HLVRAI - still feel. [READ DESC.]
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- Опубліковано 23 сер 2024
- after two long years, it's finally here! what a journey this project was, and i unfortunately wasn't able to finish it fully the way i had wanted to
so much has happened in the time i spent working on this - moving multiple times, getting a job, and just moving on from hlvrai to other interests. i probably would have been able to see this project through regardless of all of that if it hadn't been for the fact that in late 2021, my computer's hard drive stopped working, and i was only able to recovery about a fourth of the files i'd had on it. i lost the entirety of still feel, all i had left was the work in progress videos i'd uploaded unlisted here. i had up to the chucky cheese scene fully lined and colored, and it was just all gone. there wasn't really any coming back from that. it was definitely a pretty heart-breaking moment because this project meant the world to me and realizing i wouldnt be able to see it through to the end sucked a lot.
but i am still really happy with what i was able to accomplish here. i cannot even begin to describe how personal and important this project has become to me. even though i didnt get to finish it, i still love it a lot. hl:vrai changed my life in so many ways. i would not be where i am at today if not for this silly youtube series. i'm glad i was able to make something that i think reflects the love and passion and gratitude i still hold for hl:vrai, its characters and its creators.
all that aside, thank you for watching. i hope you enjoyed it as much as i enjoyed making it.
and on the very off chance that wayne or anyone from the rtvs crew happen to see this, i just want to say thank you all for doing what you do. your videos and streams and humor are so inspiring and truly mean a lot to so many people. finding hl:vrai, and then your streams and community changed my life for the better in so many ways. thank you.
song: still feel. by half•alive
series: half life vr but the ai is self aware
tumblr, twitter, insta and twitch are all @ dammjamboy!
wow, i just want to say thank you. already all of the comments under this have been so sweet and so so meaningful to me. i won't be able to respond to all of them, but i genuinely want to say thank you to everyone. everyone who saw the wips and watched the streams and kept up with this project, you all really kept me going. thank you so much ♡
THESE TRANSITIONS ARE SO GOOD BRO
Thank you kind sir for creating true art.
This is really underrated, awesome work dude!
coming back to add this: please for the love of GOD don't bother leaving comments asking about their races or ethnicities. if you want to see a video about a bunch of plain old white men you can check out someone else's animatic. these designs are very precious to me and it's fucking disgusting how many comments ive had to remove that were either racist or largely inappropriate.
note to none-artists: don't ever ask stupid shit like "why is (insert character) black" or whatever; you are just being racist! it's called artistic freedom of interpretation also known as, i draw whatever the fuck i want because it hurts nobody and only allows me and other people to represent themselves and feel represented where they otherwise wouldn't have. learn to deal with it or stop consuming art lol.
no but literally WHY are the black, painted nails, all this weird quirky shit. These are video game characters, with actual skin. ON TOP OF THAT, THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE VOICING THEM. Isn't this what white washing is but you can get away with it because "uwu they're dark skinned" ???? The V/A's might be weirded out, confused.. Just confusing and unnecessary.
OH MY GOODNESS, you know what this made me realize? So Gordon goes back into the past, wakes up Dr Coomer, and destroys his passport right? Dr. Coomer was normal before he found out that they’re in a video game. And Benrey follows Gordon around originally because he doesn’t have his passport, so Gordon went back in time and caused the whole thing. So it’s kinda like a time loop situation? Like he’s always destined to go back in time to cause problems for his past self.
Oh shit😮
I love the transitions and the references to parts of the series like Dr Coomer saying there's NOTHING outside of Black Mesa or Gman watching Tommy
Heart :D
God this brought back the flooding memories of peak hlvrai time. The emotions and here and they are strong but wonderful. I remember seeing the wip during streams, you improved so much with this and your current work. I feel so proud of you!! Thank you for this great vid.
hello gordon
hello Gordon!
