My father is an angry and mean narcissist. What’s really horrible is that I don’t and never mattered. Only his feelings, responses, experiences, opinions matter. The rest of the family doesn’t really see this as they are under his spell but I do and it’s been a road less travelled to make sense and heal from his never ending abuse.
I used to call my father a dictator and terrorist (in my head) before I had the term narcissist, because he kept us in a constant state of terror. I was very glad when he died sooner than I expected (I was 27 when he died) and that my mother can be free now.
It's So True 👍 😢😫 When you had Narcissistic Father and Mother, you are Grieving all your life for the Terrible Suffering 😢, Violent Toture and Abuse, you had Daily as a child, and as an Adult. You Grieve for the Terrible Destruction of your life your Parents Caused you.
Thank you so much for making these. It’s such a relief to have some validation that I’m not the crazy one. You’re doing a wonderful service with this channel.
Yeah I really don't know why I forgot ... The parents are harmful. I guess it's because of love bombing, when they know that their control is slipping, then they start to love bomb. When they know that there's something important to me that I've trusted them with, they start to ... Actively harm. They're only there when they feel like their power is winding down. They only miss me when I'm not there... I wish they were different, I truly do! But they are that way, and it's useless to think they will change.
Ive been no contact for four years and i recently noticed i didnt have this "i'm bad, i'm disgusting, people hate me" feeling anymore... Self love is still a thing but its amazing how just by removing the cancer, you slowly heal... But i think its a lifetime healing process.. most of who i am or who i think i am is based on my father
Watching this a year later, my father hated me because he was accused as a teen of molesting a little girl in his neighborhood, he nor my mother (who had to have 100% of his attention) wanted a daughter, I was screwed before I was ever born, they both seemed to hate me, 5 yrs this July of NC with them, & I have never been happier
You are such a beautiful soul! I just found you tonight but I already feel so at home here on your channel! Your genuine warmth and caring is palpable! As painful and upsetting as my journey has been and will still be, I'm happy I have this free resource now. Thank you so much for sharing your knowledge! Sending love from Alberta 💜🇨🇦
I think that I was raised by borderline/ narcissist/ codependent parents who loved me and I married a man (who I truly loved) with his own set of these issues
Thank you, you're so right about everything. Its so true.I enjoy watching your videos. I am 47 female who got C-Ptsd from the abuse. I am the oldest out of five children my parents had. I admit , i was married to Narcissist for 5 & a half years who is my x husband & my children's Dad. It wasnt easy to get out of my marriage. I was brave to get out of my marriage and got divorce. I been single for ten years now. I always been the black sheep in my family. I am Empath. I went to Jesus cause of the abuse. Jesus is our hope. God is Love i been a Christian for over ten years. I know my worth and values. My peace comes from God. God gives us victory.i walk away from Narcissists. I stay calm and quiet. Its not worth it to say anything to Narcissists since they dont get it at all. Both of my parents are Narcissists so is my grandmother. My brothers and sisters are Narcissists Enablers. Narcissists enablers are just as bad as Narcissists. Narcissists are liars Narcissists are broken people Narcissists are insecure people Narcissists always act like they are the victim. Narcissists never loved us at all Narcissists dont care about you at all Narcissists are pure evil souls from the Devil Narcissists are fake and phony people
I know you say ‘there’s a million videos on narcissism’ but there’s surprising very few good videos addressing Narcissistic fathers. There’s lots of attention given to the narcissistic mothers, siblings, husbands, etc. But me looking for specific videos on Narcissistic Father’s is limited, and when I watch them there not very helpful. 💔
My father, I assessed myself after many years behind me with time and my own cycle of attracting men similar ,romantically. Being hurt and disappointed, time and time again.Finally after attracting a full-blown NPD, it opened a Pandora's box of childhood truama
Hi Kim! We went to High school together- small world. Came across your videos. Have a terrible Narcissistic father and and finally do not talk to him anymore. Love your informative videos!
