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Kris Speaking
Приєднався 8 лип 2019
Hey All,
I'm Kris. I'm an Australian female to male transgender human who shares his journey, advice, resources and product reviews. Follow along for the journey!
Instagram: Krisspeaking91
I'm Kris. I'm an Australian female to male transgender human who shares his journey, advice, resources and product reviews. Follow along for the journey!
Instagram: Krisspeaking91
I Read - As Beautiful as Any Other
Howdy Team! I has been a minute. This week I talk reading another Transgender Memoir titled "As Beautiful As Any Other" written by Kaya Wilson.
The Book: www.booktopia.com.au/as-beautiful-as-any-other-kaya-wilson/book/9781760984885.html?dsa=s1-east&gclid=CjwKCAiAwKyNBhBfEiwA_mrUMnmorpbjN8Xq10gA0cAhKmW1OMF7YANNDHraYuNyBxamx3CVKaRD6RoCLqAQAvD_BwE
MY INSTAGRAM: krisspeaking91
**Channel Sunset**
As we head into the end of the year the videos uploaded here will become less frequent. I have had a great time on UA-cam for the last couple of years and I don't want to go into making content for the hell of it. I will continue to post videos that I think are relevant and helpful when they come up but you will likely see less of these going into 2022.
Where am I going?
Life at one point or another becomes more than transition, and I have been loving getting into writing and the bookstagram community where you can follow me if you like talking about all things literature: afictionale...
I am unsure if this will go into a UA-cam direction but I have been working on a channel just in case ;)
ua-cam.com/channels/SCW.html...
As always, let me know if there are trans related things that you want to see talked about and I'll see what I can do.
Thanks for hanging out these last few years!
The Book: www.booktopia.com.au/as-beautiful-as-any-other-kaya-wilson/book/9781760984885.html?dsa=s1-east&gclid=CjwKCAiAwKyNBhBfEiwA_mrUMnmorpbjN8Xq10gA0cAhKmW1OMF7YANNDHraYuNyBxamx3CVKaRD6RoCLqAQAvD_BwE
MY INSTAGRAM: krisspeaking91
**Channel Sunset**
As we head into the end of the year the videos uploaded here will become less frequent. I have had a great time on UA-cam for the last couple of years and I don't want to go into making content for the hell of it. I will continue to post videos that I think are relevant and helpful when they come up but you will likely see less of these going into 2022.
Where am I going?
Life at one point or another becomes more than transition, and I have been loving getting into writing and the bookstagram community where you can follow me if you like talking about all things literature: afictionale...
I am unsure if this will go into a UA-cam direction but I have been working on a channel just in case ;)
ua-cam.com/channels/SCW.html...
As always, let me know if there are trans related things that you want to see talked about and I'll see what I can do.
Thanks for hanging out these last few years!
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The Power of Pubic Hair
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This week I talk about how pubic hair helps to alleviate some of my genital dysphoria. INSTAGRAM: krisspeaking91 Channel Sunset As we head into the end of the year the videos uploaded here will become less frequent. I have had a great time on UA-cam for the last couple of years and I don't want to go into making content for the hell of it. I will continue to post videos that I th...
FTM - Weird Thing that Make me Euphoric
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This week I share some things which are a little out of the ordinary that give me a sense of gender Euphoria. INSTAGRAM: krisspeaking91 Channel Sunset As we head into the end of the year the videos uploaded here will become less frequent. I have had a great time on UA-cam for the last couple of years and I don't want to go into making content for the hell of it. I will continue t...
FTM Trans Advice - It Doesn't Happen Overnight
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One of the best pieces of advice I received when starting my medical transition was that this doesn't happen overnight. If you are scared and confused as you begin HRT that is ok, and it is honestly normal. It is when you start thinking to yourself that you should not be doing this that you need to listen to that voice in your head. The changes were much slower than I realised and that gave my ...
I Finally Read Sorted by Jackson Bird
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I finally read Jackon Bird's "Sorted"! Here are some thought and learnings! INSTAGRAM: krisspeaking91 Jackson Bird: ua-cam.com/users/jackisnotabird Sorted: www.simonandschuster.com/books/Sorted/Jackson-Bird/9781982130756
Family Events After Coming Out
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Going to extended family events after coming out can be fairly triggering for anyone after coming out. The constant need to validate yourself or even put up with being called the wrong name or pronoun can be disheartening. This week I share some of my experiences: INSTAGRAM: krisspeaking91
Switching from Testogel to Reandron
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Starting on Testogel gave me a sense of control, I ended up making the switch to Reandron for convenience and cost efficiency after about 10 months. SOCIALS: krisspeaking91
Getting Married as a Trans Dude
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About a month ago, Rach and I got married. It was such a blessing for me to be able to get married as her husband. It was something I never thought would happen. This is how the day went as a Trans person (photos at the end). INSTAGRAM: krisspeaking91 MUSIC: ua-cam.com/video/KHIw8vvo4iU/v-deo.html
