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IllumināDID
United States
Приєднався 18 чер 2023
RAMCOA/TBMC survivor, CSA survivor | Advocate and Information Hub | DID system sharing life. 🫶🏼
MTA Caliope | Primary Protector, Memory Keeper | Dissociative Identity Disorder | IllumināDID
I filmed my intro for the channel since I've been out for much of the week. Nothing too exciting, just sharing my role in the system.
-Caliope
⚠️DISCLAIMER⚠️
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We are *NOT* medical professionals! We are professionally diagnosed with PNES, DID, ADHD, ASD, and GAD. We speak from a purely experiential view and will cite any sources mentioned in any videos. Please DO NOT use our videos as a diagnostic tool or evidence for a generalized statement. We speak from our view, and all opinions and beliefs are ours and ours alone. Our channel is geared towards helping support survivors of extreme and severe trauma know that they are not alone in this world. Thank you.
ℹ️ABOUT OUR CHANNELℹ️
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✨ IllumināDID ✨ (pronounced: il-LOO-mih-nay-did) is a channel committed to destigmatizing dissociative identity disorder. We hope to shed a brighter light on the ins and outs of living with dissociative identity disorder from a patient perspective. We also want to create a community where people with dissociative identity disorder, their families, and friends can come to learn more about the condition and how it presents for us. As the channel grows, we hope to include Q&As and live streams. Your support is vital and greatly appreciated. If you’ve read this far, thank you so much for reading. We hope you will join us.
Check out our channel here:
www.youtube.com/@IlluminaDID
Don’t forget to subscribe!
🌐FIND US AT🌐
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illuminadid.org
-Caliope
⚠️DISCLAIMER⚠️
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We are *NOT* medical professionals! We are professionally diagnosed with PNES, DID, ADHD, ASD, and GAD. We speak from a purely experiential view and will cite any sources mentioned in any videos. Please DO NOT use our videos as a diagnostic tool or evidence for a generalized statement. We speak from our view, and all opinions and beliefs are ours and ours alone. Our channel is geared towards helping support survivors of extreme and severe trauma know that they are not alone in this world. Thank you.
ℹ️ABOUT OUR CHANNELℹ️
┕━»•» 🌸 «•«━━━━━┙
✨ IllumināDID ✨ (pronounced: il-LOO-mih-nay-did) is a channel committed to destigmatizing dissociative identity disorder. We hope to shed a brighter light on the ins and outs of living with dissociative identity disorder from a patient perspective. We also want to create a community where people with dissociative identity disorder, their families, and friends can come to learn more about the condition and how it presents for us. As the channel grows, we hope to include Q&As and live streams. Your support is vital and greatly appreciated. If you’ve read this far, thank you so much for reading. We hope you will join us.
Check out our channel here:
www.youtube.com/@IlluminaDID
Don’t forget to subscribe!
🌐FIND US AT🌐
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illuminadid.org
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Відео
Types of switches in DID | IllumināDID
Переглядів 19021 день тому
This video is an educational(ish) sort that covers a bunch of different types of switches that CAN occur within a DID system. Our system is being used as the example, but there are many other ways switches can look and feel, so please don't take this as the be-all-end-all of switch rules. Watch other videos of other systems talking about this topic. It's been pointed out online that switching i...
Coming to terms with RAMCOA trauma | How to HELP SUPPORT survivors | IllumināDID
Переглядів 307Місяць тому
This video shares some insight on coming to terms with knowing you have survived RAMCOA. It also tells our story of what happened to us, without being too graphic. As well, there are tips to help support survivors, and a message from a survivor to others. All our love. Stay safe. -Lián » Contents of this video « 0:00 - Intro 0:32 - Today's Video is about... 0:54 - Trigger Warning re: RAMCOA 1:2...
Channel Introduction | IllumināDID
Переглядів 47Місяць тому
Curious what the channel is about? Now you know! ⚠️DISCLAIMER⚠️ ┕━»•» 🪷 «•«━━━━━┙ We are *NOT* medical professionals! We are professionally diagnosed with PNES, DID, ADHD, ASD, and GAD. We speak from a purely experiential view and will cite any sources mentioned in any videos. Please DO NOT use our videos as a diagnostic tool or evidence for a generalized statement. We speak from our view, and ...
