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Two months ago I lost someone very close to me to suicide. It was terrible, and will continue to be terrible but I try to remind myself every day that although someone I loved is gone there are so many people left. There are so many people left in the world. I try to love everyone around me as much as I can because I have experienced first hand that they may not be around me for long.

I never comment but the comments section here is just the energy I need. Love everyone here and good luck in the future, whoever reads this. You’re stronger than you know. Safe travels, we’ll meet in the next life. <3

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I lost my father on the morning of 14 June 2023. He had just turned 60 just seventeen days prior, and had been in the hospital for his 60th birthday. I remember the night before, and the hours leading up to his passing. I got a message from one of my cousins that he wasn't doing well and that they didn't expect him to make it through the night. I was 6 hours away, I knew I had little time. As soon as I left work at midnight on the 14th, I sped the 360 miles it was from my workplace to Eugene, Oregon. What usually took me 6 hours on any other given trip I did in 3 and a half that morning. I arrived at the hospital at 3:35am, and took the elevator up to the 8th floor. I wasn't prepared for what I saw next. Even if you gave me enough time with what I know now, I still wouldn't be prepared for what I saw. I saw, lying in a hospital bed with people I had long since forgotten standing around him, a shell of what looked like my father. He was pale, unconscious, and barely breathing. I had no idea at the time, but my siblings had entered the hospital right after me. We all gathered around him, hoping he'd at least open his eyes to see us. But, all we heard was the ominous noise of death rattle. I still have nightmares of that noise playing back in my head. Right around 5am, I volunteered to get breakfast for us siblings and I, since my elder sisters hadn't had anything and had been up all night, and my younger brother was not intending on eating the food the hospital had. So, I went out to town to find us something. I was trying my quickest to get back to the hospital, but as I was getting ready to head back with our food, I got the call from my brother saying that he had passed. All I could do after hanging the phone up was sit in the car and look at the clock. 5:25 am. What followed was what seemed the slowest trip back to the hospital. Not a thought in my head on my way back. Just this feeling of abject sadness, a feeling with an Atlas-type weight to it that I wouldn't dare wish on my worst enemy. It's just after 3:20 am on 27 September 2024. 471 days have passed since he left this mortal coil and slipped it's surly bonds. I still find myself dialing his number sometimes. Hug those close to you. Time is short, precious, and fleeting.

Wander on friends, may your feet and spirits keep light upon the long road.

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It is love me must hold on to. Never easy, but we try. Sometimes our happiness is captured. Somehow our time and place stands still. Love lives on inside our hearts, and always will. ♡

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I'm a college freshman, and I think my friends hate me. Maybe two weeks ago, my best friend of 5 years told me that the people in our friend group, including herself, don't feel like they can be themselves around me because I'm too socially conscious. They make some offensive jokes, and I ask them not to. They're often mean to me; making fun of me for things I can't control or things I enjoy, completely leaving me out of conversations and hangouts, making me feel shallow, like my personality is just me being trans, or me being gay, or me having shitty parents. My best friend betrayed me very badly about two years ago, and since then, it's been so much more difficult to simply let her mean comments towards me pass. I'm neurodivergent, and it seems to me like the things they dislike about me are my neurodivergent traits, which I just can't control. These days, I hang out with them, but I both hate and love every second of it. When they're not being mean, we have a lot of fun together, and we laugh and joke around like normal friends. But when we're not joking around or playing video games together, I'm usually being left out. I'm the odd one out, and it feels like shit. They say they want me around, that they miss me and want to hang out with me, but whenever I'm with them, it feels the opposite. When I'm with them, I can see just how little I mean to them, how little attention they ever pay to me, how little they even seem to notice I'm there. It's painful. I desperately want out, and yet I desperately want to stay. I hate them for treating me this way, but I love them because of how good our friendship has been for the few years before this. It feels like I'm barely stumbling through the days. I have zero motivation to do anything. I just want to lay in bed and stay there bedrotting in my lover's arms. I feel like crying about 20 times a day because I feel like I'm not good enough for the people around me. My friends hate me, and my family hates me. It seems like nobody but my partner actually likes me or wants me around, and that is such a shitty feeling when you don't understand what you're doing wrong. I know they're not treating me well, that they're not being good friends, and yet I can't bring myself to stop talking to them. I can't bring myself to stop hanging out with them whenever I'm free, even though it hurts to be around them. I just don't know what to do. I don't have any other friends, and I struggle with talking to people. If I stopped talking to them, then I would just be alone. Somebody please help me. I just want to be okay. I want to be happy for once in my goddamn life.

