Emily Spence
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What if I Never Stop Eating? What if I Hate Recovered Me? // BUT What if it's BRILLIANT?
Firstly, Happy New Year Friends! I hope you had a wonderful festive period and I am excited to be kicking off my sharing in 2025 with this message about navigating 'What If's' in recovery. The redirecting exercise I share in this video was something that I found really helpful when those ED-tinged doubts came flooding in in my recovery journey... What if my extreme hunger never ended? What if I couldn't do it? What if I never found peace in my body again? I really hope you found it helpful :)
Please note: everyone's recovery journey is unique and it may be that the points I make in this video are not accessible and/or relevant to you so please, as always, take what helps and leave the rest.
~More From Me~
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~Resources~
This is Me Journal: www.isr-recovery.com/this-is-me.html
Quitting Quasi eBook: www.isr-recovery.com/quitting-quasi-journal.html
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Відео

Restful distractions
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Hey friends :) In this video I share with you some of the things that helped me to navigate the tough days in my recovery journey. I really hope that you find them helpful and just want to send a big message of love, hugs and strength to anyone who is currently in the midst of one of these hard days/moments. This too shall pass friend, the freedom IS worth journey and please know that you are n...
UNRESTRICTED Eating is for LIFE // Not Just for Christmas or Recovery
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Hey friends! In this video I share with you a message that was SO important for me to deeply accept AND action in my recovery journey... unconditional permission to eat is not just for Christmas, or Recovery, it's for LIFE! I hope you find this helpful and I wish you a very Merry Christmas and a positive, recovery aligned festive period. Sending love, Emily xx Please note: everyone's recovery j...
Tackling MOVEMENT Compulsivity // Mental State NOT Target Weight // Start DOING / Q&A with Han
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Really excited to share with you this Q&A with the lovely Han (@oh_hi_han ) in which I ask her the following three questions: 1) What are the 3 most important things you learnt/did in your recovery? 2) If you had to pick one recovery related topic to do a passion project on, what would it be? And what key things would you want people to know/hear about this topic? 3) What's being recovered like...
Signs I Was Still HUNGRY Whilst Out & About // Festive Shopping // ED Recovery
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Hey friends! Join me for a little festive shopping trip where I share 5 things that I had to recognise in my recovery were signs I was still hungry and needed to eat more whilst out and about. I hope you find it helpful and thank you, as always, for your love and support on my channel, it means the world! :) x 00:00 Introduction 01:08 Feeling anxious about the plan/time etc. 02:23 Being a shell...
What I Realised was TOTALLY Impossible in Recovery // Committing to Recovery AND Trying to Please ED
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Hey friends! In this video I share with you something that I realised was totally impossible whilst on my journey to ED freedom; committing to recovery AND trying to please ED at the same time. Now this might sound really obvious (and in some ways it is!) but the reality for me was that I had to come back to this truth time, and time, and time again in my recovery journey and it was something t...
Practicing AND Not Or // Actioning Abundance Part 4
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Hey friends! Here is the fourth part of my actioning abundance series! In the video I discuss the simple tool I call 'AND not OR' and how this helped me in my recovery journey. I really hope that you find my sharing on this topic helpful and thank you, as always, for your love and support :) Please note: everyone's recovery journey is unique and it may be that the points I make in this video ar...
Taking ACTION // FOOD First // AUTISM and ED Recovery / Q&A with FI HOLLINGS
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Really excited to share with you this Q&A with the WONDERFUL Fiona Hollings (or as you may know her, Fi) where I ask her the following three questions: 1) What are the 3 most important things you learnt/did in your recovery? 2) If you had to pick one recovery related topic to do a passion project on, what would it be? And what key things would you want people to know/hear about this topic? 3) W...
Feeling LOST in Recovery // Don't know who I am? Only focussed on food? Fear
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Hey friends, in this video I explore the topic of feeling lost in recovery and share with you five of the things that most helped me to navigate this in my journey. I hope that you find it helpful and thank you so much for watching :) 00:00 Introduction 01:08 Show yourself kindness and compassion 02:25 Know that you are not alone 04:40 It's ok that your body is focussed on recovery right now 06...
Ghosts of CONDITIONAL Permission // Compensation, Disordered Rituals & Needing to be HUNGRY enough
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Hello friends! In this weeks video I explore five ghosts of my conditional permission that I had to identify and call out in my recovery journey in order to reach a place of full ED freedom. I really hope that you find my sharing here helpful and BIG thanks to Roka's friends Bonnie and Hudson for featuring as the stars in this videos spooky-themed thumbnail. What absolute cuties they are! :) x ...
