Smoking Crack & The Insanity That Comes With it
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- Опубліковано 26 вер 2024
- This video shares my experience of smoking crack and living on the streets of New York City. I discuss the physical sensation of smoking crack and provide a brief overview of the challenges I've encountered while being homeless. Addiction is a serious issue, and I want to emphasize that I'm not trying to diminish its gravity. I apologize for the somewhat cheesy intro; I'm actively striving to make my videos more engaging and enjoyable for viewers.
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Say NO...the drug of destruction!
And familys , it destroys the family . Cause u can't have a crack addicted in ur home. My son turned into a monster when he needed money for it. He's been doing it for 20 years on and of amoungest other drugs
@@carolevans5285 true for most I would imagine, I wish your son and your family better day's.
I know the feeling. Used to smoke all my crack and run my hands through every inch of my carpet looking for pieces I might have dropped.
It’s sad man, I used to drive myself insane doing the same thing.
Used to do the same but the only two drugs I refused to ever try during my using days was NO PCP NO CRACK. But everything else was fine. So yeah I used to carpet surf after smoking all my crystal. One time I remembered hiding a shard in my shoe during a smoke sesh with a fellow tweaker cuz I wanted to save some for later without him knowing so I stuck it in the back of my pair of vans I had on. Being so spun out not realizing it would dissolve from my sweaty socks n feet. But once I ran out and was fiending at like 3am with an empty crank bowl. I kid you not. I spent the next 12 hours ripping apart my shoes and tearing apart the soles piece by piece trying to find the shard I hid. once they looked like a pack of pitbulls had torn apart my shoes and still not finding it, I spent the rest of the time carpet surfing for it, thinking it must have just fallen into my carpet fibres after ripping my shoes apart.
Attempted to vaporize many a crumbs of chips or bread thinking it was crank til it burnt instead of vaporizing into liquid in the bowl. id empty it out n try another piece of bread crumb or whatever the hell i had collected thinking it was crank because after being up for days tweaking, my eyes would get incredibly red bloodshot as HELL with massive black dilated pupils. id basically hallucinate thinking every small white or clear piece of something was actually a shard of crystal. And mind you I hated using meth. My DOC was heroin n all opioids/opiates but the mental addiction and drive for strong stims is bat shit insane.
Never had I been so ashamed out of all the drugs I abused than I did with Meth.
Sorry for long post.
By the end of the binge id literally have so much hair gone from my head and eyebrows becuz I'd physically pull out my hair and eyebrow hair when tweaking especially if I got stressed @@AddictIQ
Been there many times. In fact I found myself doing it again the other night. 😢
@@yankees29Jesus
you spoke very well -- very expressive -- great job getting sober - try to forget the past --- the new you is Awesome
Just had this video come up in my recommended. Nice video
I'd like to have all the money back that I spent on crack and cocaine. I'd be a rich man! I've made a lot of money in my life, and I'd say I probably spent over 200 grand on drugs. I do not miss that lifestyle in the least bit! I'm very relieved that it's over, and extremely lucky to be alive. I'll tell you this though, believe it or not, for the 20+ years that I did it, I never one time spent a night in jail, never give my parents a rough time over it, never stole anything to get it, but I spent many times lying in my bed, begging God to take away the pain. Don't do drugs kid's! You may not be as lucky as I am.
I personally used to like crack, thing is, it started making me paranoid so what’s the fun in that.
I’ve been struggling with crack on and off for about 5 years now. I’m able to maintain my job, though living check to check is not fun. My last relapse a few days ago sent me into a terrible depression. I’m only starting to slowly come out of it. I’m very 50/50 about quitting completely. The thought of never using again is honestly scary to me.
It's so scary thinking we can never get high again. Not at all a guru over here obviously, if you don't look at it like it's going to be forever, it can help. If you just make the commitment to not get high for today - it will go a long way. Please stay safe my man and thanks for your vulnerability. People from all walks of life are welcome here, always 🙂
@@AddictIQ Thanks for your supportive words. I live in NYC, so crack is very easy to obtain.
