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JACK LÉON MACKEY
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Hey! Thanks for visiting my channel! Here I talk about alcohol addiction and upload some gaming clips. My book “delirium” is now available online at : Amazon, Waterstones and Pegasus Publishers. The book is a diary style memoir all about my time in active addiction. By writing this book, I wanted to spread awareness for addiction and talk about the steps an addict has to go through to get clean. All the love, thanks again!
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Відео
Battlefield 4 - Helicopter rocket kill
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ALCOHOL ADDICTION! Raising awareness !
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ALCOHOL ADDICTION! Raising awareness !
ALCOHOL AWARENESS
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I recorded this video for alcohol awareness week. Hope it is helpful and raises some awareness about a very serious issue. Thanks, jack x
NEW CHAPTER OUT NOW!
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www.patreon.com/posts/47643602 follow the link to access my latest chapter from my book “Delirium”! The book is a memoir of my time in active addiction, hopefully it can resonate and help those out there currently struggling!
CRAVINGS!
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recognise it when you do, it’s treatable. What works for me absolutely won’t work for everyone but thought I would share what helps me! Loads of love, stay safe, link in bio for book x JM #book #selfhelp #addiction #addict #rehab #detox #selfcare #selflove #alcoholic
DELIRIUM TREMENS!
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A lesser talked about affect of alcohol addiction. This affected me often when I was in the midst of my troubles and it is something I had to learn about the hard way. I hope to spread awareness of this to ultimately inform people of the dangers to going “cold turkey” with alcohol when you’re bodily dependent! Take care guys and gals, loads of love . JM. X #deliriumtremens #selfhelp #selflove #...
INSOMNIA!
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Sleep is so important. If you don’t get the amount of sleep you need your mental health can deteriorate and affects everything in your day to day life. I have struggled with insomnia for a while and these are a couple of tips I picked up to help! Also I use sleep tea, which is a herbal tea that aids in relaxation and sleep, if you want to try it let me know and I’ll ping you the website! Stay s...
INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS!
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Have you ever thought about something and wondered why it’s in your head? Something so dark and horrible that is so unlike anything you think about usually? I have suffered with this since I can remember and with the tools I picked up in rehab I am trying to understand it everyday. Stay safe everyone and stay positive. JM x #intrusivethoughts #recovery #bpd #depressionawareness #mentalhealthawa...
DISASSOCIATION!
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I have experienced this a lot more since being sober and when my anxiety is at it’s worse. Everybody is different and what works for me may not work for you but thought I would share my thoughts on it! Loads of love, take care of yourselves. JM x #disassociation #anxiety #bpd #mentalhealthawareness #selfhelp #recovery #addict #rehab #addiction #alcoholic
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Coming off a bender I seen mice 🐁 running around a demonic figure over my shoulder. My wife was away I seen her appear next to me on sofa 🛋️ then she disappeared My goodness the sweats that night were incredible Then could hear whispering for a few days. That was my last drink august 31 st 2021.
That's what I get on a cocaine comedown. Sweats and paranoid
After a 5 day bender, my wife's drinking go so bad that she was shaking so much I'd never seen her that hungover before. That afternoon she vomited all over herself, stood up and looked really confused and disoriented and then groaned, her eyes went back into her head and her arms/hands curled up and she collapsed on the floor and had a seizure. I had to call the ambulance and when they arrived she'd stopped seizuring but was just laying there snorting like a pig, exhausted from the seizure. They took her to hospital and released her a few hours later. The next few days she had no memory of the event, was a complete zombie, thought she was somewhere else instead of in our home. We went to the GP because she wasn't quite right and that night she started hallucinating in her sleep - she thought people were chanting in the street outside, she saw cats running over our bed, insects and spiders on the walls, shadow people in the corner...it was terrifying. I thought she was going to be stuck that way. A few days later she was back to normal, realised what had happened. Ever since that bender she and I are completely sober, 1 year and 8 months in a few days. When she dropped to the ground I thought that she was dead, I knew it was an alcohol withdrawal seizure. She's SO lucky to be alive.
When ignorant people laugh at DT's They have absolutely no clue about the mental agony. Yes it's like something from a different realm and certainly feels like it too. Yes it also started off with music coming out of the toilet and then came the peripheral vision spy game, convinced the neighbours were outside playing along in the game. Got a hell of a lot worse over 14 days, deaths, time travelling visitors, chip implant to broadcast thoughts. . . So so so God Damn F*ckd up !
