Nathan Wagner - Depression

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    Song written by Nathan Wagner
    All Instruments Performed and Programmed by Nathan Wagner
    Mixed and Mastered by Nathan Wagner
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    I remember what it's like to go years and years and years without feeling anything. Numb and jaded. Absolutely vacant. If that's where you are, I love you. And I'm sorry. It can feels so hopeless. But please keep fighting. I thought the best life experience I'd have was just making it through the day. I thought I'd never be able to genuinely "Enjoy" anything. But, it got better. It took years. But it got better. I love you all. Don't give up hope.

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  • @nathanwagner762
    @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +832

    I remember what it's like to go years and years and years without feeling anything. Numb and jaded. Absolutely vacant. If that's where you are, I love you. And I'm sorry. It can feels so hopeless. But please keep fighting. I thought the best life experience I'd have was just making it through the day. I thought I'd never be able to genuinely "Enjoy" anything. But, it got better. It took years. But it got better. I love you all. Don't give up hope.

    • @amberfitz-randolph392
      @amberfitz-randolph392 Рік тому +23

      Thank you for that I don't want to articulate how much I needed to read this right now! Yesterday was difficult woke up triggered by night terrors and immediately got into verbal blowout with roommate. Flipped out enough that I abruptly punched several walls and doorframe the way you might slam your fist down on the table when you're pissed. Your comment describes better than I could how I've felt in the weeks leading up to that. We absolutely can't give up it's just so damn impossible to believe and feel like anything will ever be okay again during those dark moments it's very difficult yes. Talked everything through and calmed down a bit slower than I've been able to before but yes calmed eventually. I'm not sure how I got this much swelling bruising and such yet I promise y'all I didn't feel a thing when I was swinging and punching. No medical attention needed nothing like that and definitely safe mental health wise but that left me rattled it's the first "self injury" incident in years. Same way you totally lose hope emotionally get numb apparently you can get numb enough to break your own self and not feel anything. Well over an hour and a half passed by before I realized that my hand wasn't feeling very normal lol.

    • @hhswerewolf9628
      @hhswerewolf9628 Рік тому +8

      most of the time I feel that way, I used to have someone who made me not feel so alone but they passed away a few years ago now i feel alone even though I'm surrounded by people.

    • @awardlosingmovies
      @awardlosingmovies Рік тому +8

      Really needed to hear that because i live my life numb and in constant pain of lonliness. ❤️‍🩹

    • @neerajl.5945
      @neerajl.5945 Рік тому +2

      Song of the year

    • @Lisa.359.
      @Lisa.359. Рік тому +3

      Thank you!! This song is just amazing and it means so much. It's a great feeling to know that you are not alone and it means so much more if you get this feeling from your favorite artist. I don't know for how long I am listenig to your music but I know that I do it every day for some time now. Your Songs are a safeplace where I can go to when things get rough or even if I had a good day. All of your Songs make me feel good because I feel understand and safe. And listening to your beautiful voice and music makes me very happy. I'm so greatfull for every Song you write and for every Story you share with us. Thank you so much! I really hope that you are going to share your music with us for a long time and wish you and your loved ones only the best.
      I normaly don't coment on videos but I just needed to say this one time.
      Thanks!!!

  • @thegregitto
    @thegregitto Рік тому +18

    I'm sure there are many songs under the same title but this song *deserves* to be the musical emblem of depression.

  • @Anx10203
    @Anx10203 Рік тому +113

    4:51 - 5:21
    THESE VOCALS. GOOSEBUMPS. This is absolutely insane!!

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +40

      Ahhh thank you! I wasnt sure if it was a bit too much but went for it anyways haha so glad you liked it!

    • @tmoon9297
      @tmoon9297 Рік тому +23

      Yeah it perfectly expresses the desperate cry of someone drowning in hopeless depression longing for rescue. Thank you as always Nathan! Your songs are lifelines for so many 🙌

    • @ChntalX
      @ChntalX Рік тому +7

      Absolutely insane part!! ❤❤

    • @djillusioner
      @djillusioner Рік тому +7

      So damn relatable. Got me teary. Absolutely haunting and beautiful ❤

    • @waaaintresting913
      @waaaintresting913 Рік тому +5

      Just wanna say Nathan I think you have the best voice ❤ and wish you grasp your meaning in this world
      Thanks for everything

  • @petersahyouni
    @petersahyouni Рік тому +202

    Dude...all your songs are good, many are great, but a few of them are literal masterpieces. This is one of them. So is anxiety, innocence, and when man meets God. Worth all 9 glorious minutes...amazing job

  • @vivine3824
    @vivine3824 Рік тому +36

    My spouse goes through moments of depression and despite my omnipresence, I remain powerless. I share your beautiful song with him so he knows he is not alone. Thank you Nathan, we feel a little less helpless

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +13

      Im really sorry to hear that. I hope it blesses him 🙏 Sending all my love. Thank you so much for taking the time to listen. Means the world

  • @ItsmeYuuki
    @ItsmeYuuki Рік тому +35

    I‘m in tears. I‘ve been struggling with depressions since my teenage years and this song just hit me. Thank you so much for this amazing piece of art!! I really needed that.

