You’re very brave and thank you for sharing. After a Narcissist relationship ended 1.5 years ago I’m still struggling myself with anxiety and depression. I feel at time like I’m on the edge and wanting to go to the hospital, I have a wonderful therapist that has helped me through out this whole process but it been so hard! Narcissist abuse and the aftermath is horrible!
Yo dawg, I respect the shit out of you. Your really helping people and it's nice to know your not mad, me too. Slainte from Ireland. "If you wait be the river long enough, the bodies of your enemies will float by" - Sun Tzu.
Harrison, You're such a Brave Soul!!! Thank You for sharing from your Heart!! There are those that want to Control this world to fit their narrative, because they don't want to face themselves, at the same time they don't want others to shine their Light...You Keep Shining!! You're so intelligent and such a giving spirit!! As You heal - You're helping Others with their healing as well!! We've got this!!!✨ (it Will all be in our rearview mirror at some point - Power On!! 💪🏼✨)
Just got out of one. I'm a mess and I never want to go back. Thank you for sharing this information Harrison. I am home now. Thank God. You are a good person to share this strange experience.
Oh man that's awful, I'm glad you got help. I have a friend with MS who's been in a mental hospital many times and that made me understand that this stigma is stupid and unreasonable. She's a great, sweet and intelligent person that only needed medical help and got it. I wish you good luck and good mental health in the future. :)
very brave of you to share this Harrison, you can't get more honest & transparent than this, my biggest fear is being sectioned /having my freedom taken away, its the fear of being incarcerated that has forced me to maintain my sanity, I have worked in Psych wards before as a Psychology Asst, the worst aspect for me was the icky smells due to lack of ventilation, also the fear of being thrown in with society's worst cases, I think having a narcissistic mother prepared me for all the narcissistic abuse later in life, it made me more stoic and focussed , therefore none of my narc exes have been able to destroy me, not for want of trying
Oh man during my active addiction years I went through similar stuff and I know how much this sucks…..I’m happy you got the help you need it and fuck the stigma man. If you ever need to talk hmu I’m here for you!
Thank you for describing your window of time for starting the healing. It should be a "normal" curious and concerned action to ask people who would know why you feel the way you did. That is logical to me, and outweighs stigma and being self conscious, come to think of it. Those who do not ask "what is up with feeling this horrible way?" can live along sadly, with out hope and new knowledge about their own life-trail. A personal choice.
It's not easy to live the life absolutely free from other people judgements conditioning. Be strong as you just are, and go on your own way, as you can and wish, as I also try to do. * The book, you have recommended us some weeks ago, "The Body Keeps The Score", written by Bessel A. van der Kolk, is really excellent and helpful. So, thank you very much for all of your testimonies, also like today's one 🙏
Thank You So Very Much for Sharing This I’m So Incredibly Sorry For Your Experience What You Have Went Through. I Became Severely Depressed After Being In An Emotionally Abusive Relationship With A Narcissist. This Person Destroyed My Life My Self Worth And My Self Esteem. I’m Struggling To Disconnect Can You Please Give Me Some Advice?
Awakening Empath, I just read your comment and I understand you had a negative time with your Counsellor trying to tell you how you felt. Inno way was I trying to manipulate or gaslight Harrison. I think he is a lovely, compassionate person who was put though hell by a horrible narcissists and he is well on the way to recovery. He has helped me come to terms with my own experiences. I am a compassionate, very intuitive person and because of my own narcissistic abuse I am hypervigilant to my own and others state of mind. I was just concerned at that given moment because he was discussing a horrific time in his life and of course a person will be reliving this in their mind and body while talking about it. This is what I noticed. I know that Harrison isn't falling totally apart but I would have liked some love and concern whilst I was going through my own personal hell.
