The Day You Killed Yourself - xóijra [EXTENDED]

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  • @l2EVENGER
    @l2EVENGER  Рік тому +32

    Slowed + reverbed version is out now!!
    Click here to listen:
    ua-cam.com/video/tAd1qWzmc8c/v-deo.html
    I'd also appreciate if I didn't have to read only depression comments lol.

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 4 місяці тому +2

      Whatever you’re going through know that God sees, hears and understands you. Jesus suffered in all aspects we suffered yet He was sinless, giving His life as a ransom for our salvation. He died and rose again on the third day that we may be forgiven our sins and have eternal life through Himself and that we may have relationship with God again! Jesus loves you He can save you from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc. You matter

    • @l2EVENGER
      @l2EVENGER  4 місяці тому

      @@JesusChristislord372 I ain't depressed lol, but amen

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 4 місяці тому

      @@l2EVENGER Oh okay and Amen

    • @AxelFlo7
      @AxelFlo7 3 місяці тому +1

      @@JesusChristislord372 Amen. Jesus is King!!

  • @BurningSorrows
    @BurningSorrows Рік тому +251

    Found this song while scrolling through UA-cam and it was pretty dark, I thought I was gonna witness a video of someone taking their life. But realizing I’m in relief that it was just a banger ass track. My condolences to other people who lost their family member, or friends or loved one. Gone .. but not forgotten.

    • @l2EVENGER
      @l2EVENGER  Рік тому +27

      Indeed. But remember, someone can't really take their own life on youtube, that would immediately be taken down lol.

    • @alexkerschbaumer1082
      @alexkerschbaumer1082 Рік тому +2

      @@l2EVENGERon UA-cam there are tracks about taking the own life and a video where someone kill’s himself but as a music video

    • @henrygarcia1203
      @henrygarcia1203 Рік тому +3

      Same. I was so surprised by how UA-cam recommended this to be, but I'm glad it did nonetheless.

    • @TheLoserULuvToHate
      @TheLoserULuvToHate 6 місяців тому +1

      @@l2EVENGERbecause god forbid someone brings and actual issue people suffer from to light. it’s a serious issue and everyone tries to preach about it until someone actual shows a video of someone “killing themself” even for an act that isnt real

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 4 місяці тому

      Whatever you’re going through know that God sees, hears and understands you. Jesus suffered in all aspects we suffered yet He was sinless, giving His life as a ransom for our salvation. He died and rose again on the third day that we may be forgiven our sins and have eternal life through Himself and that we may have relationship with God again! Jesus loves you He can save you from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc. You matter

  • @jacoblvszeke6936
    @jacoblvszeke6936 Рік тому +293

    Lyrics
    I remember the look on your face
    I could see the happiness just erase
    It should have just been my soul to take
    I just can’t let us both die in vain
    How could you leave me here all alone
    How could you leave me here all alone

    • @l2EVENGER
      @l2EVENGER  Рік тому +18

      Holy shit it's Sora 😱

  • @DanielRa-hv2mk
    @DanielRa-hv2mk Рік тому +64

    I don't usually leave comments, but this song and chords are like a balm to the soul when you don't want to stress and be left alone, glad I don't have a date, or someone to feel that sadness for something that doesn't exist.

  • @MrDatsherm
    @MrDatsherm Рік тому +357

    I'm somebody who accidentally shot themselves in the face while looking into the mirror and I reckon this song goes pretty hard and that's brought back some hellacious flashbacks but also a reassuring feeling of faith and what Faith can do

    • @MrDatsherm
      @MrDatsherm Рік тому +61

      Thank you God for giving me life when I was playing around about taking my own thank you God

    • @OblivionImperialGuard
      @OblivionImperialGuard Рік тому +19

      Hallelujah. I pray you're still doing well bro, I can relate to being so low that I wanted to take my own life, but was stopped by the Lord

    • @divyanshw4208
      @divyanshw4208 Рік тому +9

      Thank God you're safe man.

    • @dodoservicesxbox3608
      @dodoservicesxbox3608 Рік тому +7

      this never happened. what is the point in even lying in youtube comment sections???

    • @djvic4u
      @djvic4u Рік тому +31

      @@dodoservicesxbox3608 be mad somewhere else man, no one needs your negativity

  • @amanimcnaught9801
    @amanimcnaught9801 Рік тому +68

    I need the end part looped as a song to cure my pain I’ve been holding back for all these years…

  • @mikky8781
    @mikky8781 Рік тому +120

    Listening to this feels like im back in the ambulance crying for another failed attempt

    • @JonclashHq
      @JonclashHq 9 місяців тому +11

      I just wanna hug you man

    • @Guap303
      @Guap303 8 місяців тому +11

      Try again. It's not too late

    • @Noahwalter-bs4ts
      @Noahwalter-bs4ts 7 місяців тому +1

      DAMM-

    • @xtc_vapor
      @xtc_vapor 7 місяців тому +2

      3rd time's the charm

    • @Rockmiser172
      @Rockmiser172 5 місяців тому +2

      You’ll make it.

  • @Lukiticas
    @Lukiticas Рік тому +43

    Im through so much, I can't form words without crying, who i am and was already died and what remain is rotting inside my body. Im so tired of not feeling, im so tired of being tired all the times

    • @anticarnate730
      @anticarnate730 Рік тому +5

      Keep yourself busy don't be lazy and when someone scolds at work on what to do don't think they hate you they're just trying to help you with work so no problems or go to college either those two nothing else if you have a job you can escape anytime with money somewhere calming.