STOP the little plates... EAT from the Bag, Bar, Box, Tin & Tub // Actioning Abundance Part 3
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Hey friends! Here is the third part of my actioning abundance series! In the video I discuss something that was an absolute game changer in my recovery journey... eating from the bag/bar/box/tin/tub etc. I really hope that you find my sharing on this topic helpful and thank you, as always, for your love and support :) Other videos about my Abundance Approach... About the approach: ua-cam.com/vi...
How My Recovery Buddies Helped Me Get Fully ED Free // Supporting Recovery
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Hey friends! In this video I share with you five of the most helpful things that my recovery buddies did to support me in getting fully ED free. 1) Providing brutal honesty and an anchor in reality. 2) Standing their ground against ED... Emily's best friend = ED's worst enemy 3) Holding space for the fact that I, Emily, was not my ED 4) Lots of very practical support: eating out/food shopping/s...
REWIRING at a Higher Weight // Being BOLD // Is recovery worth it? / Q&A with BECKY FREESTONE
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Really excited to share with you this Q&A with the LOVELY Becky Freestone where I ask her the following three questions: 1) What are the 3 most important things you learnt/did in your recovery? 2) If you had to pick one recovery related topic to do a passion project on, what would it be? And what key things would you want people to know/hear about this topic? 3) What's being recovered like? And...
Eating MORE Than Others // Actioning Abundance Part 2
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Thrilled to be back with the second part of my actioning abundance series! In the video I discuss the practical ways in which I challenged restrictive comparison by eating when others were not. 1) Listening to MY body (this was the foundation of this aspect... dropping the judgement and committing to listening to my body and honouring my hunger). 2) Ensuring that I ate regularly and consistentl...
What Will YOU Do With Your One Wild & Precious Life
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"Tell me, what do you plan on doing with your one wild and precious life?" Quote from a poem called 'A summers Day' by Mary Oliver. Remember friend, you cannot change what's been, but you do have power in the now, and you can use this to change the trajectory of today, tomorrow and the rest of your life. Sending love, strength and anything else that you need xx Please note: everyone's recovery ...
5 Things I Do EVERY DAY That My ED Would Have HATED // ED Recovery
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5 Things I Do EVERY DAY That My ED Would Have HATED // ED Recovery
Five Ways You can Work on BODY & SELF Acceptance TODAY // Body Image // Recovery
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Five Ways You can Work on BODY & SELF Acceptance TODAY // Body Image // Recovery
The IMPORTANCE of REST in Recovery // Why I needed to STOP to HEAL Physically, Mentally & Socially
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The IMPORTANCE of REST in Recovery // Why I needed to STOP to HEAL Physically, Mentally & Socially
Ten of My FAVOURITE Recovery Activities that YOU Can Do Right NOW // ED Recovery
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Ten of My FAVOURITE Recovery Activities that YOU Can Do Right NOW // ED Recovery
I Didn't WANT to... But I Just HAD to // Doing What You HAVE to Do in Recovery // Eat, Sit & Shelve
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I Didn't WANT to... But I Just HAD to // Doing What You HAVE to Do in Recovery // Eat, Sit & Shelve
Simple SELF SOOTHING Exercise // Sitting Through The Storm // Recovery
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Simple SELF SOOTHING Exercise // Sitting Through The Storm // Recovery
GO and BUY the FOOD! // Listen to CORE YOU and Rebel Against the ED BS // Get it. Eat it. Repeat!
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GO and BUY the FOOD! // Listen to CORE YOU and Rebel Against the ED BS // Get it. Eat it. Repeat!
Signs I was Still HUNGRY & Needed to EAT MORE // ED Recovery
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Signs I was Still HUNGRY & Needed to EAT MORE // ED Recovery
FIVE Foods My ED Said I DIDN'T Like // TOTAL ED BULLSH*T // ED Recovery // Quit Quasi
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FIVE Foods My ED Said I DIDN'T Like // TOTAL ED BULLSH*T // ED Recovery // Quit Quasi
But I'm NOT Hungry?! // Navigating Low Appetite in Recovery
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But I'm NOT Hungry?! // Navigating Low Appetite in Recovery
Join me for a FAB weekend in LONDON // My RECOVERED Life Vlog
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Join me for a FAB weekend in LONDON // My RECOVERED Life Vlog
ED's as an ADDICTION to ENERGY DEFICIT // My Thoughts on this Book by Helly Barnes
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ED's as an ADDICTION to ENERGY DEFICIT // My Thoughts on this Book by Helly Barnes
Is this YOU? Feeling BEHIND? Feeling LOST? // ED recovery
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Is this YOU? Feeling BEHIND? Feeling LOST? // ED recovery
Recovery Challenge with ME // Childhood & Pre-ED Favourites // ED Recovery
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Recovery Challenge with ME // Childhood & Pre-ED Favourites // ED Recovery
Recovery is NOT a Hobby // It's Something You DO to Get DONE // ED Recovery
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Recovery is NOT a Hobby // It's Something You DO to Get DONE // ED Recovery

