if God doesn't approve of it then why did He allow it?

This was recorded October 4th 2024, I was fighting, praying, fasting and asking questions. I was giving God EVERYTHING.
Where are the churches that stand on true holiness and know the reality of the deliverance process?
Where can people like me go who have REAL CHALLENGES that they're facing, that don't dissappear over night?
If God didn't want it in me.... I didn't want it in me, yet I wasn't properly taught or given thr right care because so many preach and teach on things they only know so much about. (Surface level knowledge)
A lot of churches silence testimonies that are too transparent not realizing those are the testimonies that break through barriers and help people like me see that God can and will deliver any and everybody from any and every thing
I don't see m to offend anyone with this video. I'm simply sharing my journey.