I'm super excited for you!!! Keep us updated on your journey. Take lots of pictures and start documenting now. This includes journaling your emotions. You'll be glad you did.
When I hit the 30 day mark on HRT, I was an emotional basket case. One aspect I didn’t expect, was learning you can feel sadness and elation at the same time. Fortunately the mania only lasted for about 10 days. Now I’m on an even keel, more in touch with my emotions. 20 months later, I couldn’t be any happier.
Lol just today I was starting to cry and had to explain to someone who felt bad for me that I loved it, but somehow had to squeeze out the words while also crying. It was awesome. I'm only 11 days on HRT.
That's literally what if feels like to be female, especially if a woman is on birth control. Estrogen and progesterone do crazy things. Sometimes I feel like my mind isn't my own! Lol.
I won't fight you.... Because you're right! (Kinda imo. It's not one of the best, because only time will tell, but I enjoyed it immensely. The show was just so cozy and intimate. I hope that they'll make a second season!)
Ahh love this so much ty for helping me start my Monday morning right!!! Just got through my first month on E and finding that I'm discovering insecurities about myself that I definitely knew I had, but addressing them has been clearer than ever. Painful yes but it feels like a psychological superpower lol. Very important for me to see representation of others going through a similar process to me! Thanks so much
I'm so glad to hear that this process is helping you confront some otherwise painful aspects in a constructive way. Yes, it is definitely painful at times, but getting through it can be so freeing. I'm happy you enjoyed the video. Hopefully, soon, I'll have more content up. Congrats on you first couple months of E!
my main mental change while on estrogen was that i became super super calm 🤔🤷♀ dunno if that's abnormal or anything, but that's what it is. no mood swings and stuff. and my emotions overall were more unlocked by my self acceptance as trans - so, the psychological work i'd done without any additional chemistry. the hormones don't seem to have contributed much in this regard. not directly, that is. the physical changes they are causing though... ☺...have indeed contributed to my increasing happiness a lot))
@jan_kisan over the years, and in the time since making this video, I noticed my anger is one emotion that seems to have subsided most. It's probably a mix of different things like age alkmg with hrt. But I used to be so quick to anger. Now it has shifted to other emotions during situations where anger would normally have been the forefront.
I had that shame of crying even when I was living as a woman. Fortunately t makes it so that the emotions are less overwhelming for me. I think this is better for me just as your journey has been beneficial for you.
I didn't necessarily find that my sexual orientation changed all that much. What did happen is that I started feeling free to explore my sexual interests more as a result of becoming comfortable deviating from social norms. The freedom that came with that can be very exciting and I think some people can conflate that with their orientation shifting. More specifically to your question, though, I have more 'queer' tendencies now than before in regards to sexual orientation.
Yes, I did enjoy very much , I am in transition into 13 month, I ' be being crying a lot , crying is nothing new . Teacher at elementary school wrote in report that I cry too often . But this cry , even tiny thing or anything could trigger to cry . So I was laughing when you are taking about different cry . Once I knew that this is part of transiton then I am ok with. . Thank you for sharing your experience .
Congrats on 13 months! Glad you enjoyed it. I was an emotional child that was quick to tears when I was young, too. After incessant bullying I learned to suppress the tears to the point where I had almost no emotional outlet. It's hard to tell whether the newfound ability to have that emotional release is from the hormones, or from the shedding of societal expectations and finally accepting the emotional freedom without the burden of public shame.
I wish you the absolute best of luck and I hope your process goes smoothly. Might I recommend taking all the proper steps and speaking with a mental health professional first to make sure it is absolutely the right thing for you before taking any drastic steps.
I prefer feeling hard to the numbness before HRT. And I will fight at your side on the She-Hulk hill. It slaps so hard and the ending does so much justice to the comics (She-Hulk smashed the 4th wall before Deadpool existed, though they both do it well and I want to see them together in a film, get on it Feige and Mouse).
G'day, Thanks for sharing your experience. Given through I haven't gone FT yet ($$, anxiety etc.), but have been on hormones for 10 years or so. I can say to you now, that for me, like everyone I do have my good days and bad, but I do feel more at ease with myself and more relaxed, with my body and one might say more normal. I feel more like myself and more like the person I would like to be and not this person who feels like I am not me. But I never really had a bad impact by the HRT and I agree, crying feels good.