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  • @isabelleeder6968
    @isabelleeder6968 21 хвилина тому

    What if you are actually strong enough to get through?

  • @antonellarusso1233
    @antonellarusso1233 3 години тому

    I want listen this words everyday like a recovery mantra ❤ thankyouuuu so much and Happy new year ❤ ciao from Roma ❤️

  • @marycatherinecarnes8330
    @marycatherinecarnes8330 7 годин тому

    Hello. I am 60 years old and have had anorexia for FORTY YEARS! I love UA-cam recovery videos that are full of truth and direction. This is one of them! I wrote just about everything in my journal! I have been in and out of hospitals and therapy and am now learning it is up to me to do this on my own! This is one of the BEST videos I have ever heard. I feel like over the past little bit I'm starting to really recover and it is helped with videos just like this. I love that you shoot straight from the hip-not too ooey gooey happy or too harsh but just the plain and hard facts. I can do something with that! Please younger girls listen to her. She is SPOT ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just asked someone today if recovery really involves all the journaling, reading, watching videos and all the other tools. Well for me it does and I plan on continuing to listen to videos and people like you. What if I gain weight and get healthy?!!!!!! I can always go back to this living hell but what if it is GREAT? Thank you!

  • @susan_e
    @susan_e 14 годин тому

    Happy New Year! Thank you for sharing your What ifs. What if I allow myself to be curious? *spoiler alert: It's amazing!* Thank you, Emily, for your dedication to helping so many of us reach our full potential by daring to ACT - even in baby steps - towards a lifetime of ED freedom!! I know I still have areas to challenge but I have come SO FAR and am SO VERY GRATEFUL!!

  • @PatsyStone-cl3px
    @PatsyStone-cl3px 16 годин тому

    What if you find real control, by letting go of controlling food?

  • @PatsyStone-cl3px
    @PatsyStone-cl3px 16 годин тому

    What if chocolate feels better, than skinny ever did?

  • @PatsyStone-cl3px
    @PatsyStone-cl3px 16 годин тому

    What if you'll feel better on your worst day, than you've ever felt on your best ED day?

  • @PatsyStone-cl3px
    @PatsyStone-cl3px 16 годин тому

    love this!