    • @y0y0master
      @y0y0master 11 місяців тому +4

      i feel this 100%. i really hope shit gets better.

    • @Tackleberry_2607
      @Tackleberry_2607 10 місяців тому +3

      🫂

    • @Tackleberry_2607
      @Tackleberry_2607 8 місяців тому

      How is it going?

  • @inquisitorialllama638
    @inquisitorialllama638 Рік тому +104

    Thank you for this, needed a longer version for my work out and alcohol binge routines

    • @l2EVENGER
      @l2EVENGER  Рік тому +41

      Do you.... need help? An alcohol binge isn't normal.

    • @Nez74
      @Nez74 Рік тому +13

      Bad combination bro.

    • @inquisitorialllama638
      @inquisitorialllama638 Рік тому +20

      @@l2EVENGER Not at same time obviously. Different days.

    • @l2EVENGER
      @l2EVENGER  Рік тому +27

      @@inquisitorialllama638 Still ain't healthy. As long as you're not killing yourself with it, I'll be fine lol.

    • @nicoledemerville5111
      @nicoledemerville5111 Рік тому

      Just put it on a 1 hour loop.

  • @rubymaeserote3668
    @rubymaeserote3668 Рік тому +50

    To those who found this masterpiece.. We.are very rarely and we have the purest heart in the world.

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 4 місяці тому

      Whatever you’re going through know that God sees, hears and understands you. Jesus suffered in all aspects we suffered yet He was sinless, giving His life as a ransom for our salvation. He died and rose again on the third day that we may be forgiven our sins and have eternal life through Himself and that we may have relationship with God again! Jesus loves you He can save you from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc. You matter

    • @Theshotgooner
      @Theshotgooner 2 місяці тому

      Womp womp.

    • @robertsubiate6579
      @robertsubiate6579 2 місяці тому

      no sir dude

  • @priestsratfriend809
    @priestsratfriend809 Рік тому +59

    I made myself believe i was capable of being loved. She reassured me.

    • @whosnext.
      @whosnext. Рік тому +5

      happy that u found her.

    • @jessicahoward-zn9yo
      @jessicahoward-zn9yo Рік тому +1

      Dw better days to come and a beautiful face to love equally

    • @harrytorpedos4555
      @harrytorpedos4555 10 місяців тому +1

      What does her smiles mean ? Why she keeps smiling at me in that way? It kills me everytime from the inside. it would be better to not see her ever again and hope that time will heal

    • @priestsratfriend809
      @priestsratfriend809 10 місяців тому

      @@harrytorpedos4555 You're right. Time will heal, but during that time you can get many new scars or get your wounds opened up ( not litereally ). Time will heal you in it's own time. If you know what i mean. Only you, god and time can heal you. Stay strong.

    • @GayleSennett
      @GayleSennett 8 місяців тому

      She does. You gave up too soon.

  • @heaze_
    @heaze_ Рік тому +81

    was waiting for someone to make this

    • @Garcia-77
      @Garcia-77 Рік тому +2

      🌌💫-💌

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 3 місяці тому

      Whatever you’re going through know that God sees, hears and understands you. Jesus suffered in all aspects we suffered yet He was sinless, giving His life as a ransom for our salvation. He died and rose again on the third day that we may be forgiven our sins and have eternal life through Himself and that we may have relationship with God again! Jesus loves you He can save you from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc.

  • @gentlemanwolfpig7374
    @gentlemanwolfpig7374 Рік тому +30

    Ty. Ive lost a few friends. They were my light. As much as i want i must continue to be the light they left me with. So much pain...but i must withstand for them

  • @diegocastrovera643
    @diegocastrovera643 Рік тому +92

    The most depressing thing is that i don't think this song is depressing

  • @gohard_nevergo_homebigmone1167
    @gohard_nevergo_homebigmone1167 Рік тому +22

    Dark, Deepy, Gory.. Masterpiece

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 3 місяці тому

      Whatever you’re going through know that God sees, hears and understands you. Jesus suffered in all aspects we suffered yet He was sinless, giving His life as a ransom for our salvation. He died and rose again on the third day that we may be forgiven our sins and have eternal life through Himself and that we may have relationship with God again! Jesus loves you He can save you from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc.

  • @4kklel
    @4kklel Рік тому +21

    I always go back to this song when im depressed asf (which is everyday)

  • @bethany8695
    @bethany8695 Рік тому +24

    this song is gonna help me through this year

  • @zandertheblazer7510
    @zandertheblazer7510 Рік тому +35

    I know that you're just scrolling through the comments to find some sad story to cry to, so I'll try to make a sad true story for you. I was in my Junior year of high school, and I was having trouble trying to send messages to my buddies online, since the school blocked the wifi; and my data was terrible. As I'm telling this to my buddies during lunch, this sweet girl with black hair and a very distinguishable face was walking past me and cuts in the conversation. She says "if you get a VPN you can use the school wifi." A few words and sentences were exchanged. In short, there was a free VPN app that you can use to set yourself in a different region of the world. So I tell her thanks for that. She asks for my Snapchat, but I can't remember how or why she asked for it. Later that day in school, we were messaging each other constantly, we clicked instantly. To make the story shorter, I asked her if she wanted to be in a relationship with me. She accepted it with glee. That was probably the best year I've ever had, but the worst breakup ever. She didn't commit suicide or anything, but after a few months of no communication with each other, I decide to message her again and see how she's doing. She told me later in the conversation that she was depressed. After a few minutes I couldn't hold in my tears. A feeling like knowing the person you still care about is hurt and you can't help them, is probably the worst feeling ever. I keep thinking about her committing suicide and it fucks with my head. I want to be in a relationship with her, but I know that we both need to work on each other. I just hope that she gets the best help possible. I love you, whoever is reading this, I hope you never go through what I'm going through or worse. Take care.

