Suicide: An Honest Discussion | Kati Morton
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I wish you could be my therapist, I wish you would live near me. My therapist isnt nearly as emphatic as you are. You really seem to care and this video made me cry.
same and it made me cry aswell
Same
It made me cry too
a message for suicidal people. my friend you matter very much and you are worth saving. you have alot of value in you and you are so loved. I have so much love in my heart for you all , its so nice to have you in this world because you are so very special. I care so deeply about you my friend im so glad that you are still alive to read this message so you can see just how very special you really are and that you matter very much. god bless you all
I cried too!
This made me cry. I will keep fighting. I'm just so tired of crying and being sad. I cant handle life anymore. But i will try to fight.
+Adia Rafio I know where you're coming from being tired of crying and being sad. I found myself thinking the other day that I was tired of just being. So, here's what I did. I have this complex thing going on with my mind to where I'm not allowed to have negative feelings or something horrible will happen, I don't know why, it just is and my therapist has been working with me on it. One thing that I've found helpful is reminding myself that my feelings are valid and I'm allowed to have them. They're real. I'm allowed to experience them. I'm just not allowed to dwell in them. I've also found that getting sunlight is helpful. I try to sit outside about 30 minutes a day (even when it's raining). Being outside helps me so much. I tend to more of an introvert. I don't really like being around a lot of people, but getting out and going and seeing one person, a friend, a family member, is helpful because that other person that I care about may need my help in something. Also, I don't know if you have pets? I have cats, several of them. They force me to get outside to take care of them.
Will keep you in prayer
I know this is an old comment but, " I have this complex thing going on with my mind to where I'm not allowed to have negative feelings or something horrible will happen, I don't know why", is it a form of OCD you're experiencing perhaps? Look into it if you havent :)
When my parents die I won't have no one else to live for, I love them and I know they need me. But I'll be gone as well when the time comes. For now I'll keep fighting to be here for them, they are my reason.
Baby steps are painful, I agree. I hope we can climb our overwhelming ladders.
I understand how you feel me I'm fighting and I'll be around I'm sad and tired of fighting but the both of us will fight together in life
I came here expecting to get facts / statistics on suicide but this video really freaking hit me. I've never heard anyone speak with such passion and care. I never really thought anyone truly cared until I stumbled upon this video. I'm crying. I'm amazed. I love you and your videos. Thank you for everything you do, Kati x
BeliebInGaming it’s not even just the video but also the comments. She’s changing lives dude. It’s kinda giving me hope.
@@amber3574hope for what? It's been four years since your comment. Where are you now?
Kati Morton - an Angel in human flesh...
! word up ! was thinking something verry similar..
i always thought i could kind of see through people.
but with here i can not put a finger on anything, either she is extremely god at pretending, or she realy deeply, sencerly, wants to help others
Inspirational quotes? Bruh
Inspirational quotes? Bruh
Cheeky-mando u couldn't have been more right
That sounds horrifying
The sad thing is I know I have people who cares. It's just that I don't. I've honestly gave up on myself. I can't get a job. Lay in bed all day. My body and brain hurts. It's just years on top of years. And one day I feel like I'm going to just do it.
Hey, how are you?
Kendra Smith completely relate
Hey Kendra. I hope you're still fighting. I've been off and on messed up for at least 3 years (since my dad died, but maybe even longer) Thing is, I'm egotistical enough that, for the most part, I've never wanted to kill myself. It's always the world that's wrong, not me. I know I'm far from perfect, but that feeling's always kept me going. A couple weeks ago though, I did want to end it. I've been tired for the longest time. Then I met this awesome girl...who rejected me. Most of the time, I can think it's because they're not good enough; but this girl was special, and I wasn't good enough. Quit my job, laid in bed, and for a few days for the first time, really became obsessed with killing myself. I doubled down on my antidepressants, drank more than I probably should, but managed to get out of that obsession. I feel that if I let it, it'll come right back; and I still haven't done anything with my life. But I have to believe that if I try real hard, life might get better. Hell, if I'm wrong, there's a million ways that the world can kill me off without me having to give up. It's hard, very very hard, but we're at the worst point of our lives. It can't get much worse. But maybe it can get better. I mean I don't know, but isn't that worth waiting for?
I lost my first baby a week ago the doctors wouldn't save him because he was born a few weeks too early..and all I want to do is be with him. I've struggled with depression and suicidal thoughts since i was a kid. Ive never wanted to die as much as I do now. I have a bottle of hydrocodone from my hospital and alcohol in the pantry. The only thing stopping me from downing it all is knowing I could fail at killing myself and only end up physically harming my body and leaving my family to suffer with having to care for the aftermath.. 😔 truly unfair. I wish someone could help me do it right.
