This song (and Even Shadows Have Shadows) helped me through a really bad period of DPDR/paranoia/psychosis back in 2013-2014. Explains exactly how it feels. The terror of not even being able to trust the ground beneath your feet or your own self, the panicked, obsessive doubt of everything you thought you once knew. Probably one of the worst feelings I've ever experienced. RIP Eyedea.
Never gonna forget barely being 12 stumbling across Eyedea and spending every second finding more songs like Perfect Medicine. That day changed everything so glad I made that discovery too
i know exactly what hes talking about, its so extraordinary.. i was scared to death.. i wouldnt talk about it to anyone.. i was a lunatic but time does heal and can heal almost anything. those feelings are gone but im stuck with the idea of me going through that phase because of this guys music.
Oliver Hart exactly what i went through. If you ever want to talk about philisophical shit you can hit me up. I dont feel like anyone i know thinks the way i do apart from eyedea.
I commented on this video on another account and I quote: "Depersonalization scares the fuck out of me." 5 years after I typed this I got DP DR from a 4 day panic attack at the start of this year... Seeing that just gave me another one. Guess it takes a certain type of person to listen his music...
Since 3rd grade, I've slowly started to lose it. I used to call it "Thinking about thinking". I started to thing nothing was real at all. I went into these little trances and it felt like I was slowly blacking out. The deeper I went, the worse it would get every day. I found eyedea a couple years ago and I had no idea that there were other that were like me.
SIGN UP The Dive (Part 1) Eyedea & Abilities THE DIVE (PART 1) LYRICS It starts out with a question. How much of it is real? The skepticism sets in, and lessens your appeal Next, you study conspiracy, develop some theories And become extra wary of all your previous learned material Your tolerence for stupidity degrades Most of your friends seem to be trapped in the maze You narrow your associates down to the few you can stand And even they sometimes wonder what's going on in that head of yours You study east and western philosophy, psychology, physics You think a lot more, and start to question existence You wonder about your nervous system's limits You tamper with reality maps, and then ask hallucinogenic induced "Who am I's? What am I? Am I forever?" All information breathes in the shallow dark halls of never You can see where it's leading. You wish you were dreaming If the castle crumbles no one's there to put it back together [Hook] Have you ever felt yourself slippin' away? Where all you think about's your sanity, and how it decayed? There's no place to run, no place to hide You can't escape from inside, and you're losing your mind You try to think of when it started, and ask yourself why But each thought deepens the sickness and completes the desert dry Fear feeds the derangement of the inner eye With nothing left you find yourself falling to madness so you... ... cry to your god, and act normal to your peers What if God ain't hearing you? That's your only fear Each day you think more about your psychosis No one but you can help you, and you know this That's the craziest part of it all In your rational mind, you only know two things for sure One is that your totally nuts And the other is that you're the only one with the cure It doesn't make sense, it's not how you imagined You never knew it could just happen You thought it came from stress, suicide, a near death experience War, drug trips, low pay, carelessness You've heard plenty of stories about schizophrenia But never had evidence of one who thought himself mad You're going crazy, and desperately reachin' for reason But the strain to stay sane's your only demon; best believe it [Hook] You finally realize that you've always lived in hell No human model or metaphor can explain how you fell The puzzle's alive, and it changes as you try to escape it It created time and made it appear to pass by You don't know what you think. You don't think what you know You're a total lunatic, and afraid it's starting to show Where do you go when your brain is your worst enemy? The six hundred and sixty six foot tall bridge on seventh street? You're scared. You're scared. Why are you so scared? There'd be no problem if you didn't care Now you've truly formed an opinion about heaven It starts out with a question, and this is what it ends in Now I know you've felt yourself slip away Now all you think about's your sanity, and how it decayed There's no place to run. No place to hide You can't escape the fact that you've lost your mind You can't erase your mistakes. There's no way to rewind The harder you look, the harder it is to find Fear feeds the derangement of the inner eye With nothing left you find yourself falling to madness, so you dive So you dive [repeated] And with each foot you fall The voice in your head starts to sound more and more like yours
Yeah I am diagnosed as a schizophrenic. This song freaked me out when I wasn't on medication. I actually went nuts for awhile. Got put in a psyche ward.
