When I was a waitress, my boss thought it was super cool that I wasn't very emotional and didn't understand how I felt. He thought it made me a better worker.
alexithymia might be why some of us are told we are passive aggressive. I analyze much more than show my feelings. I feel but my feelings are confusing so I analyze the events around them.
Finally getting around to watching this. Today it hit me that I think most of my anxiety stems from trying to please others by doing what I feel I am supposed to do rather than figure out what is best for me individually. This causes me to lose sleep for anticipating the things I don't want to do (which are coming up) but feel I must do (because it's normal and healthy and good, cough, cough) and secretly I begin feeling guilty for not wanting to do them - which only adds to my anxiety and stress and fear of how to explain to others (assuming they need an explanation which I probably actually don't owe them) and it affects me emotionally and physically. I hope that made some sense. These things are: taking a walk outside for health (I can exercise inside in various ways) attending a Zoom Women's Bible study from our church (this and the above cut into my special interest which is my own personal Bible study which many don't relate to what I am studying) I'm sure there are more but those 2 things alone eat at me for feeling guilty for not doing when I should instead be content for who I am and what I enjoy. This probably doesn't relate to alexithymia but it just hit me a few minutes ago and I wanted to express it! I did do badly on that facial expression test. lol
Because when autistic people has only affect part of interoception - "brain-body disconnect" problem. Without interoception brain has problem constructing emotions and in combination with impaired conceptual system you have problem naming emotions.. Lower interest in people also does not help. You need to have emotions in brain and parents to help name the emotions simplier said.
When I was a waitress, my boss thought it was super cool that I wasn't very emotional and didn't understand how I felt. He thought it made me a better worker.
alexithymia might be why some of us are told we are passive aggressive. I analyze much more than show my feelings. I feel but my feelings are confusing so I analyze the events around them.
Finally getting around to watching this. Today it hit me that I think most of my anxiety stems from trying to please others by doing what I feel I am supposed to do rather than figure out what is best for me individually. This causes me to lose sleep for anticipating the things I don't want to do (which are coming up) but feel I must do (because it's normal and healthy and good, cough, cough) and secretly I begin feeling guilty for not wanting to do them - which only adds to my anxiety and stress and fear of how to explain to others (assuming they need an explanation which I probably actually don't owe them) and it affects me emotionally and physically.
I hope that made some sense.
These things are:
taking a walk outside for health (I can exercise inside in various ways)
attending a Zoom Women's Bible study from our church (this and the above cut into my special interest which is my own personal Bible study which many don't relate to what I am studying)
I'm sure there are more but those 2 things alone eat at me for feeling guilty for not doing when I should instead be content for who I am and what I enjoy.
This probably doesn't relate to alexithymia but it just hit me a few minutes ago and I wanted to express it!
I did do badly on that facial expression test. lol
I understand exactly what you’re saying. I feel like that too!
Because when autistic people has only affect part of interoception - "brain-body disconnect" problem. Without interoception brain has problem constructing emotions and in combination with impaired conceptual system you have problem naming emotions.. Lower interest in people also does not help. You need to have emotions in brain and parents to help name the emotions simplier said.
I went to school with her … we called her Alexa for short