“Depression doesn’t rob you of the choice, it tricks you into making the wrong choice.” 🙌✨ your openness, candor, insight and sharing of your humanity are so admirable. Thank you, and fair play ❤
Depression SUCKS!! Anxiety SUCKS!!! What makes it SUCK so damn hard is that it hits out of nowhere, for seemingly no reason and it never leaves!! My husband refers to it like the Kool-Aid Man about to burst through the door and start something. I've been suffering from both for a long time now and although I'm having better days, sometimes it hits full flippin' force and it's so damn hard. Thank you for being brave to share this with us and I really hope you feel better soon.
It is so hard to deal with Depression and even Anxiety. And a lot of the time the Anxiety comes from just the waiting for the criticism that you KNOW is going to come. And when it doesn't come externally, it will be there internally. Stay strong. This is a difficult space we are in.
I am deeply sorry you are going through this. It hurts seeing someone who brings so much light into this work struggle in the darkness. Please, know you are not alone. You are loved and unique and very appreciated. Sending love, support, and a tight bear hug.
Depression is like a black hole. Easy to get sucked in and difficult to find a way out. Life circumstances don't matter. One can be depressed independent of the stage in life you're at. Don't give up. There is a way out. I've. struggled with this my whole life and have finely found peace. Good meds and meditation and prayer.
You are such a strong man Stuart, and I respect you for being authentic, open and honest about your struggles. I don’t know how many times I’ve stopped and told myself that depression won, and picked up a bottle, only for the morning to come and the feeling of being hungover comes and I want to scream. I can’t drink. Not even a little. The booze makes me worse, makes my anxiety way worse. I turn a corner that one day I may not come back from. I want to drink, I love to drink, but I choose not to drink. I choose not to let depression, anxiety and CPTSD ruin my life. I will rise above and be ok. Ok is good. I don’t need to climb mountains, even though I do on a daily basis, if that makes sense. We’re going to be ok. You’re going to be ok. All through this video you fought, and I could see a light in you that will never be dimmed. You are worthy Stuart! ❤
Going out is good for depression but can be bad for anxiety. Staying home is good for anxiety but bad for depression. What I have found helps me is to take at least one 15 minute walk going the same route. Even if it’s late in the evening. Sometimes going late can be better as there are usually less people around to feel anxious about. Sorry for the rambling.
Thank you for sharing, I know how difficult it must be! Depression IS a Liar, quit listening to it! You Are unique and amazing and I’m thrilled you are here on this planet!
People say that youth is the time of carefreeness and joy of living. Mistake! Especially for a shy person like me, youth is not easy at all and depression is always around the corner. Today there is the possibility of receiving help even from a video like yours, which really moved me because you could be my son, when I was a girl there wasn't even the Internet and the only thing was to retreat into one's shell or pretend to feel good depending on the character one had. Thank you for your videos which are truly beautiful and, as we say in Italy, "with your heart in your hand."
Ngl, that was hard to watch as you struggled. I was fighting back tears my friend. I say this a lot, but your honesty, your vulnerability, and your transparency help so many people. You are a unique soul who is loved by so many. Finding gratitude every single day is very helpful, it's true. Sending a big hug and so much love 💖
It’s partially because when we have these days, weeks, months - we cannot talk to anyone about it. We can’t call in sick (unacceptable) to employers, friends, and family. It’s debilitating.I love this video - it rings so true and I completely relate to it. I’ve been in a cycle of drinking then hating myself then quitting then drinking again. It’s all just so jumbled up in my head. I’m exhausted.
Many of us are walking a parallel path, I think. It helps to know there's someone walking with me who knows the way out, even if our paths never converge. You may not be able to see your own light right now, but we can, and it's a huge comfort. Bless you for sharing your journey. I hope the light is close.
This is so hard to watch because I'm also having "one of these days" for several weeks now. I'm that high functioning type of mental issues, I tear myself apart until nothing goes anymore even though I KNOW this is bad and will make recovery (the tiny one we get after fighting our way out of the valley of depression) harder. And seeing you on the edge of tears makes me tear up too, so maybe I will cry later for both of us.
This is an ongoing battle you will win, Darlin. You are not alone. You matter. Your body is slamming and your creativity is something this world desperately needs. Accept the love we send. 🌹🌹
My husband suffered depression for couple of years. Trigger was problems at work, that took serious impact on his life. He would sleep all day, so that day can pass faster. We would sometimes talk all night, whatever he wanted, just to make it easier for him. Till this day he thanks me for doing everything for him, just for being there for him. Sometimes he tells me that he doesn't understand why I stayed with him through all that. It was hard watching him falling apart and like you said he was feeling lonely all the time. You have strength and I believe in you. Keep your head up.
Good quote from a medical show that actor Oliver Plat said to a man that was depressed. He asked the same thing and Oliver's character said: you don't need a reason you're a human being. Helped me a lot!
Your thoughts about feeling like a hypocrite hit me hard. Im going through a deep bout of depression right now and I constantly feel like a hypocrite and like I shouldnt have anything to be depressed about. I feel you Stuart. And Im right there with you. ❤ Love and hugs.
You have used words you may not even remember saying to turn inwards and really focus on spiritual and shadow growth. It has helped me grow more in nearly two years than the other 44! I am so proud of you, and your raw truths you choose to share, inspire and become the therapy for another. Thank-you Stu, for being a friend and a light. Walking with you, through every season and emotion, one step at a time.
I can't help it but see so many aspects of me in you, in the beautiful, raw and unique way you're expressing them, that is, of course different from how I express them, but there they are, once I heard that to create something universal you have to use your authentic particular and unique subjective perspective, then others can connect with it, because deep down we share so much, more than we're aware. Sounds paradoxical, right? It gives me goosebumps. I feel you and I'd love to be able to give you a hug. Just that, a long, heartfelt, silent hug. 🫂 Keep taking care of your Being. ❤️
I’m so sorry you are going through this. You are brave and strong and you inspire so many people. Thank you for everything you do and I hope everything will get better soon!!
I'm a few months late but I really hope you're doing better now. Every time you show up on my feed my whole day gets better. I love your energy and your enthusiasm. Please take care of yourself.
💚 Edited to add: I literally went back to bed due to anxiety and depression and waiting for that “magic moment” where I feel motivated, again. Didn’t/couldn’t add anything beyond 💚 previously because this was so accurate for me that it stunned me.
