What a difficult but healing step this was James. Not many are brave enough to face their trauma. Keep leaning into those places of pain and they will transform you and the world around you. So glad to have met you James.
I lived in a childrens home from the time I was 8 years old I cried for years and I learned that you can't go back and you can't do anything over God is good no matter what we go thru in life it's a test to see how you handle it
Oh wow James!!!!! thank you so much for sharing ur journey! i honestly only know Moscow Idaho because of the Idaho 4 last year and i am still currently following this case. I appreciate your truth on this town
My 1st time here. I don’t know what to say except Thank You. I’ve struggled my 52 years on this planet. I’d like to start to heal. You may have sparked an idea.
Good for you for taking a positive step towards healing from childhood trauma. You did an amazing job and I am proud to say that I am a new subscriber.
the moon with all its scars and and loneliness is one of the most beautiful things in this world despite everything its been through in its process and its still lights our path at night. wish you the best.
Hey bud, you’re not alone man. I moved my Family to a small town outside of Moscow in 2011 and got the heck out of there in 2021. It was the worst 10 years of my life, and I have a lot of issues a one traumas from that experience. Just like you if I see certain names come across my social media, even though I have scrubbed it all and started over, I immediately feel re-triggered. North Central Idaho is a very dark place man, the way people treat other people there is not normal. They think it is, but it’s not. I wish you well on your journey.
I’m sorry to hear that. I think we are very likely talking about the exact same people and places. I hope you get sufficient healing, if you haven’t already.
My favorite place Cordilia Luthren Church it was my sanctuary living in Moscow. Well done sir well done. MOSCOW CHANGE grew up in the 80s rode my horse all over those hills and rode in the town to East City park. I HAVE GREAT memories back than. Tried to live back there in 2013 to 2018 had to come home back to Colorado. My dad and sister live there still.
My kiddo moved to Moscow in 2010 to go to school it was literally some of the best memories we have … she moved back 2011 to work at wsu … I’m so glad your healing ❤️🩹
Living in Moscow now for over 25 years, I may have an idea of the school you reference. I am glad you were able to come back qnd find some sort of peace. It was neat watching your video and recognizing so many of the locations and roads you drove.
I currently live in Boise, Idaho but lived in California my whole life until 2020, and have been on my own journey of confronting childhood trauma. I’ve been to Moscow so I feel for you as I watched this. Thank you for sharing this
Yes kid, absolutely. Most kids will have traumas in their childhood and I am not the exception as well. But it wouldn't be fair to generalize the whole town because there are good and bad people in every populated area. We must move on with our lives and do only good in this world any way possible. I had to go through a lot of hardships in my town Elbasan and in that very town of Pogradec when I used to spend summers in my aunts house but I love that town and the people, generally speaking.
I’m glad you are finding your peace , I clicked in this because it said Moscow , and yes I’m one of those idiots with a crime channel..lol, and yes I shared, but I also shared with respect and honor, and James I started looking at ur other videos , I love ur adventure , I def subscribed. Please keep telling us your story. Tommy Jude.
thanks for subscribing! my video obviously has nothing to do with the major crimes that have happened in moscow, but i hope you enjoy being subscribed!
So first u have made an amazing video. Quite the videographer and narration was terrific. whoo hoo great work. Good for you for going back... you faced it and now you can accomplish anything. It was never YOUR fault just remember that. secondly, ive been following the Moscow idaho4 murders, trying to learn whether or not I believe there was corruption in the arrest of the suspect... so the algorithm sent you my way. Though unrelated aside from the town being highlighted in your video, I did thoroughly enjoy it. I often wonder how locals feel toward the police investigation and about Law enforcement in that town and whether they or the university (fraternity) would really frame or would a suspect (to put it behind them), sorry to go off on that subject. Keep doing what you're doing and i just subscribed to your channel. You're a likable dude. Look forward and accept what is done. Chin up kiddo
thank you for the kind words! I appreciate you watching the video, even if it's not related to what you were looking for. that whole case happened so long after i left, it's hard for me to even speculate on anything related to it. But i hope you enjoy my channel!
thank you! I changed my style of videos a bit back in september so the ones before that will have a different feel. The playlist on my channel called "Beauty in the Mundane" has all the videos since the change.
