Timestamps: 0:00 - A Soulmate who wasn't meant to be by Jessica Benko 5:26 - Hey, It's Delilah by Jessica Ricca 9:20 - Fallen by Gert Tarbener 15:04 - Hand over hand by Roland Faunte 21:07 - Oceans by Seafret Spotify playlist: open.spotify.com/playlist/65U9KfDPVd38QGbYHVmZze?si=UqOoA3USQxmcbfCIT748zA&
Hey. you sound like you are grieving. You have healing to recieve, and blossoming in store.You-were the most in love with her than any one you have ever been with. Am I right brother?
the worst part is actually knowing who you’re thinking about. they’re *that* person. you can’t get them out of your head. no matter how much you try. they stay there. i guess you actually never forget your first love. EDIT: I SWEAR LIFE GETS BETTER I SWEAR, never give up. what feels like the end of the world today might give you a good laugh tomorrow. you can get past anything, i believe in you. i got past it. i understood myself better, i understoood when i should give up or keep it going. sometimes it's just NOT worth it. remember to take care of yourselves. life doesnt exactly get better, but it FEELS better. you will FEEL better. you will be able to handle it all better, which in the end will MAKE it better. it's going to be ok.
@Nripendra Singh You tell me. Try imagining what it would it look like in your scenario. Don’t be afraid to “face your dragons”. For me personally, Being grateful wasn’t something I could have ever made happen, the best way I can describe it would be an act of realization/grace by being truthful to myself and faithful that I was actually okay
Funny how I was think about how the person I fell in love with, the person that became my first love is the definition of right person wrong time and god I hate it....
๑And i just miss him, i’ve moved on, but༄ part of me is still in love with him, and it hurts༄ lot. I smile, but i just wish it would’ve been him. It will always feel right with him๑
You have returned every bit of pain I ever caused you and probably way more I will never love agai don't want it I don't want it I don't need it it's disgusting cause all of them is pain cause I'll end up in this pain Goodbye I loved you and you threw it all away
Yup and especially when u suffer from mental illness no one is willing to stay when it gets darker... they run away from u yet all u wanted was their love and support...
she's so good. so sweet. supportive, caring, pretty, smart, funny. she never let me down a single time. she always takes care of me, and she also taught me what love is. and i'm so broken. i fucked up. nothing happened to us, but i got so apathic and lost feelings. it hurts so much because i always said she was the woman of my life. i always screw up because i'm broken. i'm going to die alone. she deserves much better, i know that. she deserves the whole world. i want to be with her, but at the sime time, i know i'll only hurt her.
You’ll never be able to love her the way you want to if you don’t love yourself first. I like to imagine love as a cup full of water, her love isn’t meant to full your cup, you are supposed to fill it, with self love. If you love yourself, is kind and try to do your best, you’ll obviously deserve her love. It’s not your fault though, we all go through this ,feeling like we are horrible and don’t deserve things, but believe me you do, you are amazing, you just can’t see it yet.
You said that, she deserve to be loved and she loves u, and you love her or u would never talk about here right here on this post. Learn to love her, learn it for real. Take your time but don’t let her down, I know what it means to be broken and ruin things.. but you deserve this as much as she does. Work on your mind and soul and love the woman of ur life.💖
I was with someone like you once... he left for pretty much the same reasons....you really don't know how much i felt what you said.. All I know is that I said goodbye at a boy on the platform and whoever came back had a pityful look saying "I'm sorry I just don't feel anymore.. I love you just not the same". And till this day he keeps talking to me and only me about his real feelings.. well everything except the ones about me. I'll tell you this..work on yourself and your problems.. and if she still cares for you and if you still want her, you can try. Don't waste your chance or hers..work on yourself and help her too.... I wish he would do it too....but I'm not that lucky.
When Hey there Delilah started playing it gave me fond memories of how my mom would play that and dance along with me and my sister while she made our favorite homemade pancakes. We'd all sing along since my mom loved that song so much. It's like 5 year old me knew it from the heart. She'd spin us around and dance with us as it got dark outside. We'd also listen to "I want candy" and "lollipop" kind of ironic since her name is actually Candy. It was easier when it was just giggles with nothing to worry about. I miss her so much.
3 years ago I was just a sophomore in high school. I fell in love with the most angelic girl I've ever known. These past few years were filled with pain, loss, anger, all because it just wasn't meant to be. I was not her person, that spot was reserved for another man. I come back and listen to this, so nostalgic, I'd cry to this and now I sit here thinking of the last. I smile, I'll always love her
I love him so much i can't stop thinking about him but he loves someone else and this sucks because i can't do anything to unlove him Update: thanks loves I think i'm over him finally
I feel u Ik he was losing feelings and everything too but I made if official for both of us and now I miss him so bad like I can’t stop thinking about him but that’s love hopefully or soon I’ll forget about him but I won’t forget I loved him and that type of love I loved him with was the best love I felt in so long but I really hope he forgets about me and I forget about him soon
Having a crush on my friend for 2 years now. We finally graduated now we got to part to a different college thinking about the man she will fall in love with just makes me so jealous. Thanks you for this playlist it made me really missing her only if she knew how much I love her.
pov: you like both girls and guys, but have to pretend to be straight and go by your birth pronouns and such around your best friends family. you have known her for 3 years and fell for her 2 years ago. the last relationship she had with a girl (your birth gender) she was grounded and never allowed to hangout with her or the other friends that weren’t straight. so you have to keep your mouth shut to stay friends. 2020 hits, your dog died, the one that’s literally been there before you were born, all your life. covid hits but you guys hangout every friday even tho you aren’t supposed to, but you never go outside in general and neither does she. you make it to 2021 with a few bad stories and the love for her growing still. you take the time to make something for her that would’ve costed 60-70 dollars had you not handsewed it (a hat) and she absolutely loved it. (that’s still 2020 tho). after new years you guys are vibing still, then one of her relatives dies from covid and other complications. then her dog (months later) has liver damage. her world is falling apart and yours is too with mental illnesses, relying on pills so you don’t relapse into bad habits, family members could die. then another of her relatives has covid. you literally cry from hearing this. you care about her and her family. then there’s the very likely possibility that she could move 3 states away and you could never see her again. what would you do? welcome to my situation.
no, I will literally cry, sorry that ur friend had to go through that and I am sorry that no one is there when they are supposed to. please continue to talk even though she is moving don't let it die...
@@chiomaopara6267 ima try, although she left me on read yesterday, i messaged her a cute lamb picture and she didn’t open it…so i think something is wrong. we still don’t know if she’s moving permanently, we all hope not but it’s a 50% chance and this is basically as if she has moved there. i’ll try to remember to update this whenever stuff happens but the grandmother is getting better luckily :D
“No matter the time or place. If it’s meant to be it’ll be. But that doesn’t mean that you can’t fight for them.” Im so sorry you have to go through this ): (I send my love) and I hope you find a place that supports you and loves you for you and you never have to hide yourself again.
