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Even if awkward two different views, I find you two interesting, will e watching

Oh girl I sobbed at that part! 😭😭 I left the church in 2015 after having my third child. This song SCREAMED to that internal conflict for sure! I was 1000% in, was a relief society president, played the piano for sacrament, almost went on a mission, ended up marrying a non Mormon who went to church with me every weekend bc he supported me because he loves me. When I went through the Temple without him, he had to write a letter of support and the stake president cried bc it was a simple sentence “I love my wife unconditionally and support her in literally anything, it’s simple, that’s marriage.” I’ve never publicly spoke of this bc my family/extended family are still deeply rooted and prominent in our community. My experience with this song is that I felt the hope side of me yearning to live fully into me and not trying to get approval from anybody bc my legacy as a nurse, caring for the community, is what I want. But then there’s the other side mocking me. Essentially the church saying don’t be feeble and just go with the world. Interesting which character spoke to the same experience. I just started therapy bc I CANNOT get the voice creating turmoil out of my head. The idea that me living authentically into me, is “satan playing on my biggest strengths to expose my biggest weaknesses.” I left the church bc I would NOT subject my kids to that double standard and feeling guilty for living fully into their lives. And you’re a project until you get your husband to convert and get your family to the temple. Always working to be better… it’s exhausting. And ironically I feel closer to God now than before. Thank you to the both of you for being vulnerable, unapologetically. Thank you Renegades for creating a space to share and feel safe to do so. This is truly my first time sharing publicly. Thank you REN.

Oh girl I sobbed at that part! 😭😭 I left the church in 2015 after having my third child. This song SCREAMED to that internal conflict for sure! I was 1000% in, was a relief society president, played the piano for sacrament, almost went on a mission, ended up marrying a non Mormon who went to church with me every weekend bc he supported me because he loves me. When I went through the Temple without him, he had to write a letter of support and the stake president cried bc it was a simple sentence “I love my wife unconditionally and support her in literally anything, it’s simple, that’s marriage.” I’ve never publicly spoke of this bc my family/extended family are still deeply rooted and prominent in our community. My experience with this song is that I felt the hope side of me yearning to live fully into me and not trying to get approval from anybody bc my legacy as a nurse, caring for the community, is what I want. But then there’s the other side mocking me. Essentially the church saying don’t be feeble and just go with the world. Interesting which character spoke to the same experience. I just started therapy bc I CANNOT get the voice creating turmoil out of my head. The idea that me living authentically into me, is “satan playing on my biggest strengths to expose my biggest weaknesses.” I left the church bc I would NOT subject my kids to that double standard and feeling guilty for living fully into their lives. And you’re a project until you get your husband to convert and get your family to the temple. Always working to be better… it’s exhausting. And ironically I feel closer to God now than before. Thank you to the both of you for being vulnerable, unapologetically. Thank you Renegades for creating a space to share and feel safe to do so. This is truly my first time sharing publicly. Thank you REN.

I’ve been out of Mormonism for almost 25 years. I watch a lot of reaction videos, and Hi Ren is one of my go tos. I relate to it more along health, mental health, and creativity lines. Fun to see a video containing so many cross-sections of my interests. It is absolutely fair to call what the did to us “manipulation,” and in fact, I consider conditioning to be a stronger word, which also applies, because, while you can be manipulated by someone you’ve just met to give up money or a password and never see them again, conditioning runs way deep into your cells to cause an instant emotional reaction before you even have time to think about it. Conditioning builds upon our natural reactions to trauma over long term. The flinch response. (I’ve written quite a lot about this.) Conditioning can take quite a long time of steady work to unpack. Wish I could have seen Deb’s face more during the reaction! Hope to see more.

Great first reaction, hope you continue to share your trip down the Ren rabbit hole❤❤❤ subbed!!!

I’m not a Mormon but I came upon this video because of Ren. I found you guys incredibly refreshing and relatable. I subscribed. Keep it up!!!