You doing okay now, Kendra?
I tend to use suicide as a coping method when things get overwhelming it's kind of comforting to think , "Well I can always just kill myself and wont have to deal with this shit anymore."I bet a lot of people think that and those who say no probably have had at some point.
dreamworkd Yeah many people like myself have this thought but somehow it is not really deliberating, more like making me even more depressed
Same
Same as me, its a comfort for my anxiety. When i get to that place i can relax and get on
And when u say those thangs to people no one is Goan belave u a lot of people say that but don’t mean anything they just say it when they mad or upset
Yeah, it really is a way to cope sometimes.
I would never hurt myself and kill myself, but now I am at the point where I wish that I won't wake up because I am too tired, just so so so tired of people that see only worst in me, while I was giving them last bit of my strength to make them happy. Left when I needed them the most, in the hardest period of my life.. I am thankful for people like you, its not eyes to eyes, but nice to see that someone is there that understands and giving us words of support instead of the ones that actually put you in these thoughts.
Natasa Mitic Radulovic I’m not trying to be funny at all when I ask... are you an empath? I am and got treated very badly by everyone until I made boundaries.
your a beautiful person LOVE keep going!
Yep I hear you. Very tired.
Listened to this next to the gun I was about to put in my mouth. I didn’t mean to. My phone was on auto play. Regardless for some reason it changed my mind. Thanks Kati.
I love you! I'm proud of you
I love you so much, I want you to know...
Amber Hagy Maybe there IS a God.
I hope you're feeling better! 💕
Death just seems more inviting than life..
sameee here
I just want myself to go blank... I don't want to be a ghost, don't want to go to heaven or hell... I just want everything to end😭
bob meoff There’s no evidence whatsoever for an afterlife. This earthly life is the only one you’re sure to get, so don’t terminate it in hopes of some blissful existence on the other side.
SRIPARNA ROY I’m so sorry. I have felt the same way. Try to remember that those cruel inner voices are lying to you. They’re like Trump talking about the source of his wealth.
@@juicer67
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I bet she is a really good therapist.
Inspirational quotes? F that. I bet her therapy is crap man. She’d probably just put ya on meds.
Jj Cool
@Daisy Richards I’m good. I’ll say whatever I want. What I said was being nice about it.
@@jjcool4184 meds help a lot.
Jonathan Mann She has been a big help to me on her videos.
Jj Cool What would make you think that?! She doesn’t prescribe meds bro she’s a therapist. Although she may suggest that as an option, it’s not a therapist’s job to handle meds. What are u saying?????!??
Crying because I love Kati so so much. She's such an inspiration
My favorite quote idk who said this “you’re track record for making it through the bad days is 100%” because it reminds you how much you’ve made it through and shows you how strong you are
Iam really glad ive found this community. Kati is so awesome. I struggle with Borderline Personality Disorder and recently my wife and I separated. It was an unamicable split. She took my Son and moved 15 hours away from me. And in the same year, the only friend Ive ever had in my life decided he didn't want to be cool anymore and when I asked him why, he said he got tired of me being mad and then cool with him like nothing ever happened. Thats when I decided to inform him about my diagnosis but it was to late. Just like my wife he moved on. I had a very tumultuous childhood thats why iam like this. I cant even sustain a relationship with my 12 year old daughter. Sometimes I sit alone in a room drunk, listening to kid cudi stairing at candles with the lights out. Thinking life is harder than death.....living with this disorder has ruined every relationship ive ever had. Now ive become so isolated and withdrawn because I feel inadequate and unwanted. I saved this video to favorites because this video will save my life. To everyone struggle with suicide and depression..... Dont ever give up. You are loved, trust me.....we can fight and win in life together. *Mike Davis*
Sometimes our brain tricks us into thinking there's no escape (and feels like that) but if you reach out and get help, small nudges along the way will give you a different perspective which will start making all the difference. Kudos for having the strength and to open up to write this comment.
DBT workbooks are good for helping you keep those relationships and there’s loads that are free online. Also there’s a website called centre for nonviolent communication and it has stuff about how to ask for what you need in ways that helpful for everyone
michael Davis thank you for this. I struggle with keeping relationships because of bdp as well. Its so frustrating and can cause a lot of self hatred.
I'd like to think if my environment was different I wouldn't worry and have such a low self-esteem so much.... I'm scared that I may have a mental illness and worried becuz of my dad's methods of manipulation have deeply affected my family and my mom has talked about someone with BPD and acted like something was wrong with her. Even though I don't completely understand you guys I know that having BPD has a very bad rep too it and losing people is terrible which happens alot. I hope everyone in a bad place will someday see the light. No matter who we r, we're all ppl. We're all in it together, they're is support out there.