Hold on to her. Time flies when you’re measuring in years. I promise it does I wish I could go back. But I can’t. Struggle with her, fight for her, and when life stops throwing you punches for even half a second rejoice and celebrate with her. Just don’t let go
My soulmate who wasn't meant to be, I'll never be able to share this special story. But all you feel, I know what you're going trough. I love you all ❤
There's a beauty in the fact that the next person is incomprehensible. That, there's no one better than her. There's so much beauty in that; I just can't see it because of the circumstances. Because someone's gonna come around and prove me wrong. I just hope I don't go crazy by then.
A couple weeks back, I loved someone that wasn't even my girlfriend. I treated her like she was one, I kept talking to her and when we talk I would smile genuinely. Even though she was far away from me I still loved her as much as I can. And then she ghosted me, I would see her online most of the times and see her post pics, She would interact with other people knowing i could see it in some cases. I just kept asking myself what did I do wrong? In the end I just accepted it, nothing good would happen if I kept on dwelling on it. This playlist really hits
wow, I loved you alot. The rooftop we laid on, that first kiss, comes back like memories of a great time, I still wonder where I went wrong. I really could never move on, it sucks. It's that one wound that was too deep. I can't cry about it anymore, as my mind let go long time ago. But my heart couldn't ever get past it. You are the right person, but we were at different times. Sunsets now missed without you. Now cigarettes just taste like you, a bitter scent that I just can't get rid of, yet I still come back to you, like I'm okay.
love is so weird to me. it's so easy but so unobtainable. i lost the one person who i truly loved because they just decided i wasn't good enough. truly i don't ever think ill be good enough. i found another love that was perfect, but i threw it away on some thoughts and doubts. i regret every moment i live now without them. it's never going to be the right time for me. I'm always going to feel this way. The universe just decides i don't need love.
One day you’ll find someone that will change your mind abt love. you are good enough, you’re more than enough. Don’t doubt yourself, it wasn’t your fault. Some people have problems within themselves and it reflects on their character. Love yourself and you’ll find true happiness
Its hard to accept it when neither of our feelings ever left. We never broke up because she never wanted to admit that she was dating a girl..So we just loved each other. For sooo long. Until she felt to guilty to continue. She chose her families morals over her own happiness. I hate the idea of not being the one by her side, but I hate the idea of not being in her life way more. I love her more than words can describe, so I hope I get to see the day shes finally happy...even if its not with me. Because she deserves to be free.
We met when we were both at our lowest. I remember our late night calls that never seemed to come to an end. We spoke about what was wrong around us and how we were treated so unfair and different than others . I never felt so understood and appreciated as I did like how I felt with them. As many other people my age, I never realized that this would come to an end soon... it's funny how we never really labeled what we had together.... but they continued to reassure me that they loved me but I wasn't ready . After several days and arguments, we cut communication completely but I still remember how they were willing to wait for me but when I finally got the courage and maturity ..... I couldn't find them anymore. I felt frustrated selfish for putting their major issues aside when we were together. To be honest, i knew how they lied to not make me sad or angry for the people who did them wrong ... we weren't perfect but I can't help thinking about them . I hope they finally found a stable home like the one I had since forever and that they don't need to hide their emotions to satisfy people around them .
Hi, can I ask why? , bc you are not sharing his feelings or bc you are scared or bc of something else ? have a great night , and even if maybe you are not going to be with him, i wish u a lot of love
@@anissaj9024 hii, i'm just scared that i'll hurt him because i don't deserve him :) and i don't like like him so i can't even talk to him without feeling "guilty". thankuu ,lots of love
To anyone with a good heart reading this listen up fr this is the key to life ..... don't look for love in ppl look for it in things that won't ever leave that will always keep you happy somehow no matter how hurt you are you will always have a happy place that gives you love for example go listen to music and listen to the ocean waves look at the sunset find something that you will love to do trust me you will know when u find that something you love I down have to explain how it feels you will just know that its love you'll feel it deep in your heart and you will always remember every detail of what you did at that' time
I let him go today. I wanted to stay, he begged me to stay, but I couldn't do it anymore, living in unrequited love is incredibly painful. Having only his friendship wasn't enough for me anymore, not with this gaping wound he left behind when he chose someone else over me. It was the hardest thing I ever done but it was necessary, I choose to be selfish for once, I choose myself over him for once. I'm crying, I'm heartbroken...but I'm free. Maybe I can truly heal this time.
Shall I make a song about you? Would that put my current boyfriend to shame? I haven't even made a song about him but my urge to write a song about our limited interaction is so strong that it hurts.
I broke up w my gf about month and a half ago, i made more than 5 songs. I can’t sing, but one of my friends can and he’s kindly use my lyrics so what I wrote could have more than a soul but a shape that people or at least me and her could hear. Everyone think the lyric’s good, not deep but... idk you just could feel it. Well it’s made out of heart and feelings that i pour in. So yeah, maybe if you guys wanted to check it out. It’s “stuck with you - mudhofar”. Please let me know what you think of it if you feel like listening to it. Thanks for this comment section, much love
I been a heartbreaker since he broke my heart. I use to think he was my soulmate , till I realised a soulmate is what you make it and how much power he/she has over you. Now his the one hungry for my attention and I feel nothing for him. But the damage is there I will never be the same again because of him. This playlist helps me reminisce the happy bits he stole from me.
emember the exact minute we got together..I can tell you where i was, what i was watching, the part of the video it was at and the way i was sitting. I sat up in excitement when they asked me to be with them. I can tell you where we first kissed and held hands and our first hug, I remember saying i love you for the first time. They were my first for everything. My first kiss, my first hug, the first person i ever held hands with..the first person who ever understood me for me. Even when they went to the mental hospital for 2 weeks..I never left their side, I never went to anybody else..I got my first job so I could get them surprises and little gifts. My family had never seen me smile before I had them.
I hate how my ex boyfriend was my best friend and now we don't even talk that much anymore 😒 and now he's doing all the things he did with me, with another girl. But I mean, as long as he's happy, it makes me happy 💛
god if only he knew. there's so many things I wish i could say to him, I've liked him for so many years at this point. he makes me so nervous when I see him i can't hold eye contact, he gives me a sense of warmth, a sense of love, my heart skips a thousand beats. the things that have happened with him, the memories we talked about making, the things we said we would do for each other, the late-night deep talks when he was hurting, the dorky jokes he would make. the way he makes me feel. it's unlike any other. i have to see him tomorrow and I'm so nervous what if i say the wrong thing? what if he thinks im annoying? what if he hates me? what if i do something wrong? im always worried about what would happen, about losing him. there's something about him and. I still cant figure it out. i never knew why i liked him so much. there's so much about him i could go on for days but the more i think the more confused i get. he flirts with me like it's nothing and i cant tell if he's just messing with me. he acts completely oblivious to everything but there's no way he's as oblivious as he says he is right? like it's fairly obvious. i texted him yesterday asking if he was going to homecoming and he just said "Idk maybe" and my best friend said she thinks he'd probably go if i asked him and i do want to ask him but i don't know if i should go through with it. he asked why i asked him and i just played it off as a just wondering situation, there's no way he didn't pick up on that right? like he may be a little dumb sometimes but everyone has those moments.
we both love each other but im broken af, idk when will i be okay... i gave everything and now i have nothing to give for him, needed to fix myself again..