Yup at NA (Narcotic anonymous) they say "just for today" because for most of addicts (including me) thinking of never using again is putting the bar too high. Eventually a lot of people after staying clean from years, it gets better the cravings, you might still want to get high here and then but it won’t be as intense and as often and the more you stay sober the better it gets. Remember, everyday you wake up sober you’re no longer a victim of addiction but rather a survivor and that’s enough for the day. Step by step, day by day, hours by hours, minutes by minutes even seconds by seconds. Also don’t forget recovery isn’t just staying sober but also improving yourself and changing your old ways that came with addiction. God bless I hope things get better ❤️🩹
yeah you’re right, the naivety we have (when younger) in neighbourhoods we’ve got no business makes you shudder.
I was never really naive. I’ve walked around some really dangerous neighborhoods at 4am and I never had a problem. I’m white but I’m also 6’2” and I grew up in the hood. Spent many nights wandering around Hempstead on Terrace Ave and East New York Brooklyn. Glad I’m still alive.
Craving drugs makes you fearless! And shameless, too.
Crack is misery.
I’m an ex junkie I can listen to stories about heroin but crack I get goosebumps imagining inhaling that smoke then blowing it out sends a shiver down my spine!
😉That fucking blast man... 💥🥴🫠🥺😶🌫️🤦🏽♂️I still have flashbacks from my binges 2016-18 or so era.. 😏🙏🏽😇🤞🏽
@@gnosferatu667😩😩
A few seconds of euphoria followed by hours of hyper-anxiety, paranoia, and sadness.
@@Chris-kd4tuyes but that’s why it goes well with heroin afterwards
Same here I think of all those bell ringers and I literally get chills.
I even tried to smoke my child's teeth that I had saved! Am so grateful I am done
I've never heard of that before thats, wow, zero judgement - I'm just blown away. It's one hell of a drug - im glad you're done too ❤
This is a good lesson. The truth spoken. How shit you end up around crappy people when you like drugs.
I do enjoy the high but the come down is horrible! I have to drink tequila with salt and lemon and then try to sleep but it takes a while. The high is intense, I do like it, the come down is rough. I also smoke it all alone unless they are also alone and into getting your freak on.
That's interesting I heard people say there was no physical feelings coming off Crack, that it was mentally hard . I believe you , thank God I never smoked it ❤
😆 Bro stop that shit! It's not good for you.
That feeling when you carpet surf & pick something up put it on the pipe then burn it only for it to turn black 😢
Once in a while it doesn’t turn black and it is actually rock though.😂
This comment made me crack up NGL 😅
I hope you're still sober and doing well my man 😄
The taste of a mistaken peace is so disappointing
@@tomtroy3792 😂😂
more videos! This guys stories are so realistic!!!!
lol bc it actually happened…but thanks man 🤣
One blaze we all had there was a dozen of us round a mates house I was around 25 and I’d bought the most! I bought two 50 stones and by the end of the night I was so spun and tweeking off my nut my mate Ben who’s dead now was desperate for another hit and I had some left in my sock and I threw it at him and said smoke up and I left in the morning at around 5am and I had work at 6, put it this way I never made it to work I was so anxious off my head rocking under a cover on my sofa thinking shit man this is the end! I continued to smoke crack on and off until I was around 40!
Moral of the story do not smoke crack/meth it will ruin you!
What happened to Ben?
