A Pregnancy Test and Heartbreak | Our Fertility Journey Episode 3

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  • @Taylor_R
    @Taylor_R  3 роки тому +4588

    Please watch until the end 🎢❤️

  • @sharlainjapan
    @sharlainjapan 3 роки тому +7472

    I’m so proud of you for sharing this, I know it wasn’t easy. These videos are going to help so many people to not feel so alone and give them strength to go through whatever it is they’re struggling with as well❤️

    • @yellowbird500
      @yellowbird500 3 роки тому +61

      I heard about a similar case yesterday. Single mom, had only one viable fertilized egg and the embryo did not take. 😓 So many people walk around with a troubled heart. We need to be mindful of this and kinder to each other. Thank you for sharing. I will be praying for you both.

    • @alva--._..l-._.-l.._.--
      @alva--._..l-._.-l.._.-- 3 роки тому +6

      Hi, Sharla! I hope you're doing well! 😊 Can't wait for your next video... ✨

    • @Jennisnewbeginning
      @Jennisnewbeginning 3 роки тому +22

      You are such a sweet friend, Sharla! I’ve watched you both for years and you two have really been there for each other through thick and thin 💕

    • @crazycatlady7866
      @crazycatlady7866 3 роки тому +4

      Found a great song about infertility, Wounded by Maddie Wilson (If some people process their emotions with music 💛)

    • @Peach_VOxo
      @Peach_VOxo 3 роки тому +2

      Well said 👏

  • @Eclaire.19
    @Eclaire.19 3 роки тому +1610

    Even though Tom is not very vocal on camera, I can see how supportive, loving and what an amazing husband he is to you. The way you look at each other warms my heart and I just know you will both be amazing parents. Your future baby will be so loved

    • @Sajirah
      @Sajirah 3 роки тому +37

      Tom definitely seems like a very sweet and supportive man and I’m glad it’s him that Taylor is going through this with. There couldn’t be a more supportive husband for her to have and I wish them nothing but success with this.

    • @thehighsandluos
      @thehighsandluos 3 роки тому +5

      Yes! I came here to say the same thing.

  • @tglow100
    @tglow100 3 роки тому +830

    I'm my parents only child and their 4th attempt at IVF. Before me, my mom had a twin stillbirth and 2 miscarriages. I've spoken to both my parents about the entire experience. My dad, although he never had to go through the physical changes or put his body through ample amounts of stress, was emotionally impacted by losing all those babies. He says that after the third attempt, he was not keen on trying again because it would have been too painful to lose another child. However, he left the final decision to my mom given that it was her body that was being heavily manipulated and if she felt physically and emotionally strong enough for another attempt, he would support that decision wholeheartedly. She never had a doubt about that 4th attempt. No matter how depleting and heartbreaking the process had been on her. She is so strong and so resilient and I always remind myself when I get frustrated by her stubbornness, that it's the sole reason I exist haha. I'm 23 now. Anything is possible. I truly hope for you both to have your miracle baby some day. But most importantly, no matter what your journey is, make sure to take care of yourself along the way and recognize your incredible strength (both physical and mental), especially in the lowest of moments. You are so powerful.

    • @fxjrulpzxi
      @fxjrulpzxi 3 роки тому +53

      as a woman struggling with infertility, it’s really beautiful to read this from the child’s perspective. so many depressed, emo kids out there, and I get it- but my worst nightmare is finally having a baby, and later they scream at me “I wish I were never born.”

    • @rufiredup90
      @rufiredup90 3 роки тому +14

      I’m reading this and I’m in tears! Just so so so so emotional. I’m so happy for you that you have such amazing and wonderful parents.

    • @qopkornz
      @qopkornz 3 роки тому +1

      @@fxjrulpzxi you lucky buck/Doe!!! ❤️❤️❤️

  • @angy3784
    @angy3784 3 роки тому +866

    how every time something heartbreaking happened tom said “we’ll try again” “we’ll get it next time” 🥺🥺 he has believed in you this whole time and he won’t stop believing in you until the end

    • @Sapphireemberss
      @Sapphireemberss 3 роки тому +3

      Yes, I love that ❤️ the love they share is beautiful

  • @Hsiang.9818
    @Hsiang.9818 3 роки тому +957

    I’m an egg donor, I have to be honest, the process is pretty rough. So I can imagine how much pain you’ve been through, I hope everything goes well. The baby deserve good parents like you.

    • @Taylor_R
      @Taylor_R  3 роки тому +274

      That’s such an incredibly selfless thing to do. Thank you ❤️

    • @muqades101
      @muqades101 3 роки тому +103

      I was an egg donor in 2019, so I know the process can be demanding physically. Best of luck and take care of yourself. I know a little girl was born thank to my donation and the moment you realise you changed the life of a stranger is something that's so complex but gratifying.

    • @Max-my6rk
      @Max-my6rk 3 роки тому +8

      @@muqades101 you guys are the angels of this world helping family accomplish their dreams.. thank u

  • @caricakes
    @caricakes 3 роки тому +1425

    "I no longer see a woman who is inadequate, I see a woman who is unstoppable"
    Thank you so much for sharing this journey. My cousin is going through IVF right now and I knew it was difficult, but really had no idea until I watched these. You've always been inspiring and able to see the positives, and I hope that your light reaches everyone that has or is going through this. Sending you lots of love!

    • @Taylor_R
      @Taylor_R  3 роки тому +44

      Cari! I was just watching your new video with my morning coffee ☕️
      Thanks for the love and good luck to your cousin! 🍀❤️

  • @yoongified93
    @yoongified93 3 роки тому +2067

    I truly hope these series have a heartwarming ending Taylor, my heart goes to you and your family!

    • @Hiforest
      @Hiforest 3 роки тому +61

      I'm hoping because these episodes go a year back that they are sharing at a point they are expecting ;).

    • @patriciaalbuquerque5860
      @patriciaalbuquerque5860 3 роки тому

      Hope so too!

