i promise to not end my life

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  • Опубліковано 21 гру 2024

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  • @joshuaallenmusicyt
    @joshuaallenmusicyt  Рік тому +334

    I LOVE YOU GUYS YOU MAKE ME SO HAPPY .

    • @deadus2884
      @deadus2884 Рік тому +13

      Thank you for this song, my friend. It's truly something

    • @ezraking88
      @ezraking88 6 місяців тому +2

      Legend 🏆✅

    • @calskywalker95
      @calskywalker95 6 місяців тому +1

      I think it’s you who makes us happy, that’s why we’re here!😊

  • @RHP0292
    @RHP0292 Рік тому +174

    I made it out of the frying pan and into the freezer. That really hits hard.

  • @buira9482
    @buira9482 Рік тому +504

    UA-cam keeps recommending me random music with less than 200 views and this popped up. Awesome stuff, I hope you get more listeners!

    • @joshuaallenmusicyt
      @joshuaallenmusicyt  Рік тому +58

      THANK YOU I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY!!! IM GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT!!!

    • @halguy5745
      @halguy5745 Рік тому +20

      youtube music recommendation algorithm is surprisingly good. maybe even the best

    • @josiahanderson9057
      @josiahanderson9057 Рік тому +1

      Dude me too and I keep finding lots of rad songs

    • @Broomstickrid3r
      @Broomstickrid3r Рік тому +1

    • @dellarae
      @dellarae Рік тому +1

      Saaammmeee like last couple months! Not a bad thing just so random

  • @wheezerAOTY
    @wheezerAOTY 6 місяців тому +71

    i have no idea why this is in my recommended feed, but the second i saw it, i knew i had to listen to it. this is beautiful. good job man

  • @armandovelasquez361
    @armandovelasquez361 Рік тому +34

    THE ALGORYTM BLESSED ME WITH THIS GOLD, INSTA LIKE

  • @TDruzhok
    @TDruzhok Рік тому +762

    Not going to trauma dump in the comments, so let’s just say YT has some oddly specific timing

  • @orbismworldbuilding8428
    @orbismworldbuilding8428 Рік тому +46

    This is a very touching music
    Someone else said its like a hug, i describe it as warm. Not about positivity, but genuine and good. Like medicine, its cough syrup.
    Thank you for this song

    • @houdinislove2492
      @houdinislove2492 6 місяців тому

      Howni felt with current joy with warm jets

  • @fallenangelcrimson
    @fallenangelcrimson 8 місяців тому +172

    one’s own disconnection from themselves…
    i look at the child in the picture that i don’t remember being…
    there’s no real oneself…
    just several different characters we live as…

    • @w4v2
      @w4v2 7 місяців тому +3

      what character are you?

    • @oightKoreraAreEditable
      @oightKoreraAreEditable 6 місяців тому +1

      @@w4v2 A good starter question

    • @SuperFnLagers-ni6if
      @SuperFnLagers-ni6if 6 місяців тому +1

      Deepness.

    • @joem7692
      @joem7692 4 місяці тому +5

      and the different versions of you that exist inside of everyone else’s minds. its too much to bear

    • @bluetoneoyasumi7759
      @bluetoneoyasumi7759 13 годин тому

      L.A.L.L

  • @limbothebiggay1709
    @limbothebiggay1709 Рік тому +15

    I just stumbled upon this at 2am and I am confused but its strangely soothing.

  • @bm1ofamillion
    @bm1ofamillion Рік тому +22

    This has a really neat sound, and a nice touch to sample FFX. Probably my favorite game of all time :)

  • @ladylordeve
    @ladylordeve 8 місяців тому +85

    It's going to be two months since soon and I still have to say this to myself everyday, having this to listen today made it all a bit more conforting

    • @geckogaming3658
      @geckogaming3658 7 місяців тому +5

      💜glad you stayed

    • @emanuelemonti5788
      @emanuelemonti5788 5 місяців тому +1

      You said two months. I hope you’re still here

    • @anjubelantara6380
      @anjubelantara6380 5 місяців тому +1

      Hey, hope youre still with us

    • @sefsprite
      @sefsprite 28 днів тому

      glad you're still here friend! :) keep it up, and remember that you're loved!