“There will be a day that you can say you’re ok and mean it”
-dodie Clark
My dad commited suicide when I was 9 years old. I wish he knew how much I would miss him, how I still think of him, and how so many things remind me of him. He did it the day before Father's day and it shattered my heart. I have been able to talk to people battling suicide and tell them how I felt on the other side of the situation. No matter how hard it gets or how much you feel like you wont be missed..someone loves you! Know that. Im in my 30s and my dad is still on my mind. I'll always love my daddy.
your right someone loves you so we got to stick around!
i don't know why, but as I read the end of your comment I suddenly started bursting into tears. like unexpectedly, something just clicked. it has been weeks I haven't cried because I can't manage to express my sadness, I keep bottling it up all inside of me. lately I've been struggling with really bad negative thoughts, I just don't wanna be anymore (though I wouldn't try to kill myself, the feeling of not wanting to be is there most of the time). I think your comment helped me. I deeply thank you because I didn't think I could still sincerely feel sorry or care for how I feel lately. i'm sorry also to hear about your father. I hope you are okay
Beautifully stated. Sending you virtual hugs❤️😀🙏
Oh god thats awful. My husband/father of our 4 kids..suicided on Fathers Day a few years back. I pray your healing
I wish you were my therapist. I wish I had someone in real life to talk to.
Jennifer S Same.
I really needed someone to say me this. I'm crying so much.
We care
❤️❤️❤️
People always talk about what to do when emotional pain is causing suicidal thoughts, but no one talks about what to do when it's physical pain. I have severe chronic pain and I don't have a cure. I need a break and it's hard not to be suicidal sometimes
I cried when you said "we need you around"
I know this is from 10 yrs ago, but it was exactly what I needed today! I don't Have an eating disorder, but depression/anxiety have taken over again. Too much, loss, sickness, etc. I just saw my personal therapist and got an emergency appointment with my psychiatrist for later today. I want you to know that what you do matters, and what you did 10 yrs ago still matters.! Thank you!
I'm having a terrible evening, I'm in tears. A year ago or so many of my friendships ended, these were people I got in fights with. And quite often, it was because of me. I dwell too much on the past, I can't let things go. And today I tried to apologise again, thinking that things would be okay if they weren't left badly. And they said they never want to see me again. And whenever there are fights, I seem to be the only one who gets hate for it, even if others did the same thing. That doesn't condone it of course, I was horrible, but why am I the only one who gets the consequences? I have no idea what I'm doing with my life, j have helicopter parents who I can't stand, and no matter how hard I try at shook, I'm never smart enough, or organised enough. I procrastinate, my future is in my parents hands. And I'm basically lost. And I'm having suicidal thoughts, I'd never act on them but I really hate myself right now. I don't have control of anything, and my life is falling apart.
I have a problem with the list bit since I don't have any goals and that's what makes it so much harder for me. It's that there's the thoughts of wanting to die and not wanting to be here, and I don't have anything to look forward to or aspire to either because I have no plans for the future. The only reason I wouldn't kill myself is because of the mess and disruption I would leave behind, I'm just existing for other people.
i'm still here because of my 2 brothers and my 2 beautiful cats!
Your goal can be to have a goal one day!
Thank you so much for this video. I wish I could give it a million thumbs up, but instead I logged it into my favorites so I can find it when I need it again.
+mamieleger I just did too, stored in my library under "for a real bad day" trying to find other things for it too. been having issues with this lately so it's good to have something to refer to. a voice of reason,..........
I wanted to but I couldn't I don't feel anything I think I'm too far gone already.
I've been feeling intense things lately and isolated in my thoughts from everyone else in my life. Watching this is definitely a step in the positive direction. Thank you for all your videos.
I'm not an expert at all but if any of you scrolling through the comments need a stranger to talk to who will just listen, please feel free to message me at any time.
hi
Lastrevio Hey, how are you doing?
a bit lonely and sad. You?
Lastrevio Oh no, that's sad to hear :( I'm okay, just procrastinating online. Are your friends and family around? You could text or call someone?
My family is around, I don't have many friends though, mostly online friends or acquaintances or fake friends... But very few people have true friends, no? Hey, do you got facebook or skype 'cause talking through comments is just stupid and takes a lot longer
I had to stop when she said...I want to get married, I want to have kids, etc. I turned 61 last September and haven't met any single or let alone women who liked me since I was at least 24 back in 1986. That was the end of an era when it was socially acceptable for people to meet and make friends during one's regular flow of shopping, sitting in the park, it was so much more natural back then.
I’m 27 (I know, I’m young) and haven’t had a girlfriend in my whole life. I don’t know what is wrong with me. Sometimes I think I was born in the wrong place and wrong time. I’m afraid to try to meet girls because they would think I’m a weirdo because I’ve been single all the time. I’m struggling with that stuff right now.