This exactly. I've even had family ask me what I have to be depressed about and that pisses me off because depression is a chemical imbalance in most cases. Edit: I had reached the place in my life where instead of just drinking when I was out with friends I thought I needed it to get through the day at work. At that point I said no I will not do this. Now if I can talk myself into/out of everything that I need to do/not do I would be even better. One step at a time. Love and light to you as you go through these struggles. 💖
I am currently getting out of bed about four hours after I wake up,sometimes five. I MAKE myself leave the house for at least a walk and MAKE myself run errands, though very late in the day. Depression sucks. I keep trying though. Some of mine is immune + hormonal. I also quit drinking (as a woman with two Irish grandmothers, I crave it..but I quit ) Keep on keeping on. Keep on keeping on. Keep on keeping on. Love yourself 🫶
My heart squeezed when I saw you in so much pain...you, of all people deserve happiness, confidence and security. You are stronger than your mind is allowing you to believe! Even though you didn't want to, you DID get out of bed, you DID take a cold plunge and more importantly you DID allow yourself to be vulnerable, in one of your lowest moments, to make an advice vid to help others with anxiety and depression. You say you "quit everything" in your past but you have consistently made and posted vids of ABSOLUTE CREATIVITY and HUMOUR every single fucking day for years!! This is KING behaviour! Yes, you are unique, goofy and quirky (I wouldn't say 'cringey') and amazingly beautiful, body and soul! Don't ever let anyone take that away from you. If someone criticizes you for it, that's on THEM not YOU! You are doing all the right things to overcome, or at least live around your depression and anxiety. Can you reach out to family and friends? Right now maybe you're missing human touch (I know having Pip helps).. a sincere hug and a caring ear can be very reassuring and comforting . It's concerning that you're having 'dark thoughts', you have SO much talent and time to continue to reach for your goals. You have already achieved more in your 30 years than the majority have in their lifetime. And if you feel like crying, you fucking do that! It's the lack of serotonin NOT your lack of self control ..be kind to yourself and try to see yourself the way we all see you.. a DECENT human and MORE THAN ENOUGH! As always, Stuart, thank you for your affirmation and the accurate advice to mutually stressed/depressed/anxious people delivered in such a sincere manner - I needed to here it! I CARE and if I can HELP in any way please reach out! - respectfully - Carol Desjardins xo Reply
You’re not alone. We are not victims. Continue to self analyze yourself. Acknowledge that your are better off than most and your fans care for you. We really honestly care. Looking forward to seeing you tomorrow. 🤗
Ah Stuart. I feel this so much. It's strange when you feel the depression coming on. For me, i see the grey clouds on the horizon and there is nothing to do but wait for them to roll in. And then, all I can do is wait and hope that the storm passes quickly. Sometimes it does, most times it lingers. I identify with your 'tough love' self talk so much too. It's hard, but keep fighting bc you are doing the work and it will get better. And then worse and then better.... it's a sine wave. Ride the wave my dear Stuart. Surfs up.
Prayers. I have struggled with depression and anxiety all of my life. Spent most of my 52 years in a bedroom in my dreamworld to escape. It got worse when the love of my life passed from cancer in 2016. I decided to quit drinking (6 months) and that has helped. I also started feeding my soul and that helps. I pray you find your bliss in the midst of the darkness. Us artists feel things so deeply.
Everyone deserves to cry Stewart. Everyone goes through things that make them feel the need to cry. Crying is very important and it is needed for the body. You can cry when you need to. Let yourself cry sweet human.
Winter months are hard for me , due the lack of light . You sometimes just have to accept your brain chemistry is different and try and do one task each day . Don’t be so hard on yourself and if you feel you want to cry , do so. Sending healing hugs & love 🥰🤗💞💫
Stuart, my adorable Irish dude. You are allowed to feel everything you feel. We human beings are quite complex. Believe in yourself, the way that you help all of us admirers of your words to believe in ourselves. 💚
Finding gratitude is just as difficult as recognizing the choice to be in one mood or another. I am grateful for your sharing your pain, creativity and passions. May your inner light hold you through the storm of darker emotions.
Thank you for sharing this video and your vulnerability - your internal monologue sounds so eerily similar to mine and hearing those same messages coming from a mind outside of my own is helping me to connect with myself a bit more, particularly when I struggle with similar states of mental health. Seeing you process things in a similar way helps me to see that I'm on the right track. Ps. You ARE special 💪 and having the courage to share your more raw-emotional states is such a marvellous super power. 7 Billion people on the planet, but no one with your exact perspective.
Thank you for sharing this. And cry. It's okay. It'll help get some feeling out. Be sure to eat healthy foods. Drink your water. Stay active. Kick it in the ass.
Stuart you are amazingly strong. To be able to express your emotions and speak about your depression and anxiety shows just how strong you are. I suffer with anxiety and PTSD and it took me a long time to figure out how I could try to manage my anxiety, but eventually I've figured out what works for me, I still have my moments where things get way too much but everyone is different and unique and what works for one person may not work for the other, but just always remember you always have your family, friends and of course your followers who care about you, and only wish you well 😊
sometimes our own mind (something we can't choose to simply not live with) is the one who makes us feel the saddest. sometimes our mind can be our worst enemy. I hope you know that you are not alone. I hope you know that there are people in this world that you don't even know but they really like you. I hope you know that you can show off your muscles in the mirror or on a camera and being confident doesn't mean being narcissistic. I hope you find within yourself the happiness and love you need. being alone can be sad or liberating, it depends on how you know and talk to yourself in internal dialogue. (obviously in a more serious case like depression, professional monitoring and medication are also necessary, but obviously you know that) I'm glad you shared this part of yourself with us. not long ago I used to be confident and cheerful, and now I always think that I'm bothering people (like always) and everything I say is wrong. these are phases of our mind and we have to learn to deal with them. I hope you get well. you are truly an incredible person, and I'm not just saying this to try to make you happy kkkkkkk I genuinely think you are a great person. and obviously you deserve to be happy. you bring joy and peace to people, never think that you are not good enough. 🩷 I'm sorry for any mistakes in English, I've been trying to learn it for just under a year.