    • @patriciaalbuquerque5860
      @patriciaalbuquerque5860 3 роки тому

      @@Hiforest damn I wish 😍🥰

    • @abigailh7715
      @abigailh7715 3 роки тому

      @@Hiforest They are

    • @yoongified93
      @yoongified93 3 роки тому +1

      @@Hiforest you were so right, makes me so happy for them!

  • @JoyceChengHK
    @JoyceChengHK 3 роки тому +1856

    So i’m crying and imm not supposed to be crying cuz i just got my lashes done so i hate you. But also, omg love you so much. Love this fertility series. Thank you for sharing your journey with all of us!

    • @fatdog56
      @fatdog56 3 роки тому +2

      joyce i love you too🥰

    • @MrMcVITIES
      @MrMcVITIES 3 роки тому +24

      I actually think it's the best thing Taylor has done and the most honest series I've seen on UA-cam for years. Thanks Taylor for being so raw and honest with us all.

    • @0AnimeLova0
      @0AnimeLova0 3 роки тому +5

      Legit watched this while I was waiting to pay for my lashes, the techs think i'm crazy

    • @Taylor_R
      @Taylor_R  3 роки тому +81

      🤣 see you and your lashes Wednesday! ❤️

    • @tqq8916
      @tqq8916 3 роки тому

      @@Taylor_R HAHAHAH

  • @victrola2007
    @victrola2007 3 роки тому +272

    "Ok. Let's try again." Words spoken by a man who must have been shattered. Tom is a loving, a true partner, husband, a real man and best friend. You two are truly one unit. 🙏🏻😔👍

  • @geegee_509
    @geegee_509 3 роки тому +685

    This future baby is going to have an unimaginable amounts of anties and uncles online.
    They don’t even know how badly they are wanted ❤️

    • @caki3020
      @caki3020 3 роки тому +8

      aww thats so cute 🥰 and true!

    • @Myumeful
      @Myumeful 3 роки тому +23

      Comments like this are so insensitive. There might never be a baby at all. It's just hurtful to put so much hope on the future when there's a slim chance of success.

    • @geegee_509
      @geegee_509 3 роки тому +19

      @@Myumeful there also nothing wrong with wishing the utmost best for someone. And I’m a huge believer in calling things to actions. Law of attraction of a sort.

    • @kurosawa9857
      @kurosawa9857 3 роки тому +5

      @@geegee_509 No, Maya is correct here.

    • @geegee_509
      @geegee_509 3 роки тому +11

      @@kurosawa9857 you are both entitled to your opinions.

  • @MOMOspace7
    @MOMOspace7 3 роки тому +373

    I think people always forget that not everyone can just "get pregnant" at the drop of a hat. There are people out there who have 8 kids for selfish reasons and can't take care of any of them, and people that struggle to even have 1 and have the whole world to give. The expectations surrounding fertility are absolutely terrible and I hope everyone can be more compassionate. Thank you for sharing your experience Taylor!!!! 💕

    • @voodooprincess11
      @voodooprincess11 3 роки тому +30

      Yeesh! Not everyone who is able to have many children does so for selfish reasons. And I'm sure that many women who struggle with infertility would jump at the chance to have a big family.

    • @lilithpeachy7721
      @lilithpeachy7721 3 роки тому +29

      @@voodooprincess11 Strongly agree, just because some women can't have children doesn't mean that others who can owe them anything. Many people who cannot afford to have children end up with children due to lack of resources like contraception / sex education

    • @dw3214
      @dw3214 3 роки тому +15

      @@voodooprincess11 It is actually selfish...It's not good for the kids and not good for the woman. More often than not if a woman has more than 5-6 kids its often due to the selfishness of the husband or her ignorance due to her upbringing. For some its even a business to go around countries that are more rich and gather unemployed benefits and make their kids begg...Ask any social worker. There are good families but its like only 1 in 10 such families the other 9 often have some huge issues and the kids suffer. Even when such families happen in the west the oldest kids in those families often become the mothers and fathers at age 5-6 changing diapers of their now 1-month-old sibling and protecting their 2-year-old sibling from hitting the table instead of studying or playing like their friends because their parents are working and even when 1 is staying at home like the mother, for example, more often than not she still makes the oldest 6-7 or 7-8-year-olds do parenting while she cleans or rest because while she has a 1 or 2 month-year-old she is surprised pregnant again...Kids from such families are vulnerable. Having 5 kids is fine especially 3 that is a great number if you can handle it...But as someone with many siblings I can tell you that even parents with only 2 kids struggle so imagine if you had enough to be a group in a daycare XD

    • @TheSwauzz
      @TheSwauzz 3 роки тому +1

      More and more women are struggling with conception all the time, so it's doubly frustrating when people think it's just so easy.

    • @TheSwauzz
      @TheSwauzz 3 роки тому

      @@lilithpeachy7721 Strongly disagree. In the US at least, contraception is free at pretty much any community college and Planned Parenthood and probably many other low income medical places; it's just that people don't bother even looking for help. Not having contraception is simply an excuse for bad decision making anyway. Can't get BCP/condoms? Well, then don't have sex. It's really not that difficult to use your brain, but people allow themselves to be ruled by their emotion and just want to fuck.

  • @sparklezks4557
    @sparklezks4557 3 роки тому +923

    I have never wanted something so badly for someone whom I don’t personally know like I do for you. Sending you and Tom lots of love and prayers ❤️

    • @PotatoCouch666
      @PotatoCouch666 3 роки тому +7

      This! My exact thoughts! ❤️❤️

    • @elisazouza
      @elisazouza 3 роки тому +1

      Sameee ♥️♥️♥️

    • @Angie_King_Bens_Grandma
      @Angie_King_Bens_Grandma 3 роки тому +4

      Right? I feel like Taylor & Tom are my kids. I want to hug them both!

    • @marianarecio94
      @marianarecio94 3 роки тому

      My thoughts exactly!!!!

    • @florist7743
      @florist7743 3 роки тому

      Exactly my thoughts! My brain rebels so much seeing Tay cry and my heart pours over with hope and well wishes for them.

