I finished watching it two years ago I now listening to the soundtracks all over again gives me that painful nostalgic feeling that actually hurts in the chest and I wanna rewatch it but I don't know if I can take all of the feelings again..especially Chris and Freddie's death. I remember actually choking in my tears
+mistery2301 effys counsellor knew that freddie loved effy but it was keeping him from counselling her even though she didnt want him as a counsellor so he got angry and killed freddie with a baseball bat
Skins is my favorite television series ever, The show left me with so many feelings and I just never felt so connected and into any other show. Season 2 was definitely my favorite. I wish more shows were like skins
BritBratTheCat I thought it was just me. It totally relates to how many kids and teenagers feel so shit nowadays and have escapism for reality and stuff.
***** it became shit when skins fire happened, killing off a main character with a sub plot made the main plot boring and uninteresting. the whole format was terrible
When I think about the Skins cast I can't help wonder the tv show was really entertaining, but I'm going to go out on a limb here and state the best ones were seasons 1-2 3 and 4 were decent, but as it stands every season after 2 just went down hill really slowly until season 5 and 6 which were crap, and 7 which wasn't how I pictured it would be. Perhaps they need a Skins movie to finalize it properly. And everyone should be in it from season 1-4 and their lives should interact with each other somehow instead of being solo scenarios well at least cassies scenario had 2 of them.
I love that Skins is not afraid to admit that life doesn't always work out, the way other teen dramas do. Not everyone goes to college where they make awesome connections and get the opportunity of a lifetime. Sometimes, youths get arrested or they get terminal cancer. That's life.
@@gabrielpr96354it’s life babe. Sometimes time is but a minute. They don’t want to focus on ONE specific storyline and i’m glad they didn’t. We got to meet and fall in love with sooo many characters. They grow up, experience life and new problems.
Looking at this picture I remember the scene when Chris died and Cassie left. I watched this over 6 years ago and my eye are still watering. So powerful, it left a scar in my mind ;(
Could have given me something You my everything You left me kneeling I was one of those people You, my everything For what it's worth For what it's worth For what it's worth You were my backbone when My body ached with wearyness You were my hometown when My heart was filled with loneliness Just as the dark was rising I heard you close the door again Just as the light turns off I know who I dream of Could have given me something You my everything You left me kneeling I was one of those people You, my everything You, my everything You, my everything
I just hope that one day they bring this show back with more talented and awesome actors. I loved every episode from season 1-7 imo best show ever made
Skins was my everything. Does anyone else have this painful nostalgic feeling when thinking of skins? All the feelings and emotions, that changed me forever…
@@Caitemaeslife Oh dear it could never wish to be close to skins. I was just saying that atleast it's better than when MTV tried to make skins US which turned out to be a trainwreck.
Aeterna oh i get you:) can’t lie i’m one of them people that adores skins so gets abit up tight when people compare it i will put my hands up and admit😂 and the american version of skins is horrendous x
I think the ending to Fire was perfect. A lot of people don't understand why it ended so morbidly. But it's because it's REALISTIC- as Skins has always been. The fact is that people lose themselves to addiction, people die, etc- and Skins has always demonstrated that. With Effy's character however, she never understood why things happened. She constantly wondered why so many bad things happened to such good people. By going to jail, she finally understood why it happened. It put her at ease.
Cook's episode was the only one that made sense to me and it's the only one that had that drama and emotions that all the other episodes of Skins have. I expected a lot more from Effy's because I adore her, and the one about Cassie just didn't make sense to me...
Could have given me something You my everything You left me kneeling I was one of those people You, my everything For what it's worth For what it's worth For what it's worth You were my backbone when My body ached with wearyness You were my hometown when My heart was filled with loneliness Just as the dark was rising I heard you close the door again Just as the light turns off I know who I dream of Could have given me something You my everything You left me kneeling I was one of those people You, my everything You, my everything You, my everything You are my only hope The truth that dealt the consequence I know you don't feel the same You're sensible but it doesn't make sense I know I'm gonna weep my heart out You know I'm gonna try much harder But it isn't the shit in my head Pulling me under this time Could have given me something You my everything You left me kneeling I was one of those people You, my everything You, my everything You, my everything (You, my everything You, my everything You, my everything) Could have given me something You my everything You left me kneeling I was one of those people You, my everything You, my everything You, my everything
I just think that since Gen 1 and 2 were so popular everyone had really high expectations of Gen 3. And after watching both seasons their expectations were let down and thats why most people dont like Season 5 & 6. Thats what I think though, I might be wrong. :)
+Anzu Nya You're right. I feel everyone get's so attached and protective over the original casts haha. Just watched the last two finally after not bothering and they're actually not bad.
