I lost my mom when I was 14. I'm 30 years old now and I've been suicidal for over 15 years. This just brought me to tears. I am going to keep fighting for my children. They don't deserve to be momless like me
Please get some medical help and some Godly help you NEED BOTH. Thank you for sharing ima praying that the Lord deliver you from those demonic thoughts and from demonic strong holds/spirits. Because we don’t wrestle with flesh and blood, but spiritual, wickedness and high places. Cuz the enemy comes to steal kill and destroy. It is not a game not none of those things are great. Please know that the Devil is a liar!!!!
As a person who suffers from depression and has attempted suicide… PLEASE STAY AND KEEP FIGHTING. There are people here who love you so much and would devastated if you were gone. My condolences to this family 😔
That's the only thing that keep me goin 1,000% of the time . Is my family. I can't imagine leaving my mom crying even if I left a note she'd be so confused.
I know the feeling. I suffer myself and have attempted before. I am so thankful God kept me here to see the brighter days. I am so thankful. It is hard and it takes a lot of work and therapy to help me manage. But my family, friends, myself and most importantly my daughters deserve me to be here for them. I pray for all that are struggling.
The video of his mother calling his phone and the medical examiner answering is probably the hardest thing I’ve ever watched and heard. No parent should have to bury their child. My mom walked in my brothers bedroom and found him passed away. And she was all alone. Me and my dad were on the other side of the country on a trip. 😢😢 So sorry for y’all’s loss.
One of my coworkers nephew took his own life at 12 to due to bullying her niece which was his mother died two years later it was sudden no warning or anything they couldnt find the cause of death but I know she died due to a broken heart
my daughter is 12 and was bullied last year for being curvy. She attempted suicide 3 times. I've saved her so far but everyday I live wondering if I will find her dead. So we got her help. But everyday is a struggle to remind her how amazing she is.
Yes, to lose a child is the MOST horrific experience ever! My 2 youngest children were murdered in 2017, ages 7& 5. My heart is shattered, pieces all over the floor. Worst pain ever. Period. I buried my 2 children together, one casket. I am incredibly sorry Baxter's. Much so. This deep deep loss. Oh mama....to describe your son.....oh mama.....what strength, what courage, what bravery! I desire to connect with other grieving mothers, much so. It's been 4yrs for me....still feels like yesterday....I can't breathe some days....Heaven is real. It is. When you see your son again.....those scars...the body will be new! Grief is exhausting! It consumes SO much of my energy. I can't focus, eat, or think right. Oh dear beautiful lady....I am so sorry. This pain.....My oldest son has mental health illness....he killed my 2 children! The mental health community FAILED us, FAILED my son! You are SO heavy on my heart, family. Your family, heavy in my prayers. I pray we can meet one day, talk over the phone one day....one grieving mother to another! God bless you sincerely beautiful lady. I started a channel to share my experience in grief too. The mental health side of grief. 'Warriors Of Godly Grit'
@@marlenis2329 I read into the case a bit and it is probably either a subtype of antisocial personality disorder or he could be somewhere on the psychotic (schizophrenia/bipolar) spectrum. Or both. It kills me that the courts deemed him to be "completely sane" I'm sorry, sane people don't kill people. Being insane doesn't excuse that though, I hate "not guilty by reason of insanity" because it's bs. I'll say it again, sane people don't kill people!! We need to come up with something better than that. As someone who is on the psychotic spectrum. It's not our fault we are sick but I truly believe we are still human and should be responsible for our own actions, except for maybe brainwashing victims or people committing reactive violence towards their abuser. I'm sure there are other exceptions, but overall this is my opinion. And only that! I don't think it gets talked about enough though because it's a really difficult subject.
@marlenis2329 Hello, unfortunately, he wasn't properly diagnosed. Depression & social behavior shit, & that's about it besides his homicidal thoughts tendencies. Our son had never been violent ever. Not even one fist fight. He was/is a very mild-mannered/quiet person/kid. He is now 25yrs and extremely regretful for what he has done. He has a very hard time living within his own skin in prison. Life is hard, so deeply sad. He would confess to some counselors that he thought of homicide often. But it didn't seem to get anywhere seriously with the mental health help mostly cuz he didn't fit their textbook definition of a sociopath.
My heart goes out to you. My son committed suicide in 2015 at the age of ten. There needs to be more help and more programs available for parents to get our kids help before it gets to this point. This is the worst pain.
This just made me cry. I struggle to stay alive every day because of my daughter. But sitting there dealing with that mind every day doing what it wants to do is a beast.
My aunt, who lost two of her children, said that losing a child is the end of the world. I wish you strength and peace as you navigate this unfathomable grief.
Lord Jesus...please wrap your loving arms around this family and give them the type of comfort that only You can give. Sending my deepest most heartfelt condolences and prayers to you and your family 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽❤❤❤❤
@@Sherri916 God never said that you should read the book of deuteronomy... the whole old testament is talking about black people and keeping God's commandments please don't believe in the lies of Paul and the prophets God did not send cause jesus also said worship God and serve him only Jesus never said worship him and he is just a Man
You sharing the graphic details really puts into perspective the devastation and pain that radiates on to the loved ones of those who took their own lives. The want their pain to end, but pain just leaves them and moves on to the ones they leave behind, it never truly ends. Bless you and your family.
My wife of 16yrs committed suicide 7/20/21 this is the greatest pain I have ever felt and I never would imagine life without her... I understand your pain and loss no parent should bury their child... You have other children to live for. I myself dont.. I hope you find the strength everyday to carry on...
As someone who has tried to take my own life many times from as young of an age as 9 due to bullying and for other reasons as an adult I know what Cyrus was going through. But having to deal with the suicide of the only Mother I knew made me never want to leave that kind of mental, emotional, or physical after effects for anyone. I started having those thoughts again about a week and half ago. I checked myself in to get the help I need. I am proud to say I am doing better, I have a ways to go, but I can see the hope of recovery at the end of this leg of the journey. Please remember: Suicide is a PERMANENT solution to a TEMPORARY problem, get HELP!
The composure and strength that you had speaking about this so put together and peacefully there is no other explanation but God! Your family is in my prayers 🙏🏼❤️
Thank you for sharing! I deal with this with my oldest daughter. She is 27 years old and I worry about her every day. She is the only one of my three children that is still living at home. I am glad she is here so that I can keep her encouraged. The heart of a good mother will go through great lengths to protect and save their children. You are an amazing woman. Blessings and prayers to you and your family.
I left a ugly situation with a man recently that I was with since 19, I am now 23. I moved all the way across the country at 19, like East coast to West coast . Have only come to visit twice and didn’t stay pass 2 months. I had to get away and since the day I’ve been here my mom and sister tells me I’m not wanted here, Im not welcome. My mom sleeps I my room because she had no room bc my sisters are selfish. So the fact I just wanted to come home and be with them isn’t enough . I have no support . Dropped my “friends” that weren’t really friends. And I’m just trying to grasp enough confidence to find my way all by myself. It’s a struggle. My point is I respect you to the most high that you welcome your baby I your sight and arms no matter her age. I haven’t lived with my mom for 4 years yet she complains to me about how much she doesn’t want me or us in her life. Just remind her she is loved. My mother can’t as doesn’t say I love you to me or us . She did when our dad died but not before not after. The way I love my mother is like no other. She doesn’t realize it. She doesn’t realize that I still wed love and reassurance and not for my mother to tear me down daily about the choices she made and who I am not. I have struggled with depression forever mostly because of how poorly my parents raised us. We were fed and housed but they let their problems seep into me. Having to throw myself in between fights and yell at them to stop arguing just to get viewed as a lunatic by the very people I love so friggin much and yearn for approval from. I’d like to think my darkest days are behind me but everyday is a fight. Cyrus you are loved and people we must realize that we are going to die anyway. If we cry a billion tears before we die then that’s okay. Wipe them away and love yourself. Easier said than done Ik because I came from hating myself to the core to just trying to hold on because why not.