  • @maneacevedo9308
    @maneacevedo9308 3 роки тому +444

    One of the strongest messages of this series for me was when you realize that you're a strong and unstoppable woman. This journey is only the beginning of an incredible ride. I wish you good luck and strength for both of you.

  • @quinnabun1173
    @quinnabun1173 3 роки тому +137

    When Tom said "OK! Let's try again". 🥺
    You've got such a great supportive relationship. You've got this.

  • @earthstar7534
    @earthstar7534 3 роки тому +373

    I feel so seen by this. I had no problem getting pregnant, but I had a lot of trouble staying pregnant. I felt incredibly guilty and alone. Especially when the two children I could have were both premature because my body kept failing us.
    I wouldn't wish this on anyone. I too was incredibly blessed with a supportive husband who supported me.

    • @Rain_Reign
      @Rain_Reign 3 роки тому +8

      Right there with you and sending love ♥️ It’s so easy to feel like we are alone in all of this (even when we have supportive partners), but we never truly are. So many of us travel a very difficult path to parenthood and I’m grateful for opportunities like this that we have to see and support each other. You are so strong and your family is blessed to have you 🌈🌈🌈💗

    • @princesaa__
      @princesaa__ 3 роки тому +8

      Sending you love, lots of love! As someone who was born prematurely (a micro premature baby), I can tell you that your body was not failing you 💖

    • @marinaabbate3586
      @marinaabbate3586 3 роки тому +2

      This is me as well. I had no problem getting pregnant but had both my children at 27 weeks barely felt like I experienced pregnancy and couldn't breast feed.

    • @ctgctg1
      @ctgctg1 3 роки тому

      Right there with you, but there is hope. I am the mother of three wonderful daughters, one biological and two adopted daughters. The journey to motherhood can be challenging, but it can happen. Hang in there. It will happen.

  • @heynadine
    @heynadine 3 роки тому +1332

    Sending you so much love. This has been one of the most real, and honest series on UA-cam. So proud of you for sharing and showing other women they aren’t alone. ❤️

  • @anastasiapjatakova9297
    @anastasiapjatakova9297 3 роки тому +541

    Who else remembers a video of Taylor’s where a fortune teller said she would have a baby in the year of a tiger?
    It’s starting next year and I’m hoping the pregnancy will happen after your break!
    Sending you all the love, support and a little tiger baby 🐯 ❤️

    • @dw3214
      @dw3214 3 роки тому +51

      if it happens that fortune teller will be officially legit XD....

    • @at2425__
      @at2425__ 3 роки тому +21

      I literally never forgot 😅😅 hopefully she does get pregnant this year but we'll see 🙏🙏

    • @bianca_apollonova
      @bianca_apollonova 3 роки тому +2

      OMG YES!!!

    • @ellelee9723
      @ellelee9723 3 роки тому +40

      she’s due in March!!!! Fortune teller was right

    • @user-ib1is7ny7r
      @user-ib1is7ny7r 3 роки тому +24

      the fortune teller was right 😭

  • @_aasthasingh
    @_aasthasingh 3 роки тому +1002

    I have become so much more invested in this series than I ever thought I would. I hope everything goes as you hope it to.
    ❤️

  • @emilydunbar5107
    @emilydunbar5107 3 роки тому +331

    I never thought I’d be so invested in a strangers life. You guys will make such wonderful parents.

  • @Lindyway
    @Lindyway 9 місяців тому +2

    Am i the only one who cried watching this and picturing my procedure soon? Congrats guys

  • @VJal95
    @VJal95 3 роки тому +202

    I loved it when Tom said "Ok. Let's try again!" That's it, we must persevere! Thank you Taylor for sharing your journey, I wish you and your husband the best outcome possible.

  • @Letsplaymakeupchannel
    @Letsplaymakeupchannel 3 роки тому +943

    My heart goes to you and your little family. All the best!

  • @jessicapreston9808
    @jessicapreston9808 3 роки тому +210

    My husband and I have been trying to have a baby for 2 years. We can’t afford fertility treatments. I understand so deeply the pain, heartbreak, and sadness that comes with the idea of maybe never getting to be a mom. It’s almost unbearable. I really appreciate that you are sharing this journey. I know I’m not alone..but sometimes it feels that way. Thank you!!!!

    • @aiya359
      @aiya359 3 роки тому +3

      You’re not alone! I’ve been there too and I felt so alone at the time. The comments on this series gave me some comfort too. Sending lots of love and hope!💕

    • @irinairy9
      @irinairy9 3 роки тому +14

      A childless life is also amazing, you get to live for yourself only and make yourself happy. I love not being a mom, so much freedom, to travel, to do what I want, when I want it.

    • @dw3214
      @dw3214 3 роки тому +13

      My heart is with you! Tho I have to ask and make maybe a suggestion...Have you thought about going abroad for IVF? Eastern Europe has a lot of IVF clinics that are affordable and freezing your eggs there or doing IFV there is a great option even people from different parts of the world and other parts of Europe do medical tourism in other countries that they can afford. I don't know where you are from but my friend has a family member raised in the U.S and her boyfriend is American and they came back to here(Bulgaria) to do IVF. They came for 1 month and a half and froze like 6 embryos did some tourism around the Black Sea and went back to the U.S to save money to try many IVF many times if the 1st does not work out for them. Based on what they said the cost of freezing eggs here is 600$ USD for more than 10 eggs which they said was really great(that's a lot of eggs you can do less), for freezing embryos, its 250$ (for 3), and what they liked most is the cost of storing the embryos its 180$ a year and 800$ for 5 years and in the U.S the cost ranges from 400-1000$ just 1 year. They said they would have tried this year but instead, they decided to freeze more embryos and do the IVF later hopefully next year or the year after when COVID-19 is over. Stay strong! Even without IVF its not impossible my childhood friend was the result of many miscarriages and suddenly boom he came to his mother out of nowhere years after they had already quit because they had literally tried soo much. I'm sure whatever happens it will be the best for you! Concentrate on your happiness and health which is what matters most

    • @rinatnada9401
      @rinatnada9401 3 роки тому +1

      Also eat a lot of organic spinach, google Jlo spinach pregnancy !

