I don’t think they were wrong for giving your mama that check. PTSD is no joke. Open up to your own stuff and stop looking for reason in everything and everyone in else and you’ll start making progress.
Please don't judge him for the horrible mistake he did at 21. He's alcohol and drug free from around 22 and is now almost 30 years old. He had a rough childhood, lost so many close friends and family members. This man didn't sugar coat because it is enderangement and he did say what he did. How many of us can be so brutally honest about our past like this man? He turned his life around for the better after that incident. That was his rock bottom.
what do u mean don’t judge him, he fucked up that poor girls life. He has the worst victim mentality i have ever seen and needs to take some accountability
Why do people always call explanations 'excuses'. You don't have to like people or even accept their explanations but still, it's a different type of speech and thinking...
I don't feel sorry for someone who molested a child. I'm sorry, but I've been way more drunk than I should've been a LOT. But NOWHERE in my drunken near non consciousness did I ever think I should molest ANYONE, much less a CHILD. Alcohol just makes you MORE YOU, not bring out some side of you that doesn't exist. That's not how that works. Take accountability. I hope everyone has a good day.
0:57 once he described his "younger sister" as being one of the people who raised him, it was like foreshadowing for his glaring lack of self control and accountability
Who prescribed lithium and diagnosed the bipolar disease. I question diagnosis of people, especially with tbi and poly substance abuse. It can be very dangerous.
Calvin really needs some therapy to find his light and realize he is a special person. Best of luck. Hang in there and do the work. It will pay off for you.
He says … endangered a child … no real accountability .. the trauma for that girl is not reversible and he described it as .. endangerment..with all of his bravado .. and demonstrative sighs…he is enjoying this attention which is super sick. His presentation in this interview (story) is manipulation, theatrical and calculating.. he is far from a decent person.
Yeah, Just had to pause the video for a moment to recollect, he skipped so many parts and said he admitted guilt to exposing himself to a 12 YO??? Like wait a minute what, a truly innocent person would at least acknowledge how stupid that was, or wouldn't you be pissing towards the wall even? idk.. seems contrived.
Society is so harsh on sex offenders and rightfully so, but this will continue to happen unless we are ready for hard conversations why and how. Most of you arent ready for that yet. So it will continue to happen in the dark where noone can see or judge.
Crazy part of these comments is its always the normal minded people 🙄 who haven't struggled with a day of mental illness or childhood trauma trying to crucify people although you have no idea what it takes for them to even get out of bed let alone look in the mirror
Getting drunk does not lead to sexually assaulting minors. It does however lower your inhibitions. Take responsibility for your actions and don't blame it on the alcohol.
I think Mark is right, BPD is possible, Calvin you’ve been hanging on, that’s an amazing thing for anyone who’s bipolar or possibly BPD. You should be proud of it at least.
Because of the child abuse I have a hard time believing that he is doing this interview just to help someone else. I think he did it for fast cash. Hurt a child and your credibilty just goes right out of the window.
Hitting a bottom does not make u an offender. He was already sick. No excuses I understand his injury but I won’t buy for a minute that’s why he did what he did. He has a choice he chose
By reading all these comments its important that someone points out that this channel is not for judging .. He did what he did and judgement is not up to us .. watch and learn and analyze . Please refrain from judging .
This kid is a bright insightful smart thoughtful young man it’ painful to see him so tormented and he is absolutely tormented and I hope he gets better
Calvin, you have the best intentions and you’ve definitely had a hard life so far and you have to praise yourself for getting sober!! Keep that going for yourself and i am sure you will help way more then one person. You admitted to offending that girl and that is a good thing that you are remorseful and you knew it was very wrong. I feel like you werent in your right mind when you did that and if you were sober, I am pretty sure you wouldnt have done that. Be grateful you have weathered the storms in Mometh County. Maybe you should move out of that crippled place and find a city you really like and that you feel right about. I wish you prayer and peace to grow from these tough times in your life and start over….. you are young and good looking and you are most certainly honest. There are many people who can help you. You can do this!!! 🙌🏼🙏🏼🙌🏼🙏🏼🙌🏼🙏🏼🙌🏼🙏🏼🙌🏼🙏🏼🙌🏼
Monmouth County has a much lower suicide rate than the US average. Sympathetic to his story and I don't doubt what he's going through, just interesting to note. The lense of which he sees the world/his sample set must be extremely localized.