I'm turning into you
@@maxivides That was very brave of you to be honest. At 61 I still remember my 27th year like yesterday. I still never had girlfriends. They just never enter my orbit or show any sign at all of interest. Just the thought that during all that time I have been struggling with loneliness and how to cope and adjust to a life without them...I just know it would be much too awkward for me to ever relate to any of them at this point.
@@natewalker7064 What does that mean?
I’m a young man and I’m honestly afraid for the next generation. My generation is so shallow and self absorbed that even basic kindness is considered creepy and flirting. I don’t even want to know what’s nexy.
Ma'am you are so sweet and empathetic🥺 you really made me cry within 1 minute. I'm never going to be able to afford a therapist but your videos alone makes me feel understood 😭thank you for being you❤️
i was feeling better today and it scares me and now i just want to die. I dont understand why... because i was feeling okay. But the idea of not being depressed makes me so scared and alone.
Elley Henderson Listen, you don't know me, but I'm Callum. Message my UA-cam account if you're ever feeling low. My Tumblr is Callumthegod, incase that's easier. I'll be an ear to listen to anyone's problems. I have my own story, as we all do. I won't expect you to tell me anything, because people aren't open. Of course! But if you, or anyone ever just wants to hear my story, you don't have to reply to it, or say anything. If you want to hear my story, just to know you're not the only one suffering, we may even have something in common, a problem, a hobby, anything. Drop me a message just asking for my story, that's all you'll ever have to type into that box. The offer is there if you're feeling alone. Remember. It gets better. You've made it this far!! You can do it!
same here stay in Love!
It makes perfect sense. After a while depression feels like a safe place, it is familiar and less scary than change. Mental illness is not logical. I had a CT to check for cancer while depressed and when it came back all clear I spiraled in to active suicidality. Something about being told I might have a terminal illness then being told I didn’t make me want to end it all. Straight up crazy.
YOU have so much strength, that's why you're still here
Doesn't matter if it's been a struggle that's irrelevant.
You've gone through everyday since the beginning of all of this, including today!
I love you ❤
Well said👏👏
I don't have an ED but I started watching your videos a few weeks ago and they've really helped me. You convinced me to tell my therapist about my self harm after almost a year of hiding it. I also have pretty bad depression and, sometimes, suicidal thoughts. I'm going to start a recovery journal now. Thank you so much.
25 years old, drugs and alcohol as a coping strategy for a neurophysiological disorder.
I've been experiencing a lot of chaos in my young life, and have developed agoraphobic traits. Yet, somehow.
This video makes me want to take the second step and accept that a neurological disorder can cause psychiatric phenomenon and illness.
As well as immunology, although this is another topic.
Thank you very much for your kind words, I will spend the early morning hours, although somewhat sedated watching any videos you have regarding mental health and strategy.
You're awesome Kati!
You've gain a new sub from the most easterly point of North America ! 😁
I hope your still doing well x
Thanks for making this video. On New Year’s Eve 2018, I made a serious suicide attempt .I made a self inflicted knife wound in my stomach, I was rushed to the hospital and put in the psych ward for 10 days. Now all of that darkness is behind me and I’m in a better place mentally, and these videos do help. I just wanted to share that there are many things you can do to recover. Reach out when you feel the darkness taking ahold. Most importantly , you are not alone in your darkness. Wishing everyone well and sending out positive vibes🧚🏻♂️🧚🏻♂️🧚🏻♂️
When she said ur worth it i cried
Today was a really rough day for me and what was going through my mind scared the shit out of me. I've never had such vivid thoughts of suicide. Thank you for all that you do. I'm glad I clicked on this video.
today was a really rough day for me Katie cheers me up!
I needed this. My case worker was discussing journaling with me, but I'm always scared when starting something new. This was a good way to jump start my journaling that I would like to turn into a good habit. I told him that I've been watching your videos and he told me he would give em a shot too!
I'm so grateful to have found your channel. I've been struggling with suicidal thoughts because of past traumatic experiences and recent life struggles, but I know they're just thoughts and that doesn't mean my life will never change. I find this very soothing to know that I'm not crazy and I'm not the only one. Wish you all the best.
suicidal people are very special and need alot of love and compassion. if you are suicidal just know that you matter very much and you are worth saving. you're a wonderful person and its so nice to have you with us , you are a blessing to us all. I have so much love in my heart for all of you and to see you get well soon. you are wanted and you are needed in this world its so good that you are alive that's a real good thing. you matter so very much.