The good ol ear ringer..lol
I've smoked crack for 24 years. The very first time I smoked it back in 2000 I was so nieve. Id never seen heroin or crack. I had heard about it in a school lesson from a police officer who said if you ever take mushrooms or acid u could jump off a building thinking u can fly or try peeling yourself because you think you are a orange. To me you could only get crack in America. I gave my step cousin who I had recently met and my stepdad had told me to stay away from him a lift to Nottingham Saint Ann's to meet a friend apparently. On the way there he brought a can of coke and just poured it out the window and started making small hole at one end then flicking cigarette ash over the holes. He left the car for 5 minutes and returned with a yellowish white stone. Broke it in half placed it on top of the ash and told me to suck on the the opening of the can while he put a lighter on the crack. Oh my god. I will never ever forget that taste
As kids we're not dumb too - I remember watching those same videos in school "jimmy decided it would be 'cool' to smoke marijuana resulting in him shooting both his parents." ---> just something stupid like that you know? I remember those days and not believing a single word of it but instead only becoming more curious about these substances. Being curious can be a good thing but in my case (our) it ended up being a terrible decision. I definitely wont ever forget the first bellringer - thx for taking the time to share man, always welcome here ✊
love bro!
I've never indulged thank god but i know that feeling.Not my kind of high, I'm a mellow fellow, a couple of Js some music Bob's your uncle.I feel so sorry for anyone in addiction a living hell 27×7.✌️
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Nice video.
Your videos are really good! Are you still struggling with drugs now or clean?
Hey, thanks man! Consider this channel a video diary of sorts. I'm learning how to video edit and I'm passionate about addiction & so I make videos about my experience. To keep it real with you, I messed up about a month ago. My latest video explains everything 😅 I really do appreciate the love and support 🫂
@@AddictIQ Thanks for taking the time to write a response! You are very inspiring and as an addict myself I am also struggling to stay clean. Count on me to watch your videos, you really have a quality I can't describe that just tells me you are a good person and I am rooting for you!
Love your videos man, deserves more likes/views.
I appreciate that my man 🙂 I messed up pretty bad recently and am about to post a new one about that. Some ppl might think its dumb for me to be sharing such personal experiences but it legit helps me and hopefully others. Plus, I've got nothing to lose at this point. Much love for the support ☮
@@AddictIQ Hey man, it’s very humble of you to admit that, let alone share it with stranger I.m.o… You seem like somebody who has a good heart and really cares (even from just watching your videos). Do NOT give up the fight bro!!! I just found your videos the other day and honestly can say I think they are RIGHT on point as far as the bare and ugly truth of what the lifestyle looks like. As well as your experiences in the feelings of these substances. I couldn’t describe it better myself (warm honey over the brain and body) for the first time shooting heroin video, I call that a poetic description. The crack discription of the ringer was bang on too (VERY real). I hope people learn the seriousness of these addictions and why NEVER to dabble with these drugs based on videos like yours. I’ve been sober a while myself and I had to do it through God. I hope and pray for the experience of Gods love for anyone that seeks it, he’s the only being that has never let me down! Lol, anyway, cheers bro, I wish you well on this journey, I know it all too well myself... Anyway, my bad on the novel, haha! Keep on making this videos, you certainly got my interest!
@@AddictIQ One last thing… We say we have ‘nothing to lose’ but those are bold words my friend (I’m guilty of saying it to but I don’t think we realize how much we don’t actually mean that)… Just my opinion, for what it’s worth.
@@serious-cyrusnoelan8127 It's true there is always more to lose, no matter how bad things get we can always go lower & lower. Gods been a huge part of my life since getting sober though I've not been able to find any churches that I connect with since moving. I always appreciate people commenting so no need for the apology, it helps to keep me on track and I genuinely enjoy getting to be an outlet for people. Due to the subject matter of this channel I know it's not ever going to get monetized & so thats not the motive and hasn't been from the start. I'm glad you were able to turn your life around because only a small percentage of us get that chance, especially these days with whats going in all the substances. 🫂
@@AddictIQ Thank you for the kind words! Yes, finding a good church is tough and sadly getting more rare these days. I myself was very fortunate in that sense but we are a very small one here in Ontario, Canada. I hope and pray you can find a good one. A good community of believers can really make a difference as it sounds like you are well aware. If I may be so bold to ask, have you been able to maintain sobriety? Don’t have to answer than man. I won’t judge either way, how could I? I’m only a couple years in myself, such a long process… I was on a cocktail of benzodiazepines, morphine, Lyrica, and a few others as of about 2 years ago. After getting off the street drugs I had to get off all that and it was as bad as or worse for me personally. The post acute was absolutely BRUTAL. Sometimes I still feel it on ‘bad days’. Did you experience this? Maybe you could do a video on PAWS, just a suggestion. Take care bro.