Dr Kim. … do you have a video on the shadow side of this. …? When the abused adult child pushes a healthy relationship away because they are afraid of abandonment and so sabotage what they aspire to. …..?
This video must be for me 🖐🏽🖐🏽🖐🏽🖐🏽🖐🏽 Undiagnosed border line mother , extremely narcissist father ! Now im struggling with borderline behaviour towards my kids 😢
I think my father had narcissistic tendencies. I clearly remember my father jokingly calling himself a 'sperm donor' on at least two occasions as opposed to a father. He had a rough childhood with two emotionally unavailable and abusive parents. Ugh.
I am sorry you went through that. My narcissistic mother told me many times that I was a mistake and not wanted.. then to find out I have a full-blooded older sister giving away before they were married. And the effing which used to call me a s*** and tell me that my boyfriend's only used me for sex. I got the last laugh
What about the narcissist Dad creating narcissistic Son. My first husband was Overt Narc w/narc mom. Now I find myself married to a covert narc w/narc Dad. BIG WINNER !!
Is there a way out of the bondage of being fathered by a narcissist? My 'father' was extremely narcissist and the way I grew was terrible. I m his oldest son but he hates and jealous of me. I tried to be as good as I could, but it is never enough to please him anyway. Now I m by my own but I see an inexplicable issue in my communication, relationship, self esteem, making decision, certainty in what I m called to do in life, etc. I strongly feel there must be something I lack in becoming a full gentleman. I m diagnosed with depression. I have a very strong urge to end my life. What d u do here if you dont know how to play the game? I ve planned how I will die. I believe God will intervene and solve the hidden problems in my life.
First of all...I hear you. I'm so sorry you had a father who could not reflect, attune, to you in way that showed your incredible worth. There is a way out. Reparenting yourself. Showing up for your self, by learning your needs and boundaries. Having your own back and refusing to live with your father's voice (which was dictated by his own unresolved shame...that's the core wound of a narcissist...everything they do is posturing, to avoid feeling/facing their shame & what they make it "mean" about them). They project onto others all the "shameful" things within, that they are trying to get rid of. To heal, you need to address your own core wounds. Reprogram your subconscious..as that is where all the trauma is and it "lies" to you. Addressing cognitive distortions, biases, and other toxic "filters" is huge. We can "clean" our lens and see more clearly, when we address all the erroneous (conditioned from childhood) thought patterns. In that, we become mindful of the automatic negative thoughts...we can break out of learned helplessness...we can become empowered and transformed. No longer imprisoned to the past. When we refuse to take on the torch of self abuse, we change the course of what was set. When we do all those things we get rid of the self betrayal of invalidation, dismissal, ignoring what we need....that we learned (subconsciously, conditioning) in childhood. There absolutely is freedom and possibility. I wish you deep healing and connectedness, hugely to yourself.
Please reach out to a suicide line. There are people to help you. In the USA is it 611? I was in an abusive workplace and I was suicidal and homicidal. I checked myself into the mental health. They were not helpful. However I was finally diagnosed with ADHD and I think I have autism which really helped me. Please reach out for resources they are there to help you. You are loved. Are you two had two parents that absolutely hated me. My mother told me on a regular basis how much she hated me.
As somebody stated below. There are few resources for men with narcissistic parents. There are books for girls with narcissistic mothers. I would think they would be very close. Please read will I never be enough, and mothers who can't love. Well they will explain what is happening in your
Dr Kim, I can’t believe you even exist. The Truth (“ Detach yourself from the consquences is BS”) and on a Silver Platter ( The fact you’ve experienced all of this & you’re so passionate & a Psychologist !!!) Would you say Didactic Behaviour Tx is relevant to this type of trauma ???
