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Schyler
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Приєднався 3 лип 2013
I'm a trans woman who shares my journey, unconventional truths, and life with my 12 cats.
Freedom Group: Concluding with Clarity and Peace in My Identity (Ep. 7)
In this final episode, I reflect on my experience with the Freedom Group, a conservative Christian small group, where I attended five out of twelve sessions. I joined with the intention of exploring how faith and identity could coexist, but ultimately decided to leave after realizing that future sessions would divide attendees by biological sex. The leaders offered a private alternative for me, but I found the solution disingenuous and misaligned with my original goal of being part of the group experience. Throughout the process, I often felt like an exception or a burden due to my trans identity, and the constant framing of my presence as a problem left me questioning whether I could stay true to myself while continuing to attend.
The leader’s comment about me being "at war with my body" resonated with me in some ways but also made me realize how deeply our values differed. While I understand their perspective, I’ve come to a place of peace with my body and my decision to transition. This experience, although difficult, gave me clarity and confidence in who I am and what I stand for. I’m grateful for what I’ve learned, but it's clear that our values didn’t align. As I move forward, I hope that by sharing this journey, I can encourage others in similar situations to stay true to themselves while navigating challenging spaces.
0:00 - Introduction and Series Overview
2:00 - Challenges with Group Structure
5:30 - Leaders' Solution and My Reaction
9:00 - Reflecting on My Decision
13:00 - Navigating Pronoun Use and Group Dynamics
18:00 - A Leader’s Perspective on Trans Identity
23:00 - Reflecting on Gender Dysphoria and Transition
28:00 - Gratitude for Medical Transition and Its Role in My Life
35:00 - Why I Chose to Transition
40:00 - Final Thoughts and Saying Goodbye
46:00 - Concluding Reflections and Moving Forward
The leader’s comment about me being "at war with my body" resonated with me in some ways but also made me realize how deeply our values differed. While I understand their perspective, I’ve come to a place of peace with my body and my decision to transition. This experience, although difficult, gave me clarity and confidence in who I am and what I stand for. I’m grateful for what I’ve learned, but it's clear that our values didn’t align. As I move forward, I hope that by sharing this journey, I can encourage others in similar situations to stay true to themselves while navigating challenging spaces.
0:00 - Introduction and Series Overview
2:00 - Challenges with Group Structure
5:30 - Leaders' Solution and My Reaction
9:00 - Reflecting on My Decision
13:00 - Navigating Pronoun Use and Group Dynamics
18:00 - A Leader’s Perspective on Trans Identity
23:00 - Reflecting on Gender Dysphoria and Transition
28:00 - Gratitude for Medical Transition and Its Role in My Life
35:00 - Why I Chose to Transition
40:00 - Final Thoughts and Saying Goodbye
46:00 - Concluding Reflections and Moving Forward
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Freedom Group: Walking the Line Between Belief and Identity (Ep. 6)
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In this video, I reflect on my experience as a transgender woman navigating a conservative Christian Freedom Group. While the people in the group are warm and welcoming, I find myself at odds with their beliefs, particularly their view of gender dysphoria as a moral issue rather than a medical one. For me, transitioning was a rational decision, rooted in addressing the conflict between my physi...
Freedom Group: Unpacking Beliefs on Spirit, Body, and Identity (Ep. 5)
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In this video, I reflect on my experience as a trans woman participating in a Conservative Christian group called Freedom Group. Now that a confrontation about my being trans is behind me, I’ve been able to focus more on the group’s teachings, particularly around the concepts of spirit, soul, and body. We explored how, in their framework, aligning your spirit with God allows your soul and body ...
Freedom Group: Confrontation, Compromise, and Growth (Ep. 4)
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In this Freedom Group session, I found myself deeply engaged in a confrontation of sorts, both internal and external. When the leaders messaged me, I initially thought it was just a friendly check-in. However, things escalated quickly, and it became clear they wanted to address my being transgender. They insisted on meeting before the next session, which raised my suspicions. I knew, deep down,...
Freedom Group: My Struggles with Faith, Identity, and Belonging (Ep. 3)
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In this video, I’m documenting my experience as a transgender woman in a conservative Christian small group called Freedom Group. This is part of a series where I share my emotional journey, trying to understand and be part of this community while balancing my faith and identity. In this second session, I started with a pleasant interaction with one of the leaders, followed by a peaceful worshi...