    • @saraoverkamping8143
      @saraoverkamping8143 Рік тому +2

      I hope you are better now, I truelly do. Dealing with it at a young age can take you so many beautiful memories you could look back to when you have grown old. But perhaps this will only make us treasure each memory more in the long term.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +1

      Of course😊

    • @Heisrisenindeed
      @Heisrisenindeed 10 місяців тому

      You are not alone, we all have our struggles, you're not the first person to feel this way. Know that God is always waiting for you with open arms. Jesus is always willing to take you in. If you turn from your sin, which kesds to death, to Him, He will save you. I hooe you read this message and take this good news to heart.

  • @SurviveUntilSunrise
    @SurviveUntilSunrise Рік тому +12

    Some of your songs just go so beyond “striking a chord” with the soul that it’s hard to describe it in a phrase that exists, it’s like it deserves its own new word.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +1

      🙏🙌🙏🙌

    • @risingphoenixalichiaburns6942
      @risingphoenixalichiaburns6942 2 місяці тому

      Not.
      Only playing this music for my husband but also read this comment. I just want everyone who's finding these comments to know. Whether it's you or your partner or a family member, you're not alone. They are not alone. We will all get through this with patience and kindness and never giving up all I can suggest is cradle his heart as I do mine. Even if he was never able to get over the pain, the extreme fear or the paranoid thoughts of being abandoned and betrayed mostly I will never give up on him. I hope the same goes for everyone. Listening and those who are not yet.❤😢❤

  • @TherealSakuraKei
    @TherealSakuraKei 5 місяців тому +2

    ❤ Ever a more perfect healing song... like magic

  • @corrinabrown7611
    @corrinabrown7611 8 місяців тому +4

    Im feeling exactly this way right now. I feel so heavy. Demons surround me and oppress me each day. I feel like my broken heart is killing me inside. If it wasn't for Jesus being my Rock, my refuge in time of trouble i would drown. This is a beautiful song. I been playing it over and over.

  • @DarlingMythos
    @DarlingMythos Рік тому +16

    I have dealt with depression for a long time and I often find comfort in your songs, Nathan. This song is so beautiful and meaningful to me. This song, to me, feels like a sad embrace on a lonely night. Like someone who knows how your suffering feels and is there with you to deal with it. Thank you for bringing me and all other listeners comfort with your songs. They mean so much to me and I'm not quite sure how to fully express it. I love this song so much. Excellent job

  • @infingirl8488
    @infingirl8488 Рік тому +5

    Not even a minute in, I burst into tears. Not because I have felt this, but because of the empathy I have for the people who live and breathe these lyrics. I want to help them... I want to see that they are not alone. I have to remind myself that empathy is so very important, that even the glimpses of encounters with depression, either firsthand or secondhand, are immensely valuable to the people who you are trying to reach... but it's all so hard, for both the depressed and the one who loves them, to see someone and know they might be feeling these things. It's so very hard... thank you, Nathan. I don't even know what to say, but I needed to be woken up again to those around me. Thank you.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому

      Of course! Much love! Thank you for listening!

    • @KatWarhound
      @KatWarhound Рік тому

      People like you are so valuable to those of us going through depression. When we're going through it, it feels like everyone in the world must being going through the same thing b/c everything feels so hopeless and like there's no joy or strength left in the world. So it makes it seem like it's not ok to ask for help b/c you can't ask another broken person for help and put more weight on them. But when people like you speak up and say they are not going through that, it's such a source of hope because it makes us realize that not everything is basically dead; that there are still people who feel joy and hope and are happy to share it. Thank you!

    • @infingirl8488
      @infingirl8488 Рік тому +1

      @@KatWarhound Thank you for sharing, friend! It warms my heart. As a chronic empath and someone who knows people who struggle with depression, it can be a challenge sometimes to continue being there for them when I know there is little I can do to fix the matter. But that is not my job to fix things, is it? I can't fix everything wrong in this messed-up world. I instead try regardless to still be there for the people who need me, even if at times I wonder if I should give up. I haven't yet, and it has been an uphill climb, eventually. There is always hope and a way out of the darkness, no matter the struggle. Keep clinging to that truth!

    • @KatWarhound
      @KatWarhound Рік тому

      It's so interesting to hear your perspective! My husband is also an empath and although he still struggles to keep giving into situations that seem to have no fix, he's found the best solution is to never expect anything in return. He just does everything b/c it feels good to give and remembers that the people he's giving to are broken and can't give him anything back and that's why they need help in the first place. I guess real love doesn't expect you to pay it back, right? He's become a much happier person b/c of it. So, keep being a hero! People desperately need a true kindness and love, even if they're too broken to say so. Your kindness makes a huge difference! @@infingirl8488

    • @infingirl8488
      @infingirl8488 Рік тому +1

      @@KatWarhound "Greater love has no one than this, that one would lay down his life for his friends." Much love to you, Kat!