Tim Fletcher has helped me come to understand both my current dysfunctions and how and why they manifested. Facing the things that interrupted and sidetracked our childhoods is the very thing that sets them straight. GOOD JOB dude, the world need a healthy you!
Thank you for this honest and candid video. I’m a Moscow native. I, too, tend to revisit places where terrible things happened in my life in order to go back in time to see it from where I am standing today. It feels good to know that those times and experiences are behind me. Much of my trauma happened at Syringa Trailer Park. I was drawn to the site a few times and going there somehow helped me heal. I don’t really know what your experiences were, but I understand you. Thank you. ❤
@@JamesLeithart Yeah, they have removed all of the trailers from the property and they're cleaning it up now. Probably it will be developed into nice homesites eventually.
+1 for indoor snowball fights! 😆 I have made it a policy to never look back. I understand why you went back, because of family, but I have never attended a high school reunion. I always focus on the the now and what is coming in the future. But that's me. I wish you well and thank you for the view of Moscow Idaho.
I’m 20 and had a narcissistic mom growing up and have bad mental health issues and I’m trying to heal from my mom and all the childhood trauma. I have grown up in Idaho my entire life. Caldwell Idaho to be exact. Never wanted to leave a state more in my life. I hope you recover from all the trauma you endured! It will be ok! I always say your flowers can’t bloom unless there is a rainstorm to help them bloom. Best of luck☺️
Sending you lots of hugs and prayers. This was excellent. I knew psychologists who referred to how political and old boy Moscow was. We experienced it too for a while. RE your school: The people I met that were in the group I’m sure you were wounded by, could be volatile and incredibly aggressive.
God Bless ya Buddy!! You deserve the best that life can offer..Just focus on the positive and keep going..I’m just glad to hear someone got out realizing that the!! town is messed up!! That’s it’s not you ..The town is eerily creepy..
Good for you facing that which caused you so much pain. I went through hell growing up in a little Colorado farming community. I wonder about Moscow, though. It really seems to have a sinister, eerie vibe. Did you notice anything like that? Just curious.
😂😂😂 to be fair, you couldn’t see the other two. also, when you grow up completely surrounded by fields, when any houses are built it seems like they’re everywhere 😂
@@JamesLeithartI also grew up there. The church was a big part of everything. There are whole subdivisions, that were once wheat fields. I actually get lost there now, trying to find the new church location. The old location is now a dentist office. My parents have passed now. I rarely go visit there anymore. I did attend my 40 year high school reunion. It was so weird seeing my classmates with gray hair and grandchildren.
I hope you were able to confront the people who put you through the trauma, I have to ask ,where were your parents when this was going on? Anyway, I hope you feel better about things now.🙏🙏🙏😊
I chose to accept and forgive rather than confront. They wouldn’t have acknowledged any wrongdoing anyway. Things are much much better for me now, thanks 🙏
I would love to do a reaction video on my channel. I'm hoping you won't give me a copy right strike.. ❤ Your story is very important to my community. A lot of strange things going on within that area and it was good to hear your story... Please let me know if it's OK. I'm going to do a reaction video on it. Please let me know should I take it down before striking me thank you. Here's hoping that it will attract more subscribers as well for you. ❤
Sorry! I thought I replied to this! Please feel free to react to it! I just asked that you not crop out my name, and make sure people know where to find the original video. 🙏
Sorry to hear of the traumatic experiences you went thru. Thank you for surviving them and being the strong, resilient person you clearly are. Rising above the things that were maybe meant to bring you down but underestimating you and your potential to turn what they meant for evil, you turned into good. Turned into good by sharing a glimpse with us. So I thank you and congratulate you. You’re built Tonka tough if no one’s told you. Do you have thoughts on the awful loss of four souls on King Road? Your perspective considering your personal connection to the Moscow area would surely be enlightening. Makes me wonder about how one might ponder and ruminate on things ranging from good to evil in that part of the country. Your ponderings have led you to a good place, but what about one who’s ponderings led them to King Rd on a dark night?
thank you! and no, no one has said I'm tonka tough and i like it 😂 In regards to King Rd, I really don't know much about any of the situation. very tragic. it happened so long after I moved away though, so I dont know much about it.
