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Sing Me To Sleep | Cloud & Aerith
Alright last one! I really like using this app because the effects are so nice. More Clerith love for the day. Let me go back to studying. Haha!
Footage: Final Fantasy 7 Remake
Ship: Cloud x Aerith
Program: Cap Cut
Song: Sing Me To Sleep - Alan Walker
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I see | Cloud & Aerith
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Hey! I was literally just playing around with an app I had for the longest time on my phone. I might use it again...kind of weird to try editing on my phone. I just played around with a few clips of one of my videos. I just decided to post it because it's pretty. Nothing serious haha Love Clerith always :) Footage: Final Fantasy 7 Remake, Final Fantasy 7 Advent Children Ship: Cloud x Aerith Pro...
All The Way | Zack & Aerith
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SPOILERS FOR FF7 INTEGRADE! YOU'VE BEEN WARNED! Hey! Long time since I've uploaded. So before anyone goes crazy over the fact that this isn't a Clerith video, I've wanted to do a Zerith video for a long time. Just never really had the footage (and I am still unhappy with the CC clips I pieced together since the quality isn't the best). NONETHELESS I still love Clerith. I haven't abandoned the s...
Takeaway | Cloud & Aerith
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Hello! I had some free time today to make a video upon request and I love this song (and obviously I love Clerith) so I was like "Why not?!" I apologize for it being short, but nonetheless I hope you enjoy it. :) Also I thought it’d be fitting to write “nah nah nah” instead of “na na na” if anyone was curious lol Footage: Final Fantasy 7 Remake Ship: Cloud x Aerith Program: Sony Vegas Pro 16 So...
Fire on Fire | Cloud & Aerith
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I was super inspired by all the lovely comments to finish this and guess what? I think this is my favorite video I've done so far. I have to admit I got super lazy towards the middle with putting in the text (legit the most annoying part of editing a vid) so hopefully it's not all over the place. I need a new laptop because my computer lags a lot while using the program. Anyways I hope you enjo...
Fire on Fire (Preview) | Cloud & Aerith
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Hello! Had some time to kill today and I felt inspired. Not sure if I should continue it. Let me know what you guys think. I love this song and I instantly thought of Clerith when I first heard it. I already want part 2 to happen already. I love FF7 so much! Footage: Final Fantasy 7 Remake, Ship: Cloud x Aerith Program: Sony Vegas Pro 16 Song: Fire on Fire - Sam Smith Copyright Disclaimer Under...
Find My Way Back | Cloud & Aerith
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Hello, everyone! It's been a while since I've uploaded anything. Life has just been so hectic between work and school. I kept editing this video little by little until I finished it a few weeks ago. I wasn't sure how to feel about it, but figured to post it and see what you guys think. Footage: Final Fantasy 7 Remake, Final Fantasy 7 Advent Children Ship: Cloud x Aerith Program: Sony Vegas Pro ...
Pieces | Cloud & Aerith
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Hello! I've been super busy lately but I felt so inspired a few days ago in making this video. I'm not sure what came over me to pick Nina and Paul's voices (and I tried making it work so I apologize if it isn't perfect), but I had so much fun with it. I didn't make a story this time; just wanted to insert some favorite quotes and moments. Using headphones is preferred and I tried to play aroun...
She's Calling Out To Me...I Can Feel It | Cloud & Aerith
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Hey! I am back with a new Clerith video. I definitely wanted to try something new and it was quite challenging to find the right clips to make it into a story video. I think it turned out okay. I would love to read some comments about it :) I tried to make this into a short AU story. The first part involves Cloud constantly thinking about Aerith (even to the point of dreaming and seeing her in ...