What a great idea. Let's attack Father's on Father's Day. You have issues that you really should resolve. Most father's play the important role of authoritarian and Mother's play the equally important role of caregiver in so-called normal families. It's simple to attack the person that had the responsibility to set the boundaries & enforce the rules when behaviors were unacceptable The ultimate goal for any parent should be to create a healthy independence where you no longer have to rely on them. Normal men are not sensitive or overly emotional like women are so this is often mistaken as uncaring when, in reality, the opposite is true. Even the discussion of narcissism as some sort of excuse, that supposedly caused you traum, is seen as a weakness & an attempt to feminize the healthy masculinity father's, by default, instill into you. Maybe take the time to look at yourself and stop looking for someone to blame for your failings & insecurities. That's my take on you going so far as to do this on Father's Day of all days. Psycho analyze that.
You are sooooo ignorant! Try educating yourself some time. Read the comments from those have been raised by a narcissistic father. Maybe some day you’ll actually learn how to think understand how other people feel. Grow up.
My father who I use to be close with married an illegal immigrant from Brazil. He knew her only 3 months got engaged and at 6 months married after he repeatedly told me: I’m never getting married again! She targeted my father and he fell for it. She has alienated him from his adult children (me and my siblings) and is influencing him to not visit or have a relationship with us. The anger and hurt I feel Is unbearable and I had to stop all contact. Is he a narc too for going along with this? If I ever see that woman again, she better hope she doesn’t run into me.
My father is an angry and mean narcissist. What’s really horrible is that I don’t and never mattered. Only his feelings, responses, experiences, opinions matter. The rest of the family doesn’t really see this as they are under his spell but I do and it’s been a road less travelled to make sense and heal from his never ending abuse.
I used to call my father a dictator and terrorist (in my head) before I had the term narcissist, because he kept us in a constant state of terror. I was very glad when he died sooner than I expected (I was 27 when he died) and that my mother can be free now.
Emotional terrorist they are😢
Can't belive this is free
So happy to share it:)
It's So True 👍 😢😫 When you had Narcissistic Father and Mother, you are Grieving all your life for the Terrible Suffering 😢, Violent Toture and Abuse, you had Daily as a child, and as an Adult. You Grieve for the Terrible Destruction of your life your Parents Caused you.
Thank you so much for making these. It’s such a relief to have some validation that I’m not the crazy one. You’re doing a wonderful service with this channel.
She sure is 😊
I agree
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My dad is a narcissist, believe me you need to remove them from your life, because he will keep hurting you.
TRUTH
So true
Yeah I really don't know why I forgot ... The parents are harmful.
I guess it's because of love bombing, when they know that their control is slipping, then they start to love bomb.
When they know that there's something important to me that I've trusted them with, they start to ... Actively harm.
They're only there when they feel like their power is winding down. They only miss me when I'm not there...
I wish they were different, I truly do! But they are that way, and it's useless to think they will change.
My mother is a narcissist. Thirty-plus years no contact. No contact is the only way to go if you want to heal
Sadly very true.
Ive been no contact for four years and i recently noticed i didnt have this "i'm bad, i'm disgusting, people hate me" feeling anymore... Self love is still a thing but its amazing how just by removing the cancer, you slowly heal... But i think its a lifetime healing process.. most of who i am or who i think i am is based on my father
My father was a narcissistic. He was definitely Jackal or Hyde. The sad part is I still loved him even though he passed away.
Jekyl not jackal 😂
@@scottmalcolmyou know what they mean....
Watching this a year later, my father hated me because he was accused as a teen of molesting a little girl in his neighborhood, he nor my mother (who had to have 100% of his attention) wanted a daughter, I was screwed before I was ever born, they both seemed to hate me, 5 yrs this July of NC with them, & I have never been happier
Helpful to me as a mother to children of a narcissistic father.
I won't be calling my narc dad on Father's Day, he hasn't earned it and I am not in contact with him!
You are such a beautiful soul! I just found you tonight but I already feel so at home here on your channel! Your genuine warmth and caring is palpable! As painful and upsetting as my journey has been and will still be, I'm happy I have this free resource now. Thank you so much for sharing your knowledge! Sending love from Alberta 💜🇨🇦
Ditto, Ditto, DyggeryDoo
I think that I was raised by borderline/ narcissist/ codependent parents who loved me and I married a man (who I truly loved) with his own set of these issues
You helped me piece some huge chunks together with your video. Thank you from the bottom of my heart, ma'am.