Channel Trailer | IllumināDID
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What the Channel is about, in a nutshell! ⚠️DISCLAIMER⚠️ ┕━»•» 🪷 «•«━━━━━┙ We are *NOT* medical professionals! We are professionally diagnosed with PNES, DID, ADHD, ASD, and GAD. We speak from a purely experiential view and will cite any sources mentioned in any videos. Please DO NOT use our videos as a diagnostic tool or evidence for a generalized statement. We speak from our view, and all opi...
MTA | Nimué | Protector | Consent & Healing SA trauma | DID | IllumināDID
Переглядів 128Місяць тому
Meet Nimué (Nim), one of our protectors! She goes into what her role is, brief mentions of trauma without detail, and then has a message re: consent and body image. I don't think it's too triggering, but as usual, maintain responsibility for your triggers and if you feel unsafe, feel free to click away. I edited this one since Ren is fired as editor now. -Lián ⚠️DISCLAIMER⚠️ ┕━»•» 🪷 «•«━━━━━┙ W...
MTA | Gareth | Dissociative Identity Disorder | Failed Fusion | IllumināDID
Переглядів 105Місяць тому
Gareth was out this week and filmed a proper introduction video (post split) since the fusion with Marcus didn't quite stick. So, get to know his rambling self a little bit! -Ren ⚠️DISCLAIMER⚠️ ┕━»•» 🪷 «•«━━━━━┙ We are *NOT* medical professionals! We are professionally diagnosed with PNES, DID, ADHD, ASD, and GAD. We speak from a purely experiential view and will cite any sources mentioned in a...
LYING to ourselves?? | Denial & Dissociative Barriers
Переглядів 5152 місяці тому
We've been having a hard time filming while grounded so we said "screw it" and filmed dissociated instead. That is kind of the channel's purpose, to show many aspects of the disorder. So anyway, we ramble a bit about our views on denial and dissociative barriers in the system, Drystan pops in to round us out, and that's that. Have a good week! Sorry about the late vid. -Blended af ⚠️DISCLAIMER⚠...
Big Body, Smol Brain | Children in a Dissociated System | IllumināDID
Переглядів 1002 місяці тому
This video talks about system children, and how our system interacts with them internally and externally with our partner. This is a brief overview, so if people want to know more about anything in particular relating to this video, please feel free to drop the suggestion in the comments and we'll take it into account! TW for brief talk of intimacy/adult activities (PG rated, but mentioned none...
What is RAMCOA & TBMC | IllumināDID
Переглядів 5552 місяці тому
This video aims to briefly run through what RAMCOA and TBMC are, from someone who has survived this form of abuse. We have added chapters to make the video easier to navigate and refer to. PROCEED WITH CAUTION . This topic can be destabilizing to those not ready to face that aspect of their trauma, and triggering to those who may not know about it. If at any point you feel triggered or even unc...
Personal system vibes from media : One Piece
Переглядів 432 місяці тому
A very different, very quick video this week. I decided (unsure who we've been for the past few days or so) it might be fun to share how we, as a system, sometime spot aspects of our own system and alters in media. This video is likely to be the first of many in this vein because this one was a lot of fun to make. Video comes from Netflix's One Piece. ⚠️DISCLAIMER⚠️ ┕━»•» 🪷 «•«━━━━━┙ We are *NO...
We SACKED the Gatekeeper (A Vlog/System Update) ft. the Kitchen and a new mic! | IlluminaDID
Переглядів 863 місяці тому
As things progress in healing and life, we seem to regain confidence. We did, in fact, sack the gatekeeper. We also got a new mic, which we will link below because it's amazing and a complete game-changer. We hope you're enjoying the less "cut" and edited version of us, because we're liking it a lot more. -Lián ~Chapter Markers~ 00:26 - Intro : Blended 04:28 - Lián : Making Rice Balls 12:55 - S...
System Update or SURVIVING MEMORY HELL | IlluminaDID
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System Update or SURVIVING MEMORY HELL | IlluminaDID
The end of our trauma season | Returning to creation | IlluminaDID | Dissociative Identity Disorder
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The end of our trauma season | Returning to creation | IlluminaDID | Dissociative Identity Disorder
8 VITAL HABITS to help you heal from trauma and grow as a person | IlluminaDID
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8 VITAL HABITS to help you heal from trauma and grow as a person | IlluminaDID
Love this idea!! We say 'Go For It!' ✌️❤️
Sometimes I wonder if picrew makers realize just how helpful their makers are in some forms of healing. also belated hi (i wasnt in the headspace to comment when this was posted lol). :x
Thank you so much, we’re still questioning if we have dealt with RAMCOA or TBMC ourselves so this is really informative, either way thank you so much.
