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I literally just crashed out and quit working on this paper that's, like, a whole month overdue. I said in my head, "Sorry prof., can't finish this paper, I gotta kill myself," and this video came up when I opened youtube for a break. Life is funny sometimes, you know?

Thank you. This is helping.

thank you

I opened UA-cam after a bad r3l@pse to distract myself. This was the first video I saw. I can't express how much i needed this. Thank you.

I'm trying to take responsibility, because my future and my life in general depends on it, it feels hopeless when every principle I've followed has led me to project, lie and make excuses. It feels hopeless but I try

Its funny how I see this scrolling through my feeds and assuming I've been feeling quite down...my emotions changing a lot anyways how am I to plan for the future where I see nothing for me...

This song is relaxing. Thank you 👽✌️

OK... What did I do to get this video suggested? Is it because I started showing interest in Death Note? Oooooh the spooky D word! No no, bad, no goood

Hey guys. Struggling with abusive parents and suffering every day from the traumas of previous abusive experiences. Sometimes I think of dying as a way to leave. I want to get out of this house some day.

I've been sitting by the train tracks every week for months now. I stay there for hours, not two meters from it. I smoke one cigarette, and I look at the tracks-- which comes first, the sound, or the lights? There are high-speed trains, and freight trains. The freight trains are slower, longer. The noise is deafening. It'd be easy to lie there, put my head on the rail. I wouldn't have to face it, I could lie on my side and cover my ears. My head would be crushed and I probably wouldn't feel a thing, aside from the fear, and the vibrations on my cheek. I feel a bit better now. It comes and goes, it always does, and I have harmed myself before, but it might have been the closest I've come to committing suicide. I still go there to smoke a cigarette, my one cigarette of the week, but it's a bit different; I sit further away. I look at the trees, the grass. I listen to the birds. Maybe I'd rather live, for now.

It will never be the same anymore... but maybe that can be turned good don't you think dear internet friend ? Anything that happens makes us evolve, if out here you, reading this, got problems it might not feel like it right now but one day you will be grateful you had them because it helped you become who you are today. So, please, and I mean PLEASE, stay alive

i suffered depression for three years recently, only this year has actually been a decent one for me. i felt awful so many times - it's very hard to communicate how hopeless you really feel. if there's any promise i could make to any of you experiencing the same: things WILL get better

no

how the fuck this video appeared on my main screen after i talked about OD'in paracetamol to my friend for 3 days

I tried to. I held hope that my future self would thank me. I am my future self, four years on. I wish my past self had done it.

Perfect timing, amazing music. As a person who hates literally everything right now, I hate everything except this music, thanks.

Hey there friend, listen for a moment. If you have the time... I see you're weary from your journey, the cycle of survival is waning and it seems like it might be best to cut away. I know that well. An old friend of mine unfortunately passed away after taking her life in april this year. Which I learned recently when I noticed her lack of presence. It was so strange to realize that that person was gone. It was very peculiar because I believed rather certainly that if I was to disappear then no one would notice or care. I'm a forlorn sort, I keep to myself and prefer my alone time. Yet. Even so. I still have family and people who regard me as their friend. Even people I have forgotten. In this case, I was one of those people she had simply forgotten. We used to be very good friends when our group remained together strong. However she moved and changed drastically as she became her true self. Transitioning. It was...Difficult to accept but I did my best at the time to accomadate and alter my perspective. As time would go on we would all grow very distant to each other as we pursued our lives. Though I still kept an eye out on their progress, occasionally checking in should it seem like they could use some assistance. I had this grand idea that once I had fully established my own life I could bring us all back together. That we'd sit at the table again and talk about how life has changed us. So you might understand why it pains me greatly that although my old friend was very distant I still cared about them a great deal. Even if I couldn't see them. Simply knowing they existed here on this earth, that I could reach out to them one day and reunite was something I cherished. Though, given the grim circumstance of her passing I do not take it with despair. Not fully. While my heart is damaged, it will heal in time. I feel I must take in the pain and learn from it. Because of how tragic it was, I find the only thing I can do in this life is spread awareness and do better as a person. Be. Better. I do not blame myself for their action, however I do hold some remorse for not reconnecting sooner. I think she could have really used somebody by her side, or someone to let her know that we didn't hate her or that we have her back. So. My story isn't a call to action, merely, this is your sign to stay alive. Best of luck my friend, and should you falter, simply do your best. This life can be terribly cruel and bleak yet mercy and light still remain in it.

