2 February 2025

A lot has gone on in a short space of time. I got a book with practical exercises for stroke patients and started on it. i can do it for so long then when i get tired theres a pressure in the top of my head is the only was to describe it. thats the time to stop and sleep.
Tomorrow is Ferdis 66th birthday so while going around Albert Heijn i stopped to get him flowers. at this point a child decided to have a screaming tantrum. it was, as usual a physical attack to me. ferdi yelled at the girl and parents because i couldnt control my actions anymore.
my instinct was to get the hell out of there. my stubbornness made me stay there to get the flowers.i handed them to the lady behind the counter and it took me a long time to communicate. when she understood she asked me "are you ok?". i responded no explaining the childs tantrum was like a physical attack. she was stunned, offered me a seat and water. the compassion of the lady hit me and it was wonderful to see somebody take time to care.
after that got home, slept and in the evening started getting my voice back.
sharp noise is still a shutdown button for me. i can laugh about it now because its better to find the humour rather than stamp my feet in frustration.