  • @JhadeSagrav
    @JhadeSagrav Рік тому +8

    This is not a song.
    This is a journey.
    💖💖💖

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +1

      Thanks a ton. Means everything. Thank you so much for listening :)

  • @Chaos_Drifter
    @Chaos_Drifter 5 місяців тому +3

    Nathan, to be honest, i'm getting back to listen to all your songs and it's... just what helps me all the time...
    Every single time it's like "Oh, my man released a new song! it deffinetly makes the whole day or week much better and calm for me, thank you..."
    A few sleepless years (3 hours of sleep per night and then i was listening for your songs on repeat)
    Sometimes then you think that you're just a freak with the broken soul full of scars from the ones you love most, with tormented thoughts, but no one knws it, cuz you don't wanna cause them any pain and you dan't wanna be the reason of their tears, anger, shame, all that stuff, i think you can understand me somehow, and after all things said... just big thankses from my heart to you, you're some kind of a hero, it's complicated for me to say any of this... to put it into words... but i think you can understand what it's like to feel that way, i'm good at holding on for the right amount of time without showing anything, but your tracks... your soul that you put in it, helps me in the hardest times....
    I would like to talk about it with anyone to be honest...

  • @samwagner762
    @samwagner762 Рік тому +4

    "Worth all 9 glorious minutes" What a perfect comment. Incredibly well said Peter.

  • @Vioduss
    @Vioduss Рік тому +8

    All these years I've been listening to your music, I've not felt a level of understanding that comes close to what your lyrics echo to me. Thank you Mr Wagner, from myself, my best friend, and everyone else who listens to your music... your impact is more than words can express. Keep on walking this artistic journey, as you keep giving us all the push we need to reach the next day

  • @katie.iv51
    @katie.iv51 Рік тому +8

    Thank you so much for sharing this song with us. Lately, it's been feeling like I'm slipping back into that dark place, and so hearing this song was really something I needed. I've struggled with depression and self-harm for a while, and as of today, I am 8 months clean, going on to 9 in a few weeks. Your songs have provided me comfort and helped me through the worst times of my life, and I truly believe that's what helped me get this far. I remember hearing your cover of "Would Anyone Care" by Citizen Soldier, and I absolutely fell in love with your voice. Since then, I have been listening to your songs on repeat, especially when going to sleep. So, thank you, Nathan. You never fail to impress, and I look forward to hearing what else you have in store. ❤️❤️

  • @Ballistic_Blue_Hoss
    @Ballistic_Blue_Hoss Рік тому +8

    There's soo much power in the words of all your songs that your amazing vocals impact everything with such feeling.
    It helps me, I feel like I'm losing my heart and mind everyday, just wanting to fade away. My heart has been so jaded lately, but your songs remind me that things do not have to be so dark and cold.
    We are not doomed to be this way forever.
    So thank you for having such a impactful voice and music and being the person you are.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +3

      🥹 Thank you so much. So sorry to hear about the struggle. Life can be so difficult. Im really glad the songs could shine a light. Sending all my love

  • @randifaye
    @randifaye Рік тому +5

    Wow… 💖 This song explains what I’ve been going through my whole life but especially the last few years and even few months. All of life was compiling and it got to a point where I was about to take my own life. Luckily I had intervention and ended up in the hospital for a month. Now I’m relearning how to live in the way that I can and hopefully enjoy life.

  • @actuallydemo
    @actuallydemo Рік тому +2

    This hits home for me so much. I suffered from depression some years ago, trying to make it through the day while forced to sit at home each and every week. I self harmed, locked myself in my room and denied all the symptoms I had. It was finally that I had the courage to tell my mother what had been happening to me that I finally was able to seek help. This song brings back so much of those memories, but in a good way. It reminds me how I was able to overcome my fear of death and that I always will have friends surrounding me that will support me. Thank you for your music Nathan, it has saved me.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +3

      So sorry you had to go through that, but honestly, stories like that are honestly inspiring and liberating. I remember I thought I was the only one. Was so afraid to tell anyone. Thanks so much for taking the time to write and taking the time to listen. Sending all my love.

  • @bobbistarklauf5
    @bobbistarklauf5 Рік тому +3

    Wow ..i relate to these lyrics ..thx u so much.

  • @wildfang2384
    @wildfang2384 Рік тому +4

    This isn't just a song it's an experience! It is now a new favorite of mine!

  • @ghostriderkickass
    @ghostriderkickass Рік тому +1

    Depression is literally the worst feeling I've dealt with since high school, but I've put on a mask. But my dads passing only made it worse he was my best friend. Nathan I'll say this man,Your music makes that empty feeling vanish in the worst of times I really do appreciate you man.

    • @saraoverkamping8143
      @saraoverkamping8143 Рік тому +2

      I am sorry about your Dad 💔
      My deepest condolences.
      So glad I am still having my Dad and I promise you, I will treasure every memory with him if I did not do it before.

    • @ghostriderkickass
      @ghostriderkickass Рік тому

      @@saraoverkamping8143 thank you and yes please do treasure those moments. My dad kept the darkness away from me for such a long time. But unfortunately since his light is gone, the darkness is slowly creeping back.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +1

      Much love! Sorry for your loss🙏

    • @ghostriderkickass
      @ghostriderkickass Рік тому

      @@nathanwagner762 thank you man appreciate it ♥️.