Found Ren 2 years ago and Tom MacDonald 4 years ago. Changed my music listening forever! Never liked/listened to rap before. I'm 90% soul/funk, no rap. Both guys are 100% no fluff. I don't always agree with everything they sing/say/think, but respect their independence, enormous talent, work ethics, quality and honesty. Standing up for good in their respective ways. I'm 57, 👴🏼 active "mormon" since childhood. We're all on a journey. I don't recognize "the Church" and "the Mormons" and the pressure some "ex-mormons" describe. But we are all different, have met different members/ leaders. Maybe the "culture" is a bigger problem than the teachings? (For some.) I like what Ren said in Hi Ren. What separates us from God and demons is that we're in between the dark and the light. Contant struggle. While demons are always in the dark - angels and God constantly in the light. Well, well... Moving on. Let's stand up for what is good whichever road we travel. And as Pres. Monson said (or quoted?): "Always be yourself. But be your best self." 😇👍🏼 Good luck w/ your channel. It's actually great to introduce guests to Ren like this. ✨👍🏼✨

REN is an amazing artist, and I hope you dive into his catalog. Some very thought provoking material, topics you just don’t hear about. ❤

I just saw your Hi Ren reaction, and put this journal entry of Ren's as my comment to that reaction. ~~~~~~jAN 01, 202~~rEN~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Up until I was 9 years old, I would intermittently hear a voice in my head that was not my own. The voice was distinctly different to mine, and always negative. It would self criticize or urge me to do things I knew to be morally wrong. The most peculiar thing about the voice was that it took no effort on my behalf to produce. My own thoughts always felt like there was a process that required effort to bring them to the forefront of my mind, this voice appeared as though it was spoken by another. The sentences felt predetermined like they had already been constructed. I remember very vividly at 9 years old, becoming very frustrated with the voice. I stood in my back yard, internally screaming at the voice to be silent again and again, and it did. In a flash there was silence, to the point where my head felt like an empty room. I wasn't used to the quiet and that voice never returned. It almost felt lonely in my head. When I got older I had intermittent bouts with auditory hallucinations where I would hear perfect symphonies, usually at night when drifting off to sleep. They were so clear that they sounded like they were emanating from a radio in the corner of my room. I knew they weren't there, but for some reason they never came with the feeling of fear. I also recall sitting on a bus at the age of 15, and hearing the sound of a crowded room, with about 100 voices chattering away, I was the only person apart from the driver on the bus. These experiences were always very brief, and few and far between. My last hallucination was during an intense bout of psychosis in 2015, and was my first visual hallucination. I was walking down a pavement after jumping out my mums car in a crossroads in a moment of frustration and distress with my condition. I was trying to run from myself. What appeared to be a homeless man with a dark complexion approached me, and asked me what was wrong. I explained that I had been sick most my life, and I wasn't sure I had the strength to continue. He looked at me, and smiled and told me 'everything is going to be okay in the end Ren.' I had not told him my name. There was something so overpoweringly sincere about this very simple message, which brought with it an overwhelming feeling of inner peace, and in a flash, he vanished. My rational brain always linked these experiences to what the doctors have told me, that there are parts of my brain compromised by the autoimmunity in my body. That the myelin sheaths surrounding the complex electrical system that conduct my thoughts were damaged and compromised, causing these lucid experiences that I knew did not exist inside the physical world. The part of me that edges away from logical and rational thought always attributed these thoughts to some kind of otherworldly intervention, that made my thoughts the battleground of some spiritual tug of war. For a long time I never really acknowledged this part of myself, for with it brought the danger and stigma of sounding like a crazy person. I decided with my latest release, to the best of my ability, to capture and express this chess match of thought. Hi Ren comes out in just over 24 hours. I can't wait for you all to hear it.

You should try his track Eden.

I truly appreciate and empathize with your perspectives. I made the break over 40 years ago And went through many of the same struggles as exhibited in the song and in your review, it just gets better and better

Hi Deb! Welcome to the wonderful world of Ren.Hi! RiK. Keep Reacting!

We just love good Art/music!!Renagade❤❤❤

WTH?? lol I DID NOT EXPECT THIS!! lol Nice!

Glad I clicked on...and listened after the music. I know Ren's music well. Honestly, I skipped through much of the beginning because I've heard it and didn't see much dialogue (not a critique..just the facts lol). Funny how things present themselves...just as we need them. And now you're on to "Dear God". Thank you. New sub.

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My understanding of his spiritual journey. He was notraised religious. He is from Wales and Christianity is taught in school. He has talked about being spiritually curious/searching in his early 20's. after he got sick.

I am just curious as to what made you leave after such a long time period and what gave you the gusto to proceed?

Ren is a genius and so unique. Chalk outlines live and Dear God are just a couple of special songs that Ren has made that are worth reacting to…he’s made many and all completely different. Enjoy your journey following Ren. An artist of his calibre has been a long time coming. Great reaction 👏👏

Thanks for reacting to this true GENIUS It would've be nice to see both your faces reacting as you watched. Liked & subscribed in anticipation of you reacting to more Ren Cheers 🍻😀

Keep the duo going like a podcast-you guys rock and need both your faces on the stream. More Ren, please, and other songs too!