Rejection is so hard and sometimes you sit awake and wonder did I let the love of my life slip through my fingers but fate was supposed to have your back
I truly believe he was my first love, and the fact he was the right person but wrong time, the fact that distance was always going to be a huge factor. I still love him so much. He blocked me on everything which hurt me so much, I guess I was asking for to much but it hurts so much because I honestly thought he loved and cared for me but actions speak louder than words, I love you forever and always xx
This is beautiful. This made stand still before the mirror untill the end. Ask myself a lot of question, say things I've never worded before. Feel what I have but not expressed before. This is on loop for the 3rd day now.
ugh same. do you overthink that he could meet someone near him that would make him more happier? because i do too and it's scary. my own brain is killing me
Been stuck on this girl for years now, everytime i think ive moved on she finds her way back into my heart. We dated when i was in 6th grade and im not a senior in highschool. I have a girlfriend right now and we've been together for 2 and a half years and i love her more than anything but it feels wrong because im still stuck on an ex. Idk how i can love someone so much that causes me so much pain. Today she pretty much told me she was still stuck on me too. In the past year shes told me she loved me and that she thinks we're soul mates but everytime i think about it its like im being stabbed in the stomach. I dont know how to get her out of my mind
my first proper love is the definition of right person wrong time. I love her so much but it hurts so much when I talk to her. I can't stop thinking about how she's so much better than me and how she has gone through so much more than me. it hurts, I don't understand it. I don't know how to manage a relationship. I know this relationship won't work out long term but I don't know how to tell her. I'm so scared of hurting her. I don't even know if we're dating. We aren't just friends but it doesn't feel any more than that. She thinks we're dating but I don't want to date right now. I just want her to be my friend, i just want a friend. We were fine until I fucked it up. Until i started thinking about how she was so much better than me, until i started thinking about how i could be perfect if only i was her. She deserves so much more than me, she deserves the whole world. I'm so used to being alone, i don't know how to handle a close relationship like this. I'm too scared to say anything to her. it hurts
We dated each other for 2 years. We still love each other deeply and let each other know about our feelings, but our career paths don't match we can't take out time for each other so we decided to let go of each other. We're hopeful that when the time is right we'll be back together and this time for forever 💗🙂
Do you know what hurts more knowing you can't be with him and you reject him and he take blame on himself but you can't do anything but suffer in silence though you wanna run to his arms and just cry telling that how badly you wanna be with him but you can't and you don't wanna lose yourself anymore anymore
It's crazy when the girl I really liked was the only one I loved very much, and after a month of talking, I finally said it first, and we've been together for 7 months, we didn't have serious problems or anything, she broke up with me because I have mental health issues, depression, anxiety, crying while sleeping. When she broke up with me, it felt like my heart is broken, just like when I lost my mother. Maybe It is my fault for hiding my mental issues, but is it really my fault for trying to be happy and just live my life for a moment?
I’ve found this video again. I remember the last time I listened to this I was significantly more mentally ill than now. And I think I’m going to cry just remembering it
We werent even in a relationship,we didnt even kiss or anything we were just friends for one summer but damn she is always on my mind and i realised it only when i returned home,wish i realised it sooner
it was hard letting my hard down with them, i did it after almost two years and i should’ve never believe that this one was staying, cuz they didn’t and i’m here crying in the dark while they’re partying with their new friends forgetting about me totally
"You are the only thing i think about every day, all day; whenever i look out of my window and quietly watch the stars you come to my mind, whenever i sit at school i think of you, whenever i sit in the train i think of you, i just always think about you, and only you, because that makes me happy, and because YOU make me so happy, you make me happier than anything else in this world my darling and i love you so so much, my love grows from day to day, it can hardly get any bigger, but it keeps getting bigger because you just get more and more wonderful and I get happier and happier: I LOVE YOU, MY DEAR, I LOVE YOU INFINITELY AND FROM MY WHOLE HEART AND YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY WHOLE LIFE, AND YOU WILL REMAIN THE LOVE OF MY LIFE FOREVER AND EVER" That's what she said about a month ago. Two days ago we broke up. One thing she said: "You came into my life too early, at the wrong time". I still want her back, and I still do anything I can to get her back..
It really hurt. I did everything I could for her but she ended up leaving me anyways. We're still friends because she was crying to me about how she didn't want to lose me. I should've tried harder to keep her mine. I want her back so bad. Deep down inside, my conscious still has hope that she'll probably get back with me one day but the reality is harsh, she's probably never going to get back with me no matter how hard I care for her. I'll never truly find someone else just like her. She was perfect to me, she was unique. Now on my ring finger where the promise ring was, it feels empty.
Am reading in the comments how all these people have are had that someone who they felt for , and am here struggling to relate because I've never felt that way towards anything nor anyone before. I guess i am just incapable of feeling love , or getting attached , of needing someone. I want to , but i just can't...
Its has been 1 years and 2 month already. But ,i always remind myself, that he was never made for me, hes the most purest guy that i met and were both feel happy and ease being around each other. The world seems harsh on us, he wasnt mine in the first place. I should detach myself from him for his future. seems like were hurting each other in silence. Right person wrong timings hurts like hell. Its like waiting for it to end...i need to let go for the best of us. i hope im strong enough to let him go.. This relationship is so wrong.. i still remember when we met and we fell in love in an unexpected way... ill never forget you.. u are the best thing that ever happen in my life.
its me again. This is my 3rd year with him. Not sure if it was a good thing. But im happier now. Never expect we both lasted this long. Waiting for the end. I think i found a closure i needed when i wrote this 1 year ago.
It hurts to fall in love with someone who doesn't even know you and who only sees you as one more fan, and I've tried not to look at him like that but it's hard.
Why why does love hurt so much, I'm soooo utterly in love with him sooo in love but he's leaving moving away and what am i supposed to do seeing him every two weeks is already soo hard and now im sitting here in tears once again cause I just miss him with my whole entire being ugh why doesnt love hurt
i just got out of a relationship with a boy who i swear is my soulmate. we were in a long distance relationship and i struggle with those so hard but i tried my best. but i guess my best wasn't good enough. personal circumstances arose and we drifted apart. i swear if we met after covid ended and met up in person i would have ended up marrying the guy.