Putting ads on this kinda ruined the whole experience. Got woken up twice by loud ads, and I’m sure most people put it on while trying to fall asleep

i got recommended this video and i guess the length of the day got to me. i just. burst into tears. i just want to get to where i feel like i'm supposed to go already.

My parents are getting a divorce and bought a dog to make me and my sister feel better when we went to the vet we learned that dog has a chance of dying from a bad heart disease sending blood back to the heart

Holy trauma dump. Plus the ads are definitely distracting

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These comments are all beautiful, I just lost a cousin and have been really down about life. Not feeling like I can move on, ot feels almost like a physical struggle with myself. Labors of life seem go be too much. After reading these comments they have inspired me to keep moving forward, but with every passing moment I feel so hurt. As of I am a waste of space and existence wishing I could trade with someone less fortunate. Anyway I don't know if anyone will see this or if anyone cares, but thanks for sharing the same time and space as me.

Pardon the vent. I realized today that part of my trauma and unhealthy attitude towards myself wasn't just my parents. It's my uncle too. He makes everything a competition and loves redirecting conversations back towards him. And my dad is just a coward who can't stick up for his own daughter. My father will never see me as good enough until I'm more "accomplished" than my uncle's family. I just wanted to be loved and find happiness. My dad's side of the family might be accomplished and wealthy, but the poor manual laborers and production floor workers have been more of a family to me than they ever have been. They can't see what I have to offer as a kind and well-rounded human being and they don't deserve me. Blood relation is a dogshit excuse.

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Hey everyone. I have terrible health anxiety and I’m always scared for the day where I’m going to get some bad news. I’m 24, so I feel as if I shouldn’t be worrying as much as I am. However, people in the comments have had people pass from cancer at my age. In two weeks I’m probably going to get scheduled for a CT scan of my head. I’m extremely worried because something hasn’t felt right up there in a while. Weird congestion issues, spasms right behind my right ear any time I stretch or sneeze, and so many other ailments that just aren’t adding up. It’s really hard to explain but it genuinely feels like something is up there pushing on things it’s not supposed to. I just don’t want to leave my grandma behind. I live with her and my grandfather passed away in January of this year and that would be the most devastating thing to her if I ended up leaving before her. My dad and my aunt barely come see her so I just don’t want her to be all alone. Even just thinking about it made me a sobbing mess. I’m just really hoping for good news so I can finally stop stressing myself out

This is sad yet calming, with the help of reading comments to read kindness and stories of people it makes it all more immersive.

Title says it all ❤

I normally never comment on videos but I went through a lot of comments on this YT page and maybe my situation can help someone. I have a habit of comparing my life like apples to oranges. A lot of the time I invalidate my situations/problems because I know some are going through far worse. I came back from a deployment, towards the end it was pretty rough for me. Last few months I’ve lost decent amount of sleep, constantly on guard even around my love ones, mad at the world, lost motivation, isolating myself just to find some peace etc. One day I lost it, the weight of life got the best of me. Cursing up a storm, asking why me? Shortly after.. there I am bawling my eyes out. I had not one bit of a clue how hard mental health would be as a fight because I saw myself as a strong person capable of holding myself up. I’ve done it for years so why can’t I do it now? The reality is.. It’s okay to ask for help guys. It’s okay if you’re tired. You don’t need to fight this war alone. So many of my brothers take their lives because it gets too much for them, they end up becoming a black bracelet and a “I remember this time me and ___ did this. Damn I miss him” please don’t give up on yourself. Now’s not the time to be strong. Get the help you deserve. Please.