  • @GamingWithEdou
    @GamingWithEdou Рік тому +15

    Again a masterpiece. Thank you so much Nathan for this beautiful music❤️

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +3

      I’m honored you enjoyed it! Thank you for listening!

  • @davidbourg5333
    @davidbourg5333 Рік тому +1

    I don't think I've heard any band or music creator that has such captivating songs. It really makes you think about your place in life and what you and others are going through. Absolute masterpiece.

  • @enricomildenberger5690
    @enricomildenberger5690 Рік тому +7

    Damn.. I'm literally speechless. It's so rare to have such masterpieces in the musicindustry.
    So glad to have you!! Really.. rarely heard so deep and great song. Love it❤❤!!!

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +3

      Ahhh I'm so glad you liked it. You're so kind. Thank you thank you thank you for listening. So grateful

  • @FluffinWolffox105
    @FluffinWolffox105 5 місяців тому +1

    I've been in the absolute worst place of my life the last few weeks. It's been nothing but confusion and anxiety, an existential hell. I'm at a point where I don't feel like figuring anything out, I don't know who to listen to or go to for help, and I don't know what to believe. I just feel so burnt out. Each time I feel anything good, it just collapses, and everything I believe just turns to doubt. I'm just so tired because it's either anxiety, or worry or something else, and trying not to sink or crumble to it is exhausting. And I'd love to figure things out, move on, feel good again, but I'm just not near that point. This song just embodies that entire feeling and strikes that indescribable feeling inside. I can tell you know the feeling by experience because it's something you only can understand or feel from going through it. I'm hoping that I can get to the other side as well. I want to thank you sincerely for the song though, I haven't been able to get out how I feel in a while, but I legitimately cried this time. One of those torrential vile feeling ones that just washes out all those unspoken things. It really made the weight fall away. Keep doing what you're doing

    • @walkingalone365
      @walkingalone365 5 місяців тому

      Not sure you believe in Jesus Christ but i hope you do not take offence to this but he loves you. He will give you peace if you ask. Just call on him he is waiting for you to ask. Hugs to you. Hang in there.

  • @fandujapon
    @fandujapon Рік тому +2

    Your voice could heal anything. It sends us high in a sky full of colors and birds flying around ☁️🪽

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому

      Ahhh I'm so glad you like it! Thank you so much for your kind words. So grateful for you

  • @itteneva
    @itteneva Рік тому +1

    Nathan, you don't know how much your music has helped me. The messages into your songs keep me going, and I know that someone out there who also listens to them, feels the same as I do. In moments when I feel lost, alone and not understood, I just remember that there is you - the creator of such masterpieces, whose music will support me always.

  • @BellaJeanette24
    @BellaJeanette24 Рік тому +6

    BRAVO 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 This is a “Masterpiece” ❤ Love the lyrics “Your Not Alone” There is Hope, Don’t give up 🤗 Thank you Nathan, for sharing this Heartfelt song ❤️🙌❤️ You inspire everyone “You Are Loved” ❤️💕❤️💕❤️
    All my Love to everyone ❤ so happy you are here 🥰 🥰🥰🥰🥰 Much love Nathan 🙌❤️

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому

      Ahhh thank you Bella! Appreciate you listening! So glad you liked it! What a blessing :)

    • @BellaJeanette24
      @BellaJeanette24 Рік тому

      @@nathanwagner762 ❤️

  • @jasminechavez7653
    @jasminechavez7653 Рік тому +1

    Amazing song Nathan yeah I was depressed a lot for many months after my grandmother passed away of breast cancer in 2013 yeah it took me many years of healing my heartbreak and coping my loss of my grandmother it was extremely hard you know music is still my therapy of course I actually feel my greatest late grandma’s spirit in my soul when I hear this song you know my grandmother was my inspiration when I started music since I was 10 years old I remember performing in front of my grandmother when I first sang I wonder why by Curtis stingers my grandmother said to me “you are a phenomenal talent performer” I was blown away it was awesome you know music started to inspire me when my grandmother was alive it was great times I miss her so much you know I turn to songwriting for a few years after my grandmothers death it took me tears to let go of my pain of my heartbreak 💔 I knew music is always there on my heart whenever I performed at home on stage it lifts me up such an amazing song my late grandmother would love this song is dedicated to her with love love you Nathan ❤️

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +1

      So so so sorry to hear about your loss. There's nothing more painful. But it's beautiful you were able to take that pain and put it into art. Thank you so much for listening Jasmine. Could not be more grateful for you

    • @jasminechavez7653
      @jasminechavez7653 Рік тому +1

      Awww thank you Nathan love you 🥰

  • @jenniferlewis-spears6847
    @jenniferlewis-spears6847 Рік тому +1

    The high voice note got me like 😳🤯 WOAHHHH

  • @windsorsdreamer1915
    @windsorsdreamer1915 Рік тому +1

    There are people going through hard times and this song can help and let them know their not alone

  • @codyjones746
    @codyjones746 Рік тому +2

    This is honestly a little different than how I would write about depression but it is so much better! These lyrics makes me feel like you understand and you want to inspire us to be better.