@@JamesLeithart Forgot to say, your video is very nicely done. Great shooting and editing. What gear do you use? I edit on Adobe Premiere and have a Canon 5D Mark III. But lately I've bought a DJI Mic. It's a great wireless mic that goes straight into my iPhone. So my Canon hasn't been touched in awhile.
@@Jeff_H_the_Guitarist oh man i use all kinds of gear... Canon r6 mkii, iphone 15 pro, dji mini 2, dji mic, insta360 go 3... those are the main pieces. But thank you for the compliments on my video. Very much appreciated.
I guess I didn't mention it specifically. there was a lot of abuse that happened in the community in which I grew up. I only dealt with emotional, spiritual, and a bit of verbal abuse (fortunately), for different levels of leaders in the community.
@@JamesLeithart That’s rather helpful. I appreciated your video and revealing that you had trauma growing up, with a positive, forward-looking attitude as well. Yet, though you have every right to tell only what you wish, it kind of left me up in the air. I sensed those were the areas from what you did say, and guessing you need to be careful, especially having family back there. I will tell you that the part about being out with others and then by the time you got home your mom knew exactly who was in your car was very creepy. Someone(s)? had serious control and possibly other issues at the root of it. I know because I had a controlling person in my life growing up. You needn’t respond if you don’t want to, but I know that you said discussions you had with some in Moscow validated your experiences, and I can tell you that one example you gave told me volumes. That can be a blessing to come out of this, that others who have been hurt will recognize and confirm the trauma, hopefully in a healthy way. Wishing you the best. 😊
@msmarple what you said is correct. in addition, i dont see what naming specifics has to do with my healing journey... if i have moved on and healed from it, i don't need to be rehashing it all over and over again.
@@JamesLeithart ok, that makes sense. Your healthy journey is the most important thing. You may find, tho, that when you air it publicly, some will naturally be curious. Having said that, and being privileged in real life to hear the confidences of many a survivor of abuse, I strongly believe in honoring the right of individuals to tell you what they want, when they want. Guess my social media indulgence has left me more curious than sensitive. 🧐😊
Everytime I hear about moscow, idaho I think about the murderes that happened. It’s actually the only reason I know the town. Properly not something that helps your own view of the town
Not related to this video. And while it is hard to relive the past, those that live in Moscow (I Do) honor their memory by remembering them and NOT the suspect.
Sorry for being presumptuous but I'm assuming you are talking about your experience with Logos School founded by Douglas Wilson??? I've been investing that church/school there are other victims; Emilie Paige Dye. You'll easily find info about her online/youtube. A lot of people are speaking out about their abuse, remember it's not your shame but rather it's the perpetrator/s! God/Jesus bless you and I pray for your healing!
I guess I didn't mention it specifically. there was a lot of abuse that happened in the community in which I grew up. I only dealt with emotional, spiritual, and a bit of verbal abuse (fortunately), for different levels of leaders in the community.
I am happy you are healing from the trauma you have. But you must know it’s not the town. Bless your heart. Love your family. Stop the trauma. Do so by being a good human.
I think @lindah5011 said it really well in the other reply. evil people live everywhere, and this was just my story of this town. but yes... very far away now. and doing fantastic!