  • @Atalithan
    @Atalithan 2 дні тому

    For me - the times is WAAAY worse. For many years if was scared of eating to late, i wouldnt eat pass a certatin time cause i thought that would make me fat. Over the years i have now instead eating later and later (ex breakfast at about 2 pm..). I have sooo many years tried to changed it but eating earlier make me so so so anxious. I also dont think anything is fun (anorexia has taken all my interest away - is this common?). I dont have any friends so i dont have anything to do instead, all i do is waiting and look forward to eat. If all eating is done for the day i get so upset and sad. All the anxiety is exceedingly difficult to handle and each time i eat erlier its so painful that the next time is much more harder. Im so stuck. Also already now hate myself so much and cant bear to gain more, im already so hateful i dont wanna live anymore. :( Please please talk about this.

  • @dingoseis
    @dingoseis 3 дні тому

    😭💜🫶🏼 Every single word… like medicine to the soul. I’m so grateful , bless your heart Emily

  • @isabelleeder6968
    @isabelleeder6968 5 днів тому

    Amazing, but what if you dont have a support system, no more friends and no hobbies, no job and youre alone

  • @philipforan8309
    @philipforan8309 6 днів тому

    Wonderful video, such an inspiring video, thanks so much Emily, these are such needed steps for the tough times and every other time, thanks so much for showing ways to actively reach a recovered life. Thanks again Emily for showing me others have walked and sat through the tough, uncomfortable times and ensured a free life😄

  • @recyclefiiish7753
    @recyclefiiish7753 7 днів тому

    Love lovee this video~ thank you so much.💗🌩️🌈💗💗

  • @isabelleeder6968
    @isabelleeder6968 7 днів тому

    I totally needed it!! Im such a victim of the tomorrow syndrome and doing the same thing everyday!!!

  • @isabelleeder6968
    @isabelleeder6968 7 днів тому

    I totally needed it!! Im such a victim of the tomorrow syndrome and doing the same thing everyday!!!

  • @mauragallagher9001
    @mauragallagher9001 12 днів тому

    Love!!!

  • @nitroelectric5170
    @nitroelectric5170 13 днів тому

    Brilliant video thank you both ❤

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 10 днів тому

      Thanks so much; really glad that you liked it :) x

  • @alexandrina2485
    @alexandrina2485 14 днів тому

    Idk what it is about the way you speak, but your words always resonate with me❤

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 10 днів тому

      Thank you so much, this really does mean so much to me :) xx

  • @cofuru704
    @cofuru704 14 днів тому

    Thank you so, SO MUCH for this video! I do promise myself to be kind to my brain this Christmas. I’m spending this time with my boyfriend and I want to try out all the special food that I’ve been running from for all these years! I can’t wait! Have a gooood time!🌻

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 10 днів тому

      Super pleased that you found it helpful and here's to reclaiming the joy and freedom in your festivities! Sending lots of love and wishing you a very Merry Christmas xx

  • @liveboulder
    @liveboulder 14 днів тому

    First!

  • @buzzbeeplays7922
    @buzzbeeplays7922 17 днів тому

    im going insane atm!! my brain keeps saying I havent suffered for long enough and that i shouldnt feel hungry. Im sorry to be annoying but would you consider 5-6months a long time to be suffering? I know this is probably my ed talking but I just really need to know

  • @stephgodbold16
    @stephgodbold16 21 день тому

    Thank you both so much for everything you do. To my mind, telling someone with an ED they can go "back" to exercise is as problematic as implying they can go "back" to restriction. When you're in recovery, back = into disorder. IF they WANT to exercise in future, THEN they can find new and compulsion-free ways of doing so (though they might just think of it as "moving", or not think of it as a discrete thing at all).

  • @TransponderSnail
    @TransponderSnail 26 днів тому

    5:25 - campfire!!

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 24 дні тому

      Ah yes of course! I totally see it now! Thank you :D

  • @Georgie-s6k
    @Georgie-s6k 27 днів тому

    i do feel like i struggle to respond to these less overt signs of hunger - like i feel it’s not justified since i’ve already gained a lot of weight, plus it doesn’t feel like other people would respond to these?