Fight for what your want and even if you don't win atheist grow from it don't dwell on the past or worry about what people think about you.instead put your mind inside a shell letting all negative thoughts be silenced and turn those thoughts into more happy thoughts
I really don't have anyone to talk to about how I feel about him and how his memories are just hunting me and driving me insane I ended us because of the distance the age difference and I felt like we were in completely different places in our life we met the summer of 2019 in Mexico I lived in california he lived in Mexico but was moving to Portland to work we had a summer romance but it had to end when it was time for me to go back to the US we separated and for a whole year my love life completely stoped I couldn't see anyone attractive anymore all I dreamed of was to see him aging then finally we went back to Mexico at the same time we saw each other aging we couldn't stop ourselves from just running up to each other and hugging each other so tight finally kissing aging we started seeing each other aging knowing that by the time it would have to end aging it would be the most heart breaking moment but I couldn't stop myself from just completely falling more and more in love with him he was my best friend my lover he was like a dream but the happy dream came to an end after he had to go back to the US before he left I came to the realization that we can't be together in any way I told him that I was better if we just never talk aging because im about to turn 17 I need to focus on my school and getting a job so I have save up as fast as I can to get out of my dads home as soon as I can and he needs to focus on working and his problems its been a few months that we said goodbye but I just can't seem to move on even when I think that I finally moved on I find myself at night thinking and remembering everything that we went through I try so hard to keep him out of my mind but at this point It is the most incredibly hurtful thing to think about him but yet its also extremely hurtful to try and forget him im so lost right now I don't know what to
It's funny I've always talked about being a shit person when all the sweetest people have graced me with their time but I fucked up and suddenly they're gone most are fine but one girl I can get her out of my mind. Remember kissing her, I remember the time I made her cry and run away, now I can remember the times we've spent together and now it'll never happen again. It's funny how you don't miss things till they're gone and all I can remember is the good shit and how bittersweet it is and if anyone is reading this don't make my mistake stay together with those you love because it hurts when they're gone.
i am scared of letting people to be important to me i still haven’t gone through the pain the people i cared about caused me, but i can’t have that luxury i have no time i have to protect my future but at the cost of my present and the pain of my past i am so donde with my life but i have no reason to go. I only want to rest sleep dosnt help and i’m in and out of the doctor expecting to see my therapists whom is always too busy for me and i have nothing and no one i just want to feel needed and loved again. i miss that little child that didn’t constantly think in ways of getting hurt of killed, the child that was inocente and stupid but happy, the child that didn’t know war nor pain, the child that didn’t understand what was going on until it was too late.. dealing with an alcoholic and drogadict, a narsisist and a bully will never be easy. specificity if you separate your problems they seem little and insignificant but there are sooo many of them that i am now trapped and they are so little but so many and so painful i know can’t keep writing cus seeing thoug tears is never easy i must forget love i mist forget friends i want to be free of pain but that will also kill your happiness but is better to feel numb that to feel PAIN and blood lust
I mean, I don't miss her like miss miss but I miss the way she talked to me and how she EVERY single day remembered me that she "loved me" I miss talking to her until 6 am, I miss the way she looked at me but nothing was true, I was I distraction for her, she never loved me, she never cared about me, she never really meant the things she said, she manipulate me, its hard cause she was the first person who make me feel that way but its all gone, the laughs, the calls, the special moments are only in my mind even if it was only real for me...
Love, you wildfire, leave my ashes in your wake. Melt my heart and char my brain- I’ll still love you just the same. Love is not in the bliss of companionship but in the willingness to consume and be consumed by the other. Such a sinful flame, my Love- Burn.
I like to think that it is not our time, because if I accept that we are not for each other, I will lose the person that i love. He's special but it's not for me.
The end of the relationship was a mutual agreement, I loved her so much and yet we just weren't meant to be. Years later I understand she was the right person... at the wrong time... I never knew what love was or if it existed, and now I've never loved another person like her. Not even close. I suppose I've become content with this. Content with being alone. Perhaps its the reason I've never been interested in another relationship for years... God I hope I can feel for someone again, the same way I felt for this girl. I think I'm getting tired of being lonely.
It was a long distance relationship we didn't meet but I love him and he love me back and we try to be together but it was impossible ...i can't move on still thinking about him maybe I missed him or i just miss to be loved 🥺
Timestamps:
0:00 - A Soulmate who wasn't meant to be by Jessica Benko
5:26 - Hey, It's Delilah by Jessica Ricca
9:20 - Fallen by Gert Tarbener
15:04 - Hand over hand by Roland Faunte
21:07 - Oceans by Seafret
Spotify playlist: open.spotify.com/playlist/65U9KfDPVd38QGbYHVmZze?si=UqOoA3USQxmcbfCIT748zA&
so in love with this 😍😍❤️❤️❤️❤️
Hey. you sound like you are grieving. You have healing to recieve, and blossoming in store.You-were the most in love with her than any one you have ever been with. Am I right brother?
Patience. Forgiveness-come on you are as good-at this I am sure. Forward March. well June actually.
Thank you!!
Damn it's been 4months and i am slowly to let him go😔
the worst part is actually knowing who you’re thinking about. they’re *that* person. you can’t get them out of your head. no matter how much you try. they stay there. i guess you actually never forget your first love.
EDIT: I SWEAR LIFE GETS BETTER I SWEAR, never give up. what feels like the end of the world today might give you a good laugh tomorrow. you can get past anything, i believe in you. i got past it. i understood myself better, i understoood when i should give up or keep it going. sometimes it's just NOT worth it. remember to take care of yourselves. life doesnt exactly get better, but it FEELS better. you will FEEL better. you will be able to handle it all better, which in the end will MAKE it better. it's going to be ok.
i am in love with the impossibility of us
This hits deep omg...
You saying that I can't read our write anymore because the rears are flooding my eyes
No cap
fr
There comes a day when we will not regret what was; we will smile because it was
-master oogway
And party like hell when we start to cherrish more and more those brain farts we used to get embarrassed by. Think of that!
@Nripendra Singh You tell me. Try imagining what it would it look like in your scenario. Don’t be afraid to “face your dragons”. For me personally, Being grateful wasn’t something I could have ever made happen, the best way I can describe it would be an act of realization/grace by being truthful to myself and faithful that I was actually okay
@Nripendra Singh miss her? absolutely. But any resentment, fear, or anger for myself or for her from within myself was not my heaven
Interesting today I told someone those words. No regrets brought so much joy truly nothing else mattered. Sad to see it late...
When you have chemisty you only need one other thing - Timing.
But timing's a bitch . . .
Classic Robin Sparkles
timing needs to be killed!! that's how a big bitch it is... :(
Timings a bitch.....I hate her
oh hi Robin
It is, indeed, a bitch.
Funny how I was think about how the person I fell in love with, the person that became my first love is the definition of right person wrong time and god I hate it....
I hope you find someone new or maybe something to distract you!! if you ever need someone to talk with or just friends I can give you my info!
@@SammichWammich aww thank you so much your so sweet :)
@@WictoriyuhOf course just let me know ✨
°miss what's ahead of you...
and you'll be looking back forever°
You too?
i just miss her, i’ve moved on, but a part of me is still in love with her, and it hurts a lot.
Same, i miss her so much :,)
I wish I heard these words from a person I meet in one of my classes...but I know that he forgot about me.