@@JamesLeithart the true crime community questions everything, especially when it's obvious its a cover up & the real perps are being protected. hell of a time to return dude - given what is known about Snickering Snell, the Logos music director/public information officer 👁️ you can't just come in now & play ignorant, when you have those kind of connections. You're supposedly an influencer/youth leader .... There will be no healing for anyone until the real evil is exposed. Justice for Hudson Lindow, Hannah Cleere, Cayden Young, Luke Tyler, Theodore ray Clarkson III, Brent Kopacka, Sam Martinez, Tyler Helinski,Will Hendricks,Gayla schaper, Janice Foiles, travis Juetten, Sandra ladd, Tom johnson, leslie an Jones, trevis Hull, Brian Drake, Nicholas Cooper Kekoa McDaniel, Matthew Virgil, Buddy. you've entered into Sodom & Gomorrah where everything is ruled suicide, or hasn't been solved & the cycle repeats
Moscow itself is not evil or sinister. It is actually a community that tends to look out for each other. There is a "church" here that has allowed evil things to happen within their walls. And sadly nothing has really been done to the leaders who allow this. Evil resides no matter where you go.
Your particular experience does not paint the whole town black. I live and have lived in Moscow most of my life. It’s being demonized by the actions of a crazed killer. This is not fair. Why bring this out now? An ulterior motive?
I brought this out now because this was the time i had finally healed enough to go back. The unfortunate murders have nothing to do with it. And my conclusion at the end of the video, as you could see, were exactly as you said: my particular experience does no paint the town black (but i stated it in different words)
Actually, it's a very nice town. I've lived here for over 30 years now. But we've had more than our share of tragedy and conservative 'Christian' lunacy.
What a difficult but healing step this was James. Not many are brave enough to face their trauma. Keep leaning into those places of pain and they will transform you and the world around you. So glad to have met you James.
thank you Erik! Was an absolute pleasure meeting you as well.
Good for you for confronting your trauma James. Hopefully your bravery will lead others to do so.
i hope so too. thank you.
I lived in a childrens home from the time I was 8 years old I cried for years and I learned that you can't go back and you can't do anything over God is good no matter what we go thru in life it's a test to see how you handle it
Thanks for sharing James. You are special
Oh wow James!!!!! thank you so much for sharing ur journey! i honestly only know Moscow Idaho because of the Idaho 4 last year and i am still currently following this case. I appreciate your truth on this town
thanks for watching! I appreciate it
My 1st time here. I don’t know what to say except Thank You. I’ve struggled my 52 years on this planet. I’d like to start to heal. You may have sparked an idea.
Wow. This might be the best comment on here. I’m so glad that I could maybe help spark something for you.
Wow James..its like watching a film ❤
🙏 this town has some dark secrets. I'm glad to hear you are doing well. Bless you and the idaho4 victims ❤
Hugs to you. Be strong and keep the faith.
good job man. glad your still here
Good for you for taking a positive step towards healing from childhood trauma. You did an amazing job and I am proud to say that I am a new subscriber.
thank you! i appreciate you subscribing and i hope my videos can live up to it
Another great video! Thank you for sharing this part of your life with the world.
My pleasure!
Beautiful video! The little ginger kitten, ❤!
Great video, James! It’s nice to see your growth as a person. Your videos make me miss Albania. I discovered you when living there.
You fought through a tough experience, I’m glad you have come through the other side with a better sense of your strength.
I appreciate that
I agree, you confronted your trauma. I hope this really helps you. Beautiful family and your dog too. Thank you for sharing.
thank you for watching!
the moon with all its scars and and loneliness is one of the most beautiful things in this world despite everything its been through in its process and its still lights our path at night. wish you the best.
Hey bud, you’re not alone man. I moved my Family to a small town outside of Moscow in 2011 and got the heck out of there in 2021. It was the worst 10 years of my life, and I have a lot of issues a one traumas from that experience. Just like you if I see certain names come across my social media, even though I have scrubbed it all and started over, I immediately feel re-triggered. North Central Idaho is a very dark place man, the way people treat other people there is not normal. They think it is, but it’s not. I wish you well on your journey.
I’m sorry to hear that. I think we are very likely talking about the exact same people and places. I hope you get sufficient healing, if you haven’t already.
It’s amazing that you did this! ❤
thanks! took a lot of convincing (from myself).