I understand what you are going through. My sister suffers from depression. Its a tough challenge, its a battle, serious & unfortunate disease that requires professional help. Prayers for u & your daughter that she will get the help she needs & for divine intervention! Prayer can move mountains. A praying mom is one of the most powerful things. Stay strong!
The strength you all have gives me chills. The fact that you both are still trying to tell his story and save the next life is so commendable. Praying for you all’s peace. ♥️
I am a suicide survivor and Depression is very real….a lot of the time our family and friends are unaware as we don’t show it on the outside. I am sorry for your loss and I thank you for being brave to share your story.
Hey I’m just a random stranger but just know you’re appreciated and even though life is tough , you can get through it. People love you and care about you :)
As I’m watching this, my heart is shattering. I relate to this as I have attempted suicide many times starting at the age of 12 years old. It is such a struggle to deal with these emotions. I’m so so sorry that he has felt this torture deep within that it gripped him to make him do this. God bless you as a family, as his mother it’s the worst thing to have to deal with. May God continue to comfort you and blessing you with all the strength you will always need to deal with the loss of your son. So sorry for this terrible loss
I'm glad you're still with us. Someone I'm sure this with me and I'd like to share them with you. These words help me through my struggles in life. I wish you I happy and humble life above ground. Much respect from katrinka, San Francisco Bay Area ▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪ "The loneliest people are the kindest, the saddest people smile the brightest, and the most damaged people are the wisest. All because they don't wish to see others suffer like they do" ~ anonymous ~
My nephew passed the same way. We don't know if it was on purpose or if he was texting. He hit a tree at 92mph the cops said. The medical examiner said that the airbag snapped his neck so it brings me a little comfort that he didn't suffer. But watching this and seeing the car and the debris bright back so many memories. Im so sorry this happened to you. My nephew was only 22. 💙. God bless thier souls. And my prayers go out to you and your family.
I lost my dad to suicide, a month after I turned 18 yrs old. The grief from suicide is complicated and unlike other types of grief. I also know what it’s like to lose a child. I lost my daughter at 12 yrs old, she was riding her bike home from school, she had her earbuds in and she unfortunately wasn’t wearing her helmet. She crossed the crosswalk on her bike, she wasn’t looking for traffic and she didn’t hear anything because of her earbuds. She suffered serious head trauma, as well as other injuries. She was life flighted to the hospital, where she remained for a week, we were enduring a waiting game, to see if her brain would stop swelling, and unfortunately her brain continued to swell. I sat and watched as the dr checked her pupils, and declared her brain dead. We took her off the ventilator. That day heaven gained an angel. I lost my daughter. I miss her dearly. She would have been a senior in high school this year. She would have been 18 yrs old. I miss her every single waking moment. My heart aches to see her again. I want to tell you, it never gets easier, but you learn to cope better. You learn to live with the grief. Don’t ever, ever let anyone dictate how you mourn your loss. You will process it in your own way. Sending so much love and prayers your way. I know I am late to this video, but I also know, it likely still feels like this just happened. I also want you to know, my father wrote in his suicide note that he accepted God as his savior as well. He asked for forgiveness. He is in heaven. His pain was too great for earth. Take your time. Process in your own way. Remember to allow yourself to feel the emotions. From my heart to yours. ❤️
My prayers for you and your family. I lost my 10 year old daughter on September 11, 2007 and losing a child is a whole new level of grief. I am here for you if you need to talk. Love you guys
Please reach out and seek Professional help from a grief counseling. It's available FREE 24/7 in your local community. I pray for your Peace, in Jesus Name 🙏
Im so sorry for your loss. I too lost a daughter so I know the pain and the nightmare of losing a child. God bless you dear from one broken hearted mom to another. May God comfort you as my faith is all that keeps me going as my daughters remains never found for 10 years . Hugs .
I am so sorry for your loss. The Pain of losing a child is undescribable. I lost my daughter in 2016. I know what you are going through. Praying for you and your family.
I didn't know much about your oldest son, honestly I didn't even know you had older kids. May God comfort your heart in this time. Your CNY family wraps their arms around you. ❤
Mental health is affecting so many youths today and because there’s still stigma they don’t speak out , especially young boys and men , im so so sorry for your loss , I send my heartfelt condolences, love , prayers and hugs 💕💔
My heart goes out to your family. This video hit me in my soul because I myself suffer from depression and mental illness …2 years ago around the end of march it got so bad for me that at one point I had parked in a church parking lot and there was a mountain drop off on the other side of the road and my plan was to pray really hard and floor my gas pedal because I didn’t know what else to do ..because I was tired because I felt like I was fighting a never ending battle and I had more bad days then good… I’m crying praying and yelling and it’s raining so hard on this day and the heavy rain seemed to represent a picture of my soul and I asked God …if my life matters…If I need to hold on a little longer please give me a sign and when I lift my head up …in all this rain here comes this animal running right in the direct path towards my car and I’m like what animal is in this heavy storm and when it got close enough for me to tell what it was…I seen it was a groundhog…I felt God tell me hold on just a little bit longer and it may be raining and you may be weary but spring is about to come and you will bloom again…. Your story hit me in my soul because I was exactly where he was… I pray God lifts his soul and your families soul as well! Each day I will keep you all in prayer 🙏 and each day I make it through I will always think of your son..I will push through for everyone who ever thought the only way is out… I hug you all with love and prayer 🙏
The devil wants to take out as many guys please fight the lies with the word of God and hang on . I’m telling you this for God has delivered me from those spirits of depression and suicidal thoughts and torment. No slepp for half a year I’m telling y’all Jesus Christ will be there for you ❤.
This touches me I fought depression for 15 years nobody heard my scream I cried and screamed but it was silent I didn't know where to turn I wanted to die everyday I didn't see hope I lost my way everything was cloudy I felt my kids were better off without me ..but one day one day I found God and it was hard but I found peace a long the way It took everything in me to not do what the devil wanted me to do I was hanging by a thread..but I took it slowly each day one day at a time to rebuild myself I founded a way to beat the devil I protected my soul with God I built a shield of armor and I eventually won it was really hard but God is Good and on time..thank you for sharing your sorry I'm so sorry for your lost you having the courage to do this gave me the courage to tell my story and I hope other people read this because what I want to let whoever that's going through depression know that there is a light at the end of tunnel God bless you and your family ❤🙏✔️
I'm going through this with my 19 year old. God almighty my sister. I am praying with you and my deepest sympathy 🌹 🙏 You are a woman of strength. He will forever be with you in memories
Suicidal is a strong word! I have two kids, and not being able to provide for them financially makes me think suicidal is the solution to my problems… You seem financially stable therefore, I know that I’m wrong, I can do better as long as I’m alive! My condolences 💐 God bless us All🙏
I’m glad you’re thinking it through because if you did it you’d never be able to provide for them at all then and they’d never be able to return the favor for you one day so continue to ask the lord for strengthen grace and mercy and love he will see you through I’m not sure if you’re saved or lost but I pray for you to get saved if you’re lost and if you’re saved already to keep going and growing in Christ God bless stay safe in Jesus name
talking about the details is necessary sometimes. really opens peoples eyes to what people and family get to see when you pass. you guys are so strong.