  • @fandujapon
    @fandujapon Рік тому

    I'm saying it here because I feel like Nathan's comment section is the only place I can talk about what's going through my mind without feeling guilty, or worried about anything.
    Sometimes I feel like I need to always do my best to keep my relationships and if I just slow down a little, I'll be left alone. It feels like nobody I feel close with is feeling what I do. And they just like the me who's doing everything for them not the true me who's hiding behind a mask again. Even the people I trust the most, sometimes seems like they actually don't like the real me. Like there's no way they would.
    Then I hear Nathan' songs and remember to hang on a little more and try to fight this negativity

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому

      I'm so sorry. Sending my love. I know I used to try so hard to earn love. Different things had happened in my past that made me feel so worthless and unworthy. It's no fun. Not at all. But you're wonderful. And worthy of love. And deserve to be seen and enjoyed. And if people make you feel like you're not I'm really sorry. God bless you

  • @misawar1335
    @misawar1335 Рік тому +3

    Another song that blessed my day. Every song you make is filled with so much emotion, and I love it. I wrote so many scenes of my book on your music, and it always helped me be a better writer in terms of transposing the feelings across. Thank you for all the work you are doing and for the art you are sharing with us. I do believe God gifted you with a special power: to be a comforting shoulder for those in need of support through your music. Maybe not everything makes sense in the present, but at the end of the story, everything makes sense, and everything is worth it. It is a fight after all. Fight on beautiful people. Thank you for your music, Nathan :) Please stay healthy and safe, both you and your wife ( and family). You are lovely people, and I pray for both your happiness and passion for your music.

  • @BankerPaul
    @BankerPaul 2 місяці тому

    I literally sobbed to this...

  • @djillusioner
    @djillusioner Рік тому +2

    I can't even begin to find words to express how deeply i relate to this right now. Ifeel hopeless yet, i don't want to lose hope. Hanging by a thread... This ws too good...❤

  • @NWM-cv4zl
    @NWM-cv4zl Рік тому +2

    I saw this on the spotify and immediately keep it on repeat on my drive back and forth hospital. Thank you always for the beautiful pieces. ❤️

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому

      Of course!

    • @remonagrubbs9787
      @remonagrubbs9787 Рік тому

      Is mom or dad sick?

    • @NWM-cv4zl
      @NWM-cv4zl Рік тому +1

      @@remonagrubbs9787 haha no I’m a physician, this song keeps me going after tiring shifts.

  • @squisshhiieeee
    @squisshhiieeee Рік тому +1

    Every song you make, puts everything I'm feeling, into words.. It makes it a little easier.. And lets me know that I'm not alone. Thank you.. Truly. I feel like your songs save me. ❤

  • @evy_nataria
    @evy_nataria Рік тому +1

    This song is so powerful,heartbreaking and very true. Can really relate to this text and song,and the way you sing it conveys it beautifully.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +1

      I’m glad that this song can resonate with you😊

  • @Maca494
    @Maca494 Рік тому

    "will you keep me in your memory?"
    *slams fist on the table* bad Nathan. you knew what you were doing with that sentence
    beautiful song as always. your voice always takes us on a journey...

  • @nvm2.13.4
    @nvm2.13.4 Рік тому +1

    Uzun zamandır boğulu bir ruh halindeyim. Bana o kadar iyi geldiniz ki. Size minnettarım. Yalnız olmadığımı bilmek iyi geliyor. Umarım bu günleri atlatıp eski pozitif günlerimize dönebiliriz.

  • @mischasteen8262
    @mischasteen8262 Рік тому +2

    Dear Nathan, I don't comment much, but I listen to your every song and am following your journey since the beginning, when I came across your song Lonely. I appreciate your songs so much. The music, lyrics, emotions. Everything. It makes me feel things and most of them are very relatable to me. This one especially, because I've been dealing with depressions basically since I was a kid. I just want to tell you how much you've grown since then and that I'm proud of you. You deserve many more listeners and views, but at the same time I have a feeling that living in a spotlight as a big star might destroy this honest, sensitive and artistic side of you, because that kind of world is too cruel. I'm looking forward to your other songs and when you finally release the album you spoke about in some comments. I wish you only the best and I will keep supporting you. Lots of love from Czech republic.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +1

      Hey! Thank you so much for your kind words. So grateful you took the time. Sorry to hear you've struggled with depression. It can be so unbearable. Sending all my love. To know you've stuck around since lonely means everything. Bless you

    • @mischasteen8262
      @mischasteen8262 Рік тому

      @@nathanwagner762 I even made my mom your fan too during those years haha. She says hi lol. We both love your music :)

  • @kosmosnkrazy980
    @kosmosnkrazy980 Рік тому

    To Nathan Wagner;
    You are amazing. An amazing song writer, an amazing inspiration and an amazing person. Your constant optimism in desperation and sympathy in all your works has made me feel things I didn't realise I could in some bad situations, and not just once. You have been, and always will be, one of my favourite music artists for the sheer dedication and heart you put into every song you make. Never stop spreading your message, you alone have already helped thousands of people. I don't say this often, but take pride in that. I wish you and anyone else reading this the very best. Take care and may God bless you. Thank you, Nathan, for not making me feel so alone.
    - Someone who needed and loves your music

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +1

      I love you. Thank you thank you thank you for your kind words. Means everything. Appreciate you taking the time. Bless you

    • @Unknown-wb1bf
      @Unknown-wb1bf Рік тому

      Amazing comment!