You are an angel sent by God!! ❤️ thank you for your videos !!!
Aww, thank you so much! You are so welcome!!:)
Thank you for this and the free resources!
My pleasure:)!!
Thank you, you're so right about everything. Its so true.I enjoy watching your videos.
I am 47 female who got C-Ptsd from the abuse. I am the oldest out of five children my parents had. I admit , i was married to Narcissist for 5 & a half years who is my x husband & my children's Dad. It wasnt easy to get out of my marriage. I was brave to get out of my marriage and got divorce. I been single for ten years now. I always been the black sheep in my family. I am Empath. I went to Jesus cause of the abuse. Jesus is our hope. God is Love i been a Christian for over ten years. I know my worth and values. My peace comes from God. God gives us victory.i walk away from Narcissists. I stay calm and quiet. Its not worth it to say anything to Narcissists since they dont get it at all. Both of my parents are Narcissists so is my grandmother. My brothers and sisters are Narcissists Enablers. Narcissists enablers are just as bad as Narcissists.
Narcissists are liars
Narcissists are broken people
Narcissists are insecure people
Narcissists always act like they are the victim.
Narcissists never loved us at all
Narcissists dont care about you at all
Narcissists are pure evil souls from the Devil
Narcissists are fake and phony people
I know you say ‘there’s a million videos on narcissism’ but there’s surprising very few good videos addressing Narcissistic fathers. There’s lots of attention given to the narcissistic mothers, siblings, husbands, etc. But me looking for specific videos on Narcissistic Father’s is limited, and when I watch them there not very helpful. 💔
This
Thank you so much for your work. Bless you!!
You are so welcome:)!!
Outstanding!
Thank you so much!!:)
Thank you very much for this enlightening and amazing video.
My father, I assessed myself after many years behind me with time and my own cycle of attracting men similar ,romantically. Being hurt and disappointed, time and time again.Finally after attracting a full-blown NPD, it opened a Pandora's box of childhood truama
Hi Kim! We went to High school together- small world.
Came across your videos. Have a terrible Narcissistic father and and finally do not talk to him anymore. Love your informative videos!
Very accurate and poignant. thank you !
Dr Kim. … do you have a video on the shadow side of this. …? When the abused adult child pushes a healthy relationship away because they are afraid of abandonment and so sabotage what they aspire to. …..?
Lots of videos out there regarding attachment styles
Thank you Dr Sage xo
p.s. will listen to the rest tomorrow. I hope you and yours are well.
Thank you too! Hope you are having a lovely evening!!:)
Thank you for that message.
This video must be for me 🖐🏽🖐🏽🖐🏽🖐🏽🖐🏽
Undiagnosed border line mother , extremely narcissist father ! Now im struggling with borderline behaviour towards my kids 😢
I think my father had narcissistic tendencies. I clearly remember my father jokingly calling himself a 'sperm donor' on at least two occasions as opposed to a father. He had a rough childhood with two emotionally unavailable and abusive parents. Ugh.
Did you adopt (some) narcissistic coping behaviours !!?? I did.
I am sorry you went through that. My narcissistic mother told me many times that I was a mistake and not wanted.. then to find out I have a full-blooded older sister giving away before they were married. And the effing which used to call me a s*** and tell me that my boyfriend's only used me for sex. I got the last laugh
What about the narcissist Dad creating narcissistic Son. My first husband was Overt Narc w/narc mom. Now I find myself married to a covert narc w/narc Dad. BIG WINNER !!
