I DON'T KNOW WHO I AM ANYMORE... (Life Update)

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  • Опубліковано 10 гру 2024

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  • @margaretmunce1501
    @margaretmunce1501 6 місяців тому +21

    Noah, you’re such a gentle soul. So very sensitive.
    I absolutely admire you in your struggles, and your determination to be sober and get to a better place in life.
    I have a son who is quite similar to you. He’s 43, and we are Australians.
    Never, ever give up on yourself, and know that you are loved and accepted by so many. Even us who have followed you through your dad, Dr Paul, for many years.
    God bless and keep you, Noah. May He strengthen you in every way.
    🙏🏼❤️🇦🇺

  • @Mike_Cosentino
    @Mike_Cosentino 6 місяців тому +14

    Been watching your journey for nearly ten years now. It’s been a rough ride for both of us. It does get easier with time and having the right mindset. My first sip of alcohol was at ten years old when a waitress served me a glass of white wine during a family wedding. Realized it wasn’t apple juice, but I thought to myself back then that this could be something I’d be able to drink again someday again. I did in my early to mid-20s when my drinking was at its peak. Was drinking bottles of whisky, going through 12pks like water. Cut out liquor in 2019 thinking that’d change the situation but I’ve realized by now no amount is good enough. And believe me when I say that you ARE a good dude & I have never met you but you’ve always been gracious and kind, and for that, thx..

    • @susanlilley6918
      @susanlilley6918 3 місяці тому

      God bless all who read this comment and remember the power of God.

  • @Zeuskazoo
    @Zeuskazoo 6 місяців тому +7

    Love that you’re focusing on recovery and just being. Stay cool.

    • @Zeuskazoo
      @Zeuskazoo 6 місяців тому

      What a great video. Feeling chills

  • @travisrolando8205
    @travisrolando8205 6 місяців тому +4

    You're a true blessing Noah! Stay strong brother! You got this!

  • @CMoore8539
    @CMoore8539 6 місяців тому +12

    12 Days Clean & Sober today. No turning back!!❤
    Last week I almost died. I had been extremely sick and in agonizing pain for 15 Long Miserable Months. Doctors and Specialists kept running me around in circles with no help in sight. So last week I was rushed to the hospital and I had to have extremely serious emergency surgery. It was my first surgery. Miraculously I have started getting well now. I’m finally healing. I have had drug & alcohol addiction problems for many years. I quit the drugs in 2016 but I started drinking again during covid19. So I’m 12 days sober today. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. My birthday is next week and I’m a little concerned about getting through it but I Shall Not Drink! Maybe I’ll spend the whole day at meetings.? ❤

    • @briarrose4747
      @briarrose4747 6 місяців тому +2

      Spending the whole dy at meetings sounds like a great idea! :)

    • @patriotoffreedom6429
      @patriotoffreedom6429 5 місяців тому +2

      Congratulations and praying for you. Many people care and most of all Jesus loves you! Remember that + the blessing He has given you. God bless you

    • @CMoore8539
      @CMoore8539 5 місяців тому

      @@patriotoffreedom6429 Thank you so Much!💞

    • @CMoore8539
      @CMoore8539 5 місяців тому

      @@briarrose4747 Thank you! I’m hanging in there and doing my best to get well ❤️‍🩹.

    • @TrishaKnight-ti1oq
      @TrishaKnight-ti1oq 5 місяців тому

      Sending you healing my way. You can do this,🥰🙏👍

  • @hypnaudiostream3574
    @hypnaudiostream3574 6 місяців тому +4

    Teaching and informing and warning others is a beautiful way to grow oneself. Thank you. 🙏

  • @vincesza8464
    @vincesza8464 6 місяців тому +3

    Hey Noah, I enjoy these updates it’s always great to hear from you in these videos. I am doing better personally since I commented last video. You always help me pull through tough situations.

  • @gregdescant4121
    @gregdescant4121 6 місяців тому

    Thanks! We love you too Noah!❤

    • @bignoknow
      @bignoknow  6 місяців тому +2

      Oh wow…. Thank you for this. That’s incredibly generous.