    • @fxjrulpzxi
      @fxjrulpzxi 3 роки тому +26

      @@irinairy9 that’s not what people trying to get pregnant want to hear. you made a choice to live that life. i want to be a mom to a biological child, and 90% of humanity gets that opportunity. it’s absolutely a travesty to be in the 10% that can’t.

  • @madeinbusanjkjm
    @madeinbusanjkjm 3 роки тому +925

    Watching the recap from the last episode and the intro just made me feel so grateful that you're sharing this because of other women who are probably going through similar things but feel alone in their struggles. I can't even imagine how comforting it would feel to see this and know that they're not alone. This is such a vulnerable topic and yet you shared everything so honestly. Respect!

  • @NeverShoutNever45454
    @NeverShoutNever45454 3 роки тому +296

    As a 24 y/o who is no where near ready for kids, I never thought I’d be so invested in this series. I sat refreshing the page for 10 minutes before the video was uploaded lol. I’m wishing you all the best Taylor ❤️

    • @AngelKhalidah
      @AngelKhalidah 3 роки тому +4

      I gave birth for my 1st son when I was your age ❤️

  • @CurrentlyHannah
    @CurrentlyHannah 3 роки тому +289

    Your editing, storytelling and honesty is so lovely to watch. This topic is so taboo IRL and on social media so thank you so much for sharing this to make others feels less alone and to inform the rest of us what it’s like. You’ve really taught me so much about this reality that so many couples face so thank you! I’ll be eagerly waiting to watch the next chapter in this series 😊

  • @princess-curan9449
    @princess-curan9449 3 роки тому +69

    I'm at the train right now travelling to my family for my brothers wedding tomorrow and I'm crying so badly 🙈 The woman behind me gave me some tissues and asked me what was going on, so I told her about this emotional rollercoaster and now we're both crying 😅😭
    So me and the woman wish u all the luck and love ❤

  • @nataliepenna8618
    @nataliepenna8618 3 роки тому +314

    Hardships can make or break a couple, and you and Tom have been a team to be reckoned with throughout this journey. I wish you both all the good fortune and happiness in the world with your journey. When your stars align and it's your time, you'll both be wonderful parents.

  • @thesapienssapiens4608
    @thesapienssapiens4608 3 роки тому +60

    I just wanted to share my parents history. My parents wanted to have children, it was always in their plans. They tried for 13 years and after many treatments that were unsuccessful they just stopped trying. The doctors had told them that they couldn't have children and that they should just try to live as a couple without kids. And after 13 years, when they weren't trying, my mom got pregnant and here I am.
    I've grown up hearing that story, and how hard it was, so thank you for sharing yours. I know it must be very difficult but I am sure it is very comforting for many people. I wish you the most fulfilling life and "*I hope your dreams stay big and your worries keep small*".

  • @carmencordovarodriguez4236
    @carmencordovarodriguez4236 3 роки тому +347

    Been waiting all day for this. These videos have made me cry, laugh and excited. I haven't seen the video yet but I hope you and Tom realise your dream of having a child. Thank you for sharing your journey.

    • @andreashelton
      @andreashelton 3 роки тому +12

      Tom is the best. When I first subscribed to Taylor I thought his name was actually elbow lol

    • @carmencordovarodriguez4236
      @carmencordovarodriguez4236 3 роки тому +7

      @@andreashelton I loved the songs he would sing to Taylor when she was doing shots and when she was finally ovulating. It made me smile and saw that he was being supportive and do whatever he could do. It made me so mad when I saw Taylor talking on her Instagram about some of the comments saying that Tom was pushing her and abusive. He is the best.

  • @TamTam-rq4nc
    @TamTam-rq4nc 3 роки тому +153

    I think I've took for granted how much my mother has told me that I was a miracle. She was told that she couldn't get pregnant, but somehow still was able to have me. This video made me realize how beautiful pregnancy can be for mothers, and I really hope you can one day be a mother as well. So proud of you for showing your strength and not being afraid to be vulnerable. 😊❤

    • @CocoCece08
      @CocoCece08 3 роки тому +8

      My mom was the same way. She was told at 16 she couldn't have children. 21 years later, she finds out she is pregnant (with me) and the doctor told her that if she came in sooner, he'd have recommended an abortion. She said, "Over my damn dead body" and here I am. She was determined to have a child and she had one.

    • @zoricagarcia8157
      @zoricagarcia8157 3 роки тому

      Hey I know of a spell caster that can help you manifest children into your wombs in less than 2weeks,he helped my sis and my aunty he can help you with twins or triplet,he is so powerful..

    • @zoricagarcia8157
      @zoricagarcia8157 3 роки тому

      +2349154661736⏯⏯⏯⏯l

  • @SimonScaranoDermatologo
    @SimonScaranoDermatologo 3 роки тому +361

    Thank you for sharing your journey! I can’t wait for the next part. Rosie melted my heart with those puppy kisses 😭❤️❤️

  • @mimisparkles8967
    @mimisparkles8967 3 роки тому +165

    I teared up when the test was positive, so hoping for you and Tom to get pregnant 🙏🏻 Isn’t it amazing how animals just know when you need a little extra love 🐶 Stay strong lady 💗

  • @starrhaltli3742
    @starrhaltli3742 3 роки тому +92

    I am going through fertility treatments currently after 7 years of trying for a baby. It's videos like yours that help me remember I am not alone. Thank you for sharing ❤

  • @kati17tatsu
    @kati17tatsu 3 роки тому +4

    I do feel that we need to talk more about fertility and the decision of having/not having children like this - in a real way! Not through lenses of politicians, various movements, and such. Real people like you give out real stories that are heartbreaking, sensitive, intimate and so much more. I personally decided that I don't want to have children and I am looked down upon for that. And I find that I have no one to talk to about my reasons and they do come from deep trauma. Even though you are going through a very different struggle than I, I felt so connected to your pain and emotional rollercoaster. My heart goes out to you.