Freedom Group: Navigating Gender Roles, Faith, and Openness (Ep. 2)
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In this episode, I talk about my first week at the Chapel. Freedom Group. I walk through the experience of arriving at the church's smaller facility, meeting the group members, and noticing how gender roles are deeply embedded in the structure of the sessions. Most of the participants were married couples with kids, and I was one of the few people there on my own. We were given a curriculum boo...
Freedom Group Explained: My Brother’s Powerful Story and Its Impact
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In this interview, I speak with my brother Hunter about his experiences with Freedom Groups at Chapel, seeking insights as I prepare to participate in one. Hunter describes Freedom Groups as spaces for spiritual growth and healing, where participants confront personal struggles and traumas through vulnerability and group discussions rooted in scripture. The group process involves working throug...
Freedom Group: Exploring Identity, Faith, and Gender (Ep. 1)
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Hi, I’m Schyler, an autosexual transgender woman, and this is the first episode of my Freedom Group series. In this video, I share my personal journey with gender dysphoria, starting at age 8, and how I’ve navigated my identity over the years, including coming out and medically transitioning at 25. Now, I’m stepping into a new chapter by joining a Freedom Group at a conservative Christian churc...
MtF Transition: Life through Transition
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Do you guys have any trans christian discord servers? I want to explore the christian religion with fellow trans women
Do you guys have any trans christian discord servers? I want to explore the christian religion with fellow trans women
Do you guys have any trans christian discord servers? I want to explore the christian religion with fellow trans women
Agree that medicine cannot be replaced by God, even if I do also believe in God. I view it more like medicine is one of God’s tools to help people. Just like natural forces, energy, modern technology, all are part of God’s plan to make the earth more and more liveable and heavenly. Everyone who creates, regardless of what they create, needs tools. So why wouldn’t God also need tools? Evolution was his tool to create earth. Medicine is his tool to help the sick and suffering.
When it comes to the trans issue and the community in general, I think Schyler has to realize that she is in the 1or2% that can not only pass but has a real medical condition as well as a thought out and reasoned approach to the entire trans experience. The vast majority of people out their who are not "geniune" like Schyler, but are militant and/or mentally disturbed are the ones causing the problems for the few who should seemlessly be accepted by society. IMO.
Did you undergo VFS? Your voice sounds so feminine! Im
In my view, God’s relationship to us is not contingent on living up to certain standards. He will love us for who we are, as long as we’re trying our best here on this earth. The central parts in Jesus’s statements are often about sharing that love among ourselves and to our neighbours. What I take away from Christianity is that loving out neighbours like we love ourselves is how we share the love of God, not instilling rules or requirements on our neighbours. It shouldn’t matter if that neighbour is a criminal, a saint, a trans person or a completely regular Joe - trying to give that person our genuine love and understanding is what it’s all about. It’s what we’re here on this earth to learn!
I have been cross-dressing most of my life so I only know what it is like to get that little slice of happiness in exploring my feminine side and then I purge and go back into what I think the world expects from me. I am glad to see you find happiness and having the courage to live your life how you want to live =)
So what size did you actually end up being with a 500cc implant? Did you ever get professionally fitted, or did you just figure it out off the rack?
I will pray for you. You cannot “become” a woman if you were born a man. One day our heavenly Father will save you.
Awwww!!! You and your wife look so cut together!!!!
Dude, your just a crossdresser... that's it...
Loved the series! I really appreciate you two putting your shared story out there.
Yeah, I agree that when one transitions, everyone else participates in the transition alongside (for better or for worse). Plus, the closer they are to the transitioner and the longer the relationship to the former self, the harder it is to come around to full acceptance. Everyone in such a picture needs space and time to process and come to terms.
It's very hard to hear Tiffany sometimes...I think you need to get closer to the mic
@@johncatalano1404 we’re going to improve the setup for next time!