  • @HeidiSutter-e2m
    @HeidiSutter-e2m 4 місяці тому

    Noah ,I am so glad I got to hear you speak about the steps and how you have been dealing with drinking,I must tell you I could get into step 9 and understand it.This is all from the other side and being married to an alcoholic it was fresh air to listen to you because it is all the truth .Not made up.Step 9 really means a lot to me do to it being someone standing up and apologizing which I never recieved..Thank you for sharing .

  • @DaddyThomas2024
    @DaddyThomas2024 5 місяців тому +3

    Also right now i feel im finally turning a corner, i have night terrors with years, also lately im breaking down crying and really soul searching, regrets eat me alive, its only now im living, i wasted my life til now. Suicide attempts, just real real sick sad scary sinister lonely suffering. Its amazing how im not dead genuienly

  • @TheBontekraai
    @TheBontekraai 6 місяців тому +4

    i often think we want to help others because we can't help ourselves and it is easier to want to help others than to face our own pain.
    i am working through cptsd, split personality and a sick cat that won't get better.
    but i am learning to take care of myself first.
    and work through it all first, or you will keep sabotaging yourself.

  • @mbaxter22
    @mbaxter22 6 місяців тому +2

    I just wanted to say I'm not an alcoholic (but I AM an addict), but I've been following you for many years, even as my own life has gone through a rollercoaster ride of highs and lows, love and loss. One thing you taught me is that no matter how f*cked I might be in terms of my life and my relationships and my mental health, I can at least take control of my own body. No matter how much of a f*ck up I am, I can at least exercise and control what food I eat. I have that power, and least.
    In all my struggles this has been my best tool in keeping my sh*t together when everything else is my life was falling apart.

  • @chadcranston8193
    @chadcranston8193 5 місяців тому

    Yas been a long journey brother, you give me hope

  • @mikebordner3820
    @mikebordner3820 6 місяців тому

    Great to hear you’re doing well Noah and staying sober. Continue on your journey of discovery and helping others, just as Douglas has helped us through, you are helping so many find peace through your videos and now, video chats. Keep up the good work brother.

  • @selbybrown9841
    @selbybrown9841 Місяць тому

    YAS! Great video and thanks for sharing! I've come across your videos in the past and have enjoyed them. Keep up the good work and stay strong!

  • @Cheese-is-its-own-food-group
    @Cheese-is-its-own-food-group 6 місяців тому +4

    It sounds like you’re going through a real spiritual awakening.

  • @everydamnday
    @everydamnday 6 місяців тому

    YAS! Noah you are awesome as always. So glad to see this update. I love knowing what is going on, what you struggle with and how you manage. I love to see you laughing and smiling and you did a lot of that in this video. This is the best you I ever seen you. PERIOD! Keep being awesome buddy.

  • @deathshaker0026
    @deathshaker0026 6 місяців тому

    I am well. I just want to remind you how awesome you are. For me I have been stuck in a good way for a long time. I hope you take care.

  • @RobLewis3
    @RobLewis3 5 місяців тому

    Thanks for the videos over the years. Pray to God brother, for guidance and strength

  • @CMoore8539
    @CMoore8539 6 місяців тому +1

    Noah, I’m very happy to hear that your marriage is holding up Strong against the storm you went through. My husband seems very happy and content that I decided to quit alcohol too. Day 12 alcohol free and it feels so good! Take good care of you Noah!!♥️🫡

  • @Lisa_RNHealthHub
    @Lisa_RNHealthHub 6 місяців тому +1

    Hi Noah 👋 ❤ Good to hear from you.

  • @wtpwtp
    @wtpwtp 6 місяців тому

    Good to hear about your recovery progress & process. Have you thought about holding in-person The Phoenix classes at your gym?

  • @ChristinaUniverse-lq1ex
    @ChristinaUniverse-lq1ex 6 місяців тому

    Noah, keep going, keep growing, your great 👍🙏

  • @Jonathan-me3sp
    @Jonathan-me3sp 5 місяців тому

    Yas keep going don’t look back

  • @95ireyna
    @95ireyna 6 місяців тому

    Stay strong Noah🙏

  • @mikaeusbznd744
    @mikaeusbznd744 6 місяців тому +2

    You can change all you want, still my platonic crush from across the world 🥰

  • @johnCjr4671
    @johnCjr4671 6 місяців тому

    Like the introspection concept .

