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Hi I know this might be a little late, but I have been diagnosed with bipolar 1 recently and my most extreme episodes have been mixed. It is the worst feeling I have ever experienced. It feels like that feeling right before you throw up but just the discomfort not the nausea for like 2 days straight and then it simmers to really bad anxiety where I cant put my attention anywhere except my symptoms for about another 2 weeks. I hate it because it ramps up really fast, but then takes forever to go down. Its like my brain is set on fire or that I’m about to have a seizure or I’m going to lose control of myself if it doesn’t go down quickly. I can understand why many people act erratically during these times because its like someone put hot coles in your shoes and then tells you to go out and function normally in society. This is just my experience though.

yes guinea pigs is exactly how u feel and i do believe that its not individualised treatments and alot of shrinks don't care or truly listen to their patients and it can become forceful towards the struggles to get medications sorted it can take many many years to have medications actually sorted out - not sure why this is happening in this era.

A 2013 study found that people with bipolar I disorder experienced a peak of manic symptoms around the fall equinox, and depressive symptoms peaked during the winter solstice. An older study from 2002 found the same patterns in both the Northern and Southern hemispheres.9 Feb 2023

How fun is multiple shape shifting over the course of the day. Too much fun to share anymore. Not recommended.

Thanks for your work on this. Great Eye glasses Many Thanks!

Thank you for this video. ❤

SO know what you're talking about. It has been horrible.

I got recommended this video and I have been trying to go through all your bipolar episodes. I gotta say that you have been very helpful for me. This guy I have been dating has bipolar disorder, and he got into a lotta stress from work and college and it caused him to go into a severe depressive episode. He has isolated himself and has pushed me and all of his friends away. It has been many months now with no contact and I am still hoping he will come around. I care about him so much and have been trying to learn more about his condition and how to help him. I have been looking at stuff online for months and you have explained things better than most places I have looked at.

Thank you❤️‍🩹 I’m trying so hard to try and understand this in my partner.

I have frequent urges to move immediately where I believe I need to go to either fix or escape something. I’ve never considered it a sign of my mental illness, but I’m starting to see that they’re connected to paranoia and mania.

clearly a misdiagnosis, hypomania lasts minimum 4 days and mania a week. Clearly a BPD case here.

So what do you really take for this? I’m not taking a typical antipsychotics. Mine is not bad enough for that. Plus my main problem sadly enough this is a big one, but the main one is my ADD and autism/pervasive developmental disorder but I’m just freaking off you take Wellbutrin to motivate or What’s the other one and if you take Vyvanse for your ADD it sucks because they make you kinda anxious or sleepy. It’s never quite right but at least you’re sore able to function to function in the world unless you’re drinking coffee and send you mega anxiety I just like just a support system, my family still doesn’t understand why can’t just be a successful doctor I don’t understand sometimes I think I’m making all this up, but I’m not sure what I’m supposed to be and how

I hate this so much you guys we can. I have normal life try having this plus some sort of freaking autism and ADD and realize that when you don’t have your parents or someone is translators for the world and when your moods and energy keep shifting life is like a war every day for the simplest things and nightmare and I don’t I don’t know it that strange combination where nothing you do you should be able to do everything but nothing to do last And everything especially have a development disorder as far as executive function, decision steps, knowing how to do things knowing how you’ll feel doing them if you can do them knowing how you communicate and work with people I don’t even wanna go, but that’s just say that I don’t know if I got worse. I just exist and it’s pure like it’s not where you wanna kill yourself but it’s hell where your life why am I alive? I’m just using resources and I’m even if I didn’t feel guilty I just kind of feel poor than helpless. It’s really not cool, I don’t know what we did to deserve this crap but I am so tired and so over it

You put into words, exactly how i feel. I just hate suffering like this everyday. You explained the depressed brain perfectly. Its as if you were explaining me exactly. I don't want to die, but i don't want to live anymore. Im isolating, im unable to take care of anything, and myself. I have so much guilt and regret. I made foolish decisions that caused me to loose my career job i loved!... I have the same. Extreme anxiety, insomnia and severe depression. Im so afraid. I feel worse than ever. 😢😩😭⛓️... i had to edit more. I can't commit to getting help. I call for help, but too afraid to do anything, or commit. I just stay alone and suffer. I can't explain😩

Hi, do you also have insomnia when in a mixed state? Thank you

i buy constant plane tickets with plans to move its a mess this illness

May i ask which meds helped you?

