Відео

Does anyone remember Billy-Bear Ham? That’s just come to me, not sure if it even contained any ham but still 😂

hi, my therapist only works with me under the condition of weighing me on a weekly basis. i feel like that holds my back in my recovery, do you have any tips? thanks for your work, emily!

I find it very hard to keep on track when people are saying stuff like "phew, now you really gained weight, now we know you are fine and we can let go of this". But for a person during that state, its the worst. I dont know how to handle, and how to not just start over the ED. This is connected to illness benefits, and thaats why I nowadays NEVER talk about my ED during a relapse. The more people involved, the harder to recover. Especially health care gives huge illness benefits, and to add to it, they ONLY care if people are near death, making many ED women get sicker och keep as sick as possible to get treatment or contacts with people (yes, sadly health issues are one way for loners to get social contacts and care, not just bullying).

I'm so grateful for you, Emily!

Really great video Emily!! Sending lots of love to you from Hollywood. Love you tons friend 🥰❤💕💓

Thank you for great videos.

Great content as usual. If you want suggestions for topics about stuff I as a viewer struggeling with, it is: 1. How to handle real severe weightgain from recovery, not going to normal, but to unhealthy overweight. I really had that problem as younger, causing me to repeated and rather quick relapses with weight fluctuations of 100 punds up or down in record time (if I did not weigh myself I wouldn't believe one could gain or lose so fast). What would others like me need to hear? I believe people that are like that may need some eating training to not go from one extreme to another. This is meant for those who just do not onlly have some extreme temporary hunger, but just keep on gainging and eating like common obese persons. 2. How to handle the reactions from people that "phew, she gained some weight, now she feels better" or when you cant see a therapist or doctor anymore since "now you gained weight, bye bye, not prioritezed since there are people that weigh less". I really feel the worst during that time. The more free I get from a relapse, the more depression and su1c1de thought I get, and I wont get any help for that, since "you weigh more, and the ana ed was the main problem, bye bye, there are people having real depressions, you had ana". I am 53 years old, and have experienced this over and over again for 40 years, so its not just one thing that happened once. I feel like common ana recovery people, really struggle during recovery, and that many have a hard time with comments like "phew, now your fine" and rather many is like me, they have underlying problems that never gets handled or adressed, and which are solved by the ED person by using ED as comfort/drug. To let the ED go is then very hard. Mentally one feel much worse without it, and if one cant handle that by oneself, it may be impossible to really get free. For myself, I will not get any more help, that is clear. Especially after I got high functioning autism diagnosis. Then all other things are "due to AST" and untreatable. They try to make me believe that AST people just have to accept dysthymia, relapseding severe depression, BDD, ED (and OCD and PTSD for thos who have that) as something untreatable amongst us. Of course I live in an EU country with collapsing health care system (Sweden) and this bad treatment is partly due to that. Only the ones near death will get any sort of help. This makes many ED persons get even sicker, since they know they "arent sick enough". I feel so sad for these younger ED persons. When I was young, the care did not function this way, and now I am to old anyway to get any benefits from contacting health care. I really believe I would do better on my own, skipping illness benefit suduction.

When I was younger and tried recovery (I have relapsing ana) I gained weight so fast and much it was unbelievable when just letting go and eat what I wanted. Is it really for everyone? Some seams to handle it very well (maybe most) but I and some others do not. Almost every recovery try when I was younger, lead to bulimi or real overweight. As older, I have another approach, and really try not skipping meals, not eating to little or too much. Even during relapses I make sure to eat real meals (too small, but not skewed balance or skipped). It has helped to make my relapses easier to come back from, and given me longer time between relapses. Pre-ED I was a slim person, but wanted to eat sugar from the bag, eat 2 pounds of crisps for dinner, live on frosties only and such. My parents did not let me of course. I moved from home during a time when I did not have a relapse, and started eating what I wanted. I gained 100 pounds in a couple of months. Therapists have assured me over and over again I will never become overweight, but they were wrong. Also they said stupid things like "you wont gain any weight if you eat", which is some really stupid thing to say. Of course someone near death will gain weight if they turn their ED. Since I knew what would happen to me if I just let go, I became really scared of recovery. I follow several good recovery channels like your (people that really get recovered and inspirate others to REAL recovery, not just eating what looks like a lot, but keeping low weight due to too little food). Have you ever had any experiences of becoming overweight as a part of recovery? I wonder if some gets somewhat overweight just as a part of healing, and then going back to normal range. Maybe, since I have high functioning autism I can never just eat intuitively, and have to train myself from scratch in healthy ways of eating, just not only "let go". Anyway, I like your channel, but got some bad binge eating flashbacks from all this and flashbacks to periods when I really got overweight from "letting go" of ana ed.