C for captions. Num pad 0 for restarting, 1 for 10% of video, etc. Left or right arrow to jump 5 sec. And the left side of the screen has a few pixels of dead space in which your mouse will not interact while in full screen, great for clicking out of menus and preventing small movements from activating the UI, getting in the habit of leaving your mouse there will improve your experience greatly.

Welcome to the music/art that is Ren. I hope you guys keep reacting. Both of you are beautiful souls. React to Ren's "Eden" ... to find out his true connection with religion.

Loved your reaction. A lot of rens music has some religious symbolism. I would recommend Lost all Faith and Seven Sins. For other Ren songs there are many, from the music bangers like Losing It, to Rap flows like Genesis and Hunger, the heartbreaking S**cide, The philosophical Money Game trilogy and Money Ties, ending up in the story of Ren in Sick Boy and Troubles. There is a whole world to explore. Welcome in. It's fun here.

You guys caught my attention!! I want to experience more of you, so I had to subscribe!! Nice job!! 😊 BTW, I also am a Renegade!

Thank you for sharing and really good reaction. Welcome to the wonderful world of REN, our lyrical genius and beautiful soul. Subbed for more Ren and your stories ❤

SUBBED for more Ren

We're definitly just a Book Club and all the members are buying an island to live on and "read books"

Hello fellow ex-mormons! I really enjoyed your reaction and insights. When I saw Hi Ren, I didn't specifically relate it to leaving mormonism (probably because it's been 3 decades and I don't think about it much), but I definitely understand your perspective, and your thoughts on it were really insightful. I relate to Ren more because of my chronic health issues, and just as a music fan in general. I love his diversity. You are really going to enjoy your journey into Ren's music. He does so many different things, and they are all fantastic. He will surprise you every time. I'm looking forward to seeing more from you in the future.

16:54 funny that you reference to a Shelf. Ren himself sings about being put on a higher Shelf in his Song "Genesis" (Relax, he's using metaphors^^)

Renegade has landed. Here for ya ❤

I see the Holy Ghost as the conscience and the "light of Christ" as our guide back to the path of righteousness. As humans, we continue wandering blindly off the path. It's that conscience that urges us (me) to pick my head up and search for that guiding light (Christ) and try to get back on the righteous path. I was brought up Presbyterian but now attend a Baptist Cowboy Church. I've known many Mormons since I've skied in Utah virtually my whole life. For a religion that I disagree with some fundamental positions and teachings, I will say, after seeing the show The Book of Mormon, it was refreshing and heartening to see Mormon's embracing the comedy and controversy of that show and handing out The Book of Mormon after the show. At least they weren't trying to shame or behead us for going to the show! I've also seen the underground repository. That aspect does give me pause. Anyway, glad the Spirit has lead you to search for that Guiding Light again. Humans were born and live in sin. Sure, if we wander blindly, we might pass the road of riotousness from time to time but it is that light that encourages and enables us to remain on and find our way back to that path.

How come we couldn't see both of you during the reactions? I didn't like that. But I loved the rest of your reactions! Thanks for sharing Ren.

Remember, faith and religion are two different things. Good on you for growing beyond the institution. Sharing your journey is therapeutic for you and to those who you are sharing it with. Ren is sharing and helping you to grow deeper and to heal.

Ah, a new newbie to Ren! Greetings. 70yrs old here in USA Many here will suggest Ren music to you. I would like to suggest his 8 chapters (on the YT channel named RenMakesStuff). His "Thank you to 1 million subscribers and definition of succes" video from his YT channel RenMakesMusic. There are also many interviews between himself and Reactors, Mental Heath providers, Reporters, and Others. Renegades will flock to watch your reaction to those as well as Anything else Ren posts. Do not focus just on his new music. We will arrive to watch you react to songs and videos he created at age 19, with equal joy as what he will be dropping next week or next month or what ever future date he alerts us to. I would also encourage you to check out both bands he was in "Trick the Fox" and "The Big Push" and all the collabs he has done past, present and future. Also: Chinchilla, Romain, Gorran, Prof, Viktus Chris Webby, Sam Tompkins and many other artists we have met through Ren. The Reniverse is very large!

You can always be open here. Its appreciated!

Hey there y'all, I really enjoyed the insight into your perspective of Rens song Hi Ren. I would love to see more reactions from y'all 💛

It would make us happier if you were to have an insert of your guest onscreen while the song is being performed so we could see their reaction too.