๑And i just miss him, i’ve moved on, but༄ part of me is still in love with him, and it hurts༄ lot. I smile, but i just wish it would’ve been him. It will always feel right with him๑
This one hit me and sometimes I ask why me who knows it just life
Mood
Hurting someone's feelings is as easy as throwing a rock in the ocean, but do you know how deep that rock goes?
You have returned every bit of pain I ever caused you and probably way more I will never love agai don't want it I don't want it I don't need it it's disgusting cause all of them is pain cause I'll end up in this pain Goodbye I loved you and you threw it all away
Yup and especially when u suffer from mental illness no one is willing to stay when it gets darker... they run away from u yet all u wanted was their love and support...
To my soul
Bruh, you getting philosophical now chezca?
And if there's one thing that people don't forget, it's how you made them feel.
If you loved the wrong person that much,
imagine how much you would love the right one!!
she's so good. so sweet. supportive, caring, pretty, smart, funny. she never let me down a single time. she always takes care of me, and she also taught me what love is.
and i'm so broken. i fucked up. nothing happened to us, but i got so apathic and lost feelings. it hurts so much because i always said she was the woman of my life.
i always screw up because i'm broken. i'm going to die alone. she deserves much better, i know that. she deserves the whole world. i want to be with her, but at the sime time, i know i'll only hurt her.
don’t be scared... if you’re afraid to hurt someone well, there’s always communication!
You’ll never be able to love her the way you want to if you don’t love yourself first. I like to imagine love as a cup full of water, her love isn’t meant to full your cup, you are supposed to fill it, with self love.
If you love yourself, is kind and try to do your best, you’ll obviously deserve her love.
It’s not your fault though, we all go through this ,feeling like we are horrible and don’t deserve things, but believe me you do, you are amazing, you just can’t see it yet.
You said that, she deserve to be loved and she loves u, and you love her or u would never talk about here right here on this post. Learn to love her, learn it for real. Take your time but don’t let her down, I know what it means to be broken and ruin things.. but you deserve this as much as she does. Work on your mind and soul and love the woman of ur life.💖
*her I’m sorry hahah
I was with someone like you once... he left for pretty much the same reasons....you really don't know how much i felt what you said.. All I know is that I said goodbye at a boy on the platform and whoever came back had a pityful look saying "I'm sorry I just don't feel anymore.. I love you just not the same".
And till this day he keeps talking to me and only me about his real feelings.. well everything except the ones about me.
I'll tell you this..work on yourself and your problems.. and if she still cares for you and if you still want her, you can try. Don't waste your chance or hers..work on yourself and help her too....
I wish he would do it too....but I'm not that lucky.
From someone you loved unconditionally to someone you don’t recognize is heartbreaking
I know
he will always have a place in my heart.. and that place will always be bright and filled with love.. but i'm never gonna tell him.
When Hey there Delilah started playing it gave me fond memories of how my mom would play that and dance along with me and my sister while she made our favorite homemade pancakes. We'd all sing along since my mom loved that song so much. It's like 5 year old me knew it from the heart. She'd spin us around and dance with us as it got dark outside. We'd also listen to "I want candy" and "lollipop" kind of ironic since her name is actually Candy.
It was easier when it was just giggles with nothing to worry about.
I miss her so much.
being melancholic is hard sometimes, you know?
i miss him so much but i have to let go
same :/
@@retrokyla i hope that u find the strength to move on w your life and find the love you deserve! until then, we r in this together bb :/
3 years ago I was just a sophomore in high school. I fell in love with the most angelic girl I've ever known. These past few years were filled with pain, loss, anger, all because it just wasn't meant to be. I was not her person, that spot was reserved for another man. I come back and listen to this, so nostalgic, I'd cry to this and now I sit here thinking of the last. I smile, I'll always love her
I love him so much i can't stop thinking about him but he loves someone else and this sucks because i can't do anything to unlove him
Update: thanks loves
I think i'm over him finally
i promise, time will help you
i know exactly how you feel and it hurts..
I am on the exact same boat right now.
Avoid all what reminds you...
I feel u Ik he was losing feelings and everything too but I made if official for both of us and now I miss him so bad like I can’t stop thinking about him but that’s love hopefully or soon I’ll forget about him but I won’t forget I loved him and that type of love I loved him with was the best love I felt in so long but I really hope he forgets about me and I forget about him soon
Having a crush on my friend for 2 years now. We finally graduated now we got to part to a different college thinking about the man she will fall in love with just makes me so jealous. Thanks you for this playlist it made me really missing her only if she knew how much I love her.
pov: you like both girls and guys, but have to pretend to be straight and go by your birth pronouns and such around your best friends family. you have known her for 3 years and fell for her 2 years ago. the last relationship she had with a girl (your birth gender) she was grounded and never allowed to hangout with her or the other friends that weren’t straight. so you have to keep your mouth shut to stay friends. 2020 hits, your dog died, the one that’s literally been there before you were born, all your life. covid hits but you guys hangout every friday even tho you aren’t supposed to, but you never go outside in general and neither does she. you make it to 2021 with a few bad stories and the love for her growing still. you take the time to make something for her that would’ve costed 60-70 dollars had you not handsewed it (a hat) and she absolutely loved it. (that’s still 2020 tho). after new years you guys are vibing still, then one of her relatives dies from covid and other complications. then her dog (months later) has liver damage. her world is falling apart and yours is too with mental illnesses, relying on pills so you don’t relapse into bad habits, family members could die. then another of her relatives has covid. you literally cry from hearing this. you care about her and her family. then there’s the very likely possibility that she could move 3 states away and you could never see her again.
what would you do?
welcome to my situation.
no, I will literally cry, sorry that ur friend had to go through that and I am sorry that no one is there when they are supposed to. please continue to talk even though she is moving don't let it die...
@@chiomaopara6267 ima try, although she left me on read yesterday, i messaged her a cute lamb picture and she didn’t open it…so i think something is wrong. we still don’t know if she’s moving permanently, we all hope not but it’s a 50% chance and this is basically as if she has moved there. i’ll try to remember to update this whenever stuff happens but the grandmother is getting better luckily :D
“No matter the time or place. If it’s meant to be it’ll be. But that doesn’t mean that you can’t fight for them.”
Im so sorry you have to go through this ): (I send my love) and I hope you find a place that supports you and loves you for you and you never have to hide yourself again.
Hold on to her. Time flies when you’re measuring in years. I promise it does I wish I could go back. But I can’t. Struggle with her, fight for her, and when life stops throwing you punches for even half a second rejoice and celebrate with her. Just don’t let go
want to talk about it?
I’m not even heartbroken. I’m just tired..in every sense
That hit like a train.
Selo
Too tired to run away
Same
"Maybe in another world we fight all day,kiss all night...but I don't wanna break your heart you keep yours I keep mine"
-Nikki
:((
You don't know how happy I am when I heard ‘A Soulmate Who Wasn't Meant To Be’..
