To us, John Frusciante was a misunderstood, brilliant musician when he used drugs, but if we see these people on the streets and they arent a famous musician we view them as dirtbags. its unfair.
Obviously not? The junkies in my area DO look like dirtbags. And Frusciante did too. The difference is that he's rich and an artist and not completely wasting his life and money on drugs and eventually quit.
In nearly ten years of consuming Frusciante's work, this is the first time I've watched this video and heard this version of this song. It saddens me in a strange way to see this. Very haunting images.
Wow, this made me really wince as I watched it. I love John and it was really quite disturbing and upsetting to see him ruin himself like this... Thank god this man is still alive!
I was not sure what his band mates meant when they said 'they were sure John was going to die' until this video. You can see the death & insect like features on his face here where people lose themselves...John came real close....thankful he's better.
I read the comments beforehand I didn't think I could watch it, but I knew I had to make myself. As I watched and listened, I cried...to see him bleed, to see the pain...it's truly heartbreaking..but to know that he survived this, to know that the strength and bravery it must have took to break free of this fills me with so much hope. Thank you John for showing us all how to survive, for giving me strength to do things I never thought I could. Your soul is beautiful and your music is my freedom.
What utter bullsh^t. This guy did hundreds of thousands of dollars of damage to property and hotels. Had millions in the bank. Broke huge contracts & totally f&cked his band & managers out of sheer selfishness. He's not that talented. The hype is utter bullsh^t. When the RHCP fans grow up they will see this phony creepy junkie for what he really was.
I'm very happy to see him healthy these days, I love John and his music so freaking much and I think that he's one of the best musicians nowadays and in the whole wide history of music :)
john frusciante is the greatest musician living today! his music is unique and his own. he gives me goosebumps and fills my body with happiness everytime i listen to his music !
This is sad to see,he fucked his arms so bad from shooting up he had to have skin grafts to repair them.He had to have all his teeth removed and his jaw reconstructed because of infections from all the drug use. Check out a video called "Stuff" filmed by Johnny Depp in John's house in 93 and it looks like an episode of Hoarders.Follow that with "John Frusciante VPRO(1994) documentary and "John Frusciante"s Life" and you'll see how bad things got for him before it got even worse. This video just adds to that horror.His story is the stuff of movies,he should be dead..If someone can come back from those depths than anyone can and I hope he's inspired a million addicts to follow his lead.You don't get much lower than he did which makes his recovery that much more amazing.He got an interesting way of looking at the world,very positive attitude and seems like one of the sweetest guys on the planet who wouldn't hurt a fly. He's one of my favorite guitarist and I'm glad he's still with us.
His arms are mainly scarred up because he got badly burned in a house fire. Then again, I think he was high and caused the fire by mistake, so I guess you could say it was the heroin, but heroin doesn't do that to your skin. Also he was abusing other drugs at the time, and they were the main cause him having to get false teeth and having to have his jaw reconstructed. I'm not trying to downplay heroin, cos it's a horrible drug that should never be touched, but out of all the super hard drugs, it has the least noticeably physical affects on people. It's obvious if you're poor and have to live a hard life on the streets and suck dick, but if you're rich, it's not that hard to hide an addiction, cos it doesn't really show. As long as you can find time to go score some heroin without going through much withdrawal and you don't hide your injection marks, then it's hard for people to know. Just as an example, think about that guy from Glee. He looked like a normal guy and actually looked young for his age. It's things like Meth that really show. Coke certainly shows too, but it takes longer, and will the mental part with be the most noticeable at first.
You're right,I've had junkie friends who hid it,I knew but an outsider might not. Never tried and never will, watched my brother go through withdrawal and it's not a nice thing to see someone you love fucked up like that. I was put in a situation once were a neighbor OD. They knocked on my door for help and if it wasn't for my best friend's military training he'd be dead so I've seen the horrors of this drug. Frusicante did burn his arms BUT he was also shooting up improperly,basically just sticking the needle where ever in his arm. You're right about it's ability to be stealth in people who hid it from the common person. never understood the attraction because there's never a happy outcome to using it once it's got t's hooks in you and that risk t's to great to even debate but people still cross that line thinking they won't get hooked but find out they were wrong like everyone before them.