When ever you think of skins you cant help but think of them three. They just really know how to capture your attention and really puncture your memories.
Skins always was, still is and forever will be my favourite show of all time I loved every minute of it, it really did define a generation and an era ❤️👌
Totally agree. Skins changes our lives in so many ways. No one who grew up with it can watch Fire without crying. This is so sad that this show is coming to an end...
Here's the story. I've revisited Halcyon Days album today, vibing and jamming in my room,and then it gets to the one of my favorites - You My Everything. My ears did not lie to me, I didn't recognize the version. Ran to my phone to compare spotify vers of a song and the one I had on phone all these years (downloaded manually back in 2013). Turns out album version and SKINS version slightly differs from each other. You could hear voice turning down on album vers right before the first chorus and there are some new-to-me vocal parts in the end. Still shocked while I'm writing this. I like skins version more even though they're almost the same. I guess bcz it's been with me all that time and didn't really dived into Halcyon Days ever before. I also found version on the album more complete and polished (which imho doesn't work for me) and I appreciate the version presented here the most, cuz it's kinda more "dirty" if I may say so. I'm glad I've finished the investigation cuz I swear I thought I've gone crazy lol. Peace out music geeks!
I watched 1,2,3,4 & 7 seasons of Skins many years ago, but didn't watched 5, 6 because I knew, that there is no Effy (it was important to me). But then some years later, I thought that it would be good idea to watch them someday in the future. If you watched Lost, you should remember Desmond Hume, who really likes Charles Dickens and has read all his books except one - "Our Mutual Friend" which he is going to read in a moment of utmost despair. I decided to keep 5, 6 seasons for watching when I would be in a moment of utmost despair. This spring (2020) I was infected with something similar to Covid-19 (I don't know what it really was, I had no ability to make test). I felt really bad, temperature was over 40, I was scared. And I thought "maybe it is that moment?". I downloaded 5, 6 seasons, but didn't dare to watch them. Some days later I felt better, and deleted seasons. So, someday Skins will be back to my life, and will make me happier in a day which will be the most terrible that I could imagine. Now Skins to me is something that began once, and never has finished. It's something that warms my soul when all is going bad, saying "we are always close to support you".
I miss skins so much one of the only shows I can watch over and over again without getting bored, there will never be a show like it I’ve never felt more connected to a show.
IM ADDICTED WITH THIS SONG BUT I JUST WISH THAT SKINS HAD AT LEAST 1 PERSON FROM GEN 3 BC IT WAS PERFECT AT LEAST MINI & ALO TO SEE THEIR LIFE WITH THE BABY OR RICH IF HE MOVED ON FROM GRACE
I miss Skins sooo much, I watched it on netflix (I dont live in the UK, i live in Amsterdam) but its my fav show ever. It describes teenage years so good, none like the other shows about puberty and shit. Skins for ever
time flies so fast.. still remember watching season 1 for the first time and being amazed at how much I could relate to the characters. Skins definitely changed me forever
Rewatch skins!!! It’s so fucking worth it! The emotional rollercoaster, the tears, the laughter, the uncertainty etc... it fucks with your head (because of your own personal demons that you relate to). I rewatched it a few months ago, and it’s helped me so much in life! ❤️
this things are not cool in real life... when you take drugs, party all the time and because of that friends get mental illnesses it is not the same feeling you get watching skins
I love reading the comments and see there are ppl who actually appreciate and even love the series. The fact that only very few of the ppl I know have seen the show really pisses me off
Skins forever changed me. I don't think any other show has ever done that to me. Thank You
Before Skins I was goofy and after I'm like fuck it and parties. I love the way it changed me I feel so nostalgic
I know that feeling. skins is life
I finished watching it two years ago I now listening to the soundtracks all over again gives me that painful nostalgic feeling that actually hurts in the chest and I wanna rewatch it but I don't know if I can take all of the feelings again..especially Chris and Freddie's death. I remember actually choking in my tears
+ONCERS PUERTORICO me too!
omg same. i will forever be grateful
I really want to rewatch Skins but I don't think I'm prepared for all the feelings all over again...