Smoke a little marijuana, not a bunch and grab a fishing pole. I promise you, this will assist you all in life. Life is hard y'all. nothing is easy, keep grinding.
To all of the comments about him sounding like a victim. Maybe he does sound like that maybe he does not. Each one of these stories, videos are different. For those who address him as a victim how many of you would put on the sneakers that he wore as a child and walk a mile. Not one of you would want that F'ed up childhood. Remember no one forced him to tell his sex offender story. He didn't have to tell that part. Try to wish him some healing and don't condemn him, for we really don't have the authority to condemn.
I actually think this video should be removed, he is not well and not ready for the negatively that he will receive. I think he has tried to share his story during a time of confusion believing it would help him (not others) which will now backfire. I'm scared this will make him worse. He needs private therapy before publicising his story to the world.
I respect him for stepping up to the plate and being honest, he'll probably get some grief from this interview. If he wants healing, he should of concentrated on the healing of the girl who will be most likely have PTSD herself now. First part of healing is releasing the ego and asking for forgiveness, to be honest it was all about himself.
Calvin I bless you. God also loves you. You are a wonderful beautiful person. Ask God to forgive you of all your wrongdoings, and He will. Stop feeling guilty about mistakes you made in the past. It is important to learn from your mistakes and then forgive yourself. You are an awesome person, I wish you well.
Calvin seems like a warm hearted guy who got a bad hand in life and got sucked into the dark side of drugs and drinking Looks like he’s turning things around now and headed in the right direction Stay positive Calvin !
Absolutely appreciate how tough it is to replay the worst moments in your life to a stranger and in turn millions of others. And whilst I appreciate that, as a man who's raised two step children, going out and getting blind drunk doesn't result in you committing a sex crime against a minor.
@Superduper Starwars Stopmotion Channel!(and more!) wow. You mean like Lewis Carrol?
Hey Rob. i hope this guy can work out his past trauma from not being in a stable home and live his best life.
Thousands not millions. None the less.
No shit Sherlock, most people have never done something like that blackout drunk. I don't think he was trying to make a defense, but he told the truth which is more then most.
@@drbeavis4211 False. Many people have done WORSE. Murder, rape, robbery, DUI manslaughter, etc. Please, get out more....
Drugs and alcohol are no excuse for touching or exposing yourself to a child. there’s something much worse there. Not every drug addict or alcoholic harm or abuse children. He seems to think he knows it all but he doesn’t realize how sick he is.
Also he was 21 years old and was living with a single mom and her four kids? Why not rent a room in a house with a bunch of other young adults? Sounds sketchy because men who abuse kids often prey on vulnerable single moms to get closer to their kids. So it seems premeditated.
Explanation =/= excusing.
Yeah I stopped watching after this comment. Didn't get to that part yet. Thanks for the heads up.
False. Drug dealers do much more damage to children by getting their parents addicted. Basic logic.
Traumatic head injury at 14 most likely sealed his fate.
It's so easy to couch analyze this man. I wish him well, but most importantly I hope the young lady he assaulted will get help. This is something that will be with her the whole of her life.
@@thematriarchy2075 ... hello M.A.P.
@@thematriarchy2075 lol, as a survivor of abuse, you say there is no telling if having a grown man force a 12y.o. to grab his Johnson would create trama. Perse
Ahahahahaha
If it quacks and looks like a duck...
@Andrew
It's never ending with people like that. Very immature.
@Andrew wow your delusional if you think him making a young girl just about to hit puberty hold his Johnson in her hands isn't going to be a traumatic experience for her, that is going to affect her for the rest of her life.
@@TaxMan1776 oh I didn’t watch the whole thing I know he’s an alcoholic but what drugs did he doo
This man needs to help himself. He still has a long ways to go. He's so focused on his story helping at least just one person. That one person needs to be him. He can do the work and save himself with some meds and trauma therapy. He's deeply disturbed and I hope he follows through on his word.