First of all, thank you so much for making this video despite your current mental state - it really is an inspiring testament to your resilience, perseverance, and determination to overcome your current struggles. As a mental health professional watching this, I would be loath not to say that anyone feeling as you do could benefit from therapy/counselling. Having a safe and non-judgmental space to constructively engage with depression etc. can make a huge difference, especially during times when we are struggling the most and feeling the most alone. As someone who has been where you are, who has also struggled with debilitating depression and anxiety, my heart feels for you and I sincerely wish you all the best getting through this 💜
I lost it all when you said "I ruin everything"... Because you're the opposite of destruction in my eyes. I think you're wonderful. Dear Stuart, I feel you. I really do. It's so hard to find words, comforting words to reach out for a wonderful human whose thoughts are in this dark place. Maybe we try so hard to reach out because every human is selfish. Every human wants to hold onto another one. Another person who obviously feels the same. But maybe you just need space, room to breathe... It's so hard to find the right words. Everything is so fragile and beautiful, made of glass and crystal. All I want to say is: Take your time. You're right, it's a journey, it's a process, a fight. But you are a warrior. You're a knight, you're an artist. And this will stay with you, because this is what you are. A true artist! There is light in your eyes even though you can't see the sun. There is hope in your smile even though you don't have a goal for the next day. But please listen: There is always a chance, there is always a path full of opportunities. It's hidden, sometimes it's impossible to walk on this path when you're feet are aching, your feet and your heart. But it's there and you'll find it, again and again. You're one of a kind. You're unique. And you're wonderful! Don't forget! Send you all my love and strength to Ireland! 🖤💜
This is so accurate. You are not alone and you are brave in sharing truth with others who have been hiding their own hardships. I wish I could just wrap my arms around you and let you rest in them. No expectations of anything simply a safe place where you can just be. Whatever you need to be in that moment. Tearful, hurt, pain filled, sad, angry, or just devoid of anything. You deserve to have that truly. You are wise. And you do know what you need to do but that doesn’t mean it’s easy. And yeah when it’s a BAD day or week it takes all you have to put a shirt on let alone do all the things to help the depression go away. Love you Stu. Truly over the years I’ve come to love the person you are, all of it. The good and the bad. You my friend are worthy of it and when you can’t see it, I’ll keep it seen for for you. ❤
I have anxiety and depression since i was young and i have ibs from it too i had to force myself and still do to deal with life and my husband who i am a carer too i take no medication for it because i have diabetis plus i dont think its healthy to suprees whst yoy feel and sometimes i just want to stop and i cry i rage and other times it just goes but mostly its close to me but dont allow it to bury you i have no confidence it was knocked out of me years ago yet i have married 3 times and i have rared kids i have done healing but i do not dwell on how bad a lot of my life has been i got introverted i hated myself i thought i was ugly and stupid and told pull yourself together. But you are special you are one of a kind you are unique because despite what you think about you there is not another person with your gifts in this world you have talents strength of will your intelligent in only the way you can be and you at heart despite what you have been told or think are a wonderful warm generouse loving person and you are valued by your friends every where that talk to you here and love you despite what you think your not alone oh and tears are healing and its not weakness
One of the hardest things is to figure out when its depression, when its grief, when its burnout and a different approach is reqd. Thank you for sharing the darkness 💜 its the heaviest, blinding weight, especially when the body remembers anniversaries that the conscious mind has long since forgotten. Welcome to the sober club, 8yrs in and I no longer miss the crutch 🙂 there are healthier ways to self soother instead ❤ Raises a coffee in salut: heres to the survivors 💪
You are seen. I feel you. And you’re so right about the things you said. Thank you for raising awareness. Thank you for reaching out. Last week someone said to me „But you don’t look depressed.“ That’s why it’s important to reach our for your friends, family or other people. You don’t always see if they’re struggling. Thank you Stuart ❤
Stuart, every step you take is a victory. You have so much to give, to your followers, friends, family, and to yourself. Be gentle with yourself and know you make a difference to so many. Thank you for sharing your journey, with all of the pitfalls and pain. Please know that the triumphs will come as you go along the bumpy and wondrous path that is your life. I am cheering for you and sending love and healing your way❤
It's ok to feel ALL that you feel, it is your feelings...and I can only speak for myself, but I made the choice to stay in my depression bc that was all I knew...it became my safety blanket, my comfort zone...and I will probably always feel my depression...but I don't use it as my safety blanket anymore...and it may not come out right...but your pod and your openess about mental health helped me see that I needed to challenge myself more and leave my comfort zone...so you may not like this post...but I just wanted to say thank you ❤
Depression is the trickster. Don't listen to what negativity loops in your brain. I have been dealing with depression for 40 years now, and I am starting to realize what triggers my thoughts and then have things I do to derail the negativity train. You are so amazing in your willingness to share and struggle and process out loud. You, young lad, are enough! ❤😍🥰
Your vulnerability and honesty is something I alway appreciate from you. I am so sorry you are dealing with this right now. Sending you so much love and support. You are never alone ❤
Stuart, I love you, and I thank you for making this. I lost a friend last week from depression and bullying, so thank you for not letting your depression win. Thank you so much for fighting. Thank you so much for staying alive. ❤❤❤❤❤
I want to thank you. Thank you for being so open and honest. Depression can only rob you of things if you allow it too and I sadly battle with it daily. So I can understand where you are coming from. Your words of wisdom from someone so young help this old dog realize that life is going to go on if I am depressed or not. It's much better for me to take my medication and heal than to hide from it and alow it to take over. Much love. ❤
It's so peculiar how we think we know ourselves inside and outside until we hit that lowest low. It's in that moment we start seeing the paradox of being a tiny human and yet a powerful creature. I completely agree with you on the fact that we always have a choice, including the choice to be the victim or the victor. And truly, being able to record your journey - your racing thoughts and deep feelings - is one of the most valuable aspects of it. Thank you for this video. You showed the side of human that is very difficult to show, and yet so many of us can relate to it. Keep on going with your journey 🫶🫶
Thank you! This helps a lot. It‘s still difficult to talk about this in public or even to close friends, you gave me hope that depression/mental health can actually help to connect us and for me personal to fight back & get out if victim/comfort zone. Thank you
I am not a victim I am a survivor I have suffered all the types of abuse you could imagine growing and I have suffered with depression anxiety and paranoia for 27 years and I'm only 36 but through all that pain and self hatred and the damage I caused myself because of wot other people did to a child I survived I have been diagnosed with bpd now which in itself a crutch to lean on and explain my moods but remember the brightest people who shine like the sun are those that have suffered the darkness alone and don't want others to go through it the same you are a shining star in a multitude of stars in a dark universe that someone looks up and sees hope for a better future because of your light be kind to yourself allow yourself to feel down wallow for a short time but remember to get back up stars don't do well in the mud so shine bright but be safe a lot of people love you you are worthy you are enough you are beautiful but it's OK not to be OK sometimes it's how we know how far we have come from that darkness when it comes for a visit
How brave of you to open up this conversation even knowing that trying to explain it to someone that haven’t been there It's even more exhausting and that probably no words of support or rational explanation are going to make you feel better because it is a darkness that you must navigate on your own. Yes, you deserve to cry any time you need it, there's nothing wrong with that. You just need to keep breathing and someday will be gone, I promise.