To give you some idea of how broad the Ren fanbase is, I' a 71 yr old Scotsman and there are many hundreds, if not thousands, of others my age who consider themselves to be RENegades. Ren is without any doubt whatsoever, the most important artist to have graced our eyes and ears for a generation.

Enjoyable reaction guys. Dominoes is another thought provoking track and How to be Me another worth watching.

Thank you for your heartfelt reaction. Welcome to Ren & his music. Renegade reporting for duty 🫡 ❤️🌊⛵ A Rising Tide Lifts All Ships

Love your reactions and thanks for sharing your stories. That’s what I loved finding Ren seeing comments and his community made me feel not as alone. My ordeal is with mental illness struggles my whole life and no one else around me did. So felt very alone everytime leaving house had to put that fake smile on kept in a jar by the door. It’s wonderful to see rawness in people and emotions we go thru that no one talks about. We need real people so I love how you speak on that. We should be able to talk about real things grow and learn. Just loved your stories. Wish you both well also. One more thing, I love the name of your channel much love and peace ❤❤❤❤❤

Such a wonderful reaction and discussion. Your experiences with the Mormon organization gave a really interesting context, as well. Even though Ren isn't particularly religious himself, he likes using religious tropes & terms, and I've seen many reactors say that Ren's music has validated either their specific faith or their rejection of specific faith. Your experiences are valid and deserve to be aired. Thank you for sharing. And welcome to the Renegades. We sometimes joke about our fandom being a "cult", but we don't have any secret holy underwear. :) Also, tiny editing note: many folks enjoy seeing all reactors' faces as these lyrics hit you, so if it's possible to arrange it so we can see you both in diff bubbles while the video plays, that'd be awesome. I personally like more pauses mid-video as you go through a song (esp for story songs like Jenny/Screech or the Money Games), but many others prefer fewer mid-song breaks, so please do whatever feels right for you.