GOES FUCKING NUTS GOES ABSOLUTELY FUCKING **NUTS** I NEVER EXPECTED YOU TO FINISH THIS (AND I DON'T MEAN THAT IN A BAD WAY I JUST KEPT COMING BACK TO THE WIPS AND HOLDING THEM CLOSELY TO MY HEART) AND SEEING THIS AS A FULL AMV IS SO GODDAMN INCREDIBLE. EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS VIDEO IS BEAUTIFUL IN ITS OWN RIGHT AND I LOVE SEEING HOW THIS HAS PROGRESSED FROM THE WIPS YOU POSTED AAAGGGESS AGO TO NOW. YOUR LIGHTING AND COLORING ARE PHENOMENAL AND EACH SCENE FITS THE LYRIC AND THE BEAT. THIS IS IT THIS IS WHAT DRIVES ME TO NIRVANA OP HOW DOES IT FEEL TO HAVE MADE A MASTERPIECE??? I AM STIMMING BEYOND BELIEF I AM GOING TO FUCKING EXPLODE THESE SILLY LITTLE VIDEO GAME MEN HAVE BEEN PLAGUING ME FOR THE LAST YEAR AND A HALF AND I DON'T THINK THEY'RE GOING AWAY ANYTIME SOON!!!!! THANK YOU FOR COMPLETING THIS PROJECT AND BRINGING THIS INTO THE WORLD THIS REALLY MADE MY WEEK HOLY FUCKING SHIT I'M NOT GONNA RECOVER FROM THIS /VERY VERY VERY POS
small update: i showed my mom. she said it was very pretty
This is sick dude! Amazing animation and the ending bruh. It's so weird seeing the fandom all serious and then there's the series 💀
One of the greatest achievements of modern fandoms is to create gravitas where there is almost none.
God, HLVRAI was a fucking journey. One that has legitimately changed me in some small way. This AMV is fantastic, and it brings back a lot of the great memories I'm going to harbor for this series for the rest of my life. Glad I came back to see this finished, and I hope your proud of the masterpiece you created here ❤️
HOLY SHIT!!!! HOLY SHIT I HAVEN'T STOPPED THINKING ABOUT THIS SINCE I SAW THE FIRST WIP YEARS AGO AND!!! IT'S AMAZING!!! the closer-to-storyboard bits at the end were still incredible!! and your designs changed from the original, I think, and they're very good and!! the different sections for everybody, and the VERY end with taking off the headset and!! fuck!!!! oh my god!!!!!! I really absolutely adore this I can feel the love and effort you put into it and even with all of the setbacks it's INCREDIBLE !!! aah!!!! I'm going to put this on replay for the next five hours,
I love when artists take a story or a silly video series and put some depth into the characters and making their own little stories, while still keeping the original in mind. I can tell from this video the Benrey didn't want to be the villain and after all is said and done, you can see he regrets it. He just wants to be with them.
dude, this is a fucking kickass animatic, all the characters have so much personality to them! I absolutely adore Bubby's rocket ship heels and coomers arms, and their expressions are perfect, they display so much emotion and its incredible. this will forever be one of my favorite animatics of all time, this is the level of cool I want to be when someday, like, a whole FOUR GODDAMN MINUTES!!! ALMOST ALL FULLY COLOURED, SHADED AND SMOOTHLY ANIMATED, YOU ARE SUPER COOL MATE. I will be rewatching this so many times, best of luck in the future, one more time, exceptional animatic, my dude. /gen
I remember seeing these first wips and being so excited, and felt the loss of what happened to the original files. I'm so glad you saw it through! This turned out incredible. Your art is inspiring.
