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  • Опубліковано 22 бер 2018
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КОМЕНТАРІ • 353

  • @tomdang5104
    @tomdang5104 6 років тому +88

    It's hard to believe you're gone. You showed so much courage in the face of this adversity. The only comfort is to know that you are no longer suffering. I'll always remember you. Rest In Peace.

    • @susanfagan2727
      @susanfagan2727 5 років тому +8

      I find it unbearable without her cheery smile to look forward too .. seems so unfair

    • @lynjones9339
      @lynjones9339 4 роки тому

      Me to xxx

  • @shellbell2730
    @shellbell2730 4 роки тому +20

    At 3:30 when Aisha started talking about her feelings... it got me... So sorry sweet girl you lost the love of your life. I hope you are doing okay right now

  • @marievickers7848
    @marievickers7848 Рік тому +2

    Aisha was so lovely in this video saying she was put on this earth to be her other half. how beautiful. this poor girl suffered dreadfully with cancer and is now at peace. God bless you Aishs.

  • @mayaluna11
    @mayaluna11 6 років тому +33

    "I was put on this planet to be with you".....💜💜💜

  • @gabrielsnotdead6912
    @gabrielsnotdead6912 6 років тому +112

    Tears coming..aisha says I was put on this planet to be with you😭 most people never get that (including me so far ) lucky xx

    • @emilyhayward4726
      @emilyhayward4726  6 років тому +36

      Stars Lightning she’s an angel.... everyone deserves an Aisha xxx

    • @gabrielsnotdead6912
      @gabrielsnotdead6912 6 років тому +6

      Emily Hayward I cried both times! Crying now! Your so so so so lucky to have found each other ...... and I am so so so jealous 😂😂 I guess I have my dog though she's a white german shepherd x alaskan malamute she's the love of my life ❤ have fun, smash it, eat good food xxxx

  • @buzzoff3689
    @buzzoff3689 6 років тому +21

    Being exposed to nasty chemicals at my job, I developed 9 tumors, (thyroid, kidney, liver, ovaries). After multiple surgeries and loads of treatment, (now clear), I gained 125 pounds. Yes, I'm an embarrassing, repulsive, wobbling marshmallow. It was due to a combination of no thyroid, being in so much pain I was lazy (and slept), and continuing to eat my normal (shit) diet. Now I have to get this weight off or its going to take me down. I feel like I have this huge mountain to climb and sometimes it seems impossible and I want to give up. But watching you and your challenges gives me such motivation! Your spirit, positivity, strength, and fight is absolutely spellbinding and contagious. I feel like such a twit complaining when you're this solid, determined powerhouse! Who the hell am I to complain? Thank you for being you. You're an example for all of us. I'm so sorry what you're going through, know everyday and every night I'm thinking of you and really praying for your full recovery. I'm not just saying that, I really am. I've never been so emotionally invested to anyone online, and you have me hook, line and sinker! God bless.
    PS: There's nothing I'd rather see than you beating this thing, and rising to the absolute top, being more of an inspiration to millions! I have 100% confidence in you! If anyone can do it, by God, it's you. Tear it up girl!
    PSS: I f'ng HATE you cancer , you're a bitch ass punk!!

  • @db757lbh1
    @db757lbh1 6 років тому +11

    Throwing out a different perspective, having lost a loved one , I wore their ring on a chain around my neck for months. It helped me when I was hurting to reach up and touch the ring. Sort of a tangible reminder of all the love we shared.
    On a lighter note, Aisha is so petite behind the steering wheel. It’s adorable.

  • @SWbeauty
    @SWbeauty 6 років тому +38

    Me and my husband did the same thing, we booked the wedding straight after my diagnosis and 4 months after my lung cancer op we got married and it's the best thing we ever did, we are so happy. I wish you both all the happiness in the world, You were made for each other 💕💍

    • @tumbleweedmoon777
      @tumbleweedmoon777 6 років тому +2

      SWbeauty hope u are well god bless

    • @nadishe
      @nadishe Рік тому

      Hope your alright and well ,may god bless ya

  • @applejellypucci
    @applejellypucci 6 років тому +134

    Thank you Aisha for being there for Emily, you two are such a great example of what true love looks like!