  • @crystlelynn236
    @crystlelynn236 3 роки тому +302

    You are so brave, Taylor. I'm hoping that you and Tom will be blessed with a healthy baby soon. You guys will be the best parents!! Sending lots of love ❤️

  • @melev29
    @melev29 3 роки тому +200

    Having also gone through IVF and a miscarriage, I have so much empathy for you, Taylor. You are in my thoughts and prayers for the baby that you and Tom so desperately want. You will be wonderful parents. After our struggle, my husband and I were so blessed to conceive our now 15 year old daughter. Never give up hope. You have so many people supporting you from around the world. Much love to you ❤️.

  • @ShadyMean1110
    @ShadyMean1110 3 роки тому +32

    I literally bursted into tears, when I saw your excitement when seeing the first Pregnant result, and then, after the blood test, everything was so dark. Like Tom said, it’s really a roller coaster feeling. I can’t imagine how you could be so strong, and still kept smiling. Both you and Tom, you are amazing.

  • @missqiqilim
    @missqiqilim 3 роки тому +91

    I donated my eggs to my sister and watching your journey reminded me of my sister's. It really is a roller-coaster of emotions. I pray that you and Tom will have success and be blessed with a healthy baby soon.

    • @yishai720
      @yishai720 3 роки тому +1

      That is so kind of you!

  • @superraygun8006
    @superraygun8006 3 роки тому +147

    I’m a true believer in “things happen for a reason”. Stay positive, with or without kids, life can be as beautiful. Wish you all my best.

  • @2hearts1seoul
    @2hearts1seoul 3 роки тому +160

    Thank you for making this series. I have/had women around me over the last few years go through IVF, and from what they told me, it is exactly as you described-pretty much a full-time job with insane ups and downs, both physically and mentally.
    I’m so proud of you for being so incredibly brave and sharing such vulnerable moments in your life. Not only will this series likely be a huge comfort to women who are also struggling with infertility themselves, but I personally think it’s SO important for people in general to really know the reality of IVF how insane of a journey it can be. Major respect to any woman who goes through this 💪 You’re incredibly strong, and I only wish for the best for you ♥️

  • @quesiahivadumaquitadesebay9498
    @quesiahivadumaquitadesebay9498 3 роки тому +35

    Been going through with the same journey for 4 years and I know how painful it is. After so many tries, doing it all over again. It hurt so much realizing that your body is failing you in doing what it is suppose to do. But I also learned a lot in this journey. And I agree a hundred percent when you said that it made you feel unstoppable. As a woman, I also felt like I can do anything. I can endure anything and this infertility doesn't make me less of a woman. I am just glad that somebody is speaking about this in public and using this platform to raise awareness about our struggles. To promote compassion because you never know what a person is going through behind their positive aura. I hope you the best and let us never lose hope. Sending much love from the Philippines❤️

  • @foreverhea
    @foreverhea 3 роки тому +68

    You’ve no idea how much you’ve helped me with this series! Currently on my IVF and we have just 1 embryo frozen for transfer next month! Wish me luck! 🤞🏻

    • @asasirajoanita9098
      @asasirajoanita9098 Рік тому

      How did it go?

    • @foreverhea
      @foreverhea Рік тому

      @@asasirajoanita9098 we got lucky with the single embryo.. had a day 6 transfer because they weren’t sure even until the last minute if the blastocyst would form. Touchwood, god was kind and we have a 15m old daughter now :)

  • @hannahxx7612
    @hannahxx7612 3 роки тому +124

    I have so much respect for Taylor for sharing this journey, I wish the best for you and Tom !!!! You guys deserve everything and moreeee 💕✨

    • @Taylor_R
      @Taylor_R  3 роки тому +7

      Thank you ❤️❤️

  • @mysticmama_3692
    @mysticmama_3692 3 роки тому +141

    I've had two miscarriages, BOTH of them were extremely devastating to me. The first, I was only a couple of weeks along, so it wasn't physically terrible, the second, I was 12 weeks along....and I still tear up if I think about it. I had the second miscarriage alone in my bathroom....with my doctor on the phone explaining that my body was just expelling an imperfect fetus. When I asked her what to do with what came out of me, she told me to just flush it. That felt so incredibly wrong. Yes, it was very very tiny, and barely recognizable as a fetus, but it felt wrong to me to just casually flush it like a goldfish....so I put it in an antique trinket box with flowers, and buried the box in my garden with my husband because even though that fetus wasn't viable, i still had so much love for that baby. Needless to say, I got a new doctor after that, one who wasn't so cold, and I now am a mom of 3. I think this subject needs to be talked about openly more as it almost seems taboo to talk about how the gut wrenching pain the mother goes through during these devastating Rollercoaster rides. Its like society expects us to just slap a smile on our face, and pretend that it wasn't as bad as it really was....so, thank you for sharing this journey. I know it will help a lot of those out there who are going through the same pain, and may even encourage them to share their own journey as well. God bless you both, and I pray you guys end up having the family you dream of. Much love to you, from Western North Carolina ❤

    • @illicitshadow
      @illicitshadow 3 роки тому +22

      That trinket box sounds mighty special, I'm sure that little soul felt all your love. Biggest hugs to you 💜

    • @mysticmama_3692
      @mysticmama_3692 3 роки тому +2

      @@illicitshadow thank you so much for your kind words!

