My Suicide Story: Episode 7 - Kev's Story

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  • Опубліковано 22 лис 2024

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  • @kevgmor
    @kevgmor Рік тому +41

    Thanks so much for all of your supportive and kind comments. I was an honor to share my story here. If you'd like to see how things are going, I have a Mental Health Vlog on my channel.

    • @Lua658
      @Lua658 5 місяців тому +2

      You went through so much and kept fighting, you are an inspiration... Also, very beautiful music... Thank you very much for sharing and I wish you all the best 🙏

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor 5 місяців тому +1

      @@Lua658 Thanks so much Lua.

    • @tekboi1984
      @tekboi1984 2 місяці тому +1

      Your story is so similar to mine. I had a good run but I've been struggling for the last year. I've been going downhill since the end of 2019, I just keep digging myself into a deeper hole. I'll be 41 in January and just hope I can find the strength to pull myself out of it this time.

    • @Lua658
      @Lua658 2 місяці тому

      @@tekboi1984 You will find strength... One day at time... Focus on small pleasures and conquests every day... Wishing you all the best 💫

    • @ashleycool4285
      @ashleycool4285 24 дні тому +1

      So glad you are still here. I have had two attempts and now I have three children who keep me alive but it's still a struggle.

  • @kevgmor
    @kevgmor 2 роки тому +54

    Thank you so much for creating a space for me to share!

    • @hadi20233
      @hadi20233 6 місяців тому +1

      Hi Kev, amazing video. Unfortunately I have reached the end of my lonely, stressful & exhausting story. Live for me & drink a cup of tea for me on that beautiful beach ❤

    • @monacoleman24
      @monacoleman24 2 місяці тому +1

      @@hadi20233I hope you find peace 😢

    • @mattmillaa712
      @mattmillaa712 2 місяці тому +1

      @@hadi20233please tell me you’re still here!

  • @gary5477
    @gary5477 3 місяці тому +12

    I get mildly annoyed when people say it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Not all problems are 'temporary'. Some are chronic and LONG lasting, years even or even permanently.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor 2 місяці тому +2

      That's very true. Thank you

    • @lindorini
      @lindorini 2 місяці тому +2

      Yes❤❤❤

  • @lesliecano4963
    @lesliecano4963 Рік тому +12

    “Better than stabilized.”
    Man that sounds really fantastic, to feel better than stabilized again. It sounds and feels so unrealistic.
    Congratulations on getting there Kev.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому +1

      Thank you, Les. I vlog about it on my channel if you're interested

  • @LiamPorterFilms
    @LiamPorterFilms 2 роки тому +29

    Kev is an excellent musician and he tells his story here with tremendous strength, eloquence and honesty. It's a humbling life story that makes me reflect on my own privilege.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor 2 роки тому +3

      Thanks so much Liam!

    • @yourkarma2250
      @yourkarma2250 Рік тому +1

      @@kevgmor You have let your mess become your message and your story someone else's survival guide ,when the body feels safe so will the mind,EMDR is incredible x

    • @debraholz9756
      @debraholz9756 Рік тому +1

      Do you have any family support? Is your mother in your life?

  • @kevgmor
    @kevgmor 2 роки тому +38

    Before
    By Kev G Mor
    I might be tired, but I’ve been tired before
    It’s not the first time I’ve made my way back from the floor
    But the harder I fall, I forget what I’m fighting for
    I might be down, but I’ve been down before
    It’s going to be a fight, but I’ve been a fighter before
    It’s not my first time in battle, but now I am at war
    Where I got beaten down, battered and sore
    I can be a fighter, where I couldn’t before
    It might be dark, but I’ve found my way before
    Though I can see no light, my feet recognize this floor
    Where it’s weathered and worn is the path that I look for
    It’s a damn hard time, but I was hardened before
    I might be down, but I’ve been down before
    It’s not my first time in battle, but now I am at war
    And the harder I climb, the more I’m fighting for
    I might be tired, but I will climb until I soar!

    • @alisoncrawford2
      @alisoncrawford2 Рік тому +2

      Kev, I am am happy to have met you and am glad you are still here! 💞Beautiful song

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому +1

      @@alisoncrawford2 Thanks so much, Alison

    • @yourkarma2250
      @yourkarma2250 Рік тому +1

      wow!!

    • @irenedonesa6938
      @irenedonesa6938 11 місяців тому +1

      what a great song about life's struggles and coming out of the dark braver and stronger

    • @helennelson5845
      @helennelson5845 10 місяців тому +2

      Thank you so much for sharing your story.