  • @obsidianvamp
    @obsidianvamp Рік тому +78

    This song was my introduction to you, & let me tell you, it’s absolutely phenomenal. I just listened to everything you have uploaded right now & I’m absolutely ecstatic to see what you release next. Bravo!

    • @joshuaallenmusicyt
      @joshuaallenmusicyt  Рік тому +23

      AW OH MY GOSH THANK YOU IM SO GRATEFUL AND HAPPY THAT YOU ENJOYED THIS AND CHECKED OUT EVERYTHING. THERE IS MORE TO COME!!!

  • @rickysaucedo5002
    @rickysaucedo5002 5 місяців тому +24

    If youre reading this, I know it hurts and everything you hoped of accomplishing has left us. But the fact that youre reading this means you hvent given up yet and idk you but I love you

  • @saai4life
    @saai4life 6 місяців тому +23

    Here before this blows up everywhere and becomes that one song everyone uses in an emotional video

  • @tahinisauce3595
    @tahinisauce3595 Рік тому +19

    This feels very comforting. Like a hug. Great work!

    • @joshuaallenmusicyt
      @joshuaallenmusicyt  Рік тому +7

      thank you, i think i need a hug after all these nice comments i love it have a nice day .

    • @tahinisauce3595
      @tahinisauce3595 Рік тому +4

      @@joshuaallenmusicyt virtual hug coming your way!

    • @joshuaallenmusicyt
      @joshuaallenmusicyt  Рік тому +4

      @@tahinisauce3595 I LOVE YOU

  • @w0lfgang_parasyte
    @w0lfgang_parasyte Рік тому +14

    it’s only been 3 weeks since i first listened to this but i keep coming back. beautiful song, thank you for putting this out here.

  • @dahsarepop6700
    @dahsarepop6700 6 місяців тому +75

    Well, I guess I won't end my life.

    • @sefsprite
      @sefsprite 28 днів тому +2

      i hope you continue to stay here then :) 🫂

    • @Typemooon
      @Typemooon 27 днів тому +1

      @@sefspritecan you also say that to me

    • @AnnekaLarwood
      @AnnekaLarwood 26 днів тому +1

      @@Typemooon hoping you’ll stay with us bro

  • @mysteriousman3531
    @mysteriousman3531 7 місяців тому +24

    I absolutely love it when videos have a small bit of voice audio. This is an amazing video. Keep up the good work

  • @chrisshick9480
    @chrisshick9480 Рік тому +52

    Perfect wake up music when you get fired from your job 4 days before Thanksgiving ...🖤

    • @tahinisauce3595
      @tahinisauce3595 11 місяців тому +15

      Hey man, I know it's been two months since you commented, but I hope you are in a better place right now. Keep being strong

    • @nwshinanzum
      @nwshinanzum 6 місяців тому +2

      Hope things are better now...❤️

    • @Ava-km7tl
      @Ava-km7tl 5 місяців тому +2

      I hope you’re okay now ❤ You are loved

    • @sefsprite
      @sefsprite 28 днів тому

      i'm so sorry! :( hope you're in a better place now-don't give up! 🫂

    • @chrisshick9480
      @chrisshick9480 28 днів тому +1

      @sefsprite ty it's pretty good over here currently I hope the same for you!

  • @Ibrahim-df1df
    @Ibrahim-df1df 7 місяців тому +90

    I’ve seen that kid in a nightmare.
    This song is tragically good.