Emily I could listen to you all day - your voice is remarkable and you are so gentle with your explanations. thank you - I am 5 months into AN treatment and I am so happy to have found your platform xx

Thank you so much Emily for putting into words what is so hard to vocalize and process see in the midst of an ed energy deprived state, your advice and message of hope and strength is so valuable and needed, I continue with a firmer step in my ed recovery thanks to you, It felt like i was falling behind right up to the moment after watching. Thank you so much, you are a heroX

You are wonderful ❤

Thank you so much for all the time, devotion and honestly just kindness in the messages of support you're giving to all of us. I've always honestly been quite a lot into running and sports in general but it got to a point where it kind of snowballed into an eating disorder. Ever since the pandemic hit and my weight hit an all-time low I've been kind of postponing recovery, not so much for the fear of particular foods anymore, but more because of the ultimate seek for the unachievable "perfectionism" as you mentioned, in my case with calorie counting, that actually ended-up backfiring. In the last few weeks I finally decided to be kind of honest to myself about my endless postponing of weight restoration and stopped using my food scale for the first time in like 4 years and instead focused on wanting to hear my body. As (now) expected 😂, I began craving HUGE amounts of food, specially because I still love the fact I now actually have the energy to run, I ate way more than the typical extreme hunger-affected individual, 99.99% sweets except for water perhaps 😄. I began becoming incredible scared I was literally going to eat myself to death or something, specially because I saw others' professional advice of recovery super-exact and sometimes restrictive meal plans, but your videos have been incredibly motivating not only on not giving up on recovery, but also just in general getting rid of all the focus on the stereotypical "happy living" that comes from being "ultra-slim" and all the "fitness culture" rather than focusing on happiness and the love that comes from accepting our humanity. Thanks to the fact my weight wasn't in such a huge deficit as potentially from many other people's where I began, I genuinely feel like it mostly was more in the psychology of restriction and missing hunger cues that I quickly started feeling less hungry again everytime, specially for foods I had labeled as "bad" in my head all my life. Anyways, I'm sorry for my essay of a comment 😂, but seriously thank you so much for sharing your story and keep up with your incredible vids, just know you keep helping people out and truly changing lives :) 💙

I just stumbled upon your channel today and just want to let you know you must be helping hundreds of people.. including me! Thank you so much for sharing your story.

Thank you for this Emily! This was said in such a lovely way and exactly what I needed to hear. As I am on a work "hiatus" and now in a position to begin full recovery, I've been sleeping SO much. Sometimes I feel guilty sleeping away the extra sunny days outside, but this video helped to remind me that this will not be forever. In full recovery, there will be more summers and more internal strength for me to enjoy those days! For now, I need to soak in the rest. Have a wonderful day.

Thank you sooo much for give me Hope ❤im 45 years old so i often think its to late for me and life have left behind me😢 ciao from Roma e grazie ❤

thank you I got a lot from this one and the quote was super comforting. I will think about what i heard and apply it best I can to help. thanks x

why do i always struggle to feel satisfied after meals ?

I really needed this today. I've been really struggling with EH (especially yesterday it was the worst its been for a while). Your videos are really helping me keep going. Thank you 💙 have an amazing day you amazing human x

Just found your page, its really helping me gain trust in thos process

It's been nearly a year of eating crackers, peanut butter and yogurt. It's like my body is unable to crave meals.. is this also a thing? Thank you!

I loved this video🩵🍰🍬It is super helpful. Thank you Emily🎂💖

Theres really notbing else in life than going througj recovery, truely a transformative procees in so many ways 😊😊😊

Your content is saving lives... thankyou

But it is so scary to start.

its like studying for an exam and not taking the exam! You can only read, research so much before action is needed

LOVE this. I relate so much!

As a lifelong resident of Chicago I can confirm that deep dish pizza sauce can go nuclear! When I read the title of this upload I realized I could hardly remember what my favorites were pre-ED.. after some contemplation I got all nostalgic for Golden Grahams and Raspberry Zingers 🥳 thanks !

