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Thank you for delineating fear & mind against distractions -- have observed limerence and suspected near histrionic reality distorting in surrounding parties around my case - which constituted myself & a partner of over 25 years. Many of said parties went so far as to draw into question my fidelity & acts/works of love+caring let alone planning for the soon cementing of a future once simply meeting of a core, critical need was met. This video was a part of completing more of the puzzle of confusion. It's amazing how there wasn't a consideration for time-scales, accurate sight reading and/or listening for fidelity, as it were, when it came to critical nuances that were used to base their decisions in "advising" or at least a weak attempt at preserving their sense of being "right" / correct in what seems to have turned out to be a gathering of narcissist's agents in light of their lack of due diligence since I had to be the person to afford the information they needed as infill after the fact at which time, to some of their credit, I did observe a modicum ability to exercise reappraisal. At some point, I just have to accept some will choose whatever it is they think is their concept of ~"siding with family" especially when that's how my absence was used as a Centerpiece to so easily write me out of it their Acceptance and involvement for whatever it is they exchange in services along the way. The level of "decision making" (which I would reclassify as "presumption making") that was attained while barely having ever talked to me is astounding. Conversely, the above *_is proven_* because of how little conversation was needed with me from some parties to afford them their reappraisal opportunity for which they were appreciative not to mention brought to reframe in so little an effort and in such a short time.
Do you have any videos loaded about individuation between child/sibling and family when it comes to what should be ownership of their S.O. relationship? Thank you so much for all you have done. 👍
Sometimes its hard hear what your intuition is telling you. My intuition told me and continues to tell me that I need to keep away from my mother as much as possible to be well.
I have light bulb moments when I am gardening... taking weeds out and not thinking about anything. Or when I am driving a known road. Intuition kicks in when something is not matching (words, face expressions and gestures from somebody) or isn't congruent (former stories and statements now).
When living with my narcissistic ex husband I had a lot of fear, however your explanation between fear and intuition made things a bit clearer as I also had strong moments of intuition telling me you need to go you need to get out. My intuition was right but my fearful mind kept interrupting. Thanks Meredith 🙏
I struggle with this all the time. I admit fear gets in my way and my intuition tells me the truth but I’m held back by fear and then I’m paralyzed. SHOW ME THE WAY is going to be my mantra.
In the eight year relationship with a covert narcissist, step by step, week by week, I gave up completely listening to my intuition which had guided me reasonably well in my endeavors, however extremely unevenly in my relationships thus far. Seven years into it, as Meredith described, I became sick with acute pneumonia on a trip to Los Angeles. The pain was so excruciating I could hardly walk, getting into the driver seat was an ordeal. When she let me drive myself to the emergency room alone at 2:00 am, since she found no good reason to come along, I had a frying pan to the head moment. We eventually made it home, and in a brief moment of sanity I moved out. But I didn't last long away from the kids, so I returned and missed the opportunity to leave for good. I went back for more punishment and the final discard fifteen months later was more like a wrecking ball to the head moment. I finally saw the light. Now, I really listen to my intuition. I recommend following Meredith's advice sooner than later.
WOW! I am in total amazement right now. I have truly matured in my journey of self Love and self healing, and recovery hearing this video right now, at this moment, and understanding every word. True healing continues to manifest and thrive in me in 7 very long, yet short months of NO CONTACT WOW!!!
I am so glad you posted this. I needed to hear about the ruminating. I was triggered last week and went into a very fearful place where I turned my back on a very good friend. Thankfully my friend understands I am healing and was still there for me when I realised I was just stuck in a spiral of fear and paranoia. I got sick too like you say which forced me to sleep more than usual, dream and cocoon. Then the fear just seemed to disappear in the night eventually. I think I understand how to recognise it for what it is better now. Thanks to you Meredith.
Wow this is exactly what happened to me. So much overwhelming me that i need to do- need a daycare, new apt, new job, my moms pushing my abuser back into my life no matter how much ive confronted her on it, my health issues make it hard to enjoy my kids, and nothing's moving and i keep thinking my old distractions would give me a break in order to address lifes business but they havent done it. Then i just "fell into a black hole" this past week and dont want to get out of bed. Then my neck got stiff, ive had the worst headache for days, i got allergies or a cold or something now and i just want to give up. So yeah its true when you said basically that life will rest you, stop you. Please pray for me and believe for my breakthrough in all areas.
Thank God you decided to go on your trip! You would have regretted it if you didn't go! Move a muscle and change a thought! Some times you just have to get up and GO ! Great video...a lot of information so I'm going to have to watch it again! God bless you!
Thank you for this clarification. It is so easy to fall for the trap of convincing ourselves that we need to ruminate in order “figure it out” but as you so well explained that is NOT the way to move forward. Thank you to infinity. 🙏❤️
WOW......so so good. Thank you Meredith!!!!! Gonna listen again. Enjoy beautiful nature surrounding you. I love you, u are so Gifted.........you’re saving my life. 💜 I’m actually drained laying in bed from Working a job that’s just not me anymore, I don’t even have time for exercise anymore because of my job and that’s what keeps me sane. I’m giving my two week notice I can’t wait!!
I get confused in relationships. if they're being especially nice, I feel obligated to them. If they are neutral or I don't hear from them for a while, they decided I'm not worth it. I am finding that it is a result of how my parents treated me and it is not the case with normal people. Neutral is such a relief. My intuition is now responding more appropriately to overly nice people and figuring out that when eople aren't gushing over me, it doesn't mean they don't like me. I tend to get a feeling of dread that happens constantly, always feeling like I'm going to get in trouble for no reason, even when I am doing dishes. If I slow myself down, rremember why I feel this way, repeat that I'm okay and tell myself that I am allowed to do things the way I want, I can calm down my nervous system. A calmer nervous system seems to make me feel more open to intuition. Curiosity does help me to reduce the fear. I remember liking to figure things out as a child. But, I was taught that if I didn't know or learn something fast enough, I may as well not bother. And I was taught to fear something different, not be curious. What's interesting is, my brother says that the ruminating is our feelings running amok and we need to rationalize more. He's a big facts over feelings guy. It doesn't help that we've always felt we were walking on eggshells to avoid hurting our mother's feelings. As always, your insight is much appreciated Meredith 💕
I also relate to your story a bit, particularly about feeling like you’re always doing something wrong... even though you’re totally not. 😕 I’ve been changing my self talk more, also, and finding definite relief in telling myself to slow down as well. Thanks for sharing. I enjoyed reading your perspective. :)
Wow. Reading about how you were navigating your perspective and initial proclivity has really provided a lot of insight and opportunity for self reflection here as well as my interactions with & reading others. Thank you.
