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2nd image hits different

The thumbnail looks like the old school days, where we like wanted to be like sick do we don't have to go to school

just let the memory go

What's the song name?

TW: Abuse (grooming, physical and verbal abuse) When I was little my dad used to verbally abuse my mum, he still does. I used to be a victim of him verbally abusing me when I turned about 7. He hit me multiple times and sometimes left marks. When I was 16, I got into a relationship with an older guy who I saw as a father figure. I loved him and relied on him and trusted him. With my rose coloured glasses on, I couldn’t see that he was grooming me. An adult should never date or even be in love with a child. We used to roleplay NSFW over text. It’s disgusting to think about it now. I always dated a girl who was so toxic. We both were. These pictures in the video make me think about what I would tell my dad and my two exs I mentioned. I now live with so much trauma. My current boyfriend helps as much as possible, but sometimes I don’t want help. Sometimes I don’t wanna be here anymore

Six years of SA. I hate them

Whoever went through this, I hope you recover ❤️‍🩹

what song is this??

whats the music?

0:04 exactly how I'm feeling.

why tf are these so relatable ?

hi crg, hope your doing even a bit better. Glad to see you back.

mentions of s3xual @buse!! also really big vent abt my silly little trauma 😁 I feel like life is at its worst. What once was normal to me is now abnormal and terrifying. I feel like nothing will ever be the same again ever since my grandfather laid his hands on me and many others. Everything feels wrong, my emotions and my reaction to what happened feels wrong. Despite having been sa’ed by him, i still crave for what has happened to happen again. Because thats what ive been put through my whole life. I was groomed into thinking this was love, that this was normal. My brain was wired into thinking this because of how early of an age it happened. Anything other than that feels wrong. I feel like i am not a real victim who really experienced the trauma of it because of this. Ive never met anyone who relates to this, i feel so alone and horrible for being this way despite knowing why. I just dont understand my reaction to this whole thing, to anything. I joke about it to a point that nobody probably believes me. I joke about it because i dont want to face the harsh reality and so people wont worry when i tell them about having been molested since i was a toddler. I dont understand my feelings, and i dont like anything.

Mom, I am so sorry. I am worthless. You'd be much better off if I never existed.

Omg lots of these are mine heh

You made the best year suicidal.

“You’re so sweet. Please be the death of me.” He makes me wanna die because of the pure futility of the situation. He never did anything wrong. But I wonder if he would smile or if he would not care.

Music has such a great healing power, to help us process the terrible things that happen to us, and celebrate the beautiful things

I know he hates me, but i still love him

Could I tell anyone about this

You are my mom but hurt me and touched me weirdly, why?

I trusted you

I love this kind of internet's darkness

Something bad is about to happen again

For him it lasted 3 years, for me my whole life

No matter how much time has passed, I still live in this

I’m in school and currently bullied. At this point, I’m either “too” sensitive or I’m just numb

I need a hug I feel like I'm gonna fall onto the floor with trembling knees and hands like a dying machine 🤕

These always comfort me strangely

0:56 looks like an internet meme.

SCREW THE UA-cam GUIDELINES! THIS WORLD IS NOT PEACEFUL ANYMORE!!! I WANT TO ###

I've had experienced this since i was a kid. Im not having trauma a lot but my girlfriend does have, she had lots of trauma in the past. She tells me everything about her story, and after she tells the story, she cried and i tried to comfort her. But 6 years later, me and my parents are moving to seattle and i saying goodbye to her but i'm really worried about her if she still scared of anyone while i'm moving. I still thinking about her, my childhood memories still inside my head. I hope you okay in there without me...😊😊

It happens to me all the time. even if things get better for a while, after that I became more and more immersed in this sticky pain that has been haunting me for several years.

Very brave of you, I am 35 and getting into traumacore drawing

4:51 totally relatable

I feel for you, I have been traumatized too at a young age

I hate myself for having to even get to a point in my life to listen to this and relate. I fucking hate this. I wanna leave. I hate this. I don't love this lifestyle.

I love you but you make me so sad 💔

0:10 this image is so nostalgic. Those keypad phones!

what you did was unforgivable. you left marks on my body. permanent. i can still feel the touch of you. no one deserves to be treated like that except for you, so you can feel my pain. you hurt me and i wish the worst pain on you imaginable.

1:06 as someone who feels scared to gain weight is constantly checking calories and is just afraid to eat this hit me

I happened to have gotten recommended this at 11 pm. I also happen to be at a bad time of my life. I feel like despite being nice to people at my school and trying to bring back my reputation from being the asshole kid back from elementary school, it doesnt matter. I dont think people see me as rude as much anymore but people just ignore me now. Even the weird kids suddenly dont want to be friends with me anymore. I sit in the hallway during lunch now since I have no friend group. People act like i dont exist. Like, im just a walking meatbag and not an actual being with a soul. What is even the fucking point of being nice to people just for them to ignore you. Also, it doesnt help the fact that the teachers keep calling me some feminine stuff like "girl", "sweetheart", etc. I feel dehumanized by being referred to by what is in my pants instead who i desire to be. Even if you are able to acknowledge the fact that i will never be a dude, then call me by my name instead, no need for some cringy girly nicknames no one likes. I dont have a good homelife either, my parents are conservative and being trans in my household could possibly ruin my life. I have to pretend to be a girl that doesnt even exist. My parents dont love me, only some girl. They also sexualize me for developing female puberty, making me more dysphoric. Also my mom is emotionally abusive and believes my autism can be cured and i dont have adhd since i can focus on my hobbies but never work and im just lazy. She is also the more conservative parent. My dad, on the other hand, is loving but would hate to see me become degenerate. I feel bad because i dont want to disappoint him. I am the only child he has, and I dont want him to associate me with those mfs claiming to be cat/catself. He is also christian so yeah... The only time im free from this pathetic "life" is at night when Im in bed. I feel only safe when im about to go to sleep and hoping i wont wake up the next day. Also sorry this so long and makes no sense. Im so tired rn.

I've never seen anything describing my life better. thank you. what's the song name anyways?

I don't know if I've been through trauma or not but why do I always feel this sad and empty?. It's been years, I was only a kid when I started feeling this way, Is it because there was some trauma? Is something wrong with me? Am I an ungrateful little brat? no one knows although there was some good memories being a kid but it's such a blur. It's like i was happy and entergetic yet empty. And for some reason it's so hard to forget even though it didn't seem that traumatic

"Why can't I just be a more sympathetic and nicer person? Why is this happening to me dammit! My Existence is so Unbearable. Just let me die then! Why? Why am I so cruel?! Just let death take me away from this! I'm just a jerk anyways."