I honestly do feel sorry for the mother. She must have felt so betrayed for the lack of transparency pre transition, considering you asked for a ring size without further disclosure. So the mother had every reason and right to feel the way she did out of this complete breach of trust. As long as you and your partner for life love each other and care for one another to the very end, then Godspeed. Just, the energy apparent in this experience of her mother’s heart bleeding out all over the floor from feeling so betrayed putting all her trust in you for the person you presented yourself as at the time, with no further transparency when she’s putting her daughter’s life in your hands, is heartbreaking. Especially when her daughter used to be so close to her mother. In Asian culture family tends to be sacred and the collective mindset of the culture always considers all who are involved in the picture. Family and honor go hand in hand. But all this was ripped away from what was once a healthy daughter-mother relationship. But what do I know. Likely nothing, I’m just some random bystander, but I’m just here to share thoughts likely no one else here would because everyone else is very busy only cheering on the positives of your lives, as they should. It’s very clear you’ve made many sacrifices to get here and it wasn’t easy. But going forward hope you two live a beautiful and honorable marriage, inside and out. Sometimes, a little confrontation is needed for reflection and healing. If confrontation makes you so uncomfortable it may help to ask why. Take care. You two are wonderful souls.
You two are so cute together! I really loved hearing the story of your beautiful relationship from both sides and can only hope I can find such an understanding partner some day. Also Tiffany did a great job for her first stream imo.
bravo! This fosters understanding.
Wow! The story continues, awesome! Dangit! You both are too cute! 😊
1:25:57. Yes!! This! This is something I so dearly wish trans people could accept, their past and who they were and not to be afraid of the "old person" they used to be because it was that person who made them the new in the present.
I took my time getting around to it, but I'm glad to have finally finished listening through your freedom group series. I really admire your courage in pushing yourself to stay in that kind of adversarial space and am a bit sad to see it end so early. It's made me want to try to push harder in my transition to force myself to address everything that I haven't out of fear of what I might find. After my parents found out that I have gender dysphoria I've pulled back from a lot of gender exploration out of fear, but watching this series has reminded me that even though otherwise good, honest, reasonable people won't agree, this is what I want. I can't live the rest of my life as a man, and doing so just to placate family would only make me resent them for "ruining my life," even though it's really just my cowardice. I hope you end up finding your place in the Christian community. I didn't, but I really would like to believe that there's a place for Christian transwomen.
Comments like yours are exactly why I made this series. I came to the same conclusion - that even though people I really respect and admire, especially my family, might not agree with my choices, I’d still make the same decision. For me, transitioning wasn’t about getting approval; it was about finally solving something that had been weighing on me for so long, even if it meant putting some of my closest relationships at risk. I tried every social option I could first, just to be absolutely sure that medical transition was the right path. It’s not an easy road, but I figured out that giving up on who I am to make others comfortable would lead to lifelong regret, arguably even more regret than the possibility of reversing my mind on transition and detransitioning ever could. It's the peace of this realization that has guided my confidence in my decision-making. Thank you for watching the series and for sharing your story - it’s comments like yours that remind me why I opened up about this in the first place
Blessings ! I'm so happy for you ! You are so blessed ! Its everything that your loving partner accepted you for who you are !!!! For me, I was basically kicked out LOL :) Sending you and your loving partner LOVE!!!!! I'm Honestly so happy for you both !!!! and Forever !!!! ❤ LOVE and BLESSINGS FOREVER !!!!!! Mittens (cat) and me, sends our love to you both !! Forever !!!! LOVE ❤ 🕊
Omg you are so cute together. ❤ Me(MtF) and my cisgender gf are currently on similar path. I am on HRT for about a month and a half.
I noticed around the fifty minute mark that you both have rosy cheeks... especially Tiffany. And then realized you're probably just blushing recounting these uncomfortable episodes! But I think they brought you even closer together. Btw I've watched this in three parts because it's so lengthy! But so worth watching. I hope you start a regular series as a couple.😊
The vibe I'm getting from you two is two bff's from childhood who grew up and always thought they were straight but then fell in love with each other. And lived happily ever after. 😻😻
I feel so sorry for Tiffany's mother and for the harm you caused in their relationship. Seems pretty selfish and self involved rather than caring about them as you should have. I hope Tiffany realizes what she's getting into..
Hey!! You two are too cute 😇
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wtf u are discusting i hate u ewwwwwwwwww u are so shiiii man be man ohhhhhh u are so so shiiiii waht going on
Utter delusion. Biological reality doesn't give a damn about your feelings.