God bless 🥰🙏🧡

You describe it so well

Listening to you I just knew what was coming I'm the same I think that group's of worman that I know or don't know that they are calling me and I don't like me I feel more comfortable with men's company

Thank you for sharing and being so brave. I'm the support system for my son. How does your support system help you with your paranoia if your paranoia is about them?

I just want you to know I watch and I watch and read everything I can about my "issue" I try my damndest to out think or out smart it. So plz don't stop these videos, despite ur viewer count or subs. Some of us out here need to see someone like us I have DYSPHORIC mania and I also now have mania black-outs. And that's terrifyin and meds help but I wish they would cure...

Thank you for sharing ❤ You really have been through quite a hard time. I am really glad to have someone who is transparent because living with bipolar is really hard added into it your ongoing physical health going belly up ❤ I wish you all the best. I am just coming out of a mixed episode and it's hard as you know staying alive is an ongoing battle with my brain ❤

THIS WAS VERY HELPFUL...THANK YOU!

It makes you laugh because life is a big joke for us with Bipolar. Call me anything you want, I do not care.

Dear Angel, are you all right? We miss you. I hope you are doing ok, God bless you. ❤

I agree, it's very important to read everything you can about an illness when you have it. Thank you for reminding us we are not alone. To answer your question, I have had three psychotic episodes as an adult. Each time, the paranoia has been overwhelming. My red flags are that I start to get suspicious and read coded messages into everything. I normally get post psychotic depression too. I am doing a lot better now thanks to medication and talking therapy. There's hope through recovery!

Wow. Thats a lot. Hang in there.

What about a ketogenic diet ?

Excellent!

Love the video angel So brave and honest Male 47 from Ireland struggling daily. Love from dan ❤❤

Thank you for sharing. So validating.

U are brave … my prayers for u .. I can Understand your situation.. thanks 😇

finally Angel

Glad you did this video. It helped me understand a lot of things. Biopsy, been there this last months. Anxiety went high. Two weeks ago my oldest get no know that he has brain tumor. It’s scaring! My anxiety level has gone really high. So much uncertainty. I will get through this and everything’s gonna be alright. I hope….. But right now it doesn’t feel like it. That was a lot of complaining, sorry.

Look up “mental illness.” It’s a stigmatism you shouldn’t have to bare. Bipolar is a gut bacterial problem. Do a search for FMT Australlia for the gal who suffered from bipolar. and treated herself successfully.

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Angel, thank you for making these videos. I get a lot from more personal experiences of other bipolar people in their own words. I'm actually thinking about starting my own little UA-cam channel myself but I'm hesitant. A few years ago, I finally figured out my mixed states on my own and had to describe them to my pdoc. They are excruciating and the most difficult to figure out. Also can be the most dangerous if I don't catch myself early. I'm on the mood stabilizer oxcarbazepine and my pdoc allows me to adjust my dosage as my moods shift because it does so well for me. When I know I'm especially hypomanic or in a serious mixed state I can increase my meds to keep me stable. It works very well for me. Also have to watch my caffeine a bit and my attitude in general. Lots of folks are aware of depression and hypomanic/mania but mixed states need to be discussed a lot more. Thanks again for your efforts. Very helpful for me and I'm sure many others.

I am so grateful for this video!

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How is this ultra rapid cycling? I mean this in no offending way, but ultra rapid cycling is within a time period of weeks or days.

Hi Angel Hawks, I hope you're doing well I just finished Let's talk bipolar and oh my goodness, I learned a lot even though they're 7 years old. I felt that connection as well.

Found this channel after what I'm told is a "mixed mania"/ dx with bipolar 15 years ago, THANK YOU for giving us a platform

Too helpful video

I was harassed by bipolar disorder in 2022. I had 7 episodes of mania and 7 episodes of depression. The episode lasted from 50 days to 5 days even 4 hours. After 4 hours I was back on track but I could not control my hyper excitement Every time I come out of the black hole of depression I feel super excited super happy super energetic But one day my mind changes from top gear to reverse gear.i slipped into depression again For 7 days daily every day I was alternately super happy and supersad. Very few doctors have diagnostic skills or simple logic. I mean you are doctor But you want your patients to remain disturbed mentally so that the doctor earns steady income If a patient is intelligent he can suggest a particular medication But the doctor gets furious How can a patient be smarter than me to advice me I am the boss. I will dictate medication This happens which means change the DICTATOR doctor and find humane doctor