Lose You to Love Me | Aerith & Cloud & Tifa
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Hey everyone! I've been wanting to make a video like this for a while now. I feel like there's been a lot of ugliness on social media pertaining to the love triangle. More importantly, it seems that women get pitted against each other when it shouldn't be the case. Although I prefer Clerith, I have a lot of respect for Cloti and Remake has warmed me up to it. I wanted to show that a significant...
Where's My Love? | Tifa & Aerith
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So I am obsessed with Aerti. FF7 Remake made me love them so much. I noticed there aren't a lot of videos out there dedicated to these two babes. I worked really hard on this and I love how it turned out. I tried to make a story so I am hoping it's easy to follow. Flashes indicate for the most part memories/dreams. Hope you enjoy :) Footage: Final Fantasy 7 Remake, Ship: Tifa x Aerith Program: ...
Lovely | Cloud & Aerith
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Hello everyone! I've been wanting to make a Clerith video with this song for the longest time. I am happy with how some parts came out. Idk maybe I'll redo it at some point. I hope you like it. There's not much of a story but I wanted to show how Cloud struggles with his own personal demons with Sephiroth (not shown). At the same time, Aerith has been constantly harassed by Shrina all of her. I...
I Just Know | Cloud & Aerith
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Here's another video of these two. I couldn't get this song out of my head. Footage: Final Fantasy 7 Remake Ship: Cloud x Aerith Program: Sony Vegas Pro 16 Song: I Just Know - Jacob Lee Copyright Disclaimer Under Section 107 of the Copyright Act 1976, allowance is made for "fair use" for purposes such as criticism, comment, news reporting, teaching, scholarship, and research. Fair use is a use ...
Faded | Cloud & Aerith
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I finally finished this! I'm so happy right now. I was so nervous about the final product (I need a better laptop!) but I am happy to say I like how it turned out. I just want to thank everyone for their wonderful comments and likes on my videos. I feel so loved 🥰🥰🥰 Footage: Final Fantasy 7 Remake, Final Fantasy 7 Advent Children Ship: Cloud x Aerith Program: Sony Vegas Pro 16 Song: Faded (Cove...
Like I'm Gonna Lose You | Cloud & Aerith
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Hello, everyone! Didn't think I was going to make another Clerith video this soon, but I had some time to kill yesterday and this song has been stuck in my head for days. Enjoy!~ Footage: Final Fantasy 7 Remake, Final Fantasy 7 Advent Children Ship: Cloud x Aerith Program: Sony Vegas Pro 16 Song: Like I'm Gonna Lose You - Jasmine Thompson Copyright Disclaimer Under Section 107 of the Copyright ...
Happier | Cloud & Aerith
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Happier | Cloud & Aerith
I Love You | Cloud & Aerith
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I Love You | Cloud & Aerith
The Night We Met | Cloud & Aerith
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The Night We Met | Cloud & Aerith
Ocean Eyes | Cloud x Aerith
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Ocean Eyes | Cloud x Aerith
S O R R Y | Cloud x Aerith
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S O R R Y | Cloud x Aerith
Cloud & Aerith | "Every minute, every moment...matters."
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Cloud & Aerith | "Every minute, every moment...matters."
Ain't Nobody (Loves Me Better) | Clerith
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Ain't Nobody (Loves Me Better) | Clerith
B A R E | Clerith
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B A R E | Clerith