+Elizabeth Ciortuz Lol, I just did it and it was amazing.
I just finish it 2 months ago watching it after the 7th time on Netflix and I'm still confused Af how the kill Freddie lol
+mistery2301 effys counsellor knew that freddie loved effy but it was keeping him from counselling her even though she didnt want him as a counsellor so he got angry and killed freddie with a baseball bat
same !!!! :(
same !!!! :(
It's terrible how little publicity this song gets! It's one of her best.
exactly man! I mean, till then I loved On My Mind
👎..
I agree
True
Jack Young The best songs are the ones anybody knows
Skins was my everything....
u still have the kitchen though
florian972 and youre still single
ratscastle489 OH DAMN that was a nice one
YC same haha I love skins ❤️
Monkeyman
This tv show broke my heart for forever
Watching Skins hit me hard in the feelings.
+Sterbin me too, me too
same. It's such an amazing show
me too gosh so much i miss this show
Tell me about it, kid...
Does anyone else really miss chris? I MISS HIS "FUCK IT" REMARKS
Gabi Salvadorhernandez I cried for hours after he died, I loved him.
Khaleesi Clouds same!
Skins change me forever , it show me another vision of the world , of the things and stuffs
I love skins , it's the best TV program
+Fabiana Rodrigues Me too :) I totally agree with you it is probably the best tv series :)
me too, i'm totally agree. it's the best tv series I've ever seen
+Anita Clara yeah! 👍😊😉
Fabiana Rodrigues I know what you mean it shaped me for who I am today ❤️
tem toda razão
Skins is my favorite television series ever, The show left me with so many feelings and I just never felt so connected and into any other show. Season 2 was definitely my favorite. I wish more shows were like skins
BritBratTheCat I thought it was just me. It totally relates to how many kids and teenagers feel so shit nowadays and have escapism for reality and stuff.
Likeeverrrrrr
I think the closest shows that I can think of that are similar to how skins was is skam, euphoria and druck. All excellent solid shows in my opinion
Gen 2 is pure art.
Anybody listening to this In 2024
Listening to find it for my DnB chaos USB
I listen this every autumn, let’s meet here next year 😉
kaya is so gorgeous
you should see/hear she speaking Portuguese(her mother is Brazilian)😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 it's so beautiful, she has a cute Portuguese accent. ✌
+Natalie speak português?
+Natalie Speak Brazilian?
Cassie and Effy are so beautiful, and ellie's stuff is so perfect
Anghelo Y S Lc But what about FOOKING COOK
I miss skins soo much! :(
+Justice-Eri don't can just...over ;-;
Fuck I miss skins so much. Why did it have to end!? D:
I KNOW RIGHT!
***** it became shit when skins fire happened, killing off a main character with a sub plot made the main plot boring and uninteresting. the whole format was terrible
Claudia Valenzuela
The only good part of season 7 was Cook's story.. and the ending was kinda disappointing..
JobeMinacum I think out of all season 7. Cook had the most interesting but I wish there was more skins
I know, right?😢 I watched it all day and all night and now all the other serials seem meaningless, boring, etc.
Skinssss i miss it so much! gosh i miss cassie
i miss naomi and emily! i miss panda and thomas! i miss skins...
Robert Hernandez did you notice all of them are making awesome movies now? Effy in The Maze Runner, Cook in Unbroken, and Emily in Finding Carter haha
Haha yeah. i cant see them and avoid thinking on skins and the things they did...
Kamila Moura Finding Carter is okay, but I don't like Emily with american accent :(
When I think about the Skins cast I can't help wonder the tv show was really entertaining, but I'm going to go out on a limb here and state the best ones were seasons 1-2 3 and 4 were decent, but as it stands every season after 2 just went down hill really slowly until season 5 and 6 which were crap, and 7 which wasn't how I pictured it would be.
Perhaps they need a Skins movie to finalize it properly. And everyone should be in it from season 1-4 and their lives should interact with each other somehow instead of being solo scenarios well at least cassies scenario had 2 of them.