Wow this was spot on. So helpful! I've done both ruminating and experienced those downloads where you have immense clarity on a situation. The ruminating keeps you stuck but those downloads set you free! I woke up one morning and I just knew I was gonna lose my kids if I didn't leave my abusive relationship. I was so thankful for the insight that helped push me to be brave enough to leave.
Hi Meredith! I miss you. I haven’t seen you on UA-cam as much and you helped me so much in 2018 get passed a Narcissist relationship and detaching from my Narcissist family! It’s like the Universe directed me to this message. I needed this!!! Now it makes sense. My ruminating is beyond and it’s been a situation I have been ruminating about for a couple of months now and it has driven me in a very bad place, although my gut has told me otherwise. After listening to this message, it’s very clear to me what I need to do. Being fear based will never result in a great outcome. As you stated, it’s the enemy’s way of trying to stop me in the direction the Universe is calling me towards. I am forever grateful to you, you helped me out of the darkest period of my life through your videos and I can never thank you enough. Enjoy your trip!
KL W hi, I just wanted to let you know that I really like your comment and I wish you well on your healing journey. ☺️ it’s difficult at many points, and Meredith has helped me more than I can even say with her videos and information.
It often happens to me that I wake up in the morning and I know the answer or something just springs to my mind. It is only a few minutes before I get distracted and busy with the daily tasks. I started a new job on Monday. During that day I noticed some red flags with the coworker I have to work with like a smirk and a strange grin. Later he almost always took the other side when I said something. He mainly showed me something on a computer, but didn't explain much and often said only one-word sentences. It was a confusing day. It didn't get better on Tuesday. On Wednesday morning I knew I have to quit this job. So on Thursday I handed in my notice. It must be a coincidence (or not) that your video "Shift Your Story" ua-cam.com/video/z7ZW7JurA7Q/v-deo.html, which came out exactly 3 years ago, reveals something to me about this week as well. I like the ocean view from this elevated point, so an extra thumbs up for this too. I wish you a wonderful day and a relaxing time there.
Ruminating fear is the closest thing I've heard to describing dooms-day preppers. A theme with the people surrounding my life rn. Ty for this understanding.
Your videos came into my life about three years ago at a time when I really needed them. My life and my soul had reached the deepest point ever. Your videos really helped me to process the pain and sadness and also comprehend NPD's better. The Fuits that I recieved were very good and I nourished the seeds. The information has equipped me with tools and armour that has and is still protecting me. I want to thank you with all my heart and wish you the best in your life!
I love that you decided to go and not stay at home, that is more inspirational to whoever is watching this video, more than you know!! There is so much that I'd love to achieve. I have multiple health issues: M.E. , fibromyalgia, hypermobility, graves disease with thyroid eye disease etc etc so I have to do the basics for our two children and hubby (my hubby is super supportive btw and helps our tonnes whilst still holding down a full time job) . He is the reason and strength that keeps me going, that kept me grounded and strong enough to release myself from the clutches of my imo narcissist mother. I have a lot of time to think due to having to rest up but not much energy if at all, to complete things (or even start some things) but I am determined, I feel its important to for getting myself back now I have such love surrounding me now. I feel what I aim to do has a greater meaning than I realise and hopefully could help others, which I would love. You're an inspiration, thank you. It may take me a while to get to my destination, but it's all about the journey right!?! Sending gentle hugz xXx 💜💙💜
I want to go on a yoga retreat in Costa Rica this year. I have never traveled to another country and the ruminating is trying to stop me, but I can feel it in my soul that I need to go. I get chills everytime I think about the amazing experience I will be apart of. I will watch this a few times and get out of my head.
hi again meredith. i just finished the video. i became teary eyed hearing that you almost didn't go on your trip. i was also surprised. because looking at you, listening to you, getting to know you through social media, and yes i know your horrible experience with your mom and ex, and such, but anyway, i would have NEVER (my stories that i made up about you) guessed that you had fear going on this trip. SO, thank you again for sharing your life with us. big hug. Oh, and bc of watching this, i am going to follow through with going to a women's only chanting today at 4pm eventhough i want to stay home.
"intuition" is a nickname for your inner feeling, which is moved by God, who loves you and always gives you guidance throughout your life. by being relaxed, and not letting your mind or heart run the show, but instead being attentive or aware, so that when your inner feeling is moved by God, you follow it, then God will lead you so that you will have a positive life for you and your soul :)
Oh Meredith. What a timely video. I’ve been so sick for 3 weeks. Going through massive change and breakthrough. Finding myself and listening to myself finally. Thank you so much for this incredible understanding that has really helped me. ‘Show me the way’. I love it.
Awe your video came right on time for me. God bless you. It is very important that you share your knowledge and wisdom from God. I know some people say the universe, but I always give glory to God/Holy Spirit.
This video gave me goosebumps 💛 I have been thinking about my intuition a these past couple weeks as I am wanting to tap into it more often and to notice like you say if it’s rational thoughts or my actual intuition... it’s no coincidence this is what your video is on today. This content is needed. Thank you Meredith 🙏
Thank you for teaching me why fear comes up and what we should learn from it.That knowledgeable is worth more than gold. I am currently in a new incredible relationship like I’ve never known and i feel like it’s testing me sometimes,in a beautiful way. It’s helping me grow and I really appreciate your videos. This one in particular
So great to see you and in such a beautiful location!! Good for you for enjoying your life. Since listening to you for about a year, finally I’ve had a break through and I’m ready to write a new, positive chapter in my life. For the past 3 and 1/2 years I’ve been depressed and spent so many hours ruminating and being fearful and miserable in a very toxic marriage. Finally, my physical body could not take it anymore. I was having heart palpitations so severely that I felt like I could barely breath. I visited a good friend, who is a RN, Nurse Practitioner, she told me she felt like my situation was taking a toll on my health. I saw a lawyer just a couple of weeks later after talking with her. My divorce should be final by April 1st. I feel such relief. I’m sure I can survive, even thrive on my own. Thx for your help💕
Hello Meredith, thank you, again, for all the amazing work you do. I was wondering for you could do a video on grooming, in life in general, not just between couples? Like could you touch on how it happens to children at home, in school and that to adults in society, politics and work places? That would be great if you’d dedicate a video to that topic!
Great topic and so important. I think a lot of people, myself included have had trouble with discerning these two things. It takes a lot of practice for me. Thanks for putting this together and then proving your own point by taping in front of that beautiful beach scene! How awesome is that? Great decision! I'm feeling happy for your magnificent experience.
Thank you Meredith for your dedication in helping people understand ourselves and the world we are living in. Congratulations for going on your vacation, and thank you for sharing a part of it with us. You are glowing!