  • @mrl1593
    @mrl1593 Рік тому +16

    I can relate to Kev a lot. I think in S everyday. My life style makes it impossible not to think about it. I am trying to be strong.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      Hey! I'm sorry you can relate, but glad you found you're not alone; I talk about mental health on my youtube page, which some have been finding useful. I'm happy you're here today

  • @MaTT-BLaK
    @MaTT-BLaK 8 місяців тому +9

    My mental health at a all time low. Inner strength has ran out. I just want to delete myself out of this this world. No point anymore. I hate life.

    • @justmadeit2
      @justmadeit2 7 місяців тому +1

      How are you doing now?

    • @carolineharrison9288
      @carolineharrison9288 7 місяців тому

      I empathize, I may not have a place to live. I would like to take every pill in the house. Honestly, for me, my faith in Jesus is the only reason I’m still here. I still wouldn’t mind someone coming and euthanizing me to get out of my pain and fear. If there’s anything one thing you can hold onto please do!
      You’re important and you matter!

    • @Thatsbannanas-d8c
      @Thatsbannanas-d8c 5 місяців тому

      Hi hey, hello. You are not alone. It’s ok. I hate life too. Keep going don’t give up.

    • @MaTT-BLaK
      @MaTT-BLaK 5 місяців тому

      @@justmadeit2 Still not good. Still breathing and dont know if that's good or bad tbh. Its like a never ending circle

    • @justmadeit2
      @justmadeit2 5 місяців тому

      @@MaTT-BLaK Depression is a bad thing. I’m struggling a lot myself

  • @missdeboer6366
    @missdeboer6366 3 місяці тому +2

    I have CPTSD too. It is pure hell. I am almost 50. Ideations are always there.
    Hugs, friend.
    You are brave. You are worthy.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor 2 місяці тому +1

      Thank you; I wish you the best as well

  • @LinBouthillierCTRC
    @LinBouthillierCTRC 7 місяців тому +5

    I’m a MH professional, too. I’m so glad you are here, Kev. How does one go about being on this channel as a suicide survivor? I would be so grateful for an opportunity to share my story, too. We really need to interrupt the feelings of shame and disapproval that survivors may carry. Many thanks to all who struggle with suicidal ideation and my heart is with every one who has felt that the best option for them was to go non physical. Love to all who see this post.❤️

    • @MySuicideStory
      @MySuicideStory  7 місяців тому

      Hi Lin, you can submit your story on our website www.mysuicidestory.org/submit

  • @philippamediwake1235
    @philippamediwake1235 3 місяці тому +2

    Hi Kev, just to say how honoured i am to listen to your story. You’re so articulate & obviously gifted with great music & creative skills.
    I’m so thankful that you’ve found your purpose in life.
    I hope you’re still battling on ❤

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor 2 місяці тому

      Thank you. I will keep on stepping forward til I get to wherever I'm supposed to be

  • @IreneGraham-fk3pv
    @IreneGraham-fk3pv Рік тому +5

    Kev you should be so proud of you 😊_you keep on going and that is so so fucking hard man (lots of us know that feeling)& you even take the time to help others**be proud of you 😊

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      Thanks so much Irene

  • @veronical.c890
    @veronical.c890 Рік тому +2

    I'm a musician too. I love your song . Music can help us so much. It's hard to remember how much it helps when one is feeling depressed.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      Thanks so much Veronica

  • @MISNM0
    @MISNM0 Рік тому +3

    I listened to all of this and it is likely one of the more important things that has happened to help in the last several weeks.
    Very courageous for you to share your Truth, Kevin. I'm grateful to you and expect you are living a tremendous After today.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      Thanks so much

  • @LoraCorkhill-wm9pk
    @LoraCorkhill-wm9pk Рік тому +4

    My hope is you have found relief.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому +2

      I am doing well, thank you

  • @FeliX-gu4dx
    @FeliX-gu4dx 2 місяці тому +1

    You are a great singer and I love the song. You are a fighter and a light for the other people who lost the path in the darkness. I hope you can feel the joy you bring to other people with your songs. Never give up even it’s difficult. God gives the most difficult life to the people who love the most and the difficulties are no bigger than the strength He gave you to overcome them.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor 2 місяці тому

      Thank you Felix

  • @Mulejaw
    @Mulejaw 4 місяці тому +2

    Hey, thank you so much for your video and i am very glad you are doing well. It hlps to see there is hope. I am 62 and am going through the darkest period having the darkest thoughts. my appointments for help is a month from now. The wait and the darkness feel unbearable. I have no friends and family and there is no one to reach out to so i find myself resorting to watching videos like yours for some solace and it helps. It helps to externalize this and to send these words out even if its only to some stranger in the vast void that is the internet. Your song. I weep. Thank you.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor 2 місяці тому +1

      Thank you. I hope things get better. I do have a Vlog on my own channel, you may find useful.