  • @rachelhj1988
    @rachelhj1988 6 років тому +13

    I have found you whilst I was searching for some support. My sister was in a Car accident in November. Thankfully she is still with us but her Brian injury has meant that I feel as though I’m grieving for someone who is still here, and far too often I find myself in the midst of despair and sadness.
    Your positivity has boosted me beyond belief. I hope your life, irrespective of how long it may be, is full of love and light.
    A true inspiration xxxx

  • @cori020065
    @cori020065 6 років тому +7

    This is an addendum to my previous text .....my brother was diagnosed with AIDS@ 19 he did not die till we were 32. HE JUST WOULDN'T GIVE I, He refused to give into it, and he constantly worked out he was IN excellent shape. ..... but government gave him medication for his thrush,he was allergic AND. He's gone now,but............... we carry him with us.! Love to you both!

  • @jennwill80
    @jennwill80 6 років тому +16

    We miss you, Emily.

  • @susanfagan2727
    @susanfagan2727 5 років тому +9

    I can feel Alisha's pain here .. it's rare to see this very strong and brave woman letting her guard down .. sad 😭

    • @lynjones9339
      @lynjones9339 4 роки тому

      Was really upset when i hear her say that lifes shit Miss you Em RIP xx

    • @freebirdh7033
      @freebirdh7033 4 роки тому

      As a fairly recent cancer victim, I can echo Alisha's thoughts. In the early days I told my partner that I think it's easier to have the cancer than be the partner of a sufferer. Others at my support group have said similar. I miss the pair of them and hope that Aisha is doing ok.

  • @alexiabutcher6265
    @alexiabutcher6265 6 років тому +59

    Hi Emily, if not a wedding ring, perhaps a tattoo on your wedding finger? Like the letter “A” or something that reminds you of Aisha. Much love to you both

  • @SakuraUploads
    @SakuraUploads 6 років тому +3

    "I feel like I was put on this planet to be your partner" was that a cheeky glimpse into your wedding vows, Aisha? If not I think you should definitely include that. That was beautiful.

  • @amandak407
    @amandak407 6 років тому

    Yessssss!!!!! Was smiling so big with that POA! Praying for you, girl!

  • @peeweetoms
    @peeweetoms 6 років тому +73

    Awesome video as always, you guys are so damn cool :) I was in hospital again yesterday which sucks so didn't see this till this morning. You deserve so much success with this vlog and love :)

    • @milliejarvis1371
      @milliejarvis1371 5 років тому +10

      RIP Dan, I felt as if I actually knew you even though I didn't ever meet you personally, I really hope that a cancer cure can be found, you were a sensational fighter and a true inspiration, such a kind soul.

    • @mikejaygreen
      @mikejaygreen 2 роки тому

      ❤ miss you man

    • @madpakke
      @madpakke Рік тому

      RIP Dan. I followed you too. Such a great and strong person.

  • @adalineproulx9773
    @adalineproulx9773 6 років тому

    Best of luck wed!! Prayers and hugs to you both 🤗

  • @pam164
    @pam164 6 років тому +15

    Some people never find the love you both have for each other all there lives. Life is very unfair. Keep postive.

  • @dannykelly9679
    @dannykelly9679 5 років тому +4

    I guess your star was just too bright for this world Emily, I’ve watched you for a long time you were funny, humble and beautiful and a credit to your wife and family. Broke my heart watching you go but you’ve left a mark on my life and from what I see many others. Your an inspiration to this world your positiveness makes me forget all my problems, I wish I could bring you back but I’m just so happy you was here because you were incredible x

  • @merson812
    @merson812 5 років тому +17

    Aisha, Emily remains in my thoughts daily, as do you.

    • @lynjones9339
      @lynjones9339 4 роки тому

      Aisha how are you
      Love to hear from you please update somthing let us no your ok xx Rip Emily xx

    • @lynjones9339
      @lynjones9339 4 роки тому

      Aisha
      Hope you doing your best Emily
      Was one in a million xx

  • @Isabelly
    @Isabelly 6 років тому

    YASSSS Wedding planning!!! I am just to excited! The image of love right here!!!!