I've had my suicidal moments on too many occasions..but a higher power always showed me the way every time..to any1 feeling this way, if u haven't heard it enough, U R LOVED!!!..U R SPECIAL!!!..U R WANTED!!!..U R NEEDED MORE THAN U KNOW OR REALIZE!!!!!.. sending my deepest and most heartfelt condolences to this family..the strength in her voice jus talking about it is EVERYTHING..💔💔😢🙏🏾🙏🏾
Know that your strength to tell your story is the same strength God is giving you to not only helping someone else. But the strength to carry the torch for yoyr son and the rest of your family. Because your husband and the other kids needs you just as much now than before!!! I love you and I'm giving you a hug from Chicago!!!!!
The way she described her son hurts my soul no mother should go through this I promise you ..GOD Please heal this family 💙 they need all your praying 🙏🏽. Lord please wrap your arms around this grieving family . Amen 🙏🏽
This young man's pain ran really deep for him to go like that. I know you speak of his injuries out of disbelief he did that to himself.... God's protection over you and family Mrs Baxter
I battled severe depression for 6 years. Tried to tale my life many times. As a survivor i want to say to anyone suffering you can do this. You have a purpose. And to this amazing family im so sorry to you and your beautiful child! It is never easy and we will always wonder why. My bestfriend who was also my 2nd mother took her life 7 years ago with a bullet to her head i sadly didnt make it to her house in time after she sent me the text she was taking her life...i found her...gone.and it took me so long to be okay and tp forgive but you never know what someone is truly feeling or going through. But god is FORGIVING. Your son is up heaven, and so is my beat friend and i truly believe that. Forever with our father and forever with joy and happiness. And eternal life, they are always with us and they show us that! Sometimes god needs people we live most in heaven even if we cant understand. I love you family and i pray for your peace and for your hearts to stay full of love and strength because your child loves you and he is sorry. Try to remember him at his best, not his worst.
I’m so so sorry for your loss…praying for your family. I hope that this video helps kids understand what happens when they do this and how the pain they are feeling just gets past on to the ones that love them them most!
The story is not particularly about the suicide and the pain that is reflected on to those that are still here the story is about the mental health the lack of mental health help to keep young men like Cyrus from being depressed and feeling alone to commit suicide because mental illness in young people is on the rise and it is very real and those who have a somewhat sane mind do not understand
Sadly my home life and mental health wasn’t amazing at the time, but I now felt horrible for my mother and mother only after attempting. I overdosed and I just couldn’t do it anymore! Surprisingly life got so much better, I have a new family/chosen family! They have made me so much happier than anything! I am sorry for y’all’s lost! I wish nothing but peace and love to you.
This is heartbreaking, just listening to you! I can't imagine the pain you feel! Sending prayers, love and hugs! Sleep well baby boy! Depression is real💜😔
I am so sorry for your loss no parent should even lose a child. Know that he’s watching over your family and he’ll provide you with the strength on those days that feel too hard to deal with. You guys are strong and I’m praying for you.🤍
Life is a vapor and it’s so fragile we’re just passing through! My condolences to you and your family at this time so sorry to hear about your son passing!!!!
it was nice to finally put a his face to his story, I appreciate you guys sharing so much trying to save others while still navigating grief yourselves. no matter what happened or how it happened, that’s your baby and you’re sharing his story. I’ve seen videos about Cyrus before but this brought a whole new light to the situation. thank you guys for sharing your handsome son and the life he had while he was here. ❤
I am very sorry for your loss!!!!! I pray that God continue to bless you and give you all Peace and Strength through this tough time!! I will definitely keep you all in my prayers!
I pray for you guys. The strength you have to keep going and spread awareness is beyond words. I cant even imagine the pain your family is going through and i want you to know that your helping alot of people stay on this earth another day just by watching these videos.
🥺🥺💔 This breaks my heart soooooo deeply 😭 This mama is so strong and so is the Dad. I’m so sorry this happened to Cyrus. I’m praying for you and your family. I send my condolences and pray for comfort and strength for the family and loved ones ❤️🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽❤️
This is absolutely heartbreaking. My son struggles with his mental health, as do I, and we've had a couple of scary moments. It's so hard to see your child like that. I wish I could hold you right now.💜
I can’t thank you enough for sharing your story. I am a mental health nurse and because you can’t see mental illness like you can a broken bone or cancer on a scan it’s so difficult to understand. But your pain is felt through this video. And so is is. Rest in perfect peace Cyrus.
So sorry for your loss! Your family has been through so much. May he rip and god has mercy on his soul. Thank you for sharing your story, I know this will help families, someone and save lives. Praying for you
I know you had to recognize him in the day of the accident... But no mother should see her baby in that horrible condition. So sorry for your loss. God bless you and your family. R.I.P Cyrus! 😭🙏🕊️
I am so sorry for your loss 😢. I've lost a child myself so I understand your pain. As a parent we aren't supposed to bury our babies, it's not the natural order of how life is supposed to be. You all are in my heart, thoughts and prayers 😢♥️🙏.
I didn’t know this happened. I’m so broken hearted. Before this happened, I started school and was busy working on assignments. I would watch Byron and his twin brother. I knew about the other kids too. I’m so sorry. Both my children have Autism and ADHD… I couldn’t imagine the pain of losing them. Again I’m so sorry. 😩😞😭💯
I’m sorry I can’t like this video because of the loss of your son, I felt the pain man. Seeing you walk around the car, seeing the blood. Then hearing mom describe what she saw when she saw her son omgggg my heart and I’m not even his mother😢😢😢my heart is with y’all. Take care and stay strong💔😘
You are truly one of the strongest women I’ve ever heard. God bless you and your beautiful family. I pray God gives you peace and comfort through this heartbreaking time.
PLEASE ACCEPT MY DEEPEST CONDOLENCES TO ALL WHO LOVE YOUR SON.. THE MOST IMPORTANT THING GOD LEFT YOU WITH WAS HIM ACCEPTING JESUS AS HIS LORD AND SAVIOR.. GOD TELLS US IN HIS WORD THAT AT OUR LAST BREATH IF WE CRY OUT TO HIM HE HEARS US AND SAVES US .. YOUR BEAUTIFUL SON YOUR MOST PRECIOUS GIFT IS LOOKING AT THE FACE OF HIS SAVIOR.. HE HAS ETERNAL LIFE.. SENDING GOD'S LOVE AND PEACE TO YOU ALL!!! 🌹 💚 ☝️
My heart breaks for you, the fact you are allowing yourself to share this information so freely to try to help others in the midst of your grief and hold up so well sharing those details is amazing. You are an incredible source of strength right now, I hope that God continues to give you and your family the strength to grieve in a healthy way. Big hugs I am giving to you, my the angels hold you.. as a mom, I could not imagine having to see my child in this manner.
Baxter family you have my sincere condolences! I lost my baby boy at 21 years old twenty one years ago by the hands of the Serial Killer in Flint, Mi.My son was also suffering from depression before his life was taken away from him. I tried all I could to keep him close to me but I couldn’t, it still hurts but I know he’s in a better place with the Lord! He finally has his peace. God be with you and I’m praying for your peace !
I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of your son. May God continue to give you and your family strength and bring all of you comfort during this difficult time. I will keep you and yours in my prayers 💔🕊
I’m sorry for your loss. Use to watch your post all the time. I didn’t know you guys had and older son. I just saw this post I’m heart broken. I couldn’t stop crying. Every time I was watching your post I would say your children have special and beautiful parents.love you guys you are special family. Hold you will continue to be in my prayers. I always suffer depression.