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 24 дні тому

      I understand Georgie, and remember navigating this kind of doubt in my own journey, but I had to recognise that choosing that path (where my permission to honour my hunger was conditional on things such as my weight) only led me to staying stuck in ED and thus I had to be bold in actioning my unconditional permission to eat without restriction (something which was deeply challenging but also essential for me to get to a place of full ED freedom). I also encourage you to make space for the fact that lots and lots of healthful, nourished people absolutely do experience various types of mental and physical hunger signals and honour them accordingly. ED can make us filter the world to zoom in on those who act contrary to this but having recovered I now realise that in amongst the restrictive/diet culture messaging that is out there, there are also lots and LOTS people living, eating and moving freely and contentedly. Sending love xx

  • @georgiarannard6547
    @georgiarannard6547 27 днів тому

    The jellycat was a lil log camp fire 🔥

  • @rebeccalindeberg6801
    @rebeccalindeberg6801 28 днів тому

    So relatable.

  • @oeilemay885
    @oeilemay885 28 днів тому

    It does really help spot how can mental hunger send signals, thank you so much for this content !! PS : I think the jellycat was a (camp)fire 😊

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 24 дні тому

      Happy to help and share ^^ And yes indeed, a really cute little camp fire! Can't believe I didn't see that sooner; was genuinely looking at it for ages like 'hmmm' xD

  • @noramuller6334
    @noramuller6334 28 днів тому

    the thing you asked about " i dont know what this kind should be" is lagerfeuer- its wooden brikets with fire. and a smile on it

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 24 дні тому

      I can 100% see this now, bless it! SO cute haha! x

  • @hope.spellman
    @hope.spellman 28 днів тому

    wow i relate to all of these! never realized how much i try to fulfill my want for food by looking at it in grocery stores or on social media or constantly looking for permission to eat more or certain foods from others

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 24 дні тому

      Super pleased that you relate and hope you found my sharing helpful :) Recognising the various different ways that my hunger was showing up was such an important aspect of my recovery journey xx

  • @marishalo2092
    @marishalo2092 28 днів тому

    Helpful Video as always, thank you

  • @DavidScott-vx3wh
    @DavidScott-vx3wh 29 днів тому

    Thanks for doing your videos. I keep watching them throughout my Ed journey. It’s very much to and fro for me. Keep holding hands with my disorder and feel like I’m waiting for permission to let it go as it plays on my body dysmorphia after I’ve eaten. Crazy it feels but your wise with your wisdom always 😊

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 24 дні тому

      Thank YOU for your kind words; I am really pleased to hear that you are finding my sharing here supportive :)

  • @marishalo2092
    @marishalo2092 Місяць тому

    Thank you for these videos, they are so helpful.

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 24 дні тому

      So pleased you found it helpful and thank you for your support of my sharing xx

  • @noramuller6334
    @noramuller6334 Місяць тому

    is it something different if you have a plan on which you do something on a constant basis? my movement of choice was walking and i like it but before it was also tied in anorexia and it was compulsive. todays its not any more to that degree but i have tendencies to want to challange myself - but not with compulisive touch any more. or what to do if you want to do a trainer-degree in movenat ? its much harder then walking and treadmill and more sustainable but you need to eat in order to built muscless and adapt properly.

  • @noramuller6334
    @noramuller6334 Місяць тому

    So i am all the time sad about food is over😅

  • @ljosadis1831
    @ljosadis1831 Місяць тому

    Wow, this video comes exactly at the right time and is so on point. I am exactly like that. I Herr me often saying, that it recovery doesn't work for me and I am stuck and can't move forward. But everyday I am pleasing the Ed and my OCD behaviour. I do some challenges, but never every day and I also know that through compulsive movement or eating something specific for a meal, I try to compulsate. Every day is a fight in my head, because I always try to go left and right and this is so exhausting, so I often think that I will end up having this my whole life. But...I have to do something radical. I am not the unicorn. I need to take a leap of faith and "just do it"

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 24 дні тому

      Thank you for your support and I'm pleased that this video came at a good time for you. Hop, skip, jump and Do; you are not the unicorn and freedom IS possible for you one bold step at a time xx

  • @philipforan8309
    @philipforan8309 Місяць тому

    Hi Emily, thanks for a wonderful video, the reminder that the greatest mascot for recovery is of a true healed self, a core self, is a great image to hold in the mind with practice and training when facing the discomfort of a challenge. Thanks so much Emily.