Bubby in rocket heels goes so unbelievably hard and im not sure why, absolute KING
I found the series by accident and binged it ALL in one day and that day was today
Now to wait for HL2VRAI
it is literally WILD to me that this doesn't have more likes, it's clear you put a lot of effort into it and it really shows, this is SO lovely
It's been a god damn pleasure watching this unfold over the past two years!!! Thank you so so much for sharing this with all of us. Seeing this upload just now gave me some amazing emotional whiplash I haven't felt in a long time, and I'm so glad you were able to complete the project even with all the hardships that came in the way. Regardless of how "finished" it is, it's a damn treasure with so much heart put into it
I REMEMBER SEEING THE WIP THIS IS AMAZING YOU ARE AWESOME
I already left a comment but I've been rewatching this and I have more to say! The expressions on everyone?? And your designs?? Amazing! When Coomer shoots his clone in the dumpster and the LIGHTING of it?? Incredible. The scene change from Coomer falling to Bubby in his tube is also my favorite transition tied with the rocket to bullet. And the bittersweet end gets me every time
somehow this has become my comfort video??? so thank you for that. i love this sm
literally the best bubby design in the whole world!! epic video :)
THIS IS SO COOOOL !! i love all ur designs for them (i like how dr coomer and uby get their cybernetics) and the actual animatic is so GOOD ??? and the song choice ?? 10/10 . amazing
When you posted about the hard drive loss I was hollowed. Having seen the few things you had posted before that it was "wow damn this will be fantastic!" - let me say, for the record, it is STILL FANTASTIC. It is beautifully thought out and executed, and somehow even the 'unfinished' final presentation seems very fitting indeed, given the song itself. You done good.
OMG I remember this wip!!!! It was great then and it is greater now. I thought I had gotten over hlvrai but now I want to watch it again. I really love the end, makes em feel stuff. This is awesome, thanks for sharing ❤❤❤
I recently got back into hlvrai again, and I absolutely loved your little coomer wip that it got me into the band. And to see this mostly finished is just awesome you did amazing despite everything that happened in the making!!! I'm proud you persisted to get to the end!!!
I had this music video recommended to me about a week ago, and I almost didn't watch it. I'm really glad I did, because it really highlights a lot of the deeper aspects of the series that I hadn't even considered. It's fucking beautiful and you should definitely be proud, especially after having to start over basically from scratch. What you have made here is something incredibly meaningful, and I sincerely hope that the people involved in HLVRAI see this some day, because it's fantastic. I've watched a bunch more music videos made about the series, but I think this one is still my favorite, because I keep coming back to it. It's something about the facial expressions, the humanity in which you draw all of the characters. It gives them life, which is not to say that the others don't do the same, but this one just feels different. God, and the last scene where Wayne is sitting alone in his room, that fucking got me the first time. It's so tragic and beautiful and just very very well done. Thank you for making this, and I wish you nothing but the best in life.
Say what you will but Benreys nails are on point
I literally just rebinged hlvrai a few days ago and thought of this!!! I'm so proud you got it out ❤️
I’ve had this in my tabs for nearly 2 months dear god-
I just wanted to say thank you for making this. I always loved the initial animatic, which ended up introducing me to this lovely song in the first place. I also still consider the transition from the rocket to the bullet absolutely masterful. It‘s beautiful seeing how this project has developed.
Also, I know it’s only been 2 years since HLVRAI came out, but it’s a nice blast-from-the-past!
GOING INSANE SCREAMING AND CLAWING AT THE WALLS OF MY ENCLOSURE THIS IS SO INCREDIBLY GOOD!!!!!!! YOUR DESIGNS???? AMAZING. THE SCENE LAYOUTS??? AMAZING. THE SONG CHOICE?? AMAZING. THE ART ITSELF???? INCREDIBLE!!!! this is so inspiring im literally working on a hlvrai animatic rn too and i FELT that pain from what you wrote in the description. sending so much love i am going to work on my animatic now.
I think you've kickstarted my HLVRAI hyperfixation again, great job on this!
It's so wonderful to see this complete!! It came out amazingly even with the setbacks. Thank you for the wonderful video! =]
i adore the rocket on bubbys boot
!!! I thought I had stumbled onto the wip again but it's complete!!!
This looks so good!!!! Hell yess
(and also thank you for making this cause you single handedly got me into this band when I saw the wip all that time ago lmao)
I LOVE your Bubby design so much!! To see a super exciting animatic featuring some of the more side characters was such a treat. This was so beautiful and well made, well done!!
OMG ITS OUT!!!! I'VE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS FOR A WHILE!! ITS SO PRETTY!!!
The wip has been in the back of my mind for ages, something I've thought about fondly all the time, and I had figured you moved on from this project. And seeing it now, hearing what you went through to get it done, I'm just kind of emotional?
