Our Last Vlog Together

We went to The Palace Luxury Resort as we both love travelling and visiting new places. Unfortunately we wont be making anymore vlogs from now on. I failed to meet the requirements of a relationship and i probably wont ever be a boyfriend material. I shouldnt even have tried to be one. My Mental health, My work, my lack of common sense , My lack of effort, everything had made me a failure as a boyfriend.
My past wont let me get away with it, and theres no future for a guy like me who is not even capable of keeping someone happy.
I will never try to be a boyfriend/ One woman man again. What ever changes i have made in my self in over a year, was just a self realisation of how i was always a looser in school, and i still am the same person who just cant ever keep anyone happy.
I wish her all the luck, i hope she gets to learn everything that she can learn from other people, i hope she can be happier than ever, I hope she can find a man who whole heartedly loves her , with patience, care, and dedicates all his time just to her, someone who can teach her the things that would help her with life, guide her and always take her side when the world is against her. I couldnt be that man and took me a while to realise that. I Hope i can be strong and confident again and never ever try to win someones heart by trying to do things that dont matter.