How much were you drinking Jack?
Up to 10 litres of cider a day xx
@@jackleonmackey bloody hell 😵💫
I can tell my story was one of the most devilish ones i ever had day 1 2 already hallucinatin no sleep day 2 night saw animals all over the room saw 2 tiny people chilling on a chair on table then started fighting through doorway there was chair with big pillows which turned into being which was writing and talking to me he said come closer sent shivers down my spine dts were getting stronger by the minute more closed eyes hallucinations was in a bright forest when closed eyes voices getting more devilish knew what i was thinking saying things like "haha who is talking to you" calling me names all the time saying piece of shit, faggot, fucking cunt, bastard and things like "where is that loser" ect at one point i heard a devils voice talking to these voices telling them to go away still name calling before had grandma in bed with me cause was so scared and saw white ghostly ball come from her into me and i felt happier but i saw her with being more annoyed think it was something real anyway in the morning absolutely worned out barely talking started seeing black dots fly like flies and saw 1 fly right past my face felt like some1 was looking at me i looked over then i saw him devil himself for a split second looking at me his face looked like human and pig some people on earth resemble him dark brown skin he had colourful tshirt i think he used to be a human before he went to hell and only degenerated himself more there that when i went full panic mode went to get strong prescription meds from doc went to sleep and the hell was over. Im sure if i didnt take them i wouldnt be here right now i am sure all this is demonic possession and we are taping in to other dimentions hellish ones before i saw him i had images of chains , bubbles like something burning and other shite i cant remember but what still shakes me to the core is i still sometimes see that black dot appearing anywhere i am .
Had dt's years ago I'm sober now but once I ended up in hospital because I was having seizures non stop I had one seizure for 17 mins and they were really concerned for my life, stayed in hospital for 5 days, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone coz its the scariest thing I've been through, but being sober now in a way I'm glad it happend because if it didn't I would probably still be drinking now, sometimes you have to go through hell to appreciate life 🙏💕👍
Tone loke thank you for sharing and telling the truth☮️. God deliver us from this demon 💀
@@CarlosAlvarado-sf6km thanks for your reply, hope your safe and well, God bless you 🙏
DT hallucinations are so vivid and so real at the time. It is so crazy that everyone’s experience with them they all describe dark and demonic hallucinations. My hallucinations started with looking in the mirror and my teeth were falling out, then it turned into seeing bugs and spiders everywhere, and walking through electric spider webs that would zap me in my house. Then, a giant snake was living in my bathroom and a blue bunny with a devil face would keep taunting me and staring at me from every room in my house. Then I started seeing the demon people, they lived in my air condition vents and I would see their eyes just staring at me. They ended up coming in my house and holding seances. I was scared and yelling at them to leave. The scariest thing was that I left my home at 2am one of the 3 days I was hallucinating mid winter in thin clothing and went on a journey to go find my dog that I had just had put down. I walked ten miles talking to trees and lampposts that were guiding me to my dog I thought was still alive. I am so thankful I did not get hurt or lost, walk in front of a car or someone kidnap me or anything else like that. Thank god I had my phone, my family found me by my phone’s location wandering the streets in my delirium the next morning. My hallucinations went on and on for 3 days, I also did not sleep these 3-4 days at all. I really thought they were 100% real at the time. The scariest, darkest shit honestly. I am so grateful to be sober to this day. I pray people get the help they need to get healthy and sober again. Alcohol is the devil. Thank you for sharing your story, I am glad you got the help you needed! 🙏🏻
Hope all things are well. Just went through the DT's myself at home. I can't believe the level of hallucinations. Just unreal! For the most part, they are over. Still seeing small things. But wow!
Stay strong bro, find a support group it is very important to overcome.
Absolute Mayhem 😂 me whispering in the background
I wish the comment sections on vids like this didn’t always turn into a “I had it worse” pissing contest. Don’t let that take away from the fact you conquered what most can’t imagine, thank you for sharing and most importantly thinking yourself worth saving
i had 8 seizures from alcohol withdrawels, the dts too.
Great video pal 👍
I need to make a video on this too man it’s wild how similar ALL of our hallucinations were. 🇺🇸
I've been sober for 16 years. If you guys are getting anywhere close to DTs you're in way more trouble than you think. Good luck to all.