    • @soldierman3828
      @soldierman3828 7 місяців тому +18

      nightmare? fr? hes my pluh he chill, ion why he do that

    • @dylansmith1756
      @dylansmith1756 7 місяців тому +4

      he's also been in my nightmares

  • @ChristinaFromYoutube
    @ChristinaFromYoutube 6 місяців тому +15

    At 2:30 when the feedback and percussion stops it has the effect of "wait, come back! Don't go!"
    That's such an interesting feeling to be able to replicate in music!!

    • @wheezerAOTY
      @wheezerAOTY 6 місяців тому +2

      oh that's cool! i never noticed that

  • @2fayeLa
    @2fayeLa 6 місяців тому +4

    This made me feel something I haven't felt in a little while. It's feels better.

  • @MatTOcho-ks1yj
    @MatTOcho-ks1yj 6 місяців тому +4

    This song was so good! Its like I couldn't even describe it, it wasnt negative or positive it was like it was in the middle, the colors of the thumbnail almost descibe the music, Awesome work!

  • @Melancholicgaurav
    @Melancholicgaurav Місяць тому +1

    The timing is oddly specific for me and looks like so is for many others here. I can relate to it completely.

  • @Biohazmat21
    @Biohazmat21 6 місяців тому +6

    THE FFX SAMPLE! This was already so good and that was such a unique way of using the lines, gave it new meaning. Excellent song 😊👍

  • @Lynrowen
    @Lynrowen 5 місяців тому +10

    Holy shit. A final Fantasy X sample in a song? Well done.

  • @maxfrezen-latynin4226
    @maxfrezen-latynin4226 Рік тому +3

    I shivered a lot at 0:06 seconds. That really tells the story I think. Stay blessed

  • @MamaNeedsaDeanBlunt
    @MamaNeedsaDeanBlunt Рік тому +3

    Just discovered your work! This is my first song of yours I’m listening to and I love it so much, really reminds me of Sign Crushes Motorist! I can’t wait to hear what else you create🙏😋

  • @caylemsepeda4845
    @caylemsepeda4845 Рік тому +6

    Sharing this on my Tumblr to feel something

    • @sefsprite
      @sefsprite 28 днів тому

      hope you are still with us 🫂❤️‍🩹

  • @russianpatriot5465
    @russianpatriot5465 6 місяців тому +7

    this sent shivers down my spine

  • @rippog5449
    @rippog5449 11 місяців тому +2

    Watched this go from a few hundred views to thousands, I can’t stop coming back it’s a new safe space

  • @joydividing
    @joydividing 7 місяців тому +2

    Thank you, UA-cam for recommending me this.
    Great song, love the spoken word/sampled audio and the static.

  • @NoahGKH
    @NoahGKH Рік тому +6

    This is truly amazing, I wasn't sure what to expect listening to it but I'm not disappointed keep it up dude!

  • @eb6700
    @eb6700 Рік тому +26

    This shit evokes feelings I try to repress. My mom got admitted to a hospital for her depression and I know I’ll never experience what she’s going through but I can’t help but think that if I was healthy and didn’t have stuff wrong with me that made her worry maybe she’d be alright. Fuck depression, your music is top notch though👌

    • @tahinisauce3595
      @tahinisauce3595 Рік тому +5

      Hey man, sending lots of love to you and your mom. Times are hard, but hopefully it will get better at the end

    • @eb6700
      @eb6700 Рік тому +2

      @@tahinisauce3595 thank you man I definitely appreciate it🤛

    • @restlessparadox1953
      @restlessparadox1953 6 місяців тому

      i hope u know this wasnt ur fault man. i hope u made it through and things got at least a little better, i hope there is love in ur life and u can *both* get the support u need. all the love to u and ur mom, still.