We all need love, support and compassion. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Very good video...the one thing that keeps me going is not only videos like this. Its the horses (i cant live without them) When i get to the stables every morning, all 3 of them whinny at me, makes me feel wanted. The smell of them (sounds weird) brings me piece. Those horses are my world and im eternally grateful to them
Beautiful 🐎
When I'm suicidal, I force myself to lie down and tell myself my good qualities and what goals I still have to achieve. I repeat them over and over until I feel strong again.
That's such a great idea
that's really hard to do but i'll give it a try!
The other night, I was driving home from school late at night when all of a sudden, two bright lights were right in front of me, and I realized: This is a car. This car is coming straight at me. That car is going to hit me and we both may die.
I swerved into the median and managed not to hit the car, but the car kept going. Kept driving down the wrong side of the road, going maybe fifty or sixty miles per hour in a 40mph zone.
I didn't hear a crash, but I started crying. Not because I was scared I was about to die, or in anger that someone had seemingly tried to hit me, but because I was so concerned for the other person's wellbeing, both physically and mentally. I've never met that person. I have no idea who it was. But I know they must be hurting, and I know there was a possibility they were trying to hurt themselves.
I am not angry with that person. In fact, the only thing I feel for that person is heartbreak, because I don't know what their story is, and I don't know if they think they're loved, but I love them so much. I don't want them to be dead. I've never met them. They almost hit me. But I love them regardless because they're just as human as I am. They're just as worthy of love and recovery as I am.
So, if you've read this, please know: I love you, whether I know you or not, whether you've done some bad stuff or not, regardless of who you are or where you come from. And I am always available to talk.
YOU ARE SO LOVED.
Ppl like u r rare💖
I have been watching your video's for at least a year now...I have never made a comment before, I had a brother....the kindest most gentle soul. I still grieve 15 yrs. later. Thank you for making this video...
Almost three years ago i stumbled upon this video and it was my first step towards recovery. I remeber i cried so much my whole face was hurting by the end of this video. I seeked help, therapy, friends, family... and now i am fully recovered. Life may be hard but it is worth living and when you let yourself believe it you will start seeing many many many reasons to stay alive. I wish i had kept the page i used to write the reasons to recovery from this video so i could remember what i wrote...
I don't want to hurt the people around me. I just want to stop my own pain.
I broke down in tears. Thank you Kati. You seem so loving and caring. Wish I had you as my therapist :)
I just put down the blade after watching this. Thank you
I'm very glad!!! Keep fighting!!!
Stay strong.
I'm so glad that you did!! and I really wish that things have got better for you now
I'm glad you did. I hope you're doing better now, or at least still fighting. Don't give up.
I don't even know you but I'm very glad you did ❤
After 61 years of mental and physical trauma, I've had it. Positive beliefs lead to broken dreams
Please stay strong .My Dad is around your age so I want you to know that you are needed in this world.You have struggled but you are still strong and still fighting through this.Thats what makes you a champion.Please never quit .You are here for a reason.I'am sending you a gentle hug from me to you .
To all people who are suicidal, you can get through this. You can do it ❤️
thank you so much!
yea I'm bored of hearing that
No we can't!
I sat on the floor doing homework and cried watching this.
I suffer from BPD and am often fighting suicidal thoughts. I just watched this video for the first time today but am putting it on my favorites to play whenever I'm going through a particularly rough time. Thank you so much Kati, you know just the right things to say to help push me back on the right track and remind me why this life can be worth living. Thanks :)
The fact that this is 10 years old video and it showed up on my youtube page as a recommendation.
im ten and i can relate. please don't do it and the first step is to probably realize how amazing and special you are :)
Kati I teared up at this video. Thank you so much. For everything. My biological family does horrible things to me and it makes me wanna die always. Your words have given me so much strength. Thank you. I love you. Thank you for helping me today.
this made me cry. saved the page and tbh your better on youtube than half the psychologists ive seen in person. thanks Kati!!
I can't put it into words how much of a wonderful person you are, this made me cry so much. I'm really glad I found your videos, they are amazing and they've honestly helped so much. Thank you.
even if it's a stranger, it always helps me to hear that somebody wants me to be alive. i've gone through many dark times, and there always ALWAYS is someone who will reply to my post, who will offer to talk, or will send me a cute cat picture because they don't know how to help... i owe so many people whose mere recognition of my existence pulled me back from the edge, from friends to spontaneous passerby, being told that my life matters makes a difference, it reignites my hope, how people so far from me with nothing to gain and alltogether separate from my vices and virtues would still extend a hand, my number one reason for staying is to show my gratitude by maybe, just maybe, doing that for someone, i know first hand that much might be enough
I want you to be alive and I hope you think the same about me, I think I'm in a similar boat as you. I don't know if you want to talk or not but you can if you want! And stuff cute cat pics Google nose twerking gif and look for the one with the Santa's hat on, so funny 😝
I can't possibly explain to you how much you help please don't stop making videos they keep me a call they protect me
We as human beings always talk about "right's and freedoms" yet we can't don't have the right to leave a world that we may not be suited to? That really pisses me off.