i'm glad you made this video but i was put into the hospital once at age 33 because i was actually ready to kms, and it was one of the most traumatizing experiences i've ever had. i literally couldn't get out, they kept me in there for 10 days, and no matter what i said they would not release me. it was prison. and they take away literally all of your coping mechanisms AT ONCE, and deny you individual therapy. i was afraid to call for help because one of my floormates was punished for the same by his psychiatrist by putting him on the "really bad" floor. my floormate got an attorney but i was too afraid of the staff and retaliation. this occured in lacey washington at South Sound Behavioral Hospital in September 2021. there's way more shady stuff that happened but long story short it was so traumatizing that i straight up had a full blown spiritual awakening upon release (no joke, like what the japanese zen buddhists would call an actual kensho awakening). apparently in africa where there aren't enough psychs/capita they go to special shamans who tie you to a tree and give you drugs and the combination with the sheer horrifying powerlessness drives you to the brink of madness but it also liquidates your sense of self (ego) temporarily enough to initiate the process. i think something similar happened to me, but i wasn't at all ready for it and am currently seeking treatment for the PTSD i got while at South Sound Behavioral Hospital. i live in denver now and there's the zen center of denver that i'm going to in april to seek spiritual guidance since this ripped my soul out of my body and i need to understand how to put myself back together. i guess what i'm saying is don't not get help, but if you're sent to a hospital, MAKE SURE you have actually fully informed consent before signing yourself in. I just trusted the staff and signed it without question and i lost my job when i got out because i missed too many days (i thought it was going to be 3 days, it was almost 11, and they were releasing people who had arrived the next week before me).
I'm the 'scapegoat' - of my family. My sisters are narcissists. They are evil, and unfortunately I live with them currently. Some days living with them is sheer hell. Last night, one of them went to a restaurant with my younger brother. My dad called her to ask her where she was - she said she couldn't hear him. So he asked - 3 more times - and she still said she couldn't hear him! She didn't want to admit she was out at a restaurant with ly younger brother. If I ask her now she would deny it now. Her and her sister, have had loads of plastic surgery and continually berate me on my appearance, because I'm not as pretty as them. I was just wondering if karma would ever catch up with my sisters - because the way they behave is an abomination and they get away with it.
😂a fellow mental man who wants to just tell how it is, same here I just got out yesterday after twice from different reasons this month, recently paranoid catatonia. The ER is terrifying, if only there was an immediate shipment. I was never suicidal or homicidal, but my sleep was heavily impacted. I wish I could have my own room 😂 and take CBD if only they let us, I'm writing letters to doctors to see. The second hospital was so booty to me, made the first one feel like. I think we should use these experiences to research the best mental hospitals in the future in case this happens again because I know which one I would choose. This inspires me to just lay it out and laugh about the dumb shit I was doing in there
Harrison, I am actually very concerned for you. You sound defeated and look dishevelled. I know you are talking about a very traumatic time but you look as if you are not doing well I am so sorry for your suffering then and now . This is heartbreaking to hear. Please take care of yourself. I know you are in a suffering place . You will find peace Harrison. Fight, fight, fight. You are lovable. You deserve love and peace.xxxxxxxxxxxx
my 1st thought was Harrison just got up, from what I have seen in his videos this handsome chap is well on the road to recovery, his content makes perfect sense, he is perfectly logical & compus mentis, its just that wicked jezebel who broke his heart & shattered his mind is why he broke down, I hope she is watching this video full of regret & remorse, unless she is a malignant narc in which case she is smirking & sniggering alongside her next victim, well Harrison has plenty of life ahead of him to heal and find true love from a decent girl, I was recently assessed by a Counsellor who asked me 3 times if I am suicidal, I couldn't help wonder what were his motives for asking me this, given the extent of the smear campaign here, he sounded like a flying monkey trying to push me over the edge, needless to say I didn't go back, you can't trust or confide in every therapist I'm afraid even some therapists are narcs, they are peddling people's pain
I'm so sorry for you,the damage you have suffered, I don't understand how the narcissist can be so evil,I've been 5 months free of ex narcissist after 4 years .thank you your videos sure help,dealing with an extremely difficult time. Hope you are feeling better.
You’re very brave and thank you for sharing. After a Narcissist relationship ended 1.5 years ago I’m still struggling myself with anxiety and depression. I feel at time like I’m on the edge and wanting to go to the hospital, I have a wonderful therapist that has helped me through out this whole process but it been so hard! Narcissist abuse and the aftermath is horrible!