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Isso me lembra quando eu dormia e escutava antes de dormir e ir pra escola no dia seguinte...nostalgia

I just feel so lonely sometimes...I got family I got plenty of friends I don't have a reason to feel lonely I shouldn't feel lonely...and yet I feel so alone most of the time...I...don't...Know...why? (I keep telling myself I don't deserve to feel lonely I have a good life I don't deserve to hate myself I don't deserve to feel such loneliness that I should be happy...but most of the times the loneliness and anxiety get to me...and I just sit there in bed my mind tearing me down)

There’s a sadness in death. We are all searching for the light. All searching for a glimmer at the end of the tunnel. We wonder why we suffer? I believe in Jesus that whoever believes and calls upon his name that He is Lord will be saved. Yet why do we suffer. Maybe it really is because through our suffering we cain support those around us. That our suffering is not about ourselves but about the beauty created out of it. Joseph cried out saying that what his brothers intended for evil God made it for the good. He was a Slavs and prisoner yet Joseph believe God meant it for good.

....I haven't been taking care of myself I haven't been getting enough sleep...I take care of everyone else except myself...heh

My brain feels sad a lot :( It wants to explode :p

I don't know how much longer I can do this. I've been so miserable for so long and I'm just tired of trying. I've realized that I absolutely hate being around most people, but crave connection more than anything. What do you do when all you want is to be held, but can't stand anyone touching you? Now I'm just a husk, waiting and hoping that someone will fill me with their affection so I can live happily. But I know it won't happen, I know that's not how love works and it will never fall into my lap. I just can't keep pretending I belong in this complicated world. I don't even feel like I'm human.

this song. Something about it. I don’t want to click off. i don’t need too. it’s feels that i’ve found peace, but then why do I feel a slight sense of emptiness?

Thanks!

I wish everyone here all the best. Look to your well-being, and please take care of yourselves. Let the fire inside you burn brighter than the fire around you.

Man, i don't know how im making it through the rest of high school. People say that these are the best years of my life but i cant see how it gets worse from here. If you're reading this... Just take care of yourself, alright? Ill try to take care of myself too.

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Hello young man, God bless you, Jesus, I love you and He wants to save you. You only have to put your faith in Jesus and you and your home will be saved. Jesus loves you, repent and convert so that the forgiveness of your sins may come. Jesus loves you, I love you young man and I want you to know that Jesus wants to save you.

Damn... life really be lifing

I’m just not good right now,I’m having a hard time every day…

So beautiful

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this played on the monitor at my ex boyfriends house the last time we got to sleep next to each other. it was so peaceful and the soft flow of the screen was perfect to hold each other and cry about all of the little things we had going on. as much as I've learned to hate him since the breakup, this still makes me think of when we had something good.

Thank you to everyone who is here. I'm 25 this year, and I feel like I should have so much more done in my life, be happier. I had a good cry in these comments, and I know where I am coming on those dark days. Stay strong everyone.

I feel like this is where people are sharing stuff so i want to put something in i know i have bad gramer and i know this is not that important Ive been feeling crazy stressed becuse of school and i cant make any new friends becuse of my social anxiety and i know next year i have to let a friend go becuse they are not good and making me feel bad bu im to scared to becuse "what if im with them in a class" i cant do anything about that whtch makes me feel bad becuse i would have to be by them after saying i dont want to be your friend And with my UA-cam channel everythings just to much to handle

i cant sleep. ive ruined my marriage by complacency. my wife resents me and i dont know that i can fix things. im angry all the time for no reason and hate everything about myself. if i dont change ill end up alone but i seem to be incapable of making that happen.

GET OFF THAT PHONE! Go to a mountain, get out in the rain, find a lake to walk around. FREE YOUR GODDAMN SPIRIT! Get off that fucking phone for a week, concentrate, get focus. Meditate, breathe. Trust me, your head won’t be under water for long.

I'm fifteen, and im kinda the joke of the class. Im always escluded and I don't have anyone to talk expect my family. I don't wanna seem a crybaby i just wanna talk to a new person.( i know this isn't the right place but i feel good talking to someone different)

I was kicked out my dad's house and now i live whit my girlfriend in or on home but we don't have money enough to pay our bills and for food, my dream is to finish school but I can't see a future we're I graduate cus I'm always working to pay my bills, I'm losing my mind and I don't have any other place to go

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