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  • @monster...............
    @monster............... Місяць тому

    i love this... This is how me and my girl were at first, i truly didn't know she liked me and i acted like i didn't care or like i don't have feelings but all she did was just look at me and those walls i had up were like they never existed...Honestly is i ever lose this girl, i may just end it all....

  • @WindDark-ce4pc
    @WindDark-ce4pc Місяць тому

    ❤❤❤

  • @StakeMammon
    @StakeMammon 2 місяці тому

    I honestly feel like Cloud treats Tifa horribly. I'm a huge Clerith shipper, but I unironically think Tifa's best ship is also Aerith

  • @wmen48
    @wmen48 2 місяці тому

    From the og trailer circa 96/97 - the purest love that could not be. Broke me in 97 when I was 13. Breaks me now 😢😢😢

  • @risquecat
    @risquecat 2 місяці тому

    I hope I live to see the 3rd FF7

  • @StakeMammon
    @StakeMammon 3 місяці тому

    Does anyone know where the intro comes from?

  • @mariaortiz165
    @mariaortiz165 3 місяці тому

    Nos falto ese beso pasional que no hubo entre cloud y aerith aunque estubo cerca pero no fue asi que espero que se besen en otra temporada lo deseamos vamos !!!!!amor amen

  • @francisco24slb1
    @francisco24slb1 4 місяці тому

    the chemistry and magic that exists between Cloud and Aerith is unique 🥰 ---SPOILERS REBIRTH--- there's only one thing that makes me sad...Why didn't we get to see a kiss between them ?? why Square ?? you've made such an incredible relationship between them, full of chemistry, something magical, since FF7 Remake...why did you give Cloud/Tifa a chance to kiss and not Cloud/Aerith ?? someone help me understand please

    • @xmant8842
      @xmant8842 2 місяці тому

      Imo it's pretty out of character for cloud to kiss either girl. I would have liked to see cloud kiss aerith, but i don't think cloud realistically has the balls to do it lol. Not "real" non persona cloud anyways. Despite cloti getting a kiss, the clerith date felt far more intimate imo because it felt like aerith was on a date with cloud while tifa was on a date with cloud's fake persona. "Real" Cloud got vulnerable enough to hold hands *with interlocked fingers,* which imo meant just as much as a kiss, if not more

    • @AShroudOfTruth
      @AShroudOfTruth 2 місяці тому

      @ChangingTimes01 Yeap, Tifa kiss was cringe to say the least, whereas in the right moment, Cloud kissing Aerith would be as natural as it is for a rose to bloom.

  • @raina1848
    @raina1848 4 місяці тому

    I've never heard this song before, but it's amazing!

  • @franvoskiee
    @franvoskiee 4 місяці тому

    This Song Is so perfect for them suit so much

  • @spardasquadspqr3535
    @spardasquadspqr3535 4 місяці тому

    For people hating on cleriths they should remember part where she gives him flower, that totally is not the one that lovers give each other. Totally not like it was said in ff7 remake by tifa, totally😅

  • @brianperry4815
    @brianperry4815 4 місяці тому

    When seeing the stories of first Cloud and Tifa then Cloud and Aerith. Aerith wins. Aerith unlike Tifa is more active in the relationship with Cloud. Aerith is proactive in getting through to Cloud and melts his heart. When Aerith said you can't fall in love with me, Cloud inside was thinking too late, I already love you especially when he tells Aerith I'll come for you.

  • @julianaalmeida7036
    @julianaalmeida7036 4 місяці тому

    im crying 🥺💘

  • @violet193
    @violet193 5 місяців тому

    Are u coming back?? :(

  • @nguyenhuutan2802
    @nguyenhuutan2802 5 місяців тому

    Mình thì không có, tình mẹ con đúng nghĩa. Mà mình ngủ cũng tỉnh lắm, đừng nghĩ bậy.

  • @SLEEPERER
    @SLEEPERER 5 місяців тому

    holy s#&*! I know a girl who looks like aerith and I fell to her for 5 years. but she had already met this guy before me, just like zack. eventually, they got married last month. and then there is another girl who confessed to me just before the girl I like got married. but I still love the girl who looks like aerith.

    • @WindDark-ce4pc
      @WindDark-ce4pc 2 місяці тому

      More or less...WE ARE CLOUD in the real world and have missed the "Aerith" of our lives

  • @jillianarceo5385
    @jillianarceo5385 6 місяців тому

    watched this out of curiosity, i think im a cleirth fan now.

  • @eita8946
    @eita8946 6 місяців тому

    THEY LOVE EACH OTHERRRRR

  • @AppleGrapefruit-lu9tv
    @AppleGrapefruit-lu9tv 6 місяців тому

    Also in the movie Cloud wear's Aerith's ribbon on his arm while sleeping in her church next to her flowers 🌷🌷🌷

  • @christine8459
    @christine8459 7 місяців тому

    You never fail to make me emotional Mari❤. Your GMVs are amazing!!!