  • @alessiachirila659
    @alessiachirila659 Місяць тому

    Hi emily, to be fair even if it's a "straightforward" concept as you always say: "in recovery there's not a knowledge problem" but this does help as a reminder and as a reference to push forward🩷. I also😂 wanted to ask you a question, I've been in recovery for anorexia for more than 2 years, so I haven't done any actual physical exercise since then. However I have gained most of my weight/I've weight restored this August. I don't think compulsive exercise was a component, however I'm unsure whether I can start exercising again. Right now I'm also experiencing a high amount of hunger which I truly am trying (and honestly believe I'm able to fully respond to) my best to honour. Do you have any advice in relation to when to start movement/exercise again? And also how did you manage to go out when experiencing high hunger, because I don't know how to pack enough and I also end up not craving what I packed at times (i pack what I wanted the day before but sometimes I want something else). Thank you for this and for all your videos🩷

    • @gabrielaleszynska895
      @gabrielaleszynska895 Місяць тому

      OMG, I have the same problem with packing food! It is hard for me to pack enough (especially because I work 12h shifts...) and to follow my cravings because I prepare my meals the day before work. 🤔 It is not very pleasant but I just eat mechanically during these situations (and remind myself that food doesn't have to be perfect, right? 😉)... Xx

  • @PatsyStone-cl3px
    @PatsyStone-cl3px Місяць тому

    And this is why it took me 30 years to recover. As my dietician said, "If you have a back- up plan, you're planning to go back."

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 24 дні тому

      That is an immensely powerful quote Patsy, and one that absolutely mirrors the message in this video. Thank you so much for sharing xx

  • @alexandrina2485
    @alexandrina2485 Місяць тому

    I love your videos so much!❤

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 24 дні тому

      Super pleased to hear this and thank YOU for your love and support, it means so, so much to me :) x

  • @samcatstorko
    @samcatstorko Місяць тому

    Love this!! This concept is really helpful and relevant to me right now because I've been finding one of the most frustrating things my ED is causing is severe decision paralysis. Can't get frozen trying to decide if I just choose both options, I love it haha! Now just have to actually practice it.

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 24 дні тому

      It really was such a useful tool for me in my recovery for exactly this reason. I'm super pleased that you've found me sharing it helpful and I encourage you to be bold in your DOing. Sending love and beans xx

  • @mummytrolls
    @mummytrolls Місяць тому

    i went to my favorite salad spot today because i genuinely love vegetables. last time i went, i refused to get dressing because of the calories. my friend told me that’s dumb and my salad would be dry but i didn’t listen. it was dry. so this time around, i challenged myself to add dressing to the salad. it was difficult and i ended up choosing a safer option that was tasty because dressing was challenging enough. it was tastier. so much tastier. i told my friend she was right. i wanted one of the sides too. i was conflicted which to get and decided to get both. not the salad bowl or the side, BOTH, which is a huge step for me. i didn’t end up finishing either, but facing the challenge was difficult enough. one day i will be able to finish it all. i’ve been doing this lately and feeling super guilty so this video came at the perfect time. like recently a few times i’ve gotten a sandwich (which specific sandwiches are a safe food) AND the extra i was craving so bad. in this case, i’ve been dying to eat this delicious freaking pastry my ed HATES. i’m usually able to finish the safe sandwich and fear add on which is huge for me considering i usually just eat the safe sandwich nothing else no fear foods added. i’m still pretty deep in my ed but can’t stop thinking about teeny tiny steps in recovery cus of how miserable my ed makes me. i’m at that point where i try to make my diet 80% safe foods and 20% fear foods every day just to challenge my ed cus that’s what i can reasonably handle at the moment. i find it most manageable to combine the safe food with the fear food or having a fear snack instead of a fear meal. at the end of the day, eating one freaking pastry or one sugary snack or adding dressing to my salad will not kill me. it will not make me fat. i have to remind myself of that constantly. ‘this chocolate won’t kill me, it’s literally freaking chocolate.’