  • @kerryford4698
    @kerryford4698 Рік тому +2

    Sometime it feels better just knowing you can leave if you really need to.ive taken overdoses and survived.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      Thanks for listening to my story, Kerry

  • @sarahbordeaux9510
    @sarahbordeaux9510 Рік тому +5

    You are super talented. Your song is beautiful!

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      Thank you, Sarah

  • @cutepusheen0
    @cutepusheen0 4 місяці тому +1

    Thank you so much to the people behind this channel for sharing these stories. It’s helping me tremendously at this point in my life

  • @wendyjones1422
    @wendyjones1422 Рік тому +4

    How sad but its good to talk about these things thanks for sharing your story

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      Thank you, Wendy :)

  • @Stephishappy
    @Stephishappy 2 роки тому +6

    Wow!!! I really enjoyed listening to your story. Thank you for sharing Kev. You are a fighter and an inspiration. I wish you continued strength and all my support is with you.
    Keep rock n 🤘🏽them tunes. ☮️💜

  • @gingerblossom3774
    @gingerblossom3774 3 місяці тому +1

    Thanks for sharing your story. I first wanted to end everything when I was in third grade. I have thoughts constantly. But I'm still here at 33. Taking things day by day I suppose.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor 2 місяці тому +1

      Day by day, for 30 years...I feel that. Keep on, keeping on :)

  • @lovelyeyessee
    @lovelyeyessee Рік тому +4

    Beautiful music, thanks for sharing.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      Thanks, so much :)

  • @pamlucas7694
    @pamlucas7694 8 місяців тому +1

    I get it. Got health problems and everyone is preasuring me to work im not sure how --- to live thanks for sharing your story so hard to live when your sick trying to maintain my health i can so relate with the feelings my emotions go all over the place your so brave

    • @HarrietCraig323
      @HarrietCraig323 5 місяців тому

      Getting out of-especially at a job- is absolutely the best thing you can do for your mental health-and absolutely the most difficult thing to do.
      Be strong-get outside.

  • @laraoneal7284
    @laraoneal7284 Рік тому +4

    Ty Kev. God bless you.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      ...and you. Thank you :)

  • @jenniferroncin4667
    @jenniferroncin4667 4 місяці тому +1

    😢 sy to hear that.

  • @HarrietCraig323
    @HarrietCraig323 5 місяців тому +1

    Nice sound!!!
    👍🏻💪🏻❤️

  • @delphinawhiles6235
    @delphinawhiles6235 Рік тому +3

    So inspirational, I reallly appreciated your honesty n opening up with your story n journey dealing with everyday life with a mental illness.
    Your music, art etc comes under holistic approach. It's more than just taking your meds, it's developing a lifestyle to do your best to keep your mind n body healthy. Loving yourself n self worth. We can't escape childhood abuse done to us n the trauma it does to our brain. Our DNA n our inherited disposition r all contributing factors that shape us. Life is complicated enough for us but add a mental illness onto, we'll I thin🎉k people like u r true superheroes.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      Thank you so much, Delphina

  • @Sparkl1ngM1lk
    @Sparkl1ngM1lk 2 роки тому +7

    it's really hard finding a reason to stay right now...

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor 2 роки тому +6

      Sending love to stay. You've made my day better today; thank you for watching my story.

    • @SweetSeraph93
      @SweetSeraph93 Рік тому +2

      Same 💞

    • @HarrietCraig323
      @HarrietCraig323 5 місяців тому

      💪🏻💪🏻

    • @puppies983
      @puppies983 29 днів тому

      How are you going? Life can be very hard

  • @thefriendlyschizo
    @thefriendlyschizo Рік тому +2

    Kev you look like you're 30! Glad you're still here

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому +1

      Haha, that made me feel good today, thank you

    • @thefriendlyschizo
      @thefriendlyschizo Рік тому +1

      @@kevgmor haha you’re welcome! And definitely! What’s the name?

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      Kev G Mor - Mental Health Vlog
      @@thefriendlyschizo

  • @margaretbeard6564
    @margaretbeard6564 Рік тому +1

    You are very smart and articulate. I can see you could really help others. God has a purpose for your life..