  • @gambishdasidelinestory9462
    @gambishdasidelinestory9462 8 місяців тому

    Best song choice

  • @xmant8842
    @xmant8842 9 місяців тому

    Over the last year or two, i have seen so many clerith amvs. This is by far the best one ive ever seen. I always come back to this one

  • @stavcy
    @stavcy 9 місяців тому

    WOW

  • @monalisacarido6573
    @monalisacarido6573 11 місяців тому

    Love aerith ❤

  • @monalisacarido6573
    @monalisacarido6573 11 місяців тому

    ❤❤❤😊

  • @monalisacarido6573
    @monalisacarido6573 11 місяців тому

    ❤❤❤😊

  • @aggiel8775
    @aggiel8775 Рік тому

    1:37 is such a smooth transition

  • @rovetoace6183
    @rovetoace6183 Рік тому

    They both deserved each other🥰💘

  • @dreamer4everurs
    @dreamer4everurs Рік тому

    When I look at how they look at each other makes you realize how your supposed to look and feel when you actually find the right one. Their expressions are just so powerful it’s scary ❤❤❤❤❤

  • @shinzoux5912
    @shinzoux5912 Рік тому

    LET US SAVE HER THIS TIME PLEEEEEEEEEEEASE SQUARE 😭

  • @freedoom755
    @freedoom755 Рік тому

    2023, nothing changed <3 #clerith #masterpiece

  • @jhenifferkelly4565
    @jhenifferkelly4565 Рік тому

    ❤🥰❤

  • @SuperQueenV.
    @SuperQueenV. Рік тому

    ❤️🥲

  • @dgdsngc367
    @dgdsngc367 Рік тому

    This is my 2nd comment...just after rewatching this video. WHY CAN'T THEY JUST END UP TOGETHER AAAAAAAAAAAAA. with Cloud's wall, Aerith managed to get past through it, yet it had to end with Aerith dying.... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

  • @dgdsngc367
    @dgdsngc367 Рік тому

    I'm a few years late. I have just started noticing videos about tifa, aerith and cloud and now, it really made me want to play the game. Not just because of its gameplay, but also the story :< just by watching this type of videos made me really ship them hard ;')

    • @stavcy
      @stavcy 11 місяців тому

      Play it! Or atleast watch a gameplay of it. It’s one of the most breathtaking, beautiful stories I’ve played!

  • @FenrirInFlowers
    @FenrirInFlowers Рік тому

    I really loved this! Clerith is my OTP, but I do also love Zack and Zerith. Aerith did love him too. With Crisis Core Reunion out, I've been having lots of thoughts and feelings about how Cloud, Aerith, and Zack could interact and play out. Zack and Aerith never had closure, and Aerith never knew that he was trying to get back to her. Then there's the friendship between Zack and Cloud to factor in. There is a lot of potential drama to resolve between the three characters. This video really hits the spot for me as a result. Hopefully, Cloud, Aerith, and Zack will work together and get their happy endings this time. Also, why do I keep thinking Cissnei will be in Gongaga with Zack's parents, causing confusion in the next game? 🤔

  • @FenrirInFlowers
    @FenrirInFlowers Рік тому

    That was beautiful! Right in the feels.

  • @user-yp9sy1ob6k
    @user-yp9sy1ob6k Рік тому

    😍😍

  • @user-yp9sy1ob6k
    @user-yp9sy1ob6k Рік тому

    ❤❤love both of them

  • @sephorasamot2896
    @sephorasamot2896 Рік тому

    Lovely and Beautiful Edits for Aerith and Cloud 😍😍So Perfect Well done 👍

  • @dreamer4everurs
    @dreamer4everurs Рік тому

    Loved the intro made this so powerful! Got me all emotional why do these two get my emotions running?

  • @Tsuki-Yomi
    @Tsuki-Yomi Рік тому

    Oh my... this was absolutely gorgeous! I can barely distinguish the keys on my keyboard while typing this message because I'm f@c*$ crying!!! 😭😭 This trilogy will be remembered and treasured. As much as the original version of the game released in 1997. Why? Because the Remake/Rebirth/Reunion will be all about changing their fate! Cloud❤Aerith

  • @bakula1976
    @bakula1976 Рік тому

    I'm not crying, you are 🥺 its beautiful

  • @sunnysodapop
    @sunnysodapop Рік тому

    I will NEVER understand Cloti, not from the fandom, not the writers. If Clearith doesn't get a happy ending after 25 years.....just...NO-

    • @JustinStrife
      @JustinStrife Рік тому

      Aerith has always been fated to be with Zack. The Remake will be no different.