Excellent reply.
His brain injury made him a victim but his sexual assault made him an abuser. A lot of people are never held accountable. I’m glad her mother protected her.
What kind of mother rents out space to someone when they have 4 young children still living at home? She knowingly took that RISK. I was a single mother after my divorce. That was a 'No-Go for me.
He is accountable , he accepted what he did and how awfully he behaved. He’s trying to do better and live well in a world that confounds him
@@hattyburrow716 Gray area. I’ve been black out dunk to the point that if someone asked me to shoot myself I would do it. The brain is on cruise control at that point
What are you talking about protected her? She was gone while a grown man was I her home Molesting her daughter . Is that what YOU call protection? What a joke
Seems we need to be known, unconditionally loved, part of something...not further confined by overly generalistic labels applied by folks who are barely self aware. Something about stones & glass houses/judge not for they know not. The state usually presses charges in case like these, regardless of parents, as parents tend to be protective of themselves, NOT their progeny...another difficult truth to swallow
So he was drunk, went up to use the bathroom and „accidentally“ fell next to a child and „accidentally“ made her touch his Johnson and blames it on the alcohol. Nah man. I feel for many people on this platform but I have zero sympathy when it comes to harming children in any way. There’s absolutely no excuse for that. Some mistakes can’t be erased.
I just heard that part. What a strange story, like it makes any sense.
Agree
He didn't say accidentally at all. He blantly said he put her hand there. He knew he fucked up.
He admitted he did it and was wrong. He never Said he accidentally did it
3:40 When he says "I wound up endangering the welfare of a minor"
That feels a lot like saying 'I accidentally..." because he's distancing himself; not taking full responsibility of it.
Dude stop worrying about other people until you've healed yourself. Put on your own oxygen mask first.
You can't save others when your in the same sinking boat.
“You’re a wasted resource, if you’re not being the best version of yourself.”
Such a warm & compassionate stance
Compassion. Lol
Thats weird that i read this comment right when he said that
Nope... that's BS. Treat others with love and kindness...respect their boundaries. A wasted space is someone who never learns how. Sad as that may be.
@@pamdelaney5149 except this guy in the video, don't treat him with love and compassion. He doesn't deserve it
@@TaxMan1776 Sadly, friend, I couldn't even watch past the first ten minutes. He lost me. I just have to humbly thank God His mercy far exceeds mine.
I played hockey and went to school with Calvin, I watch this channel all the time, pretty wild seeing someone you know.
Was bro always a liar?
Did he trip over coming out of the shower and land his dick in someone's hand?
Haha I know it has to happen… Wild, Im waiting to see!
May you be free from danger
May you have mental happiness
May you have physical happiness
May you have ease of well being.
are you directing this to the 12 year old girl?
Anyone and everyone.
I’ve watched countless your videos Mark. I’m not sure if I’ve commented before but there’s something about this one. It’s like my ears refuse to swallow what he’s saying. I can’t help but think of the 12 year old girl who was his victim. I hope she’s healing. That she’s getting help so she’s healthy in her future. That she doesn’t carry her pain throughout her life and that her lowest point is no doubt what he did to her and that she knows he’s the dirty one, that he’s the monster, and that his excuses are not her’s to validate or hold. I hope she’s loved and learning to love herself.
This guy talked about being “honest,” but the whole time he came across fake!!!!
I felt the same. It was an odd feeling as if he was trying to guide the audience to something that didn’t match with what he was saying or feeling. For a second I almost thought he made all of this story up. But at the same time some people have trouble expressing themselves. I feel so terribly bad for that girl and hope she heals from what he did to her.
Hey Calvin! As a fellow person that takes lithium and ssri's for depression and a poly drug addict, using cannabis can cause psychosis in combination with ssri's and lithium. I definitely experienced this and quit smoking a year ago. Finally got relief from depression and suicidal ideation. There isn't a lot of studies but it's a real thing. Thanks for sharing!