Sí
5 years later and I just saw your video. I cried throughout the video and am still crying. I can't think of any reason to live. I can't find any motivation to recover. I attempted suicide several times already, but why am I still here? I don't have anyone to talk to either...
this made me cry. Thank you so much for all your videos.
I kind of aimlessly chose this video to watch and now I'm crying, this video helped me so much. Thank you.
wtf I’ve ever seen any perosn with this much compassion and empathy.... Kati you are an angel
I've watch this video so many times whenever i feel like giving up and it always makes me cry ... thank you so much for posting this video Kati xo
some people just dont have nothing no family no friends no possessions, nothing
Me, thank you for mentioning it
I’m crying so much right now. Thank you I just haven’t felt needed in a long time
you make me feel so calm I love watching your videos on bad days they give me a sense of hope for myself
The last minute made me cry my eyes out. Thank you, Kati.
I had to battle severe depression and anxiety and strong suicidal urges mostly on my own. My parents don’t believe in mental illness, my friends thought that I was just looking for attention, and I couldn’t find a therapist that worked for me when I needed one the most. Every day, I would be just one wrong move away from actually committing suicide, and it took a tremendous amount of inner strength just to get through every hour. As the months passed, my reasons to stay alive became less important to me. Eventually, I was left with nothing, and the only thing keeping me alive was routine. I believed that life was so boring, so predictable; death seemed more interesting than life. But I knew that I was being irrational, so I made a new reason. That reason is so I can see where the rest of my life goes, to see what the future had ahead of me, and to see what the rest of the world would look like. I still had hope that conditions would change, and I was interested to see what would be different. And it turned out to be true. Now, I look back on my decision to stay alive, and I’m in awe that I wouldn’t have known about this pandemic had I committed suicide before now. A new motivation for me to stay alive is to emerge from the pandemic as a survivor. I don’t want the last thing I remember of earth to be that it was filled with difficulty and terror. I want to leave earth feeling like I lived my life for a good reason, and that I experienced all of the things that are unique to every person, such as love and a connection to God. Even if you don’t believe in the same things as me, having a curiosity for seeing the future is a good reason to stay alive. Hold on tightly, there is still hope.
I want to thank you for all your help and kind words.
I need to find a therapist like you. These videos help me lot and you help so many people.
What if there's nothing you want to do. What if there's no goals or desire. I like you and have watch many of your video's and your very intelligent. I'm still looking through your vidios to find something anything because I feel that I'm done.
Swingtreecats tea Same
Even I do feel the same ....
Same. Even if I make myself do things, I am just done
This video made me cry, too. I’m older, 65, and I think that is adding to my depression. I have no one to reach out to. . . I feel like I’m all alone. And no one would care if I weren’t here. They don’t care now, why would they care if I were gone. I’m isolating and just want to sleep. You and your advice give me hope, but I can’t honestly see myself taking these steps. . Why is it so hard?? I’m reaching out to YOU!!
I don't think you really have to take the steps Kati, mentioned. They're good ideas. But there are others. Just take smaller steps, one step a day. There has to be something that gives you joy. Focus on that everyday , for as long or as short as you want. Whenever you feel low, think on excellence. Whatever is good, whatever is lovely, whatever infuses you with happiness. Think on these things. 😊 I'll be thinking of ya.
YES WE ***DO*** HAVE TO SUFFER ALONE, BECAUSE LITERALLY NOONE CARES
meh I'm at a spot where I'm super nervous but some people at my school started to talk to me and I decided to stick with them instead of being antisocial.
we stuck for several months and even tho I'm super nervous and awkward, we would talk; lol me and my friend struggle to talk to each other bc we both terrible at conversation lmao
I've yet to talk about heavy stuff but like the little ive exposed they still stuck with me and show they really care, one of them is trying to help me talk about the heavys.
its true, random people at school dont care because they think that u have ur own friends and own stuff but u just gotta find the right people. find a therapist or start talking to a friend about stuff. you could find a friend group online. find people who care.
its fascinating and confusing af how people work, and if u just find the right people it becomes a little bit easier each day. so, dont give up. sorry for the random vent lmao I guess i needed to reflect. dont give up okay? its gonna be amazing when we get there.
I know it seems that way and I'm going through Insanely tough times and I want to End it... But there are people that do care and know you have some Worth out there. It's Easy to say
@@LucresntBlade No, It does not Seem that way and no, it is not easy to say, because it's almost impossible to even think about. Raw? Yes, I am working through Fresh wounds of reaching out to family and getting Bit for the very Last time.