Thank you for not giving up on this project and sharing it with all of us.
THE CAIN AND LYNCH POSTER!
This is fantastic and I love the character designs and emotion!
Oh my godness! I was introduced to this fandom with a song and now introduced to a song with this fandom amazing!
This made the memories flood in, and this animatic is just as good as I remember it being and even more amazing finished wow, so happy I caught this in my feed
Take a comment for the road. this deserves so much more love then it has, and all the luck this video and others.
Im not joking when i say that this animatic has kept me from killing myself multiple times, including right now. Truly, please upload more, this animatic makes me want to live longer, and be happier.
NO WAY NO WAY NO WAAAYYYY OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i freaked the FUCK out when i saw this in my reccommended bar
ive also mostly moved on from hlvrai, but i still sometimes come back to my favourite animatics, including your wip of this, which i LOVED, so this was such a pleasant suprise!!! im so glad you decided to release it in some form even though its not completely how you imagined it, i absolutely adore it.
your animatic was what got me to discover and love this song and now i have the rest of the animatic for it to imagine when listening to it,,,, god its so so so good thank you so much
This deserves so much more attention. From the character designs and interpretation, to the ABSOLUTELY BOMB AF LIGHTING AND ACTION LINES SHOWING MOVEMENT!
This deserves all the attention, ashame it doesn't. But, I'll listen to it on loop and watch it weekly, or even daily (depends on hyperfixation) but, I hope you hear this fellow artist.
god i damn near cried at the end, dr coomer's last message was heartbreaking
really hopin they do hl2vrai
and damnjamboy, if you somehow see this
bra-fucking-vo, this was amazing, from how you perfectly captured the characters, the story, little details like tommy seeing gman watching over him, to the art itself looking amazing, the details in the end boss fight and wayne taking off the headset with everyone still with him
God, and knowing how difficult animation or animatics can be, especially one that is really damn good takes serious skill
enjoy the rest of your day
Just recently found HL:VRAI again after having forgotten about it for quite some time and I gotta say, _this is so insanely good, holy hecc_
Cheers to you for finishing it despite all the hardships, it has become a true masterpiece
I love the concept that Dr. coomer only sees himself, and others, as bits and pieces of code, nothing more.
THIS IS SO COOL WHAT??? I LOVE RHE DESIGNS AND THE ART OH WOW
I JUST SAW THIS HOLY SHIT OH MY GOD IM SO GLAD YOU FINISHED THIS!!!!!! Oh my god? It came out so well, and honestly is inspiring me to create animations of my own… I’ve always wanted to but I was always held back. Thank you, I really appreciate you, and your art. Keep drawing man
my HEART!!! THIS ISS SO GOODDDDOMFGFGGG i nedd to wright an parragraph about thiss, excuse me this is gonna take an hour, hold till after I eat supper - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
ok it's far past supper now, BUT THI IS STILL AMAING!!!
I think the moment I really fell in love w this is when I realized there was rockets on Bubby's booties. The emotions and expressions are * chefs kiss chefs kiss chefs kiss * The terror on Coomer's face, the joy on bubby's face, the fear on tommy's face, the apprehension on benry's face, the sadness in 'gordan's' body, IT'S PALPABLE AND I HAVE TO WATCH THIS SO MANY SIMES OVER HOLD PLEASEEEE
The art is beautiful, I love every design choice, and I've found I really like this song but that's probably because it's attached to this animatic.
I might be back w more raiving in the future but for now 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡TAKE MY ENTIRE SOULLLLLL
WOOOO LETS GO IT FINALLY RELEASED AND IT LOOKS ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC
I might be a year late to this BUT the amount of EMOTION and FEELING you put into the characters is awesome and I loved how you put in each of Gordon's milestones that he faces!! And at the end when he takes the headset off and contemplates what just happened, he can still feel that Coomer, Bubby, Tommy, and Benrey are still right there with him. So epic.
Oh man this animatic! I remember the earliest version of it back in the day, tried to find it again, just to find it finished! One of my favorite animatics! It is sad what happened to your computer, but I still love this, and all the effort you put into it!