This is related to Gay Henricks Upper Limit Belief. Our subconscious is primed for certain situations and to receive a certain amount of something. When we attempt to go past that limit, the fear hits. Drowning out all intuition
Very helpful video, I feel much more relaxed now that I understand better my issues (one of which is fear), and that part with keeping your head down and the giving up to which the enemy is calling you, I can relate to it so accurately. Thank you so much for the work you're doing and for opening my eyes to the invisible evil that is happening to me. I thank God that I've found your videos couple of months ago
thank you for posting this, you are very in tune with cosmic? forces in the air...as this is exactly the 2 fold emotional tug of war i had last weekend. And the interesting part, i am now recognizing is how fast I fell back into 'dumb dumb' mode AFTER an encounter with a woman in my building, i know believe is an covert narcissist. I was up, positive, getting things back on track...then ran into her, did not recognize until today, how the conversation i had last friday in the elevator, had ACTUALLY effected my entire week. I knew something was off, not myself this past week, but with the flu going around i dismissed it. BUT my dreams {intuition?} were showing fear based stuff, and I thought that really odd. Why was i dreaming of such crap? When i could totally let go of the fears / anxiety, my subconscious was telling me it had to do with 2 ppl in this building. Throughout the week, i avoided them. This past week I found my self worth had gone down the toilet, my confidence at my ability to do my job was waning. And there was a smell that made me nauseous when bummed, whenever I had thoughts of the conversations i had had with either of these women, there was this 'smell', that made me sick to my stomach, and gagging.and with that a fatigue? Does narcissism have a smell? Listening to your video, i am starting to remember the BS said by each of these women i ran into on Friday, then the other on Saturday; and i now believe it is them that had subconsciously influenced me. The covert words used, the subtle praises and insults in same sentence, all of this is coming up. Friday i was outside with the pup, having just got off work and having taken cough syrup. Out comes Mrs. "X" to smoke, she tells me i don't look well, i should not be outside in my state. You look drunk she says, you could get evicted. If anyone reports you, you'll be in trouble, she says. I think, "wtf", feel intense desire to get away from her, but then immediately find self worried about this, so take puppy inside. Then fall asleep soon after, restless fear based sleep dreams and anxiety. Slept almost 15 hours. When i got up, late Saturday afternoon ran into Mrs "Y", All she says to me, is i shouldn't drink, you are such a bitch when you drink. As i went to say i am not drunk, i had just taken cough medicine, she raised her voice, saying 'don't lie to me', then processed to tell me 'what my problems are'. I immediately worried this cough medicine was making me sick, should stop taking it. And at same time, an urge to tell this woman where to go and how to get there. Startled because this is not how i'd act, i dismissed it again as the influence of cough medicine and the flu. So i quickly left. I was literally up all night Saturday, unable to sleep due to 'insomnia', insomnia due to horrible thoughts, images, physical discomforts....fall asleep...wake up...fall asleep...wake up....close my eyes, start to fall asleep, but then body would wake self up because of monster imagery as if i was in a movie chased by horrible monsters...Hence I was up all night, and had to call in sick the next day. This morning i ran into both of them outside at the same time! At this point, i 'knew' they were friends, and was weary to let the pup go for pee, just to avoid them. Why? What did my subconscious know? My physical reaction near them was hesitation, & 2 things occured - i should play stupid and just walk to other entrance to building to avoid them. Then, "no", i shouldn't change how i live my life to ....YET this time aware of how my body language changed, and how i felt inferior I acted around them, esp. Mrs. Y....when i asked them a question. RED FLAG. As they answered, I played 'grey rock' and watched them contradict themselves in front of me, lied, lots of lies, to each other, but more like their story 'changed' 3 times in the 15 mins i met with them outside. I never said a word, they just spoke back and forth, and undermined the very answers they had given me moments earlier, probably assuming i was a moron. The one thing i have recognized is that mrs. X was easier to talk to before her 'friendship with Mrs. Y'. I did wonder why last Sunday i was so sick, couldn't get out bed, not like me. Figured it was the flu, so stayed in bed, rested, and just 'processed' my thoughts, fear images, and focused on getting over the 'flu'. But after what i just heard between these 2, i believe they are the culprits behind the dissent occuring in the building. Is it possible one is the narc and other flying monkey or ??? Is it possible Mrs X is a Narcissist and Mrs Y a socio? I am realizing today the duo remind me of 2 women i lived with 9 years ago. And yet my question to you is - whom in my childhood could this 'duo' reflect? I know if i can ID this, I can confront that part of my past, hence break the ties that bind us! I used to work with Mrs. X long ago, and quit job because of her. Bit by bit i ended up doing her job because of her 'injuries', and knew from staff i was being used. So i left, but then months later she moves into my building. I could still deal with her, "she" was different here than at work. Near Xmas, she had an accident walking her dog, fell because dog lunged at a rabbit, and couldn't work. We got along then too. More so than at work, and started to think that perhaps Mrs. Z at work was behind why she was getting me to do her work, so she could sit on her butt. So during her time at home, Mrs. X was 'normal', a true friend. But at some point between mid Dec & start of February, "she changed". Mrs. X quit her job & Mrs. Y started walking her dog. Mrs. Y was around all the time, too much of the time. Mrs. X told me Mrs. Y offered to look after the puppy. Within weeks, both of Mrs. X's roommates gave notice to move out. Prior to this, they had walked the puppy. Everytime i was talking with Mrs. X outside, Mrs. Y showed up. From the time I noticed Mrs. Y walking the puppy, there was a ???? in the air towards Mrs. Y and the room mates {whom had always been involved in the dog's care}. Anyway, after a long letter...today I think i witnessed the "devotion" phenomenon; control factor; in play....when i asked Mrs. X if i could bum a cig, she "looked at" Mrs. Y. Paused. Started to tremble, then looked at Mrs. Y again. Then told me, no, but you can have whatever i have left'...That's when the weird dialogue took place.... yes, WEIRD conversation between the two occurred. I said okay. Why? no idea, because i was sad, wanted to leave, go back to bed, but something inside of me told me to stay and 'wait' for whatever she would give me. weird. I have money, can get my own, so why did i stay there? Then, i felt it was beggars point of view, but now i think it was my intuition telling me i need to see the truth. Playing grey rock, Y asks X what she is doing later. X says she has to go get groceries, she wants Doritos. She looks at me. Then X says she has chips, not Doritios, but corn chips, would that do. X says sure. Then X says I need cigs, only have....Y says after I get up from my nap i will go get you some. X says 'ok'. I offer to walk and go get them now, walk there. X looks at Y, then says no, she can wait. WHAT THE PHUK? Even at work, Mrs. X Has never, ever, ever acted like this. Ever. BUT the very, VERY subtle thing i witnessed told me EVERYTHING I needed to know/see about things of why ? of ? this dynamic....and I kind of worry about Mrs. X now {even though she has been mean to me all month}, as i have never seen her "do" a particular behavior before, even when i worked with her....So now i wonder what intensity had happened that would cause Mrs. X's room mates to both give notice, after befriending Mrs. Y. Because now, Mrs. X has to come up with full rent vs a third. And yet she can't/won't/doesn't see it. She is blaming her roomies vs seeing how Mrs. Y probably was behind the dissent. It sucks because if Mrs. X is a flying Monkey, she will never 'hear me', or even her own kids. Anyway back to my story....where do i look in my childhood for clues as to this relationship dynamic? Was it my mother and her BFF? Was it a friend i had in elementary school corrupted by another? The one pattern i have been able to backtrack is the duo going back to a woman i worked for {one side part part of duo}, but i've always asked Self, why would I let Mrs. Blaauw treat me like sh-t, using others to...? How do i find source wound?