GOD, I am praying for y’all. I can’t imagine the pain and hurt that y’all feel, I hope that with y’all sharing your story that y’all will be able to help someone dealing with mental illness. I pray for strength and comfort for the whole Braxter Family.
I’ve been battling depression for so many years. I lost everything after I almost died from Covid 3 years ago, I haven’t been able to find a job , due to my eviction while I was in the hospital my credit is terrible and I can’t get a place , I lost my car, I mean EVERYTHING, I have no way to take care of my son financially, no one wants to help, it gets to the point like why am I here ? I’m depressed, I’ve been struggling and fighting to get my life back and nope, nothing is happening, I keep praying to God every day to help me and be able to get a job at least so I can provide for my son but nothing is happening. Just a few days ago I just wanted to take my life, but I keep thinking of what’s gonna happen to my 15 year old son, and it hurts me even more. I know what it’s like to feel depressed and to feel like there’s no way out. Ppl don’t understand how hard depression is and ppl think it’s a joke , it’s not. Plz take care of those who are telling you that they are not ok and that they have depression. Help them! I’m so sorry for your loss. Amen
I am so very sorry and I know that isn’t even close to enough. As someone who lives with mental illness daily this touches me in a way I can’t describe. It is so brave and so special that you are telling this story. If it’s saves one life….that’s enough.
This is a pain I couldn't imagine. I don't know you but my heart hurts for you. May God bless you and your family and pull you all together through all this pain and tragedy. Prayers to you and your family from Indiana.
Sis, thank you for being so transparent and vivid with your us. Thank you for granting us this space to grieve with you and support you! Thank you for being a pillar of strength for this who have gone through this or may go through this!
Thank you for showing this this year has been extremely bad for me and I have thought about taking my life cause I have had thoughts like your son but seeing you and your family grieve makes me realize what a family goes through when a person takes there life I know I need help and I am getting it I am praying for y'all
@sherritay I don't know you but reading this made me almost cry. I pray you know that trouble never last long. Call on the Lord in your darkest hour. Please know that your life is a blessing to the world. I will pray for you as you seek courage to keep inching forward toward a better tomorrow. 🙇🏽♀️🙏🏽
Thank you guys I am ok thank God I have friends that are like my family they help get me through my depression but I seen ebonies live when she found he son was gone and I thought to myself God that could have been me and the medical examiner calling my mama I seen her pain I heard her scream when she got the news she is not even my family and I felt her pain at one point in time I had thoughts just like her son did but through prayer I no longer have those feelings that baby thought his pain was never going to go away nobody can understand that unless they been through it
Condolences to you and your family! I really admire your strength. Cyrus was such a handsome young man. May God surround you with his comforting angels. Praying for you and your family!🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽😇😇
May God wrap HIS comforting arms around your family. Thank you for sharing to help prevent the loss and get treatment for mental illness. Find PEACE and for your closure. Be Blessed!
This took a lot of courage to post, thank you. I go through a lot of depression and suicidal thoughts, and have felt the effects of suicide in my family. I know exactly what your talking about when you speak about the outbursts, and struggle with this myself. Just know your son fought hard, and did not mean for you to feel pain. You did nothing to cause this, he loved you more than himself.
Wow you guys are way stronger than I could have ever been in that situation. There is no way I could have seen my child in that condition, and still continued on with my day-to-day life. And I will pray for you and your family everyday. This is so super sad I'm at a loss for words.
So very sorry for your loss. Losing someone is never easy. It's heartbreaking to hear you say that you couldn't save him, his love for you all is still there - he just couldn't cope in this world anymore. My heartfelt sympathy from here in the UK, his spirit will live on in you all - his wonderful family
Started watching your videos because I’ve watched your short clips with Byron and fell in love with his voice. I just learning about your son Cyrus. I’m sorry but I cried through your whole explanation of what happened to him. You were so strong for being able to talk about it. Thanks for sharing.
God bless you and your family. This is hard to listen too, I know living it is a nightmare. Through God ALL things are possible. Praying for strength and comfort! 🙏
SUICIDE AND DEPRESSION AND MENTAL ILLNESS OUR SON TOOK HIS LIFE THE OTHER DAY...
Deeply hurt to hear this!
My condolences😢💔
If it’s ok to ask which son was it
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@@Ufwmaysa her oldest son Cyrus
I lost my mom when I was 14. I'm 30 years old now and I've been suicidal for over 15 years. This just brought me to tears. I am going to keep fighting for my children. They don't deserve to be momless like me
Keep fighting those thoughts. You are necessary. You are loved.
Bro don't lose hope 😢 Keep fighting & stay strong 💪🏻 Better days coming , believe in yourself, you can do anything 🤝
Please get some medical help and some Godly help you NEED BOTH. Thank you for sharing ima praying that the Lord deliver you from those demonic thoughts and from demonic strong holds/spirits. Because we don’t wrestle with flesh and blood, but spiritual, wickedness and high places. Cuz the enemy comes to steal kill and destroy. It is not a game not none of those things are great. Please know that the Devil is a liar!!!!
I'm so sorry, you're gonna make it. Don't let go.
Hi I hope you are okay
As a person who suffers from depression and has attempted suicide… PLEASE STAY AND KEEP FIGHTING. There are people here who love you so much and would devastated if you were gone. My condolences to this family 😔
So sorry for your loss my prayers are with you and your family 🙏🙏
I did attempt and I am actually kind of happier now! I have a new family, a chosen family and they make me so much happier!
That's the only thing that keep me goin 1,000% of the time . Is my family. I can't imagine leaving my mom crying even if I left a note she'd be so confused.
Read Psalm 91 Out-loud daily
I know the feeling. I suffer myself and have attempted before. I am so thankful God kept me here to see the brighter days. I am so thankful. It is hard and it takes a lot of work and therapy to help me manage. But my family, friends, myself and most importantly my daughters deserve me to be here for them.
I pray for all that are struggling.
The video of his mother calling his phone and the medical examiner answering is probably the hardest thing I’ve ever watched and heard. No parent should have to bury their child. My mom walked in my brothers bedroom and found him passed away. And she was all alone. Me and my dad were on the other side of the country on a trip. 😢😢 So sorry for y’all’s loss.
I've seen that video, but didn't know it was this family. How awful.
A 12yr old took her life yesterday due to bullying at my nephews school. Breaks my heart that people choose to do this. Prayers sent 🙏🏽
One of my coworkers nephew took his own life at 12 to due to bullying her niece which was his mother died two years later it was sudden no warning or anything they couldnt find the cause of death but I know she died due to a broken heart
Couple days ago a teenager took his life in Hungary because of bully,followed by depression.
I’m soo soo sorry!! 😞😞😞
@@sherrita80548 R I. P
my daughter is 12 and was bullied last year for being curvy. She attempted suicide 3 times. I've saved her so far but everyday I live wondering if I will find her dead. So we got her help. But everyday is a struggle to remind her how amazing she is.
Yes, to lose a child is the MOST horrific experience ever! My 2 youngest children were murdered in 2017, ages 7& 5. My heart is shattered, pieces all over the floor. Worst pain ever. Period. I buried my 2 children together, one casket. I am incredibly sorry Baxter's. Much so. This deep deep loss. Oh mama....to describe your son.....oh mama.....what strength, what courage, what bravery! I desire to connect with other grieving mothers, much so. It's been 4yrs for me....still feels like yesterday....I can't breathe some days....Heaven is real. It is. When you see your son again.....those scars...the body will be new! Grief is exhausting! It consumes SO much of my energy. I can't focus, eat, or think right. Oh dear beautiful lady....I am so sorry. This pain.....My oldest son has mental health illness....he killed my 2 children! The mental health community FAILED us, FAILED my son!