So many conflicting emotions. I just miss her and I wish things happened differently. I want another chance.
I feel you..
Replying here to remind you of your suffering, life does not get better hope you’re doing terribly
I miss her, so much, I did not know you could actually feel your heart breaking 💔
My soulmate who wasn't meant to be, I'll never be able to share this special story. But all you feel, I know what you're going trough. I love you all ❤
Chaisty williams
Chasitywilliams
Stranger. Stranger. Stranger. But also my soulmate.
There's a beauty in the fact that the next person is incomprehensible. That, there's no one better than her. There's so much beauty in that; I just can't see it because of the circumstances. Because someone's gonna come around and prove me wrong. I just hope I don't go crazy by then.
A couple weeks back, I loved someone that wasn't even my girlfriend. I treated her like she was one, I kept talking to her and when we talk I would smile genuinely. Even though she was far away from me I still loved her as much as I can. And then she ghosted me, I would see her online most of the times and see her post pics, She would interact with other people knowing i could see it in some cases. I just kept asking myself what did I do wrong? In the end I just accepted it, nothing good would happen if I kept on dwelling on it. This playlist really hits
wow, I loved you alot. The rooftop we laid on, that first kiss, comes back like memories of a great time, I still wonder where I went wrong. I really could never move on, it sucks. It's that one wound that was too deep. I can't cry about it anymore, as my mind let go long time ago. But my heart couldn't ever get past it. You are the right person, but we were at different times. Sunsets now missed without you. Now cigarettes just taste like you, a bitter scent that I just can't get rid of, yet I still come back to you, like I'm okay.
i dont want to move on. it hurts me but i dont want to move on because i can’t imagine being in love with anyone other than them.
love is so weird to me. it's so easy but so unobtainable. i lost the one person who i truly loved because they just decided i wasn't good enough. truly i don't ever think ill be good enough. i found another love that was perfect, but i threw it away on some thoughts and doubts. i regret every moment i live now without them. it's never going to be the right time for me. I'm always going to feel this way. The universe just decides i don't need love.
One day you’ll find someone that will change your mind abt love. you are good enough, you’re more than enough. Don’t doubt yourself, it wasn’t your fault. Some people have problems within themselves and it reflects on their character. Love yourself and you’ll find true happiness
Its hard to accept it when neither of our feelings ever left. We never broke up because she never wanted to admit that she was dating a girl..So we just loved each other. For sooo long. Until she felt to guilty to continue. She chose her families morals over her own happiness. I hate the idea of not being the one by her side, but I hate the idea of not being in her life way more. I love her more than words can describe, so I hope I get to see the day shes finally happy...even if its not with me. Because she deserves to be free.
It feels weirdly contentious to have heard all these songs already, yet it feels like a primary encounter.
We met when we were both at our lowest. I remember our late night calls that never seemed to come to an end. We spoke about what was wrong around us and how we were treated so unfair and different than others . I never felt so understood and appreciated as I did like how I felt with them. As many other people my age, I never realized that this would come to an end soon... it's funny how we never really labeled what we had together.... but they continued to reassure me that they loved me but I wasn't ready . After several days and arguments, we cut communication completely but I still remember how they were willing to wait for me but when I finally got the courage and maturity ..... I couldn't find them anymore. I felt frustrated selfish for putting their major issues aside when we were together. To be honest, i knew how they lied to not make me sad or angry for the people who did them wrong ... we weren't perfect but I can't help thinking about them . I hope they finally found a stable home like the one I had since forever and that they don't need to hide their emotions to satisfy people around them .
It breaks me to know we could have been so much more
"Once upon a time, in the same room of same house, 50 years apart
, Clay & George Davinson had loved eachother"
he's so in love with me, but i just can't be w him.
Hi, can I ask why? , bc you are not sharing his feelings or bc you are scared or bc of something else ?
have a great night , and even if maybe you are not going to be with him, i wish u a lot of love
Same feeling, :)
Same
and theres not a single day i dont feel guilty
@@anissaj9024 hii, i'm just scared that i'll hurt him because i don't deserve him :) and i don't like like him so i can't even talk to him without feeling "guilty". thankuu ,lots of love
To anyone with a good heart reading this listen up fr this is the key to life ..... don't look for love in ppl look for it in things that won't ever leave that will always keep you happy somehow no matter how hurt you are you will always have a happy place that gives you love for example go listen to music and listen to the ocean waves look at the sunset find something that you will love to do trust me you will know when u find that something you love I down have to explain how it feels you will just know that its love you'll feel it deep in your heart and you will always remember every detail of what you did at that' time
I let him go today.
I wanted to stay, he begged me to stay, but I couldn't do it anymore, living in unrequited love is incredibly painful. Having only his friendship wasn't enough for me anymore, not with this gaping wound he left behind when he chose someone else over me.
It was the hardest thing I ever done but it was necessary, I choose to be selfish for once, I choose myself over him for once.
I'm crying, I'm heartbroken...but I'm free.
Maybe I can truly heal this time.
Shall I make a song about you? Would that put my current boyfriend to shame? I haven't even made a song about him but my urge to write a song about our limited interaction is so strong that it hurts.
I broke up w my gf about month and a half ago, i made more than 5 songs. I can’t sing, but one of my friends can and he’s kindly use my lyrics so what I wrote could have more than a soul but a shape that people or at least me and her could hear. Everyone think the lyric’s good, not deep but... idk you just could feel it. Well it’s made out of heart and feelings that i pour in. So yeah, maybe if you guys wanted to check it out. It’s “stuck with you - mudhofar”. Please let me know what you think of it if you feel like listening to it. Thanks for this comment section, much love
I been a heartbreaker since he broke my heart. I use to think he was my soulmate , till I realised a soulmate is what you make it and how much power he/she has over you. Now his the one hungry for my attention and I feel nothing for him. But the damage is there I will never be the same again because of him. This playlist helps me reminisce the happy bits he stole from me.
emember the exact minute we got together..I can tell you where i was, what i was watching, the part of the video it was at and the way i was sitting. I sat up in excitement when they asked me to be with them. I can tell you where we first kissed and held hands and our first hug, I remember saying i love you for the first time. They were my first for everything. My first kiss, my first hug, the first person i ever held hands with..the first person who ever understood me for me. Even when they went to the mental hospital for 2 weeks..I never left their side, I never went to anybody else..I got my first job so I could get them surprises and little gifts. My family had never seen me smile before I had them.
he was the wrong person, but we needed someone so it was the right time for us.