markyncole it turns out I was a little wrong actually. I just read up on it, and Frusciante said that although he was burned in the fire, most of his scarring is due to injecting drugs. But he made it clear that it was injecting coke that truly did it, and not so much the heroin. Apparently the heroin lasted long enough, but he had to inject frequently when using coke. yeah, people always like to find an excuse for trying things or justify why they do things. it's insane that some people try heroin because they've heard of some people being able to try it once or twice and never again; however, those people are pretty much freaks of nature and are EXTREMELY rare. Then you have some people who say they don't have an addictive personality. Sure it helps to not have an addictive personality, but that really only helps for soft drugs, but it means nothing when dealing with coke, meth, heroin and other opiates etc. Sorry to hear about your friends and brother. Such an uncool drug, and it doesn't just destroy the user.
queerp I think you need to research just a tad bit more. If you would read up further on it, you would learn that John never learned how to properly inject, nor did he learn how to do these drugs "cleanly" (used needles, dirty water, etc.), and this can DEFINITELY lead to all the abscesses he had. Still, when it's all said and done, John, Anthony, and all of them would probably tell you that even though they'd never touch the substances again, it made them who they are today. Drugs aren't bad, drug addiction is bad. And like you said, it is possible to "experiment" without getting addicted...I'm a living breathing example of that. I've tried my share of drugs, but I just stick to the natural herb.
queerp One word: abscesses. If you don't know how to properly shoot, like John, combined with a very poor personal hygiene/shooting hygiene, shooting heroin can cause abscesses which can severely scar up your arms. And Frusciante shot coke I believe too. He was probably sticking himself every 10 minutes when binging on that shit & banging it.Gage Campbell is certainly right with everything he said above.
This makes me cry.. But John himself doesn't think that his drug years (92-97) were the 'dark period' in his life, in fact he says that in those few years he learned a lot about life.. But I'm so happy that he decided to stop using drugs, I can't even imagine what would happen if he would have continued..
me too. it's unbelievable. didnt know this video was available, and didnt know JF's been filmed while shooting heroin. cant believe it. i'm speechless. this video makes me sad but at the same time it's like.. want to see it again and again! what a paradox! thanks John, u're among us now, healthy and making amazing music. u inspire me.
John is such a pure pisces. Pisces is the last sign of the zodiac. And i don't get much healing as i do from this incredible human so meaningful. Life's a bath sex is water. John is an awesome mutable fish.
i think that what really attracts us is death. This is beautiful; we don´t love John, but all he generates through his death: feeling of sadness and beauty.
To me, this song is an invitation. An invitation for you to explore your deepest feelings. And, of course, a hurtful journey. I guess it's impossible for someone to hear this song and don't feel anything. A mix of feelings: at the same that it is extremely dark and sad, it is pure beauty. Something only Frusciante is capable of. If not the greatest musician ever, certainly one of the few that made music it's extreme way of expression.
I agree totally, knowing the feelings and emotions behind the songs on by the way made it the most powerful album to me, unfortunately most people don't get to experience that about the album..
I met John in 2004 after a RHCP show and was briefly chatting to him, when i shook his hand, i saw his arms were all white scabby skin and all wrinkled! It looked quite horrific but i'm so happy to see that he had got through it and rebuilt his life!
John is hands down my favorite guitarist EVER... but... why does this video have so many likes? I'm not sure if I can watch it again. Like... you see what I'm saying here?
I think that this video was made to try to get people to pay attention to John so that he would not be killing himself, and he is such an amazing person who hit a bump in life that he called then as being reborn. I am glad that he did not continue down this path or he would have wasted his talents. He is one amazing person.
To quote byra01: "it's funny how musicians in this kind of state don't write shit about how cool drugs are. that's for the stupid rockstar assholes to do." I wish I could give it 1,000 thumbs up. This video tore me up the first time.
yeah, I think so, i'm sure whatever it is it'll be for the best. they all seem to be doing they're own thing atm, an you're right as long as they're happy we got nothing to worry about, there'll always be good music
j'adore ce mec et cet video me souléve le coeur, me fiche la chair de poule et me fait mal!!! et quand je vois dans quel etat il s'était mis, le voir si malheureux ( même si il le nie !!!) et il se cherché c'est clair !!! en tout cas heureuse de le voir au mieux maintenant, vraiment!!!.
Most Pure, real, and beautiful work... it's true, John had to go through hell, in order to write such beautiful music. Thank you John. you suffered for us.