You've probably heard this before, but everyone's transition is different. Do whatever makes you comfortable. No one should push you outside what makes you happy. I'm glad you're able to feel more comfortable in your own skin. Also, I totally understand the anxiety. I am affected by it more now than ever, but it's brought on by reasons I can control which is better than the alternative.
@@mackenzie4976 Whew! I am always afraid I will offend someone when I post comments. Sexual orientation and sexual preference do not always coincide. I myself love other women, cis or trans. Good to know that I did not offend through my comments. ☺
Sounds like a hormone imbalance! This is not normal for biological woman to cry at the drop of a hat, it is usually caused at time of spikes in estrogen! I as a biological woman had too much estrogen which causes suicidal thoughts and depressing thoughts! Probably why suicide is worse after transition! It is important to keep this in check and talk to your provider when the emotions get out of control because the dose of estrogen might be too high.
While the physical changes on HRT are most welcome the changes in my mind are the most profound. I'm just a completely different person and everything works better now. 18 months on HRT and just had an orchiectomy.🏳⚧
The mental changes have been surprisingly profound. I think there is a combination of both the hormonal effects AND overcoming self imposed mental blocks as we shed the societal expectations placed upon us. Congrats on getting your surgery. I hope you have a fast and smooth recovery. ❤
@@mackenzie4976 Yes, perhaps some of the change can be attributed to no longer playing a suicidal caricature of masculinity and not even realizing it was an act. My wife misses dead-name, but much prefers happy me. The procedure was Friday, and I suppose all is going as expected, thanks! 💛🧡❤
My hormones come friday so excited!
I'm super excited for you!!! Keep us updated on your journey. Take lots of pictures and start documenting now. This includes journaling your emotions. You'll be glad you did.
You explained the unlocking of emotions by HRT so clearly, thanks!
I'm glad you think so. I've spent a lot of time deconstructing these obscure things we call 'emotions' in my head. 😄
When I hit the 30 day mark on HRT, I was an emotional basket case. One aspect I didn’t expect, was learning you can feel sadness and elation at the same time. Fortunately the mania only lasted for about 10 days. Now I’m on an even keel, more in touch with my emotions. 20 months later, I couldn’t be any happier.
The first time it really hits can definitely be super overwhelming and exhilarating. I'm glad you've found balance with your emotions and enjoying it!
Lol just today I was starting to cry and had to explain to someone who felt bad for me that I loved it, but somehow had to squeeze out the words while also crying. It was awesome. I'm only 11 days on HRT.
That's literally what if feels like to be female, especially if a woman is on birth control. Estrogen and progesterone do crazy things. Sometimes I feel like my mind isn't my own! Lol.
I should be starting hormones next week I am SO EXCITED!!!
Congratulations! What an exciting time! Enjoy the ride. 😉
You have such a wonderful way of expressing yourself. It is a joy to watch your videos!!!
Thank you so much! I'm glad you are enjoying them! More to come. :)
I won't fight you.... Because you're right! (Kinda imo. It's not one of the best, because only time will tell, but I enjoyed it immensely. The show was just so cozy and intimate. I hope that they'll make a second season!)
Ahh love this so much ty for helping me start my Monday morning right!!! Just got through my first month on E and finding that I'm discovering insecurities about myself that I definitely knew I had, but addressing them has been clearer than ever. Painful yes but it feels like a psychological superpower lol. Very important for me to see representation of others going through a similar process to me! Thanks so much
I'm so glad to hear that this process is helping you confront some otherwise painful aspects in a constructive way. Yes, it is definitely painful at times, but getting through it can be so freeing. I'm happy you enjoyed the video. Hopefully, soon, I'll have more content up. Congrats on you first couple months of E!
my main mental change while on estrogen was that i became super super calm 🤔🤷♀ dunno if that's abnormal or anything, but that's what it is. no mood swings and stuff. and my emotions overall were more unlocked by my self acceptance as trans - so, the psychological work i'd done without any additional chemistry. the hormones don't seem to have contributed much in this regard. not directly, that is. the physical changes they are causing though... ☺...have indeed contributed to my increasing happiness a lot))
@jan_kisan over the years, and in the time since making this video, I noticed my anger is one emotion that seems to have subsided most. It's probably a mix of different things like age alkmg with hrt. But I used to be so quick to anger. Now it has shifted to other emotions during situations where anger would normally have been the forefront.
very well put. Also like She Hulk
Thank you. Also, I thought She Hulk was a decent show after the fact. Not Marvel's greatest outing, but not terrible.
I had that shame of crying even when I was living as a woman.