Been through the system, was left to hang in the wind. Struggling my whole life to find someone who cares and is truly willing to help. At 55 I have a childhood friend who lives many miles away, doesn't have a computer and not big on talking on the phone and has a busy life. And a husband I moved away from recently, who didn't learn Empathy and Compassion as a child. I didn't even know that was a thing, it explained a lot of both of our behaviors. Why I married him? A whole other can of worms.
That's it. Weeks go by, months, I'm alone. No talking, sharing, laughing, hugging or just that comfortable silence sitting on the porch, knowing there is another human near who has your best interests at heart and a shoulder to cry on.
After moving out I have made 3 attempts at making friends to no avail. I don't think I would be able to be a true friend anyways given my mental state...? I am in a place of such NEED. When I step away from my computer have to tell myself It's ok, It's alright and get done what I need to get back before I run off to sleep, my favorite space. I have good weeks where I'm sorta able to get a bit done, eating, moving around, stepping outside. The other times I keep my Crises Line near, I've called twice. It's Very difficult phoning and talking to a stranger though.
For some reason I am still breathing...I need to find out what that reason is. Thank you to any who took the time to read this, Namaste
this video made me cry just when it's about to finish. "you can do it, you can recover" just hearing those encouraging words means a lot. thanks kati
Wow.. thank you so much for this. I've never felt like I was worth recovery or strong enough to go through with it. But this, made me feel like I am worth it.
I watch this when I feel bad. It's been a long while since I last felt suicidal. Oddly, having consistency by adding episodes to my UA-cam channel made me feel like I could have additional resources for support. Like this channel. Thank you for caring Kati. I appreciate it.
This is an awesome video and some great ideas.......saved to my healing playlist :) thank you Kati ♡
Katie, I know you published this 7 years ago, and I believe that the heartfelt information you gave was so helpful, and saved lives, as well as minds. Thank you for that.
When I was younger (mid-twenties) I had suicidal thoughts and even tried to drive into a semi truck at great speed. As I did so, I realized that my 4 year old daughter was with me and that she would die also, or be left in a very bad way in so many accounts. Obviously, I got back into my correct lane, and didn’t do what I set out to do. That was my wake up call. She was my light in a very dark and painful world. Since then, I have (and still am at 69 years old) finding ways to be my on light, or seeing light in others. Now I have had the untold pleasures of seeing her grow through her life: college, teaching, most wonderful husband, and 2 college girls! I would have missed all those milestones, all those very special people and sharing in their lives. I don’t put her on a pedestal, but I do share my love with her, and tell her how much I love her.
Three years ago, her 15 year old daughter went to her parents and told them she needed help NOW, as she had been so depressed, self-harming, and suicidal. They got her help immediately, and although she still struggles with life at times, she’s no longer suicidal. She was hospitalised for a few weeks, then in group therapy for a length of times, and has been seeing a psychiatrist for her meds, and a wonderful therapist since then. She’s an amazing young woman.
I know I’m wordy, and I’ll close this post with a question. I’ve been told by several people that if you call the suicide hot line and say the words “I am suicidal” or “I have a plan” they have to send someone to your house. Is this now, or has it ever been true?
Thank you for sharing your wisdom, knowledge, experience, humor, and so much more.
Thank you, Kati, for this video, you are sweet and amazing. You have helped me so much!
Thank you for your videos Kati. I am so close to giving up, but your videos are giving me the strength to keep holding on.
what about for middle aged people ? what do we have to look forward to? medicare?
Emily Wallace Grandchildren, job promotions, and it’s never too late to do something new that makes you smile. It may be hard, but it’s not over.❤️
@@kittymellow5864 u can look forward to job promotions, like Kitty Mellow said, but what about ur favorite restaurant, ur favorite foods, ur hobbies...u can't just give these things up! Especially the food, anything but the food😢
@@kittymellow5864 Ya ok
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sat here crying watching this video thank you kati for all that you do i know i dont just speak for my self when i say with out ur support i dont think i would still be here im literally at the end of my rope i have the local crisis team i started a journal i will keep fighting for as much as i can thank you xx
When I felt suicidal, I made a bucket list. :)
dictiosaurus that's a great idea !
I like that!
I might try that
Kati you have been helping me so much lately. So glad I found your channel.
IF you want to die, you have the right. You didnt ask to get brought into this world
I I had cried with this video. It had helped a lot; seriously you inspire people to get help. Thank you so much
I can't do all of these things. I'm so tired, Kati.
DiDi just reach out. do that first.
U did reach out with this comment.. you’re gonna be fine
Hey, how are you doing now?
Wow, best video you made yet! The end got me in tears. I think a lot of people needed this. Thank you Kati, I'm so happy I found your channel.