This is sad & art is born of it Everyone is reacting like sadness is unusual, the art is We witness a hellish processs of coming 2 terms with who one really is becuz he is so extremely talented &famous This happens 2 many ppl. Age of face yr pain or die Glad no one taped my low points They were this ugly albeit different. Long time of fear and pain led me 2 try to kill my creative side & had allow it back to survive. Now am painter so its good He's brave & lets us see process of becoming him.
@letshakehands I think it came across wrong. My point was that the focus doesn't belong on the mechanics and skill of the needle use. It belongs on the human being who is brave enough to let us see him at his worst. His best is the very best but thats easy to show. He lets us see the whole of it. I'm not that brave, most aren't.I haven't done IV street drugs either. But have had some bad times and honestly believe many others have. Just act out(or in) differently. Sorry for all the typos.
John frusciante est un grand artiste!!! son passé de junkie a faillit lui être fatal. Mais sans se passé, john ne serai pas ce qu'il est aujourd'hui!!! UN ARTISTE HORS PAIRS!!!! it's a God!!
Much of it is very ugly in fact, but all so real. Im glad he decided to record those things on a 4 track, its incredibly intimate. Without hands on production and top 40 intention, theres virtually no separation between his vision and you, which, when you really admire an artist, is a very valuable experience. I think a few songs on smile are plain awful, but its great for the most part. Niandra was perfect, he wont ever top that. Just wasn't the same after he joined the chili's again.
I think it's weird that people always say things like, "His drug years were so sad to see." I think his drug years were the best thing that ever happened to the universe; aesthetically speaking of course. There's nothing more beautiful than John Frusciante's first two albums. Nothing.
no..listen to his audio interview about the empyrean..he doesn't say they're split up but they have no plans at all atm and it seems john is suggesting that they don't intend to get back togeather, at least not for the forseable future. I don't know what the problem is, they made some incredible music and maybe its time for something new, there's a lot of music to explore...
@MrKevinNavarro it is heart breaking, but so real its not to be forgotten. what makes me happy is seeing john now. its just incredible th things that can happen :)
watching films like this.... I'm glad he has his hands
To us, John Frusciante was a misunderstood, brilliant musician when he used drugs, but if we see these people on the streets and they arent a famous musician we view them as dirtbags. its unfair.
Amen
Very true
+Rhoads5995 Maybe because they are dirtbags
+z3idd Obviously Not!
Obviously not? The junkies in my area DO look like dirtbags. And Frusciante did too. The difference is that he's rich and an artist and not completely wasting his life and money on drugs and eventually quit.
John Frusciante is my hero. Mainly because he's been here and has reached where he is now.
The fact that one person says "that's beautiful", and another person says "WTF? This isnt art!" - THAT'S what makes it art.
I love this man so very, very much. His voice is pure emotion, and a lot of pain. When he rises to the scream at 0:58 my heart sinks every time.
In nearly ten years of consuming Frusciante's work, this is the first time I've watched this video and heard this version of this song. It saddens me in a strange way to see this. Very haunting images.
Wow, this made me really wince as I watched it. I love John and it was really quite disturbing and upsetting to see him ruin himself like this... Thank god this man is still alive!
I'm glad he's better now ❤️✨
John... wow. This was hard to watch... I'm glad he got out of that dark place on time... beautiful music as always.
this is brutal, did anyone see him unwrapping his arm and how bloody it was
I was not sure what his band mates meant when they said 'they were sure John was going to die' until this video. You can see the death & insect like features on his face here where people lose themselves...John came real close....thankful he's better.
I read the comments beforehand I didn't think I could watch it, but I knew I had to make myself. As I watched and listened, I cried...to see him bleed, to see the pain...it's truly heartbreaking..but to know that he survived this, to know that the strength and bravery it must have took to break free of this fills me with so much hope. Thank you John for showing us all how to survive, for giving me strength to do things I never thought I could. Your soul is beautiful and your music is my freedom.
What utter bullsh^t. This guy did hundreds of thousands of dollars of damage to property and hotels. Had millions in the bank. Broke huge contracts & totally f&cked his band & managers out of sheer selfishness. He's not that talented. The hype is utter bullsh^t. When the RHCP fans grow up they will see this phony creepy junkie for what he really was.
My heart hurts but this is a reminder to me of the life that I no longer live....keep pushing forward john you are brilliant.