There is no hope left

Some say that there is no Objective truth, but i think its more like we can never know the Real objective truth as it will always in some way be twisted by our own perception of reality. What we percieve as "Real" is merely a hallucination of our minds based on the input information from the outside of our bodies. On top of that there is the filter which is our character, it twists and colors the information we recieve and colorizes it to minds liking. Maybe thats why its so easy for even the most perfect relationships to crumble? Our own egos and flawed characters overgrowing the simplicty of a relationship into unnecessary dramas and fights. She may have left you on read, and He may have said suspicious things. But what right do we have to assume the worst instead of observing reality and coming to the conclusion She might have been busy? And His speech might have sounded the way it did to you because of the lack of context? Only way to know is to reverse engineer the objective truth from our twisted truth by substracting the filter of our character, by clamping it into a managable range.

All your experiences, the remembered and the forgotten, the lifechanging and the mundane, have all led to this moment. You have not come this far to die now.

watching this so it gets out of my recommended

I'm so tired

Ill stay alive till i get sick by some deadly disease or something idk

Ok, I will. Good luck everyone. I believe in you. All the love in my heart goes out to anyone who needs to feel it.

i am a trans man in a country where almost everyone around me hates us.As much as i may try i get fearful when people acknowledge me as a man as it could get me in all sorts of trouble.Every week or so my mother argues with me,telling me i am too masculine and that shell force me to be as feminine as she can.If i told her of my true nature i fear what shall become of me.Being regarded as my false self is getting less tolerable, and i can hear peoples whispers as i walk past.I feel a constant "pain" every day that im alive.A bit less so when im with someone who knows my nature, but its gnawing at me.Eating me from the inside.I feel as if it is an affliction i may never heal from, and instead slowly die from it little by little.I live in a country where outside companies rarely ship, where gay marriage [legally union to prevent adoption] was legalized in 2021. I see the tv glow yet i must cover it with a sheet at dawnbreak.Its slowly chipping away at me day by day.Life is getting unbearable, yet perservirance makes a good man, as it will out of me.

thank you

Been constantly worried about the world around me, if I'm going to be okay, if my friends are going to be okay, if we're ever going to be okay. If it even mattered to live on because it'll all go to shit anyways. I have to remind myself that's not a way to live, as miserable as it may seem now. It is what it is at the hands of others, but that doesn't mean it has to be by ours. Having this in my recommendations is probably a sign, so I'll live to it then, be as stubborn about surviving and living my life as I always have been, and see the light at the end of this scary, dark tunnel like those before us have time and time again. The human spirit is a wild thing sometimes even if it doesn't seem like it. Days like these prove that. Thanks.

thanks.

i tell myself the world is evil, i tell myself i a failure. these stories are gard to escape. i feel poisoned, i feel hopeless, and nothing seems to convince me otherwise. love and being loved is nice, but evil is inevitable, and i struggle to cope. i don't know how to cope. it all seems a pathetic distraction. meds, therapy, mental hospitals, they will not fix the evil that always prevails. i do not belong here. here's hoping someone doesn't do something they regret, but i am not that someone. someday... i will finally leave...

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Oh, sick. I'm seeing this 4 days after one of my more severe crises. I guess this can be my sign that I made the right choice in staying alive.