    • @jessicahoward-zn9yo
      @jessicahoward-zn9yo Рік тому +5

      U only live once get together again and help each other becoming happier and stronger

    • @l2EVENGER
      @l2EVENGER  Рік тому +4

      I wish you two the best of luck. I'm sorry for both of you going through these tough times. Hopefully, things for you two get better and she gets the help she needs. :)

    • @PepTheDestroyer
      @PepTheDestroyer Рік тому +3

      I actually had some kind of fucked up situation like that so i'd love to share it with you bro, i think you could understand me well.
      So last year I met this girl on discord, her name is sara and she was in a server with a lot of my friends and people from my school, we started talking in that server, then got more close, started talking in school, sending messages through instagram; since nobody uses snapchat in my country tbh, and even playing almost everyday and making calls for hours, all of this happened between mid of june and last days of august, she was the first and only girl that made me feel safe, she was so beautiful and caring, she was made for me and I was made for her, so i made a choice and told her how i felt partially knowing it would end up bad but i still went for it, we talked about and at the end she said "i'm not sure about my feelings toward you right now, but thanks for being so sweet with me, you're amazing" i had so many mixed feelings in that moment, she kind of rejected me but at the same time gave me a chance to make her like me as i liked her, some time had passed and it's finales of september, i've started to know her a lot more and she told me about how sad her life was, how lonely she was, how bad she always felt, in september she attempted to k1II herself, i was just devastated, as soon as she texted me and told me what she wanted to do tears just started falling down my face, it was awful, but i thought it was a sign and i thought i had to "make her happy again" i was so commited to it but i felt completely irrelevant to her, we didn't talk as much as before and now she just wouldn't talk to me in person, she barely did in chat, but whatever, a few months passed and it's november, i was going through so much things so i wanted to attempt the same thing as her but it just wouldn't solve anything, i messaged her hours ago saying goodbye and telling her i loved her, ik it's so stupid to do that because i barely knew her at that moment taking to comparisson how much i do actually, but it was a so genuine feeling that i had to express and maybe i would make her feel loved once, when i saw she texted back she said the same, she said she also loved me and i just couldn't believe it, again a lot of emotions mixed, we stopped talking for a bit until december, idk what happened but we were so much closer, she was the first person that i loved and the first person to hear that words from me, i wanted to show how i loved her so i started making poetry for her, actually i've made more than 15 poems, i loved to show them to her because she was so amazed and i think she enjoyed reading them, that was until she suddenly just talked about the guy she liked, i was just sad, yk? all the the things she said to me and all the signs, all the effort from me, i decided to stop talking to her for months, she was almost in a relationship with that other dude but she had a girlfriend at the moment and sara was a reason they had many problems actually but i don't wanna go in much detail, i met another girl and thought i liked her and got to confess but the spark wasn't there with her, only with sara so i stopped to talk with that other girl and recovered my friendship with sara like on march or april of this year, on may we were best friends kinda as before, but like 9th of that month she kissed someone else, one of her friends, bro i just wanted to kms at that moment, she was being the nicest and sweetest girl ever but then she did that? god, it was horrible everyone confirmed it but sara, so i chose to blindly believe in her and some weeks later we were saying cute things to each other but they weren't things like "hey you're cute" it was more of "i fucking love you my dum girl, i'd love to spend hours hugging you, you're the best person i ever met" so at exactly 2:24a.m we became a couple, i proposed to her with the song named "i wanna be your boyfriend" and well there we were, as boyfriend and girlfriend, i was with the girl of my dreams bro, at first we had some problems because she was afraid she'd get hurt like in her past relationship, but i convinced her after some days of trying, a month passed and she was doubting about us she said it was because of the girl i met before, i still talked with her and that made her insecure so i stopped talking to that girl, she was really annoying tbh but why didn't she do the same?? she also almost got with 2 another guys, my best friends at the moment but she kept talkign to them and even negating what happened with them, i was so frutrated but well, still wanted to be with her, we kind of solved everything until i discovered one of my best friends i mentioned before, made a wallpaper with photos of sara, i was so mad i got into a physical fight with him, let's call him x because i really hate his name, he liked my girlfriend since like 2022 and idk i thought he was over it but whatever, on august sara's mental health situation got worse, he took a lot of pills and got herself on a psychiatric for a long time, i honestly was considering to end our relationship due to lots of problems and insecurities i had about her, so i met someone else and we got along really good, she was so mature and just a good person, so while sara was there and not answering for more than a month i almost got with that other girl, but chose to wait and see if what i felt was true and not as it happened to me before, but it was like that, i sitll loved sara, still liked her, still was in love with her and nothing could change that, oh and i also didn't know where she was until she answered my messages, i honestly thought she wouldn't return, when she responded we talked about everything and i believed we solved it, we had the best months of our lifes until some day of october, i wanted to talk to her about something that bothered me a lot but she got offended or something and twisted things so she could victimize herself, she was saying a lot of things to me that she had been keeping to her, she told me she hated me, i was destroyed that night, couldn't even sleep 1 minute and had to go to school, the next days we were trying to solve it and thought we finally made it, after everything we were completely ok and went to a halloween party the 27th, we were just as before, so joyfull and happy, on one moment she started drinking but we talked about it and agreed to never do that, i got mad and walked away, then she started talking to someone else, and i don't wanna go in details because that was the worst day of my life and, well, yes. she broke up with me that night but at the same time cheated on me with so many dudes, i left the party and she got drunk, the next days i just couldn't handle it but i promised to her that if something happened i would do the best to not do anything wrong like in november but idk, she was the best at first even though all the wrong things she did and said, i chose to ignore them because of my stupid and childish wish to be with her and make her happy forever, i made myeslf miserable and depressed so i could make her feel loved but i don't regret anything, this has made be a better person and i learnt that i'm my most important priority, not her, not anyone else, but me and only me, i also hope she becomes a better person because damn, she hurt me so much and that's it.
      value yourself and be your #1 priority, also if you like someone get to know that person completely, it will save you from a lot of pain, learn how to stablish limits and always comunicate even if you think that what bothers you is irrelevant, always talk about that things, hope you can be happy.