I wish I would've watched this video before I tried to end my life two months ago. God, I wish you were my therapist :/
+Katherine Hambrock How are you doing now?
+Mackenzie Clark sorry I just saw this. I'm.....coping
@@7icanonlyimagine Coping is the right word!
Hey Kati,
I don't remember what video it was, but I saw another one where you talked about making a recovery journal. I took that advice & ran with it. I find myself going back to my recovery journal, pouring over those quotes, reading encouraging entries, looking at my reasons to recover, just everything in it... I've even written down songs in it that are particularly encouraging to me! I showed it to my therapist & she's added more to it - positive body talk, focusing on the positives, listing those positives... it's been so helpful. Thank you... wanted to share.
Also, watching this video tonight... I found tears rolling down my cheeks on the part where you talk about how I'm worth recovery & how people would miss me, how there are reasons... it means a lot. I've been in an episode for the past month. Sometimes it's so hard for me to believe those positive things because the depression voice can just block out everything & anything positive. I believe you when you say it... I believe my therapist when she says it. I've been trying to be so painfully honest in my regular journal that it's hard for me, but it's been really helpful. I've also been forcing the depression mask down during therapy so she can help me. She's so helpful & so compassionate. She really loves what she does.
Thank you again for these videos!!!
What about when you really have no one? It does happen. My family disowned me after my 2nd attempt because I was "being selfish". I can honestly say I have 0 friends, I work single coverage shifts, and live alone. The only person I did have was my therapist and I moved. The only thing my therapist now cares about is being liable is I do do something. What do you do when you really have no one?
You always have someone, even if you think you don't I assure you there will always be somebody out there that cares about you.
For what it's worth I care about you.
I understand this is an old post... And I understand that not many people are "Christians" But I just wanted you to know. (this is gonna sound like the cheesy Christianity thing to say but its true) You have Jesus. He is with you literally always. And he is always there to talk. I was stuck for so long. Not as bad as suicide but i was getting there. Then my friend came to me and talked to me about this and once I started getting in to it my life seriously changed. I am so happy and alive. I understand this sounds so cheesy and i'm sorry but its the truth. I'm not expecting you to read this and you just be like okay ima turn to Jesus and everything will be good. But just try it... pray once. Just once. Its easy. Just talk to him... in your head. Say something like "I'm having a rough time right now and need your help. I'm stuck and want you to help me. I'm going to give the situation to you and I trust you to help me through this" If you want to talk to me... reply and I will somehow get a hold of you on something else.
Emily Brewer thanks Emily for your response, I am a Christian however I needed to be reminded that Jesus does indeed love me, I do need his help and I acknowledge that he's only a prayer away. blessings xx
No problem. Glad this helped. Would you like my phone #?
I wish my counselor was this understanding and supportive. She hates hearing about difficult topics and I feel like I’m fighting another fight just going in there instead of having support. It sucks and I’m so glad I found this. Everyday I think this is the end of the line for me, and that it seems like the next step to end it, but thank you katy for giving me that motivation.
Find a new counselor if you can. They should be open to anything you bring up! You're looking for help, a good listener and some kind of progress. If you're not finding it with your current counselor, look for a better match. It's not carved in stone that this is your only option. Best wishes to you.
😞...☹️...😕...😐...🙂...😃... thank you 😊
I do not say I love you to people often and so fast but I love you, thank you for everything. You're an angel.
This video is so amazing. I've been feeling really anxious for the past few days because I'm getting the results for my maths exam tomorrow. I've always felt my anxiety being the worst when it comes to maths exams. Be it writing it or getting the results back. Because of this I am feeling so bad that I was going to self harm. But this video helped me so much, that I am actually going to go and buy a cute notebook and start a recovery journal tomorrow. Thanks a lot!
You are the reason I am still alive Kati, I haven't been able to leave my bed for as long as I can remember.
I needed this so badly. Thank you so much.
Kati- you make me proud to be a LMFT! We do get it daily, when someone’s child’s dies, when bad news, when they are tired of being chronically lonely and in pain. Thank YOU for your work. You inspire me as a human, but to be a better therapist and my clients trust me to do
My work. You rock!!!
I will be assigning recovery journey’s immediately. On it,
Your work on the internet matters!
🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
But what if the suicide is based on real circumstances? What if you’re not crazy?
You’re a really great person, and so sweet. I’m struggling as hard as I can today, and I needed to see your video! I’ve painted two whole walls in my apartment with chalkboard paint so that I can write motivational quotes on them. It helps, because some days I don’t even want to open a journal.
I just love how you say we instead of you (:
i watch this video every night because hearing those encouraging words helps me stay here because even tho i don’t know you and you don’t know me i know you would care.