    • @sunnysodapop
      @sunnysodapop Рік тому

      @@JustinStrife Which is why she rejected Zack in the lifestream in the novels, was fated as cloud's star-crossed lover as stated in the official trailer for the original game "the love that could never be" as Cloud drops her in the water, is part of the couple compilation with Cloud in Kingdom hearts and part of the original couple concept arts from Amano with her other lover being Sephiroth whom they cut out to create Zack. The writers also stated she told Cloud not to fall in love with her because she knew of the pain and suffering it'd bring in the dream sequence and not because of this b.s. plothole theory ya'll created of Zack being inside Cloud even though he has no idea who Aerith is. Cloud also makes a cameo looking for Aerith in ff tactics, no other characters and no other scenes. Why would square go so far for a non-existent couple? Aerith literally states in the gold saucer date she wants to know Cloud for Cloud and not Zack but you Cloti/zearith shippers conveniently ignore that part. I could list a few more proofs but this would become too long. But hey, did I mention she REJECTS ZACK IN THE LIFESTREAM BECAUSE SHE LOVES CLOUD?! There's legitimate canon proof but hey if you don't want to acknowledge that FF7 is a tragedy because of Clearith you do you...I do wish I could be as ignorant because then it wouldn't hurt every moment Cloud suffers without her and vice versa.

    • @JustinStrife
      @JustinStrife Рік тому

      @@sunnysodapop That novel isn't even considered canon. You're basing everything on a novel, yet Advent Children had them together. It's why Square Enix brought back Crisis Core which showcased Aerith and Zack's relationship as well as showed hints of Cloud and Tifa. It's why Tales of Two Pasts which just came out recently, goes into further details about Tifa's involvement with Cloud's early life. It's why Zack made an appearance in FF7 Remake, searching for Aerith. The only ignorant person here is you. I'd bet money I've been playing FF games since before you were even born. It's usually the case with Cleriths. Most of them played 7 or watched their older siblings play 7, when they were 8-12, and hadn't fully developed mentally when it comes to disecting character story arcs. It was always going to be Cloud and Tifa being the final pairing. She literally is the only person who had the power to bring Cloud's true identity back. She's the one in the lifestream that walked with his subconcious to find what really happened when their hometown was destroyed. And NOWHERE in his subconcious, was Aerith to be found. It was ONLY Tifa. I feel sorry for you. The next two parts of Remake are going to destroy you.

    • @sunnysodapop
      @sunnysodapop Рік тому

      @@JustinStrife "basing everything on a novel" meanwhile I proceed to list all the other facts that aren't just in a novel that you conveniently don't address. But also how are you gonna say that the novel is irrelevant, not considered canon and all that jazz while bringing up Tale of Two Pasts for Cloti? Advent Children didn't have Zack and Aerith together?! The only scene they were "together" was when they both made and appearance in front of Cloud and then walked away from him to let them know that everything's ok. Not once did they interact in a way that suggested they were together tf?! Cloud literally leaves Tifa and doesn't call her to live in Aerith’s church while being depressed over her death for 2 years and refusing to move on until Aerith, NOT TIFA, tells him to forgive himself. Why did we get a cameo of Cloud searching for Aerith in tactics? Why did we get a COUPLE montage of him and Aerith in Kingdom Hearts but not Cloti? Why did the OFFICIAL game trailer for the original game state them as "the love that can never be"? Why did the concept art CANONICALLY have Cloud and Aerith together and Aerith and Sephiroth but no Zearith or Cloti? Why did Aerith tell Cloud CANONICALLY she wanted to know him for him and not Zack on the saucer date? When Aerith dies it literally states "Cloud’s heart breaks" but ofc that means nothing to you guys. Why does Hollow play in Aerith's sector?! Cloud sure as hell does not lose Tifa after all... And lastly why did the writers have Aerith tell Cloud to not fall in love with her which he never denied but instead fought against her on when she said it isn't real saying "do I get a say in this?"(As I stated before the writers said themselves Aerith says that it's not real because she doesn't want him to suffer in the future...not because of Zack which is something Clotis decided on their own). You can say all you want that this or that ain't canon but why would the writers go as far as they did for Clearith in all these spinoff pieces canon or not? Edit: I split this into 2 comments so it's not so blocky given the formatting.