(thank you. i hope this helps someone stay alive)

Ok got it :D

Legend of the Obverse conspiracy is real

Honestly we really needed this.. the way the world is right now has been stressful. I've been scared for myself and my lovers. Thank you for this.

Oh my GOD this sounds GREAT!! Just not a fan of the additional sounds like from 00:20 to 00:24 or 00:27 to 00:33. That empty space was fundemental to the eery feel of the track! All this said, I'd LOVE to see more "Foreboding" remasters without changing anything of the tracks; the original quality you find on UA-cam is pretty abysmal and I think you could do a stellar job, judging by this video alone!

Commenting so this vid gets more engagement and hopefully save more lives than it hopefully has.

So nice❤ to see after yesterday felt suicidal then kept seeing signs that its not the end❤❤❤ love love love

ok. i will. thanks.

nah, i wont ❤

I don't think UA-cam want me to stay alive. I was getting like 5 ads before I could even watch the first second of this

I grew up much too quickly. And now I am 18 and considered an adult…and I wish I could take it all back. I am living a dream, in a dream, and only when I am alone do I feel free. The past few years have been awful, and I can hardly do anything without spiraling. I have recently found solace in praying. Not in a religious way, but more spiritual. To nature, to life, to myself. I am still a child and I always will be. I am still a child, even if I am 18. I am still a little girl and I will not let the ideals of society and what I am supposed to be control me any further. I can skip and prance and dance around if I wish. I can turn the news off. I don’t have to know anything. I’m not tied to anything. I graduated high school. It was ruined during Covid, which is a whole story all on its own. And now nobody talks about Covid. The smallest blip of now irrelevancy ruined my life and prospects. I told myself if I didn’t graduate I would kill myself because I had no purpose. My purpose was already fulfilled, being loved as a child. Now that I will never have that again, what is my purpose, how will I get that part of my heart, the most important, true, connected part of my heart, filled? How do I continue living in something that I know I don’t belong in? But if I close my eyes and breathe…I can feel my heart beating. For me, for my dog, my true sister who passed away 2 years ago. I have not lived a single day since I lost her. But I can still feel her. For her, I will look up at the sky and dream. For the little girl in me, I will open my heart and let myself love the world. To love nature with no wish of gain or benefit of myself. But only natural accumulation. Within myself, I am free. I am tied to nothing but my own dreams. I am a butterfly emerging from her cocoon, in little moments. In little moments.

Literally no one will permit me to stay alive??? The human body requires food, water, and protection from the elements. Stop demanding that i stay alive while consistently denying me all the requirements for living

thanks, we kinda needed this actually

thank you, online stranger. although i dont need this at the moment, this is comforting to see. ill stay alive for my favorite shows and games!! to whoever might be reading this, youre awesome! keep it up buddy and keep on trying your best! :))

I guess I'll continue on, then. <3

I have been chosen... TO LIVE!

it's weird. and fucked up. and just downright stupid. that i want to leave so badly. that i fantasize about how it would happen. that i want to feel pain. because things are starting to get better, but im not. i just feel like im doing nothing with my life, sitting in my room all day and night, barely ever doing anything of importance. i'm gonna stay alive, just because im curious to see what happens next, but day after day no matter how happy i was the day before i wake up feeling exhausted. things used to be so much worse, i used to hope id get to a place like this and then it wouldn't feel so heavy. but it still hurts so bad, and maybe thats my fault for not letting myself heal. but i've gotten through so much because i felt like death was my backup plan, like the choice was always there if everything else was too much, that i wouldn't even know where to start. i don't know who i am beneath all this, im scared it's not someone i could love. that im not someone i wanna live for. ...but here's to hoping. i guess

I just got this video recommended to me, and while I'm not really going through anything, I read many comments and I care about you guys, and I hope everything gets better and that you have a good day. I'm sorry that I don't really know what to say, but if this comment makes someone's day better, then that's awesome. If you're reading this, have a good day/ night.

unfortunately, i don't think it is