    • @Frank-il3kt
      @Frank-il3kt 11 місяців тому +1

      It’s young love my guy. As you get older you know how to handle it better.
      Love is very powerful with many deep layers.
      A couple of messages doesn’t really reveal much about who a person is, but us guys like to fill in the gaps. Remember to be patient and the right one will find you or vice versa.

    • @Illnessss
      @Illnessss 9 місяців тому

      You are still young there is a lot more to discover maybe your father didnt give you the love you deserve

  • @jar0f_jelly
    @jar0f_jelly Рік тому +12

    an extended version has finally happened \o/ now i can zone out for hours on end like i did with the original

  • @oscarin8181
    @oscarin8181 11 місяців тому +4

    needed this.....last year i lost 3 friends went to their funerals and it sucks....life can vanish in a instant...ever since my car accident i wasent the same and ppl around me. then during my recovery....i lost my friends and I'm sucks the last time i spoke to them ill let them know when we can hang out....maybe one day after my time reaches ill spark a blunt and open a cold one when i see them again

  • @darkaspen
    @darkaspen Рік тому +17

    This song peels into my very soul i swear and im prob going to leave this earth tonight i love this song have a good one 💜

    • @gabrieljaramillo3068
      @gabrieljaramillo3068 10 місяців тому

      please tell me you still there

    • @unknowngirl9095
      @unknowngirl9095 6 місяців тому

      o7
      Hopefully you found your way to keep living.
      But if not, I hope you finally got the peace you desperatly needed in the other side.

  • @gabrieljaramillo3068
    @gabrieljaramillo3068 10 місяців тому +20

    on month of april, last year, I decided I was going to kill myself. I remember spending hours crying to this while thinking about how i would end it all over and over again. It's a little scary knowing how fuzzy my mind was at that moment and knowing that dying wasn't an impossible possibility for me, it makes me want to throw up just thinking about it.
    A person who is experiencing suicidal thoughts does not fight the will to die, they fight the will to live.

    • @Scribboy
      @Scribboy 4 місяці тому +1

      U should remember there are some people that care for you. Ending it will hurt others as well.

    • @gabrieljaramillo3068
      @gabrieljaramillo3068 4 місяці тому +1

      @@Scribboy The people who could be hurt by my act is the second thought that ran through my mind the most, followed by ending it all. Although, hierarchically speaking, the thought that predominated even more than the previous two was the thought of wanting to continue living. Just like the people you might hurt, it's impossible to let go of how much we go through in our lives to get to now. You don't want to die, you just want the pain to stop once and for all. We cannot decide how to feel, but we can decide to allow that feeling to reproduce itself as a bubble within ourselves. In other words, depression or crying is inevitable, but letting it dominate our minds is completely our choice. Screw third parties who may get hurt, we must always prioritize our own peace, and if to achieve it you must undo your world as you know it, escape, erase everything... then that is not a selfish act, it is self-love.

    • @gabrieljaramillo3068
      @gabrieljaramillo3068 4 місяці тому +1

      In this shitty world no one will ever do anything for us but ourselves.

    • @Scribboy
      @Scribboy 4 місяці тому

      @@gabrieljaramillo3068 u sure?

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 3 місяці тому

      Whatever you’re going through know that God sees, hears and understands you. Jesus suffered in all aspects we suffered yet He was sinless, giving His life as a ransom for our salvation. He died and rose again on the third day that we may be forgiven our sins and have eternal life through Himself and that we may have relationship with God again! Jesus loves you He can save you from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc.

  • @chandlercompson9488
    @chandlercompson9488 Рік тому +57

    Time to kill the emotions with booze 🙃

    • @november8039
      @november8039 Рік тому +1

      watch out

    • @chandlercompson9488
      @chandlercompson9488 Рік тому

      @@november8039 thanks man

    • @JacielYool
      @JacielYool 11 місяців тому

      Take care of yourself

    • @chandlercompson9488
      @chandlercompson9488 11 місяців тому +1

      @@JacielYool it's gotten better with time. 1 year without my buddy

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 3 місяці тому

      Don't turn to something temporary and bad for your health like that but turn to Jesus for He is eternal and will bring life to you. Whatever you’re going through know that God sees, hears and understands you. Jesus suffered in all aspects we suffered yet He was sinless, giving His life as a ransom for our salvation. He died and rose again on the third day that we may be forgiven our sins and have eternal life through Himself and that we may have relationship with God again! Jesus loves you He can save you from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc.