Thanks for talking about this topic! You look well. Hope you're feeling well.
This is a great idea, and it's travel size!
I didn't realize the bottom was the worst place to put the text smh my bad. -Blended
No worries. Thanks for sharing!
Congruent and common names is project based correlation of evidence awesome video
Very helpful video! Something we have experienced and/or observed in our DID System friends is that switches can differ by the "role" the alter might have. For example, when a "host" part switches in, they may be a bit dizzy or disoriented as they ground to the front. Whereas, when a "persecutor" or "protector" part switches in, they are immediately clear and present and grounded to the front. Of course, this can be different for every system.
Awesome to meet you Gareth! I hope things get better for you soon, you deserve it <3 all of you do. edit: we get it it btw! psychosis is horrifying, youre very brave to deal with all that, we fall somewhere on the schizo spectrum ourselves, thought it hasnt been diagnosed. we've just experienced psychosis since like age 3 and everyday since then, stress or not - a lot of alters from the Noctifloral Paracosm, everyone wanted to say hi- (to explain, noctifloral means blooming at night and a paracosm is an extensive inner world in a child's brain, which is basically what a system is, it exists there-)
im p sure me subscribing makes 300 subscribers!
IT DID lmao THANK YOU! 🫶 -Lián
@@IlluminaDID youre welcome! - idk we're blurry-
Trigger warning Your real I believe you
Switching is switching. It is a neurophysiological activity caused by triggers. This is the moment when the fronting alter changes into another alter. There is no "type of switches". There are different types of triggers. There are different states of consciousness when somebody with DID is switching. But switching is only the one neurophysiological activity.
@@didsociety I acknowledged this in the first 30 seconds via the disclaimer explaining that every switch is a triggered reaction. As a system who experiences switches, they do not all feel the same. In order to classify how different ones feel, we use the word "type". Our apologies if that offends your sensibilities. If you have a better description for the way switches can feel different, we are open to suggestions. /gen /nn -Caliope
Take this analogy (sorry if it’s gross). Pooping is pooping - yes? BUT there are different types of poop, right? Not all poops are created the same (even though they literally are :) Even though the starting and ending points are the same ( starts with food - ends with voiding of the food) depending on the circumstances- you can have an explosive poop, a strained poop, diarrhea….get me?
I snorted way too hard reading this, but you're bang on with the analogy. 🤣😂 -Lián
How did you guys learn of each other and your roles? I feel like we have a memory keeper but none of us remember anything about the inner world (if we even have an internal reality) when we front River 🌊
Trial and error tbh. We had to actively make the decision to stop avoiding the others inside and actually get to know them somehow. So, no avoiding when another part gets close that makes us feel some type of way. Talking out loud really helped a lot bc I can hear the differences in who is actually vocalizing the thought. Uh...I'm in the same boat as you, River, I don't remember much about others. I really only know Drystan, Nim, and Caliope. More than just, they exist. Like, as people lol. -Lián
thank you so much for this video, we're a ramcoa system (we found out thanks to other ramcoa systems who saw the signs far before we did), and this is so important. its because of other RAMCOA systems like yourself that we feel there is hope for us. we did dig when we found out and now indeed know; do not dig. let it come naturally. and it did. its hard but we all deserve healing and love. thank you for reminding us of that!