You are SO heavy on my heart, family. Your family, heavy in my prayers. I pray we can meet one day, talk over the phone one day....one grieving mother to another! God bless you sincerely beautiful lady.
I started a channel to share my experience in grief too. The mental health side of grief. 'Warriors Of Godly Grit'
Omg, this is heartbreaking 😭😭😭😭 May I ask what is the name of the mental health illness of your oldest son?
My heart aches for you Melissa, and Vinnie too, and all of your family.
@@marlenis2329 I read into the case a bit and it is probably either a subtype of antisocial personality disorder or he could be somewhere on the psychotic (schizophrenia/bipolar) spectrum. Or both. It kills me that the courts deemed him to be "completely sane"
I'm sorry, sane people don't kill people. Being insane doesn't excuse that though, I hate "not guilty by reason of insanity" because it's bs. I'll say it again, sane people don't kill people!! We need to come up with something better than that. As someone who is on the psychotic spectrum. It's not our fault we are sick but I truly believe we are still human and should be responsible for our own actions, except for maybe brainwashing victims or people committing reactive violence towards their abuser. I'm sure there are other exceptions, but overall this is my opinion. And only that! I don't think it gets talked about enough though because it's a really difficult subject.
@marlenis2329 Hello, unfortunately, he wasn't properly diagnosed. Depression & social behavior shit, & that's about it besides his homicidal thoughts tendencies. Our son had never been violent ever. Not even one fist fight. He was/is a very mild-mannered/quiet person/kid. He is now 25yrs and extremely regretful for what he has done. He has a very hard time living within his own skin in prison. Life is hard, so deeply sad. He would confess to some counselors that he thought of homicide often. But it didn't seem to get anywhere seriously with the mental health help mostly cuz he didn't fit their textbook definition of a sociopath.
@@fioregiallo Hello, thank you. Do we know each other?
My heart goes out to you. My son committed suicide in 2015 at the age of ten. There needs to be more help and more programs available for parents to get our kids help before it gets to this point. This is the worst pain.
Im so sorry my prayers are with you
I can't even imagine your pain. I pray for your healing.
My son commited suicide in 2014 january 10th imbedded in my brain forever
@@goldieclaar4850 Im so sorry for your loss
Prayers🙏
“I hope I can save somebody life. Anybody life, I failed to save my own child” those words broke me.
This just made me cry. I struggle to stay alive every day because of my daughter. But sitting there dealing with that mind every day doing what it wants to do is a beast.
@Shan Smith keep your faith 🙏🏾
I'm praying for you stay encouraged 🙏🙏🙏
May Jesus Christ give you His strength and peace. May you walk in Gods fullness for your life.
Please don’t give up! Continue to fight and stay strong for your daughter! ❤️🙏🏿🙏🏿
Sending love to you.
My aunt, who lost two of her children, said that losing a child is the end of the world. I wish you strength and peace as you navigate this unfathomable grief.
Damn, 1 child is already insane but 2? Jesus
I hope she can fully recover from that
Lord Jesus...please wrap your loving arms around this family and give them the type of comfort that only You can give. Sending my deepest most heartfelt condolences and prayers to you and your family 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽❤❤❤❤
Amen
Amen in Jesus name
@@Sherri916 jesus cant save only God saves only God will be worshipped
@@jonDoe-ml3jq Jesus Christ is Lord and Savior
@@Sherri916 God never said that you should read the book of deuteronomy... the whole old testament is talking about black people and keeping God's commandments please don't believe in the lies of Paul and the prophets God did not send cause jesus also said worship God and serve him only Jesus never said worship him and he is just a Man
She's such a strong mother to speak, may God continue strengthening & comforting you
You sharing the graphic details really puts into perspective the devastation and pain that radiates on to the loved ones of those who took their own lives. The want their pain to end, but pain just leaves them and moves on to the ones they leave behind, it never truly ends. Bless you and your family.
My wife of 16yrs committed suicide 7/20/21
this is the greatest pain I have ever felt and I never would imagine life without her... I understand your pain and loss no parent should bury their child...
You have other children to live for. I myself dont..
I hope you find the strength everyday to carry on...
I am so sorry for your loss
If you need a reason to carry on, I'd be honored to be one of those reasons. I'm Amy. It's nice to meet you. 🖤🤸♀️
The suicide rate is the highest amongst men but women do it too
As someone who has tried to take my own life many times from as young of an age as 9 due to bullying and for other reasons as an adult I know what Cyrus was going through. But having to deal with the suicide of the only Mother I knew made me never want to leave that kind of mental, emotional, or physical after effects for anyone. I started having those thoughts again about a week and half ago. I checked myself in to get the help I need. I am proud to say I am doing better, I have a ways to go, but I can see the hope of recovery at the end of this leg of the journey. Please remember: Suicide is a PERMANENT solution to a TEMPORARY problem, get HELP!
Praying for u 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
So proud of you keep going ♥️
so proud of you for continuing to push through. God loves you dearly 🙏🏾
may god bless you
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The composure and strength that you had speaking about this so put together and peacefully there is no other explanation but God! Your family is in my prayers 🙏🏼❤️
Thank you for sharing! I deal with this with my oldest daughter. She is 27 years old and I worry about her every day. She is the only one of my three children that is still living at home. I am glad she is here so that I can keep her encouraged. The heart of a good mother will go through great lengths to protect and save their children. You are an amazing woman. Blessings and prayers to you and your family.
I left a ugly situation with a man recently that I was with since 19, I am now 23. I moved all the way across the country at 19, like East coast to West coast . Have only come to visit twice and didn’t stay pass 2 months.
I had to get away and since the day I’ve been here my mom and sister tells me I’m not wanted here, Im not welcome. My mom sleeps I my room because she had no room bc my sisters are selfish. So the fact I just wanted to come home and be with them isn’t enough . I have no support . Dropped my “friends” that weren’t really friends. And I’m just trying to grasp enough confidence to find my way all by myself. It’s a struggle. My point is I respect you to the most high that you welcome your baby I your sight and arms no matter her age. I haven’t lived with my mom for 4 years yet she complains to me about how much she doesn’t want me or us in her life. Just remind her she is loved. My mother can’t as doesn’t say I love you to me or us . She did when our dad died but not before not after. The way I love my mother is like no other. She doesn’t realize it. She doesn’t realize that I still wed love and reassurance and not for my mother to tear me down daily about the choices she made and who I am not.
I have struggled with depression forever mostly because of how poorly my parents raised us. We were fed and housed but they let their problems seep into me. Having to throw myself in between fights and yell at them to stop arguing just to get viewed as a lunatic by the very people I love so friggin much and yearn for approval from. I’d like to think my darkest days are behind me but everyday is a fight. Cyrus you are loved and people we must realize that we are going to die anyway. If we cry a billion tears before we die then that’s okay. Wipe them away and love yourself. Easier said than done Ik because I came from hating myself to the core to just trying to hold on because why not.
@@fruitlove8842 sending you a hug ❤
@@fruitlove8842 im sorry and i love you.
You are a wonderful mom. Prayers to you and your baby girl!
I understand what you are going through. My sister suffers from depression. Its a tough challenge, its a battle, serious & unfortunate disease that requires professional help. Prayers for u & your daughter that she will get the help she needs & for divine intervention! Prayer can move mountains. A praying mom is one of the most powerful things. Stay strong!