  • @Aadaon
    @Aadaon Рік тому +7

    We never thought he could do it. We didn't know he was suffering. We thought he was just socially reserved. He jumped from the 3rd floor and roke his leg and lower spine. He's still alive, but his life ended that day.

    • @Illnessss
      @Illnessss 9 місяців тому

      Failed even when he tried to succeed once tell him I can feel your pain!

  • @itsatomiccc
    @itsatomiccc 7 місяців тому +4

    this song really comforts me. im not going through the best time right now and although i don’t plan to, the thought of suicide always being something i can turn to when things get really bad puts my mind at ease

    • @s3a_cr3atur3
      @s3a_cr3atur3 7 місяців тому

      🖤🖤🖤

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 7 місяців тому

      Suicide is not the right option for peace you will end up in eternal torment turn to Jesus He can give you true lasting peace that the world cannot offer.
      1 PETER 5:7
      Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.

    • @j0hnballs049
      @j0hnballs049 6 місяців тому

      ​@JesusChristislord372 this is one of the reasons hes the narcissist. And i wont say his name or you'll blast out of anger just like any idiot

  • @johhanwindsalor9478
    @johhanwindsalor9478 5 місяців тому +2

    While she didn't do herself in... she completely removed herself from my life... the pain, self doubt, and sense of worthlessness was overwhelming!!!
    I didn't think of unaliving myself, but I did leave a wake of destruction behind me; for an entire decade I ruined everyone and everything that allowed me access.
    Her words, as she told me she was not what I thought she was, and the smirk as she left... gave me the fuel to be *"SHIVA"* ... the destroyer of worlds.

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 4 місяці тому

      Turn to Jesus friend and He can give you true identify being a child of God. He loves you!

  • @unknowngirl9095
    @unknowngirl9095 6 місяців тому +3

    Since everyone adds their little stories of why they listening to this or what reminds them of, I guess I'll add my tidbit.
    This song reminds me of the days after my beloved cat died. I had picked her up as a stray when she was a month old, and she didn't even manage to live to two years old - losing her life when she was one year and six months old.
    The 17th of July is when she died - soon, it will be a year since she left.
    I cannot stop but to feel my subconcious go "it's a fucking cat, get over it" but I can't. She was my baby. She greeted me at home, slept with me, only liked getting picked up by me (with others she would be fussy) and stood on my shoulder until she coudn't anymore by how big she was.
    I remember having the thoughts of ending it all, just so I could see her again. Just so I could hold her in my arms once again. I still cry at the thought.
    Of course, I can't leave this plane - six months after, another kitten was searching a home. And he clicked with me - no one else who wanted to adopt him. I have him on my lap as I write this.
    I still cry about her. I am currently crying about her as I write this.
    The thoughts of ending it all, not only to see her again, but for the things that have been going on in my life have been strong, and pouring harder now that her death is coming up.
    But, I know I have to keep going. My cat loves me so, so much. I cannot bear to leave him willingly.
    So, I find the motivation to push, for him.❤

  • @Cursive_Lines
    @Cursive_Lines 8 місяців тому +2

    Thanks for the extended version, I needed it so much.

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 4 місяці тому

      Whatever you’re going through know that God sees, hears and understands you. Jesus suffered in all aspects we suffered yet He was sinless, giving His life as a ransom for our salvation. He died and rose again on the third day that we may be forgiven our sins and have eternal life through Himself and that we may have relationship with God again! Jesus loves you He can save you from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc. Your life matter

  • @HandsofApollo
    @HandsofApollo 2 місяці тому +1

    Hey everyone, I know you might be feeling kind of down but if you need someone to take it all out on, I can be your scapegoat. I'm pretty unintelligent, broke, unaccomplished, and I can't do anything right. I have been like this ever since I was a little kid so I am used to hurting and feeling disgusted with myself. If you want someone to take out your frustrations on, I can tell you everything about myself and give you someone to hurt so you don't hurt yourself. I don't want to think about any of you suffering like you are and I can shoulder it, even if it breaks me. I love all of you and I know there are a lot of energy vampires out there but I can be the antithesis of that for you. Love yourself and hate me so you don't have to hate yourself and hate your loved ones.

  • @HunterC-of8or
    @HunterC-of8or Рік тому +8

    thank you for making this:)

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 3 місяці тому

      Whatever you’re going through know that God sees, hears and understands you. Jesus suffered in all aspects we suffered yet He was sinless, giving His life as a ransom for our salvation. He died and rose again on the third day that we may be forgiven our sins and have eternal life through Himself and that we may have relationship with God again! Jesus loves you He can save you from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc through His Holy Spirit .

  • @TheMissileGuidanceSystem117
    @TheMissileGuidanceSystem117 Рік тому +3

    Song hits hard. Makes me look back. Times were tough but I got threw it. Thank you god.

  • @levantinedoomer2317
    @levantinedoomer2317 Рік тому +6

    My God, this song is a whole experience

  • @LucifersChild13
    @LucifersChild13 Рік тому +8

    This song feels like home

  • @tohudodi
    @tohudodi 4 місяці тому +2

    yall know its bad when the therapist/doctor even reacts in such a shock.

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 4 місяці тому +1

      Just know whatever you've done Jesus still loves you and offers forgiveness for your sins. He wants a relationship with you!
      You matter and you are loved by your creator. God can change your life only if you let Him. He offers eternal life, joy, peace and more

    • @Theshotgooner
      @Theshotgooner 2 місяці тому

      That's the biggest womp womp.