Hello and welcome to the RENiverse. Let me introduce you to... Ren Gill, he is a 34 year old Welsh native (Wales from the United Kingdom, specifically from the Island of Anglesey off the northwestern coast of Wales) and currently resides in Brighton, England (a southern English Channel beach town with an insanely active busking [live street performing] scene). He has been performing since he was 12 years old. He is entirely self-trained. He speaks native Welsh, English, French, and I do believe a bit of Italian, IIRC? He is exceptional at the guitar, piano, and vocalisation. He is a totally independent artist who has no record label to represent him or, more importantly, control him. He is a rapper, a multi-instrumentalist, a producer, a singer-songwriter, a composer, and truly the definition of genre-less. He can do any genre, produce any sound or beat, and he can do it all for nothing. No song is like another, no beat is the same, no way to judge anything based on what each song is. Again, it must be repeated: he is SELF-trained and has had very little formal training for his music or productions. Everything Ren does is intentional. Every aspect of every piece is thoroughly scrutinized, studied, considered, composed, and dismantled before anything comes out and that perfection comes through during recording or filming. He is a Master of live one takes and his team is one of the best in the world, despite how small, even tiny or non-existent, his budgets are. Almost all the money he makes either goes to his ongoing Lyme Disease treatments (of which his medications cost literally thousands of quids/dollars) or to the projects he has in mind. I will state that Ren is not religious. He is spiritually agnostic, though does come from a Catholic background. He considers religion important to at least acknowledge and utilise as part of his imagery because of its representation within humanity. At the age of 19, he contracted Lyme Disease from a tick bite he received while on a trip with his friends. He was misdiagnosed with depression, bipolar disorder, and chronic fatigue syndrome, which led to severe psychosis, for several years until he was properly diagnosed by a Swiss physician. Due to not receiving the appropriate treatment for Lyme Disease within the very short time frame after contraction, the disease has ravaged his body and mind, causing permanent brain damage, severe issues with digestion, sleep, nerves, and various other health problems. It caused him horrendous, chronic, violent pain to the point of being bedridden for years. Music is the reason he has survived. He had originally signed to Sony Records prior to contracting the disease, then when his condition became severe, he lapsed in his ability to complete his contract and both Sony and Ren agreed to end his contract. He has been independent ever since. I'd like to provide some cultural context for this artist from another extremely talented artist: This is what the Irish folk rock artist Sinead O’Connor posted on social media after watching Hi Ren: “Holy motherfuckin SHIT! Someone just showed me this at the weekend. This Archangel from like, twelfth heaven or somewhere, has only gone and made the entire history of songwriting and performing look like a three year old's birthday party at Burger King. Every song and or artist in history even Willie Dixon, Chuck Berry, The Beatles, NWA, Ice Cube, and even Bob Dylan, is officially relegated to class B. As are every actor in history or legend: living or dead, male or female. We all are now defunct." Posted on May 17th, 2023, 2 months before self-deletion in July 2023. Another massive compliment to Ren was when Andrew Lloyd Webber, one of the most creative minds of the last 200 years, finally saw Money Game Part 3 and stated on Instagram: "@RenMakesMusic is one of the most unique songwriters and storytellers I've seen in recent times. Hope to see this album at number one -ALW" Several other massive creatives have expressed their appreciation, experiences, and joy for Ren's music: Tom Hardy (major hollywood actor and one of Ren's favorite actors), Robbie Williams (fellow musician and Brit), Simon Jones (fellow musician and bassist for the Verve), Russell Crowe (major hollywood actor and an impassioned activist like Ren), Amanda Palmer (major hollywood actress). I recommend watching Sick Boi, Troubles, and the 'Chapters' from his RenMakesStuff (BTS channel for Ren) for a much deeper comprehension of his journey. Hi Ren was recorded live in the basement of an apartment building in Brighton, England. It was literally a crew of five people, cost 50 quid (~$62) to make, and the audio is entirely one take. The video is spliced across four one takes. It is recorded live with a lavalier lapel microphone, a portable guitar amp and recording device, three cameras, and Ren's laptop. He rehearsed this piece literally thousands of times before he even recorded the music video to provide certainty that he would get the guitar notes perfectly and his delivery as perfect as possible. This piece is a very personal one for Ren and was the first time in his musicianship to properly acknowledge his ailment, his journey, and his issues musically. He has hinted at it in all of his previous works prior to it, but this was the first time it was out in the open, purposefully. The 'Pig' from the beginning is an essential symbol in the RENiverse and appears in many, if not most, of his other music videos and media. It represents the corrupted and abused systems of the world that take and take and take and never give back to the people they are supposed to support: medicine, music, finances, trade, commerce, government, etc… There are actually four characters in this piece: the yodeller at the beginning and end (representing a call to aspirations), self (the calm and soft one on the 'right'), doubt (the 'evil' one on the 'left'), and hope (the one in the 'centre' near the end of the piece). The written poetry at the end of the piece is a very simplified summary of his real journey and represents his most primary belief system. Hi Ren is a continuation of Sick Boi, which is recorded live (though not a one take) in the same basement a few weeks prior to Hi Ren. It was also produced for practically no money and it represents his feelings on commoditization, greed, the healthcare industry, and the music industry in a generalised yet very specific manner. Hi Ren has received multiple nominations or wins for awards, has over 40 million views, and he has several million followers worldwide. He has other videos and songs with multiple awards, especially Money Game Part 3 of the Money Game trilogy, which has won several dozen awards. Ren had the #1 Album (Sick Boi) in the UK in 2024 and reached the Billboard Top 200, beating out Drake and Rick Astley, two of the biggest names in music, for nearly 3 weeks straight with virtually no airplay or any of the traditional methods of commercialised music. Just through sheer community and streaming, Ren beat out two of his inspirations in his home country. That's incredibly impressive. A fellow RENegade really summed up the experience of Ren in a, imo, perfect way. From KMac70-Rex on UA-cam: "You are among the special ones whose life has been profoundly changed-there's no going back. While many reactors recognize Ren as a remarkable artist, for some, he’s just one of many they react to before moving on. But for others, Ren's music resonates on a much deeper, profoundly intimate level. His songs feel like conversations with a close friend-raw, honest, and cathartic. It’s this rare ability to touch the core of human experience that makes his artistry so impactful. Ren's willingness to bare his soul fosters an authentic connection, allowing us to relate to his music on a deeply personal level. Through his lyrics, he captures the nuances of life in ways that make us feel seen, understood, and, most importantly, not alone." There is life before Ren and then there is life after Ren. Welcome to your life after Ren. Have fun! Welcome to the RENegades and the RENiverse. Much peace and love to you. ^^ <3

Welcome to the Renegades, where every feeling is welcome. Come and share with us!!

His name is Ren Gill and his father is on youtube but I haven't seen anything by his mother. All I know of her is she was a piano teacher.

Fellow ex Mormon and Ren (Renagade) fan here. You will find a treasure trove of good music in the Ren catalogue of goodness.

You can't put him in one category or that he is like someone. He is like everyone but on a higher level of creativity. He is already one of the best creatives our lives have ever listened to.

Renegades: I swear we aren't a cult, just a book club.