My breaking point was around the same time. I resigned from my job. Glad to see you're feeling stronger Harrison.
Yo dawg, I respect the shit out of you. Your really helping people and it's nice to know your not mad, me too. Slainte from Ireland. "If you wait be the river long enough, the bodies of your enemies will float by" - Sun Tzu.
Harrison, You're such a Brave Soul!!! Thank You for sharing from your Heart!! There are those that want to Control this world to fit their narrative, because they don't want to face themselves, at the same time they don't want others to shine their Light...You Keep Shining!! You're so intelligent and such a giving spirit!! As You heal - You're helping Others with their healing as well!! We've got this!!!✨ (it Will all be in our rearview mirror at some point - Power On!! 💪🏼✨)
Just got out of one. I'm a mess and I never want to go back. Thank you for sharing this information Harrison. I am home now. Thank God. You are a good person to share this strange experience.
Oh man that's awful, I'm glad you got help. I have a friend with MS who's been in a mental hospital many times and that made me understand that this stigma is stupid and unreasonable. She's a great, sweet and intelligent person that only needed medical help and got it. I wish you good luck and good mental health in the future. :)
very brave of you to share this Harrison, you can't get more honest & transparent than this, my biggest fear is being sectioned /having my freedom taken away, its the fear of being incarcerated that has forced me to maintain my sanity, I have worked in Psych wards before as a Psychology Asst, the worst aspect for me was the icky smells due to lack of ventilation, also the fear of being thrown in with society's worst cases, I think having a narcissistic mother prepared me for all the narcissistic abuse later in life, it made me more stoic and focussed , therefore none of my narc exes have been able to destroy me, not for want of trying
Sending you peace and love on your healing journey, you’ve got this!
Oh man during my active addiction years I went through similar stuff and I know how much this sucks…..I’m happy you got the help you need it and fuck the stigma man. If you ever need to talk hmu I’m here for you!
Great story. Psych hospital was the best worst thing that happened to me. My experience was very similar to yours. Glad you’re better
Thank you for describing your window of time for starting the healing.
It should be a "normal" curious and concerned action to ask people who would know why you feel the way you did.
That is logical to me, and outweighs stigma and being self conscious, come to think of it.
Those who do not ask "what is up with
feeling this horrible way?"
can live along sadly, with
out hope and new knowledge
about their own life-trail.
A personal choice.
It's not easy to live the life absolutely free from other people judgements conditioning. Be strong as you just are, and go on your own way, as you can and wish, as I also try to do. * The book, you have recommended us some weeks ago, "The Body Keeps The Score", written by Bessel A. van der Kolk, is really excellent and helpful. So, thank you very much for all of your testimonies, also like today's one 🙏
Thank You So Very Much for Sharing This I’m So Incredibly
Sorry For Your Experience What You Have Went Through.
I Became Severely Depressed After Being In An Emotionally Abusive Relationship With A Narcissist.
This Person Destroyed My Life My Self Worth And My Self Esteem.
I’m Struggling To Disconnect Can You Please Give Me Some Advice?
Awakening Empath, I just read your comment and I understand you had a negative time with your Counsellor trying to tell you how you felt. Inno way was I trying to manipulate or gaslight Harrison. I think he is a lovely, compassionate person who was put though hell by a horrible narcissists and he is well on the way to recovery. He has helped me come to terms with my own experiences. I am a compassionate, very intuitive person and because of my own narcissistic abuse I am hypervigilant to my own and others state of mind. I was just concerned at that given moment because he was discussing a horrific time in his life and of course a person will be reliving this in their mind and body while talking about it. This is what I noticed. I know that Harrison isn't falling totally apart but I would have liked some love and concern whilst I was going through my own personal hell.