With all the weed, and knowledge l gained through listening to quality hip hop. l feel like l can't be understand by anybody and now this depersonalization's making me depressed l think l need help and l have no idea what am l gonna do in long term.
I had my first experience falling down the Rabbit Hole this weekend. I consider myself lucky that I had my friend with me, and Eyedea to explain to me what I was going through and what to do. Word for word...
I agree. Its about finding a way out of your hole, but its not just thru drugs. It scares me a little because I feel myself having these feelings lately, but it also excites me to know theres a possibility that I'll feel a little more at ease with myself and whats around me.
It isn't, its really not.If you experience the phenomenon referred to in this song, you know it. And yes, depersonalization/derealization are some of the worst feelings ever.
@PuffDraggin420 I've been "thinking about thinking" for a long time... I tried not to. I almost drifted out permanently... I continually try to forget ... forget the realization. But-- sometimes I remember...
@PuffDraggin420 I feel ya man, once you realize that everything is energy at it's deepest roots you just start to wonder.. And then you start to think, fuck it, i'm only going to do the things I want
you can definitely hallucinate sober, there's also sensory deprivation which is one way to induce it. but i think acid can give hallucinations that are awe-inspiring as well, and dmt...that's a whole other realm
not sure, but i believe he is speaking of doin so without drugs, which in my opinion your sober mind can bring hallucinations and trips far beyond what drugs can ever do for you
@FallToRise Hey, I thought it was me! For real, it is the perfect song for teenagers to relate to. This album defined my years from 16-18. I still love listening though!
@TheSchimmi youre not the only one lol.. a description of my life too.. Amazing Eyedea.. Sing to Allah and Jesus Eyedea!! make them feel good with your voice and words..
i never did dmt either but ive just done a lot of research, i tried a dipped in acid e pill once and that was kinda neither here or there honestly i didnt roll super hard or have hardcore hallucinations, but dmt i know takes someone off this planet and out of reality and this universe
@scoutsouljademoman I'm sorry whatever happened to you in 94 has made you a hurt individual. You don't need to take it out on other, that only makes problems worse. I've experienced a great deal of pain in my life, maybe nothing compared to yours, but I learned a lesson to break the cycle. Show some love, and maybe others will too.
see i wouldnt know about the DMT i quit doin everythin but weed like right before that shit hit my mutual friend circle but ive heard gnarly shit about it. i cant do the harder hallucinigon anymore ive devoloped some heavy anxiety and im a lttle frightened f what would happen nowadays
the first time i heard this i freaked the fuck out. related to everything that is happening to me at the moment. i thought i was descending into madness, and this only confirmed it. anyone know how he died by the way?
@DrShakesBALLIN If I heard someone saying stuff like I heard in this music I would most definitely call the police on the crazy person. be advised I have no expectations since 94.
Are you saying that there's no relation between drugs's effects, and the reflexions you can have on yourself ? It's not a chance that a lot of people are talking about them, that's something that can help you a lot when you have to go through this kind of feeling ... You obviously don't know what you're talking about :/ I guess that's good for you, feel lucky
man i respect urr opinion but ive fucked wit coke, X, weed, shrooms, pain pills, brain pills, alcohol i've seen what each can do if taken too far, i've been fortunate enough to be satisfied with just dabbling a little in each, (cept weed is errday). i literally have a friend who im losing to meth more and more each week and month and its sad as fuck but there;s nothhing u can tell a drug user, it's all within themselves if they wanna change their lifestyle
This song (and Even Shadows Have Shadows) helped me through a really bad period of DPDR/paranoia/psychosis back in 2013-2014. Explains exactly how it feels. The terror of not even being able to trust the ground beneath your feet or your own self, the panicked, obsessive doubt of everything you thought you once knew. Probably one of the worst feelings I've ever experienced. RIP Eyedea.