Felt like cheap yay. Been in some weird situations though with it. Felt like the Michael Douglas movie the game? I still don’t get how people can get stuck on it. I’ve cooked cracked and been around it. Still doesn’t seem like sh1t to me.
Consider it a blessing
yeah the first hit is like loosing your virginity ,, after that man game over waste of time AND MONEY
You never smoked enough of it to get that feeling? No compredai
I smoke coke sprinkled on weed once, it hit me so hard i throw up as soon as i inhaled. Never again. Plus, i didnt get anything out of it? No high, just puked my stomachs out. So it wasn’t all that.
i would feel the same way. except the ringing of ears. mine always just went distorted for a sec...fuckin crack
...was clean 6 years relapsed 3 months ago been depleting my savings...today is day 4 of starting clean all over
Can't believe I didn't see this sooner - It's so evil man, you get into that habit of looking at the floor all the time. I know you wrote this 2 months ago but I'm hoping you're still on the straight and narrow. You can do this ✊
@@AddictIQ day 49 man!!!!
@@AddictIQ thank u
@@gmove420 so proud of you man! You got more time than I do, I messed up recently but got back on my feet. Good job man 👏
I don't have a problem with crack it's easy for me, I have a problem with opiods
My problem too. Im on subs, but still love some roxys😊
I see this with drug addicted families, it's either uppers or downers. Maybe it's genetic.
Great story
Crack is a waste of powder...
No I didn't pick up pretzel salt on 8th Ave...but I know about 8th Ave & 40 Duse...
I always puked after the first hit.then it was always off to the races after that.
you dont need the edited videos mate. keep it simple
id walk everwhere me or my dealer had walked and look for crack...but never smoked it...always tryed to melt it first to see if it was....fucking devil of a drug
this is sick
Lmaoooo
Ive had problems with cocaine/crack so i would keep usage to once a month or so.
You’re the first person I’ve ever heard from that can use crack recreationally…please be safe ❤️
@@AddictIQ Stay busy and pursue your passions is more fulfilling.
How??? Lucky you. Once i get started it's game over 😒.
@@Oldschoolways168 I also cannot hang with anybody who uses it too triggering. Yeah once started i can't stop until i have none left lol .
Good Video
Yeah the shoe robbery, was it basketball players 🤔
i think you guys just over reacted about it , the human minds could reach over any thing , control every thing you ever face if you got it straight , knowing what you doing knowing how it gonna get to you , strong mind is unbreakable
A strong mind is not doing drugs in the first place. Once you start you know your mind already has weakness, and will only get weaker and weaker.
Sadly drugs changes the brain structure.
It is sad but there is always a way out and recovery is an option if someone wants it bad enough.
How long have you been sober?
How long have you been clean?
So, I've not touched fentanyl in over a year since the march before this last one. I drank in december - so, I'm nearing 5 months...I know its not much and thats why I try to focus on just sharing my experiences with people instead of giving "advice."
@@lexremillard2549 I get it, being clean and living sober are 2 different things.
Not much! I remember when I couldn’t get clean no matter what. Being clean is amazing. I hope you have a good program. Recovery works. The key is as time goes on to help others when it’s inconvenient and to continue to remain honest and grow. Keep going.
@@AddictIQ that is also true. In the beginning when I was abstinent I was sicker than ever. Once I got a program of accountability and started taking direction from others who had changed I could changes before that it was impossible. Anything you need reach out. There are plenty of us who have done this for a while and we too need to stay in the game.
Just stick too LSD
Or you can smoke some crack on LSD... jk
damn bro you got a nice ringer haha