This is really really great!! I love that the HLVRAI community is still around and making cool stuff. This must have taken forever and I'm really glad that you finished it, the world is better with this in it
I LOVE THAT THE BEAT DROP AT THE START IS THE JUMPING SCENE WHERE THERE IS "nothing there." OMG I LOVE THIS TY FOR BLESSING MY EYESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
wooh yeah it's finally here! soo excited to watch :-)
oooooh my god i remember when the wip was still uploaded, im so happy to see you finished this despite the struggles with such, it turned out AMAZING
The thought that outside the obvious time-loop shenanigans that these simple scientists were all affected and changed by the resonance cascade would possibly explain a lot of the uhh... 'abilities' they have
I recently rewatched the HLVRAI stuff again and I'm so glad I found this again, I didn't even realise but I subscribed to you 2 years ago when you made the WIP and it's so weird to see how far we've come. Thanks for swooping in during these trying times. Beautiful artwork, you can really feel the labour of love that went into this
OH MY GOD THIS IS A MASTERPIECE!! Amazing work! The amount of effort put into this is incredible! I have rewatched this 5 times now. This is one of the best hlvrai animatics I’ve ever seen! ❤️❤️❤️
I love the details like the rockets on bubbys boots an coomer haveing cybernetic arms but the clones don't
Oh my gosh I remember watching your snippets of progress years ago and I loved them!! I cannot put into words how overjoyed I am to see this reach its conclusion!! This looks freaking amazing!! 🥹
This is genuinely so amazing and nearly made me tear up, you captured the energy of the height of hlvrai so so well! I remember when the first WIPs came out and introduced me to half alive in the first place, and the second I saw the thumbnail for this I clicked as fast as I could. This is so, so wonderful and amazing and I can really feel the effort and love that went into this, especially considering how much of it you lost (rip computer malfunctions, it’s almost fitting considering it’s about hlvrai but still Jesus that’s a lot of content to loose)
I guess it’s time for me to rewatch hlvrai cause damn :’) I miss these guys
giving bubby a membrane-esque outfit is really clever considering is voice actor
THIS IS INCREDIBLE YOU ARE SO TALENTEDDDDD
I cannot begin to explain how much I love this animatic. I was out of this world excited to see this in my youtube subs box--I still rewatched the wips from time to time! This project was one I've always been excited to see more of, and you exceeded any expectations I had by far. Also, this was the project that introduced me to 'still alive' and half alive in general, and now they're one of my top listened to spotify artists, haha! I'm so sorry about the original files, but I do wanna say that I think any and all work you did on this is fantastic. I hope that everything is going well for you!
WOW. GOD i was already having an emotional night and now i'm losing my mind over this i need a minute
the expressions, the designs, each section dedicated to one character - AUGH i hate (read: love) that i get so emotionally invested in the most goofy silly little guys. god. incredible work all around. look at those transitions to each part. _fantastic_
also, speaking from experience with losing tons of progress on a project, that is _devastating,_ genuinely. kudos for persevering and getting it almost fully re-finished anyway. the final product is absolutely wonderful
Um oh my god??? This is amazing!! One of my favorite songs and now an amazing animatic to go with it?? Thank you for this!!
this actually makes me so happy it's so nice it makes me cry every time
this popped up in my recommended tab out of the blue and i'm so glad it did because it's so good!! made me very nostalgic for hlvrai even though it wasn't that long ago... great job on making this and thanks for making it!!
dammjamboy you truly go all out with anything you do, this vid is amazing! :^) hlvrai still means so SO much to me, and seeing this reminded me of that. 💖 i can't wait to see what you do next!
I remember seeing the WIP forever ago, I'm so glad UA-cam recommended this to me after all this time. So worth the wait.
DUDE OH MY GOD THIS IS SO COOL. YOUR HLVRAI CONTENT HAS MADE ME SO HAPPY AND JUST LIKE OH MY GOD??? THERES SO MUCH HERE ITS FAIR HOW LONG IT TOOK. YOU SHOULD BE SUPER PROUD OF YOURSELF HOLY HELL!!! THANK YOU!!
