Chaotic & unrestricted eating || meal plans, recovery binges || anorexia recovery
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- Опубліковано 13 жов 2024
- Hi! In this vid I talk about the reality of eating unrestricted and how chaotic that can feel- especially in the early stages of recovery. I also talk a little bit about why following a meal plan didn't work for me (but if it works for you, great!) and recovery 'binges'. Keep fighting, lots of love xxx
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Hi! Thanks for this video! i can resonate with so much of what you are saying..personally, i am fighting with anorexia and bulimia and yesterday (as many other times it has happened) i just ate such incredible amount of food because i know that my body is starving from all the restriction it has gone through so, it needs the food when it is there. It was a tremendous fight to just let it be and i was sitting on the couch trying not to react to the wish to go to the toilet and saw your video. To anyone who might be going through the same thing..really, you will survive! :) I managed..today i am alive and happy that i made one more step further taking the right decision. Yes, it is very overwhelming at the moment, very scary..but that moment will pass! And thank you for sharing this video because it helped me to just...accept what happened and sit with it! :) Keep going! You are doing super!
Hi! Ah this is amazing, well done! It takes so much strength to sit through feeling uncomfortable after eating lots, but it is possible and absolutely essential in recovery, and you did it! So well done! Keep it up :) You're right, your body needs these foods so keep on going despite those annoying ED thoughts. It does get easier eventually. Lots of love to you xx
I can relate a lot to this, it is really helpful. Thanks for being so open and sharing
My pleasure! xxx
Great video. Thank you. I can relate to so much of what you experienced. I like to start the day with a bowl of oatmeal but I beat myself up about the fact that this is just not enough and I need extras. I feel I eat so much already and I watch these “what I eat in a day “ videos and I beat myself up because what they eat wouldn’t even fill me up Of course I am fully researched into why this is so, but still I find it so hard to accept this. It doesn’t help when you find a therapist who tells you, you are over eating. She didn’t last long at all!
Hi! Thank you so much, Sarah. Haha it's funny you mention the bowl of oatmeal. My sis and I have remarked in the past how a lot of people on YT suggest starting the day with oats, but it NEVER satisfies either of us. A bowl of oats, plus something else (or several other things) is definitely required! Mm yes also relate to you with the therapist scenario. I think a lot of treatment providers aim for us to go from extreme restriction straight to 'normal' eating, not accounting for the fact that we actually need to eat LOADS (what others might perceive as 'overeating') before we can get to 'normal' eating. Keep going, it sounds like you know exactly what you need to do, just a matter of keeping on going and doing it. Lots of love xxx
This is so helpful. My eating has been very chaotic. I have so many concerns about binge eating. I was on a meal plan that created more anxiety for me than anything-same worries you had about getting enough and timing.
I used to be SO scared that I was bingeing and developing binge eating disorder. I read a helpful section of the 'Fuck It Diet' recently about BED which said that 'if you have ever restricted, then by definition you do not have BED.' Bingeing is a completely normal reaction from the body to restriction. The book also said that BED is extremely rare and usually only occurs when someone has a genetic condition that means they never feel satiation. So in sum, completely normal to be feasting when we've deprived our bodies of food in the past through restriction!
Meal plans opened a can of worms for me... a couple aspects helpful but for the most part not. Might have to do another vid on that topic!
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@Imran Leonidas i watch on Flixzone. Just search on google for it :)
@Josue Draven Definitely, have been watching on FlixZone for months myself :)
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I'm currently on the edge of just letting go and going all in but it feels so scary that I just freeze, all the what ifs and doubts and everything. GOSH I feel like i'm going insane, especially with my mental hunger. Like do I really need to eat every time you think about food? Does these constant food thoughts REALLY go away? And how do I still know without any guidelines that i'm eating enough because I just feel no full all the time? Yet I think about food 24/7 but the thought of eating makes me sick. Advice? So many questions spinning in my head right now. :( Sorry for this chaotic comment and question blob... :/ Anyways, I hope that you're doing great and have an awesome day !
Haha all good, your question blob makes complete sense to me- I remember being at that point myself. Might have to make a vid to address your question bc I think there's a lot in it and is a common sticking point for people in recovery. But to start with: YES eat every time you think about food. YES the constant food thoughts DO go away- it takes time and a LOT of food, but they will go. Basically, to know that you're eating enough, eat a lot, and then eat more than that. I so understand that 'thinking about food but the thought of eating makes me sick'. Been there! And what helped was... eating. Every time I thought of food, I had to eat. It's so hard, but SO SO WORTH IT. If I can do it, you can do it. The mental hunger drove me crazy, it is a HUGE relief to not think about food all the time now. Let go, and eat all the food
searchingforjewels thank you for this! 🙏🏻 and you know what? Yesterday I stopped counting and decided to just eat. Working on responding to my mental hunger also because currently i’m just full all the time but the food thoughts are there 24/7. But at least I have now made the decision and started, that was the hardest part. Also throwing away the food scale oml SUCH A RELIEF! And yes please make a video about mental hunger and all that jazz! 💕🙌🏻 love you 😘
@@ellis-4854 YES YES YES. So happy to hear this! WELL DONE :) eat eat eat and those food thoughts will go away. This comment has absolutely made my day- super proud of you! Will make a vid on mental hunger etc soon! lots of love to you too xx
I’ve been researching and reading a lot about unrestricted eating in order to recover completely because i’m honestly tired of the meal plan, it just didn’t seem normal to me, nobody healthy eats like that! But I’m concerned for two reasons, one because I can’t consult it with my therapist at the moment because of the Covid measures, or rather than consult just inform her that I will be doing this because I don’t want to be ill anymore, and secondly because I’m not necessarily extremely hungry or underweight but i do still think about food/ plan meals/ restrict my eating and I know thats not recovery. I guess obviously a part of me is worried I’m not “sick enough” to partake in unrestricted eating as I have already gone through treatment to restore my body weight .
Totally reasonable concerns! Though sounds like if you are still thinking about food a lot, then maybe you are underweight for your body! Your body is sending you signals through thoughts of food, telling you to go and eat! You don't need to be a certain weight or BMI to be 'sick enough' to eat unrestricted. As you know, you can't recover from a restrictive eating disorder while still restricting! It's scary at first, but absolutely 100% worth it for the mental freedom. Lots of love xx
I know, right ? Hang " meal plans" : too much like dieting. I still weigh my food,,, but this time it's to make sure I get ENOUGH calories
Yeah meal plans still felt disordered to me but for others maybe they are more helpful? I'm not sure. I would be a little worried about weighing food though, that's not something I did during my recovery journey and not something I do now either. I think it would have kept me a bit too focused on numbers. Everyone's journey is different though. Lots of love xxx