I've been told that my hugs have healing properties cos I genuinely love. I will send you a healing magickal hug. Depression is a horrible mistress/ master. I've had depression since I was a child, I gave up on my education and now regret my choices yet I'm still making teh same mistakes now. I hear you Stuart. I feel you. I love you.
Hello Stuart. I just finished watching your Birthday video. From a very young age I was invisible to just about everyone. I don't remember most of my younger years, until high school when I realized I didn't have to be invisible and now at 66 I'm still healing. Life did throw me some major curve balls not helping in my confidence mentally, emotionally and physically. Life has made me stronger because I choose to be stronger and I choose to be happy on a daily basis. I deserve to be happy (took my MANY years to believe this), I deserve to love and to be loved. I know I'm a good person. For most of my life, I felt I didn't deserve any of it, didn't respect myself. Many things contributed to this and what those things were are not important what is important is that one needs to come to terms with life learn to love and respect yourself. Know it's a life long journey of making choices, choices to be happy.
Thank you so much for being vulnerable with us. You are not alone in feeling this way; that's something I know for a fact. And I'm proud of you for acknowledging what's going on, and making the choices you need to help you get to a better place mentally. Those are hard choices to make, and it won't be easy . . . But consistently making those choices and acknowledgments will be so worth it. ❤️
I hear you, I've been there with severe anxiety and depression. Much love to you, Stuart, and I hope you find all the help and support you need to move through them.
I'm sorry you are dealing with this, but I'm so thankful you share how you feel with the rest of us who also deal with things like this. We support you and are here for you! 🩵
Unaddressed trauma keeps us stuck in depression until therapy starts to take effect. I was depressed for 29 years before enough breakthroughs started to dissolve it. Now i live with zero depression but still some anxiety because i am a Neurodiverse Bi 😅
Sometimes depressions come with the conscious realization that you reached a point in life where a plan, a dream or the current status quo of life are no longer possible: - the death of a loved one - trapped in a unhappy marriage - old age and the loss of friends and family - trapped in a society that doesn't accept your sexuality Sometimes depression is chemical too: imbalance of certain essential elements Certainly we cannot simplify depression to a check list and therefore an easy recipe for the cure. But depression is much more serious than the common idea that depression is just someone who is constantly sad. I hope you stay healthy and happy.
I was just watching a video of yours from 2 years ago. Watching the difference between then and now. I didn't know you made this video u til just now. I saw the depression in a live I joined with you earlier this year. Watching how it has affected you over time, being online, able to go back and watch it. I just was trying to survive for years, and I see that in others, and you. I hide mine by choosing to keep moving forward now. I made the choice to be down for years. It's not feeling emotions like we should, but it is still moving. 💝
Thank you for sharing, Stuart. I’ve been holding myself back from exercising and taking that next step in my mental and physical well-being. Thanks for being such a powerful example to me. No more excuses. Wishing you kindness and strength in your hard time.
I am sorry you are going through this at the moment but appreciate you sharing with us. Knowing other people experienced similar feelings would have helped me so much in my early 20s. Take care of yourself 😊
This must have been a hard video for you to make and I applaud your bravery. I’m sorry you’ve been struggling with this and hope on some level speaking your truth and feelings was therapeutic for you. With you in support and solidarity. Your strength and vulnerability is inspiring. 🫂
There are no words that haven't already been said. Thank you for your vulnerability. I'm so sorry to see you in so much pain when you are such a light to so many people. No one but you knows what goes on behind the camera but you, just know that you have the love, support, and encouragement from a stranger you've reached halfway around the world. You've got this! *big hugs*
Stuart you do deserve to cry - you deserve so much and I know you suffer from feeling undeserving. You are such an inspiring person and uplifting human. You deserve happiness and love and self love and care. Depression is awful, anxiety is awful but it cultivates strength and you can get through it. It’s something I need to remember in the low times. It’s hard! Send you lots of love and strength
Thank you so much for being so brave. In telling your story you will reach so many of us who also suffer from depression and anxiety. I have been anxious my whole life but I know that I will gain peace at some point. I just keep trying and so should we all. Thanks again from Canada.
You are truly a remarkable human being. I have dealt with the depression and anxiety for 60 years. Know that you are not, truly not alone. You have so many hear that care and love you, for who you are. I know its not the same as having people in person. But you can always reach out and will be here for you. Just know, how i feel, everytime i didn't want to get out of bed or do anything, i knew i was letting it win. And i refuse to let it win and take control. I find something that makes me feel happiness, in my case gardening. And if you feel like crying, Cry, scream if the feeling comes along. Stop holding it in. My heart truly hopes you find your way to live life and not let it rule you. ❤
You are a brave, beautiful human being. Please keep fighting. Big steps, small steps, doesn't matter. We are all here to offer any and all the support we can. You bring so much joy and light into lives of others, you deserve more of it in yours.
Hey, Stuart, this is hard core and personal, that wasn't easy to share. Thank you for sharing it , in hopes it may help others to go through it and come out the other end a stronger person ❤
“Depression doesn’t rob you of the choice, it tricks you into making the wrong choice.” 🙌✨ your openness, candor, insight and sharing of your humanity are so admirable. Thank you, and fair play ❤
@@jennalondonrichardsso do many people.
Depression SUCKS!! Anxiety SUCKS!!! What makes it SUCK so damn hard is that it hits out of nowhere, for seemingly no reason and it never leaves!! My husband refers to it like the Kool-Aid Man about to burst through the door and start something.
I've been suffering from both for a long time now and although I'm having better days, sometimes it hits full flippin' force and it's so damn hard.
Thank you for being brave to share this with us and I really hope you feel better soon.
Tears are like f@rts. You're not going to feel better 'til you let them out. I know, it's classy. 🌹🌹
It is so hard to deal with Depression and even Anxiety. And a lot of the time the Anxiety comes from just the waiting for the criticism that you KNOW is going to come. And when it doesn't come externally, it will be there internally.
Stay strong. This is a difficult space we are in.
I am deeply sorry you are going through this. It hurts seeing someone who brings so much light into this work struggle in the darkness. Please, know you are not alone. You are loved and unique and very appreciated. Sending love, support, and a tight bear hug.