    • @NenaAleksandric
      @NenaAleksandric 3 роки тому +4

      This made me cry so hard. You're so strong & amazing! 💝

    • @aiya359
      @aiya359 3 роки тому +2

      I don’t know you but this touched my heart. So sorry for your losses. Sending love💕

    • @megsmith6758
      @megsmith6758 3 роки тому +6

      That sounds like a beautiful burial for your baby. I’m so sorry that you had such a cold doctor. Sending love. 💙

  • @lesweetpea
    @lesweetpea 3 роки тому +174

    I know this was so hard to film & put out there, but thank you so much for sharing your journey! ❤️ You and Tom have such a beautiful relationship! ☺️

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      @happyoz3590 3 роки тому

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  • @sret6329
    @sret6329 3 роки тому +71

    so many infertility videos end with a pregnancy announcement, it's so rare to view one that ends with a different happy ending -- we're healthy, we're strong, and we're ready to try again
    so happy for and proud of you and Tom for finding the silver lining and recognizing that the two of you are enough and a complete family 💙
    good luck in this next chapter... you got this 💪

  • @hollybee3034
    @hollybee3034 3 роки тому +121

    This series has really shown what an incredible person Tom is. You two bring out the best in each other and it’s been genuinely touching to see such an intimate part of your life and your journey to completing your family ❤️

  • @hannalevy2507
    @hannalevy2507 3 роки тому +2

    4:40 you can see Taylor's eyes the light and happiness slowly leaving her eyes. I'm not crying you are

  • @skydancer9672
    @skydancer9672 3 роки тому +74

    Thank you for sharing this story with us Taylor. I recently had a miscarriage too, at 9 week after trying for a baby for over 6 months. I felt devastated. I didn’t really speak about it to anyone beside my close family, but now I feel less alone after watching your struggles. We are not alone, and apparently it’s not that uncommon. Let’s try again ❤️

  • @TheCrowes2
    @TheCrowes2 3 роки тому +47

    The fact that you found a silver lining in something that is so painful, is so inspirational! Thank you for sharing this journey. Praying for you and your family..always. 🤍🤍🤍🤍

  • @TheKevlarKitten
    @TheKevlarKitten 2 роки тому +1

    Being devastated, then feeling an ounce of hope and trying again is so relatable.

  • @Lulaiza
    @Lulaiza 3 роки тому +34

    Wrote a thousand different things but none felt right, so I'll just say Thank you for being so honest and real even when it was not easy and I truly hope everything works out. Sending all my love all the way from Costa Rica and praying all goes well. You and Tom are so brave and honestly, it's refreshing to see a couple that gets closer the tougher things get.
    Thank you for inspiring us!!

  • @julietagutierrez7932
    @julietagutierrez7932 3 роки тому +57

    Taylor, your journey is helping everyone in the same situation including me. Sending you both of you all the light and respect. Thank you for sharing this.

  • @hiddenchannel7107
    @hiddenchannel7107 3 роки тому +3

    I honestly know what you’re going through. I also have PCOS and been married for 2 years. My husband and I went through fertility treatments just like the both of you. I know how stressful it is to be poke everywhere. I had HCG shots and trigger shots we decided to go through IUI. After 1 miscarriage and 2 failed IUI. We decided to stop and take a break. My mental health was going down. I cant deal properly with my seniors and patients. And to top it all, Im an OB GYN. Imagine how I felt every time I have patients who comes to me pregnant. I honestly felt really jealous, sad and depressed. So my husband and I decided to take a break. It was the most liberating feeling of doing our usual routine (before fertility) I took a break and went home. But to our surprise after a month we become pregnant without any treatments or hormones. Imagine all our pent up emotions finding out your pregnant but as we go through our pregnancy the fear and anxiety is still there. You go through another round of medications just to make sure the baby is alive. I know we have a long way to go keep this baby - but I still believe God will always be there.
    Taylor, I pray for your health more than ever. You’re not alone. I am praying that at the end of this journey you’ll get a positive result. You are truly blessed to have a husband like him. May God bless you both. (Oopps using my husband YT account ✌🏼🤣)

  • @anushakanuri4103
    @anushakanuri4103 3 роки тому +21

    All i know is "Your dream will definitely come true! Don't give up " ❤️

    • @joanofarc33
      @joanofarc33 3 роки тому

      I agree! Taylor and Tom will be parents. I can feel it in my bones and I don’t even know these people😂...😊

  • @kristianderson9880
    @kristianderson9880 3 роки тому +98

    Oh Taylor I’m crying my eyes out 😭 this was exactly what I needed. People who have miscarried or struggle with pregnancy feel so alone and ostracized so thank you for making this and sharing so much! You’re so brave and we’re all with you through this! Praying for you and Tom and thinking positive ❤️

    • @dees3179
      @dees3179 3 роки тому

      Absolutely. I can’t have children and it’s not something people ‘expect’ so I feel like I’m fighting assumptions as well as my own grief.

  • @mariaalejandraferreirabena269
    @mariaalejandraferreirabena269 3 роки тому +13

    I never thought getting pregnant could be so difficult and it is so touching to see how hard she tries, and all the emotional and physical pain she's endured to get there. I admire Tay for being so strong and persistent! When I watch these videos I feel like I would have given up long ago and would have adopted. I hope her dream comes true soon.

  • @vushithao6716
    @vushithao6716 3 роки тому +45

    I cried so much watching this, as it reminded me of my own infertility journey. Sending you and Tom so much love, light, and baby dust! Continue to have hope and trust that there is divine timing for everything. I still cannot believe how incredibly lucky I am when I peek over at my 4-month old in her bassinet

  • @xofemiishereox6088
    @xofemiishereox6088 3 роки тому +51

    I can only imagine how draining this whole process must be 🥺 but I wish you the best and it makes me very happy to see you choose yourself and know when to take a break helps me want to choose me too

  • @dillazak
    @dillazak 3 роки тому +1

    really true. this is the biggest test a couple could be tested with on my opinion. was ttc for years and i stopped altogether because my pcos was getting worse. i developed diabetes due to pcos, poor diet n stress. i had to take the longest rest n reboot suddenly last year i was pregnant without any treatment. unfortunately, i miscarried after a few weeks. im still recovering emotionally. i cried my heart out while watching ur videos. God has helped me get thru so many things in life and to Him i am forever grateful. be strong dear! u r an inspiration. ❤️❤️❤️

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      @adamumardada6476 3 роки тому

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  • @silentstellarechos
    @silentstellarechos 3 роки тому +5

    The end of the journey will be worth every tear. Besides being comforting and encouraging to people going through infertility I think this will inspire people to do things like become surrogate and other ways to support those struggling with infertility.