I love that Skins is not afraid to admit that life doesn't always work out, the way other teen dramas do. Not everyone goes to college where they make awesome connections and get the opportunity of a lifetime. Sometimes, youths get arrested or they get terminal cancer. That's life.
@@gabrielpr96354it’s life babe. Sometimes time is but a minute. They don’t want to focus on ONE specific storyline and i’m glad they didn’t. We got to meet and fall in love with sooo many characters. They grow up, experience life and new problems.
Kaya aka the pretiest human being in this Earth.
I think that all of us would like to delete memory and watch Skins again.
I’d give anything to watch it for the first time again
Skins forever :) im rewatching all the series right now
VibeWithTam x me too 😁👍🏼
I'm sorry for the destroyed heart in advance.
Me too but 1 year after you haha
Where can I watch skins online?
Dimitra Tasinou Dont do it m8, google "piratebay proxy list" and choose a green one, the rest is self explanatory :)
Looking at this picture I remember the scene when Chris died and Cassie left. I watched this over 6 years ago and my eye are still watering. So powerful, it left a scar in my mind ;(
soonsims that was so sad. Chris :'(.
I fuckin' miss Cassie, thin, blond and says WOW a lot
And Sid, Tony all the first generation
Naomi's end was one of the saddest in the world. After all they went through, they deserved an happy ending. But life is unpredictable...
This is better than the album version !!!
Exactly what I was thinking!
Amen
This song has to hit America's top billboard. I'll be waiting...
Could have given me something
You my everything
You left me kneeling
I was one of those people
You, my everything
For what it's worth
For what it's worth
For what it's worth
You were my backbone when
My body ached with wearyness
You were my hometown when
My heart was filled with loneliness
Just as the dark was rising
I heard you close the door again
Just as the light turns off
I know who I dream of
Could have given me something
You my everything
You left me kneeling
I was one of those people
You, my everything
You, my everything
You, my everything
This song is addictive. Cant just listen once, it has to be repeated.
The nostalgia is kicking in
I just hope that one day they bring this show back with more talented and awesome actors. I loved every episode from season 1-7 imo best show ever made
Skins was my everything. Does anyone else have this painful nostalgic feeling when thinking of skins? All the feelings and emotions, that changed me forever…
oh definitely!
skins is a fucking legend guys!!!
It would be EPIC if the Series was to come back.
this version is sooo much better then the one on the album
Yes
Can't believe that we are in 2020 and we still dont have the fourth generation :"c
I know right. Like, this show will be perfect on Netflix or other streaming platform
@Emily Exactly. Closest we have to a 4th gen is Euphoria, realistically..
Aeterna not really as that’s set america. i can see what you’re saying but it’s nothing like skins. x
@@Caitemaeslife Oh dear it could never wish to be close to skins. I was just saying that atleast it's better than when MTV tried to make skins US which turned out to be a trainwreck.
Aeterna oh i get you:) can’t lie i’m one of them people that adores skins so gets abit up tight when people compare it i will put my hands up and admit😂 and the american version of skins is horrendous x
The first time I was on the plane this song helped with my anxiety. Now every time I fly I listen to it. Today I landed safely again
I can't help but to think of Freddie when I see cook and effy. :(
Anyone still coming to listen this amazing track? Hard to believe it was released 7 years ago...how time flies 🙃
Almost 10 years now 😢
Yep
I think the ending to Fire was perfect. A lot of people don't understand why it ended so morbidly. But it's because it's REALISTIC- as Skins has always been. The fact is that people lose themselves to addiction, people die, etc- and Skins has always demonstrated that. With Effy's character however, she never understood why things happened. She constantly wondered why so many bad things happened to such good people. By going to jail, she finally understood why it happened. It put her at ease.
Cassie's Team, definitly. Cause... she's just Wow! This song is freakin cool ^^
Cook's episode was the only one that made sense to me and it's the only one that had that drama and emotions that all the other episodes of Skins have. I expected a lot more from Effy's because I adore her, and the one about Cassie just didn't make sense to me...