I hate how my ex boyfriend was my best friend and now we don't even talk that much anymore 😒 and now he's doing all the things he did with me, with another girl. But I mean, as long as he's happy, it makes me happy 💛
listen to olivia rodrigo
@@Bia-b7z I do it all the time 😂
god if only he knew.
there's so many things I wish i could say to him, I've liked him for so many years at this point. he makes me so nervous when I see him i can't hold eye contact, he gives me a sense of warmth, a sense of love, my heart skips a thousand beats. the things that have happened with him, the memories we talked about making, the things we said we would do for each other, the late-night deep talks when he was hurting, the dorky jokes he would make. the way he makes me feel. it's unlike any other. i have to see him tomorrow and I'm so nervous
what if i say the wrong thing?
what if he thinks im annoying?
what if he hates me?
what if i do something wrong?
im always worried about what would happen, about losing him. there's something about him and. I still cant figure it out. i never knew why i liked him so much. there's so much about him i could go on for days but the more i think the more confused i get. he flirts with me like it's nothing and i cant tell if he's just messing with me. he acts completely oblivious to everything but there's no way he's as oblivious as he says he is right? like it's fairly obvious.
i texted him yesterday asking if he was going to homecoming and he just said "Idk maybe" and my best friend said she thinks he'd probably go if i asked him and i do want to ask him but i don't know if i should go through with it. he asked why i asked him and i just played it off as a just wondering situation, there's no way he didn't pick up on that right? like he may be a little dumb sometimes but everyone has those moments.
i listen to this when im doing my homework. Keep up the work!!!
everyone always tells you it was them. no one ever seems to be able to tell you it was you all along.
we both love each other but im broken af, idk when will i be okay... i gave everything and now i have nothing to give for him, needed to fix myself again..
no, I'm not fine. yes, yes i'm crying. thanks for the playlist, now i can spend the next two weeks crying
Rejection is so hard and sometimes you sit awake and wonder did I let the love of my life slip through my fingers but fate was supposed to have your back
I truly believe he was my first love, and the fact he was the right person but wrong time, the fact that distance was always going to be a huge factor. I still love him so much. He blocked me on everything which hurt me so much, I guess I was asking for to much but it hurts so much because I honestly thought he loved and cared for me but actions speak louder than words, I love you forever and always xx
This is beautiful. This made stand still before the mirror untill the end. Ask myself a lot of question, say things I've never worded before. Feel what I have but not expressed before.
This is on loop for the 3rd day now.
Thinking about the person that I fell inlove with but is in a faraway country from mine * insert f boy face *
Ugh me too
Samee
ugh same. do you overthink that he could meet someone near him that would make him more happier? because i do too and it's scary. my own brain is killing me
@@vivinriacahyani7511 yesss omg
@@vivinriacahyani7511 Exactly I’m scared she will find someone else and just go * ✌️ *
I
Believe there is never no perfect one or soulmate it’s what u make out of it that is truly perfect
hand over hand in the pl? please take my heart
Been stuck on this girl for years now, everytime i think ive moved on she finds her way back into my heart. We dated when i was in 6th grade and im not a senior in highschool. I have a girlfriend right now and we've been together for 2 and a half years and i love her more than anything but it feels wrong because im still stuck on an ex. Idk how i can love someone so much that causes me so much pain. Today she pretty much told me she was still stuck on me too. In the past year shes told me she loved me and that she thinks we're soul mates but everytime i think about it its like im being stabbed in the stomach. I dont know how to get her out of my mind
My memories are stuck in time
right person, wrong time but the person is now aliven't and you still yearn for them.
FLOWERS FROM 1970 VIBES 💚💙😭☎️📼🌼
then I hope I can interest into watching this video: ua-cam.com/video/wJO2-u3D9yI/v-deo.html
my first proper love is the definition of right person wrong time. I love her so much but it hurts so much when I talk to her. I can't stop thinking about how she's so much better than me and how she has gone through so much more than me. it hurts, I don't understand it. I don't know how to manage a relationship. I know this relationship won't work out long term but I don't know how to tell her. I'm so scared of hurting her. I don't even know if we're dating. We aren't just friends but it doesn't feel any more than that. She thinks we're dating but I don't want to date right now. I just want her to be my friend, i just want a friend. We were fine until I fucked it up. Until i started thinking about how she was so much better than me, until i started thinking about how i could be perfect if only i was her. She deserves so much more than me, she deserves the whole world. I'm so used to being alone, i don't know how to handle a close relationship like this. I'm too scared to say anything to her. it hurts
We dated each other for 2 years. We still love each other deeply and let each other know about our feelings, but our career paths don't match we can't take out time for each other so we decided to let go of each other. We're hopeful that when the time is right we'll be back together and this time for forever 💗🙂
Do you know what hurts more knowing you can't be with him and you reject him and he take blame on himself but you can't do anything but suffer in silence though you wanna run to his arms and just cry telling that how badly you wanna be with him but you can't and you don't wanna lose yourself anymore anymore
It's crazy when the girl I really liked was the only one I loved very much, and after a month of talking, I finally said it first, and we've been together for 7 months, we didn't have serious problems or anything, she broke up with me because I have mental health issues, depression, anxiety, crying while sleeping. When she broke up with me, it felt like my heart is broken, just like when I lost my mother. Maybe It is my fault for hiding my mental issues, but is it really my fault for trying to be happy and just live my life for a moment?
“The right man in the wrong place can make all the difference in the world.”
I’ve found this video again. I remember the last time I listened to this I was significantly more mentally ill than now. And I think I’m going to cry just remembering it
I can't believe I'm still crying after 5 months
it’s okay it’s been 2 years for me you’re not alone 😭💀
@@bubblebloodbath It sucks much much more 'cause I have a boyriend rn
We werent even in a relationship,we didnt even kiss or anything we were just friends for one summer but damn she is always on my mind and i realised it only when i returned home,wish i realised it sooner
it was hard letting my hard down with them, i did it after almost two years and i should’ve never believe that this one was staying, cuz they didn’t and i’m here crying in the dark while they’re partying with their new friends forgetting about me totally
People will always say "I will never leave you" ... until they leave.
"You are the only thing i think about every day, all day; whenever i look out of my window and quietly watch the stars you come to my mind, whenever i sit at school i think of you, whenever i sit in the train i think of you, i just always think about you, and only you, because that makes me happy, and because YOU make me so happy, you make me happier than anything else in this world my darling and i love you so so much, my love grows from day to day, it can hardly get any bigger, but it keeps getting bigger because you just get more and more wonderful and I get happier and happier: I LOVE YOU, MY DEAR, I LOVE YOU INFINITELY AND FROM MY WHOLE HEART AND YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY WHOLE LIFE, AND YOU WILL REMAIN THE LOVE OF MY LIFE FOREVER AND EVER"
That's what she said about a month ago.
Two days ago we broke up.
One thing she said: "You came into my life too early, at the wrong time".
I still want her back, and I still do anything I can to get her back..
It really hurt. I did everything I could for her but she ended up leaving me anyways. We're still friends because she was crying to me about how she didn't want to lose me. I should've tried harder to keep her mine. I want her back so bad. Deep down inside, my conscious still has hope that she'll probably get back with me one day but the reality is harsh, she's probably never going to get back with me no matter how hard I care for her. I'll never truly find someone else just like her. She was perfect to me, she was unique. Now on my ring finger where the promise ring was, it feels empty.