  • @straightflush6095
    @straightflush6095 6 місяців тому

    I hope I can get to the point where you are now someday. Struggling with addiction at the moment. I want to overcome this so bad

    • @bignoknow
      @bignoknow  6 місяців тому +1

      I’m rooting for you. I needed tons of help.

  • @javier4060
    @javier4060 6 місяців тому +6

    Just for today.!

  • @LivingEpistles444
    @LivingEpistles444 6 місяців тому +1

    Matthew 11
    28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
    Find Him and never thirst again.

  • @freyavanderwesthuizen7281
    @freyavanderwesthuizen7281 6 місяців тому

    Noah this the first time Ihave watched you vlog. Whatever you think and feel is what makes you the person you are, which appears to be a kind sympathetic caring man . I think most of us have no idea of how what and when , we are all on the same destination. It’s just the journey in getting there is different for us all, I wish I had the answer to life’s travails and why some of us suffer more than others .I think that as long as you harm no one else then you are successful.Try keep trying and you will be more than you ever hoped for .From what I have seen you are already there. Now you just have to see it and believe it! You are all that you need to be and more ! Good luck on your journey Noah, you still have time to be the person you want to be,you have much to offer and so much to teach , oh and love , you give us much love .Someone somewhere loves you .Well done you are good enough , you are more than good enough

  • @kassiep
    @kassiep 6 місяців тому

    YAS 😊😊
    Always await your videos :) you doing well dude and it's good to see. Been a fan sinse way back

  • @WuWeiFlow
    @WuWeiFlow 5 місяців тому

    The big thing to create consistent change is realizing that thoughts and thinking are not the same. Thoughts come and go like suggestions. One can call them functional thoughts or signposts. Their job is to just give you direct info right now and then they leave. There is nothing egoistic or damaging about them. Either you follow their advice or you dont.
    Psychological thoughts however are egoic thoughts. Talking to you in "I or me" mode. These thoughts are a result of you thinking your thoughts to try to control them. They give you a sense of control by making you think you are figuring something out or solving something. In reality, it is all a scam. You have no control over your thoughts when you think them, no progress is being made in the content of the thoughts that we seem to believe. After you think about them they still move on without anything at all being better or solved.
    Unless we stop thinking/engaging with our stream of thoughts, we will never be in our true power of wholeness and clarity. Effortlessness and joy. Health and abundance.
    Good luck!

  • @otismeotisme7987
    @otismeotisme7987 6 місяців тому

    I was just thinking of You, thanks for your Amazing Inspiring Lesson 🙏💖

  • @shirleygoudzwaard7985
    @shirleygoudzwaard7985 6 місяців тому +1

    Noah I'm so very proud of you. Remember the " higher power" is God. Will continue to pray for you. Please pray to God also. ❤

  • @leonhorak3422
    @leonhorak3422 6 місяців тому

    much love.

  • @SuperhumanUnchained
    @SuperhumanUnchained 6 місяців тому +1

    Great video thanks for the upload hit that like button and great motivation

  • @TheChiGirl1
    @TheChiGirl1 6 місяців тому +1

    Have you tried Keto and maybe the Wim Hoff method? Just a thought maybe it could help some ❤

  • @rafaelsaldivar
    @rafaelsaldivar 6 місяців тому

    I love you always my friend

  • @969Garage
    @969Garage 5 місяців тому

    Been weekend binge drinking for about 8 years now since i cant smoke weed anymore due to anxiety and depersonalozation. I slowed down the drinking recently because im getting anxiety and depression symptoms even after drinking only 15 beers on weekend. I think i need to stop all together .

  • @hypnaudiostream3574
    @hypnaudiostream3574 6 місяців тому +1

    ❤ Jesus loves you bro. Keep going

  • @audeo1613
    @audeo1613 6 місяців тому

    YAS see you in the gym.