Really? Effy's was shit? For me it was Cook > Effy >>> Cassie
Cassie got fucked by his father in GoT
i 'am also in the cassie team and sid they are my favorite characters
Could have given me something
You my everything
You left me kneeling
I was one of those people
You, my everything
For what it's worth
For what it's worth
For what it's worth
You were my backbone when
My body ached with wearyness
You were my hometown when
My heart was filled with loneliness
Just as the dark was rising
I heard you close the door again
Just as the light turns off
I know who I dream of
Could have given me something
You my everything
You left me kneeling
I was one of those people
You, my everything
You, my everything
You, my everything
You are my only hope
The truth that dealt the consequence
I know you don't feel the same
You're sensible but it doesn't make sense
I know I'm gonna weep my heart out
You know I'm gonna try much harder
But it isn't the shit in my head
Pulling me under this time
Could have given me something
You my everything
You left me kneeling
I was one of those people
You, my everything
You, my everything
You, my everything
(You, my everything
You, my everything
You, my everything)
Could have given me something
You my everything
You left me kneeling
I was one of those people
You, my everything
You, my everything
You, my everything
If you haven't watch Skins U.K. from Series one to Series seven... then are you even really living?
+love raee this just has to be a joke right?
+MegaMewKitty I really liked Gen 3. I just hated the endings everyone got. But Gen 3 can still not beat the first ones.
I just think that since Gen 1 and 2 were so popular everyone had really high expectations of Gen 3. And after watching both seasons their expectations were let down and thats why most people dont like Season 5 & 6. Thats what I think though, I might be wrong. :)
+DaRkLoRd1061 I just skipped those season lmao
+Anzu Nya You're right. I feel everyone get's so attached and protective over the original casts haha. Just watched the last two finally after not bothering and they're actually not bad.
It's 2016 and I still don't believe that Naomi died, poor Emily :'( I cried so much...
Naomi died from cancer, didn't you see the show? :o
+Sassy Cece what???
+Sassy Cece y r u replying to urself xD
This is the song you play when you've lost all your childhood friends and your crush but you're finally over it
When ever you think of skins you cant help but think of them three. They just really know how to capture your attention and really puncture your memories.
so much feelings... i miss skins so much
I have so much emotions connected to this Song.. connected to skins... I can cry instant by listening to it. Skins changed me.
I'm addict on this song, so perfect.
Fuck Yeah . (Y)
for some reason, this version is slightly different and better than what's on the album
Agreed
Fuck this makes me want to watch the series again 💔 It always gets me through the hard times… and somehow breaks my heart even more
I miss Skins so much! :'(
I must confess, I'm addicted to Ellie Goulding's angelic voice.
Skins always was, still is and forever will be my favourite show of all time I loved every minute of it, it really did define a generation and an era ❤️👌
Totally agree. Skins changes our lives in so many ways. No one who grew up with it can watch Fire without crying. This is so sad that this show is coming to an end...
Here's the story. I've revisited Halcyon Days album today, vibing and jamming in my room,and then it gets to the one of my favorites - You My Everything. My ears did not lie to me, I didn't recognize the version. Ran to my phone to compare spotify vers of a song and the one I had on phone all these years (downloaded manually back in 2013). Turns out album version and SKINS version slightly differs from each other. You could hear voice turning down on album vers right before the first chorus and there are some new-to-me vocal parts in the end. Still shocked while I'm writing this. I like skins version more even though they're almost the same. I guess bcz it's been with me all that time and didn't really dived into Halcyon Days ever before. I also found version on the album more complete and polished (which imho doesn't work for me) and I appreciate the version presented here the most, cuz it's kinda more "dirty" if I may say so. I'm glad I've finished the investigation cuz I swear I thought I've gone crazy lol. Peace out music geeks!
Amazing research
What is this version called? Is it just called skins remix? I hope they add it to Spotify
This is the best version of this song. The one on Spotify has a slightly different beat and it doesn't compare.
I watched Skins when I was 13 years old. Now I’m 21. I miss those days…
I wish Effy and Cook would end up together ❤️
I have watched skins from the whole beggining and effy is still My fave
Effie's right eye(her right) highlight looks like a heart!
Why do you guys miss skins? it's still here. I've watched it over twice probably
think the same
45thecooldude There's only so many times you can watch it over
+Maia lily once is the limit for me. Can't see myself sitting through 40 minute episodes all over again, not for a while at least.
I watched 1,2,3,4 & 7 seasons of Skins many years ago, but didn't watched 5, 6 because I knew, that there is no Effy (it was important to me).
But then some years later, I thought that it would be good idea to watch them someday in the future. If you watched Lost, you should remember Desmond Hume, who really likes Charles Dickens and has read all his books except one - "Our Mutual Friend" which he is going to read in a moment of utmost despair.