    • @mummytrolls
      @mummytrolls Місяць тому

      side note i know i love vegetables not only cus they taste delicious but even in periods of recovery i LOVE vegetables. it just looked different in recovery vs now. like adding veggies to my dinner instead of veggies being my dinner.

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 24 дні тому

      Really pleased this video came at a good time for you :) Thank you for sharing and here's to you moving onwards and upwards in your recovery journey one step at a time. Sending love x

  • @Naphinel
    @Naphinel Місяць тому

    Snow... same in Switzerland right now :)

  • @RomyVandermeulen
    @RomyVandermeulen Місяць тому

    Hi Emily, Hi Emily, I started all-in recovery from anorexia for 4 weeks because eating lists are no longer possible. my problem is that I have already eaten a whole cake or pie every day this week, plus 10 croissants, cookies and chocolate. Loafs of bread every day I feel like I'm not doing it right and that I'm developing other eating disorders. I'm also afraid that I'm eating for food's sake and not listening to my body. I already feel my body changing and I gained a lot like a lot. When I eat I can’t just eat 1 cookie I want every cookie or the whole cake. I’m afraid I’m developing a divergent disorder. I think I’m mentally so hunger and I don’t know if I’m binging really need your advice.🥲

    • @Naphinel
      @Naphinel Місяць тому

      Not Emily, just another ED-fighter here. This isn't bingeing, this is mental hunger (or a stage of this). Fact: your starved body NEEDS all of this cake etc stuff, so go and eat. I know, It's super scary, but don't be afraid, and don't restrict again! Just eat, your body knows, what it does.

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 Місяць тому

      @@Naphinel Thank you for sharing and supporting xx

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 Місяць тому

      @@RomyVandermeulen Hey Romy, I have answered this on a previous video where you commented similarly 🧡

  • @therumowa
    @therumowa Місяць тому

    The last point is great. I notice that if I get used to former Fear Foods, they become new Save Foods, and I would routinely now have this new save food reasoning that I have to repeat eating my fear foods after all. Stacking something I am actually afraid of on top is a great idea to get out of that loop ( and I have got a huge amount of noise in my head now already 😁 ) Thank you! :)

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 Місяць тому

      @@therumowa No problem at all :) It was a tactic I found really helpful in my recovery and I’m pleased that it resonates with you as something supportive xx

  • @brookeponder6258
    @brookeponder6258 Місяць тому

    I cant stop eating.Been binging for 3 months straight on whole pizzas,bags of cookies and 2 bags of chips all in one day.Every day.Will this stop or have i developed binge eating now?Im worried as the weight gain is fast and its mentally been just hard

  • @buzzbeeplays7922
    @buzzbeeplays7922 Місяць тому

    this is so helpful im now a healthy weight but ive been recovering for 3 months now and i still get extreme hunger and i worry that im not actually hungry and should i actually be eating this much? I dont know if im just eating lots of biscuits and cereal for no reason? or is this just my ed speaking?

  • @paulinefoster172
    @paulinefoster172 Місяць тому

    How beautiful you both look, relaxed faces with all the AN stress and anxiety left behind. You give strength to my hopes for my daughter and she, today, found strength from you both. Thanks Emily and Fi.

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 Місяць тому

      @@paulinefoster172 Sending love Pauline xx

  • @MeredithCollet
    @MeredithCollet Місяць тому

    You have no idea how much I needed this exact message today. Thank you for all that you do!

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 Місяць тому

      @@MeredithCollet Really pleased it came a good time for you Meredith, sending love and thank YOU for your love and support xx

  • @teresaobrien8187
    @teresaobrien8187 Місяць тому

    So great you are doing talks in hospitals

  • @oeilemay885
    @oeilemay885 Місяць тому

    This made my day. Thank you so so much for this video. It truly gives a lot of hope and a feeling of being heard 🫶

    • @emilyspence2961
      @emilyspence2961 Місяць тому

      @@oeilemay885 So SO glad you found it helpful and supportive xxx