Depression is like a black hole. Easy to get sucked in and difficult to find a way out. Life circumstances don't matter. One can be depressed independent of the stage in life you're at. Don't give up. There is a way out. I've. struggled with this my whole life and have finely found peace. Good meds and meditation and prayer.
You are such a strong man Stuart, and I respect you for being authentic, open and honest about your struggles. I don’t know how many times I’ve stopped and told myself that depression won, and picked up a bottle, only for the morning to come and the feeling of being hungover comes and I want to scream. I can’t drink. Not even a little. The booze makes me worse, makes my anxiety way worse. I turn a corner that one day I may not come back from. I want to drink, I love to drink, but I choose not to drink. I choose not to let depression, anxiety and CPTSD ruin my life. I will rise above and be ok. Ok is good. I don’t need to climb mountains, even though I do on a daily basis, if that makes sense. We’re going to be ok. You’re going to be ok. All through this video you fought, and I could see a light in you that will never be dimmed. You are worthy Stuart! ❤
Going out is good for depression but can be bad for anxiety. Staying home is good for anxiety but bad for depression. What I have found helps me is to take at least one 15 minute walk going the same route. Even if it’s late in the evening. Sometimes going late can be better as there are usually less people around to feel anxious about. Sorry for the rambling.
Thank you for sharing, I know how difficult it must be! Depression IS a Liar, quit listening to it! You Are unique and amazing and I’m thrilled you are here on this planet!
People say that youth is the time of carefreeness and joy of living. Mistake! Especially for a shy person like me, youth is not easy at all and depression is always around the corner. Today there is the possibility of receiving help even from a video like yours, which really moved me because you could be my son, when I was a girl there wasn't even the Internet and the only thing was to retreat into one's shell or pretend to feel good depending on the character one had.
Thank you for your videos which are truly beautiful and, as we say in Italy, "with your heart in your hand."
Ngl, that was hard to watch as you struggled. I was fighting back tears my friend. I say this a lot, but your honesty, your vulnerability, and your transparency help so many people. You are a unique soul who is loved by so many. Finding gratitude every single day is very helpful, it's true. Sending a big hug and so much love 💖
It’s partially because when we have these days, weeks, months - we cannot talk to anyone about it. We can’t call in sick (unacceptable) to employers, friends, and family. It’s debilitating.I love this video - it rings so true and I completely relate to it. I’ve been in a cycle of drinking then hating myself then quitting then drinking again. It’s all just so jumbled up in my head. I’m exhausted.
The honesty, the transparency and the rawness of this means so much. You have my support now and forever ❤
A virtual hug to use for a cup of coffee, or an energy drink, or an hour of rest.
Many of us are walking a parallel path, I think. It helps to know there's someone walking with me who knows the way out, even if our paths never converge. You may not be able to see your own light right now, but we can, and it's a huge comfort. Bless you for sharing your journey. I hope the light is close.
This is so hard to watch because I'm also having "one of these days" for several weeks now. I'm that high functioning type of mental issues, I tear myself apart until nothing goes anymore even though I KNOW this is bad and will make recovery (the tiny one we get after fighting our way out of the valley of depression) harder.
And seeing you on the edge of tears makes me tear up too, so maybe I will cry later for both of us.
This is an ongoing battle you will win, Darlin. You are not alone. You matter. Your body is slamming and your creativity is something this world desperately needs. Accept the love we send. 🌹🌹
My husband suffered depression for couple of years. Trigger was problems at work, that took serious impact on his life. He would sleep all day, so that day can pass faster.
We would sometimes talk all night, whatever he wanted, just to make it easier for him. Till this day he thanks me for doing everything for him, just for being there for him. Sometimes he tells me that he doesn't understand why I stayed with him through all that.
It was hard watching him falling apart and like you said he was feeling lonely all the time.
You have strength and I believe in you. Keep your head up.
Good quote from a medical show that actor Oliver Plat said to a man that was depressed. He asked the same thing and Oliver's character said: you don't need a reason you're a human being.
Helped me a lot!
Your thoughts about feeling like a hypocrite hit me hard. Im going through a deep bout of depression right now and I constantly feel like a hypocrite and like I shouldnt have anything to be depressed about. I feel you Stuart. And Im right there with you. ❤ Love and hugs.
"Depression...tricks you..." 💯! Thank you for your openess & honesty - in no way could this have been easy 💜 Hugs 🫂
You deserve to express your feelings. If you need to cry, go ahead and cry. It doesn't mean you can't keep going after.
It means so much to hear someone open up so honestly in a way that lets you relate… thank you, Stuart
You have used words you may not even remember saying to turn inwards and really focus on spiritual and shadow growth. It has helped me grow more in nearly two years than the other 44! I am so proud of you, and your raw truths you choose to share, inspire and become the therapy for another. Thank-you Stu, for being a friend and a light. Walking with you, through every season and emotion, one step at a time.
I can't help it but see so many aspects of me in you, in the beautiful, raw and unique way you're expressing them, that is, of course different from how I express them, but there they are, once I heard that to create something universal you have to use your authentic particular and unique subjective perspective, then others can connect with it, because deep down we share so much, more than we're aware. Sounds paradoxical, right? It gives me goosebumps. I feel you and I'd love to be able to give you a hug. Just that, a long, heartfelt, silent hug. 🫂 Keep taking care of your Being. ❤️
I’m so sorry you are going through this. You are brave and strong and you inspire so many people. Thank you for everything you do and I hope everything will get better soon!!
I'm a few months late but I really hope you're doing better now. Every time you show up on my feed my whole day gets better. I love your energy and your enthusiasm. Please take care of yourself.
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Edited to add: I literally went back to bed due to anxiety and depression and waiting for that “magic moment” where I feel motivated, again. Didn’t/couldn’t add anything beyond 💚 previously because this was so accurate for me that it stunned me.
This exactly. I've even had family ask me what I have to be depressed about and that pisses me off because depression is a chemical imbalance in most cases.
Edit: I had reached the place in my life where instead of just drinking when I was out with friends I thought I needed it to get through the day at work. At that point I said no I will not do this. Now if I can talk myself into/out of everything that I need to do/not do I would be even better. One step at a time. Love and light to you as you go through these struggles. 💖
Proud of you for saying it all outloud, and thankful for the lesson/clarity through my own struggles ❤.
I am currently getting out of bed about four hours after I wake up,sometimes five. I MAKE myself leave the house for at least a walk and MAKE myself run errands, though very late in the day. Depression sucks.
I keep trying though.
Some of mine is immune + hormonal.
I also quit drinking (as a woman with two Irish grandmothers, I crave it..but I quit )
Keep on keeping on.