Wow, I don't know how to put it into words yet...what I am experiencing from this /your video. I will get back to you and fellow survivors as soon as I can identify and explain/express it. TYSM, Meredith!
From my first meeting with my narc. I felt nervous around her. As I got to know her as a friend I ignored this uneasy feeling. As I was being beautifully lovebombed I suppressed my inner feelings about this person. I felt something was wrong the first time I disagreed with her but again made excuses as by this time she had me totally brainwashed and sucked in. So I stood by her in public and private until the day came that I was no longer of use to her. I stood up to her and the unmasked narc cruel ugly and angry manifested herself. Suddenly I saw why my inner voice my intuition had been constantly nagging at me and tried to show me that the narc was not a good person and that she did not deserve me as a friend. All she wanted to do was exploit and manipulate me for her own gain both professional and private. Almost 3 years later of no contact I see I should have done what my intuition warned me to do. I should have got out and away before the narc got a chance to suck me in and then spit me out when I'd outlived my usefulness
Great insights! Thankfully you did get out. And now that lesson will serve you in the future if you ever get that feeling again. It’s so hard to trust the intuition when we have no proof. But the feeling is often the only proof at that moment. Often when we wait for external proof, that’s when we later say “I should’ve left sooner”.
Ah that's a fun synchronization. I'm not sure if you're aware, but the word "Way" is a translation of the word "Dao" which is a key concept in Daoism. It means the essence of the universe, the source, and according to my interpetation the higher self to which you refered to. If you did not know this, now you do. Great content as always, beautiful :)
You understand me at another level. Dao is one of the characters in a tattoo I have. A Chinese mentor gave me a name with 4 characters and part of my name is about following the dao.
@@InnerIntegration Indeed, 'I' certainly do understand me :) i want you to know that you really helped me get through some though fucking shit. You're saving the world here. Thank you. And we'll meet in the end, where you wrote this
My narcissist made an accusation that is considered a felony. She did this after I asked her if we could discontinue doggy play dates. I found her to be very critical and bossy which is why I said it to her. I'm not lying or exaggerating or in any way looking for attention. This is the absolute truth!! I've never seen Met or heard of anyone like her it's been two years of hell
I like this video... but I am not sure that everything you said is completely right but I certainly appreciate that you offer your point of view...thank you for this!
That's true, sometimes you just know by what actually happens. Other times you think you know yet it does not happen. Know the difference. Some people keep on reliving the same experience over & over. If that experience never come to fruition then you know its not real. Most feelings or intuition that comes Universe actually happens. It's not something that keep on repeating itself & no results. That what I have learned between garbage & truth. Peace n love
At 4:30 when she says, "You reach a point in your head..." her image on the screen fades out and then back in again. Cool effect, even if unintentional!
I used to allow the Narcissist's to be my voice of reason, instead of following my gut instinct. The narcissist's agenda, was to guard their insecurities, by making me doubt my strenghts , and use me, to boostt their ego. Since I have gone no contact, I have given myself a safe space to reflect, and focus on the needs of my inner child.
Usually my intuition leads me to great things but sometimes it also tells me things that I may not be ready to receive or don’t know what to do and then I end up rationalizing fear based thoughts and looks like sabotage in relationship when dealing with a Narcissist and trying time confront things that come up
'Lord please show me, help me' always works. Intuition usually reveals hidden agendas of harm that WE try to rationalise because the truth hidden in plain sight is too painful to bear. 'Ignorance is bliss' said many doting wives now buried under the patio!
This happened to me today. I started rationalizing being fired from my job but in reality the company is fraudulent and can't handle an outstanding employee.
Yeahhh!!! I just decided to move to a new place - my dream home in a great location and my fear keeps coming up over and over saying my cat is going to hate living there anf that it’s going to be too loud and I shouldn’t move there 😂😂😂
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Thank you for delineating fear & mind against distractions -- have observed limerence and suspected near histrionic reality distorting in surrounding parties around my case - which constituted myself & a partner of over 25 years. Many of said parties went so far as to draw into question my fidelity & acts/works of love+caring let alone planning for the soon cementing of a future once simply meeting of a core, critical need was met.
This video was a part of completing more of the puzzle of confusion. It's amazing how there wasn't a consideration for time-scales, accurate sight reading and/or listening for fidelity, as it were, when it came to critical nuances that were used to base their decisions in "advising" or at least a weak attempt at preserving their sense of being "right" / correct in what seems to have turned out to be a gathering of narcissist's agents in light of their lack of due diligence since I had to be the person to afford the information they needed as infill after the fact at which time, to some of their credit, I did observe a modicum ability to exercise reappraisal. At some point, I just have to accept some will choose whatever it is they think is their concept of ~"siding with family" especially when that's how my absence was used as a Centerpiece to so easily write me out of it their Acceptance and involvement for whatever it is they exchange in services along the way. The level of "decision making" (which I would reclassify as "presumption making") that was attained while barely having ever talked to me is astounding. Conversely, the above *_is proven_* because of how little conversation was needed with me from some parties to afford them their reappraisal opportunity for which they were appreciative not to mention brought to reframe in so little an effort and in such a short time.
Do you have any videos loaded about individuation between child/sibling and family when it comes to what should be ownership of their S.O. relationship?
Thank you so much for all you have done. 👍
@@mrazik131 I disagree, I enjoyed the fact that you were enjoying yourself in a total summery mode, Meredith 💯👍😎 🏖️🐟..
Saludos buen video
Why did you stop the one on on coaching sessions?
Sometimes its hard hear what your intuition is telling you. My intuition told me and continues to tell me that I need to keep away from my mother as much as possible to be well.
"Show me the truth in all things" is a prayer similar to "show me the way" that I like
Stay focused. Stay goal oriented. Your focus on yourself, your needs, will DETER the negative forces in your life.
Stay strong folks.
I have light bulb moments when I am gardening... taking weeds out and not thinking about anything. Or when I am driving a known road.
Intuition kicks in when something is not matching (words, face expressions and gestures from somebody) or isn't congruent (former stories and statements now).