  • @milk1112
    @milk1112 6 років тому

    Yay!! So glad you have a plan! Sending positive thoughts for a successful outcome!! Love from the State of Oregon in the USA❤️❤️

  • @Kickine
    @Kickine 6 років тому +29

    I randomly found your channel yesterday. I'm rooting for you girl! Your personality is infectious! 💕👍

    • @beccaboots100
      @beccaboots100 6 років тому

      Kickine you Spock the words in my head lol I found this yesterday amazing ladies x

  • @melissakimmel2551
    @melissakimmel2551 6 років тому +1

    New subbie posting again! I just love you both! Aisha....love love love you for being there for emily! So glad i found this inspiring vlog!!

  • @justhannahbanana7381
    @justhannahbanana7381 6 років тому +1

    I'm happy for you! Hopefully all goes well and as always, keep us updated. Much prayers and love. 👍♥️💪

  • @danielleantony9971
    @danielleantony9971 6 років тому +1

    U guys! I’m a new subbie, man that bit in the car with Aisha was so damn heart renching! I can see why u love each other! You r coping so well n I’ve only watched two videos 😩 man I wanna hug u both so much ! Like legit got my heart pulled on with u two 🤧💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

  • @bevbailie4544
    @bevbailie4544 6 років тому +2

    You are truly an inspiration! Many people do not have a 1/3 of what you are dealing with and yet you stay so positive! I love to watch all of your posts they are uplifting and make me feel able to overcome whatever battle I am facing. Thank you!

  • @Tattooedbud
    @Tattooedbud 6 років тому +1

    Emily your sense of humour is awesome, I love the montages you mix up for the vlogs, you are both truly inspiring people. Much respect 🙏🏻❤️

  • @saracino217
    @saracino217 6 років тому +3

    You both are SO beautiful, inside and out! Praying for you❤️

  • @julieann5381
    @julieann5381 6 років тому +2

    Been thinking about you today. So glad you're getting the treatment you wanted and have a plan, it must put your mind at rest a bit ❤

  • @00jekky00
    @00jekky00 6 років тому

    Sending soo much love. You two bring me so much happiness. Despite everything youre still so positive and so up.. Love it.

  • @riawallace7560
    @riawallace7560 6 років тому

    NOW THAT'S A PLAN OF ACTION!!
    CROSSING EVERYTHING FOR YOU EM 😊💝😊
    Sending lots of love & peace right back ✌🙆✌

  • @beckyg927
    @beckyg927 6 років тому +1

    I was so thrilled to see a new vlog from you guys today! Sending love and best wishes your way.❤️

  • @raquelclemente5836
    @raquelclemente5836 6 років тому +1

    Hi, Emily. I hope the radio surgery goes alright. You are amazing. Keep going!
    💜

  • @tinaismail1976
    @tinaismail1976 6 років тому

    You guys inspire me everyday. Good luck with your 2 hour scan. Love you guys xxx

  • @dawnrobinson4002
    @dawnrobinson4002 6 років тому +1

    I woke at midnight and logged on looking for u cos I knew u were getting news hope the poa works. Been thinking of u all day

  • @22PrincessB
    @22PrincessB 6 років тому

    I accidentally stumbled across your channel and my god girl, You are a tough cookie!!
    Laser the shit out of those tumours and lets pray for some good news for you

  • @Kashinoki.n
    @Kashinoki.n 6 років тому +1

    Your videos are so beautiful, simply a work of art. YOU are such a gorgeous human being! Keeping you in my thoughts 💕

  • @vicki0145
    @vicki0145 6 років тому +2

    Emily you're an inspiration to us all, especially to me, I've had 2 cancers and WOW girl there you are with so many more problems than me AND your working out in the gym, you put me to shame. Your Aisha is truly wonderful and she obviously love's you very much and why not your so gorgeous and your love for her is very evident. I must try and do more exercise as my poor old body is weak especially my legs but hey ho I am 74 so maybe I can be forgiven, but oh dear your making me feel guilty for not trying harder hahaha. Keep going you lovely dear girl and I hope and pray with all my heart you'll get through this, please give my love and admiration to Aisha - much respect to her and loads of love to you both Xv

  • @elynrebels4535
    @elynrebels4535 6 років тому

    Glad you have a plan of action to continue the fight! 👊 Energy Motivation Inspiration Living! You are much loved 💜

  • @agneswatson9592
    @agneswatson9592 6 років тому

    Just recently started watching your incredible journey. You go girl, Aisha by your side, what a team! Hoping for the best outcome with your surgery.