Thank you for sharing the good in Moscow ID
My favorite place Cordilia Luthren Church it was my sanctuary living in Moscow. Well done sir well done. MOSCOW CHANGE grew up in the 80s rode my horse all over those hills and rode in the town to East City park. I HAVE GREAT memories back than. Tried to live back there in 2013 to 2018 had to come home back to Colorado. My dad and sister live there still.
I had more footage at Cordilia but i accidentally deleted it before i edited it! 😩
Beautiful that you can now go back again and bond with your siblings and nieces and nephews. ❤
I think so too!
My kiddo moved to Moscow in 2010 to go to school it was literally some of the best memories we have … she moved back 2011 to work at wsu … I’m so glad your healing ❤️🩹
thank you 🙏
Living in Moscow now for over 25 years, I may have an idea of the school you reference. I am glad you were able to come back qnd find some sort of peace. It was neat watching your video and recognizing so many of the locations and roads you drove.
If you’ve been there 25 years, you probably know exactly what I’m talking about. It would be hard not to.
I currently live in Boise, Idaho but lived in California my whole life until 2020, and have been on my own journey of confronting childhood trauma.
I’ve been to Moscow so I feel for you as I watched this. Thank you for sharing this
I wish you health and happiness on your journey! It’s never an easy one.
@@JamesLeithart thank you so much!
What a fantastic video brother. Change is inevitable and as the town changed, so had your feelings toward it. Very powerful and meaningful 🖤
Thanks for doing this, Michael. You're a brave man. Be well.
Yes kid, absolutely. Most kids will have traumas in their childhood and I am not the exception as well. But it wouldn't be fair to generalize the whole town because there are good and bad people in every populated area. We must move on with our lives and do only good in this world any way possible. I had to go through a lot of hardships in my town Elbasan and in that very town of Pogradec when I used to spend summers in my aunts house but I love that town and the people, generally speaking.
I’m glad you are finding your peace , I clicked in this because it said Moscow , and yes I’m one of those idiots with a crime channel..lol, and yes I shared, but I also shared with respect and honor, and James I started looking at ur other videos , I love ur adventure , I def subscribed. Please keep telling us your story.
Tommy Jude.
thanks for subscribing! my video obviously has nothing to do with the major crimes that have happened in moscow, but i hope you enjoy being subscribed!
So first u have made an amazing video. Quite the videographer and narration was terrific. whoo hoo great work. Good for you for going back... you faced it and now you can accomplish anything. It was never YOUR fault just remember that. secondly, ive been following the Moscow idaho4 murders, trying to learn whether or not I believe there was corruption in the arrest of the suspect... so the algorithm sent you my way. Though unrelated aside from the town being highlighted in your video, I did thoroughly enjoy it. I often wonder how locals feel toward the police investigation and about Law enforcement in that town and whether they or the university (fraternity) would really frame or would a suspect (to put it behind them), sorry to go off on that subject. Keep doing what you're doing and i just subscribed to your channel. You're a likable dude. Look forward and accept what is done. Chin up kiddo
thank you for the kind words! I appreciate you watching the video, even if it's not related to what you were looking for. that whole case happened so long after i left, it's hard for me to even speculate on anything related to it. But i hope you enjoy my channel!
Amazing documentary of part of your life. You are gifted sir. Found, liked, subbed and binging.
thank you! I changed my style of videos a bit back in september so the ones before that will have a different feel. The playlist on my channel called "Beauty in the Mundane" has all the videos since the change.
Beautiful family.
Beautiful video
Thank you
Tim Fletcher has helped me come to understand both my current dysfunctions and how and why they manifested. Facing the things that interrupted and sidetracked our childhoods is the very thing that sets them straight. GOOD JOB dude, the world need a healthy you!
Thank you for this honest and candid video. I’m a Moscow native. I, too, tend to revisit places where terrible things happened in my life in order to go back in time to see it from where I am standing today. It feels good to know that those times and experiences are behind me. Much of my trauma happened at Syringa Trailer Park. I was drawn to the site a few times and going there somehow helped me heal. I don’t really know what your experiences were, but I understand you. Thank you. ❤
Oh wow. I used to drive past that trailer park almost every day on my way to school… or anywhere for that matter.