The strength you all have gives me chills. The fact that you both are still trying to tell his story and save the next life is so commendable. Praying for you all’s peace. ♥️
Just hearing her talk about how she had to see her son😭 just makes me so sad😭 it breaks my heart prayers for you guys 💗
I am a suicide survivor and Depression is very real….a lot of the time our family and friends are unaware as we don’t show it on the outside. I am sorry for your loss and I thank you for being brave to share your story.
Hey I’m just a random stranger but just know you’re appreciated and even though life is tough , you can get through it. People love you and care about you :)
As I’m watching this, my heart is shattering. I relate to this as I have attempted suicide many times starting at the age of 12 years old. It is such a struggle to deal with these emotions. I’m so so sorry that he has felt this torture deep within that it gripped him to make him do this. God bless you as a family, as his mother it’s the worst thing to have to deal with. May God continue to comfort you and blessing you with all the strength you will always need to deal with the loss of your son. So sorry for this terrible loss
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I'm glad you're still with us.
Someone I'm sure this with me and I'd like to share them with you.
These words help me through my struggles in life.
I wish you I happy and humble life above ground.
Much respect from katrinka, San Francisco Bay Area
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"The loneliest people are the kindest,
the saddest people smile the brightest,
and the most damaged people are the wisest.
All because they don't wish to see others suffer like they do"
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@@katrinkasanfranciscobayare7364 you are loved thank you for sharing these words....they mean alot to me and im sure others
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My nephew passed the same way. We don't know if it was on purpose or if he was texting. He hit a tree at 92mph the cops said. The medical examiner said that the airbag snapped his neck so it brings me a little comfort that he didn't suffer. But watching this and seeing the car and the debris bright back so many memories. Im so sorry this happened to you. My nephew was only 22. 💙. God bless thier souls. And my prayers go out to you and your family.
RIP Willy Bucio
I lost my dad to suicide, a month after I turned 18 yrs old. The grief from suicide is complicated and unlike other types of grief. I also know what it’s like to lose a child. I lost my daughter at 12 yrs old, she was riding her bike home from school, she had her earbuds in and she unfortunately wasn’t wearing her helmet. She crossed the crosswalk on her bike, she wasn’t looking for traffic and she didn’t hear anything because of her earbuds. She suffered serious head trauma, as well as other injuries. She was life flighted to the hospital, where she remained for a week, we were enduring a waiting game, to see if her brain would stop swelling, and unfortunately her brain continued to swell. I sat and watched as the dr checked her pupils, and declared her brain dead. We took her off the ventilator. That day heaven gained an angel. I lost my daughter. I miss her dearly. She would have been a senior in high school this year. She would have been 18 yrs old. I miss her every single waking moment. My heart aches to see her again. I want to tell you, it never gets easier, but you learn to cope better. You learn to live with the grief. Don’t ever, ever let anyone dictate how you mourn your loss. You will process it in your own way. Sending so much love and prayers your way. I know I am late to this video, but I also know, it likely still feels like this just happened.
I also want you to know, my father wrote in his suicide note that he accepted God as his savior as well. He asked for forgiveness. He is in heaven. His pain was too great for earth.
Take your time. Process in your own way. Remember to allow yourself to feel the emotions. From my heart to yours. ❤️
Sending you lots of love ❤️
I’m wondering if losing someone to suicide hurts more than losing someone to murder
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My prayers for you and your family. I lost my 10 year old daughter on September 11, 2007 and losing a child is a whole new level of grief. I am here for you if you need to talk. Love you guys
Sorry for your loss 🙏
@@humblebee5319 thank you. I just wanted Ebony and Byron know they are not alone
How sweet of u to offer to be someone for them to talk too
Please reach out and seek Professional help from a grief counseling. It's available FREE 24/7 in your local community. I pray for your Peace, in Jesus Name 🙏
Im so sorry for your loss. I too lost a daughter so I know the pain and the nightmare of losing a child. God bless you dear from one broken hearted mom to another. May God comfort you as my faith is all that keeps me going as my daughters remains never found for 10 years . Hugs .
I am so sorry for your loss. The Pain of losing a child is undescribable. I lost my daughter in 2016. I know what you are going through. Praying for you and your family.
I didn't know much about your oldest son, honestly I didn't even know you had older kids. May God comfort your heart in this time. Your CNY family wraps their arms around you. ❤
Mental health is affecting so many youths today and because there’s still stigma they don’t speak out , especially young boys and men , im so so sorry for your loss , I send my heartfelt condolences, love , prayers and hugs 💕💔
So true, I have 2 boys and I worry about them everyday. This survival in the world is a hardcore struggle for our young men.
My heart goes out to your family. This video hit me in my soul because I myself suffer from depression and mental illness …2 years ago around the end of march it got so bad for me that at one point I had parked in a church parking lot and there was a mountain drop off on the other side of the road and my plan was to pray really hard and floor my gas pedal because I didn’t know what else to do ..because I was tired because I felt like I was fighting a never ending battle and I had more bad days then good… I’m crying praying and yelling and it’s raining so hard on this day and the heavy rain seemed to represent a picture of my soul and I asked God …if my life matters…If I need to hold on a little longer please give me a sign and when I lift my head up …in all this rain here comes this animal running right in the direct path towards my car and I’m like what animal is in this heavy storm and when it got close enough for me to tell what it was…I seen it was a groundhog…I felt God tell me hold on just a little bit longer and it may be raining and you may be weary but spring is about to come and you will bloom again….
Your story hit me in my soul because I was exactly where he was… I pray God lifts his soul and your families soul as well! Each day I will keep you all in prayer 🙏 and each day I make it through I will always think of your son..I will push through for everyone who ever thought the only way is out… I hug you all with love and prayer 🙏
Sending you prayers and a big 🫂
Beyond brave to share this. So raw. I’m so so so sorry for your loss. I’m so sorry you’re feeling this pain.😓 Rest In Peace.
The devil wants to take out as many guys please fight the lies with the word of God and hang on . I’m telling you this for God has delivered me from those spirits of depression and suicidal thoughts and torment. No slepp for half a year I’m telling y’all Jesus Christ will be there for you ❤.
If you’ve never battled depression you can never understand the mindset one is in. You are free now! 🕊
This touches me I fought depression for 15 years nobody heard my scream I cried and screamed but it was silent I didn't know where to turn I wanted to die everyday I didn't see hope I lost my way everything was cloudy I felt my kids were better off without me ..but one day one day I found God and it was hard but I found peace a long the way It took everything in me to not do what the devil wanted me to do I was hanging by a thread..but I took it slowly each day one day at a time to rebuild myself I founded a way to beat the devil I protected my soul with God I built a shield of armor and I eventually won it was really hard but God is Good and on time..thank you for sharing your sorry I'm so sorry for your lost you having the courage to do this gave me the courage to tell my story and I hope other people read this because what I want to let whoever that's going through depression know that there is a light at the end of tunnel God bless you and your family ❤🙏✔️
I'm going through this with my 19 year old. God almighty my sister. I am praying with you and my deepest sympathy 🌹 🙏 You are a woman of strength. He will forever be with you in memories
Suicidal is a strong word! I have two kids, and not being able to provide for them financially makes me think suicidal is the solution to my problems… You seem financially stable therefore, I know that I’m wrong, I can do better as long as I’m alive! My condolences 💐 God bless us All🙏
I’m glad you’re thinking it through because if you did it you’d never be able to provide for them at all then and they’d never be able to return the favor for you one day so continue to ask the lord for strengthen grace and mercy and love he will see you through
I’m not sure if you’re saved or lost but I pray for you to get saved if you’re lost and if you’re saved already to keep going and growing in Christ
God bless stay safe in Jesus name
Mama you are all they want
talking about the details is necessary sometimes. really opens peoples eyes to what people and family get to see when you pass. you guys are so strong.