It makes alot of sense not to use a combination of psycotropic medication and grass...what a concept, not exactly rocket science
@@rezzin7620 there are very stupid people where this simple concept might as well be unfortunately
Valuable information, thanks for putting it out there
Mushrooms can help.
@@rezzin7620 thanks for the positive input…
I honestly feel the one time he was a predator to the 12 year old was probably not the only time this has happened. Maybe I’m wrong but getting blackout drunk isn’t an excuse for such a terrible act.
I’m having a hard time with this interview this morning.
I’ve been black out drunk 1000s of times never nonced no kids
he doesn't even act like it was a big deal.
Agree and disagree if you’re truly blacked out that isn’t you. The key would be to take accountability and never hurt anyone again. Stop drinking, pay a consequence whatever. Having a hard time with any forgiveness as well
Hey just a heads up: often the people featured look at the comments so please be kind to strangers on the internet.
@@balladofathinman0 good I hope he sees all these negative comments
If any one reads comments before watching this one is worth skipping. He starts out saying, "I molested a child, life has been really hard." 🤮
Mark knows what’s really going on here. This guy seems like he wants to help other people but he really needs to help himself. That’s the person he needs to help. Honestly I hope he receives the help soon. Then he can feel better about himself and then maybe later down the road help someone. Peace & Love ✌🏽
The impact of so many suicides around a person will tend to "normalize" it enough to make it the option over seeking professional help. Sometimes the help you find doesn't click. It's ok to admit it's not working and you move until you find the therapy that works for you.
Honestly will set you free and sharing your story is important to help yourself and others.
I'm not a doctor but I've been through it and still working through mental and physical injuries. I've found, for myself, as a once super athletic person that lost my dream of going pro, going to the gym will turn your focus on being your best for you so you can give back. The gym, yoga, biking....get back into life and into you. If you don't take care of yourself, nobody else will.
Form what I understand it is not as easy as goign to see a therapist, espeically in the USA and if you are working minimum wage job...those are very expensive services and many therapists might say no to sex offender with brian injury and suicidal tendencies. I was told no by a few and I only have suicidal thoughts. I was also inna very toxic and damaging therapeutic relationship.....trusting somebody else where all you know if betray and broken attachment is VERY hard.
@@55linka You are right, it's not easy at all. Giving up on yourself is too easy and easier for others to give up on you whilst taking your energy.
@Skully,
Very thoughtful comment. There's a lot of trash comments for Calvin to read through, until he finds a positive one such as yours. 💜
@@nhlibra Thank you.
Before I get roasted by anyone, I do want to say that I am a survivor of violent sexual assaults, yes plural, as well as mental struggles with depression.
All I wanted to hear was the truth from them so I could move on. I never got that.
@@skully0078 i am very sorry to hear that. Sadly we rearly get closure, even somebody confirming they did what they did is rare. This is why I think it is brave of him to say it openly knowing how many people might see it. At least that....so many abusers blame the victim
I keep my circle vwry small he says..probably because generally speaking folks are not very keen on associating with child predators
Mark… I received my shirts yesterday, love them, especially the long sleeve one. Will be awesome for the PA winters here!! Can’t wait to represent this amazing channel!!
Didnt no about shirts
@@EuleneWages4644 mark puts out a list at least once a year about buying shirts.
@@maureent8653 thanks dear
This country is just horrific.
Thousands and thousands of single mothers and fathers are struggling to pay the bills and keep the family going as best as they can, parents that go without food to make sure their kids have everything they need for school, but we never know who these people are because they're to proud to ask for help, these are the people I want to help.
Amen
I think it takes so much courage to speak about your past, especially if it went like this. I believe he’s keeps saying about helping anyone that sees this I think it’s cuz he doesn’t want anyone going through wat he did. I think he is trying to help himself but at the same time he doesn’t want ppl going through any of this.
💯 agree.
Thank you for sharing your story. Thank you for choosing sobriety. Congratulations on keeping it up. Kudos.
@Superduper Starwars Stopmotion Channel!(and more!) I disagree . Have a good day.
Dude, I’m from a small town on Long Island, and want to know how many people I grew up with died from heroin related deaths? Or deaths in general? Drugs really messed my generation up.