    • @MeatyMan_BS
      @MeatyMan_BS 25 днів тому

      my doctor whispered "oh god" after i told not even a half of how bad i feel, it is bad indeed

  • @raheemthegreat5166
    @raheemthegreat5166 Рік тому +10

    This is great bro thank you 🙏

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 3 місяці тому

      Whatever you’re going through know that God sees, hears and understands you. Jesus suffered in all aspects we suffered yet He was sinless, giving His life as a ransom for our salvation. He died and rose again on the third day that we may be forgiven our sins and have eternal life through Himself and that we may have relationship with God again! Jesus loves you He can save you from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc through His Holy Spirit .

  • @charlieday710
    @charlieday710 2 місяці тому +1

    My best friend took his own life september 24th 2018 he was 22. He was at my house the day before. I wish i couldve helped him. I miss you man

  • @michaelhobbs7177
    @michaelhobbs7177 Рік тому +4

    Needed this made, new sub for that

  • @duckingheck
    @duckingheck 3 місяці тому +1

    14 years pasted.,.. and i still miss her

  • @Negan_Smith01
    @Negan_Smith01 11 місяців тому +4

    I lost my grandpa 4 years ago. When I heard about his death from my mom, I just wanted to die. Sometimes to this day I still do. I miss him everyday and if I could go back in time for a day to hang out with him I would. I miss him everyday 😭

    • @Theshotgooner
      @Theshotgooner 2 місяці тому

      Womp womp.

    • @Negan_Smith01
      @Negan_Smith01 2 місяці тому

      ​​@@Theshotgooneryoure disgusting for what you just said. Also, I know where you live. Better lock your doors mf.

    • @Negan_Smith01
      @Negan_Smith01 2 місяці тому

      @@Theshotgooner should have never opened your mouth...

    • @Negan_Smith01
      @Negan_Smith01 2 місяці тому

      @@Theshotgooner yeah I know that dumba. Ss

    • @Negan_Smith01
      @Negan_Smith01 2 місяці тому

      @@Theshotgooner "oKaY sOrRy I gUesS" 🤓🤓🤓🤡

  • @pandajoins
    @pandajoins 8 місяців тому +4

    One of not many Songs I can let myself fall into.

  • @Canadianmann
    @Canadianmann 11 місяців тому +2

    i remember she left me for someone else who is worse than me. i remember our good memories. i never had 1 bad experience with her until that day. i don’t know what i did wrong. i keep getting talked about ever since that day. the news spread. now i just think of ending it all.

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 3 місяці тому

      I’m sorry to hear that but your life is not worth losing over other people Whatever you’re going through now know that God sees, hears and understands you. Jesus suffered in all aspects we suffered yet He was sinless, giving His life as a ransom for our salvation. He died and rose again on the third day that we may be forgiven our sins and have eternal life through Himself and that we may have relationship with God again! Jesus loves you He can save you from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc through His Holy Spirit .

  • @Kay-cf1jc
    @Kay-cf1jc Рік тому +6

    Thanks

  • @DROPSHIPCAPTAIN
    @DROPSHIPCAPTAIN 6 місяців тому +1

    Dude, don’t hang in there , DROPSHIP CAPTAIN is here to help uplift you by helping you remember that somebody care for you 😢

  • @spicysnacc9899
    @spicysnacc9899 8 місяців тому +5

    I just need someone who loves me. But hey, that's unrealistic

    • @Theshotgooner
      @Theshotgooner 2 місяці тому

      Boohoo let me play you a song on the smallest violin.

  • @Garcia-77
    @Garcia-77 Рік тому +3

    GOOSE FLESH 🌟(😭)🌌

  • @wolfgangmozart888
    @wolfgangmozart888 11 місяців тому +2

    How did you make this man? Did you use what software?

    • @l2EVENGER
      @l2EVENGER  11 місяців тому +1

      The loop? It's a bit complicated to explain but I also just used a simple editing tool.

  • @mabrouknefzi4386
    @mabrouknefzi4386 Рік тому +2

    if u killed ur self and you're reading this , I just wanted to say
    u missed .

  • @lorenzomendoza1476
    @lorenzomendoza1476 Рік тому +9

    Need it slow 😭

    • @l2EVENGER
      @l2EVENGER  Рік тому +6

      You want a slowed version?

    • @lorenzomendoza1476
      @lorenzomendoza1476 Рік тому +4

      @@l2EVENGER there is a slow - reverbed around it sounds good, I enjoyed this because I love the Lon drives to this song

    • @l2EVENGER
      @l2EVENGER  Рік тому +6

      @@lorenzomendoza1476 alright.

    • @l2EVENGER
      @l2EVENGER  Рік тому +5

      ​​@@lorenzomendoza1476 Here it is :)
      ua-cam.com/video/tAd1qWzmc8c/v-deo.html

    • @lorenzomendoza1476
      @lorenzomendoza1476 Рік тому +4

      @@l2EVENGER JUST SAW THIS THANK YOU, I was in bed listening to it ! ❤ keep it up

  • @Garcia-77
    @Garcia-77 Рік тому +3

    WAHNSINN‼️- Hatte die SUPER-KURZE VERSION bis vorhin - Schreibe: Wie 😢, dass SO KURZ‼️- Und jetzt DAS hier, in einer TOLLEN‼️ LÄNGE 🌌💫 - DANKEEEEE...‼️- Gott sei mit euch‼️- 💌

  • @YaboyRedneck2k
    @YaboyRedneck2k Рік тому +7

    Can't wait for that day, so ill plan it sooner than exspected...