  • @Mister_Feelgood
    @Mister_Feelgood Рік тому +9

    This song makes my soul vibrate. Not sure if it makes sense, but still. Great job chief

    • @joshuaallenmusicyt
      @joshuaallenmusicyt  Рік тому +2

      IT MAKES MY SOUL VIBRATE TOO THANK YOU HAVE AN AMAZING DAY!!! DONT WORRY IT MAKES SENSE I TOTALLY GET IT THATS THE VIBE I WENT FOR LOL

  • @Apathyqt
    @Apathyqt 8 місяців тому +3

    goose bumps my friend., the feeling this gives. MUSIC IS CRAZY

  • @nightmare-nightmarenightma1147
    @nightmare-nightmarenightma1147 5 днів тому +2

    I don't like how relevant this is to me rn
    I need UA-cam to stop doing this

  • @chip00p
    @chip00p Рік тому +4

    I keep coming back to this, it's fantastic

  • @deadus2884
    @deadus2884 Рік тому +30

    That is one of the best things i heard in a long time.
    It made me feel widest range of emotions most of which i cant even understand
    Wow, just wow
    You've touched something unfamilliar in me. Thank you

    • @joshuaallenmusicyt
      @joshuaallenmusicyt  Рік тому +10

      ur gonna make me cry that’s so sweet of you to say. im glad you enjoyed it and im glad the music was able to touch you in that way. that makes me really happy :)) thank you for your kind words and support much love to you

  • @ValentineEcklund-o3p
    @ValentineEcklund-o3p Рік тому +4

    Elegant in a semicatacl6smic clysmic tenor❤the vibes redunculus....😂

  • @tabithasanders8131
    @tabithasanders8131 8 місяців тому +2

    The exact song I needed at this point in time -- thank you.

  • @ahmadfaroun2567
    @ahmadfaroun2567 5 місяців тому +2

    this randomly pops up on my feed after 2 days of thinking how I'm going to end my life

  • @raayarhyiun
    @raayarhyiun 11 місяців тому +2

    This is so strange yet good, the voice also sounds like Hwei in english dabbing haha

    • @catjammy1099
      @catjammy1099 10 місяців тому +1

      The vocal part is from Tidus in Final Fantasy 10! :D

  • @letsplayfreakde1273
    @letsplayfreakde1273 5 місяців тому

    Damn, this hits different rn.
    This is absolutely beautiful man.

  • @MagicMason1000
    @MagicMason1000 Рік тому +3

    I didn't know what to expect going into this, but I liked it way more than I expected! Will listen to more of your stuff :)

  • @acronym.4328
    @acronym.4328 7 місяців тому +3

    The moment I found this video and saw the thumbnail my immediate thought was the kid kinda looks like a young AVGN. The song is great too, quite somber but charming.

    • @joshuaallenmusicyt
      @joshuaallenmusicyt  6 місяців тому

      I do??????

    • @acronym.4328
      @acronym.4328 6 місяців тому +1

      @@joshuaallenmusicyt If you just look at AVGN for a tiny bit, you'll see the similarities. It's not a bad thing though, I just wanted to point that out because I can see it somehow lol

    • @joshuaallenmusicyt
      @joshuaallenmusicyt  6 місяців тому +1

      @@acronym.4328 nah you’re good bro I think it’s funny!

    • @acronym.4328
      @acronym.4328 6 місяців тому +1

      @@joshuaallenmusicyt I'm glad, swell work on the song here btw :)

  • @JustDontAskY
    @JustDontAskY 5 місяців тому +1

    I'm loving the production

  • @dephtons
    @dephtons 8 місяців тому +3

    This is actually amazing, keep it up ❤

  • @ChristinaFromYoutube
    @ChristinaFromYoutube 6 місяців тому +2

    A hug from you.
    Thank you ❤

  • @Chari-ty
    @Chari-ty 11 місяців тому +3

    surely there must be more to this amazing piece of art..