  • @phoenix-hb5hl
    @phoenix-hb5hl 2 місяці тому

    I genuinely only recently started getting into your music but your voice is- haunting. Amazing music and so relatable it’s incredible

  • @dragonwithsocks5112
    @dragonwithsocks5112 Рік тому +2

    Holy crap! The emotions hit me hard with this one. The instruments mixed with the vocals are so powerful. I'm so glad I found your music

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +1

      Ahhhh thank you! I gave this one all my effort! So glad you liked it!

  • @eliferguson3422
    @eliferguson3422 Рік тому +2

    You deserve millions of followers!!! Your lyrics are so powerful, and your voice. ❤

  • @simonpeters3362
    @simonpeters3362 Рік тому

    Will I/we miss you when your gone? YES! Nathan Wagner will always miss you! x

  • @TheArrivalProductions
    @TheArrivalProductions Рік тому

    Okay, so having listened to this several times now, I can safely say this is essentially Nathan's "Stairway to Heaven" -For lack of better term.
    Nothing short of Phenomenal.

  • @JosephFigueroa3904
    @JosephFigueroa3904 Рік тому

    I have been listening to you for more than 4 years and I have never felt so encouraged since I started listening to your music, you helped me with your voice on many occasions, what you do is beautiful, a dear fan from Venezuela, I love you Nathan

  • @TheArrivalProductions
    @TheArrivalProductions Рік тому +1

    I jammed out to this yesterday, first time hearing it. Had no idea it was 9 minutes long.
    Best 9 minutes of guitar playing I think I've ever had.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому

      😍😍😍

    • @TheArrivalProductions
      @TheArrivalProductions Рік тому

      @@nathanwagner762 I think I speak for everyone when I say that we’re glad you are in a much better place now.
      As someone who had dealt with severe issues in the last few years, and thank G-d is now in a wonderful relationship with someone who makes it all worth it, I can safely say the road to recovery is very much an ongoing journey, but one I now have the strength to continue on.
      Your music has gotten me through some of the hardest times in recent years, and I have absolutely no doubt it will continue to do so for each and every one of us.
      You are my favorite personal artist, and one day, I’d love to collaborate.
      (Or in truth, just jam out)
      G-d bless!

  • @Bogeyxx
    @Bogeyxx Рік тому

    Being there right now. After 14 years with severe depression, the last 3 years with clinic and a lot of therapy made it a lot better. Not good but managable. But since yesterday I'm deep down the hole again. Sometimes its still just too hard to always keep track of the horizon, too hard to remain faithfull, just too many shadows...
    Sad that so many of us have to endure this. I wish you all the best.
    And thank you Nathan for sharing this with us. Following you for years and it is so helpfull.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому

      Sending all my love. Sorry to hear it's not been a great few days. Praying it gets better. Really appreciate you taking the time to listen. Could not be more grateful. Keep hangin in there

  • @drogan4932
    @drogan4932 Рік тому +1

    All of your songs are absolutely amazing, but, man, this has got to be the one that hits me hardest.
    It just fits how I've felt for the last 3 years.

  • @ValS0rna
    @ValS0rna Рік тому

    wow just the chills i was transport like in the galaxy when i see all my fear, my life , lost in myself and alone . Just wow

  • @נועהכהן-פ2ע
    @נועהכהן-פ2ע 11 місяців тому

    Thank you for all the songs you release, they touch me every time. I am writing this during the terrible time of the war between Israel and Hamas, I am from Israel and my cousin was kidnapped I saw terrible things being done to the citizens there and the words of the song feel as if they come from the hearts of those people I am so sad..
    please take care of each other.

  • @NerakH.-wp2of
    @NerakH.-wp2of Рік тому

    It's incredible how your music, the lyrics, the feeling with which you sing it can touch a sensitive chord within. If many people listened to your music, they would feel heard and grateful. There should be more people listening to your music, it's amazing and beautiful. Thanks Nathan.

  • @naila999
    @naila999 9 місяців тому +1

    i feel my pain in this masterpiece

  • @zkantor8107
    @zkantor8107 Рік тому +2

    Love this song Nathan! Calming yet haunting. The words really hit hard. Thanks for making this song man.

  • @gracemcomber6374
    @gracemcomber6374 Рік тому +2

    This one hits a little too close to home.... Thank you so much for blessing us with your talent. It's truly a God-given gift, and I am inexpressibly grateful for the music you release. Again, thank you

  • @cookie_n00b00dy
    @cookie_n00b00dy Рік тому +4

    I love your songs and I'm in love with your voice, it's amazing...
    It's sad how I and many others here can relate to your lyrics so much.
    I'm proud of everyone here, for being so brave for so long, it must have been exhausting. Y'all are enough and what's most important is, is that your hearts are still beating after all this hell...I love everyone here, you are not alone..