When living with my narcissistic ex husband I had a lot of fear, however your explanation between fear and intuition made things a bit clearer as I also had strong moments of intuition telling me you need to go you need to get out. My intuition was right but my fearful mind kept interrupting. Thanks Meredith 🙏
Things are going to be so much better after you get rid of the devil himself
I struggle with this all the time. I admit fear gets in my way and my intuition tells me the truth but I’m held back by fear and then I’m paralyzed. SHOW ME THE WAY is going to be my mantra.
Greater is He that is with in me
Then he that's in the world
Fear always keeps me down
Sandra L. Moralez - Amen
This video added some much needed clarity. The ocean looks gorgeous!!
Yep and the sound of breaking waves are calming me down 😍
That’s a very good thing I’m gonna start saying, “show me the way”, thank you very much, much love to you!! 💚
In the eight year relationship with a covert narcissist, step by step, week by week, I gave up completely listening to my intuition which had guided me reasonably well in my endeavors, however extremely unevenly in my relationships thus far. Seven years into it, as Meredith described, I became sick with acute pneumonia on a trip to Los Angeles. The pain was so excruciating I could hardly walk, getting into the driver seat was an ordeal. When she let me drive myself to the emergency room alone at 2:00 am, since she found no good reason to come along, I had a frying pan to the head moment. We eventually made it home, and in a brief moment of sanity I moved out. But I didn't last long away from the kids, so I returned and missed the opportunity to leave for good. I went back for more punishment and the final discard fifteen months later was more like a wrecking ball to the head moment. I finally saw the light. Now, I really listen to my intuition. I recommend following Meredith's advice sooner than later.
WOW! I am in total amazement right now. I have truly matured in my journey of self Love and self healing, and recovery hearing this video right now, at this moment, and understanding every word. True healing continues to manifest and thrive in me in 7 very long, yet short months of NO CONTACT WOW!!!
I am so glad you posted this. I needed to hear about the ruminating. I was triggered last week and went into a very fearful place where I turned my back on a very good friend. Thankfully my friend understands I am healing and was still there for me when I realised I was just stuck in a spiral of fear and paranoia. I got sick too like you say which forced me to sleep more than usual, dream and cocoon. Then the fear just seemed to disappear in the night eventually. I think I understand how to recognise it for what it is better now. Thanks to you Meredith.
Meredith, you are so in tune! This has been my biggest question for a long while now. Thank you for doing this video!!!!
Wow this is exactly what happened to me. So much overwhelming me that i need to do- need a daycare, new apt, new job, my moms pushing my abuser back into my life no matter how much ive confronted her on it, my health issues make it hard to enjoy my kids, and nothing's moving and i keep thinking my old distractions would give me a break in order to address lifes business but they havent done it. Then i just "fell into a black hole" this past week and dont want to get out of bed. Then my neck got stiff, ive had the worst headache for days, i got allergies or a cold or something now and i just want to give up. So yeah its true when you said basically that life will rest you, stop you. Please pray for me and believe for my breakthrough in all areas.
Thank God you decided to go on your trip! You would have regretted it if you didn't go! Move a muscle and change a thought! Some times you just have to get up and GO ! Great video...a lot of information so I'm going to have to watch it again! God bless you!
My astrologer kept saying “you’ve got to take the adventure” and so I did and I’m so glad I did!
Thank you for this clarification. It is so easy to fall for the trap of convincing ourselves that we need to ruminate in order “figure it out” but as you so well explained that is NOT the way to move forward. Thank you to infinity. 🙏❤️
WOW......so so good. Thank you Meredith!!!!! Gonna listen again. Enjoy beautiful nature surrounding you. I love you, u are so Gifted.........you’re saving my life. 💜
I’m actually drained laying in bed from Working a job that’s just not me anymore, I don’t even have time for exercise anymore because of my job and that’s what keeps me sane. I’m giving my two week notice I can’t wait!!
So on point. Exactly what I am experiencing right now. The exhaustion from just remunimating is real.
Fear, is fear off not knowing what is coming next. Be safe.
I get confused in relationships. if they're being especially nice, I feel obligated to them. If they are neutral or I don't hear from them for a while, they decided I'm not worth it. I am finding that it is a result of how my parents treated me and it is not the case with normal people. Neutral is such a relief. My intuition is now responding more appropriately to overly nice people and figuring out that when eople aren't gushing over me, it doesn't mean they don't like me.
I tend to get a feeling of dread that happens constantly, always feeling like I'm going to get in trouble for no reason, even when I am doing dishes. If I slow myself down, rremember why I feel this way, repeat that I'm okay and tell myself that I am allowed to do things the way I want, I can calm down my nervous system. A calmer nervous system seems to make me feel more open to intuition.
Curiosity does help me to reduce the fear. I remember liking to figure things out as a child. But, I was taught that if I didn't know or learn something fast enough, I may as well not bother. And I was taught to fear something different, not be curious.
What's interesting is, my brother says that the ruminating is our feelings running amok and we need to rationalize more. He's a big facts over feelings guy. It doesn't help that we've always felt we were walking on eggshells to avoid hurting our mother's feelings.
As always, your insight is much appreciated Meredith 💕
Goldie H I really relate to what you’ve described, especially the parts about relationships and always feeling like you’re in the wrong.
@@re.natured Its amazing how well programmed we can become in childhood.
I also relate to your story a bit, particularly about feeling like you’re always doing something wrong... even though you’re totally not. 😕 I’ve been changing my self talk more, also, and finding definite relief in telling myself to slow down as well. Thanks for sharing. I enjoyed reading your perspective. :)
Wow. Reading about how you were navigating your perspective and initial proclivity has really provided a lot of insight and opportunity for self reflection here as well as my interactions with & reading others. Thank you.
@@That_Handle Thank you 💕. Good to hear imy words can be helpful.
I often get confused between these two things
This is very common!
I do too
So easy to do! Like anything we become more skilled at, this also takes practice.
Wow this was spot on. So helpful! I've done both ruminating and experienced those downloads where you have immense clarity on a situation. The ruminating keeps you stuck but those downloads set you free! I woke up one morning and I just knew I was gonna lose my kids if I didn't leave my abusive relationship. I was so thankful for the insight that helped push me to be brave enough to leave.
Hi Meredith! I miss you. I haven’t seen you on UA-cam as much and you helped me so much in 2018 get passed a Narcissist relationship and detaching from my Narcissist family!
It’s like the Universe directed me to this message. I needed this!!! Now it makes sense. My ruminating is beyond and it’s been a situation I have been ruminating about for a couple of months now and it has driven me in a very bad place, although my gut has told me otherwise. After listening to this message, it’s very clear to me what I need to do. Being fear based will never result in a great outcome. As you stated, it’s the enemy’s way of trying to stop me in the direction the Universe is calling me towards.