I'm very happy to see him healthy these days, I love John and his music so freaking much and I think that he's one of the best musicians nowadays and in the whole wide history of music :)
"It always makes me feel good to know you're alive- Mascara: Niandra Lades"
I'm so happy you're still here, John.
I come to this video when I feel like shit and feel like nothing’s worth it. I’m so glad he made it out, hopefully I can too.
Wow, this video only goes for a bit over a minute and it's probably the most powerful videoclip I've ever seen.
Oh my....this is so difficult to watch. I'm so grateful John is out of this state. He is an artist in the purest sense of the word.
john frusciante is the greatest musician living today! his music is unique and his own. he gives me goosebumps and fills my body with happiness everytime i listen to his music !
This video is very sad, thank god he is still walking this earth and making beautiful music for us all to hear, Love you John. x
this makes me so sad, but also very proud of him, it's maybe hard to understand but I have a huge amount of respect towards this man
Thank God, you still alive John.
A real toe tapper...
So sad it's hard to watch but the realness is just so hard to ignore. aw John. This only makes me love him more, for all that he's been through.
I got feelings during this video I have never experienced before. A deep touching, cutting feeling inside my stomach... John :'(
This is sad to see,he fucked his arms so bad from shooting up he had to have skin grafts to repair them.He had to have all his teeth removed and his jaw reconstructed because of infections from all the drug use. Check out a video called "Stuff" filmed by Johnny Depp in John's house in 93 and it looks like an episode of Hoarders.Follow that with "John Frusciante VPRO(1994) documentary and "John Frusciante"s Life" and you'll see how bad things got for him before it got even worse. This video just adds to that horror.His story is the stuff of movies,he should be dead..If someone can come back from those depths than anyone can and I hope he's inspired a million addicts to follow his lead.You don't get much lower than he did which makes his recovery that much more amazing.He got an interesting way of looking at the world,very positive attitude and seems like one of the sweetest guys on the planet who wouldn't hurt a fly. He's one of my favorite guitarist and I'm glad he's still with us.
His arms are mainly scarred up because he got badly burned in a house fire. Then again, I think he was high and caused the fire by mistake, so I guess you could say it was the heroin, but heroin doesn't do that to your skin. Also he was abusing other drugs at the time, and they were the main cause him having to get false teeth and having to have his jaw reconstructed. I'm not trying to downplay heroin, cos it's a horrible drug that should never be touched, but out of all the super hard drugs, it has the least noticeably physical affects on people. It's obvious if you're poor and have to live a hard life on the streets and suck dick, but if you're rich, it's not that hard to hide an addiction, cos it doesn't really show. As long as you can find time to go score some heroin without going through much withdrawal and you don't hide your injection marks, then it's hard for people to know. Just as an example, think about that guy from Glee. He looked like a normal guy and actually looked young for his age. It's things like Meth that really show. Coke certainly shows too, but it takes longer, and will the mental part with be the most noticeable at first.
You're right,I've had junkie friends who hid it,I knew but an outsider might not. Never tried and never will, watched my brother go through withdrawal and it's not a nice thing to see someone you love fucked up like that. I was put in a situation once were a neighbor OD. They knocked on my door for help and if it wasn't for my best friend's military training he'd be dead so I've seen the horrors of this drug. Frusicante did burn his arms BUT he was also shooting up improperly,basically just sticking the needle where ever in his arm. You're right about it's ability to be stealth in people who hid it from the common person. never understood the attraction because there's never a happy outcome to using it once it's got t's hooks in you and that risk t's to great to even debate but people still cross that line thinking they won't get hooked but find out they were wrong like everyone before them.
markyncole it turns out I was a little wrong actually. I just read up on it, and Frusciante said that although he was burned in the fire, most of his scarring is due to injecting drugs. But he made it clear that it was injecting coke that truly did it, and not so much the heroin. Apparently the heroin lasted long enough, but he had to inject frequently when using coke.
yeah, people always like to find an excuse for trying things or justify why they do things. it's insane that some people try heroin because they've heard of some people being able to try it once or twice and never again; however, those people are pretty much freaks of nature and are EXTREMELY rare. Then you have some people who say they don't have an addictive personality. Sure it helps to not have an addictive personality, but that really only helps for soft drugs, but it means nothing when dealing with coke, meth, heroin and other opiates etc. Sorry to hear about your friends and brother. Such an uncool drug, and it doesn't just destroy the user.
queerp I think you need to research just a tad bit more. If you would read up further on it, you would learn that John never learned how to properly inject, nor did he learn how to do these drugs "cleanly" (used needles, dirty water, etc.), and this can DEFINITELY lead to all the abscesses he had.