  • @sohaibanwar5552
    @sohaibanwar5552 Рік тому

    Another story wonderfully told. The dude will sing vocals for heavy instruments or something sweet but never losses the depth.
    Also this is the only artist that somehow avoids repetition in a song that's 3x the usual length.
    Waiting for a song about feeling like a lone wolf but social at the same time XD

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +1

      Haha thank you so much. Means the universe. really glad you liked it. I love that concept! I'm actually working on one called "Man vs. Animal" right now but that's more about the conscious/unconscious selves haha I
      ll have to think through the lone wolf concept!

    • @sohaibanwar5552
      @sohaibanwar5552 Рік тому

      @@nathanwagner762 that's actually sick tho! Kinda reminds me of the song paranoia in some way.

  • @CosmicZephyrus
    @CosmicZephyrus Рік тому +1

    It's funny this came out exactly when I needed it. I mentioned on another song I think it was "stay with you" that someone close to me was going away and finally Wednesday of this week he did leave. We both spent almost 2 years together and in that two years we grew this bond from nothing to something that goes beyond my understanding. We both dreaded Wednesday and when it was time, I felt nothing but depression. I still do. I feel slightly guilty moving on and doing things without him when everyday I did something with him.
    This song and "Drown" actually go hand in hand for me. Who will fix me now? It's a climbing battle but eventually I will be ok. I will not give up hope. Thank you so so much for making this...easier. Music is in my soul I can't compose it for the life of me so I rely on talented artists like you to be that composer and create the emotional pieces a lot of people look for.

  • @THEEGUARDIANANGEL
    @THEEGUARDIANANGEL 11 місяців тому +1

    Nathan, How could you possibly ever be depressed with a Beautiful Voice, Looks, and Amazing Smile, ❤!! My Husband has just left me After 45YR together , my first since i was 14 yrs old now 58 as of OCT.26, he left me for a girl in another country and she 30YR OLD, im such a FAILURE, UGLY, LOSER, OLD,UNLOVED, UNWANTED AND NOW DYING ALONE, 😢😢😢💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭!!!! GOD BLESS YOU YOUR MUSIC IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!!! THANK YOU CAN I HAVE THIS PLAYED AT MY FUNERAL 🙏 PLEASE 🙏 😢 😢😢💔💔💔💔❣️❣️

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  10 місяців тому

      I’m sorry to hear. Hope you stay strong through it all🙏 you are never alone

    • @THEEGUARDIANANGEL
      @THEEGUARDIANANGEL 10 місяців тому

      @nathanwagner762 Nathan, Thank You for Taking Time to read My Life story and Truly Caring, I'm in Northern, Ky if your Ever Close and I'm still here I'd Love To See You Play🤗❤️😘😇🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🫶🫶❣️God Bless You Sweetheart ❤️ 🙏

  • @HAPPYLIFELIVEIT
    @HAPPYLIFELIVEIT Рік тому

    Omg took my breath away😢... So got the feels ... Felt this soooo deeply

  • @pressaltf4forfreevbucks179
    @pressaltf4forfreevbucks179 Рік тому +3

    One of your best vocal tracks

  • @jollerandla8297
    @jollerandla8297 Рік тому

    I don't really know what to say or anyhing very positive at least, I've been on this path for most of my entire life and for far too long. All I have is the last hope I have left. And not giving up. One day at a time, no other choice anymore. All I can do is hope, regardless how low and deep I can fall. Thank you for the song, if I ever will share to someone how I've deeply felt for so long, this would be a song to give a glimpse.
    I hope also, that no one else would go through this, no one deserves this kind of pain.

  • @eiderj975
    @eiderj975 Рік тому +2

    Viejo, tu música salva vidas ❤❤ gracias

  • @Magorgames
    @Magorgames Рік тому

    Absolutely amazing song...not only the lyrics, but the melody itself describes perfectly how it feels like being in that dark place.
    Sometimes it gets better, sometimes gets worse and in those moments of weakness remember that you are not alone. We all fight together through music like this.
    Keep fighting and who knows, maybe one day you might become a shining beacon of hope for the others just like Nathan. ✨

  • @samualwipf1536
    @samualwipf1536 Рік тому

    I dunno if anyone will ever see this comment but this song hits soo hard it has me in tears. I hope whatever youre going through youll make it thru and come out on the other side❤️

  • @itsthegr8matt
    @itsthegr8matt Рік тому

    Goddamn. 8 minutes. What a rollercoaster of emotions. Amazing!

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому

      Ahhh thank you! Ideas kept flowing haha had to get them all down

  • @yousrarose3079
    @yousrarose3079 Рік тому +1

    wow! your song is so powerul, you catched all the untold emotions very well. and all your songs are masterpieces they are beautiful. keep going the great work. thank you

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +1

      Thank you thank you thank you so much. Means everything. really appreciate you taking the time to listen and comment

  • @ashe3605
    @ashe3605 Рік тому

    Currently going through this time in my life and the only good thing that stands out in my life right now is when I put my headphones on and listen to music, mainly yours

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +1

      So sorry to hear 🥺 I'll be praying it gets better. And it will. I'm really glad the music could help for the time being. Bless you Ashe

  • @mexiety
    @mexiety Рік тому

    as someone who's just come back from the psych ward about a month ago, i know. trust me i know. thank you for this song! it's so well done.
    you save lives with your music, nathan. love you