Keep on keeping on.
Keep on keeping on.
Love yourself 🫶
My heart squeezed when I saw you in so much pain...you, of all people deserve happiness, confidence and security. You are stronger than your mind is allowing you to believe! Even though you didn't want to, you DID get out of bed, you DID take a cold plunge and more importantly you DID allow yourself to be vulnerable, in one of your lowest moments, to make an advice vid to help others with anxiety and depression. You say you "quit everything" in your past but you have consistently made and posted vids of ABSOLUTE CREATIVITY and HUMOUR every single fucking day for years!! This is KING behaviour! Yes, you are unique, goofy and quirky (I wouldn't say 'cringey') and amazingly beautiful, body and soul! Don't ever let anyone take that away from you. If someone criticizes you for it, that's on THEM not YOU! You are doing all the right things to overcome, or at least live around your depression and anxiety. Can you reach out to family and friends? Right now maybe you're missing human touch (I know having Pip helps).. a sincere hug and a caring ear can be very reassuring and comforting . It's concerning that you're having 'dark thoughts', you have SO much talent and time to continue to reach for your goals. You have already achieved more in your 30 years than the majority have in their lifetime. And if you feel like crying, you fucking do that! It's the lack of serotonin NOT your lack of self control ..be kind to yourself and try to see yourself the way we all see you.. a DECENT human and MORE THAN ENOUGH! As always, Stuart, thank you for your affirmation and the accurate advice to mutually stressed/depressed/anxious people delivered in such a sincere manner - I needed to here it! I CARE and if I can HELP in any way please reach out! - respectfully - Carol Desjardins xo
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Sending ALL MY LOVE ❤️❤️❤️
If you can find one thing to be grateful for each day. I think will help you Stuart remember you are a very precious amazing person
You’re not alone. We are not victims. Continue to self analyze yourself. Acknowledge that your are better off than most and your fans care for you. We really honestly care. Looking forward to seeing you tomorrow. 🤗
Ah Stuart. I feel this so much. It's strange when you feel the depression coming on. For me, i see the grey clouds on the horizon and there is nothing to do but wait for them to roll in. And then, all I can do is wait and hope that the storm passes quickly. Sometimes it does, most times it lingers. I identify with your 'tough love' self talk so much too. It's hard, but keep fighting bc you are doing the work and it will get better. And then worse and then better.... it's a sine wave. Ride the wave my dear Stuart. Surfs up.
Prayers. I have struggled with depression and anxiety all of my life. Spent most of my 52 years in a bedroom in my dreamworld to escape. It got worse when the love of my life passed from cancer in 2016. I decided to quit drinking (6 months) and that has helped. I also started feeding my soul and that helps. I pray you find your bliss in the midst of the darkness. Us artists feel things so deeply.
Everyone deserves to cry Stewart. Everyone goes through things that make them feel the need to cry.
Crying is very important and it is needed for the body. You can cry when you need to. Let yourself cry sweet human.
Winter months are hard for me , due the lack of light . You sometimes just have to accept your brain chemistry is different and try and do one task each day . Don’t be so hard on yourself and if you feel you want to cry , do so. Sending healing hugs & love 🥰🤗💞💫
Thank you so much for posting these. I love you. And so does my 15 year old.
Appreciate you Stuart 💜
Stuart, my adorable Irish dude. You are allowed to feel everything you feel. We human beings are quite complex. Believe in yourself, the way that you help all of us admirers of your words to believe in ourselves. 💚
I'm sending you a big hug and lots of love.❤
Finding gratitude is just as difficult as recognizing the choice to be in one mood or another. I am grateful for your sharing your pain, creativity and passions. May your inner light hold you through the storm of darker emotions.
Thank you for sharing this video and your vulnerability - your internal monologue sounds so eerily similar to mine and hearing those same messages coming from a mind outside of my own is helping me to connect with myself a bit more, particularly when I struggle with similar states of mental health. Seeing you process things in a similar way helps me to see that I'm on the right track. Ps. You ARE special 💪 and having the courage to share your more raw-emotional states is such a marvellous super power. 7 Billion people on the planet, but no one with your exact perspective.
Oh honey, all I want to do is wrap you up in a warm hug! No pity, just empathy!!! I admire your strength.
Thank you for sharing this. And cry. It's okay. It'll help get some feeling out. Be sure to eat healthy foods. Drink your water. Stay active. Kick it in the ass.
You can have it all and still ve depressed. Seek out what makes you hapoy, friends, music, nature
I wish you the physical and mental strength to get yourself through this!
We love you Stuart ❤ Just as you are ❤
Stuart you are amazingly strong. To be able to express your emotions and speak about your depression and anxiety shows just how strong you are. I suffer with anxiety and PTSD and it took me a long time to figure out how I could try to manage my anxiety, but eventually I've figured out what works for me, I still have my moments where things get way too much but everyone is different and unique and what works for one person may not work for the other, but just always remember you always have your family, friends and of course your followers who care about you, and only wish you well 😊
sometimes our own mind (something we can't choose to simply not live with) is the one who makes us feel the saddest. sometimes our mind can be our worst enemy.
I hope you know that you are not alone.
I hope you know that there are people in this world that you don't even know but they really like you.
I hope you know that you can show off your muscles in the mirror or on a camera and being confident doesn't mean being narcissistic.
I hope you find within yourself the happiness and love you need. being alone can be sad or liberating, it depends on how you know and talk to yourself in internal dialogue.
(obviously in a more serious case like depression, professional monitoring and medication are also necessary, but obviously you know that)
I'm glad you shared this part of yourself with us.
not long ago I used to be confident and cheerful, and now I always think that I'm bothering people (like always) and everything I say is wrong. these are phases of our mind and we have to learn to deal with them. I hope you get well.
you are truly an incredible person, and I'm not just saying this to try to make you happy kkkkkkk I genuinely think you are a great person. and obviously you deserve to be happy.
you bring joy and peace to people, never think that you are not good enough. 🩷
I'm sorry for any mistakes in English, I've been trying to learn it for just under a year.
First of all, thank you so much for making this video despite your current mental state - it really is an inspiring testament to your resilience, perseverance, and determination to overcome your current struggles. As a mental health professional watching this, I would be loath not to say that anyone feeling as you do could benefit from therapy/counselling. Having a safe and non-judgmental space to constructively engage with depression etc. can make a huge difference, especially during times when we are struggling the most and feeling the most alone. As someone who has been where you are, who has also struggled with debilitating depression and anxiety, my heart feels for you and I sincerely wish you all the best getting through this 💜
I lost it all when you said "I ruin everything"... Because you're the opposite of destruction in my eyes. I think you're wonderful.