2 Years on Testosterone!
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Hey Team! This week I go head to toe to explain the physical changes that have occurred over the last two years. Slideshow of the timeline from about 10.15-12 minutes if you want to skip to that part :) Socials: INSTAGRAM: krisspeaking91 Music: ua-cam.com/video/KHIw8vvo4iU/v-deo.html
Uncomfortable Questions Pt 2 - The D
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Now that I have had top surgery, I often get asked "what's next?". Honestly .. right now, nothing. I am just going about life, living as freely as I can. How do you navigate these uncomfortable questions? INSTAGRAM: krisspeaking91
FTM Sex and Intimacy - Sexuality Shifts
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My sexual identity changed once I came out as trans and started a medical transition. I even thought I might be a gay man for a time. I was very lucky that my partner is so understanding and allowed me to mentally explore and come to the conclusion that I am bisexual. It can be a weird and confusing time to navigate. INSTAGRAM: krisspeaking91
The Idea of Going Stealth
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I can certainly see the appeal of going stealth. I have wanted to in a few scenarios myself, but it doesn't fit in with my lifestyle and personality. For me being visible means I am available if people need to talk it out. I don't go up to strangers and announce my transness, nor do I shy away when asked. INSTAGRAM: krisspeaking91
I Don't Want to be Trans - A Rant
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Sometimes life as a trans person gets a tad frustrating, how do you cope? INSTAGRAM: krisspeaking91
Post Op Depression
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Post op depression can come in a few different ways, for me it was about the look and the emotions behind the surgery. It is pretty normal to feel a little down after a major surgery especially when expectation is slightly different from reality. Yes it is ok to feel down and also happy about the same event. Kris's Socials: INSTAGRAM: krisspeaking91
FTM Sex and Intimacy - Including your Partner
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You've heard it before, communication is key when it comes to intimate activities with your partner(s). It can be really hard to open up. INSTAGRAM: krisspeaking91
FTM Sex and Intimacy - Developing Dysphoria
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FTM Sex and Intimacy - Developing Dysphoria
FTM Sex and Intimacy - Starting Hormones
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FTM Sex and Intimacy - Starting Hormones
FTM Sex and Intimacy - Why does it have to change
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FTM Sex and Intimacy - Why does it have to change
I would date a trans man.
Im a trans guy, rn i really, really don’t want to be trans, i felt this way at the beginning of my journey. I recently joined theater for the first time. Ive had a lot of fun, met a lot of new, amazing people. I have a dressing rehearsal soon, requiring Plain white shirts to be worn. It’s so damn simple, so simple. But it isn’t at the same time. I have a binder that still reveals a good bit of my chest (lgbtunicorns) and i wear hoodies to layer and cover my chest. Im worried im gonna have to drop out of the play, because there’s no way im gonna show up to my school, surrounded by deeply homophobic/transphobic peers, and stand on stage at practice with the body of a girl. I feel like nothing is going to help me.
This was such an honest, raw video. I struggle a lot with the fact that I've often (mostly) just wanted a cis body. It feels like there's a pressure nowadays to disavow dysphoria entirely (and I get why--it's wonderful to want to help people *not* feel bad about their bodies by normalizing difference, etc), but for me dysphoria is a huge and ongoing part of my trans experience. This is a big reason why, I think, I actually don't write a lot of trans male characters. I've been told by friends and CPs before that I should and felt pressure to, and I probably will write a trans male MC someday, but for me my transness enters my characters in different ways. I grew up freeform roleplaying with two of my childhood/teenage best friends and being able to play cis male characters was so freeing for me. It was absolutely both an escape from my body and a way for me to explore my gender identity. My fictional, written characters are, I think, fulfilling a similar role in way. It's frustrating, because so much support for trans writers is focused only on those of us who write trans protagonists (and that's obviously important and awesome), but I can't help but feel like if the support is intended for real trans people who exist in the world, it should also extend to trans (and queer) writers who don't. There's no right or wrong way to be trans, and thank you for sharing your experiences and thoughts. So much of what you said here resonated.
I think we are all in the same boat 😩. We are uncomfortable with everything because we can't achieve what we desire, that is to be a cis person of our inner gender 😢.