    • @JonclashHq
      @JonclashHq 9 місяців тому

      You still alive?

    • @YaboyRedneck2k
      @YaboyRedneck2k 9 місяців тому +1

      @@JonclashHq Yes, sadly he died at the ago of 20....

    • @grumpyginger9783
      @grumpyginger9783 4 місяці тому

      @@YaboyRedneck2k what

  • @bevisfenner2920
    @bevisfenner2920 Рік тому +4

    I keep expecting this to turn into The Power of Love by Frankie Goes to Hollywood

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 3 місяці тому

      Whatever you’re going through know that God sees, hears and understands you. Jesus suffered in all aspects we suffered yet He was sinless, giving His life as a ransom for our salvation. He died and rose again on the third day that we may be forgiven our sins and have eternal life through Himself and that we may have relationship with God again! Jesus loves you He can save you from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc through His Holy Spirit .

  • @FlexVibes
    @FlexVibes Рік тому +10

    don't make me sad

  • @nopillows6898
    @nopillows6898 8 місяців тому +1

    listening to this, i remember the following weeks after my 3rd attempt

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 4 місяці тому

      Whatever you’re going through know that God sees, hears and understands you. Jesus suffered in all aspects we suffered yet He was sinless, giving His life as a ransom for our salvation. He died and rose again on the third day that we may be forgiven our sins and have eternal life through Himself and that we may have relationship with God again! Jesus loves you He can save you from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc.

    • @Theshotgooner
      @Theshotgooner 2 місяці тому

      Maybe you should try a 4th time

  • @november8039
    @november8039 Рік тому +3

    I still miss her

  • @ChristianGriffith-vu6wz
    @ChristianGriffith-vu6wz 4 місяці тому

    thanks for the song my guy my brother just killed himself couple days ago can’t believe it ….

  • @arzen_craves.krokodil
    @arzen_craves.krokodil Рік тому +2

    I feel i heard this song years ago. How odd

  • @SassyXR6007
    @SassyXR6007 Рік тому +4

    Hi fellow humans. If you're here your like me.

    • @Theshotgooner
      @Theshotgooner 2 місяці тому +1

      Nah if your here your like me

    • @SassyXR6007
      @SassyXR6007 2 місяці тому

      ​@@Theshotgoonertrue

  • @9sunsjuddleponk
    @9sunsjuddleponk 3 місяці тому

    Love to the natives out there, now is more important than ever to be strong. Dont give up.

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 3 місяці тому

      Whatever you’re going through know that God sees, hears and understands you. Jesus suffered in all aspects we suffered yet He was sinless, giving His life as a ransom for our salvation. He died and rose again on the third day that we may be forgiven our sins and have eternal life through Himself and that we may have relationship with God again! Jesus loves you He can save you from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc. Your life matters

  • @Luhq_
    @Luhq_ 10 місяців тому +2

    Almost ended it all tonight
    I just want a hug man

    • @jesuscrust69
      @jesuscrust69 10 місяців тому

      👐 hope this does smthing for you, friend.

    • @Caffeine_Junkie-go2ub
      @Caffeine_Junkie-go2ub 10 місяців тому

      You doing any better man ?

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 4 місяці тому

      Whatever you’re going through know that God sees, hears and understands you. Jesus suffered in all aspects we suffered yet He was sinless, giving His life as a ransom for our salvation. He died and rose again on the third day that we may be forgiven our sins and have eternal life through Himself and that we may have relationship with God again! Jesus loves you He can save you from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc. Your life matter

    • @Vega-x4d
      @Vega-x4d 3 місяці тому

      🫂

  • @Sxirenn
    @Sxirenn 3 місяці тому +1

    i miss them...

  • @marcusoch7883
    @marcusoch7883 Рік тому +1

    Real.

  • @JessieYeend
    @JessieYeend 3 місяці тому +2

    Your not a loser

  • @ra1nb0wdash7
    @ra1nb0wdash7 Рік тому +2

    You get a sub and a like in spite of that lil xanchex guy also cool video

  • @JessieYeend
    @JessieYeend 3 місяці тому

    You are amazing

  • @JesusChristislord372
    @JesusChristislord372 4 місяці тому +2

    Whatever you’re going through know that God sees, hears and understands you. Jesus suffered in all aspects we suffered yet He was sinless, giving His life as a ransom for our salvation. He died and rose again on the third day that we may be forgiven our sins and have eternal life through Himself and that we may have relationship with God again! Jesus loves you He can save you from depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc. Your life matter

  • @XtaticVR
    @XtaticVR Місяць тому

    just saying but, the inside pfp is hard.

  • @Ruairi_gym
    @Ruairi_gym 4 місяці тому

    I have gone no contact just over a year and i still feek stuck i get on witb my life neeo buay but they are on my mind 24 7 !,£ my emotions r all over the place , past few month i stsrted having dreams about them like i was being hunted by them , them talking to me nd visiting me in my dreams , am i going kinda mad ???

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 3 місяці тому

      What kinda dreams?