Angel I am severe bipolar In 2022 I have had 15 terrible episodes of mania followed by depression. I had 4 road accidents which I survived due to manic driving The 15 episodes ranged from 50 days to 5 hours Everytime the same. Delighted when out if depression Devastated in the mind though not visible to others in depression In out in out of mania and depression Fortunately my father is a doctor who is just mbbs but made super accurate diagnosis The symptoms were as followsws 1.talking very loud driving very fast laughing and making others laugh when manic Crying not even wanting to get up from bed..somehow completing essentiall washroom and toothpaste sleeping sleep with eye closed but not actual sleep not cleaning the Room fear of going insane feeling that whatever I do I do wrong loss of happiness total sadness for no proper or serious reason when depressed Feeling very scared about the health of my aged lonely father and how will I manage without him and fear of insanity Strangely except the expert eyes of my doctor father who is very very old but superfit because he was in the Army as a doctor and he is to me the best father ever in yhe history of the human race he loves me dearly but I am a fit 53 year old.i feel very young and look 42 only. I am now living on a daily hourly basis taking medication watching movies and writing articles. I am a writer. Very serious sensitive videos by you Thank you It has made me so relieved that there are many BIPOLARS and bipolar does not mean mad. Ever since I was a child of 2 years all my relatives thought I was abnormal Except my dearest father who has amazing diagnostic skills and patience My mother who was ill with cancer for 8 years once scolded ms for shouting loud in my sleep which was ofcoyrse involuntarily not intentional She was very spiritual and before her death after 8 years of chemotherapy loss of hair which ruined her beauty she died I front of me I felt numb How will I take care of my dearest father But I have succeeded inspite of my bipolar. To be honest my life is the history of a bipolar! But I would say this Do not give up Fight and fight with your sadness control your mania and I hope you find a doctor who knows the difference between bipolar and PTSD Sorry for the long story. Thanks again Angel.you are a true angel to me. From India with best wishes Goodbye. Regards God bless us all with a happy mind. I am an unmarried bachelor of 53 with zero chance of getting married. Anyway more important is TAKE BIPOLARS SERIOUSLY. THEY ARE NOT FAKING.THEY ARE IN LIVING HELL.

Just found your channel and I’m super grateful !

Angel. I had no idea.YOUR SO POPULAR!!! love your content…..Your very intelligent.we all battle the medication issues and side effects. You look fab & healthy. I know exactly about Topomax . I’m on it however, i also NEVER a would decrease it. Bc I’m on it for more than MI. I’ve also got temporal lobe epilepsy. So, for me my meds system is quite complex compared with other medications….I suffer as well w severe scoliosis,Degenerative Disc Disease,Migraine Headaches Severe, Severe TMJ , plus GI ,host full of those issues!!!! 😖😖🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 It’s such a life” of course,my Rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder =2 ) yes that’s suicidal ideation] about the truck) I used to act on my things” When I was younger I used to def injure” myself deliberately “ before diagnosis) I am grateful now simply to be alive bc I really shouldn’t. End of. If your treatment works, Simply stay on. It. You are strong too Good karma back to you & yours. Survivors do what we do Take our meds see our Drs or therapists. Do the best we can with what you have

I’m very happy to see that Angel,like I take time for self care. I’ve sensitive/ dry skin not so much into makeup anymore at age 62 but I play up my pretty eyes that are very expressive. The older you are I think the less makeup you should apply. I like green or blue mascaras . Black mascara is too Hard on pale blondes. Love my cotton tips & cotton pads! I love all skin hypoallergenic products so that means CLINIQUE for me…… Plus the best I reside not in America) but currently Canada, we have a shop called MAC . I got a great eyeliner pencil (30$;-40$) the girl sold it to me. I first explained,my eyes water constantly She totally got the issue. I got a gorge green liner Now Im able to do wings” FYI I love your eye look! Do they make a coloured mascara? I don’t think they sell glossier in Canada? My fave concealer used to be YSL touché de clat But as finances $$$ I dropped it. I actually dislike all the stuff. I’m so into skin often using my lovely jade roller. That’s my ultimate go to. Love the fact both of us never let bipolar ruin our hobby of makeup Plus it’s a part of healing I feel!

FYI caught your sign stigma! I notice these things! Cool lady