Hey 5 years 💕. See you soon again my greatest love.. our love will be remembered enternally and my heart will never forget you..
Masterpiece
Am reading in the comments how all these people have are had that someone who they felt for , and am here struggling to relate because I've never felt that way towards anything nor anyone before. I guess i am just incapable of feeling love , or getting attached , of needing someone. I want to , but i just can't...
i f love your playylist !!!!
*Flowers from 1970 flashbacks*
then I hope I can interest into watching this video: ua-cam.com/video/wJO2-u3D9yI/v-deo.html
Its has been 1 years and 2 month already. But ,i always remind myself, that he was never made for me, hes the most purest guy that i met and were both feel happy and ease being around each other. The world seems harsh on us, he wasnt mine in the first place. I should detach myself from him for his future. seems like were hurting each other in silence. Right person wrong timings hurts like hell. Its like waiting for it to end...i need to let go for the best of us. i hope im strong enough to let him go.. This relationship is so wrong..
i still remember when we met and we fell in love in an unexpected way... ill never forget you.. u are the best thing that ever happen in my life.
its me again. This is my 3rd year with him. Not sure if it was a good thing. But im happier now. Never expect we both lasted this long. Waiting for the end. I think i found a closure i needed when i wrote this 1 year ago.
Damn! how am i supposed to love after i have read all this comments
It hurts to fall in love with someone who doesn't even know you and who only sees you as one more fan, and I've tried not to look at him like that but it's hard.
Why why does love hurt so much, I'm soooo utterly in love with him sooo in love but he's leaving moving away and what am i supposed to do seeing him every two weeks is already soo hard and now im sitting here in tears once again cause I just miss him with my whole entire being ugh why doesnt love hurt
I guess i was just a summer thing for him, but he was so much more... *He still is*
i just got out of a relationship with a boy who i swear is my soulmate. we were in a long distance relationship and i struggle with those so hard but i tried my best. but i guess my best wasn't good enough. personal circumstances arose and we drifted apart. i swear if we met after covid ended and met up in person i would have ended up marrying the guy.
Fight for what your want and even if you don't win atheist grow from it don't dwell on the past or worry about what people think about you.instead put your mind inside a shell letting all negative thoughts be silenced and turn those thoughts into more happy thoughts
i love her more than i love myself
Just a soulmate. Yeah, just my soulmate.
I really don't have anyone to talk to about how I feel about him and how his memories are just hunting me and driving me insane I ended us because of the distance the age difference and I felt like we were in completely different places in our life we met the summer of 2019 in Mexico I lived in california he lived in Mexico but was moving to Portland to work we had a summer romance but it had to end when it was time for me to go back to the US we separated and for a whole year my love life completely stoped I couldn't see anyone attractive anymore all I dreamed of was to see him aging then finally we went back to Mexico at the same time we saw each other aging we couldn't stop ourselves from just running up to each other and hugging each other so tight finally kissing aging we started seeing each other aging knowing that by the time it would have to end aging it would be the most heart breaking moment but I couldn't stop myself from just completely falling more and more in love with him he was my best friend my lover he was like a dream but the happy dream came to an end after he had to go back to the US before he left I came to the realization that we can't be together in any way I told him that I was better if we just never talk aging because im about to turn 17 I need to focus on my school and getting a job so I have save up as fast as I can to get out of my dads home as soon as I can and he needs to focus on working and his problems its been a few months that we said goodbye but I just can't seem to move on even when I think that I finally moved on I find myself at night thinking and remembering everything that we went through I try so hard to keep him out of my mind but at this point It is the most incredibly hurtful thing to think about him but yet its also extremely hurtful to try and forget him im so lost right now I don't know what to
It's funny I've always talked about being a shit person when all the sweetest people have graced me with their time but I fucked up and suddenly they're gone most are fine but one girl I can get her out of my mind. Remember kissing her, I remember the time I made her cry and run away, now I can remember the times we've spent together and now it'll never happen again. It's funny how you don't miss things till they're gone and all I can remember is the good shit and how bittersweet it is and if anyone is reading this don't make my mistake stay together with those you love because it hurts when they're gone.
i am scared of letting people to be important to me i still haven’t gone through the pain the people i cared about caused me, but i can’t have that luxury i have no time i have to protect my future but at the cost of my present and the pain of my past i am so donde with my life but i have no reason to go. I only want to rest sleep dosnt help and i’m in and out of the doctor expecting to see my therapists whom is always too busy for me and i have nothing and no one i just want to feel needed and loved again.
i miss that little child that didn’t constantly think in ways of getting hurt of killed, the child that was inocente and stupid but happy, the child that didn’t know war nor pain, the child that didn’t understand what was going on until it was too late.. dealing with an alcoholic and drogadict, a narsisist and a bully will never be easy. specificity if you separate your problems they seem little and insignificant but there are sooo many of them that i am now trapped and they are so little but so many and so painful i know can’t keep writing cus seeing thoug tears is never easy i must forget love i mist forget friends i want to be free of pain but that will also kill your happiness but is better to feel numb that to feel PAIN and blood lust
His soul inside me even if he so far away from me
I mean, I don't miss her like miss miss but I miss the way she talked to me and how she EVERY single day remembered me that she "loved me" I miss talking to her until 6 am, I miss the way she looked at me but nothing was true, I was I distraction for her, she never loved me, she never cared about me, she never really meant the things she said, she manipulate me, its hard cause she was the first person who make me feel that way but its all gone, the laughs, the calls, the special moments are only in my mind even if it was only real for me...
He doesn't even know I still care for him. He'll probably never know.
"take care of those flowers for me ,wrong number"😭
i actually fall deeply inlove with one person like really, but we're too young :c
Love, you wildfire, leave my ashes in your wake. Melt my heart and char my brain- I’ll still love you just the same.
Love is not in the bliss of companionship but in the willingness to consume and be consumed by the other. Such a sinful flame, my Love- Burn.
I like to think that it is not our time, because if I accept that we are not for each other, I will lose the person that i love.
He's special but it's not for me.
2:32 this part really torn me into pieces 🥺
i never should've saidd i love you
you never said it back so why do i still care for u 💔
The end of the relationship was a mutual agreement, I loved her so much and yet we just weren't meant to be.
Years later I understand she was the right person... at the wrong time...
I never knew what love was or if it existed, and now I've never loved another person like her. Not even close.
I suppose I've become content with this. Content with being alone.
Perhaps its the reason I've never been interested in another relationship for years...
God I hope I can feel for someone again, the same way I felt for this girl. I think I'm getting tired of being lonely.
Would she have been the right girl if our bitter sweet departing hadn't been inevitable?
To this day, I would like to learned the hard way .
For the sake of memories, I chose to stand, for u. I rlly miss the old u:")
I miss you everyday...V..
It was a long distance relationship we didn't meet but I love him and he love me back and we try to be together but it was impossible ...i can't move on still thinking about him maybe I missed him or i just miss to be loved 🥺