Thank you
Is there a way out of the bondage of being fathered by a narcissist? My 'father' was extremely narcissist and the way I grew was terrible. I m his oldest son but he hates and jealous of me. I tried to be as good as I could, but it is never enough to please him anyway. Now I m by my own but I see an inexplicable issue in my communication, relationship, self esteem, making decision, certainty in what I m called to do in life, etc. I strongly feel there must be something I lack in becoming a full gentleman. I m diagnosed with depression. I have a very strong urge to end my life. What d u do here if you dont know how to play the game? I ve planned how I will die. I believe God will intervene and solve the hidden problems in my life.
First of all...I hear you. I'm so sorry you had a father who could not reflect, attune, to you in way that showed your incredible worth.
There is a way out. Reparenting yourself. Showing up for your self, by learning your needs and boundaries. Having your own back and refusing to live with your father's voice (which was dictated by his own unresolved shame...that's the core wound of a narcissist...everything they do is posturing, to avoid feeling/facing their shame & what they make it "mean" about them). They project onto others all the "shameful" things within, that they are trying to get rid of.
To heal, you need to address your own core wounds. Reprogram your subconscious..as that is where all the trauma is and it "lies" to you.
Addressing cognitive distortions, biases, and other toxic "filters" is huge. We can "clean" our lens and see more clearly, when we address all the erroneous (conditioned from childhood) thought patterns.
In that, we become mindful of the automatic negative thoughts...we can break out of learned helplessness...we can become empowered and transformed. No longer imprisoned to the past. When we refuse to take on the torch of self abuse, we change the course of what was set.
When we do all those things we get rid of the self betrayal of invalidation, dismissal, ignoring what we need....that we learned (subconsciously, conditioning) in childhood.
There absolutely is freedom and possibility.
I wish you deep healing and connectedness, hugely to yourself.
Please reach out to a suicide line. There are people to help you. In the USA is it 611? I was in an abusive workplace and I was suicidal and homicidal. I checked myself into the mental health. They were not helpful. However I was finally diagnosed with ADHD and I think I have autism which really helped me. Please reach out for resources they are there to help you. You are loved. Are you two had two parents that absolutely hated me. My mother told me on a regular basis how much she hated me.
As somebody stated below. There are few resources for men with narcissistic parents. There are books for girls with narcissistic mothers. I would think they would be very close. Please read will I never be enough, and mothers who can't love. Well they will explain what is happening in your
Ohhh and did i mention toxic narcissist kids dad 😂
Dr Kim,
I can’t believe you even exist. The Truth (“ Detach yourself from the consquences is BS”)
and on a Silver Platter ( The fact you’ve experienced all of this & you’re so passionate & a Psychologist !!!)
Would you say Didactic Behaviour Tx is relevant to this type of trauma ???
What a great idea. Let's attack Father's on Father's Day. You have issues that you really should resolve. Most father's play the important role of authoritarian and Mother's play the equally important role of caregiver in so-called normal families. It's simple to attack the person that had the responsibility to set the boundaries & enforce the rules when behaviors were unacceptable The ultimate goal for any parent should be to create a healthy independence where you no longer have to rely on them. Normal men are not sensitive or overly emotional like women are so this is often mistaken as uncaring when, in reality, the opposite is true. Even the discussion of narcissism as some sort of excuse, that supposedly caused you traum, is seen as a weakness & an attempt to feminize the healthy masculinity father's, by default, instill into you. Maybe take the time to look at yourself and stop looking for someone to blame for your failings & insecurities. That's my take on you going so far as to do this on Father's Day of all days. Psycho analyze that.
You are sooooo ignorant! Try educating yourself some time. Read the comments from those have been raised by a narcissistic father. Maybe some day you’ll actually learn how to think understand how other people feel. Grow up.
you are delusional
My father who I use to be close with married an illegal immigrant from Brazil. He knew her only 3 months got engaged and at 6 months married after he repeatedly told me: I’m never getting married again! She targeted my father and he fell for it. She has alienated him from his adult children (me and my siblings) and is influencing him to not visit or have a relationship with us. The anger and hurt I feel Is unbearable and I had to stop all contact. Is he a narc too for going along with this? If I ever see that woman again, she better hope she doesn’t run into me.