Never gonna forget barely being 12 stumbling across Eyedea and spending every second finding more songs like Perfect Medicine. That day changed everything so glad I made that discovery too
this.... is exactly whats happening to me...
i know exactly what hes talking about, its so extraordinary.. i was scared to death.. i wouldnt talk about it to anyone.. i was a lunatic but time does heal and can heal almost anything. those feelings are gone but im stuck with the idea of me going through that phase because of this guys music.
No one but you will understand it though.
Oliver Hart exactly what i went through. If you ever want to talk about philisophical shit you can hit me up. I dont feel like anyone i know thinks the way i do apart from eyedea.
I have it every moment of every day. It's a wonder I'm still here.
"You never knew it could just HAPPEN..."
DP/DR are incredibly tough to go through, especially when you feel socially isolated, or have anxiety. Best of luck to you.
I commented on this video on another account and I quote:
"Depersonalization scares the fuck out of me."
5 years after I typed this I got DP DR from a 4 day panic attack at the start of this year... Seeing that just gave me another one.
Guess it takes a certain type of person to listen his music...
This and part 2 are so relevant to my life, I'm getting DIVE tattooed on my chest tomorrow.
Since 3rd grade, I've slowly started to lose it. I used to call it "Thinking about thinking". I started to thing nothing was real at all. I went into these little trances and it felt like I was slowly blacking out. The deeper I went, the worse it would get every day. I found eyedea a couple years ago and I had no idea that there were other that were like me.
the more i listen to eyedea, the more i realized he opened my eyes. even if i can barley comprehend what hes trying to say
"In your rational mind you only know 2 things for sure.
That you're totally nuts, and you're the only one with the cure."
1:45
Yes
these lyrics sum up the past 4 years of my life... i almost cried while listening to this...
SIGN UP
The Dive (Part 1)
Eyedea & Abilities
THE DIVE (PART 1) LYRICS
It starts out with a question. How much of it is real?
The skepticism sets in, and lessens your appeal
Next, you study conspiracy, develop some theories
And become extra wary of all your previous learned material
Your tolerence for stupidity degrades
Most of your friends seem to be trapped in the maze
You narrow your associates down to the few you can stand
And even they sometimes wonder what's going on in that head of yours
You study east and western philosophy, psychology, physics
You think a lot more, and start to question existence
You wonder about your nervous system's limits
You tamper with reality maps, and then ask hallucinogenic induced
"Who am I's? What am I? Am I forever?"
All information breathes in the shallow dark halls of never
You can see where it's leading. You wish you were dreaming
If the castle crumbles no one's there to put it back together
[Hook]
Have you ever felt yourself slippin' away?
Where all you think about's your sanity, and how it decayed?
There's no place to run, no place to hide
You can't escape from inside, and you're losing your mind
You try to think of when it started, and ask yourself why
But each thought deepens the sickness and completes the desert dry
Fear feeds the derangement of the inner eye
With nothing left you find yourself falling to madness so you...
... cry to your god, and act normal to your peers
What if God ain't hearing you? That's your only fear
Each day you think more about your psychosis
No one but you can help you, and you know this
That's the craziest part of it all
In your rational mind, you only know two things for sure
One is that your totally nuts
And the other is that you're the only one with the cure
It doesn't make sense, it's not how you imagined
You never knew it could just happen
You thought it came from stress, suicide, a near death experience
War, drug trips, low pay, carelessness
You've heard plenty of stories about schizophrenia
But never had evidence of one who thought himself mad
You're going crazy, and desperately reachin' for reason
But the strain to stay sane's your only demon; best believe it
[Hook]
You finally realize that you've always lived in hell
No human model or metaphor can explain how you fell
The puzzle's alive, and it changes as you try to escape it
It created time and made it appear to pass by
You don't know what you think. You don't think what you know
You're a total lunatic, and afraid it's starting to show
Where do you go when your brain is your worst enemy?
The six hundred and sixty six foot tall bridge on seventh street?
You're scared. You're scared. Why are you so scared?