i'm glad you made this video but i was put into the hospital once at age 33 because i was actually ready to kms, and it was one of the most traumatizing experiences i've ever had. i literally couldn't get out, they kept me in there for 10 days, and no matter what i said they would not release me. it was prison. and they take away literally all of your coping mechanisms AT ONCE, and deny you individual therapy. i was afraid to call for help because one of my floormates was punished for the same by his psychiatrist by putting him on the "really bad" floor. my floormate got an attorney but i was too afraid of the staff and retaliation. this occured in lacey washington at South Sound Behavioral Hospital in September 2021. there's way more shady stuff that happened but long story short it was so traumatizing that i straight up had a full blown spiritual awakening upon release (no joke, like what the japanese zen buddhists would call an actual kensho awakening). apparently in africa where there aren't enough psychs/capita they go to special shamans who tie you to a tree and give you drugs and the combination with the sheer horrifying powerlessness drives you to the brink of madness but it also liquidates your sense of self (ego) temporarily enough to initiate the process. i think something similar happened to me, but i wasn't at all ready for it and am currently seeking treatment for the PTSD i got while at South Sound Behavioral Hospital. i live in denver now and there's the zen center of denver that i'm going to in april to seek spiritual guidance since this ripped my soul out of my body and i need to understand how to put myself back together.
i guess what i'm saying is don't not get help, but if you're sent to a hospital, MAKE SURE you have actually fully informed consent before signing yourself in. I just trusted the staff and signed it without question and i lost my job when i got out because i missed too many days (i thought it was going to be 3 days, it was almost 11, and they were releasing people who had arrived the next week before me).
I have talking therapies group coming up. I wasn't ready, I put it off, but I won't now.
I'm the 'scapegoat' - of my family. My sisters are narcissists. They are evil, and unfortunately I live with them currently. Some days living with them is sheer hell. Last night, one of them went to a restaurant with my younger brother. My dad called her to ask her where she was - she said she couldn't hear him. So he asked - 3 more times - and she still said she couldn't hear him! She didn't want to admit she was out at a restaurant with ly younger brother. If I ask her now she would deny it now. Her and her sister, have had loads of plastic surgery and continually berate me on my appearance, because I'm not as pretty as them. I was just wondering if karma would ever catch up with my sisters - because the way they behave is an abomination and they get away with it.
Do you regret any of this help you asked for?
😂a fellow mental man who wants to just tell how it is, same here
I just got out yesterday after twice from different reasons this month, recently paranoid catatonia. The ER is terrifying, if only there was an immediate shipment. I was never suicidal or homicidal, but my sleep was heavily impacted. I wish I could have my own room 😂 and take CBD if only they let us, I'm writing letters to doctors to see. The second hospital was so booty to me, made the first one feel like. I think we should use these experiences to research the best mental hospitals in the future in case this happens again because I know which one I would choose.
This inspires me to just lay it out and laugh about the dumb shit I was doing in there
Harrison, I am actually very concerned for you. You sound defeated and look dishevelled. I know you are talking about a very traumatic time but you look as if you are not doing well I am so sorry for your suffering then and now . This is heartbreaking to hear. Please take care of yourself. I know you are in a suffering place . You will find peace Harrison. Fight, fight, fight. You are lovable. You deserve love and peace.xxxxxxxxxxxx
my 1st thought was Harrison just got up, from what I have seen in his videos this handsome chap is well on the road to recovery, his content makes perfect sense, he is perfectly logical & compus mentis, its just that wicked jezebel who broke his heart & shattered his mind is why he broke down, I hope she is watching this video full of regret & remorse, unless she is a malignant narc in which case she is smirking & sniggering alongside her next victim, well Harrison has plenty of life ahead of him to heal and find true love from a decent girl, I was recently assessed by a Counsellor who asked me 3 times if I am suicidal, I couldn't help wonder what were his motives for asking me this, given the extent of the smear campaign here, he sounded like a flying monkey trying to push me over the edge, needless to say I didn't go back, you can't trust or confide in every therapist I'm afraid even some therapists are narcs, they are peddling people's pain
"For me they let me keep my shoes, just took the shoelaces and strings on pants away."
-Clone1
"They gave me "anti nightmare" pills which didn't work for me at all. "
-Clone1
I'm so sorry for you,the damage you have suffered, I don't understand how the narcissist can be so evil,I've been 5 months free of ex narcissist after 4 years .thank you your videos sure help,dealing with an extremely difficult time. Hope you are feeling better.
The world is crazy..
The world is our mirror reflection - we are the world, our choices, tendencies, our thoughts' and dreams' realisations etc. That's it!