Well done on your sobriety buddy, and yea absolutely agree with this !
Yep absolutely correct you in deep in fact the deepest hole of shit if you reach, dts. It’s like 20 hits of lsd or the worst dream you can possibly get.
The terrible part is that you can even kill someone, kill yourself, cause a terrible car accident, etc etc. You see demons attacking you and you may kill the "Wrong Demon" meanwhile, who could be a family member, you name it!
Its bad, its also deadly - there is a high fatality for people experiencing DT, not simply from an accident due to the psychosis, but seizures and cardiac arrest, stroke and respiratory failure. You must be medically supervised to keep you safe. Alchohol is the most dangerous drug to come off by far - no other drugs are fatal to come off (benzos perhaps) but heroin etc withdrawal is uncomfortable but not deadly
Absolutely to all of this 🙏🙏🙏
Alcohol and sleep deprivation have made me start thinking I was hearing music from the air conditioner. Also night terrors or such with people outside the window. Not sure if it was dt's or more insomnia related but it wasn't something I really want to experience again. 😐
I saw so much crazy shit on day 3 at night I got lifted up in the air my back I felt snap in three places back and forth then came back on bed I prayed to God to survive. I finally got sleep after 3 days in the morning I thought I was in the after life I didn’t wanna check Facebook nothing my back wasn’t broken but I remember it. I got attacked by demons so bad day 2 I felt the windows thing too felt ppl were outside my window the air conditioner. Scariest thing I’ve ever felt it took 10 days with Librium my heart I’m surprised I didn’t die.
So sorry that happened to you bud. Sending love and support x
Can relate man. I get moments like that alot, esoecially if im one place to long around people, in a group situation andcpeople re talking. Im listening, suddenly its a slow descent into some kind of parrallel me. O go into this weird self where nothing seems real. All seems fuzzy and it disent seem real. I disconnect. Feels surreal. Going into a hole of nothing type feeling
Great video man. I’ve been treading full DTs and haven’t been there yet. 2 days off of a very close binge. Each time is a little further in. Hoping to learn a lot about these DTs
That's extremely similar to my experience. After 3 days off the booze after a long time of drinking every day, I felt this awful apprehension. I ended up seeing people walking round my house, and heard rhythmic chanting from "next door" saying I was in a particular room in the house. There were people outside in my mind, trying to get in, and I saw the doorknob being turned to open the door. I phoned the police, and they got the ambulance to get me the next day. In hospital I saw things that nobody should ever see, due to DTs. Never again.
So interesting to hear your story buddy. Hope you’re doing a lot better now mate, sending a ton of love and Thankyou for sharing your experience. X
Haha. "The fan!" For 5 days my fan talked to me on the DTs. I thought it was God. Alcohol is terrible.
Do you have an Instagram I can message you on or something? I had DTs around 2 years ago..
Sure it’s Jackleonmackey on instagram
Never had DTs but I am prone to psychosis. Sounds the same tbh. Its like living in a nightmare.
Booze jude
Thanks 🙏
Thanks you helped
Aye man i had this about a year ago it lasted for about a week and i was on lockdown because they thought i had Covid-19 so i freaked out in my room to go tell my family and they were running from me cause they thought it was Covid-19 and i freaked out more so i walked to my room and i seen a person standing in my window so i ended up going to the garage so at the end they knew something was wrong and went to the doctor and he prescribed me benzos i took 2 and slept for like 11 hours when i woke up i never seen or halluciated anyone no more
Can relate to this. I have had DTs but I think they weren't as bad as yours and as prolonged but did have a visit to A&E. Yes agree they are dangerous and please seek professional help. I do not want to give false advice but another "home method" to deal with these (particularly shakes) is to gradually decrease alcohol intake. Please do not follow this advice and I urge you to seek medical help, but here it is: - get a 0.5 L of vodka and get someone close to you to monitor this and ask them to pour half-glass (~30 millilitres) of a shot every 1 hour. Very important you do this with breaks in between! The minute you feel an appetite, have something to eat - preferably not too heavy but with a bit of fat in it. - get some drink which has electrolytes in it. A great way is to use hydration tables - you can get them in pharmacy stores. Drink as much as you can and it's fine to frequently urinate. - this should at least relax you a bit and get you to sleep. - the next day do similar but decrease the dose in half - i.e. 15 millilitres every hour or hour and a half. - you can do so for 2/3 days, after which you should find courage to stop for the longer-term. After that ensure you get a multi-vitamin, eat healthy and exercise (start of light!) Disclaimer: As mentioned please do not follow this advice if you feel severely unwell. This is only to help as las resort if you cannot get any professional medical care immediately. It might just save somebody.