I am forever grateful to you, you helped me out of the darkest period of my life through your videos and I can never thank you enough. Enjoy your trip!
KL W hi, I just wanted to let you know that I really like your comment and I wish you well on your healing journey. ☺️ it’s difficult at many points, and Meredith has helped me more than I can even say with her videos and information.
Sudden revelation and you KNOW. My intuition is very good. Thanks Meredith!
It often happens to me that I wake up in the morning and I know the answer or something just springs to my mind. It is only a few minutes before I get distracted and busy with the daily tasks.
I started a new job on Monday. During that day I noticed some red flags with the coworker I have to work with like a smirk and a strange grin. Later he almost always took the other side when I said something. He mainly showed me something on a computer, but didn't explain much and often said only one-word sentences. It was a confusing day. It didn't get better on Tuesday. On Wednesday morning I knew I have to quit this job. So on Thursday I handed in my notice.
It must be a coincidence (or not) that your video "Shift Your Story" ua-cam.com/video/z7ZW7JurA7Q/v-deo.html, which came out exactly 3 years ago, reveals something to me about this week as well.
I like the ocean view from this elevated point, so an extra thumbs up for this too. I wish you a wonderful day and a relaxing time there.
This is exactly what I wonder about often. Thank you for making a video about it.
God bless you and thank you for sharing your incredible knowledge
Ruminating fear is the closest thing I've heard to describing dooms-day preppers. A theme with the people surrounding my life rn. Ty for this understanding.
Your videos came into my life about three years ago at a time when I really needed them. My life and my soul had reached the deepest point ever. Your videos really helped me to process the pain and sadness and also comprehend NPD's better. The Fuits that I recieved were very good and I nourished the seeds. The information has equipped me with tools and armour that has and is still protecting me. I want to thank you with all my heart and wish you the best in your life!
You are such an important soul to this world.
Thank you endlessly...
I love that you decided to go and not stay at home, that is more inspirational to whoever is watching this video, more than you know!! There is so much that I'd love to achieve. I have multiple health issues: M.E. , fibromyalgia, hypermobility, graves disease with thyroid eye disease etc etc so I have to do the basics for our two children and hubby (my hubby is super supportive btw and helps our tonnes whilst still holding down a full time job) . He is the reason and strength that keeps me going, that kept me grounded and strong enough to release myself from the clutches of my imo narcissist mother. I have a lot of time to think due to having to rest up but not much energy if at all, to complete things (or even start some things) but I am determined, I feel its important to for getting myself back now I have such love surrounding me now. I feel what I aim to do has a greater meaning than I realise and hopefully could help others, which I would love. You're an inspiration, thank you. It may take me a while to get to my destination, but it's all about the journey right!?! Sending gentle hugz xXx 💜💙💜
You GOT this!!
@@InnerIntegration thank you, you're a kind heart. You too! xXx
I want to go on a yoga retreat in Costa Rica this year. I have never traveled to another country and the ruminating is trying to stop me, but I can feel it in my soul that I need to go. I get chills everytime I think about the amazing experience I will be apart of. I will watch this a few times and get out of my head.
hi again meredith. i just finished the video. i became teary eyed hearing that you almost didn't go on your trip. i was also surprised. because looking at you, listening to you, getting to know you through social media, and yes i know your horrible experience with your mom and ex, and such, but anyway, i would have NEVER (my stories that i made up about you) guessed that you had fear going on this trip. SO, thank you again for sharing your life with us. big hug. Oh, and bc of watching this, i am going to follow through with going to a women's only chanting today at 4pm eventhough i want to stay home.
"intuition" is a nickname for your inner feeling, which is moved by God, who loves you and always gives you guidance throughout your life.
by being relaxed, and not letting your mind or heart run the show, but instead being attentive or aware, so that when your inner feeling is moved by God, you follow it, then God will lead you so that you will have a positive life for you and your soul :)
Beautiful ❤
Oh Meredith. What a timely video. I’ve been so sick for 3 weeks. Going through massive change and breakthrough. Finding myself and listening to myself finally. Thank you so much for this incredible understanding that has really helped me. ‘Show me the way’. I love it.
Awe your video came right on time for me. God bless you. It is very important that you share your knowledge and wisdom from God. I know some people say the universe, but I always give glory to God/Holy Spirit.
This video gave me goosebumps 💛 I have been thinking about my intuition a these past couple weeks as I am wanting to tap into it more often and to notice like you say if it’s rational thoughts or my actual intuition... it’s no coincidence this is what your video is on today. This content is needed. Thank you Meredith 🙏
Thank you for a perfect timed message. I love hearing the water ❤️
Thank you for teaching me why fear comes up and what we should learn from it.That knowledgeable is worth more than gold.
I am currently in a new incredible relationship like I’ve never known and i feel like it’s testing me sometimes,in a beautiful way. It’s helping me grow and I really appreciate your videos. This one in particular
Thank you💚💚💚
Beautiful visual! Thank you for sharing🌹
So great to see you and in such a beautiful location!! Good for you for enjoying your life.
Since listening to you for about a year, finally I’ve had a break through and I’m ready to write a new, positive chapter in my life. For the past 3 and 1/2 years I’ve been depressed and spent so many hours ruminating and being fearful and miserable in a very toxic marriage.
Finally, my physical body could not take it anymore. I was having heart palpitations so severely that I felt like I could barely breath. I visited a good friend, who is a RN, Nurse Practitioner, she told me she felt like my situation was taking a toll on my health.
I saw a lawyer just a couple of weeks later after talking with her. My divorce should be final by April 1st. I feel such relief. I’m sure I can survive, even thrive on my own. Thx for your help💕
This was very helpful, even the setting was what I needed to see to impress the new beliefs into my identity. Thank you and You!!
Awesome to see you enjoying yourself!
Ty
So pretty in CA. I think thinking is like studying. Once you know the best way, you can have a better chance of success.
Wow. Where have you been my whole life. God bless you. You’re an angel.
Love the waves crashing. I wish you could offer this in a meditation. Thank you!
Hello Meredith, thank you, again, for all the amazing work you do. I was wondering for you could do a video on grooming, in life in general, not just between couples? Like could you touch on how it happens to children at home, in school and that to adults in society, politics and work places? That would be great if you’d dedicate a video to that topic!
Great topic and so important. I think a lot of people, myself included have had trouble with discerning these two things. It takes a lot of practice for me. Thanks for putting this together and then proving your own point by taping in front of that beautiful beach scene! How awesome is that? Great decision! I'm feeling happy for your magnificent experience.
Thank you Meredith for your dedication in helping people understand ourselves and the world we are living in. Congratulations for going on your vacation, and thank you for sharing a part of it with us. You are glowing!