Good video :) Watching this after just passing 2 years on T! Easily the biggest moment of clarity I had was after my first male haircut at a barbers. I went in as nervous as one could get (with long hair and still using my birth name) and came out a different person knowing how right it was for me. I will be forever grateful to them for the experience I had that day and glad to have the memory as a defining moment in transition.
That's not how you apply it. You put a thin layer on. All in the instructions.
Did you have problems with sleep at night once taking this gel .thanks
Hey John, I didn’t have any issues sleeping on gel but I did put it on first thing in the morning after a shower
crying about pronouns smells like privilege.
Love how deep your voice is now compared to the video I watched of you from 3 years back
Hi kris Just wanted yo say you're actually applying the gel wrong. It's the reason the gel gets a bad name in the TRT world. You're not supposed to rub it in the way you're doing, if it was a oil based transdermal yes but its ethanol based transdermal, so by rubbing it in you're actually evaporating the solvents that are meant to carry it through the skin. Iv been on this gel for eight years now and on 2 pumps I'm at 30/nmol pre application. Im with a private clinic so iv been able to learn how to apply the most efficiently using blood tests to confirm. The proper way to apply is to spread on thinly with the most minimal rubbing in as possible so it's still wet so the ethanol can do its thing..carry it through the skin. I use digital scales to pump out only half a gram (0.5g) at a time to spread it out thinly as possible in different sections(arm,shoulders). Total amount 2.5grams. Rubbing it in is probably why you need 4 pumps. Hope this helps MrT
Are you still on Reandron?
Sorry about the not-so-great relationship. U might know of Dr. Sigmund Freud's theory of penis envy, but HE claimed that ALL girls go through that. I do not buy that.
i’m going to go see dr graham as a 14 year old trans man. do you think he would prescribe me testosterone?
What happens if you stop in the middle of a cycle of gel?
Hey Kris, great to hear from you, I am in Queensland and just picked up my Testogel today! Can't wait, think I'll just do the 2 pumps per arm. Thanks mate ;-)
I'm a patient at the royal brisbane hospital and I had no clue they did gender services. Its insanely helpful to learn this stuff from you, thank you so much
No problem! I think there is a bit of a wait at the moment to get in but it exists!
My kids make it impossible for me to go 100% stealth. Everyone always wants to know what happened to their mother. Which is fine I like it when someone knows I'm a transman.
i know that this doesn't sound responsible, it for sure isn't i guess, but i was prescribed 50mg of testogel a week ago and since then ive been doing it 2 times a day, in the morning & in the evening. so i increased my dose from 50mg, as i was told to, to 100mg. i feel like i won't have enough testosterone for visible changes if i don't do so. is there maybe anyone that also did that? or that can tell me if its a bad idea and whats gonna happen? i planned on doing the higher dose for like 2 weeks or a month so i might get quicker changes in the beginning and then be able to be more patient when i go back to the prescribed dosis. i'm a very impatient person & i was desperate, that's why i started doing that. i could just stop it right now but i wanted to ask first if thats neccessary. thanks for any opinions or help in advance!
male or female?
as a male, i used to take 1500mg a week for 12 weeks and it doesn't work like the more you take the more results you see. there is a point of diminishing returns, but everyone is different and it could just cause more side effects
Thank you thank you
This is greasy
Did it give you your hair thickness back, or any changes?
Sorry I don't want to get something clear not trying to have a go at you but you've gone to female to male does it work?
I feel for you man just imagine going shopping in or Syria or Libya for that matter not to mention the new one of Ukraine. I really really hope that you are accepted in all these places that has been f***** over by?
*ladies.? Just trying to get on with everyone here and understand where people are coming from
Can you please explain exactly what you meant by that I'm a little bit confused maybe I was on the offensive defensive and I would just really like to know the details so that I can treat you guys fair
So you were saying that every now and then you would not be able to what not get it up get it up or you know do the guy hang what are you actually saying when you decided that you could not go through this stuff and that sex doesn't matter
Why is it so hard just to be gay
Holy crap.... I'm on the verge of tears in Walmart right now. I'm only in a couple of months from cracking open my MtF journey. Thank you so much for making this. It's exactly how I feel. I just want this all to go away. I want to go back to being happy as a MaB. And I think I really was. I used my wife of over 10 years and my 4 kids as an anchor and loved that life. I just don't think it's possible to go back... I must speak with her and get help together. I could speak for much longer on this but I wanted to keep this brief. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I am so glad I found this page, I'm a fellow Aussie and its so hard to find Aussie experiences on here. Thanks for being so open and putting so much effort into your videos, I hope you're doing good :)
I am really unsure if i am a transguy or a girl.. the thing is i feel like i am not uncomfortable enough in my body to be trans ? And i dont wanna be trans.. i wish i would just be cis male or at least my mind be fine with being in a female body.... idk i feel so sensitive whenever this topic starts and even tho i already have a supporting bestie i feel like i al transphobic to myself... and i am scared that transitioning will be hard and i have always been told i am pretty and stuff and ik it sounds weird but what if i waste my female looks and what if i wouldnt even be pretty at all as a male? Like maybe thats a dumb concern but idkkkk
Damn I feel exactly the same, what's new now on your feelings now?