Thankyou, I now realize after watching this video and doing research I have bpd
Are you ok?
How did you think you’d be helping anybody with your story? Get properly medicated and stop playing the victim 🙄
If he was blackout drunk, how does he remember the sexual assault?
I absolutely have faith in this guy. His answers are real, raw. His self-awareness is light years ahead of most. You got this!
I don’t trust anything about this guy. Seems very vacant with a serious personality disorder that he has avoided diagnosis for a long time. His talk about helping others sounds like a good story, but not necessarily true.
I see it time and time again with substance abusers, they are stuck in the mindset that nothing is there fault and they are always the victim so they do nothing to change. He’s stuck in victim mentality, take some responsibility!
Y’all talk about taking accountability. Him sharing the worst part of his actions PUBLICLY is taking accountability.
Or is that not enough for you? Maybe him taking his own life is accountability for y’all? SMH 🤦🏻♂️
I am sending healing vibes to everyone involved.
Anyone else cringing every time he says "my homies"?
yes x1000000
Yes. Lol. The word sounds weird enough but then listening to him use it sounds even more bizarre.
@Andrew How awful of me to take the piss out of a pedo
For sure my homie
Came here to say that. Had to switch it off.
Thank you for sharing your story
I’m not trying to be mean but I think he is attention seeking.
He seems to be suffering from some sort of mental illness or trauma and speaking about it may be helping him. Idt he's attention seeking but I feel he has warped the truth a little bit.
Dude's apiece of trash
TBI is so sad... vocabulary, thought process, emotions all stuck in time.
Divorce,and different men coming and going from house, is very chaotic to a child, and disrupts growing up.
Calvin Thank-you for sharing your story
I'm doubting that was the only time...only time he got caught.
I have so much empathy and compassion for you. I am a paediatric Traumatic Brain Injury survivor myself. I became so dependent on alcohol later in life. I know how it feels to be looking for answers, holding yourself accountable, suicidal ideation, lack of emotional regulation and everything else that comes with TBI. It's like being in a constant battle with yourself. I'm here to say that it can get better and has for me, i can hear your commitment to healing. but it's a continual fight. Thank you for sharing your struggles here and opening yourself up in this way. Never excusing our own bad behaviour, which tends to be more common in those with Brain injuries, but we don't have to be defined by our worst moments. Just to say I can relate to so much of what you're saying.
Yuck. He definitely should be judged and defined by his behavior. Stop giving scumbags a pass.
Butter people up with a sob story and then vaguely mention how you "accidentally" ended up exposing yourself to a 12 yr old.
He didn't just expose himself...he forced the child's hand on his genitalia. I wouldn't be surprised if that's just the time he got CAUGHT.
👍🏻👍🏻
we still saying alcohol and drugs as if is alcohol is not drug
What mother of 4 kids let’s a blackout drunk live in their home!? She obviously needed help, a loose woman with issues. Give the man credit for coming on here & telling his truth. Sending ❤️💪🙏
Child abusers will often find families like this and get the parents to trust them. It’s called “grooming” and often happens with families in difficult circumstances.
Can’t figure this out. Wish him well and grace to go on
People are so judgemental in this comments section, this is disgusting
If it was a fit girl the comments would be so different
@@redskyatnight123 If it was not a pedo the comments would change.
How the f can U defend this piece of human garbage?
Ppl with brains generally hate child molesters . Defending this p.o.s. is disguisting!
Ya .. some people sitting on some pretty high horses out there.
The ability to 'persist' in the mental health world is so key 20:49. I needed this interview! Thanks Mark, Calvin.
At least he’s not blaming the 12-year old…
I don’t think they were wrong for giving your mama that check. PTSD is no joke. Open up to your own stuff and stop looking for reason in everything and everyone in else and you’ll start making progress.
The person your story needs to help is you Calvin. See that therapist, stay sober.
Please don't judge him for the horrible mistake he did at 21. He's alcohol and drug free from around 22 and is now almost 30 years old. He had a rough childhood, lost so many close friends and family members. This man didn't sugar coat because it is enderangement and he did say what he did. How many of us can be so brutally honest about our past like this man? He turned his life around for the better after that incident. That was his rock bottom.
what do u mean don’t judge him, he fucked up that poor girls life. He has the worst victim mentality i have ever seen and needs to take some accountability
I’m glad I don’t need help because this interview definitely wouldn’t have helped me any.