I decided to keep 5, 6 seasons for watching when I would be in a moment of utmost despair.
This spring (2020) I was infected with something similar to Covid-19 (I don't know what it really was, I had no ability to make test). I felt really bad, temperature was over 40, I was scared. And I thought "maybe it is that moment?".
I downloaded 5, 6 seasons, but didn't dare to watch them. Some days later I felt better, and deleted seasons.
So, someday Skins will be back to my life, and will make me happier in a day which will be the most terrible that I could imagine.
Now Skins to me is something that began once, and never has finished. It's something that warms my soul when all is going bad, saying "we are always close to support you".
Ellie Goulding is so underrated.
This song suits the series perfectly❤️
skins was the sh*t back then!
Did anyone else notice that there is a heart in Kaya/Effy's eye?
Bruh what a visión u have
It was for Freddie 😭
I miss skins so much one of the only shows I can watch over and over again without getting bored, there will never be a show like it I’ve never felt more connected to a show.
I thank skins for helping me through the tedious growing up section of life. love this show always!
Only Ellie's voice can be mixed like this
loved effy and cook story!!!
I miss Skins!! omg tha feels
IM ADDICTED WITH THIS SONG BUT I JUST WISH THAT SKINS HAD AT LEAST 1 PERSON FROM GEN 3 BC IT WAS PERFECT AT LEAST MINI & ALO TO SEE THEIR LIFE WITH THE BABY OR RICH IF HE MOVED ON FROM GRACE
This is embarrassing
@@kamfrusciante we all have those moments
@kam true character development
@@kamfrusciante Its the all caps for me
Alo was gross
I listen this and I cry because I love skins so much
Literally my favorite song by Ellie
I miss this TV Show too much..♥
Fucking love this song and kaya is a great actress
I miss Skins sooo much, I watched it on netflix (I dont live in the UK, i live in Amsterdam) but its my fav show ever. It describes teenage years so good, none like the other shows about puberty and shit. Skins for ever
This song is an end for me
Lu'
skins and ellie goulding, forever in love
Skins is everything in my life
Rewatching and realize some things I didn't get it at the time, this show is so freaking intense
Skins is forever in our hearts
time flies so fast.. still remember watching season 1 for the first time and being amazed at how much I could relate to the characters. Skins definitely changed me forever
Taking a moment to dedicate this to Naomi and Emily.
I miss Maxxie and Anwar!
Skins Forever
Skins + Ellie Goulding = Perfection
Fire, Pure and Rise episodes were great!
Cassie, Effy, Cook, Sid, Rich, Grace, Alo and Tony ❤️
Rewatch skins!!! It’s so fucking worth it! The emotional rollercoaster, the tears, the laughter, the uncertainty etc... it fucks with your head (because of your own personal demons that you relate to). I rewatched it a few months ago, and it’s helped me so much in life! ❤️
her eyes theyre so mesmerizing
So sad that SO7 was so short;( It isn't fair i missed them so much and finally there back for 6 serie....And i was like Are u fucking kidding me :@
Season of 1 will forever be the shit.
Skins + this song = masterpiece
Skins best show to watch specially when you know you missed out so much in life, it gives you hope to know that it's never too late
this things are not cool in real life... when you take drugs, party all the time and because of that friends get mental illnesses it is not the same feeling you get watching skins
cant help but think of Naomily when i hear this ...
Same
Skins is epic!
Good music !! Polska pozdrawia !
I love reading the comments and see there are ppl who actually appreciate and even love the series.
The fact that only very few of the ppl I know have seen the show really pisses me off
Better than the version of Halcyon Days.
Ley GouldGrant What is the difference?
charmedpowerbabe this verson is a less electronic-based production, and the HD version is more electronic-based with less strings.
You know where I can get this version? I mean aside from UA-cam
+Ley GouldGrant Agreeee!!!
I love halcyon Days album and lights album
Aaahhh SKINS♥️
I never realised this song was written for Skins! I think I prefer this mix to the album version.
This version was so much better than the one that made the album
But seriously this song is gold and I'm glad it was in Skins Fire because Ellie is amazing and her voice is literally perfection!!
Season 6 was my absolute favorite, Rich is the love of my life