Fortunately t makes it so that the emotions are less overwhelming for me.
I think this is better for me just as your journey has been beneficial for you.
I also heard sexual orientation can change too. Did you find this too after a few months on hormones
I didn't necessarily find that my sexual orientation changed all that much. What did happen is that I started feeling free to explore my sexual interests more as a result of becoming comfortable deviating from social norms. The freedom that came with that can be very exciting and I think some people can conflate that with their orientation shifting. More specifically to your question, though, I have more 'queer' tendencies now than before in regards to sexual orientation.
Yes, I did enjoy very much , I am in transition into 13 month, I ' be being crying a lot , crying is nothing new . Teacher at elementary school wrote in report that I cry too often . But this cry , even tiny thing or anything could trigger to cry . So I was laughing when you are taking about different cry . Once I knew that this is part of transiton then I am ok with. . Thank you for sharing your experience .
Congrats on 13 months! Glad you enjoyed it. I was an emotional child that was quick to tears when I was young, too. After incessant bullying I learned to suppress the tears to the point where I had almost no emotional outlet. It's hard to tell whether the newfound ability to have that emotional release is from the hormones, or from the shedding of societal expectations and finally accepting the emotional freedom without the burden of public shame.
I saw your thing on UA-cam and I'm going to try and start with h r t and see how things go
I wish you the absolute best of luck and I hope your process goes smoothly. Might I recommend taking all the proper steps and speaking with a mental health professional first to make sure it is absolutely the right thing for you before taking any drastic steps.
I prefer feeling hard to the numbness before HRT.
And I will fight at your side on the She-Hulk hill. It slaps so hard and the ending does so much justice to the comics (She-Hulk smashed the 4th wall before Deadpool existed, though they both do it well and I want to see them together in a film, get on it Feige and Mouse).
I was pleasantly surprised with the absurdity that was the entirety of She Hulk. That ending definitely fit the character.
I wish you did more videos like this. 😊😊😊
I'm considering an updated take since it has been a year.
G'day, Thanks for sharing your experience. Given through I haven't gone FT yet ($$, anxiety etc.), but have been on hormones for 10 years or so. I can say to you now, that for me, like everyone I do have my good days and bad, but I do feel more at ease with myself and more relaxed, with my body and one might say more normal.
I feel more like myself and more like the person I would like to be and not this person who feels like I am not me. But I never really had a bad impact by the HRT and I agree, crying feels good.
You've probably heard this before, but everyone's transition is different. Do whatever makes you comfortable. No one should push you outside what makes you happy. I'm glad you're able to feel more comfortable in your own skin. Also, I totally understand the anxiety. I am affected by it more now than ever, but it's brought on by reasons I can control which is better than the alternative.
I hope this does not sound like some sort of lesbian come on, but you are do damned cute!
Beautiful eyes!!!
Awww thank you from the bottom of my little gay heart!
@@mackenzie4976 Whew! I am always afraid I will offend someone when I post comments. Sexual orientation and sexual preference do not always coincide.
I myself love other women, cis or trans. Good to know that I did not offend through my comments. ☺
Thank you for sharing your experience. I totally get the "boys don't cry" feeling and the fact, that other people also consider that as a weakness.
I’m really looking forward to your updated video. Thanks! 🫶🏾
You seem like a really lovely person.
Aw thank you!
Sounds like a hormone imbalance! This is not normal for biological woman to cry at the drop of a hat, it is usually caused at time of spikes in estrogen! I as a biological woman had too much estrogen which causes suicidal thoughts and depressing thoughts! Probably why suicide is worse after transition! It is important to keep this in check and talk to your provider when the emotions get out of control because the dose of estrogen might be too high.
It is normal/common to feel that way during PMS or while on birth control. It's something bio woman experience on a regular basis.
While the physical changes on HRT are most welcome the changes in my mind are the most profound. I'm just a completely different person and everything works better now. 18 months on HRT and just had an orchiectomy.🏳⚧
The mental changes have been surprisingly profound. I think there is a combination of both the hormonal effects AND overcoming self imposed mental blocks as we shed the societal expectations placed upon us. Congrats on getting your surgery. I hope you have a fast and smooth recovery. ❤
@@mackenzie4976 Yes, perhaps some of the change can be attributed to no longer playing a suicidal caricature of masculinity and not even realizing it was an act. My wife misses dead-name, but much prefers happy me. The procedure was Friday, and I suppose all is going as expected, thanks! 💛🧡❤