Hey Skyler have when was the time you changed your voice for voice training
Your channel just popped up in my feed .. really enjoyed your videos ❤
Hi Skyler, I love this series that you did. I am also a Christian who identifies with AGP or auto sexuality. I have not transition because I had already started a family by the time that I put all the pieces of the puzzle together, and I don’t feel that it would be fair to them. The path that I have taken so far is that I take a low-dose of hormones that seems to help cope with some of the symptoms. As a Christian with AGP one of my biggest struggles is that the root of Christianity is that we should deny ourselves and have a new life in Christ. For me, it causes a lot tension because I feel like the AGP tends to make me focus an enormous amount of energy towards myself rather than Christ. I don’t have the answer for you or for myself, but I do know that God knows what we are struggling with and I pray that we can just continue to try and walk along with Christ to the best of our ability and see where he continues to lead us.
This reminds me of a scene in "A Few Good Men" when Lt. Kaffee (Tom Cruise) turns to Corp. Dawson, who has just been discharged for conduct unbecoming a Marine, and tells him "You don't have to wear a patch on your arm to have honor". I would tell you that "You don't need the approval of a religious group to validate your identity".
I love that you tried with that group, but there are other religions and spiritualities that you can consider. I've discovered that looking inward is all I needed and that's why I studied Eastern philosophies. But back to the original point. You are a woman by your energy, that is, your engrams. If they cannot accept you completely as a woman, then that's not the group for you. Their ultimate goal is likely to make you doubt yourself so they can detransition you. I hope you never have doubts about yourself like that and that you will live your life to the fullest.
It's interesting since at the end I was like I bet they didn't let her speak to the group as to why your leaving since to them your a wild card. They don't understand trans people so it's always going to be a thing of what will they do or react or say. Its more of the will they be agreeable or argumentative? Whats funny is the narrow minded is what makes some people more concervative than others. I see your point of if they would meet you at a friendship or empathetic level they might be more accepting but at it stands that seems like it goes against their normal concervative beliefs.
i think it is sad. this has panned out this way for this group... interestingly i have recently being trying to be apart of an openly "certified" (affirming) church... the opposite feeling... as if to say... if you do not 100 accept every identity and sexuality.. then your also.. not welcome.. or shunned.. or.. what ever phrase... aka feel bad because you do not agree!! Its interesting the parallels you and i share... on the opposite coin... and both of us.. just wanting to be followers of Christ
Hi Shyler. I ve been watching several of your videos. I would like to give you some feedback, esp. since you are so sincere and earnest in living a life according to your highest principles. I am in my 60s, and found out I am trans... recently, a few month ago, so I already have quite a large experience of life Born a man, feeling like I should or that I am be a woman inside. Its both very beautiful and very difficult to balance this. And your videos have been very helpful to me processing trans-ness. But enough about me. It seems to me that your leaders in that group, really have no clue about what you are. They dont know much if at all about transgenderism. But still, they want to FIX you. Bring you inline with their paradigm. Thats where I am not comfortable with their intentions. Their version of the Christian God. Every time you mention God, it comes across as a voice from outside that you are trying to adhere to, or please, because that is how yo have been raised. I m not sure God is really outside. I feel that God is in a large part a personal intimate relationship with our highest Self, Atman, or Purusha in Hinduism etc, different words for different traditions. Perhaps being trans is not easy somehow for you to reconcile with you spiritual ideals. Perhaps that what you are looking for, like in that group. I sense in you that you are quite in harmony with being trans, you have done quite a bit of progress there, but there are still some doubts. I am not really sure these people want to open up their philosophical sense of what you are to include your trans-ness. They have wanted to fix you, (fix your supposed trauma, as you said) from day one. Bring the good pilgrim back to God. Thats how they dont admit you as a girl. You need fixing for these folks. I dont think you need fixing. You are doing fine. You seem very aware and responsible and it just happens that you are like several of us including me, trans. Most scriptures do not give a lot of thoughts or teachings on that. Trans have been here from time immemorial, but now this is outside the church, not outside Christianity, but outside the regular teachings of the church. So realize that they are out of their depth! Resist any group that wants to change you to fit their preconceived ideas ! They are not going to rock the boat esp. in a conservative group. I have nothing against conservative teachings, I am influenced by some aspects of the Mystical tradition in Christianity and Hinduism, which ARE conservative. I just love seeing how you have grown with all this in your life. I wish I had had your strength early in my life to push towards accepting my feminity. It seems this just as beautiful to me as it is to you! We are learning to love ourselves, love our trans identity, and bloom with it all. Its a lovely process. I wish you the best dearest ;) A Canadian fan ;)
if i am not mistaken that is the whole idea of islam, and why women need to cover their bodies.. head to toe.. because men are not in control of their fleshly desires... that just seems like such a cop out! Its the same reason in most states.. women can not be topless... because men are weak..