Why do people always call explanations 'excuses'. You don't have to like people or even accept their explanations but still, it's a different type of speech and thinking...
because his “explanation” is not valid. i have been black out drunk a million times but i would never be attracted to a 12 year old ew
I don't feel sorry for someone who molested a child. I'm sorry, but I've been way more drunk than I should've been a LOT. But NOWHERE in my drunken near non consciousness did I ever think I should molest ANYONE, much less a CHILD.
Alcohol just makes you MORE YOU, not bring out some side of you that doesn't exist. That's not how that works.
Take accountability.
I hope everyone has a good day.
Fax
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Thank You Calvin to share your story💞
I'm an alcoholic, some substance use also
before your interwiew I seeked out help for ten years.
Hope You have, and Mark You too, summer is the best yet😎🙏🤗🤠
And I am very good looking lady. So don't hate the haters, You are strong ❣️😎🤗🤠
0:57 once he described his "younger sister" as being one of the people who raised him, it was like foreshadowing for his glaring lack of self control and accountability
Noticed this too
went from homies to peers 🤔
Who prescribed lithium and diagnosed the bipolar disease. I question diagnosis of people, especially with tbi and poly substance abuse. It can be very dangerous.
Calvin really needs some therapy to find his light and realize he is a special person. Best of luck. Hang in there and do the work. It will pay off for you.
Pray and ask for help it works if you work it. I have a great therapy team.
There is validity to what he is saying, Monmouth County does have a higher statistical rate for suicide that the entire state.
Courage to get better
Give the therapy a chance. It’s hard work, and the best thing you’ll ever do for yourself. ❤ You can do this.
Let the "one person you help" be yourself. 😑
I thought that was creepy, too uh, no. Not.a. Good.idea.
Good job having acceptance Calvin definitely one of the most important things you can learn
He says … endangered a child … no real accountability .. the trauma for that girl is not reversible and he described it as .. endangerment..with all of his bravado .. and demonstrative sighs…he is enjoying this attention which is super sick. His presentation in this interview (story) is manipulation, theatrical and calculating.. he is far from a decent person.
Yeah, Just had to pause the video for a moment to recollect, he skipped so many parts and said he admitted guilt to exposing himself to a 12 YO??? Like wait a minute what, a truly innocent person would at least acknowledge how stupid that was, or wouldn't you be pissing towards the wall even? idk.. seems contrived.
Mark Laita =best interviewer EVER!!
His timing is perfect, knows when to keep the story moving and when to keep quiet
Society is so harsh on sex offenders and rightfully so, but this will continue to happen unless we are ready for hard conversations why and how. Most of you arent ready for that yet. So it will continue to happen in the dark where noone can see or judge.
I appriciate this guys raw honesty. No sugar coating no making excuses. Im sure your story will help plenty of people! ❤🙏
When he said that he would choose not to live again…. It becomes extremely obvious that his meds are not properly working- very sad
Most proud moment-wow, how about the balls it took to announce this to the world! This guy wants help!!
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Bro is in serious danger..so sad, there is help out there! Plz don’t leave this world…you matter!
Crazy part of these comments is its always the normal minded people 🙄 who haven't struggled with a day of mental illness or childhood trauma trying to crucify people although you have no idea what it takes for them to even get out of bed let alone look in the mirror
@@jacobus57 good thing you're not GOD and you don't have a heaven or hell to put him in
Yeah this dude is fake as can be. This the type of dude who is a legend in his own mind.
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This dude seems like a total narcissist. Don't feel for him in the slightest.
Getting drunk does not lead to sexually assaulting minors. It does however lower your inhibitions. Take responsibility for your actions and don't blame it on the alcohol.
I think Mark is right, BPD is possible, Calvin you’ve been hanging on, that’s an amazing thing for anyone who’s bipolar or possibly BPD. You should be proud of it at least.