Still, when it's all said and done, John, Anthony, and all of them would probably tell you that even though they'd never touch the substances again, it made them who they are today. Drugs aren't bad, drug addiction is bad. And like you said, it is possible to "experiment" without getting addicted...I'm a living breathing example of that. I've tried my share of drugs, but I just stick to the natural herb.
queerp One word: abscesses. If you don't know how to properly shoot, like John, combined with a very poor personal hygiene/shooting hygiene, shooting heroin can cause abscesses which can severely scar up your arms. And Frusciante shot coke I believe too. He was probably sticking himself every 10 minutes when binging on that shit & banging it.Gage Campbell is certainly right with everything he said above.
This makes me cry.. But John himself doesn't think that his drug years (92-97) were the 'dark period' in his life, in fact he says that in those few years he learned a lot about life.. But I'm so happy that he decided to stop using drugs, I can't even imagine what would happen if he would have continued..
oh, John x
when I realized that in the last frame he was already high... this clip took on a new meaning
So nice how he got through that addiction. He looks so awesome now.
holy crap, thanks for posting. this is rare stuff
❤ thanks God you are still alive
One of the most shocking videos in UA-cam.
me too. it's unbelievable. didnt know this video was available, and didnt know JF's been filmed while shooting heroin. cant believe it. i'm speechless. this video makes me sad but at the same time it's like.. want to see it again and again! what a paradox! thanks John, u're among us now, healthy and making amazing music. u inspire me.
John is such a pure pisces. Pisces is the last sign of the zodiac. And i don't get much healing as i do from this incredible human so meaningful. Life's a bath sex is water. John is an awesome mutable fish.
i love john's work and this song has been one of my i tunes most playd, but this video still gives me the creeps after seeing it so many times!!
this is dark
Thank you for surviving your addiction. It didn't seem like you would. I wish my brother would have survived his.
i think that what really attracts us is death. This is beautiful; we don´t love John, but all he generates through his death: feeling of sadness and beauty.
I'm so glad he made it through this alive
best music video i've ever seen
this is kind of disturbing...
He's lucky to be alive... and we're lucky to have him.
To me, this song is an invitation. An invitation for you to explore your deepest feelings. And, of course, a hurtful journey.
I guess it's impossible for someone to hear this song and don't feel anything. A mix of feelings: at the same that it is extremely dark and sad, it is pure beauty. Something only Frusciante is capable of.
If not the greatest musician ever, certainly one of the few that made music it's extreme way of expression.
I agree totally, knowing the feelings and emotions behind the songs on by the way made it the most powerful album to me, unfortunately most people don't get to experience that about the album..
I met John in 2004 after a RHCP show and was briefly chatting to him, when i shook his hand, i saw his arms were all white scabby skin and all wrinkled! It looked quite horrific but i'm so happy to see that he had got through it and rebuilt his life!
I think those were from the skin graphs he had to have done.
fuck you're so lucky that you got to meet him, thanks for sharing.
oh johnnie :(
This is Disturbingly Sad To See Him Shooting Up Heroin And His Arms Were Bloody Too...😢🥺💔
All the feels.
it takes you to a part of life that only certain people can understand, those with true beauty in there souls or true pain, both are powerful
John is hands down my favorite guitarist EVER...
but...
why does this video have so many likes?
I'm not sure if I can watch it again.
Like... you see what I'm saying here?
I think that this video was made to try to get people to pay attention to John so that he would not be killing himself, and he is such an amazing person who hit a bump in life that he called then as being reborn. I am glad that he did not continue down this path or he would have wasted his talents. He is one amazing person.
beautifully said.
Looks like he missed.
I can't describe my feelings watching this video.
man , I am with you on this one-
oh my god
thank god
john back
:)
how he is still alive is past me, but i'm glad you gotta respect him as a songwriter/guitarist since these days
To quote byra01:
"it's funny how musicians in this kind of state don't write shit about how cool drugs are. that's for the stupid rockstar assholes to do."