  • @teresahunt5521
    @teresahunt5521 6 місяців тому

    Yaasss queen🤗

  • @giuliagiacintucci5890
    @giuliagiacintucci5890 6 місяців тому

    Could also explain why people after rehab tend to cut off their loved ones? My boyfriend was at rehab and it’s been very hard during this time and when he came back initially he was loving and soft like he used to be before to me but out of the blue he blocked me everywhere when I just asked why we could not meet since he came back… I don’t know why he cut me off without any explanation when I just wanted to know what was going on… I want to talk to him in person and get some answers… he said he was feeling very unsettled back home but why did he just block me??? What happened during these few days? Cause we were talking literally few days ago about travelling together and building our future and when I asked why we still haven’t met in person and asked to clarify it he just blocked without saying a word… it’s so hurtful and painful… I’ve been put on hold and missing him for so long

    • @bignoknow
      @bignoknow  6 місяців тому

      That must have been so hard for you. Sorry to hear this.

    • @giuliagiacintucci5890
      @giuliagiacintucci5890 6 місяців тому

      @@bignoknow it is still very hard yes. This is why I asked this question cause I’d like to know what a person after rehab is thinking about relationships? is this temporary what to expect etc. I thought coming home was going to cause him a lot of good emotions

  • @natanmandala
    @natanmandala 6 місяців тому

    I Am is that I Am. Nothing more, nothing less. A genuine being cannot explain or answer the question, "who are you?" It's an absurd and ignorant question to those with discernment. I simply Am that I Am...🌗

  • @dahemshammari
    @dahemshammari 5 місяців тому

    I feel the same I don't know why

  • @savagemolonlabe9234
    @savagemolonlabe9234 5 місяців тому

    How’s your gastritis?

    • @bignoknow
      @bignoknow  5 місяців тому

      Mitigated with PPI’s. Not fully resolved though.

    • @savagemolonlabe9234
      @savagemolonlabe9234 5 місяців тому

      @@bignoknow so is it manageable? I’m so hopeless right now been dealing with this since February chronic gastritis from a medication an antidepressant called Prozac gave me this I hope it isn’t permanent

    • @travv88
      @travv88 4 місяці тому

      @@bignoknow I hear BPC157 can help with gut issues?

  • @grupal5
    @grupal5 6 місяців тому +2

    Yas

  • @BackFireZz
    @BackFireZz 6 місяців тому

    Have you ever tried cerebrolysin? It is great for overcoming addictions.

  • @hypnaudiostream3574
    @hypnaudiostream3574 6 місяців тому +1

    Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaas

  • @mz3735
    @mz3735 5 місяців тому +1

    I believe at the root of all of this lies low selfesteem. A sense of worthlessness, a hatred for oneself. The only cure to these problems is love.

  • @DaddyThomas2024
    @DaddyThomas2024 5 місяців тому

    Im 32 , no clue who i am. Used to drink myself nearly to death

  • @dstenberg
    @dstenberg 6 місяців тому

    Yas!

  • @UriahWarner
    @UriahWarner 6 місяців тому

    How’d u beat dpdr

  • @briarrose4747
    @briarrose4747 6 місяців тому

    My outpatient mental health program didn't workout so i now find myself bored at home :( ive found myself the last few dys obsessed with dating apps trying to desperately find a boyfriend so embarrassing..i almost went on a date yesterday with this dude i felt very uncomfortable with he sended me a 🦆 pic so thats when i blocked him but now back to square one being lonely.

  • @donleinhart
    @donleinhart 5 місяців тому

    YAS

  • @CheesusSVT
    @CheesusSVT 6 місяців тому

  • @j0eyravi0li2
    @j0eyravi0li2 6 місяців тому

    Y.A.S.

  • @badpuppet616
    @badpuppet616 5 місяців тому

    Yasss lol

  • @scholarscircle786
    @scholarscircle786 6 місяців тому +1

    I invite you to Islam my brother.

    • @DG-EditsYT
      @DG-EditsYT 6 місяців тому +1

      Religion isnt always the answer

  • @sirfuxalot3315
    @sirfuxalot3315 6 місяців тому +1

    I’m not trying to be rude but you seem really self concerned. I think you should try and focus more on others.

  • @HeidiSutter-e2m
    @HeidiSutter-e2m 4 місяці тому

    YAS

  • @annkilleen4236
    @annkilleen4236 6 місяців тому

    yas

  • @chancehansen1714
    @chancehansen1714 6 місяців тому

    Yas