  • @justonramos3139
    @justonramos3139 Рік тому +1

    Omg wow this hits deep and same here

  • @briarrr__
    @briarrr__ 9 місяців тому

    I was having a hard time, but then I discovered this song. I've been loving your other music as well. I've never felt this close to a song before. You're doing great help to people, and I hope you know that. ❤

  • @beckykeane2512
    @beckykeane2512 Рік тому

    Thank you @nathan I can say that you have saved me more than one occasion and today was that day. Thank you for everything you do xxx

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому

      🥺 I love you. You're an absolute miracle. Bless you Becky

    • @beckykeane2512
      @beckykeane2512 Рік тому

      Bless you Nathan i love you please keep doing what your doing :) xx

  • @trentongetz5778
    @trentongetz5778 Рік тому

    I found your music about 2 months ago with spotify. All your songs are beautiful and mean a lot to me since i have OCD, anxiety, and depression. This song hits home. Thanks for making the song!

  • @rynl2076
    @rynl2076 Рік тому +1

    tired of me. 🖤Beautiful music, thanks

  • @rkk9tuddy752
    @rkk9tuddy752 Рік тому

    You are my favourite artist. Music that speaks to my soul. Truly inspiring Nathan.

  • @luckyenigmas
    @luckyenigmas Рік тому

    *leaves tissues* WOW. Just. Wow.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому

      Thank you so so so much for listening. What a blessing :)

  • @melanowa5970
    @melanowa5970 2 місяці тому

    Masterpiece.

  • @jakeup0118
    @jakeup0118 Рік тому +2

    Another amazing masterpiece of a song. You do such an amazing job on every single one of these. Keep up the amazing work.

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +1

      Thank you so much. Means everything. Really really appreciate it

  • @mastarshine2556
    @mastarshine2556 Рік тому +1

    Damn this HIT

  • @themountain7121
    @themountain7121 Рік тому +1

    THIS IS A 10/10

  • @anonmenhera2720
    @anonmenhera2720 Рік тому

    Just like the quality contant i asked for... Please never stop making your songs long

  • @jamesmccarthy8574
    @jamesmccarthy8574 3 місяці тому

    This song embraces me ( if anyone sees this learn what parental alienation is )

  • @naturannaturan5646
    @naturannaturan5646 Рік тому +1

    amazing as always

  • @simonpeters3362
    @simonpeters3362 Рік тому

    Nathan you sing/sound differently to others ... there is so much pain in your voice, its real and relatable ...

  • @restlesscow2137
    @restlesscow2137 Рік тому

    Every time man, your music is something else! Thank you yet again for making and uploading, it's an honour to listen to each one

  • @Kenaji510
    @Kenaji510 Рік тому +1

    Nathan you are one of my favorite artists, your songs are always amazing but once you see the lyrics you realize that it is a complete piece of art, congratulations! Regards from México! 🇲🇽
    PD: your songs inspire me bro

  • @Edwin_Klasen
    @Edwin_Klasen Рік тому

    You're the real deal. Such beauty, such dept. Thanks bro💚

  • @BiBoFan
    @BiBoFan Рік тому +5

    Wow this song left me Speechless 😭😭😭😭🤧 Everything I feel deep inside 😢 Thank you for writing this beautiful masterpiece Nathan❤️❤️My Birthday is July 1st so it's an early Birthday present🫶🥰

    • @nathanwagner762
      @nathanwagner762  Рік тому +2

      Ahhh happy birthday!!! Thanks so much for checking out the track :)

    • @BiBoFan
      @BiBoFan Рік тому

      @@nathanwagner762 Thank you Nathan😎 Of course. Your music always brings me joy 😊

  • @rabbitofwind
    @rabbitofwind Рік тому

    I kinda teared up listening to this.
    Thanks Nathan, it was beautiful

  • @FlorianZevedei
    @FlorianZevedei Рік тому +1

    Naaaaaathhhhaaaaaannnn!!!!! You nailed it agaaaaaiiiin ! This thing is so nuuuuuts! Love it ! Thank you ! Love you mate! Thank you for your human beeing ! Love you ! Take care !
    PS: an acoustic version would be interesting I think, ... (wishful thinking) 🙂

  • @kuronaialtani
    @kuronaialtani Рік тому

    Every single one of your songs digs into a part of me I don't often recognize, or even want to recognize at times
    But I love that, I love that your music can reach that part consistently and bring it forward
    One of very few artists that's managed to do that for so many years

  • @jessylabrie9298
    @jessylabrie9298 Місяць тому

    I would love to learn how to play this song on guitar. fantastic music

  • @makaylalujan7237
    @makaylalujan7237 Рік тому +1

    This song is so beautiful and amazing!!! You are amazing as always ❤❤.

  • @wayneasor6634
    @wayneasor6634 10 місяців тому

    Depression is just too powerful for me and anxiety

  • @DontDestroyTheSky
    @DontDestroyTheSky Рік тому

    perfect music, vocal and lyrics. You are very talanted. Thank you for share it

  • @VIgHtMe
    @VIgHtMe Рік тому +1

    Dude, I’m simply in love with your voice and creativity!😍 This is so meaningful and congratulations for this masterpiece!🧡