Yoooo so glad to see the final version of this posted!! It was so good,, I love all of your character designs sm
YOUR BUBBY DESIGN IS SO AHHHHHJ
I feel like this song perfectly encapsulates looking at yourself for way to long in the mirror till you just start questioning things
This is so wonderful!!! i love your designs for the characters and the way you convey emotion!! this made me so sad its so good
THIS... THIS IS LOVELY. ive recently started getting back into hlvrai (mental illness made me beat hl1 five times back-to-back and i was like "yknow what? im gonna watch hlvrai again instead") and this animatic is like exactly what i wanted to see right now. i absolutely love your designs for everyone and the fucking BOOTS bubby has 10/10 would scrimble again (i am sleep deprived)
Gonna be honest this has to be my FAVORITE version of bubby! I LOVE your style and I can't believe I'm just now seeing the final version of this
This might be my favorite HLVR:AI animation
(Also love that Bubby design)
The ending utterly kills me. Poor player
I can't believe it. I was literally rewatching the whole series including the commentary. Just when I thought I've seen everything, I get to watch this. This just captures the characters in their finest. God, I can't believe a bunch of fictional characters got me crying :[[[[ The way Benrey just gets sad during the boss fight, the way they're just THERE with Gordon in the end, oh my god WAYNE PLEASE GIVE US A SEQUEL
this is INSANE AND INCREDIBLE AMAZING!!!!!!!!! god ive always wanted to see someone's take on coomer seeing the "outside" so incredible
Benrey small hips. WHY? TO BE HELD MAN?!!! /ref
This is amazing by the way :)
YAAAAAAAA THIS RULES THIS IS SO WONDERFUL AND COOL AND EPIC!!!!!
Your WIP vids got me into this song, and I’ve loved it ever since, and it’s so cool to see this finished product!! This makes me miss the insanity of when this series first concluded and the fandom was booming, it was a really fun time and I can see all the love and care you put into your work for this shining through!! Makes me wanna rewatch the funnie half life show again. Excellent work!! Even with the obstacles you faced that u talked about in the description it came out amazing and you should be so proud!!
ngl, how it transitions to the different scenes is actually really good!
Oh my, this is wonderful! This is so underrated!
The ending is so wholesome
Heart :D
i can't stop smiling as i watch this omg
bubby's design is so cool
OH MY GGOOODDDD THIS IA AMAZING???!!!! THE SONG WORKS SO WELL, I /LOVE/ YOUR INTERPRETATIONS OF THE CHARACTERS AND WHAT THEY WERE FEELING , YOUR ART IS PHENOMENAL, JUST
EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS IS SPECTACULAR DUDE
I KEEP REWATCHING IT, YOU DID AWESOME!!
YOOO I REMEMBER THIS EVERYTIME I HEAR THE SONG THANK YOU I LOVE THIS
This is wonderful, I have been obsessed with the WIP of this since I found it forever ago and now I’m obsessed with the full thing!!! Thank you for this!! It truly is beautifully made and a pleasure to watch!!!
This is so good, I could literally cry. Thank you for this video, it's so amazing
I love how this turned out, I've been so excited for this the WIPs and it is absolutely brilliant, thank you so much for sharing this with us!
Damn, I keep coming back to this vid, it brings good memories from when I watched it
bubby's boots are so cool 👀
🎉🎉🎉🎉 POPPING THE BIGGEST BOTTLES TONIGHT!!!!
oh my goodness, i remember watching your streams of you working on the wip, and here we are now with a finished version!! this is absolutely amazing!! you really pulled through and made something spectacular despite all the hardships you faced!! gosh, your art is so beautiful, i just know i’m gonna be rewatching this so many times trying to take in every detail
How are they all so full of tragic backstory but the silliest characters imaginable
OMG I was just thinking about this the other day!! it looks absolutely wonderful, and I remember how entranced I was with the very first wip you shared on Tumblr! just! wow!! it's always a delight seeing your work 💚!!
Videos like this are what make me wish I could give a video five stars on UA-cam. A thumbs up feels inadequate.