I've had my suicidal moments on too many occasions..but a higher power always showed me the way every time..to any1 feeling this way, if u haven't heard it enough, U R LOVED!!!..U R SPECIAL!!!..U R WANTED!!!..U R NEEDED MORE THAN U KNOW OR REALIZE!!!!!.. sending my deepest and most heartfelt condolences to this family..the strength in her voice jus talking about it is EVERYTHING..💔💔😢🙏🏾🙏🏾
Stay strong..please for those that love you!!!!
Amen
Thanks be to God! Through Him you, I, and everyone who will see this comment will be saved. Amen Hallelujah!!
Know that your strength to tell your story is the same strength God is giving you to not only helping someone else. But the strength to carry the torch for yoyr son and the rest of your family. Because your husband and the other kids needs you just as much now than before!!! I love you and I'm giving you a hug from Chicago!!!!!
The way she described her son hurts my soul no mother should go through this I promise you ..GOD Please heal this family 💙 they need all your praying 🙏🏽. Lord please wrap your arms around this grieving family . Amen 🙏🏽
All I know to say is that God Jehovah is able and willing to see you through. My deepest and heartfelt condolences are with your entire family.
I can’t imagine what you guys are going through. I’m so sorry for your loss.
This young man's pain ran really deep for him to go like that. I know you speak of his injuries out of disbelief he did that to himself.... God's protection over you and family Mrs Baxter
I battled severe depression for 6 years. Tried to tale my life many times. As a survivor i want to say to anyone suffering you can do this. You have a purpose. And to this amazing family im so sorry to you and your beautiful child! It is never easy and we will always wonder why. My bestfriend who was also my 2nd mother took her life 7 years ago with a bullet to her head i sadly didnt make it to her house in time after she sent me the text she was taking her life...i found her...gone.and it took me so long to be okay and tp forgive but you never know what someone is truly feeling or going through. But god is FORGIVING. Your son is up heaven, and so is my beat friend and i truly believe that. Forever with our father and forever with joy and happiness. And eternal life, they are always with us and they show us that! Sometimes god needs people we live most in heaven even if we cant understand. I love you family and i pray for your peace and for your hearts to stay full of love and strength because your child loves you and he is sorry. Try to remember him at his best, not his worst.
I’m so so sorry for your loss…praying for your family. I hope that this video helps kids understand what happens when they do this and how the pain they are feeling just gets past on to the ones that love them them most!
The story is not particularly about the suicide and the pain that is reflected on to those that are still here the story is about the mental health the lack of mental health help to keep young men like Cyrus from being depressed and feeling alone to commit suicide because mental illness in young people is on the rise and it is very real and those who have a somewhat sane mind do not understand
You may never know “why”, but know that Cyrus loved you and his siblings. The Love of God and the blood of Jesus is comforting him and your family. 🙏
Sadly my home life and mental health wasn’t amazing at the time, but I now felt horrible for my mother and mother only after attempting. I overdosed and I just couldn’t do it anymore! Surprisingly life got so much better, I have a new family/chosen family! They have made me so much happier than anything! I am sorry for y’all’s lost! I wish nothing but peace and love to you.
My prayers go out to you and the family May God comfort and heal you all.
This is heartbreaking, just listening to you! I can't imagine the pain you feel! Sending prayers, love and hugs! Sleep well baby boy! Depression is real💜😔
I am so sorry for your loss no parent should even lose a child. Know that he’s watching over your family and he’ll provide you with the strength on those days that feel too hard to deal with. You guys are strong and I’m praying for you.🤍
Dear Father, comfort the family in this difficult time. Amen, amen, amen. Rest on baby boy🕊🕊🕊
He was a nice looking young man; I'm sorry that yall had to go thru this. I'm sorry that he felt like he had no way out. R.I.H 🙏
I am so deeply sorry gor your loss. I lost a daughter 10 years ago and I feel your pain. Bless you and your family. Wish I could hug you .
Life is a vapor and it’s so fragile we’re just passing through! My condolences to you and your family at this time so sorry to hear about your son passing!!!!
Just passing through...we are all walking each other home. 🕊
@@staceywilliams1863 so true beautifully said!!!
@@redbone8844 Thank you!
What amazing strength you have to speak about your son. Praying for your family ❤
it was nice to finally put a his face to his story, I appreciate you guys sharing so much trying to save others while still navigating grief yourselves. no matter what happened or how it happened, that’s your baby and you’re sharing his story. I’ve seen videos about Cyrus before but this brought a whole new light to the situation. thank you guys for sharing your handsome son and the life he had while he was here. ❤
My Lord. I cannot imagine what you are going through now. Prayers, love, and continue support during this difficult time 🙏🏾
I'm extremely sorry for your loss!!! May he rest in peace 🕊️ may you & ur husband and family find peace in time!!!💕
I am very sorry for your loss!!!!! I pray that God continue to bless you and give you all Peace and Strength through this tough time!! I will definitely keep you all in my prayers!
OMG, SO SO SO SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS. I WILL KEEP YOUR FAMILY IN MY PRAYERS.🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
I pray for you guys. The strength you have to keep going and spread awareness is beyond words. I cant even imagine the pain your family is going through and i want you to know that your helping alot of people stay on this earth another day just by watching these videos.
🥺🥺💔 This breaks my heart soooooo deeply 😭 This mama is so strong and so is the Dad. I’m so sorry this happened to Cyrus. I’m praying for you and your family. I send my condolences and pray for comfort and strength for the family and loved ones ❤️🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽❤️
This is absolutely heartbreaking. My son struggles with his mental health, as do I, and we've had a couple of scary moments. It's so hard to see your child like that. I wish I could hold you right now.💜
No words, just tears.
My condolences to you Queen and King, Family prayer's go out to you and your family from me and mines.🙏🙏🙏
LORD continue to HELP just like You done for me! In the Mighty and Matchless Name Of Jesus Christ.
STAY TOGETHER IN UNITY BAXTER FAMILY!
I can’t thank you enough for sharing your story. I am a mental health nurse and because you can’t see mental illness like you can a broken bone or cancer on a scan it’s so difficult to understand. But your pain is felt through this video. And so is is. Rest in perfect peace Cyrus.
My condolences to you and your family for the loss of your son. May he rest in peace and may God rest his soul 🙏🌹💖
So sorry for your loss! Your family has been through so much. May he rip and god has mercy on his soul. Thank you for sharing your story, I know this will help families, someone and save lives. Praying for you
It’s crazy the strength you guys had to video this and be so strong and then post the emotional times. May Cyrus Rest In Peace
I know you had to recognize him in the day of the accident... But no mother should see her baby in that horrible condition. So sorry for your loss. God bless you and your family. R.I.P Cyrus! 😭🙏🕊️
You are both changing lives everyday through your life and testimonies🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
I am so sorry for your loss 😢. I've lost a child myself so I understand your pain. As a parent we aren't supposed to bury our babies, it's not the natural order of how life is supposed to be. You all are in my heart, thoughts and prayers 😢♥️🙏.
I didn’t know this happened. I’m so broken hearted. Before this happened, I started school and was busy working on assignments. I would watch Byron and his twin brother. I knew about the other kids too.
I’m so sorry. Both my children have Autism and ADHD… I couldn’t imagine the pain of losing them.