Dear Stuart, I feel you. I really do. It's so hard to find words, comforting words to reach out for a wonderful human whose thoughts are in this dark place. Maybe we try so hard to reach out because every human is selfish. Every human wants to hold onto another one. Another person who obviously feels the same. But maybe you just need space, room to breathe... It's so hard to find the right words. Everything is so fragile and beautiful, made of glass and crystal.
All I want to say is: Take your time. You're right, it's a journey, it's a process, a fight. But you are a warrior. You're a knight, you're an artist. And this will stay with you, because this is what you are. A true artist! There is light in your eyes even though you can't see the sun. There is hope in your smile even though you don't have a goal for the next day. But please listen: There is always a chance, there is always a path full of opportunities. It's hidden, sometimes it's impossible to walk on this path when you're feet are aching, your feet and your heart. But it's there and you'll find it, again and again.
You're one of a kind. You're unique. And you're wonderful! Don't forget!
Send you all my love and strength to Ireland! 🖤💜
This is so accurate. You are not alone and you are brave in sharing truth with others who have been hiding their own hardships. I wish I could just wrap my arms around you and let you rest in them. No expectations of anything simply a safe place where you can just be. Whatever you need to be in that moment. Tearful, hurt, pain filled, sad, angry, or just devoid of anything. You deserve to have that truly. You are wise. And you do know what you need to do but that doesn’t mean it’s easy. And yeah when it’s a BAD day or week it takes all you have to put a shirt on let alone do all the things to help the depression go away. Love you Stu. Truly over the years I’ve come to love the person you are, all of it. The good and the bad. You my friend are worthy of it and when you can’t see it, I’ll keep it seen for for you. ❤
I have anxiety and depression since i was young and i have ibs from it too i had to force myself and still do to deal with life and my husband who i am a carer too i take no medication for it because i have diabetis plus i dont think its healthy to suprees whst yoy feel and sometimes i just want to stop and i cry i rage and other times it just goes but mostly its close to me but dont allow it to bury you i have no confidence it was knocked out of me years ago yet i have married 3 times and i have rared kids i have done healing but i do not dwell on how bad a lot of my life has been i got introverted i hated myself i thought i was ugly and stupid and told pull yourself together. But you are special you are one of a kind you are unique because despite what you think about you there is not another person with your gifts in this world you have talents strength of will your intelligent in only the way you can be and you at heart despite what you have been told or think are a wonderful warm generouse loving person and you are valued by your friends every where that talk to you here and love you despite what you think your not alone oh and tears are healing and its not weakness
One of the hardest things is to figure out when its depression, when its grief, when its burnout and a different approach is reqd.
Thank you for sharing the darkness 💜 its the heaviest, blinding weight, especially when the body remembers anniversaries that the conscious mind has long since forgotten.
Welcome to the sober club, 8yrs in and I no longer miss the crutch 🙂 there are healthier ways to self soother instead ❤
Raises a coffee in salut: heres to the survivors 💪
Thank you for sharing, your words mean a lot
Thank you for that.
You are seen. I feel you. And you’re so right about the things you said. Thank you for raising awareness. Thank you for reaching out. Last week someone said to me „But you don’t look depressed.“ That’s why it’s important to reach our for your friends, family or other people. You don’t always see if they’re struggling. Thank you Stuart ❤
So familiar… if I could just figure out a way to shield myself at work from all the cruel people I’m trying to help.
Stuart, every step you take is a victory. You have so much to give, to your followers, friends, family, and to yourself. Be gentle with yourself and know you make a difference to so many. Thank you for sharing your journey, with all of the pitfalls and pain. Please know that the triumphs will come as you go along the bumpy and wondrous path that is your life. I am cheering for you and sending love and healing your way❤
It's ok to feel ALL that you feel, it is your feelings...and I can only speak for myself, but I made the choice to stay in my depression bc that was all I knew...it became my safety blanket, my comfort zone...and I will probably always feel my depression...but I don't use it as my safety blanket anymore...and it may not come out right...but your pod and your openess about mental health helped me see that I needed to challenge myself more and leave my comfort zone...so you may not like this post...but I just wanted to say thank you ❤
Depression is the trickster. Don't listen to what negativity loops in your brain. I have been dealing with depression for 40 years now, and I am starting to realize what triggers my thoughts and then have things I do to derail the negativity train. You are so amazing in your willingness to share and struggle and process out loud. You, young lad, are enough! ❤😍🥰
Your vulnerability and honesty is something I alway appreciate from you. I am so sorry you are dealing with this right now. Sending you so much love and support. You are never alone ❤
You are unique and loved 💖
I've battled depression, anxiety, agoraphobia, and more for years. So days are better than others.
Stuart, I love you, and I thank you for making this. I lost a friend last week from depression and bullying, so thank you for not letting your depression win. Thank you so much for fighting. Thank you so much for staying alive. ❤❤❤❤❤
He looks like a super hero with the ice pack on he's face 😂😂😂.
Thank you for giving us a voice, for articulating so precisely what it feels like, day after day
I want to thank you. Thank you for being so open and honest. Depression can only rob you of things if you allow it too and I sadly battle with it daily. So I can understand where you are coming from. Your words of wisdom from someone so young help this old dog realize that life is going to go on if I am depressed or not. It's much better for me to take my medication and heal than to hide from it and alow it to take over. Much love. ❤
It's so peculiar how we think we know ourselves inside and outside until we hit that lowest low. It's in that moment we start seeing the paradox of being a tiny human and yet a powerful creature. I completely agree with you on the fact that we always have a choice, including the choice to be the victim or the victor. And truly, being able to record your journey - your racing thoughts and deep feelings - is one of the most valuable aspects of it. Thank you for this video. You showed the side of human that is very difficult to show, and yet so many of us can relate to it. Keep on going with your journey 🫶🫶
I'm struggling. Your words help. I hope it gets better. For you. For me. For everyone.
Thank you for being you.
Thank you! This helps a lot. It‘s still difficult to talk about this in public or even to close friends, you gave me hope that depression/mental health can actually help to connect us and for me personal to fight back & get out if victim/comfort zone. Thank you
This hits me on so many levels. You are showing such strength confronting this and I hope you feel better soon. (These words feel so inadequate.)