This is related to Gay Henricks Upper Limit Belief. Our subconscious is primed for certain situations and to receive a certain amount of something. When we attempt to go past that limit, the fear hits. Drowning out all intuition
Very helpful video, I feel much more relaxed now that I understand better my issues (one of which is fear), and that part with keeping your head down and the giving up to which the enemy is calling you, I can relate to it so accurately.
Thank you so much for the work you're doing and for opening my eyes to the invisible evil that is happening to me. I thank God that I've found your videos couple of months ago
"Sudden *Epiphany"*
I am glad you went there. I feel 2020 is a good year for justice.
thank you for posting this, you are very in tune with cosmic? forces in the air...as this is exactly the 2 fold emotional tug of war i had last weekend. And the interesting part, i am now recognizing is how fast I fell back into 'dumb dumb' mode AFTER an encounter with a woman in my building, i know believe is an covert narcissist. I was up, positive, getting things back on track...then ran into her, did not recognize until today, how the conversation i had last friday in the elevator, had ACTUALLY effected my entire week.
I knew something was off, not myself this past week, but with the flu going around i dismissed it. BUT my dreams {intuition?} were showing fear based stuff, and I thought that really odd. Why was i dreaming of such crap? When i could totally let go of the fears / anxiety, my subconscious was telling me it had to do with 2 ppl in this building. Throughout the week, i avoided them. This past week I found my self worth had gone down the toilet, my confidence at my ability to do my job was waning. And there was a smell that made me nauseous when bummed, whenever I had thoughts of the conversations i had had with either of these women, there was this 'smell', that made me sick to my stomach, and gagging.and with that a fatigue? Does narcissism have a smell?
Listening to your video, i am starting to remember the BS said by each of these women i ran into on Friday, then the other on Saturday; and i now believe it is them that had subconsciously influenced me. The covert words used, the subtle praises and insults in same sentence, all of this is coming up. Friday i was outside with the pup, having just got off work and having taken cough syrup. Out comes Mrs. "X" to smoke, she tells me i don't look well, i should not be outside in my state. You look drunk she says, you could get evicted. If anyone reports you, you'll be in trouble, she says. I think, "wtf", feel intense desire to get away from her, but then immediately find self worried about this, so take puppy inside. Then fall asleep soon after, restless fear based sleep dreams and anxiety. Slept almost 15 hours.
When i got up, late Saturday afternoon ran into Mrs "Y", All she says to me, is i shouldn't drink, you are such a bitch when you drink. As i went to say i am not drunk, i had just taken cough medicine, she raised her voice, saying 'don't lie to me', then processed to tell me 'what my problems are'. I immediately worried this cough medicine was making me sick, should stop taking it. And at same time, an urge to tell this woman where to go and how to get there. Startled because this is not how i'd act, i dismissed it again as the influence of cough medicine and the flu. So i quickly left. I was literally up all night Saturday, unable to sleep due to 'insomnia', insomnia due to horrible thoughts, images, physical discomforts....fall asleep...wake up...fall asleep...wake up....close my eyes, start to fall asleep, but then body would wake self up because of monster imagery as if i was in a movie chased by horrible monsters...Hence I was up all night, and had to call in sick the next day.
This morning i ran into both of them outside at the same time! At this point, i 'knew' they were friends, and was weary to let the pup go for pee, just to avoid them. Why? What did my subconscious know? My physical reaction near them was hesitation, & 2 things occured - i should play stupid and just walk to other entrance to building to avoid them. Then, "no", i shouldn't change how i live my life to ....YET this time aware of how my body language changed, and how i felt inferior I acted around them, esp. Mrs. Y....when i asked them a question. RED FLAG. As they answered, I played 'grey rock' and watched them contradict themselves in front of me, lied, lots of lies, to each other, but more like their story 'changed' 3 times in the 15 mins i met with them outside. I never said a word, they just spoke back and forth, and undermined the very answers they had given me moments earlier, probably assuming i was a moron. The one thing i have recognized is that mrs. X was easier to talk to before her 'friendship with Mrs. Y'.
I did wonder why last Sunday i was so sick, couldn't get out bed, not like me. Figured it was the flu, so stayed in bed, rested, and just 'processed' my thoughts, fear images, and focused on getting over the 'flu'. But after what i just heard between these 2, i believe they are the culprits behind the dissent occuring in the building. Is it possible one is the narc and other flying monkey or ??? Is it possible Mrs X is a Narcissist and Mrs Y a socio?
I am realizing today the duo remind me of 2 women i lived with 9 years ago. And yet my question to you is - whom in my childhood could this 'duo' reflect? I know if i can ID this, I can confront that part of my past, hence break the ties that bind us!
I used to work with Mrs. X long ago, and quit job because of her. Bit by bit i ended up doing her job because of her 'injuries', and knew from staff i was being used. So i left, but then months later she moves into my building. I could still deal with her, "she" was different here than at work.
Near Xmas, she had an accident walking her dog, fell because dog lunged at a rabbit, and couldn't work. We got along then too. More so than at work, and started to think that perhaps Mrs. Z at work was behind why she was getting me to do her work, so she could sit on her butt. So during her time at home, Mrs. X was 'normal', a true friend. But at some point between mid Dec & start of February, "she changed". Mrs. X quit her job & Mrs. Y started walking her dog. Mrs. Y was around all the time, too much of the time. Mrs. X told me Mrs. Y offered to look after the puppy. Within weeks, both of Mrs. X's roommates gave notice to move out. Prior to this, they had walked the puppy. Everytime i was talking with Mrs. X outside, Mrs. Y showed up. From the time I noticed Mrs. Y walking the puppy, there was a ???? in the air towards Mrs. Y and the room mates {whom had always been involved in the dog's care}.
Anyway, after a long letter...today I think i witnessed the "devotion" phenomenon; control factor; in play....when i asked Mrs. X if i could bum a cig, she "looked at" Mrs. Y. Paused. Started to tremble, then looked at Mrs. Y again. Then told me, no, but you can have whatever i have left'...That's when the weird dialogue took place.... yes, WEIRD conversation between the two occurred. I said okay. Why? no idea, because i was sad, wanted to leave, go back to bed, but something inside of me told me to stay and 'wait' for whatever she would give me. weird. I have money, can get my own, so why did i stay there? Then, i felt it was beggars point of view, but now i think it was my intuition telling me i need to see the truth.
Playing grey rock, Y asks X what she is doing later. X says she has to go get groceries, she wants Doritos. She looks at me. Then X says she has chips, not Doritios, but corn chips, would that do. X says sure. Then X says I need cigs, only have....Y says after I get up from my nap i will go get you some. X says 'ok'. I offer to walk and go get them now, walk there. X looks at Y, then says no, she can wait. WHAT THE PHUK? Even at work, Mrs. X Has never, ever, ever acted like this. Ever.