  • @hayleytravels3203
    @hayleytravels3203 6 років тому

    Your strength really inspires me, your approach with this unfortunate situation has really inspired me to really enjoy life's moments no matter what situation so thank you so much for that. Me and my family are all rooting for you! X

  • @sabrinar.3917
    @sabrinar.3917 6 років тому

    I'm so glad you got some good news again finally! Good luck with everything next week!

  • @melissaleigh6921
    @melissaleigh6921 6 років тому

    Hey! Iv just discovered your channel and I just had to comment and say that I think your strength is so admirable! I cannot even begin to imagine what your going through it must be just awful but through your videos your always smiling and enjoying life and I just think your an inspiration not just to those with cancer but to everyone :) much love from Melissa :) x

  • @claricejones1766
    @claricejones1766 6 років тому +1

    Aw Aisha is such a lovely wholesome person. You two work so well together ♥️ I'm glad you have your plan! Fingers crossed

  • @therange4033
    @therange4033 6 років тому +1

    Good on yer girl! Am with you in my thoughts and prayers.

  • @TheCraziestWeek
    @TheCraziestWeek 6 років тому

    Just found your videos today. You and Aisha are an inspiration. Stay strong, peace

  • @misspaleparanoia4718
    @misspaleparanoia4718 6 років тому

    Fingers and toes crossed! It's going to work it just has too! Love to you both!

  • @SakuraUploads
    @SakuraUploads 6 років тому +4

    Okay one more comment, you and Aisha are goals. Seriously goals.

  • @ailsa3419
    @ailsa3419 6 років тому

    just wanna send you all my love, you're such fighters and ive only just found your channel today but im so proud of you. keep them pozzy vibes going and stay strong!

  • @Katie2sWeightLoss
    @Katie2sWeightLoss 6 років тому

    I'm so glad they are getting you a plan set up fast!
    I am so sorry you are in so much pain 😢 I hope they get it under control ASAP!!
    How exciting to be planning your wedding!!!! I'm so happy and excited for y'all!!!! Woohoo!! 💍👰🥂
    I am sending y'all lots of love and hugs!!! 👍❤️❤️👍

  • @brandimcmillen4005
    @brandimcmillen4005 6 років тому +1

    Wow! What a true moment of love and devotion. Words most of us would love to hear...I was put on this earth to love you. You are both angels in my book! Sending prayers and good wishes to you. 💜

  • @artvelcro
    @artvelcro 6 років тому

    I'm hooked on you girls. So inspired by the two of you and what you're dealing with.

  • @vickyrogers3690
    @vickyrogers3690 6 років тому

    I am hoping and praying for you, as always...love you sooo much!! ❤️❤️

  • @patriciamannheim9416
    @patriciamannheim9416 6 років тому

    Im With You,Emily!!!! Praying for You!!! All the Best gonna happen! Patrícia from Budapest

  • @mosaicgirl4002
    @mosaicgirl4002 6 років тому

    Yay! Brave girl! You two are just fabulous! ❤️ & all wonderful & happy wishes from Australia❤️❤️☕️

  • @collettewhosthatgirl1330
    @collettewhosthatgirl1330 6 років тому

    Glad to hear there a plan of action!! I'm new to your channel, maybe a couple of weeks now:) your subs have blown up over night it seems!! Last i looked it was 5k now it's over 7k in a day or 2!! Congrats, and your going to kick cancers ass!!!!❤❤❤

  • @ALaNa2368
    @ALaNa2368 6 років тому +1

    You two have the most beautiful relationship! Sending positive vibes your way Emily, your attitude and strength is truly inspiring! 💜

  • @PeachyOutlook
    @PeachyOutlook 6 років тому

    Glad your getting sorted, you deserve the best. Lots of love to you both x

  • @emmawenham4774
    @emmawenham4774 6 років тому

    Fantastic news about the treatment!! Xx

  • @megmccomb135
    @megmccomb135 6 років тому +2

    It's lovely watching the love and special relationship u two have together and the comfort u give each other. I pray for the both of you to continue having courage and to cope with the ups and downs. All my love to you both. Meg xxx

  • @beccaboots100
    @beccaboots100 6 років тому

    fighting so hard what lovely humans you are. hat's off to your bravery and how much you are helping others along your own journey. inspiring both of you. my heart is with you all the way much much love xxx

  • @s.l6375
    @s.l6375 6 років тому

    You're so brilliant and strong.
    Sending lots of light and positivity your way.