There'd be no problem if you didn't care
Now you've truly formed an opinion about heaven
It starts out with a question, and this is what it ends in
Now I know you've felt yourself slip away
Now all you think about's your sanity, and how it decayed
There's no place to run. No place to hide
You can't escape the fact that you've lost your mind
You can't erase your mistakes. There's no way to rewind
The harder you look, the harder it is to find
Fear feeds the derangement of the inner eye
With nothing left you find yourself falling to madness, so you dive
So you dive [repeated]
And with each foot you fall
The voice in your head starts to sound more and more like yours
Gotten through it man. Like every wound if fades with time. Also, as fun as weed is, it does NOT help.
Yeah I am diagnosed as a schizophrenic. This song freaked me out when I wasn't on medication. I actually went nuts for awhile. Got put in a psyche ward.
Holy fucking shit. This song is, literally, insanely good.
With all the weed, and knowledge l gained through listening to quality hip hop.
l feel like l can't be understand by anybody and now this depersonalization's making me depressed l think l need help and l have no idea what am l gonna do in long term.
Are you ok 4 yrs later?
Probably dead now.
One ofmtheir most underrated tracks. #IndieRaps
Possibly the sickest hip hop song ever.
Awesome lyrics, the beat is tight too
i can relate to this song so much
its insane
I had my first experience falling down the Rabbit Hole this weekend. I consider myself lucky that I had my friend with me, and Eyedea to explain to me what I was going through and what to do. Word for word...
Thank you so much!
Hope everything works just fine for you as well!
Song rather rings true to me these days....
SaviorSelf yeah it fucks me up sometimes how it ended for him.
yo that was intense
thats sick
I agree. Its about finding a way out of your hole, but its not just thru drugs. It scares me a little because I feel myself having these feelings lately, but it also excites me to know theres a possibility that I'll feel a little more at ease with myself and whats around me.
it can be scary at times. But its the best thing you can do for yourself in the long run,
RIP EYEDEA LOVE YOU
But before you dive, that's a big decision you know, listen to Part 2.
sometimes l wish l could rewind the time and not go that road...
Drug psychosis, been there many times and its exactly like this
Woulda loved this song 3 years ago
@TheSchimmi I'm right there with you.
@TheSchimmi part 2 will cheer you up! makes insanity seem pretty cool.
Ay yo. This fucking bangs
@TheSchimmi Welcome. You're one of us.
It isn't, its really not.If you experience the phenomenon referred to in this song, you know it. And yes, depersonalization/derealization are some of the worst feelings ever.
Depersonalization scares the fuck outta me!
@PuffDraggin420 I've been "thinking about thinking" for a long time... I tried not to. I almost drifted out permanently... I continually try to forget ... forget the realization. But-- sometimes I remember...
@PuffDraggin420 I feel ya man, once you realize that everything is energy at it's deepest roots you just start to wonder.. And then you start to think, fuck it, i'm only going to do the things I want
you can definitely hallucinate sober, there's also sensory deprivation which is one way to induce it. but i think acid can give hallucinations that are awe-inspiring as well, and dmt...that's a whole other realm
@TheSchimmi you enjoy it . that's what you do . and it won't be hard since it's coming from eyedea .
I just got mind fucked.
@DrShakesBALLIN Thank you for the kind words.
@TheGromit420 At least, it's good to know i'm not alone.
@TheSchimmi Same here brother
HOLY SHIT he died TODAY. thats FUCKED, RIP EYEDEA, most talented rapper on the face of this earth imho.
not sure, but i believe he is speaking of doin so without drugs, which in my opinion your sober mind can bring hallucinations and trips far beyond what drugs can ever do for you
Jesse Jarvis lol,smoke some dmt and report back
Walnut OfTerror actually he brings up drug trips but the song really centers around depersonalization.
what is this sampled from? craaazy beat.
@Revolutionary1794 I can relate 110% to everything you just said.
@FallToRise Hey, I thought it was me!
For real, it is the perfect song for teenagers to relate to. This album defined my years from 16-18.