  • @BibleWithCoffee2
    @BibleWithCoffee2 3 роки тому +28

    Oh my heart broke when I heard your voice and then Tom’s over the phone when you found out. Hugs praying for round two. You are so brave for telling your story but you are also helping others stay strong through their own journey.

  • @GoblinSparkles
    @GoblinSparkles 3 роки тому +16

    I feel like I'm watching a close friend lose a baby, I couldn't stop myself from crying my eyes out. I've watched you for so many years and seeing you struggle to have a baby hurts so much. I hope you get the baby you have always wanted , you deserve so much.

  • @AliciaYellowLodge
    @AliciaYellowLodge 3 роки тому +32

    This series is so rough and true and full of emotion. It really is such a strong thing to put that out for everyone. But I know for sure - you will help so much more women and couples who are going through this. Thank you for that 💖

  • @jaapottery
    @jaapottery 3 роки тому

    I don't think I've ever watch your channel before, but I struggled with infertility in my 1st marriage. I an 45 and childless, but I have come to except that. I will be saying a prayer for you, as I have been there and have a tender heart for women struggling in this situation. God bless.

  • @procrastimania
    @procrastimania 3 роки тому +46

    Tay the quality of the storytelling here is incredible. What an emotionally taxing journey and to have the grace to document it all is a feat not many could accomplish. So happy to see you and Tom grow stronger and closer through these trials and hard times. Wishing only the best for you and your family as you continue this journey together. ❤️xx

  • @noellesakura
    @noellesakura 3 роки тому +19

    I’ve never felt this emotional watching someone struggle and be heartbroken on the screen. I admire you for every choice that you make. You are so strong 💖Lots of love ❤️

  • @hayleyj8490
    @hayleyj8490 3 роки тому +9

    I have never made a comment on UA-cam but I had to with this. This series has been produced so perfectly. you have captured exactly life during this process. Currently going through IVF myself I have been watching other ivf stories but nothing has been able to show the true raw emotion we go through and I really connected with your story. Thank you, Well done and good luck with your journey Taylor and Tom!

    • @Taylor_R
      @Taylor_R  3 роки тому

      Thank you Hayley ❤️

  • @Anna-zp1ok
    @Anna-zp1ok 3 роки тому +31

    This series has made me cry so much. I can only imagine how hard this journey has been for you. I wish only the best for you.

  • @sarawilliams9025
    @sarawilliams9025 3 роки тому +131

    Sending you love and light Taylor. I hope both of you get everything you’re wishing for. ❤️

  • @rufiredup90
    @rufiredup90 3 роки тому +17

    This is one of the most rawest videos on UA-cam I’ve ever seen. You’re so incredibly brave Taylor for putting yourself and your whole journey out here for the whole world to see. Lots of people who can relate will be able to feel like they’re not alone in this and that is such a blessing to so many of us. I hope you’ll get your baby soon, both you and Tom. Always wanna see you guys happy.

  • @krisbadwolf9429
    @krisbadwolf9429 3 роки тому +41

    One of my favorite quotes: Every storm runs out of rain, just like every dark night turns into day./ And your day is coming..we're all pulling for you both. Thank you for sharing your journey with us :)

  • @kimyin3494
    @kimyin3494 3 роки тому +11

    I know someone, who had been trying for 7 years. Finally God blessed them with a baby 🙏
    I wish you & your husband all the happiness ❤️

  • @ThebluLeaf-e6x
    @ThebluLeaf-e6x 10 місяців тому

    I have watched this series multiple times and it has been part of my life like nothing else because of how similar my journey has been. This particular video is exactly where I stand today. After 2 years of my life, I stand at the same place and I don't know how to pick up myself again and go back to all of it.

  • @ErininCopenhagen
    @ErininCopenhagen 3 роки тому +108

    I've learned my lesson by now: settling down with a box of tissues for this one.
    Thank you so much again Taylor for sharing this journey; so many of your viewers can relate (myself included) and really appreciate you using your voice on this topic ❤️
    EDIT: Nope, 2:15, it's started already 😭😭😭😭 Tayyyyy ❤️

  • @shelleyvanwyk2874
    @shelleyvanwyk2874 3 роки тому +21

    I have been on the verge of tears or blown crying at every episode of this series. My heart really goes out to you and Tom. But thank you for sharing this Taylor. Your strength is so inspiring for me but I really hope you and Tom get what you are hoping for. I hope nothing but the best for you 💗💗💫

  • @tierawiest1177
    @tierawiest1177 2 роки тому +1

    I did ivf for a year and a half. My first embryo implant ended in a miscarriage, however my second was successful. I now have a beautiful 7 year old daughter. It's a tough journey but absolutely worth it. Stay strong!

  • @makeupkat4745
    @makeupkat4745 3 роки тому +11

    This gave me so much hope. I'm not pregnant and not trying to be pregnant but this series is really motivating me to keep trying to reach my goals (I've been going through a slump the past few months). Taylor, your words toward the end about how everyone is going through their own thing and having compassion made me feel like you openedy eyes. This was a much needed and much appreciated video, thank you🙌 rooting for you always!

  • @Ilikeflowers22
    @Ilikeflowers22 3 роки тому +52

    It's hard to see the positive aspects of a difficult situation, but I'm so proud and inspired by you seeing the good things in your situation and learning from it 💕

  • @ophtimisticbaker3935
    @ophtimisticbaker3935 3 роки тому

    I really feel you in every single moment. I’m also the one who try to get pregnent with ICSI/IVF and also experience of low HCG level as well. I’m fortunated enough that my HCG rising steadily. and now I’m in my Third trimester. I remember the waiting, the drugs, the expectation, the disappointment….everything. It’s been emotional rollercoaster time.
    On the other hand. My closed friend has been through these infertility cycle.3 egg retrieval and 7 transfers. She’s been tried and failed for almost 10 years. I met her accidentally in the same clinic (No, we haven’t told much people about what we’ve been through) and found out that she’s now pregnant!! 4 weeks earlier than me.
    Give you lots of hugs and courages for youu and your husband through this trying time. I really do understand you in every single part of the process.