BUT the very, VERY subtle thing i witnessed told me EVERYTHING I needed to know/see about things of why ? of ? this dynamic....and I kind of worry about Mrs. X now {even though she has been mean to me all month}, as i have never seen her "do" a particular behavior before, even when i worked with her....So now i wonder what intensity had happened that would cause Mrs. X's room mates to both give notice, after befriending Mrs. Y. Because now, Mrs. X has to come up with full rent vs a third. And yet she can't/won't/doesn't see it. She is blaming her roomies vs seeing how Mrs. Y probably was behind the dissent. It sucks because if Mrs. X is a flying Monkey, she will never 'hear me', or even her own kids.
Anyway back to my story....where do i look in my childhood for clues as to this relationship dynamic? Was it my mother and her BFF? Was it a friend i had in elementary school corrupted by another? The one pattern i have been able to backtrack is the duo going back to a woman i worked for {one side part part of duo}, but i've always asked Self, why would I let Mrs. Blaauw treat me like sh-t, using others to...? How do i find source wound?
This is so helpful and not talked about enough. Thank you!!!
You have an impeccable sense of timing, Meredith. thanks for sharing this insight.
I agree, intuition comes at the times you don't have a pen and paper handy but need them desperately.
Great message Meredith!
Great subject I ponder this from time to time.
I surrender to my discomfort more lately.
Cried too grieving.
Good morning from MA, I was just thinking about when your new video was going to be.
Thank you for this one I really needed !♡
I usually upload every Saturday at 9am Mexico City time 😉
@@InnerIntegration thank you always
This is the best info I've heard in a long time! Thx Meredith!!
Great channel and topic. Love your book. Thank you Ms Miller.
Wow, I don't know how to put it into words yet...what I am experiencing from this /your video. I will get back to you and fellow survivors as soon as I can identify and explain/express it. TYSM, Meredith!
From my first meeting with my narc. I felt nervous around her. As I got to know her as a friend I ignored this uneasy feeling. As I was being beautifully lovebombed I suppressed my inner feelings about this person. I felt something was wrong the first time I disagreed with her but again made excuses as by this time she had me totally brainwashed and sucked in. So I stood by her in public and private until the day came that I was no longer of use to her. I stood up to her and the unmasked narc cruel ugly and angry manifested herself. Suddenly I saw why my inner voice my intuition had been constantly nagging at me and tried to show me that the narc was not a good person and that she did not deserve me as a friend. All she wanted to do was exploit and manipulate me for her own gain both professional and private. Almost 3 years later of no contact I see I should have done what my intuition warned me to do. I should have got out and away before the narc got a chance to suck me in and then spit me out when I'd outlived my usefulness
Great insights! Thankfully you did get out. And now that lesson will serve you in the future if you ever get that feeling again. It’s so hard to trust the intuition when we have no proof. But the feeling is often the only proof at that moment. Often when we wait for external proof, that’s when we later say “I should’ve left sooner”.
Wow 😬
Good one. Thank you
Ah that's a fun synchronization. I'm not sure if you're aware, but the word "Way" is a translation of the word "Dao" which is a key concept in Daoism. It means the essence of the universe, the source, and according to my interpetation the higher self to which you refered to. If you did not know this, now you do. Great content as always, beautiful :)
You understand me at another level. Dao is one of the characters in a tattoo I have. A Chinese mentor gave me a name with 4 characters and part of my name is about following the dao.
@@InnerIntegration Indeed, 'I' certainly do understand me :) i want you to know that you really helped me get through some though fucking shit. You're saving the world here. Thank you. And we'll meet in the end, where you wrote this
Brillant, true and so powerful to be in touch with. Thank you Meredith. ⭐️🙏⭐️
My narcissist made an accusation that is considered a felony. She did this after I asked her if we could discontinue doggy play dates. I found her to be very critical and bossy which is why I said it to her. I'm not lying or exaggerating or in any way looking for attention. This is the absolute truth!! I've never seen Met or heard of anyone like her it's been two years of hell
This was EXACTLY what I needed to hear tonight! It was such a comfort, as so many of your videos are 😊
Meredith, thank you for your light.
I really needed this.
I like this video... but I am not sure that everything you said is completely right but I certainly appreciate that you offer your point of view...thank you for this!
That's true, sometimes you just know by what actually happens. Other times you think you know yet it does not happen. Know the difference. Some people keep on reliving the same experience over & over. If that experience never come to fruition then you know its not real. Most feelings or intuition that comes Universe actually happens. It's not something that keep on repeating itself & no results. That what I have learned between garbage & truth. Peace n love
So glad you went! You deserve it ❤️
At 4:30 when she says, "You reach a point in your head..." her image on the screen fades out and then back in again. Cool effect, even if unintentional!
Ha! It was unintentional. I probably moved and the camera adjusted 😉
I used to allow the Narcissist's to be my voice of reason, instead of following my gut instinct. The narcissist's agenda, was to guard their insecurities, by making me doubt my strenghts , and use me, to boostt their ego. Since I have gone no contact, I have given myself a safe space to reflect, and focus on the needs of my inner child.
thank you. now it"s clear for me.these informations are very important .
That is a beautiful and relaxing view.
So insightful! Thank you, Meredith!
Usually my intuition leads me to great things but sometimes it also tells me things that I may not be ready to receive or don’t know what to do and then I end up rationalizing fear based thoughts and looks like sabotage in relationship when dealing with a Narcissist and trying time confront things that come up
Helpful distinction, thanks. I may try a mantra like that ... rumination, fear, etc. are common ... intuition seems kinda shy
Thank you.. I need to focus on my intuition. Your video came at such the right time ♥️ best wishes from germany
You are brave. Respect!
The ocean looks so beautiful 💙
Thank you Meredith 💜. I needed this.
really good topic 👍
Inspired! Thanks Meredith.
Thanks a lot Meredith, and enjoy Acapulco ❤❤
Fantastico!!! Gracias siempre!
'Lord please show me, help me' always works. Intuition usually reveals hidden agendas of harm that WE try to rationalise because the truth hidden in plain sight is too painful to bear. 'Ignorance is bliss' said many doting wives now buried under the patio!
This happened to me today. I started rationalizing being fired from my job but in reality the company is fraudulent and can't handle an outstanding employee.
True!!!
Love the view!
Thanks Mera for all your videos!! 😘😘
Show me the way! 🙏🏼I trust my intuition🙌🏼 fear can suck a duck 🦆 😂
God bless you. God loves you, and so do I.
Wish I were there with you on the balcony overlooking the ocean oh boy it looks great
This is gold
Yeahhh!!! I just decided to move to a new place - my dream home in a great location and my fear keeps coming up over and over saying my cat is going to hate living there anf that it’s going to be too loud and I shouldn’t move there 😂😂😂
Beautiful background!