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      That purpose keeps me going; thank you

  • @ritamcgovern6012
    @ritamcgovern6012 6 місяців тому +1

    How marvelous. You are extremely strong. Been through an incredible journey. Lots of love to you and good luck. Yes, things never stay the same forever. I would love to meet you and give you a hug. I too am struggling having lost my darling angel. Regardless, you still believe in yourself. That says it all. Lyrics are beautiful 😭 you are special. Remember that and someone really really loves you. ♥️ Rita Jhb South Africa.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor 6 місяців тому

      Thanks so much, Rita

  • @cathylindeboo.9598
    @cathylindeboo.9598 Рік тому +1

    I'm so sorry for all your pain Kev. I wish your family had been there for you more. I went through active multi-substance addiction for 22 years, until I had a stroke. I am grateful that I can walk again!!... Thank you for sharing your story, and God bless you!!!

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      Thank you, Cathy

  • @susanmartin6159
    @susanmartin6159 Рік тому +1

    Excellent voice, lyrics, and guitar playing. Very relaxing and inspirational.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      Thanks so much

  • @LukeMcdonald10
    @LukeMcdonald10 Рік тому +1

    Thank you for sharing your story & your music with us Kevin.

  • @Thatsbannanas-d8c
    @Thatsbannanas-d8c 5 місяців тому +1

    Hello. I’m sorry. Thank you for sharing, that was a difficult life.
    Very, difficult !!!! You ok, ?

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor 2 місяці тому +1

      I'm doing well. I've been Vlog about my experiences in recovery on my own channel

    • @Thatsbannanas-d8c
      @Thatsbannanas-d8c 2 місяці тому

      @@kevgmor I always think of this as everyone lived one life and I lived two

  • @bigd4115
    @bigd4115 Рік тому +1

    Great story thanks for sharing

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      Thanks for listening

  • @llllllllllllll8576
    @llllllllllllll8576 5 місяців тому +1

    I want to thank you. As sincerely as I can in a youtube comment section. I dont know you. I wish i did. I have a feeling we would be friends. Your story resonates with me. The world is very chaotic and quick. It takes every ounce of energy just to put my pants on straight let alone navigate my way though the crazy day. Im so tired. Every day is a struggle. Im 46, and it feels like I havent even lived. All im doing is surviving. It weighs on you after awhile. Having no hope is a very dark place to be. Every night I hope I dont wake up and every morning I brace for one more day. Welp, I guess Ill do another day. And I dont know where Im going. I dont have a family. I dont have any friends. I dont have a job. I dont have a purpose. Yet I am grateful, it could be worse. There are many people in worse situations. But If i dont get my act together, pretty soon im going to be in that place. Im just so tired. Thank you Kev. Youve been around the block a few times more than i have and youre still kicking. Thank you. That song at the end touched me. Thank you.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor 5 місяців тому

      Thank you SO much for this comment. I really appreciate your sharing where you're at, right now; it's a journey. I do a Vlog on MY channel that might be of interest of you. It talks about seeking a life after reaching some stability, and many other random things as I go about recovery. ~kev

  • @tulinbeyduz920
    @tulinbeyduz920 4 місяці тому +2

    what about ibogaine therapy ? or microdosing mushrooms to reconnect new neural pathways

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor 2 місяці тому +1

      I have tried microdosing shrooms; it was interesting and somewhat helpful. Thank you

  • @debraholz9756
    @debraholz9756 Рік тому +1

    Beautiful song 💕 I can do relate.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      Thank you so much

  • @kylekeen3497
    @kylekeen3497 Рік тому +1

    Prayers sent 🙏

  • @RenaeLu-bd8rs
    @RenaeLu-bd8rs Рік тому +1

    Yeah I feel you re homeless. It's the basic human need: SHELTER. I'm homeless now and it is the worst feeling ever. I'm making plans now. Just can't take it anymore.

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      I'm sorry about your current homelessness; it's so hard I know

  • @MandyStanley-t1o
    @MandyStanley-t1o Рік тому +2

    your a soldier wow i needed this😂😂😂😂

  • @nancygee3137
    @nancygee3137 Рік тому +3

    I am so sorry you suffer/

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor Рік тому

      Thank you, Nancy

  • @thenativist6330
    @thenativist6330 Рік тому +1

    Are you guys going to post soon?

  • @BEACHDUDE71
    @BEACHDUDE71 9 місяців тому +1

    I have a plan if my life doesn't get better in 3 years

    • @cristianm7097
      @cristianm7097 2 місяці тому +1

      I have no plan, I will just let starvation kill me.

  • @konradkowalczewski4406
    @konradkowalczewski4406 19 днів тому

    I cant commit

  • @pattybaselines
    @pattybaselines 2 місяці тому +1

    Life is just so damn difficult ❤️‍🩹

    • @kevgmor
      @kevgmor 2 місяці тому

      I agree with you, today.