    • @sunnysodapop
      @sunnysodapop Рік тому

      @@JustinStrife (2nd part of my comment): Crisis Core was brought back because FF7 as a WHOLE is being brought back. There's no better time marketing and money wise to revamp the prequel then during the hype of the sequel. They'd be foolish to not have crisis core. Also-ofc there were hints of Zearith and Cloti because it's the PREQUEL BEFOFE CLOUD AND AERITH MEET?! THAT'S THE WHOLE POINT?! There's no need to feel bad for me when the other 2 parts come out. Clearith has been a canonical tragedy since the day it was released. Us Clearith shippers have been supporting it no matter how painful and sad Aerith and Cloud are because they are reality. We've accepted that Cloud and Aerith can never be together that doesn't mean we're so blind as to deny that they love each other and want to be together more than anything. Clearly the writers didn't showcase everything from the novel in Advent Children cause it's 2 whole different plots. We didn't even see how Zack and Aerith met up again in the lifestream in the movie but the book clearly gives you the insight you refuse to acknowledge. Cleariths have never denied Zearith or Cloti but they ALSO acknowledge that Cloud and Aerith have moved on while Cloti fans are so triggered by a ship where the girl is dead and has denied it at every turn. It's ironic because there is no bigger diehard fan of zearith than a clearith shipper. Aerith and Zack loved each other but she moved on, in her own words from the saucer date and rejecting Zack in the novel, to Cloud. And Cloud loved Tifa but became a soldier because he admired Sephiroth. Sure you can say Tifa played a part if you want. Regardless, she didn't love Cloud and ignored him as kids. Then he comes back and meets Aerith and falls in love with her while Tifa finally falls for Cloud. In her own words on the saucer date, "timing is everything." She had her chance and blew it and Cloud found someone that never ignored him and wants to be around him. Jessie was the same and just like Aerith, dies. Tifa is important to Cloud as more than a friend, yes. But her and Cloud are not lovers. He loves Aerith the way Vincent loves Lucretia. A love beyond death. Remake has been favoring Clearith but ofc you guys are going to ignore all the clearith scenes by writing them off with "Zack’s inside." 😮‍💨

  • @forkyfork
    @forkyfork Рік тому

    thank you for making these videos. They make my clerith heart happy ❤️

  • @risquecat
    @risquecat Рік тому

    I wish they made a novel so I can know what the characters were feeling and thinking.

    • @stavcy
      @stavcy 11 місяців тому

      They have a few novels, but I don’t think any of them are confirmed canon.

  • @hayfaamir8684
    @hayfaamir8684 Рік тому

    i love this vidoe soo much good job it made me cry

  • @forkyfork
    @forkyfork Рік тому

    Great video and the lyrics are an extra nice touch

  • @MM-xy2bx
    @MM-xy2bx Рік тому

    your videos are so amazing! where/when does Cloud say the words you wrote at the very beginning of this video? i never heard him saying that in my gameplay...

    • @stavcy
      @stavcy 11 місяців тому

      I think it’s from another show where Clouds VA acts in!

  • @DeaconRayne
    @DeaconRayne 2 роки тому

    I'd be stunned if anyone reads this, being two years old. But I remember when I was a boy. Very lonely. Very unloved. And I'd dive into stories, like this one. And suddenly there was this girl. She was brave and joyous. Strong and still kind. She was equal parts sass and Saint. There was something indescribably pure about her. In her, that little boy found everything he wanted. Everything he needed. Something good. And then he watched her die. When you are that emotionally invested in a story because you have to be if you're going to escape a unbearable reality, and that happens: it marks you. Childhood had never been an idyllic period but that night, when she died, I think that the last bit of innocence went with her. And to this day, there's still a hole in my heart: where some young, half crazy child fell in love. And came to understand grief. And loss. And the pain of a process we all call: "growing up"