@@JamesLeithart Yeah, they have removed all of the trailers from the property and they're cleaning it up now. Probably it will be developed into nice homesites eventually.
+1 for indoor snowball fights! 😆 I have made it a policy to never look back. I understand why you went back, because of family, but I have never attended a high school reunion. I always focus on the the now and what is coming in the future. But that's me. I wish you well and thank you for the view of Moscow Idaho.
best part of the trip, honestly 😂
I’m 20 and had a narcissistic mom growing up and have bad mental health issues and I’m trying to heal from my mom and all the childhood trauma. I have grown up in Idaho my entire life. Caldwell Idaho to be exact. Never wanted to leave a state more in my life. I hope you recover from all the trauma you endured! It will be ok! I always say your flowers can’t bloom unless there is a rainstorm to help them bloom. Best of luck☺️
i’m so sorry about your childhood, and i hope you’re able to find healing too. ❤️
You are a good looking young man. GOD BLESS YOU. TAKE CARE.
Thank you for sharing, that town needs a good wholesome clean up! ❤
Sending you lots of hugs and prayers. This was excellent.
I knew psychologists who referred to how political and old boy Moscow was. We experienced it too for a while.
RE your school: The people I met that were in the group I’m sure you were wounded by, could be volatile and incredibly aggressive.
JAMES JESUS LOVES YOU WITH ALL HIS GLORY. GIVE YOUR HEART AND SOUL AND TROUBLES TO HIM AND EVERYTHING WILL BE OK. KEEP YOUR HEAD UP HIGH.
Yo no way, I’m born and raised in cda Idaho, I lived in Albania for 6 months in 2020, now I’m back in Idaho haven travel blues
hahaha what a small world…
God Bless ya Buddy!! You deserve the best that life can offer..Just focus on the positive and keep going..I’m just glad to hear someone got out realizing that the!! town is messed up!! That’s it’s not you ..The town is eerily creepy..
I think being in a desolate “ middle of nowhere” house can also complicate depression. Just a thought
it is very possible!
Good for you facing that which caused you so much pain. I went through hell growing up in a little Colorado farming community. I wonder about Moscow, though. It really seems to have a sinister, eerie vibe. Did you notice anything like that? Just curious.
it's really hard to say because i have some really close family that lives there. I can see how it gives that vibe off though
4:30 ‘oh, there’s houses everywhere now’ after pointing to TWO houses made me actually lol
😂😂😂 to be fair, you couldn’t see the other two.
also, when you grow up completely surrounded by fields, when any houses are built it seems like they’re everywhere 😂
@@JamesLeithartI also grew up there. The church was a big part of everything. There are whole subdivisions, that were once wheat fields. I actually get lost there now, trying to find the new church location. The old location is now a dentist office. My parents have passed now. I rarely go visit there anymore. I did attend my 40 year high school reunion. It was so weird seeing my classmates with gray hair and grandchildren.
🤗❤️ thank you for sharing.
Thanks for watching!
I hope you were able to confront the people who put you through the trauma, I have to ask ,where were your parents when this was going on? Anyway, I hope you feel better about things now.🙏🙏🙏😊
I chose to accept and forgive rather than confront. They wouldn’t have acknowledged any wrongdoing anyway. Things are much much better for me now, thanks 🙏
I would love to do a reaction video on my channel. I'm hoping you won't give me a copy right strike.. ❤
Your story is very important to my community. A lot of strange things going on within that area and it was good to hear your story...
Please let me know if it's OK. I'm going to do a reaction video on it. Please let me know should I take it down before striking me thank you.