Alcohol is a Volatile Substance like gas or thinner ,but they sell it under the name of beer , a drink after a hard working day , or vine with your gf ..I dont believe in responsible drinking ! That word t is responsible of addiction of billions of people , biliions of people are addicts but they dont know it. If you tell them to quit vine at dinner they cant !! This is a sickness of pur civilization..
This is really good. It's great you're sharing your story so other people don't feel so alone. I should say that there is some hope if you want counseling but are still drinking or using. I've been referred (through CGL) to a charity called We Are With You. They work with CGL & provide counseling to people who are seeking help & obviously are in the middle of seeking help managing their intake or after abstinence. So a little bit of light at the end of the tunnel. Because I've been told for years it would never happen until I was completely sober.
LOL, funny I been through this shit 7 times in 2 years during this pandemic. At first it wasn't funny scary ass shit, but I have done a lot of research on Delirium Tremens since and now I am not scared anymore. The first few times I ran to the ER but once I new how to fix myself with lots of water, Vitamins and other supplements. I don't go to ER anymore. I do still party but only on special occasions but YES you are right scary shit until you learn to deal with it. I now go deep and confront the nightmares every time I go cold turkey once that passes things start to get better and after a week I start to sleep like a baby. Its just all chemical imbalances caused by binge drinking alcohol that needs to be normalized over time and Nutrition. For Me too the music, the laughter, whispers in my head, seeing shit and the hellish nightmares. Really evil shit just for a few weeks of fun. I been drinking for 30 years so it will be very hard to stop forever since I love to travel and party. I guess is something I need to deal with if I want to continue partying on my trips.
Still very dangerous man, if you’re having it a lot that’s no good at all. It’s really dangerous.
You're scrambling your brain every time you go thru that. So far you've survived but it's not a guarantee.
Yep, need to stop this madness but love to party once I realize partying with girls isn’t as cool as it was when I was younger my drinking will come to an end
Juan you will die if you keep doing this. Each time you're cheating death
You can't afford to play this deadly game, you may kill someone during one of those episodes confusing a person for a demon, it has happened a lot. Or you can even kill yourself. Please do seek help! This is something you can't control, and if you believe so you are being deceived.
Sorry you had to go through that man. I had it from alcohol and phenibut (anti-anxiety med) withdrawal. I hadn't slept in about 10 days and had thousands of pictures and videos playing at the same time flying at my face every second. I thought I fried my brain. Hallucinations overplayed waking reality. It was hell. Literal hell. The only way I was able to make it through it was to taper off. Going cold turkey kills. Good video. This shit is no joke.
How much phenibut were you taking? I had hallucinations after 2 week vodka benders but have managed to taper phenibut on its own pretty easily over a couple weeks after doing 3-5gpd for several months. Always found phenibut better in terms of WD than alcohol but maybe it’s because my doses were lower?
@@mattstocks4749 I was taking about 6-8 grams a day for about a year and a half. I drank on top of it as well. The insomnia was the worst part id say. And most life threatening. Lucky to have made it out of that...
@@bryantsmith7410 fair enough buddy. Phenibut is nasty shit. Hope you feel better now bro
@@mattstocks4749 Thank you brother, I hope you are doing better as well.
I've had full blown Delerium Tremens a few times. It always results in demonic entities vying for soul. I've had it many times where there were dark spirits just surrounding me, waiting for me to die to so they could drag me to Hell.
So good! Was the song removed from Spotify?
This is really interesting. I've never been diagnosed with anything but I don't think that means that there isn't some underlying condition. A lot of kids during the 80's just slipped through the net. I have intrusive thoughts all the time. I automatically red flag them. Or I just physically shake my head & it kind of puts it to one side. I think what you're doing is really cool. You're music is amazing & I hope to see you live again soon. Also I've heard about your battle with alcoholism & you've done amazingly.
a haunting tune, beautiful.
More please 👏👏👏
This is stunning. Please keep writing more songs x