@@usoppsan7435 uh i am avoiding my feelings bc they are confusing, so nothing new 😭 my fam and school are keeping me busy enough- even tho i feel a lil reassured abt being trans but idkkk
@@cloudstattoos2338 that is cool, my friend reassured me in some ways telling me that "trans" is just an adjective. You can be just like a cis man, just that you're trans. Once you do a transition no one could know you're trans, they'll just see a cool man
@@usoppsan7435 i mean i am still confused but thanks C: also love ur pfp xD
hello how many pump don all the gas bottle ?
aaaaa thank you for this, my first shot of Reandron is tomorrow (starting on shots cos of my PMDD and doc said it'd be the most consistent and least up and down) and I soooo needed this video right now, and it was so much more comforting hearing it from another Aussie too!
Good luck with your first shot my friend!
Hi there, do you have to wear packing underwear with it? Or do normal trunks work?
Hi there, you just wear the budgie, nothing else is needed underneath. Your trunks should hold it in place 😊
As a transmac thinking about going on T this was very interesting ! Thank you :)
Can you make an update vid for us!
I am extremely lucky that my manager is part of the LGBTQA+ community. She was beyond supportive of my decision and that helped me to feel more comfortable coming out to my co-supervisors and other personnel.
I enjoy my hair growth also. Nothing wrong with that.
Really happy for you
Mate this video was so well thought out, I'm very proud of you!
It was such an amazing day, magical and perfect! The entire event was filled with so much love for these two lovely people, I was so blessed to be there ^_^
I got to say I'm so glad I came across your videos Kris, you have made me feel much better about myself and my identity. Keep up the awesome bids man.
*Vids
Thanks for the love my friend! You deserve to feel comfortable and happy in your own skin 😊
I do work out but I'm weirdly euphoric about having a bit of a gut. Don't need a 6-pack, a little tummy is fine with me! Do you pack with a regular jock strap or underwear with a packer pocket? If you safety-pinned the pocket closed idk how the packer could fall out.
Im so proud of you for your journey and how you take life one day at a time. You are amazing! (Missed you bud, sorry ive been gone so long, just followed you on Instagram)
Thanks buddy! I hope you’ve been well!
@@KrisSpeaking Been up and down but im trying to stay positive
Thanks for the review! My parents are both avid readers, so I've been on the hunt for a book I'll encourage them to read when I come out. I put this on hold at my library right away. It's been hard coming to grips with the fact that unless I write a book myself, no one will get a clear idea of my own journey. So, I just have to find decent depictions of trans masculine experiences.
This is a great option my friend! It’s a great thing to help include your parents in the conversation. Good luck!
I agree with you. I like the book a lot because it is a) a personal experience but b) also sets the experience in perspective and gives trans and cis people a lot of resources! :)
Hey mate, does it move around much if you do any exercise? I'm looking for something for martial arts.
You can cut them down to size to fit your body. It didn’t move around too much when I was mucking around on the beach 😊
Just had spinal fusion.. I feel you
You have become one of the oldies - love it 😊
Great video mate, thanks. I am tossing up, can't stand packers to be honest but I also know that that area is the first place eyeballs tend to look at so I wonder if something like this might be worth it. I wonder though, is it similar to most packers in that with pants on it just looks like you're trying to suppress a hard on?
Hey Mate! Thanks for the comment. I honestly prefer not to pack as well to be honest. My ranking would go “My Pack” then “Paxies” in terms of comfort … and reasonable bulge. In short, the Paxies packer can have the chub effect depending on your frame (looks ridiculous on me), however you can take it out and cut it down to size 👍
Humm. My definition of man juice is something slightly different.
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Congratulations!! I'm super happy for you Kris!! Wedding photos are lovely, we need to catch up soon!
Thank you my friend! I’m sure we are well overdue 😂
@@KrisSpeaking definitely overdue 😂