Again I’m so sorry. 😩😞😭💯
I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. Your family will be in my prayers 🙏 RIP Cyrus ❤️❤️
I’m sorry I can’t like this video because of the loss of your son, I felt the pain man. Seeing you walk around the car, seeing the blood. Then hearing mom describe what she saw when she saw her son omgggg my heart and I’m not even his mother😢😢😢my heart is with y’all. Take care and stay strong💔😘
I pray for peace in your heart as a parent of 5, you try everything in your power to keep them healthy and safe. Know you will be in my prayers 🙏🏾 💔
You are truly one of the strongest women I’ve ever heard. God bless you and your beautiful family. I pray God gives you peace and comfort through this heartbreaking time.
PLEASE ACCEPT MY DEEPEST CONDOLENCES TO ALL WHO LOVE YOUR SON.. THE MOST IMPORTANT THING GOD LEFT YOU WITH WAS HIM ACCEPTING JESUS AS HIS LORD AND SAVIOR.. GOD TELLS US IN HIS WORD THAT AT OUR LAST BREATH IF WE CRY OUT TO HIM HE HEARS US AND SAVES US .. YOUR BEAUTIFUL SON YOUR MOST PRECIOUS GIFT IS LOOKING AT THE FACE OF HIS SAVIOR.. HE HAS ETERNAL LIFE.. SENDING GOD'S LOVE AND PEACE TO YOU ALL!!! 🌹 💚 ☝️
My heart breaks for you, the fact you are allowing yourself to share this information so freely to try to help others in the midst of your grief and hold up so well sharing those details is amazing. You are an incredible source of strength right now, I hope that God continues to give you and your family the strength to grieve in a healthy way. Big hugs I am giving to you, my the angels hold you.. as a mom, I could not imagine having to see my child in this manner.
Baxter Family you all are in my thoughts and prayers.
Baxter family you have my sincere condolences! I lost my baby boy at 21 years old twenty one years ago by the hands of the Serial Killer in Flint, Mi.My son was also suffering from depression before his life was taken away from him. I tried all I could to keep him close to me but I couldn’t, it still hurts but I know he’s in a better place with the Lord! He finally has his peace. God be with you and I’m praying for your peace !
I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of your son. May God continue to give you and your family strength and bring all of you comfort during this difficult time. I will keep you and yours in my prayers 💔🕊
I’m sorry for your loss. Use to watch your post all the time. I didn’t know you guys had and older son. I just saw this post I’m heart broken. I couldn’t stop crying. Every time I was watching your post I would say your children have special and beautiful parents.love you guys you are special family. Hold you will continue to be in my prayers. I always suffer depression.
GOD, I am praying for y’all. I can’t imagine the pain and hurt that y’all feel, I hope that with y’all sharing your story that y’all will be able to help someone dealing with mental illness. I pray for strength and comfort for the whole Braxter Family.
My prayers are with you, my heart is breaking for you.🙏🏽📖
I’ve been battling depression for so many years. I lost everything after I almost died from Covid 3 years ago, I haven’t been able to find a job , due to my eviction while I was in the hospital my credit is terrible and I can’t get a place , I lost my car, I mean EVERYTHING, I have no way to take care of my son financially, no one wants to help, it gets to the point like why am I here ? I’m depressed, I’ve been struggling and fighting to get my life back and nope, nothing is happening, I keep praying to God every day to help me and be able to get a job at least so I can provide for my son but nothing is happening. Just a few days ago I just wanted to take my life, but I keep thinking of what’s gonna happen to my 15 year old son, and it hurts me even more. I know what it’s like to feel depressed and to feel like there’s no way out. Ppl don’t understand how hard depression is and ppl think it’s a joke , it’s not. Plz take care of those who are telling you that they are not ok and that they have depression. Help them! I’m so sorry for your loss. Amen
Be strong
Let's keep fighting for our kids
I am so very sorry and I know that isn’t even close to enough. As someone who lives with mental illness daily this touches me in a way I can’t describe. It is so brave and so special that you are telling this story. If it’s saves one life….that’s enough.
This is a pain I couldn't imagine. I don't know you but my heart hurts for you. May God bless you and your family and pull you all together through all this pain and tragedy. Prayers to you and your family from Indiana.
God you are a healer. You will allow her to mourn and in your own way you will keep her in perfect peace. Thank You
Sis, thank you for being so transparent and vivid with your us. Thank you for granting us this space to grieve with you and support you! Thank you for being a pillar of strength for this who have gone through this or may go through this!
Wow I'm so sorry for your loss sending prayers & condolences to mom, dad and the rest of the family. RIP Cyrus
Thank you for showing this this year has been extremely bad for me and I have thought about taking my life cause I have had thoughts like your son but seeing you and your family grieve makes me realize what a family goes through when a person takes there life I know I need help and I am getting it I am praying for y'all
Please know that you are loved.....please dont take ur life.....we need your light and presence love you be blessed
@sherritay I don't know you but reading this made me almost cry. I pray you know that trouble never last long. Call on the Lord in your darkest hour. Please know that your life is a blessing to the world. I will pray for you as you seek courage to keep inching forward toward a better tomorrow. 🙇🏽♀️🙏🏽
@ Sherritay Read Psalm 46 ( God is our Refuge- Shelter or Protection from danger or distress. Read Psalm 51
Thank you guys I am ok thank God I have friends that are like my family they help get me through my depression but I seen ebonies live when she found he son was gone and I thought to myself God that could have been me and the medical examiner calling my mama I seen her pain I heard her scream when she got the news she is not even my family and I felt her pain at one point in time I had thoughts just like her son did but through prayer I no longer have those feelings that baby thought his pain was never going to go away nobody can understand that unless they been through it
@@sherrita80548 That's good, to hear, that you continue to trust in GOD, because i hate for anyone to go through this...
I have no words just a cry in my heart for your son. He is with The Lord now. Peaceful.
My heart is broken for you and yours. This has really made me stop and think. Sending love and prayers!
Condolences to you and your family! I really admire your strength. Cyrus was such a handsome young man. May God surround you with his comforting angels. Praying for you and your family!🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽😇😇
May God wrap HIS comforting arms around your family. Thank you for sharing to help prevent the loss and get treatment for mental illness. Find PEACE and for your closure. Be Blessed!
Thank you for sharing Cyrus & your family’s story. I will pray for your family and I hope this message helped someone.
This took a lot of courage to post, thank you. I go through a lot of depression and suicidal thoughts, and have felt the effects of suicide in my family. I know exactly what your talking about when you speak about the outbursts, and struggle with this myself. Just know your son fought hard, and did not mean for you to feel pain. You did nothing to cause this, he loved you more than himself.
Wow you guys are way stronger than I could have ever been in that situation. There is no way I could have seen my child in that condition, and still continued on with my day-to-day life. And I will pray for you and your family everyday. This is so super sad I'm at a loss for words.
My heart is hurting for you, and you family. I couldn't imagine. God please please wrap your healing arms around the Baxter family. God rest his soul.
So very sorry for your loss. Losing someone is never easy. It's heartbreaking to hear you say that you couldn't save him, his love for you all is still there - he just couldn't cope in this world anymore. My heartfelt sympathy from here in the UK, his spirit will live on in you all - his wonderful family
Started watching your videos because I’ve watched your short clips with Byron and fell in love with his voice. I just learning about your son Cyrus. I’m sorry but I cried through your whole explanation of what happened to him. You were so strong for being able to talk about it. Thanks for sharing.
God bless you and your family. This is hard to listen too, I know living it is a nightmare. Through God ALL things are possible. Praying for strength and comfort! 🙏