Here's hoping that it will attract more subscribers as well for you. ❤
Sorry! I thought I replied to this! Please feel free to react to it! I just asked that you not crop out my name, and make sure people know where to find the original video. 🙏
Sorry to hear of the traumatic experiences you went thru. Thank you for surviving them and being the strong, resilient person you clearly are. Rising above the things that were maybe meant to bring you down but underestimating you and your potential to turn what they meant for evil, you turned into good. Turned into good by sharing a glimpse with us. So I thank you and congratulate you. You’re built Tonka tough if no one’s told you.
Do you have thoughts on the awful loss of four souls on King Road? Your perspective considering your personal connection to the Moscow area would surely be enlightening. Makes me wonder about how one might ponder and ruminate on things ranging from good to evil in that part of the country. Your ponderings have led you to a good place, but what about one who’s ponderings led them to King Rd on a dark night?
thank you! and no, no one has said I'm tonka tough and i like it 😂
In regards to King Rd, I really don't know much about any of the situation. very tragic. it happened so long after I moved away though, so I dont know much about it.
@@JamesLeithart Forgot to say, your video is very nicely done. Great shooting and editing. What gear do you use? I edit on Adobe Premiere and have a Canon 5D Mark III. But lately I've bought a DJI Mic. It's a great wireless mic that goes straight into my iPhone. So my Canon hasn't been touched in awhile.
@@Jeff_H_the_Guitarist oh man i use all kinds of gear... Canon r6 mkii, iphone 15 pro, dji mini 2, dji mic, insta360 go 3... those are the main pieces.
But thank you for the compliments on my video. Very much appreciated.
Featuring Winston and Pineapple!
It still looks like it's in the middle of nowhere.
hahaha it really kind of it...
Did he say what his trauma was did I miss it?
I guess I didn't mention it specifically. there was a lot of abuse that happened in the community in which I grew up. I only dealt with emotional, spiritual, and a bit of verbal abuse (fortunately), for different levels of leaders in the community.
@@JamesLeithart That’s rather helpful. I appreciated your video and revealing that you had trauma growing up, with a positive, forward-looking attitude as well. Yet, though you have every right to tell only what you wish, it kind of left me up in the air. I sensed those were the areas from what you did say, and guessing you need to be careful, especially having family back there. I will tell you that the part about being out with others and then by the time you got home your mom knew exactly who was in your car was very creepy. Someone(s)? had serious control and possibly other issues at the root of it. I know because I had a controlling person in my life growing up. You needn’t respond if you don’t want to, but I know that you said discussions you had with some in Moscow validated your experiences, and I can tell you that one example you gave told me volumes. That can be a blessing to come out of this, that others who have been hurt will recognize and confirm the trauma, hopefully in a healthy way. Wishing you the best. 😊
@msmarple what you said is correct. in addition, i dont see what naming specifics has to do with my healing journey... if i have moved on and healed from it, i don't need to be rehashing it all over and over again.
@@JamesLeithart ok, that makes sense. Your healthy journey is the most important thing. You may find, tho, that when you air it publicly, some will naturally be curious. Having said that, and being privileged in real life to hear the confidences of many a survivor of abuse, I strongly believe in honoring the right of individuals to tell you what they want, when they want. Guess my social media indulgence has left me more curious than sensitive. 🧐😊
Grew up 30 min. From there my childhood trauma similar to yours thanks for sharing.
i’m so sorry. i hope you have been able to find your path through it
Everytime I hear about moscow, idaho I think about the murderes that happened. It’s actually the only reason I know the town. Properly not something that helps your own view of the town
I was long gone when that happened. And when i went back, it didn't cross my mind.
How are they going to get past Brian kohberger 😢.....rip xana Ethan Maddy and Kaylee...
Not related to this video. And while it is hard to relive the past, those that live in Moscow (I Do) honor their memory by remembering them and NOT the suspect.
Sorry for being presumptuous but I'm assuming you are talking about your experience with Logos School founded by Douglas Wilson??? I've been investing that church/school there are other victims; Emilie Paige Dye. You'll easily find info about her online/youtube. A lot of people are speaking out about their abuse, remember it's not your shame but rather it's the perpetrator/s! God/Jesus bless you and I pray for your healing!