How did this guy make it here?
That's the first mistake I never say never
Hi swu fam, blessings from New Zealand Tuesday nyte 10.30pm pouring down rain over here.
Hay 1230 pm here in UK oi oi
Because of the child abuse I have a hard time believing that he is doing this interview just to help someone else. I think he did it for fast cash. Hurt a child and your credibilty just goes right out of the window.
Good Monday Morning Mark and SWU Family 🤗 Hoping EVERYONE has a Great & Productive week ! Praying for you Calvin..🙏🏼
Hello Gail hope u have a great week also.enjoy SWU some shows good some bad but I guess it's all in different opinions.👍🏻
When you ask someone who is lost
Where are they...
And why
Interesting but scary
This is not help
Hitting a bottom does not make u an offender. He was already sick. No excuses I understand his injury but I won’t buy for a minute that’s why he did what he did. He has a choice he chose
Bro that county is haunted
By reading all these comments its important that someone points out that this channel is not for judging .. He did what he did and judgement is not up to us .. watch and learn and analyze . Please refrain from judging .
How depressing
This kid is a bright insightful smart thoughtful young man it’ painful to see him so tormented and he is absolutely tormented and I hope he gets better
Calvin, you have the best intentions and you’ve definitely had a hard life so far and you have to praise yourself for getting sober!! Keep that going for yourself and i am sure you will help way more then one person. You admitted to offending that girl and that is a good thing that you are remorseful and you knew it was very wrong. I feel like you werent in your right mind when you did that and if you were sober, I am pretty sure you wouldnt have done that.
Be grateful you have weathered the storms in Mometh County. Maybe you should move out of that crippled place and find a city you really like and that you feel right about.
I wish you prayer and peace to grow from these tough times in your life and start over….. you are young and good looking and you are most certainly honest. There are many people who can help you. You can do this!!!
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Finally someone I know! His cousin Taylor works at Napp Race track.
Praying for you. To get the help you need
Monmouth County has a much lower suicide rate than the US average. Sympathetic to his story and I don't doubt what he's going through, just interesting to note. The lense of which he sees the world/his sample set must be extremely localized.
Yup. Very dangerous
Smoke a little marijuana, not a bunch and grab a fishing pole. I promise you, this will assist you all in life. Life is hard y'all. nothing is easy, keep grinding.
This guy has victim mentality. Feels very sorry for himself and doesn’t seem to take accountability and thinks he is the cure to other’s suffering.
To all of the comments about him sounding like a victim. Maybe he does sound like that maybe he does not. Each one of these stories, videos are different. For those who address him as a victim how many of you would put on the sneakers that he wore as a child and walk a mile. Not one of you would want that F'ed up childhood. Remember no one forced him to tell his sex offender story. He didn't have to tell that part. Try to wish him some healing and don't condemn him, for we really don't have the authority to condemn.
I actually think this video should be removed, he is not well and not ready for the negatively that he will receive. I think he has tried to share his story during a time of confusion believing it would help him (not others) which will now backfire. I'm scared this will make him worse. He needs private therapy before publicising his story to the world.
I respect him for stepping up to the plate and being honest, he'll probably get some grief from this interview. If he wants healing, he should of concentrated on the healing of the girl who will be most likely have PTSD herself now. First part of healing is releasing the ego and asking for forgiveness, to be honest it was all about himself.
HOMIES!! Hes got a lot
Calvin I bless you. God also loves you. You are a wonderful beautiful person.
Ask God to forgive you of all your wrongdoings, and He will.
Stop feeling guilty about mistakes you made in the past. It is important to learn from your mistakes and then forgive yourself.
You are an awesome person, I wish you well.
Calvin seems like a warm hearted guy who got a bad hand in life and got sucked into the dark side of drugs and drinking
Looks like he’s turning things around now and headed in the right direction
Stay positive Calvin !
Lol
Stay strong Calvin you got this keep being honest
He's hoping to help someone but I think he is trying to help himself. He needs help definitely. He looks like he is at or nearing a new bottom.
Maybe get back to something you love. Hockey. Help little kids get into skating and learning the sport of hockey. Just a thought.