  • @miaombak655
    @miaombak655 6 років тому +1

    Emily this is some good news.😊 Am putting heartfelt prayers out there for you. Aisha expressing her pain was so poignant. Big hig for you Aisha, it is so hard watching someone you love suffer.
    Excited that your Wedding plans are rolling along. Love to both of you. 🌹 xx

  • @nikigarcia1766
    @nikigarcia1766 6 років тому +2

    Great video and really great positive news from the Marsden! They simply wouldn’t attempt it if they didn’t think it had a good chance of succeeding so that’s brilliant! Stay strong and positive and have a great weekend! xxx

  • @JessWWECena1
    @JessWWECena1 6 років тому

    wishing you all the luck in the world honestly you're so funny and i hope you pull through this x

  • @amytih47
    @amytih47 6 років тому

    OMG all my strength not to curse! Kinda just part of my vocab but I’ll control myself and say I’m absolutely FUC...JOLLYWELL delighted to hear the POA!
    Loadsa love Ladies xxx

  • @Burgundysky
    @Burgundysky 6 років тому

    Just found your channel. I just want to say how amazing and strong you are, and your fiance is amazing as well. I have been praying for you everynight, love your videos your such a brave person for sharing

  • @MaliceSfx
    @MaliceSfx 6 років тому

    GOOD LUCK GIRL YOU RE THE STRONG ONE AND YOU CAN DO IT!

  • @LetsPlaySims4
    @LetsPlaySims4 6 років тому +2

    Happy for you Emily. And aww, Alisha's moment in the car was just the sweetest thing. X

  • @tiffanynicole5920
    @tiffanynicole5920 3 роки тому +2

    I’m loving the Will Smith song playing in the car. I haven’t heard that in years lol

  • @virginiamicek15
    @virginiamicek15 6 років тому

    Wow. That’s is such good news. I am happy for you Emily and Aisha that they will be able to help you I am praying for a great outcome for you. Hugs❤️

  • @becks6580
    @becks6580 6 років тому

    Will be praying for you!! ❤️

  • @justdesserts7872
    @justdesserts7872 6 років тому

    You have a beautiful attitude. You’ve also inspired me to start going to the gym, so thanks ☺️

  • @standup2982
    @standup2982 6 років тому

    What an inspiration you both are, united together and propping each other up. We are all so proud of you both, and are with you, on your journey. Your Internet family are holding your hands, both of you. Emily please let us know where to send post to, sorry for keeping asking. Stay strong ladies, we've got you, feel our love and support xx

  • @clairecarey8004
    @clairecarey8004 6 років тому

    Great POA so pleased they can target each one of them yay !! Going to that sweetshop the kingdom of sweets next week with my son, thanks for the recommendation Em. Will take a picture and insta it to you. Good luck with the wedding plans you two are as gorgeous as ever with each other and yes Aisha is a true Angel xx

  • @lindafoster2141
    @lindafoster2141 6 років тому

    Love you both, and good news today! Sweet words today! You two are for sure meant to be together! Love from Indiana!

  • @Lottiloveslife
    @Lottiloveslife 6 років тому

    Oh Aisha, bless your big heart. It is better having the cancer, in my mind anyway, if it was any of my family I would be in bits but because it’s me I feel more in control! Hope that makes sense? Love you guys x x Lotti x x

  • @delmapayne8426
    @delmapayne8426 6 років тому +13

    Great vlog !!! Love you girls !! You inspire me so much !!! Fighting cancer myself but I am 65 a mum and a Nan so have had a full life !! You keep fighting together beautiful girls !!xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

    • @UnionShen
      @UnionShen 6 років тому +2

      Good luck, Delma! you've got it!

  • @debisusan1037
    @debisusan1037 6 років тому +3

    I feel for you. You are so brave and way too young to be going through this. I have stage 4 breast cancer, so I do feel your pain, really. It is not fun and I have not been through what you have. I am not looking forward to it either. I am so sorry. live every day to the fullest, as you have been. Prayers and good thoughts to you, my friend!!

