Emotional impro

Reflexion:
That was my first impro of the year 2025... Recent "happy new year, wish you all the best" And all new intentions to set for growth etc.........
In my head, nothing was clear and with it so much thoughts that my body was trying to reflect..even though I just wanted to shut it of and enjoy my first dance....
Patterns.... Ok let's be fine with them, Recognising them, embrassing them to see their benefits and allow them to move, to transform, to grow...There's still so much that are not benefitial anymore but they are still there, making me move the same way... Ok it is my signature but damn I'm so tired of moving the same way... Am I always saying the same things? Ok I enjoy them, ok I embrace them, new perspective ok... Positive positive positive... Ah negativity here and there ok I see you, I feel you, I also recognise and embrasse and dance with you... Ah suddenly something new appear out of a patterns...yeaaaaah...What is it? I don't know, let dive in it, repeat it evolve with it..... Ahhhhh shit back in another pattern... Never mind let's keep on... {Blaaaaaaannnnk}
Ok I have to show myself in a way these are for auditions... I'm looking for jobs, show the best version of yourself, but damn I'm tired of looking for that best version, let's just be me in that moment... Uuuuuhmmm ....ok let's keep on...... All of these process until I cannot breath anymore and release it all...
And that's a result of it