    • @ophtimisticbaker3935
      @ophtimisticbaker3935 3 роки тому

      Also one youtube channel that I found really helpful for women who try to get pregant with IVF is “ Infertility TV” by Dr. Randy Morris. I’m also a healthcare worker so I like that he explain things based on scientific evidences. easy to understand and can ease your anxiety a lot.

  • @paintlikewater
    @paintlikewater 3 роки тому +64

    A loving and supporting partner makes all the difference in the world. Thank you for sharing this experience, no matter how stressful and painful of an experience it was. I love this series and really do hope the best for you and Tom. ❤️❤️❤️

  • @NatashaKissaun
    @NatashaKissaun 3 роки тому +13

    I have never felt so much anxiety for someone I've never met. You're such a beautiful person and I cannot believe how much you've grown.

  • @Hkblondie
    @Hkblondie 3 роки тому +2

    I came across your video (episode one) at 3am when I was having a hard time. My husband and I have been trying for almost 3 years. I can relate so much to what you guys are going through. I’m still not mentally or financially ready to go through ivf. I live in the US and of course our Insurance doesn’t cover it. I’m the type of person who doesn’t like to tell anyone what I’m going through so I always keep a smile even though I’m heart broken inside. So many negative pregnancy test, so many emotions, people’s comments, randomly getting so emotional. One of the hardest things is seeing my friend find out they’re pregnant, I’m not jealous or hate having to be around them but i just think when is it going to be my turn? But I’m genuinely happy for them. Not many people are open about their infertility but I’m so glad I came across your videos. Not losing hope. Wishing you and your husband well 😊

    • @click_my_profile224
      @click_my_profile224 3 роки тому

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      @adamumardada6476 3 роки тому

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  • @DanielandYuka
    @DanielandYuka 3 роки тому +38

    I’ve been waiting anxiously for the next instalment in this series! The tension is real! Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us! It’s hard to understand the emotional roller-coaster for those people who are not struggling with fertility!

  • @laurakostiainen3648
    @laurakostiainen3648 3 роки тому +38

    I can’t imagine how both physically and mentally challenging this is, your strength sharing this is admirable. My thoughts go out to you both❤️

  • @AgloBG
    @AgloBG 3 роки тому

    I'm going through infertility problems myself and I feel so alone with everybody all around me getting pregnant. My family and friends keep asking me and my husbad when are we having babies and I feel on the werge of tears everytime they ask, but I don't want to burden anyone with my problems so I just lie that we are not planning to be parents right now. We've been trying unsuccefully for 8 months now and my heart breaks every time I get my period. Thank you for this videos. They make me feel like I'm not alone and that I am powerful enough to do this journey! We got this! Sending you much love all the way from Poland❤

  • @gull_s
    @gull_s 3 роки тому +6

    I’m on my last 15 minutes of work now, started watching and of course started crying. I don’t want people to ask what’s going on, so I’ll have to wait until I’m home to watch it all. Fingers crossed to seeing great news🤞🏻
    Just finished the video, can’t keep it dry unfortunately. I agree, everything happens for a reason. Just want to know what that reason is sometimes. I’m praying for good news soon ♥️

  • @ichangedmynamealotoftimes
    @ichangedmynamealotoftimes 3 роки тому +15

    I've been watching you since I was in 9th grade and now I'm a freshman in college! Thanks for sharing your journey, Taylor and for being an inspiration to many

  • @GOTHAMSAUCE89
    @GOTHAMSAUCE89 2 місяці тому

    Im so sorry honey, I've been having miscarriages and alot of infertility for years, you are amazing, you are beautiful, and I'm sure you can do anything you put your mind to, much love and light and i will be praying for you!!!❤

  • @jerometsowinghuen
    @jerometsowinghuen 3 роки тому +30

    It is valuable to learn an important lesson from this video is control, we don’t know what or when will it happen, good or bad, but what truly matter is to have patience with a positive mood.
    You are an inspiration for everyone, Miss Taylor.💖💖

  • @marinamachadoperez861
    @marinamachadoperez861 3 роки тому +22

    We love you and Tom very much

  • @deodora95
    @deodora95 3 роки тому +1

    Thank you so much for sharing your story, you are so brave. Like many others, I have had PCOS my entire life and was told at age 12/13 that most likely I could never carry my own child. Though I must admit due to my young age I never really thought much about it until I met my person in my early 20s and suddenly felt as if I had to declare that I may never be able to carry children. Due to this, I got anxiety regarding it all and started acting as if it didn't even bother me as there was always adoption when the truth is that I was just so so so scared of not measuring up, I want nothing more than to be a mother in the future. Your story has really made me learn a lot as I knew next to nothing about the options for infertility and if not for that then just the knowledge of not being alone.
    I wish you and Tom all the best and I really hope you get some good news in the future. Sending you lots of love xx

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      @ighalosharon9103 3 роки тому

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  • @paytonvandy8140
    @paytonvandy8140 3 роки тому +35

    ❤️ we are all with you Taylor. Hoping for the best outcome for you and Tom

  • @CaldoDeJess
    @CaldoDeJess 3 роки тому +33

    I wish you and Tom nothing but happiness. The ability to persevere through all these hardships is so encouraging. I’m so grateful to you for sharing your journey with us Taylor 💗

  • @capricornstar9803
    @capricornstar9803 3 роки тому

    Omg ! Taylor ! I cried watching this . My heart goes out to you. After watching your video , I’ve started praying for all women who want to become mothers. I prayed that every woman who’s trying to have a baby is blessed with one . 💕🙏

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  • @nina6361
    @nina6361 3 роки тому +27

    I've been waiting the whole day!

  • @RaeRemix
    @RaeRemix 3 роки тому +15

    I don’t know why I chose to watch this while doing my makeup, I’m gonna cry!!

  • @mariechenls.
    @mariechenls. 3 роки тому

    Seeing this, I quite often think „I don’t know if I could have the strength to keep going and going for years“, but knowing the result, it really is worth it to keep going. Wishing you all the best!

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      @adamumardada6476 3 роки тому

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