I am not a victim I am a survivor I have suffered all the types of abuse you could imagine growing and I have suffered with depression anxiety and paranoia for 27 years and I'm only 36 but through all that pain and self hatred and the damage I caused myself because of wot other people did to a child I survived I have been diagnosed with bpd now which in itself a crutch to lean on and explain my moods but remember the brightest people who shine like the sun are those that have suffered the darkness alone and don't want others to go through it the same you are a shining star in a multitude of stars in a dark universe that someone looks up and sees hope for a better future because of your light be kind to yourself allow yourself to feel down wallow for a short time but remember to get back up stars don't do well in the mud so shine bright but be safe a lot of people love you you are worthy you are enough you are beautiful but it's OK not to be OK sometimes it's how we know how far we have come from that darkness when it comes for a visit
This is hands down one of the most vulnerable and honest videos I’ve seen on the internet and I respect you so much for posting it.
How brave of you to open up this conversation even knowing that trying to explain it to someone that haven’t been there It's even more exhausting and that probably no words of support or rational explanation are going to make you feel better because it is a darkness that you must navigate on your own. Yes, you deserve to cry any time you need it, there's nothing wrong with that. You just need to keep breathing and someday will be gone, I promise.
You totally do deserve to cry. Everyone does. A good cry is cathartic. It’s good for the soul. Hope you feel better soon.
I've been told that my hugs have healing properties cos I genuinely love. I will send you a healing magickal hug. Depression is a horrible mistress/ master. I've had depression since I was a child, I gave up on my education and now regret my choices yet I'm still making teh same mistakes now. I hear you Stuart. I feel you. I love you.
Hello Stuart. I just finished watching your Birthday video. From a very young age I was invisible to just about everyone. I don't remember most of my younger years, until high school when I realized I didn't have to be invisible and now at 66 I'm still healing. Life did throw me some major curve balls not helping in my confidence mentally, emotionally and physically. Life has made me stronger because I choose to be stronger and I choose to be happy on a daily basis. I deserve to be happy (took my MANY years to believe this), I deserve to love and to be loved. I know I'm a good person. For most of my life, I felt I didn't deserve any of it, didn't respect myself. Many things contributed to this and what those things were are not important what is important is that one needs to come to terms with life learn to love and respect yourself. Know it's a life long journey of making choices, choices to be happy.
❤ ❤ ❤ Thank you for your pure honesty.
Thank you so much for being vulnerable with us. You are not alone in feeling this way; that's something I know for a fact. And I'm proud of you for acknowledging what's going on, and making the choices you need to help you get to a better place mentally. Those are hard choices to make, and it won't be easy . . . But consistently making those choices and acknowledgments will be so worth it. ❤️
I hear you, I've been there with severe anxiety and depression. Much love to you, Stuart, and I hope you find all the help and support you need to move through them.
I'm sorry you are dealing with this, but I'm so thankful you share how you feel with the rest of us who also deal with things like this. We support you and are here for you! 🩵
Unaddressed trauma keeps us stuck in depression until therapy starts to take effect. I was depressed for 29 years before enough breakthroughs started to dissolve it. Now i live with zero depression but still some anxiety because i am a Neurodiverse Bi 😅
Sometimes depressions come with the conscious realization that you reached a point in life where a plan, a dream or the current status quo of life are no longer possible:
- the death of a loved one
- trapped in a unhappy marriage
- old age and the loss of friends and family
- trapped in a society that doesn't accept your sexuality
Sometimes depression is chemical too: imbalance of certain essential elements
Certainly we cannot simplify depression to a check list and therefore an easy recipe for the cure. But depression is much more serious than the common idea that depression is just someone who is constantly sad.
I hope you stay healthy and happy.
I was just watching a video of yours from 2 years ago. Watching the difference between then and now. I didn't know you made this video u til just now. I saw the depression in a live I joined with you earlier this year. Watching how it has affected you over time, being online, able to go back and watch it. I just was trying to survive for years, and I see that in others, and you. I hide mine by choosing to keep moving forward now. I made the choice to be down for years. It's not feeling emotions like we should, but it is still moving. 💝
Thank you for sharing, Stuart. I’ve been holding myself back from exercising and taking that next step in my mental and physical well-being. Thanks for being such a powerful example to me. No more excuses. Wishing you kindness and strength in your hard time.
I am sorry you are going through this at the moment but appreciate you sharing with us. Knowing other people experienced similar feelings would have helped me so much in my early 20s.
Take care of yourself 😊
This must have been a hard video for you to make and I applaud your bravery. I’m sorry you’ve been struggling with this and hope on some level speaking your truth and feelings was therapeutic for you. With you in support and solidarity. Your strength and vulnerability is inspiring. 🫂
Sending my positive thoughts to you that you find your place of mind.
Oh Stuart. Bless you. I feel every word of this. Thank you for your beautiful honesty. Keep fighting. I will promise you that I’ll do the same. 💜
There are no words that haven't already been said. Thank you for your vulnerability. I'm so sorry to see you in so much pain when you are such a light to so many people. No one but you knows what goes on behind the camera but you, just know that you have the love, support, and encouragement from a stranger you've reached halfway around the world. You've got this! *big hugs*
I woke up at 10:00 a.m., felt depressed, and hid under the covers and went back to sleep for another few hours. And this video pops up!
Stuart you do deserve to cry - you deserve so much and I know you suffer from feeling undeserving. You are such an inspiring person and uplifting human. You deserve happiness and love and self love and care.
Depression is awful, anxiety is awful but it cultivates strength and you can get through it. It’s something I need to remember in the low times. It’s hard!
Send you lots of love and strength
Thank you so much for being so brave. In telling your story you will reach so many of us who also suffer from depression and anxiety. I have been anxious my whole life but I know that I will gain peace at some point. I just keep trying and so should we all. Thanks again from Canada.
You are truly a remarkable human being. I have dealt with the depression and anxiety for 60 years. Know that you are not, truly not alone. You have so many hear that care and love you, for who you are. I know its not the same as having people in person. But you can always reach out and will be here for you. Just know, how i feel, everytime i didn't want to get out of bed or do anything, i knew i was letting it win. And i refuse to let it win and take control. I find something that makes me feel happiness, in my case gardening. And if you feel like crying, Cry, scream if the feeling comes along. Stop holding it in. My heart truly hopes you find your way to live life and not let it rule you. ❤
You are a brave, beautiful human being. Please keep fighting. Big steps, small steps, doesn't matter. We are all here to offer any and all the support we can. You bring so much joy and light into lives of others, you deserve more of it in yours.
Hey, Stuart, this is hard core and personal, that wasn't easy to share. Thank you for sharing it , in hopes it may help others to go through it and come out the other end a stronger person ❤