I still love listening though!
and i understand what ur sayin bout x, that shit fucks with ur head just after a few uses, one hell of a feeling though
@TheSchimmi
youre not the only one lol.. a description of my life too.. Amazing Eyedea.. Sing to Allah and Jesus Eyedea!! make them feel good with your voice and words..
i never did dmt either but ive just done a lot of research, i tried a dipped in acid e pill once and that was kinda neither here or there honestly i didnt roll super hard or have hardcore hallucinations, but dmt i know takes someone off this planet and out of reality and this universe
reminds me of songs by dalek
@SirSponge941 Been there, done that. Trying out something new this go-around.
i wonder that all the time mate
@TheSchimmi Listen to Part 2, that is your answer.
if anyone asks me dealing with what a panic attack is like, I just have them listen to this
@TheSchimmi listen to part 2
@UndermindMusicDOTcom man... Don't remove, not now... Speak with no regrets and no remorse; express it.
if you all dont understand this song and just relate to it you have issues and need to take a break and breathe a bit lol
With all the drugs? how did you fall under it?
@scoutsouljademoman
I'm sorry whatever happened to you in 94 has made you a hurt individual. You don't need to take it out on other, that only makes problems worse. I've experienced a great deal of pain in my life, maybe nothing compared to yours, but I learned a lesson to break the cycle. Show some love, and maybe others will too.
@TheSchimmi take the dive
@DrShakesBALLIN be advised anger is fear announced
see i wouldnt know about the DMT i quit doin everythin but weed like right before that shit hit my mutual friend circle but ive heard gnarly shit about it. i cant do the harder hallucinigon anymore ive devoloped some heavy anxiety and im a lttle frightened f what would happen nowadays
this about derealization & depersonalization?
Guga Khachatryan yes.
Guga Khachatryan among other things
Guga Khachatryan I think so.
How ever you wanna describe it
Yes. But derealization isn’t related to schizophrenia
acid? yummy
@TheSchimmi welcome to reality >:)
@jayfuckenbrown this is not spam... It IS about us all, same as it's about him. listen...
the first time i heard this i freaked the fuck out. related to everything that is happening to me at the moment. i thought i was descending into madness, and this only confirmed it. anyone know how he died by the way?
I don't why the fuck I can't find this song and play it without a block that says play it on a PC
@Slyz2011 we are the only one on Earth..
@DrShakesBALLIN If I heard someone saying stuff like I heard in this music I would most definitely call the police on the crazy person. be advised I have no expectations since 94.
So what do i do if every single word of this song is a description of my life?
ony you dive.
@UndermindMusicDOTcom what the fuck, rest in peace?
@scoutsouljademoman
:)
Nice song, about depersonalization! : )
there'd be no problem if I didn't care....
@DrShakesBALLIN
lol
@DrShakesBALLIN You label me a troll because you fear my truth
@TheSchimmi You sit back and realize that you just found the closest thing to jesus christ actually existing...
I love this song also guys no need to act like such fucking hipsters...
Are you saying that there's no relation between drugs's effects, and the reflexions you can have on yourself ?
It's not a chance that a lot of people are talking about them, that's something that can help you a lot when you have to go through this kind of feeling ... You obviously don't know what you're talking about :/
I guess that's good for you, feel lucky
lol what the fuck
man i respect urr opinion but ive fucked wit coke, X, weed, shrooms, pain pills, brain pills, alcohol i've seen what each can do if taken too far, i've been fortunate enough to be satisfied with just dabbling a little in each, (cept weed is errday). i literally have a friend who im losing to meth more and more each week and month and its sad as fuck but there;s nothhing u can tell a drug user, it's all within themselves if they wanna change their lifestyle
this was Kurt Cobain's favorite song
+Joey Fisher this album was released 7 and a half years after his death...
+TrollersJustice sources?
common knowledge? Kurt died April 5th 1994, this album was released in 2001. What the hell is YOUR source on this being Kurt's favourite song? -.-
+Joey Fisher Michael Larsen would have been 10 years old when Nirvana hit mainstream success. I think you need to get your "facts" straight.
no but if anyone wanted to know what the real favorite song of Kurt's look up seasons in the sun by Terry jacks. beautiful song.
thats not possible lol
the "rick and morty and blac mirror awoke"fanbase song
Gay
@TheSchimmi dive.