  • @mystic4528
    @mystic4528 6 років тому +3

    Emily
    Words can’t describe how much admiration I have fir such a young tough fighter,
    New to your channel and I have binged watched everyone of your vids!
    I wish you and Ashia the best
    Marty from the USA
    Yes you have a new sub 💜

  • @Longtallsal17
    @Longtallsal17 6 років тому

    Just discovered you... caught up with your journey..woah! Never met anyone with such a positive attitude.. what an amazing relationship too ( you could have lived a lifetime and not found what you have now) wish you all the very best with your plan of action! Brilliant editing/filming/music too!!!

  • @inessilvaestevesblog4031
    @inessilvaestevesblog4031 6 років тому

    Praying for you girl 🙏🏻

  • @PeaPie74
    @PeaPie74 6 років тому

    Bless your heart. I’m pulling for you. You deserve a long and fabulous life❤️

  • @TA-yf8wg
    @TA-yf8wg 6 років тому +3

    Glad that some good news came out of today! :)

  • @Jkk55
    @Jkk55 6 років тому

    So glad you got that news Emily i wish you all the very best hun x

  • @michelleschot7015
    @michelleschot7015 6 років тому

    I do not usually comment, but I think you are an inspirational young lady. I've had cancer myself and know what you are going through.
    I'm cheering for you, and I'm so happy that you have many who support you.
    U go Emily, you are inspiring soul for everybody.
    Thank you Aisha for being there for Emily, sending love and strength your way.

  • @karencurtis2697
    @karencurtis2697 6 років тому +2

    5.6k subs yehhhhhhhh , POA . Your hospital is so good 😊,It's great to hear this the treatment is amazing but you attitude is out of this world 🌎 and that's going to get you through this for sure , You two are defo made for each other and your strength, love and understanding of each other's needs will only make this love last foreverxxxxxxxxx. When's the hen party 🎉 can we all come lol. Take care both 😉

  • @botibomaus
    @botibomaus 6 років тому

    you two are such strong and inspirational people, I truly wish you all the best and I shall subscribe and go on this journey with you. I will be keeping you in my thoughts daily!

  • @JennhasADHD
    @JennhasADHD 6 років тому +2

    Glad to hear your news :) 2 hours tho! :o that is definitely a long time, but 2 hours is nothing in the scale of time you can gain :)

  • @GSU-rg9yo
    @GSU-rg9yo 6 років тому

    prayers from S. Florida. God bless you both.

  • @ivanag.8699
    @ivanag.8699 6 років тому

    Sooooo happy for the good news! Take care both ❤💕💪

  • @marthacarrigan8349
    @marthacarrigan8349 6 років тому +1

    I admire you both such a beautiful relationship you have Love helps everything, you know. Leaning on each other, hiding nothing is the best bond. We get to watch it grow in you both every day. ❤❤❤

  • @s-happy1478
    @s-happy1478 6 років тому

    wow!!!! you two are amazing, i,m sending you all my love and positive thoughts. The world needs more people like you. and i think your vlogs are great peace!!! xxxxxxxxx

  • @jessloves9367
    @jessloves9367 6 років тому

    Aisha had me in tears bless her heart. Love you two xx

  • @le-annesummers3678
    @le-annesummers3678 6 років тому

    Fingers crossed baby girl! Sending my love to you both.

  • @marcim5143
    @marcim5143 6 років тому

    I love you both and admire your positivity immensely! I’ve my scary cat scan with dye this coming Monday which has had me in panic mode all week.Two hours in the MRI tube is creeping scary. It requires two Xanax before. It’s no fun when you have an itch but can’t move to get it. I’ll be thinking of you. Big hugs from Connecticut again. X🤗💗💗🤗🙏🏻🙏🏻 💜💜💕

  • @elleb89
    @elleb89 6 років тому

    Your personality is amazing! Im new to your channel and you are just so lovely! Im wishing you both so much love and positive energy!
    Also will be trying the pizza place in canterbury asap as im local! ❤

  • @mamajacquelinebts9776
    @mamajacquelinebts9776 6 років тому

    You guys are beautiful together. I'm a new subbie, and I am praying for you gurl! Much love ❤️