@@manorwoman2838 thank you for your prayers 🙏
What the hell was the specific trauma
I guess I didn't mention it specifically. there was a lot of abuse that happened in the community in which I grew up. I only dealt with emotional, spiritual, and a bit of verbal abuse (fortunately), for different levels of leaders in the community.
Oh no.Just wait unitl the youtube true crime idiots find this.
why do you say that?
@@JamesLeithart They already took your video and misused it.ONCE UPON A TRUE CRIME.Its because of the murders that happened.
@@PapaPablo-ok4u do you have a link? I can't find what you're talking about.
@@JamesLeithart type in the youtube search all capitals.ONCE UPON A TRUE CRIME.
@@JamesLeithart ua-cam.com/users/liveV2hl7jgCJOo?si=dn29m__9t9Yfc7TI
I am happy you are healing from the trauma you have. But you must know it’s not the town. Bless your heart. Love your family. Stop the trauma. Do so by being a good human.
I'm doing my best! Thank you for the words
I'm not sure what happened to this young man, but I hope he gets far away from that place. That area seems so sinister and evil.
He lives in Albania-so he did!
I grew up in Moscow. The town is not sinister or evil. Evil PEOPLE live anywhere you go. I'm glad he found some peace.
I think @lindah5011 said it really well in the other reply. evil people live everywhere, and this was just my story of this town. but yes... very far away now. and doing fantastic!
I'll never go back to my hometown in Indiana. Never.
so is your dad Peter?
his name is Peter, yes 😂
@@JamesLeithart what's so funny?
it’s funny because i get that question a lot. not usually on youtube though.
@@JamesLeithart the true crime community questions everything, especially when it's obvious its a cover up & the real perps are being protected. hell of a time to return dude - given what is known about Snickering Snell, the Logos music director/public information officer 👁️ you can't just come in now & play ignorant, when you have those kind of connections. You're supposedly an influencer/youth leader .... There will be no healing for anyone until the real evil is exposed.
Justice for Hudson Lindow, Hannah Cleere, Cayden Young, Luke Tyler, Theodore ray Clarkson III, Brent Kopacka, Sam Martinez, Tyler Helinski,Will Hendricks,Gayla schaper, Janice Foiles, travis Juetten, Sandra ladd, Tom johnson, leslie an Jones, trevis Hull, Brian Drake, Nicholas Cooper Kekoa McDaniel, Matthew Virgil, Buddy. you've entered into Sodom & Gomorrah where everything is ruled suicide, or hasn't been solved & the cycle repeats
I believe this is a small town problem. ♡
it's certainly very possible!
Jim Jordan kind of creep allowing things like this to happen devastate so many young vulnerable kids thank you for speaking out
Something is very wrong In Moscow Idaho.
Yes - mostly to do with ChristChurch and its hateful, regressive belief system.
Moscow itself is not evil or sinister. It is actually a community that tends to look out for each other.
There is a "church" here that has allowed evil things to happen within their walls. And sadly nothing has really been done to the leaders who allow this.
Evil resides no matter where you go.
Good for you James. That is one sketchy and corrupt town.
Your particular experience does not paint the whole town black. I live and have lived in Moscow most of my life. It’s being demonized by the actions of a crazed killer. This is not fair. Why bring this out now? An ulterior motive?
I brought this out now because this was the time i had finally healed enough to go back. The unfortunate murders have nothing to do with it. And my conclusion at the end of the video, as you could see, were exactly as you said: my particular experience does no paint the town black (but i stated it in different words)
@@JamesLeithartare you related to Peter Liethart ? the minister that went to New Saint Andrews college & wrote for Cannon press?
Traumatic not traumatic
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@truthandtransparency
Thank you for sharing, that town needs a good wholesome clean up! ❤
Actually, it's a very nice town. I've lived here for over 30 years now. But we've had more than our share of tragedy and conservative 'Christian' lunacy.
@sharpiegirl599 It does. We know from very swept under the rug firsthand experience.