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@@zaynefaruqi9508 Thanks! Cool name!

@@Wookie_pookie_ffs I appreciate you taking the time to leave a kind comment!

Thank you for sharing your gratitude!

Life is one hell of a drug.

@@JohnnyIsDelusional Yah, I am addicted to it.

@@Gluesticky21 It's a good substitute to getting high on glue!

I definitely try to talk my friends into seeing themselves in a more positive light than pointing out that it's all an opinion in their head :)

@@JohnnyIsDelusional You have friends? Most of mine left me a while ago. Perhaps I was the one that left them. LOL

@@Gluesticky21 I do. And since the people pleasing part doesn't really show up anymore, they're great friendships.

You can say resistance drops with the sense of self as having a sense of self is the resistance. When there's no more belief of how you're supposed to be, you can be how you naturally are. Not having resistance does not mean you cannot say "no." You can physically be uncomfortable with certain things and situations but you don't try to argue against that uncomfortability. If someone had an allergy, it wouldn't be wise to tell them "just stop resisting your allergies." That would be harmful. Or any variant of "your 'no' is ego." If someone is making inappropriate advances onto you, telling them "no" isn't resistance if it's from a true place. Resistance is saying "no" when you feel a "yes" or a "yes" when you feel a "no." For example, if you feel nervous, non resistance would be letting yourself be nervous and act in a way that's true while feeling nervous. Resistance would be being nervous and having a belief about what nervousness means about you and following a script of "nervous." "Nervous means I'm not good enough to tell my friend I want to spend more time with them," so you end up following a thought that makes you feel bad about feeling nervous and you end up lying to yourself about what authentic action would be. Non resistance would be telling your friend you'd like to spend more time with them while being nervous cause there's no belief that you shouldn't feel nervous or that it's wrong you would like to spend more time with them. Another way resistance can look is talking yourself out of your feelings. "I don't have any reason to be nervous. I am confident because I'm smart, funny, attractive. I got this for sure!" It's avoiding your feelings by thinking away from your experience so you can create a mental version of what you think should be happening instead. You can get good outside results this way, but then there's a shadow, a resistance, to ever feeling nervous. The downside is you can't feel compassion for someone who experiences nervousness because you're afraid their nervousness will bring up your own nervousness, so you avoid people who express their nervousness. You can avoid authentic things to you if admitting you want this would make you nervous and you avoid things that make you nervous, making you shameful of things that are genuinely important to you. Like "it's shameful to admit you want to be closer to your friends" just because it makes you feel nervous and you believe feeling nervous means "you" aren't good enough. So you never get your authentic desire of having close friendships just because it makes you nervous. Hope this helps!

It does help… a lot…perfect😊

I am just a normal person who advocates seeking professional help if that's possible. I am not equipped to make comments on traumas and feel it would be irresponsible to offer advice other than seeking professional help with this. What I can share, human being to human being, is that community and having people who can hold space for your emotions will lessen many burdens. The human experience is a difficult one and it's not something that has to be traversed alone. The dynamic with your partner is something between you two. If you both have a healthy means for communication about boundaries, needs, and expectations, then it is a relationship that is in service to the well-being of both of you even if it doesn't look like every other happy relationship out there. What I can say is that life circumstances doesn't have to perpetuate self-hatred. Anger is a powerful emotion, yet, like every emotion, is not an enemy. If it's possible, having safe friends who can hold space for your emotions without indulging them can be quite healing. There's a line when it comes to processing emotions versus venting that perpetuates an emotion. That line can be seen as feeling your emotions vs being in your head bargaining why you should / shouldn't be feeling the way you do. A safe (and fun!) physical exercise that get's you in touch with your body, or a meditative practice are all great ways to develop ways to be able to connect with anger so can make space for it instead of being burdened by it. I'd like to reiterate I'm not a professional, but I do want to sincerely wish you the best as a fellow human being.

@@JohnnyIsDelusional I appreciate the sentiment. Thank you. I guess it's mostly fallacy of sunk cost at this point. Much like Daniel Johnston and his music, I kinda enjoy my art and my narrative a bit too much. That requires tapping into that pool of angst. Then one has to wonder what direction it could be taken in at this point. At the very least, it seems to be helping me heal. I'd never have been able to talk like this not even a week ago. Hmm... if you know of any art places, I'd deeply appreciate the lead. Making a rl friend sounds nice. No idea how though besides the work until I die and help others routine. It's a good routine, I suppose. Hmm.. Hope your day is going well.

It took a while but I started loving myself as I got older and understand if I feel okay then that’s all that matters

Good job being able to advocate for yourself and your own well-being 😊

I understand this, but you are important and you are loved! You are perfect how you are and life is too short to worry about silly things!:) I can’t even say I have everything figured out and that I even stick to it everyday but still try.

I hope you're able to have people who are there for you as life can make many difficult demands and having a support system can do wonders. Many people aren't always so lucky to have the gift of community, but even alone, healing is possible. I wish you the best.

A dark silent screen would be a great lesson!

Awakening is very real

@@user-vl7du3xd8m there is no proof

Thank you 😊. And I would love to have talks with people if they wanted to!