Wow so helpful, please more videos like this one!

I've been looking forward to your latest video and this was such a delight! I've been trying to connect with childhood favs. Some I just can't recall or the item is no longer available. So, I've embarked on self-discovery - trying new (to me)/taking suggestions to learn MY current true likes. I acknowledge some uneasiness around certain types of yummy foods and remind myself that all foods are perfectly OK since I don't have any food allergies. My husband even said (though about our senior dog at the time), that 'Any food you eat is healthier than the food you don't.' I'd love to hear how you pushed through mental barriers. My intuition is repetition to normalize eating. Thank you, Emily, for all you do to continually help me improve my relationship with food, and with myself.💖

hi, i was just wondering: would you call yourself recovered and are things like this still challenging for you? thank you so much for your work!!

I’m scared that if I honour my hunger I’ll gain a bunch of weight in a short period of time. I’ve seen people gain 10kg in a month. Mentally I won’t be able to cope with that big of an increase in weight. Do you have some reassuring words or tips for dealing with this? Thanks in advance ❤️

needed this now

Thank you Emily ! I feel like you always drop a video right when I need a polite kick on the butt and telling to get on with it ! ♥️

thank you so much, Emily! It‘s so true that recovery is something to get DONE with, and not just let „recovery“ take the place the eating disorder took beforehand forever. It should be the goal not to recover forever, but to be recovered and have a life of unconditional (food) freedom.

Thankyou so much for this, I quite litterally have sat down with the same lunch as you said that I had to stop and think oh wow hahaha, but honestly such a powerful message... thankyou <3

Thank you. I’m so grateful for your time; you’re changing lives with your messages.

How does one not get freaked out by the intrusive thoughts and ingrained beliefs? I get so far and then hijacked/am so pathetic the passengers take over

Such a helpful reminder. I honestly find this analogy the most powerful. The 'passengers' can be so so raucous and screaming the the directions I'm going are dangerous or wrong or actually going to not take me to the place I want to be. They do their best to completely induce self doubt and confusion don't they? They can be so damn convincing. Grrrrr.

It’s so complicated!!! Thank you!!

Really helpful 👌

This is such a beautifull, clear and helpfull story with very strong images for recovery, thank you so much Emily!!❤ I think the ED voice sometimes screams so loud during the road trip to recovery, because its not the direction the ED wants....although you are in the drivers seat yourself, you sometimes want to leave the car to get rid of this awfull voice. But then you have to be strong and keep moving forward and being focused on you goal: total recovery.

It's amazing when we choose to step forward and quit quasi how the ED starts screaming once more. But I'm so grateful for your message (and your Quitting Quasi Journal) that full freedom IS possible and that we don't have to believe the lie that "we're there". Thank you, Emily!

Can you help me please, I have the compulsive movement element which I’m finding really hard to stop, walking, cleaning, I do have dogs so I would find it very difficult to give up walking as the dogs need walked and no one else to do it, I wonder though if we give up exercise in recovery when we are recovered and bring it back will we no start loosing by weight with the starting the movement again???

That’s funny because in my latest video, I compare recovery with the time when Moses crosses the desert with his people towards Promised land. I also thought of the analogie of the trip. It is a trip, if we also think about the migration theory. Very interesting….

If I recall correctly, you've mentioned that you enjoy road trips as someone fully recovered. This was a nice moment to see how your journey began with, and has transitioned to one without, the loud and annoying ED voice. The analogy is easy to understand that the journey can be adventurous, perhaps even fun 😊, and like driving, you have to pay attention - read the 'signs', course correct, etc. Thank you for sharing, Emily! I'm going to apply this!

Thank you !!! ❤

The video is so lovely! And I really appreciate that you understand that resting could be...hard (for people with ED/during recovery). For me it is a huge struggle- I want to chill and have some lazy days but my mind hates it. My thoughts don't let me rest so I become very stressed when I am not 'productive'... Sometimes chilling is another challenge! Thank you for being here, XX

Thank you 😊🙏

I love this vlog, so calming, a life I wish to live. I just feel like a failure if I don't live up to my productivity levels of the day before and then everyday becomes a comparison tied to my food intake. :(

This was so nice thank you, do you have the recipes for the pancakes and breakfast pastry thing? Thank you!