I wish I could give it 1,000 thumbs up.
This video tore me up the first time.
John.. love you
yeah, I think so, i'm sure whatever it is it'll be for the best. they all seem to be doing they're own thing atm, an you're right as long as they're happy we got nothing to worry about, there'll always be good music
How could any one not cry after watchindg this video?
if this video makes us viewers cry imagine how the director and the editor felt.
j'adore ce mec et cet video me souléve le coeur, me fiche la chair de poule et me fait mal!!! et quand je vois dans quel etat il s'était mis, le voir si malheureux ( même si il le nie !!!) et il se cherché c'est clair !!! en tout cas heureuse de le voir au mieux maintenant, vraiment!!!.
Most Pure, real, and beautiful work... it's true, John had to go through hell, in order to write such beautiful music.
Thank you John.
you suffered for us.
The best always do!
This music is so so dark with this movie
true art
The most sincere song ever
this song was my only friend at a point when even my voice failed me
My god. He lives!!
This is sad & art is born of it Everyone is reacting like sadness is unusual, the art is We witness a hellish processs of coming 2 terms with who one really is becuz he is so extremely talented &famous This happens 2 many ppl. Age of face yr pain or die Glad no one taped my low points They were this ugly albeit different. Long time of fear and pain led me 2 try to kill my creative side & had allow it back to survive. Now am painter so its good He's brave & lets us see process of becoming him.
it's hard to watch that but also i find that i keep getting drawn to it because it's so real
This video is the most beautiful thing ever made.
I've only watched this video once. I can't watch it again....it's so explicitly sad...
every song on smile is the best song :P
this is what perfect sounds like
@lampshade1120
it really is. :)
and he blew my mind with his last album "The Empyrean"
great musician! :)
love it
brilliantly painful :)
love the solo career
Lynchesqué music video. I like it.
love
he`s really a nice guy i think,and really a good guitarrist plus he does something "real" these days.that`s no plastic!love
@letshakehands I think it came across wrong. My point was that the focus doesn't belong on the mechanics and skill of the needle use. It belongs on the human being who is brave enough to let us see him at his worst. His best is the very best but thats easy to show. He lets us see the whole of it. I'm not that brave, most aren't.I haven't done IV street drugs either. But have had some bad times and honestly believe many others have. Just act out(or in) differently. Sorry for all the typos.
I just keep thinking about how brave you have to be to sing a song like this.
John frusciante est un grand artiste!!! son passé de junkie a faillit lui être fatal. Mais sans se passé, john ne serai pas ce qu'il est aujourd'hui!!! UN ARTISTE HORS PAIRS!!!! it's a God!!
That is so crazy, if it weren't for the fact of the way Frusciante is now clean and healthy I would have cried watching this video
sad but so so true
I simply cry rivers when i see this video... i can't bare looking at him doing this shit to himself...it's the most disturbing thing i've ever seen...
@tonkanamagarcu uhh, no..his green fender jaguar still exists. its on display at the hard rock cafe in orlando. its on the website.
It hurts my veins watching this
Much of it is very ugly in fact, but all so real. Im glad he decided to record those things on a 4 track, its incredibly intimate. Without hands on production and top 40 intention, theres virtually no separation between his vision and you, which, when you really admire an artist, is a very valuable experience. I think a few songs on smile are plain awful, but its great for the most part. Niandra was perfect, he wont ever top that. Just wasn't the same after he joined the chili's again.
I think it's weird that people always say things like, "His drug years were so sad to see." I think his drug years were the best thing that ever happened to the universe; aesthetically speaking of course. There's nothing more beautiful than John Frusciante's first two albums. Nothing.
no..listen to his audio interview about the empyrean..he doesn't say they're split up but they have no plans at all atm and it seems john is suggesting that they don't intend to get back togeather, at least not for the forseable future. I don't know what the problem is, they made some incredible music and maybe its time for something new, there's a lot of music to explore...
that made me cry. fuck.
Damn!! this is bloody shockin' me..!! poor frusciante..
i'm so fucking happy that he is clean now :)
JOHN ERES LO MAXIMO!!!!!!!!!!!...
Good god man, this video is serious.
@MrKevinNavarro it is heart breaking, but so real its not to be forgotten. what makes me happy is seeing john now. its just incredible th things that can happen :)
our body is just a vessel. no worries, all