    • @Ruairi_gym
      @Ruairi_gym 3 місяці тому

      @@JesusChristislord372 multiple ex's coming back in my dreams talking to me , like I'm meeting them all and it feels so real like vivid, but one stands out that really gets to me because I know I will love her and when she comes back in my dreams to visit me it really fucks me up

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 3 місяці тому

      @@Ruairi_gym What I think is happening to you is that you are being attacked by familiar spirits which are demons. If you call on the name of the Lord you will be saved. Jesus loves you

    • @JesusChristislord372
      @JesusChristislord372 3 місяці тому +1

      @@Ruairi_gym I think that you are being Spiritually attacked by familiar spirits which are demons who come as someone like your ex and torment you in your sleep. I've personally experienced the same thing, I've seen things that would make anyone believe in a spiritual realm. My friend turn to Jesus. The enemy only steals, kills and destroys but Jesus has come to bring life and life in abundance. He loves you and wants a relationship with you!

    • @Ruairi_gym
      @Ruairi_gym 3 місяці тому +1

      @JesusChristislord372 how do I accept Jesus, iv never been a. Believer so I don't know to make that connection with Jesus, but I want to

  • @Kavou
    @Kavou Рік тому

    Reminds of EIMIC but different. I love dream pop and music like this.

  • @Guest457A
    @Guest457A 5 місяців тому

    This is the only song I wanted to listen to after watching Forrest Gump.

    • @Theshotgooner
      @Theshotgooner 2 місяці тому

      Lieutenant dan you have no legs

  • @the_worst_wolverine
    @the_worst_wolverine Рік тому +1

    all i want to know is if they’re still ok

  • @PredatorGoose
    @PredatorGoose 5 місяців тому +3

    To whoever is reading this, I love you. I may not know you but you’re a lot like me. I love you. Don’t ever forget that. I love you.

    • @Theshotgooner
      @Theshotgooner 2 місяці тому

      I love you to maybe we should get married.

  • @มดแดง-ฃ3ข
    @มดแดง-ฃ3ข Рік тому +3

    เธอจะพังในมือคุณนั่นแหละเหมือนขุดหลุมฝังทำไปเลยแล้ว (อย่ามายุ่งกับฉัน)

    • @Theshotgooner
      @Theshotgooner 2 місяці тому

      You will crumble once you get outta your chair.

  • @JessieYeend
    @JessieYeend 3 місяці тому

    Never give up

  • @RedOnCod
    @RedOnCod 10 місяців тому

    rip Grandma Loretta

  • @ezequielzack_otanix
    @ezequielzack_otanix 7 місяців тому

    Minha vida estava finalmente ficando boa, mas os demônios do passado me alcançaram

  • @มดแดง-ฃ3ข
    @มดแดง-ฃ3ข Рік тому +1

    ฉันคิดว่าคนที่เกาะสมุยก็ทำตลาดเรื่องนั้นเก่งมากแต่เขามีปัญหาเรื่องการไม่จ่ายค่าเช่าในบัญชีของฉันแค่นั้นถ้าได้คุยกันฉันคงปล่อยให้เขาทำบนบัญชี UA-camทำฟรีก็ได้แต่ฉันขอคำตอบ

  • @Frank-il3kt
    @Frank-il3kt 11 місяців тому

    Narrow Head vibes

  • @jefferu2577
    @jefferu2577 Рік тому +4

    🤌🏻

  • @pissyavalabrat
    @pissyavalabrat Рік тому +1

    Hehe. X

  • @SoniaShawn
    @SoniaShawn 5 місяців тому +1

    :'(

  • @jerryemegraham7118
    @jerryemegraham7118 Рік тому +2

    Extremely Boeing x men first legion teenager class Deadpool 7595

  • @JesusChristislord372
    @JesusChristislord372 4 місяці тому +1

    Jesus loves you

  • @MelissaWilliams-m4r
    @MelissaWilliams-m4r 2 місяці тому

    Brown Kimberly Jackson Jennifer Young Betty

  • @LilXancheX
    @LilXancheX Рік тому +3

    Lame

    • @l2EVENGER
      @l2EVENGER  Рік тому +12

      Sorry you didn't like the video

    • @LilXancheX
      @LilXancheX Рік тому +1

      @@l2EVENGER yea you better be sorry

    • @ssalviapalth
      @ssalviapalth Рік тому +25

      Then leave or sum 😂 acting like they made the video for you Tf☠️

    • @drakejohnson8425
      @drakejohnson8425 Рік тому

      ​@@LilXancheX you a bum man

    • @ThatOneHatedGuyy
      @ThatOneHatedGuyy Рік тому +7

      @@LilXancheX sorry your rap music is oh so better than this 💀

  • @thefuhkingrecordlabel
    @thefuhkingrecordlabel 4 місяці тому +1

    I ran away and almost killed myself, in a way I did...

  • @idek1243
    @idek1243 Рік тому +2

    This song got me laughing

  • @JohnKienle3840
    @JohnKienle3840 2 місяці тому

    Sounds like Deftones

  • @มดแดง-ฃ3ข
    @มดแดง-ฃ3ข Рік тому +1

    เวลานั้นสำคัญกับการเปลี่ยนแปลงชะตากรรมมนุษย์ตั้งแต่อดีตถึงปัจจุบัน

  • @มดแดง-ฃ3ข
    @มดแดง-ฃ3ข Рік тому +1

    พวกคุณคิดว่ายังไงประเทศเบลารุสควรเป็นเมืองหลวงประเทศของพวกเรา

  • @มดแดง-ฃ3ข
    @มดแดง-ฃ3ข Рік тому

    เธอว่าอย่างนั้นแหละมันมีปัญหามันคาใจมันไม่จบก็มาหาเธอเอาให้มันจบมีเงินจ่ายคุณก็ว่ามา