  • @kerokerokeroppi6399
    @kerokerokeroppi6399 Місяць тому

    the timing of finding this is CRAZY, I never planned to do it but something rlly scary just happened to me a few days ago

  • @weslatind22
    @weslatind22 Рік тому +2

    Okay.. my ears love this! Ty

  • @welayinthorns747
    @welayinthorns747 7 місяців тому

    The timing of this is unreal. Cant wait to listen to more of your music. God bless 🖤

  • @priestofcrab4043
    @priestofcrab4043 Рік тому +1

    This is very interesting, very intimate. I feel like it'll touch a lot of people. Sadly, it doesn't quite sit with me even though I enjoy it somewhat. Don't give up skeleton!

  • @travismazur7662
    @travismazur7662 5 місяців тому +1

    Funny how music and words not being sung can invoke such feelings and emotions

  • @roachthing
    @roachthing 5 місяців тому +2

    young sheldon

  • @eduardohernandezdelacruz3515
    @eduardohernandezdelacruz3515 Рік тому +2

    Wow the name of the creator, and music name's really, really slaps my soul.

  • @Skurmushy
    @Skurmushy 28 днів тому

    underrated gem

  • @behelit1997
    @behelit1997 Місяць тому +1

    Don't even remember being in this video, but seen a comment from the artist himself i liked. Jeez, i was so f'd up, I don't even remember i was here.

  • @PuGoRaPTR
    @PuGoRaPTR 17 днів тому +1

    the thumbnail didn't load so i clicked the video to see if its 3 minutes of strange music or 3 minutes of someone ranting to a camera about how much their life sucks

  • @beyza4339
    @beyza4339 Місяць тому

    I've hit the bottom multiple times and I'm sure I will hit it again. Still, I'm not in a good era of my life but I feel better. My relationships with people are better. I still feel bad but I can see that life is worth living. Even if I spent 364 days of the year feeling like shit, it's worth living for that 1 good-ass day. I'm glad I didn't end things. And I want you to keep going on too.

  • @Superficial_Intelligence
    @Superficial_Intelligence Рік тому +2

    I have no idea what I just listened to. Though I quite enjoyed this... Whatever kind of music this is XD

    • @joshuaallenmusicyt
      @joshuaallenmusicyt  Рік тому +4

      tbh i dont know either, my other stuff is like experimental noisy electronic hip hop but this is more of an electronic direction. but thank you!

    • @Superficial_Intelligence
      @Superficial_Intelligence Рік тому +3

      @@joshuaallenmusicyt Yeah I could tell, I checked out all your other stuff and I'm excited to hear what else you come up with!

    • @joshuaallenmusicyt
      @joshuaallenmusicyt  Рік тому +2

      @@Superficial_Intelligence thanks dude!

  • @TheLostHustler
    @TheLostHustler 6 місяців тому +1

    Nice and meditative

  • @KaguyaTatsumi
    @KaguyaTatsumi 9 днів тому

    Amazing song. Literally started trauma dumping

  • @LuckyHamburger
    @LuckyHamburger Рік тому +4

    This is beautiful.

  • @mothersofcain
    @mothersofcain Рік тому +1

    this just popped up on my yt, it's amazing, reminds me of opn. keep up the good work! :D

  • @wyedea
    @wyedea 7 днів тому

    this is a masterpiece

  • @andrade2129
    @andrade2129 Рік тому +4

    Strange and noisy. Love it

  • @hunterkrause641
    @hunterkrause641 Рік тому +1

    Is there anywhere I can use a part of this as a sample to some fairy edm drop that makes everyone cry happy tears?

  • @Qwerka
    @Qwerka Місяць тому

    Anyone who is having such thoughts, please know that humans have a right and need to live. Society can't strive without you. You have irreplaceable position on this earth. Many people WILL miss you. Many people WILL wish that you were present, there. There are many people who are still loving, and caring.