This is such a compelling series, I hope you can carry on with the sessions and continue to reflect to us your thoughts and feelings. I look forward to your future content.
Hi Schyler! You really hit on a core issue that is troubling when it comes to this type of environment: Why are they treating this as a moral rather than a medical issue? I love the examples you gave about how the church people would not dare try to prevent someone from wearing glasses or taking diabetes medication, but they presume that they can correctly diagnose your situation and the course you should take. I'm relieved to hear that you are stepping away from this group, and I hope that the leaders are introspective enough to reflect on what they could have done to provide a more loving environment.
Excellent point she made. I think we can all venture to see why they see this as a moral issue as opposed to a medical one...shame 🥺
i don’t see how u can be attracted to yourself. that’s so strange to me. i’ve never heard of that. didn’t u say u r not autogynophilic? isn’t that kinda the same thing? autogynophilia is based on lies too. most cis women like to feel attractive and feel sexy. doesn’t mean they want themselves. real trans women don’t transition for sexual reasons. anyone who does that in my opinion is not trans. and don’t u have a husband? so r u not attracted to him?
@bigred-m9h that’s completely false. i’ve researched every single study done since the 1970s!!! agp isn’t real. it was an idea made up by one singular guy. it holds zero water. yes there r sexual reasons people want to transition. in my opinion based on all studies worldwide, anybody who transitions for sexual reasons is absolutely not trans. because trans is a reality, not sexual urge. i dont think anybody should transition for sexual reasons that is recipe for disaster! most trans women r not agp because agp isn’t even established fact and it has nothing to do with being trans. so u can believe what u want, but the facts say differently.
Thank you for watching the video and sharing your thoughts! Yeah I understand how autosexuality can sound strange, especially since it’s not widely discussed. For me, it is about being attracted to the mental image of myself as a woman, which I think is different from being exclusively attracted to others. I don't personally identify with the term autogynephilia because it has a lot of baggage and misinterpretation attached to it. Besides, autosexuality isn’t about transitioning for sexual reasons- that would be shortsighted in my opinion esp because libido plummets on estrogen therapy. It’s more about how my brain is wired to perceive myself and the emotional patterns that manifest from that. Many trans women, myself included, transition because our sense of self doesn’t align with our body and there's manifestations of life disruption - gender dysphoria - that emerge from that. But I think any truly honest investigation of dysphoria includes sexuality because the body is in the interface for how sexuality is experienced. Natal women might enjoy feeling attractive or sexy, but autosexuality is more about a mental relationship with your own self-image, not just feeling good about how you look. And yes, I do have a wife. Being autosexual doesn’t take away from my attraction to her or even other people. It’s just one part of how I experience myself that I think is interesting. I don't know everything though and am always learning more
Pretty much most religions when they say let god into your heart mean exactly what you just found out that its how ever the leaders or thr group feels people should do or fit without thinking critically.
Such good news, Schyler! Honestly after you had so clearly described how basically the group sounds like a cult, so I am happy to see you going back to your wonderful family cell, I am praying for you and your wife to continue to be blessed and live happily together, you deserve to enjoy an accepting and affirming environment. Congrats on exiting! Just to introduce myself I am a fan, (and that is a word I would seldom use as a viewer) I find you simply awesome and am happy to be cheering/rooting for your happiness!
Omg so cute.
Far right Christians want lgbt dead and or no rights ie holocaust. Why are you involved with such a church. Christian liberal future lay minister
Trusting God,Thats me when God said embrace my feelings and transition, it helped I heard Gods speak to me before, life with Jesus is awesome