Man you guys make me want to step my content up! Your videos are great! We’re just learning we’re a system and the point of our channel is to document the beginning stages of learning you’re a system. Thanks for making your content I don’t think I have the trauma you experience in totality but I’ve experienced similar things (from the little I know), it’s nice to find a community 🫶🏾 -River 🌊
@@BlobChild Thanks River! Our River says g'day! We want to build a community for people who may be confused by their disorder or want support or to know it DOES get better even though it does also bite. Thanks for the encouraging words! 💞🫂❤️ -Caliope
@@IlluminaDID that’s neat another River- he’s never met one in person - Karl 📋
They're planning on filming their intro soon. They're accented in the body, so they sound DRASTICALLY different than the rest of us. One of 4 accented alters. -Caliope
@@IlluminaDID oh interesting, besides pitch and speech patterns we don’t sound different Karl 📋
this was incredibly informative and well-made. we are not a survivor of RAMCOA or TBMC but we are actively trying to educate ourselves about it so we are equipped with the knowledge to potentially support any survivors of RAMCOA/TBMC who we may meet in the future. i’m so sorry that your system experienced such extreme horror in childhood. i really, really hope that the daycare you went to is shut down now. i’m so proud of you all for working on healing; it takes unimaginable strength to do that. you’re doing great :) lastly, as a survivor of religious trauma (not RAMCOA but we have trauma that occurred in the church), i really appreciate your lil rant about how awful catholicism is; i completely agree with what you said. i hope you guys have a great rest of your day :D here’s a *virtual hug* if you want one, but if not, *gives you a mug of hot chocolate instead* :D -alex
nice to meet you caliope! :D
Hello there! -Caliope
Thank you so much! This video has helped a lot and has helped me feel stronger
We want to share strength so we are glad. 🫂💞 -Caliope
👋 ❤😊
We're a RAMCOA system and we suspect we were trafficked by our parents. We're pretty sure our mother trafficked us and we're beginning to suspect our father was involved as well although you would never know it from his mostly kind behaviour in the daytime and the financial support he has provided for us over the years. He does care about us, as does our mother, but who they are in the daytime does not necessarily reflect who they may be in the night time after the clock strikes midnight and specific alters tend to come out. We are limited with what we are able to say as we are still being trafficked into our organization during the night time anywhere from on average 1 am to 3 am for anywhere from a half hour to 3 or 4 hours. It doesn't happen as nearly as often as it used to but it still happens and we have to adjust our sleep schedule to it. We hope that we can negotiate with our abusers and come to an agreement where we don't have to go to ceremonies at night anymore but we are limited with that we are able to say and do regarding that. This is all life and death and leaving isn't so simple as they are in many different states in the US as well as in canada and they will hunt most people down who attempt to escape. We are grateful for our care team and we hope to be in a better spot someday. We've been through so many terrible horrific things throughout the years its really hard to accept sometimes that a lot of these flashbacks are real and did actually happen to us. We don't think we said anything we aren't allowed to say. Best of luck to all the other survivors out there.
ADHD sucks butt with DID. ❤ thanks for sharing.
“And our therapist has told me that feeling is healing and that sharing those memories will help… I don’t believe that, because remembering graphic details or pain does not feel like something that would be healing to the overall system.” THIS. As the protector and gatekeeper of our system, I share the same opinion. Some memories just should be kept away. Thank you for sharing this. It was lovely to meet you, Nim. Best of luck to you. -Devon
♡♡♡ Thanks for putting this together.
You're videos are so healing for us. Thank you so much
I’m gonna take seeing this video as a sign to open up to my therapist about our concerns about the potential that we have ramcoa stuff in our past. I struggle to wrap my head around it all, but I want to take my systems concerns seriously even if I don’t remember everything myself (I mean that’s the point of the disorder anyways). Especially because what might be there might not be as severe as a lot of people’s stories, though I know that doesn’t discount it. Thank you for being so vulnerable and open to bring awareness to such a hidden issue.
We personally don't think we have RAMCOA, however it is interesting to see people talking about it that isn't it being called fake (cough cough r/fdc or r/syscringe); we really enjoyed this video, keep up the good work you guys! -4 and the rest of the radio static system
Thanks for having the open minded nature to watch it through! /gen /nm It is notoriously called conspiracy and we are actively working to change that. -Caliope
I'm so grateful for this content ❤
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Just adding - this video is such a good message for where we are at. Been going through partial flashbacks since 2022, huge grief and intense and clearly programmed states, but we don’t have access to images or specific details. It’s so good to find medicine attuned to the in-between. Thank you! ❤️🕊️
⚡As always, thank you so much. 🖤 Lin ⚡, 🌲The Wychwood Collective🌲
You're so very welcome! 🫂💞
Wonderfully informative video. 👏 glad yall are still here, and heck yeah for progress and healing. Thank you for your courage and all that you do♡♡♡
🫶💖 Thank you! And we try our best so you're so very welcome! -Nim
Thank you for this extremely informative video, and for being so vulnerable with your audience. It contributes greatly to the way others view RAMCOA to iterate it is real, it impacted real people, and the symptoms formed due to those specific types of traumas are unfortunately a collective experience. Thank you for being so brave and caring of others as to share your story, and what you’ve learned along the way.
🫶💖 Thank you so much! -Nim
Great video, thank you, 🫶.
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☆♡ Thank you for all you do.
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