  • @lilelfie
    @lilelfie 6 місяців тому +1

    love the ffx sample

  • @halkyen
    @halkyen Рік тому +2

    Honestly, stunning. I fucken love it

    • @joshuaallenmusicyt
      @joshuaallenmusicyt  Рік тому +1

      thank you

    • @halkyen
      @halkyen Рік тому +1

      @@joshuaallenmusicyt I honestly believe with your skill here if you manage to bring your music to the score of some movie you will blow up massively, best of luck, will be following you from here on out

    • @joshuaallenmusicyt
      @joshuaallenmusicyt  Рік тому

      @@halkyen thank you >.<

  • @TheUnluckiestPotata
    @TheUnluckiestPotata 5 місяців тому +1

    I think the youtube algorithm found me at the right time

  • @Handsomeson886
    @Handsomeson886 3 місяці тому

    It’s wired ,this song pop up when i am really thinking about to end my life .

  • @owlxp5270
    @owlxp5270 Рік тому +2

    why is this so good omg

  • @peregrinecovington4138
    @peregrinecovington4138 Рік тому +2

    Really good, keep making music

  • @herrforehead
    @herrforehead Місяць тому +8

    I just want to be better

    • @sefsprite
      @sefsprite 28 днів тому +2

      you already are 🫂❤️‍🩹

  • @lucasM6
    @lucasM6 Місяць тому +1

    I hate that i had to say this to someone before.

  • @tomatetoo2624
    @tomatetoo2624 Рік тому +3

    I love the cracky sounds

  • @user-nm8mt8vb3c
    @user-nm8mt8vb3c 7 місяців тому +1

    I do not, and have spent so long dying that I forgot to live. Now it is far too late and everything beautiful has died and nothing is fun anymore

  • @Guirlachee
    @Guirlachee Місяць тому

    Elite youtube recomendation

  • @DaeganCooper
    @DaeganCooper Місяць тому

    yo this goes im listening to this right now in school ig goes hard

  • @edwardkelber8878
    @edwardkelber8878 Рік тому +1

    It was good man I liked the song. Thanks.

  • @SweetArmadillo361
    @SweetArmadillo361 Рік тому +1

    This song would make a killer sample.

  • @Smiley_Fruitcake
    @Smiley_Fruitcake Рік тому +1

    absolute gold right here

  • @elijahparks2417
    @elijahparks2417 6 місяців тому

    Damn I didn’t expect the final fantasy 10 noctus monologue

  • @yeetyeetonthestreet-colinm1186
    @yeetyeetonthestreet-colinm1186 6 місяців тому +2

    Wow..

  • @ladydianaera
    @ladydianaera 6 місяців тому +1

    love it!

  • @subhapradosh1384
    @subhapradosh1384 6 місяців тому +3

    Me too

  • @alpheratzand710
    @alpheratzand710 6 місяців тому +15

    the timing is a bit too specific

  • @dechustarmimi
    @dechustarmimi 6 місяців тому

    what a perfect timing yt algorithm is really onto something

  • @lilangeldreams2846
    @lilangeldreams2846 28 днів тому

    I promise to not end my life, as the person I love bestowed me with a medal for surviving the battle.

  • @spacenaves
    @spacenaves 5 місяців тому +1

    funny timing

  • @FwonTao
    @FwonTao 10 місяців тому +4

    I need lyrics

  • @atikaalt
    @atikaalt Рік тому +2

    Nice song

  • @starchild_777
    @starchild_777 7 місяців тому

    I'm a bird in summer 2014 looking at my 9 year old self having fun.

  • @raxial_the_one_and_only
    @raxial_the_one_and_only 19 днів тому

    this was posted the day after my cousin's would-have-been-19th birthday. His name was joshua too.

  • @LavekGaming
    @LavekGaming Рік тому +37

    When the V2K frequency manipulation hits tough and the matrix is trying to send you a confirmation message that some people are demons in human form. Great work 😌

  • @currently_online
    @currently_online Рік тому +3

    life is all about people having thoughts and making things and people then listening to these things and having thouths themselfs then in turn making things and so on and so on

  • @sakihasegawa456
    @sakihasegawa456 5 місяців тому +1

    I am sorry, i can't promise. But, I'll try different options